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ना जाने वो क्यूँ चुप था

ना जाने क्या छुपा दिया

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मेरी आखों में तुम्हारा चेहरा घर बना चुका है

मुझे जानना है कैसे तुमने अपने हाथों से सड़क पर घबराई बिल्ली को दुध पिलाया

कैसे तुम्हारे आखों के पास का निशान तुमसे मिला

हाँ, पता है तुम अकेले हो

पता है हर बार तुम्हारी मुस्कान कुछ आधी अधूरी है

पर मैं भी तो तुम्हारे जैसी हूं;

मुझे तुम्हारा पसंदीदा गाना जानना है

जानना है क्यूँ तुम आसमान की taraf देखते हो

हर बार ग़ज़ल सुनते समय

मुझे तुम्हारा गुनगुनाना सुनना है;

मुझे पता है तुम थोड़े उदास हो

थोड़ा घबराए

थोड़ा सा अपने कमरे में रखे फूलों के जैसे मुरझाए हो

पर में भी तो तुम्हारी जैसी हूं;

हाँ मुझे पता है तुम्हें अपनी कवितायें सुनाना पसंद नहीं

बिना सुनाए भी तो खुदको तुम कवि बुला सकते हो

अपनी हाथों की लकीरों पर सूखे खून को

चित्र और खुदको चित्रकार बुला सकते हो;

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bdsm (being dead sounds magnificent)

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leave things a lil better than you found them.

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um we didn’t want to be rude but you do bring a strong restless spirit vibe to all the functions. we don’t think you’re haunted we actually think you might be the ghost. but we didn’t want you to be sad so we weren’t gonna say anything

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-5

wdym ill be 20 this year im literally -5

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tired of writing about the insufferable sufferings

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eat me alive tonight/ eat away my pain/ my shame/ anything that screams that i was here/ swallow away the air i breathe/ gently maybe/ choke me to death/ im running/ my legs dont know how to walk slowly/ running away before you can tell me youre gonna leave/ a coward/ a miser in feelings/ wring my heart away/ im ready to surrender/ doors to my house are open wide/ come inside/ steal away that isn't yours/ that was once mine/ not anymore/ this is my note/ like a dream/ watch me pass you by/ like a memory/ let me fade away slowly/ eat away my thoughts/ if you can/ eat away my infatuations/ hear me out for a minute/ ask the big start/ end is near/ sharpen your nails/ how to fight loneliness/ how to end it without ending it/ how to fly away like a migratory bird/ i need answers to my questions before it's too late/ for me/ it's been too long/ tell me if youre gonna miss the parts of me i never showed/ tell me in hush voices/ how youre gonna erase me/ i want to/ bleed on the bed i was born/ in the same room let me tie my head to the ceiling/ this is a lil bitter/ im sorry but they are not coming back for you/ knives are out/ one on my throat/ staring right into my eyes/ do you see/ fear or something bigger/ like a want that lingers/ my fingertips are leaving the marks behind/ hush me down to my room/ slowly lay me down/ tonight is the night/ tomorrow is not coming around/ paint on the floor is spilled over/ paint on the walls all dried up/ a liar/ i am/ i want to be but i cant/ i wouldve been but i wont/ everybody is gonna go sometime

ask the big star, end is near

ask the big star, end is here.

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businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful businesses doesn't make our lives meaningful

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I miss my idiot gf

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कुछ अजीब सा एहसास है, जिंदगी अधूरी सी

खुद की कोई पहचान नहीं जिंदगी मजबूरी सी

(2018 me was going through smth fr fr lol)

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listening to deftones and contemplating death

take me one more time

take me one more wave

take me for one last ride

im out of my head

tonight

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real.