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self reflection: mixed income friendships

this is an interesting topic i wanted to delve into; mixed income friendships are a huge challenge in your 20s.

i feel it's common knowledge that everyone is in different stages in their 20s. some people live with their parents, some are in school, others are getting married & having kids, some people are even unemployed. with that being said, all these various stages of life are linked to your incomes & tax bracket.

i'm 25 years old and i currently work a full time job as a RN. i have my bachelor's degree and i've been out of school for 3 years, nearing 4. i still live with my parents but i make a relatively good income. i am single. all my friends are in the same age cohort and i have 4 close friends.

friend #1: full time accounting job with a bachelor's degree, living at home with family, single

friend #2: full time business agency job with a bachelor's degree, currently in school for an accounting license, living at home with parents, single

friend #3: no degree, currently enrolled in a college level health admin program, working a part time job at her aunt's shop, living at home with family, single

friend #4: bachelor's degree in nutrition, currently enrolled in a college level marketing program, working a part time job at a cafe, living at home with family, in a relationship

as you can see, we are all in very different stages of life. the only thing we have in common is living at home with our parents and families. people may not notice this, but these life circumstances have a huge impact on friendships and relationships. as someone who is currently quite stable in my career stage, i find it difficult to make plans with my friends at times due to financial and scheduling barriers (shift work vs a 9-5 job). i used to be quite resentful about this because i felt like i've been missing out a lot in life. i've went out of my way to do activities alone which i'm proud of myself for doing because i should be enjoying my life and precious time. however, it would be nice to share these memories with my friends. i try to accommodate for my friends and arrange plans which are more budget friendly but it does get repetitive. i am very understanding of everyone's situations and how things are out of their control but i can't help but feel lonely or like the odd one out. through the course of my 20s, i've become more comfortable with enjoying my solitude. initially coming out of high school, i found it hard to enjoy my time alone because my life was so revolved around my friends. as an only child, i don't have siblings to spend time with and with my parents aging, they don't have the same energy as their younger days. i would love to travel the world with my friends because i love their company so much but it's just not feasible at this time since everyone isn't at a point of financial stability. i've been to many concerts and theatre performances by myself, with friend #2 (rather than a group) or my parents but i feel bad to talk about these things with my friends as a group. i feel like i would be showing off so i keep these things to myself sometimes.

my RN coworkers make a similar income as me and they are generally around the same age. i've gathered with them outside of work a few times but they're more into the partying life which is not too much up my alley. i like a fun party and a gno now and then but not on the regular. moreover, many of them come from high income families so on my end, i feel like i can't relate to them as much. they talk a lot about having one to multiple trips a year, going to the cottage, and going on road trips. a lot of them rent condos and apartments downtown and i've never lived away from home before. in a way, i'm kind of distanced from them just because there is also an income gap. i grew up from a relatively low to middle income family. they grew up quite well off so i feel like the odd one out. i've never actively travelled until last year, myself and my parents don't have our drivers licenses so we haven't been out much.

i've been on both ends of the spectrum but mixed incomes make friendships and relationships hard. your 20s are an interesting time because it's the weird transition between being like a grown up teenager who wants to have fun while also becoming a mature adult who's set in life. everything comes back to money unfortunately. having a good time costs money, getting a good education and home also costs money. money is different amongst everyone. in your 20s, money can be a huge barrier in friendships and relationships. mixed income friendships are challenging but they are also out of your control. mixed income friendships can work but they also don't always work. mixed income friendships can feel lonely too but it's important to remember that money can't always buy happiness.

