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heard u like certain words ^^<3

JDJEBDJJSJW THANK YOU!!!! I LOVE U TOOOO X3 <333 I hope you're having an amazing day and this teeny tiny drawing is SO SO FUCKING ADORABLE X3 HELLO BLUE LITTLE BLOB I LOVE YOU TOO YOUR SIGN IS SO ADORABLE

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I think hearing the words "I love you" are some of the most powerful words my brain can comprehend and any time I hear them it makes me feel soft and squishy and really really like myself more than any other time on this planet. These are words that I absolutely live on and give me the energy to get through all of my days x3

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guys can you BELIEVE my professors rejected this illustration of litle sharks for my college project i am devastated

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All of the Prehistoric Pride guys in one collective post to celebrate pride month. Choose your fighter and have an awesome time :D

More suggestions are always welcome, I sadly was not able to cover everyone, but I will do more of these in the future!

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so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation. the goal, for them, was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-deprivation that so many of us learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

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Me when Hoid showed up in the last 50 pages of Elantris:

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Weakness Before Strength

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JINX by Amin Manaaa

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“What if we could let go of the binaries of good or bad, beautiful or ugly when talking about feelings?

What if we could see all feelings as necessary arrows, pointing us towards needs that are met or unmet?

What if we looked like the hard, messy, so-called ugly feelings with curiosity and compassion, rather than repressing them out of shame?”

(via)

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i love you trans women I love you transfems I love you trans girls

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Coming across world hoppers in the cosmere is so funny because they'll be like "People here are so weird about women's hands. You should be normal about it, like me." But then they're like "Where I'm from we eat metal and worship a serial killer."

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Stormlight 5 has been completed at 491,000 words.

Brandon Sanderson: The last book [Rhythm of War] was 460,000 words, and it was the longest they could print at the time, but we were able to squeeze a little extra by going and being like, “Alright, how big can we literally physically get it?”

They said somewhere around 489…so we’ll see… we are squeezing every bit of space into this book that we can.

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HAPPY PRIDE EVERYONE!

I made some cute stamp pride stickers this year, partially because I've been meaning to open a sticker shop and partially because the idea of fruit and flower stamps colored by pride flags was TOO good to pass up!

If you wanna help out a fellow queer creative out and get some SUPER cute waterproof holographic stickers in the process for only $6, check out my ko-fi shop!

These are sent out in regular USPS mail so no tracking but it also means free shipping, and yes that includes outside of the US!

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Progress Update On The Linux System!

To recap: I asked Tumblrs Linux Nerds (affectionate) to help me pick out a Linux OS for an old gaming laptop to use as a drawing machine.

Someone responded I should install what I like just to make people upset.

I searched for Linux systems under this premise and found a Debian based install no one mentioned called ElementaryOS. It was chosen because the creator is apparently trans. No other reason other than sister solidarity online. I made a bootable USB. Installed the OS. Encrypted the system because it asked me to.

And installed Krita on it.

I then proceeded to draw Shork.

This is the progress pic:

Look at her.

She is ugly.

I love her.

I will make her prettier.

That is all.