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everyone talks about cutting off a toxic parent

but no one ever talks about the pain of wanting a parent but knowing yours cannot love you the way they should

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I wish I could do one thing for once in my life without overthinking it in every way possible

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i love tumblr.

its the only place where I can openly go insane and say things that i would never tell my therapist and a stranger on here will be like, “same/mood”

and then you all move on with our day

if thats not real community

idk what is

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Do you ever feel like you’re just convenient?

You’re the convenient friend, convenient time pass, convenient relationship, convenient option for everyone.

You’re the person people hang out with because you’re easy, and always eager because you’re always just so desperate to feel wanted and not alone, but really you’re just convenient.

You know you’re not special, and that your spot in their life will be easily replaced and that they��d much rather someone else in their company- but again you’re just convenient. You’re the convenient option. The always available option.

I’m the friend who has best friends but isn’t the best friend. I’m the convenient friend. I’m the lover who falls in love but never the one being loved. I’m just the convenient route.

Im the ‘never says no’ friend. The ‘easy to take advantage of’ friend. The ‘can you do me a favour?’ friend. I’m the ‘useful until no longer of use’ friend. I’m the ‘I want to do something but everyone else is busy’ friend.

I’m the butt of the joke friend. I’m the punching bag friend. The forgotten friend. The one who’s feelings aren’t considered because I’m the ‘she’ll get over it’ friend.

I’m just the easy and convenient friend.

And that’s my own fault, thinking always being available, always being easy and giving more of myself will finally one day deem me worthy in someone’s eyes. Spoiler alert - it doesn’t. I’m still never enough.

I’m the ‘smile through the pain’ friend because being this friend hurts.

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I can't help but to feel a bit salty/jealous of people who have friends to talk to and hang out with. And I am also angry that I had to be dealt such a shit hand at social interaction. Cant wait to be done with this life. Tired of always being sad, depressed, and lonely. One day I won't have to anymore. I find nothing exciting or happy about my life anyway.

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Magic Kingdom

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do you ever think you're special to someone, but then you see this person acting the same with everyone else and you're just kind of

oh, alright

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POV: you have no one to talk to so you just google all your thoughts and feelings in hopes of finding some scrap of belonging

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Harry Potter🧙‍♂️

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“It’s my life. And it’s now or never.”

— Bon Jovi, It’s My Life