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sagittarius sun in the 8th house.

it's time to delve into a spiritual analysis of myself, my sun sign, and my essence. my sun sign is placed in the 8th house of sagittarius. i love my sun sign and highly resonate with it, although the 8th house component intrigues me.

the 8th house revolves around taboo, transformation, death, sex, and the unknowns. sagittarius itself is a knowledge seeking sign, however this 8th house placement brings a darkness to that quest for knowledge. the 8th house is the home of scorpio, and being born on the scorpio-sagittarius cusp brings some intensity to my thoughts and emotions.

upon first impressions, i can be quite reserved; quiet at times. i also have a constant rbf and seriousness to my personality. i'm always viewed as a calm and collected individual, despite raging thoughts in my brain. i do wonder a lot about the unknowns of life and deep, dark concepts.

when socializing, i'm not the type of person to open up about myself right away. i feel i have an allure which makes me mysterious and enigmatic. i do have a bright personality which shines when i'm with loved ones and people i'm close to. however it's not evident to the naked eye when i'm with other acquaintances. i'm not a huge fan of small talk, unless it's with acquaintances. when i'm with close friends, i do enjoy deep and meaningful conversations. i have some secrets which i keep to myself; secrets i don't share with family or my best friends. as a result, i feel like there's a complexity to myself which is interesting to break down.

topics such as psychology, philosophy, english, science and history interest me because there is a lot to reflect about in the past and the future. i also feel like i'm going through constant transformations. every couple of months, i feel like i have a new personality or element about myself that i've uncovered. i love evolving and undergoing change. it's interesting seeing my self growth over the years.

having sagittarius in the 8th house is an underrated placement imo. i think the 8th house enhances the natural spirit of a sagittarius in a way. sagittarius is always looking to learn new things and wondering about the means of life and the self. i enjoy solidarity and being alone and this is something that is seen with sagittarius placements as well as scorpio placements. however i do enjoy company with groups of people as well, it's all about a fine balance.

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update on tiktok ban.

it's a joke that tiktok got banned for maybe 12 hours or something like that as a tactic to get the people to be all for the us government. tiktok is clearly seen as a threat and it's scary how this is all a ploy to get control over the people and this social media platform. tiktok is a beautiful space and outlet for people to connect, create and explore. now that it's returned in the us, it's odd how content and search prompts are being censored. peoples' fyps have been changing in the us as well. glad to have our american friends back online although i'm not sure if it's temporary or not. all i have to say is that i pray for the us as it's sad to see history repeating itself (if any of you have been watching the news lately). it's terrifying to see fictional, dystopian, utilitarian worlds from books i've read come to life. society is moving backwards. rip.

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my thoughts on the tiktok ban.

as a canadian, i was shocked to hear this morning that the us actually went through with the tiktok ban. i've been an avid user of tiktok since covid and i'm appalled at how americans are losing such an amazing platform filled with creativity and community. losing basic rights to freedom of speech is very sad since we have come so far. i've discovered so much about myself through tiktok and it's led me to so many new music artists, content creators and little moments of happiness. tiktok is honestly my comfort app. i don't follow any friends on there and i feel so at peace commenting, posting and interacting with random strangers.

the tiktok community will drastically change without having our fellow american users. this morning i've already had an influx of content on my fyp from canadian and australian creators. in a way, i'm excited to see how tiktok changes over the next little while as my fyp has been curated to mostly american content. i feel this is likely the case with many other users. i haven't posted any content since dec 2024 but my tiktok is revolved around violin & guitar covers. i'm nervous but excited to see how my following and outreach will evolve. my current viewers are mostly from canada and australia anyways, so a lot may or may not change. i'm not a huge account by any means, i have less than 100 followers. although, i do get a decent amount of views and likes on my posts. we will see what tiktok brings for us in 2025. i'm motivated to start posting again since i was busy over the holidays and also got sick at the beginning of this year. i'm hoping the events which occurred in the us don't happen to us here in canada. cheers to tiktok! thank you for being such a safe space. i hope other regions of the world get the opportunity to shine on this app!

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LYRICISM #10: training season - dua lipa

are you someone that i can give my heart to? / or just the poison that i'm drawn to this is the introspective process of debating whether you should get romantically involved with a guy. i like you a lot but you're not good for me, you're toxic. just like poison. are you someone that i can trust and open my heart up to?

but if you really wanna go there / you should i know i... / need someone to hold you close / deeper than i've ever known / whose love feels like a rodeo, knows just how to take control if you really want to get romantically involved with me, these lyrics are explicitly saying what i want. i need someone who can hold me tight and knows me at a deeper level, nothing superficial. i want a love that can be chaotic but as a man, you should know how to manage difficult situations when things get challenging.

when i'm vulnerable, he's straight talking to my soul / conversation overload, got me feeling vertigo when i open up, you as a man need to understand me and acknowledge me as if you are me. i need a partner, an equal, a twin flame. too much conversation and flip flop back and forth can overwhelm me. yet at the same time, if you communicate well i can also get a good kind of vertigo as if i'm lovesick for you.

are you somebody who can go there? / cause i don't wanna have to show ya / if that ain't you then let me know yeah / cause training season's over are you someone who can check all of these boxes? i'm sick and tired of being manipulated and having to explain and show you want i want and i want i need. if you're not able to do the bare minimum to even proactively get to know myself and my needs, i'm over it. just tell me because i don't want to waste my time and have to literally explain my needs to you. i'm not going to train a man how to be my boyfriend. it's over. i'm done with that.

i tried to see my lovers in a good light / don't want to do it just to be nice / don't wanna have to teach you how to love me right when you're in love, you try so hard to look at your lover/crush/boyfriend in a positive state of mind. but it's common courtesy in a relationship to be willing to explore various challenges, intimacy and boundaries. i don't want to have to be constantly explaining what i need in a relationship to my significant other. if you're not willing to do any of that, it's not worth a relationship.

can you compete? / now is your time / run when you hear that whistle blow / are you on my team? / or stuck in the sidelines waiting for someone to tell you to go? i could have so many contenders of a man who could ultimately be my partner. so this is your chance, are you willing to go out of your way, above and beyond to be worth it to me? are you willing to sacrifice everything to love me for me, understand me, know me, and be able to advocate for me? are you on my side or are you just going to betray me? so this is your chance, when you hear the "go ahead," are you going to win first place for me? are you going to give it your all? or are you just going to chill in the back and wait for the coach to tell you to man up and step up your game? you tell me. i don't need a loser.

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LYRICISM #9: the prophecy - taylor swift

excited to get back into lyric interpretations again!

thought i caught lightning in a bottle / oh, but it's gone again catching lightning in a bottle is a metaphor of catching something electrifying yet impossible. how is it that you caught something so exciting in such a confined space? lightning is quick to react, so just as quickly as you caught it, you lose it just as easily. that's how it feels with any chance of love.

please i've been on my knees / change the prophecy / don't want money / just someone who wants my company all a girl wants is someone to love; a romantic partner in life. as someone who's been single basically all her life, sometimes it feels like you've been destined to be alone forever. being single is a blessing in some ways, yet other times it feels like loneliness is what's been laid out for your lifepath. it's scary. ngl, there are times when i've just been like god, when will it be my turn to experience real love?

and i sound like an infant / feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen / a greater woman stays cool / but i howl like a wolf at a moon the amount of times i've asked god or spirit or whoever when will it be me? a lot. the amount of times i've prayed is probably a nuisance just like an infant or a howling wolf. the amount of times i've begged has drained my pen dry. every other woman in a relationship seems like she's chill, she keeps calm. she basically gets her partner to walk over to her with no questions asked.

but even statues crumble if they're made to wait / i'm so afraid i sealed my fate / no sign of soulmates statues are so beautiful and timeless. they last for centuries but everything has an end, so it's inevitable that these beautiful structures will break down. just like me. i feel like i've been waiting forever for an endless love but i can't help but worry that it's been engraved in the stars that i'll be alone for the rest of my life.

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just some thoughts, i love how relatable music is. stay tuned for my future lyricism posts of songs i resonate with!

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hello 2025!

hello 2025!

i'm excited for a fresh new year and awaiting what's to come. manifesting a year of positivity and prosperity. hoping for amazing memories with friends and families. i can't wait to see the ways in which i grow this year. i hope to face any hurdles that challenge me and learn life lessons to help guide me.

cheers to a great year!

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preparing for 2025.

with 2024 coming to a close, it's time to wrap up the year and begin introspecting for 2025. i've ticked off all my boxes for my 2024 new years resolutions which i'm extremely proud of. 2024 was filled with highs and lows. obviously my lowest point was suffering from a concussion which set me back for a few months nearing the second half of the year. my highlight of the year was getting to travel with my friends for the very first time.

my 2024 resolutions have set the foundation and groundwork for my 2025 resolutions. i'm super excited to see what this year will bring! manifesting that all my goals, resolutions and wishes will come true on today's capricorn full moon (dec 30); the last full moon of 2024!

exercise your mind i want to engage in more active learning and delve deeper into my emotions and thoughts in 2025.

journal (about anything) at least once a week; in 2024, i started this blog account which was a big step forward. i mostly used it just to rant and reflect about things. however in 2025, i want to be a little bit more consistent with using this account. i want to write about anything i want and even delve into my lyric analyses again.

watch a documentary at least once a month; as i've been out of school for several years and finally settled into my new job from 2022, i want to engage in more active learning. i now have the time and freedom to learn about anything i want; not what the school system or work enforces me to learn. documentaries are a great way to do that as i have flexibility in what i want to watch and they generally hold my attention span.

practice mindfulness daily; i want to get in tune with my mind-body-spirit connection daily as a reminder to stay grounded while also expanding my mind. some tools to achieve this goal would be: journal prompts, using tarot cards, answering ethical questions, and using the 1 min meditation app on my fitbit on busier days like work days. i've been gifted tarot cards and books so i hope to use these in the new year. i feel this goal is relatively broad but i want to be flexible with it so we will explore and see how it goes.

start decleansing broadly speaking, this goal is to eliminate the bad and introduce the good.

read for at least 30 mins a day (whenever possible); instead of high screen time right before bed, i want to try and prioritize reading.

reducing screen time & setting app timers; i set my instagram timer for 45 mins a day just a few days ago to prep for 2025. i want to avoid endless scrolling.

reducing negative content that makes you feel bad about yourself; i unfollowed, muted, or blocked any accounts or ex friends that bring my mood down. reducing my screen time is also a part of this component.

cut on processed foods and aim for healthier snacks; in 2024, i cut out on juices and sodas on the regular at home. my mom was leaning into pre diabetes so this change affected us as a family. as a result, i also shed a couple of pounds and don't crave sweets as much as i used to. i've also been buying less potato chips and salty snacks at the grocery store. i used to get something to munch on at least once a week. i also don't eat fast food as much. i want to maintain this in 2025.

listen to music in the mornings (when i'm able) to boost my mood; i love music so much and i find that on days when i blast my trifecta of harry styles/taylor swift/olivia rodrigo, i'm in such a better mood. even if it's only one song, i want to start my mornings with a bop! (aside early morning work days when i'm the only one awake and everyone in the house is asleep).

decluttering and project pan; i have so many products i have yet to use. i want to avoid buying things until i run out. or at least using the things i have instead of letting them just sit in my drawers to take up space.

happy new year! cheers to 2025!

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happy 25th birthday!

hey girlie pop, happy 25th to you! you're in your quarter life crisis era. wishing yourself the best 25th year of life. you've come a long way even if you don't feel like it sometimes. you're half way through your 20's and have been through a wild rollercoaster of life. spend quality time with your friends and family. just know that you are well loved. it's your season in sagittarius, so just know you are thriving! enjoy all the food and festivities. keep living, loving and laughing. keep staying true to yourself and don't people please for anyone. keep listening to all the music you love and watching all the tv & movies that make you laugh. take everyday one step at a time. enjoy the present moment and make each day count. pay attention to the little things that bring you joy. bring your spark to the world and keep being the real you. be your authentic self. don't think of yourself any less than what you are because you are a queen. congratulations for making it this far in life. you've leapt over hurdles and you're continuing to accomplish amazing things in your life. hope this year treats you kindly! enjoy and cheers to 25!

- myself; self love

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happy november <3.

i love november. i get excited because my birthday is on nov 23rd and lots of my friends have november birthdays as well. they're all scorpios and i'm the fiery sag in the group. november is when the autumn vibes truly hit and also the excitement for the christmas holidays. i love the cozy sweaters, hot drinks, fall leaves, warm ambiences and the cool weather. christmas is my favourite holiday so i get excited about christmas presents, yummy food, family gatherings and christmas carols. i love playing fall movies and tv shows, listening to cozy music and reading. november is just a pure month of happiness for me.

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self reflection: enjoy the present & slow life

i've been off work for roughly 2 months and this week i started my gradual return to work. with my concussion, i had to slow down these past few months and i haven't had this much time to myself since i quit my old job and transitioned to my new one back in 2022. back then, i had a month of nothing to do and i simply lived and enjoyed life.

aside from healing, i've been making use of slow mornings and taking the time to simply listen to music while drinking my hot morning coffee. i started getting into a workout regime again which i'm always inconsistent with. i went on a lot of walks, visited local businesses & small shops, and seen friends here and there. basically, i lived the past 2 months without a schedule or a routine to adhere to. so i would wake up in the morning and it would be my call to decide what i wanted to do for the day.

now, i'm getting back into my old work routine so it will start to get busy again. i'm feeling much better aside from having headaches here and there from too much cognitive activities or stimulation. this is a reminder to myself to enjoy the simplicities of the present moments & slow movements. i normally like to keep busy and on my days off from work, i like to try to plan things to do. i keep looking ahead into the future to see what's the next best thing to check out. nothing is wrong with this, but upon reflection i want to be more grateful and appreciative of the slow days where i have nothing to do. "nothing days" are not unproductive days. i want to spend more time on myself, my health, being mindful and taking care of my body, mind and spirit.

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rest in peace, liam payne.

the passing of liam payne has been truly a tragedy. after having some time to process this devastating loss, i can honestly say that i am in absolute shock regarding the series of events which have occurred.

one direction has played a significant role throughout my childhood and adolescence. my initial reaction was pure disbelief but my emotions didn't start to kick in until several days later. i started listening to one direction when i was around 11 or 12 years old, just when their career started in their up all night days. i was a huge harry & zayn girl back then but harry has always been my favourite. ever since the boys transitioned into their solo careers, i would say harry has been the one who i've always closely followed since the band broke up. regardless, having such a crucial and essential member of one direction simply disappear breaks my heart. all the boys had their own role and character in the band and one direction wouldn't have been the band it was without every single member. liam was such a joy and brought so much positivity. he was always "daddy direction." now listening to one direction's music, it hasn't felt the same since many of the lyrics had second meanings in relation to liam's passing. it also hurts listening to his voice knowing that he is no longer with us anymore.

obviously, there has been a lot of negativity online towards liam throughout the weeks prior to his death. it's just so shocking how much the internet and hurtful words can have an impact on someone. i think everyone knows deep in their subconscious that online bullying has always been a thing and people need to be kind on social media. however, now that all of this drama has surfaced, i think myself and many others are shocked at how cruel the world can be. especially since liam is so young and well known. i think the news just slapped everyone in the face and gave us a reality check that online bullying is still a real and relevant thing. we need to take it seriously because too many lives have been lost.

moreover, one direction was such a significant part of myself and so many others' upbringings that it feels like a huge generational loss. one direction was a big part of growing up and thought us life lessons. we've always had this strong sense of community. it's beautiful seeing everyone come together and support one another while mourning liam's loss. however it is sad that this unexpected reunion was related to something dreadful. i truly hope everyone can be more mindful during this horrible time and just be a little bit nicer to others. i send my condolences to liam's friends, family and obviously harry, zayn, louis and niall. i really hope they don't take the negativity towards them too closely to heart because it's been ridiculous seeing all the insensitive comments on their social media platforms. i wish all the directioners love and support as well.

as for you liam, thank you for all the memories and happiness that you brought me. my inner child is heartbroken but you and your spirit will continue to live on through your passion and your music. i will cherish everything that you and one direction has brought me. i know you were suffering and i'm sorry the world has been so cruel to you but just know you're in a better and peaceful place now. rest in peace.

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self reflection: "what life throws at you is not your choice"

when i returned from vacation, i was so excited for everything i had in store. then i got a concussion and i thought healing would be linear. i expected to be back to work in a jiffy. i was off work for about 2 weeks, returned to work, faced some challenges while on shift (specifically pertaining to short term memory and forgetting tasks), and now i'm stuck at home for i don't know how long.

with uncertainty, it holds a lot unknowns which can be exciting and anxiety provoking at the same time. initially, i was so excited for what was to come. i was going to teach a student and i was going to join a unit council. i didn't know exactly what all of this entailed but i was excited for this journey of career growth. then life got in the way and now, i'm here not knowing how long it will take me to get back to baseline. i don't know when i will get back to work. i don't know if i will miss out on the things i was so excited for. i found out that my student will be paired with someone else since my length of absence is unknown. it sucks just not knowing and having everything you were so excited for being taken away from you.

i've been trying not to delve into a negative whirlwind of thoughts. that being said, i've allowed myself to feel these emotions. i'm upset. i've thought back to "what if i didn't go on this spontaneous trip," "what if i wore my seatbelt," but i know i can't change the course of events. i've accepted that. so i got out of that mindset very quickly, knowing that thinking negatively like that would drive me mad. with all this spare time on my hands, it does get a bit boring. as someone who always likes having things to do, there isn't much i can do. i can't work, my friends and parents have work so i can only see them once in awhile, and right now i'm not getting paid so i've been trying to be minimal with my spendings. i've mostly been getting into some of my hobbies, like reading, playing instruments, watching movies, and going on walks. you can only do all that stuff for so long before you start to get bored of it. it starts to feel a little bit lonely too, even though i see my parents everyday and talk to my friends online everyday.

so i just have to wait this course, however long that will take. life has given me this experience to test my strength and resilience. life is filled with obstacles but getting through these obstacles will only build my sense of self. i might as well make use of all this free time and spend some time on me. i've been taking baby steps the past few weeks. life gave me a concussion, i didn't choose to get one. i'm getting better day by day but each day will lead to something better further down the line. i know i need to be patient and live in the present.

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my spiritual journey: analyzing my big 3

it's been a hot minute since i made my intro post to this series, but i haven't forgotten! i've done my own research and delved a lot into the world of astrology over the past year. i think it's a great way to learn and reflect about yourself.

sagittarius sun your sun sign is supposed to represent your core essence and energy deep within. i'd say i feel like i resemble a sag. overall, i'm a very hopeful, optimistic person who always tries to look at the bright side of things. i hate routine and absolutely love trying new things whether that is going to new places, trying new foods, doing an activity i've never done before. i love the outdoors, it brings me a sense of calamity. i love humour and laughing, i'm always one to be making sarcastic jokes and i love seeing funny memes and videos online. i can be very blunt at times or i just say things out of the blue. i tend to call people out on things as i am very observant (probably due to my scorpio mercury but will elaborate in a future post). i would say i'm very intelligent as i grew up reading a lot, learning new things and got decent grades in school, minus the time i had personal issues going on. my knowledge is quite well rounded about the world around me. i love hanging out with my friends and meeting new people but i also love my alone time. although i like to socialize, i get quiet around people who i feel don't match my energy or who i feel i don't really connect or resonate with. i'm not the typical "extroverted, life of the party sag." i'm more of an ambivert and i'd say i'm definitely more extroverted around people i'm comfortable with. that being said, i love having a good time and i'm down for a party and some drinks. i love karaoke and singing my heart out. i see life as an adventure and a journey to have fun. i don't like being around fake or superficial people. i have a talent for ghosting people and cutting people off. intimacy and vulnerability scare me because i'm scared of getting hurt and people knowing everything about me. i really value my independence and freedom. i hate when people tell me what to do or try to control what i do. i hate when people force me to do things i don't want to do. i don't like negative nancies. when i get sad, it's relatively short lived. i love being happy and i love things in my life and the people in my life who bring me happiness.

aries rising your rising sign is how you present yourself to the world and i resonate highly with this. i've always been a tomboy of a girl, who's preferred wearing athleisure and casual clothing on a day to day. i only wear dresses and girly clothing if i have to. physically, i grew up with a lot of acne and still have slight residual scarring (although my skin has been doing great lately!). i tend to have a bit of a reddish flush at times. i have very broad shoulders, with a slight muscular build. growing up, i loved getting down and dirty and playing outside. i was the kid always running outside at recess. i loved playing on the monkey bars, trying to do little flips on the bars. i loved running around and playing on the slides. i got into lots of accidents as a child (i split my lip on the ice when skating, had a black eye from playing soccer, had a giant brick thrown at me as a kid, had lots of scrapes and bruises, had a ton of blisters from the monkey bars, ripped off my toenail from falling off my bike). as per my last post, i got a concussion from a near car accident so i'm still getting into these situations. personality wise, i am definitely an initiator and i thrive when i start new things. i suck at finishing what i start though. or just forget about things (but i think my gemini moon contributes to this since i can be all over the place). i like making the first move in many aspects of my life; career wise, this includes taking initiative and going out of my way to do certain tasks, or seeking new opportunities. socially, it involves me reaching out to friends to plan get togethers or starting the planning process. on a personal level, it involves me starting new things such as this journal blog. recently, i've been finding that whenever i start and initiate new things, i tend to attract more abundance in my life and this could be related to my sag sun. i've levelled up in my career and finally got to travel this past year and it was from me making my own moves and putting myself out there. i've also experimented with my fashion style lately and have been loving how i look in a leather jacket. i think eyeshadow (especially warm brown/red/orange/nude based looks) suits me and make my eyes pop. i've also been playing around with somewhat bolder lip colours (reds here and there, dark browns). i've been told i have a calm presence and that i look like i'm unphased by anything (especially at work). i've also been told i can be a bit intimidating or scary or just have a rbf.

gemini moon your moon sign is your inner world and emotions. cue the credits for my blog username. as a gemini moon, i am internally restless and i'm always thinking about something or have something in mind. i always have that little voice in my head talking to me about stuff. it's crazy how some people don't have that little voice. my friends think i'm adhd sometimes because i can be so restless and all over the place. i think because i'm comfortable with them, my inner thoughts and emotions can exhibit themselves physically. i bite my nails a lot, i'm always touching everything, and sometimes i have my leg just shaking or i need to fidget with something to keep my mind occupied. i feel like even in the way i type, i feel like i'm rambling on and on and on about stuff. i'm a very good communicator and i value communication in friendships and relationships (even though i've never properly been in one). when it comes to my thoughts and emotions, i think talking them through helps to calm my nerves. that's partially why i started this blog, because i don't like opening up about these kinds of things to people. this outlet allows me to do that and get my thoughts out. i am very witty and personally i feel i can be quite charming and charismatic at times. i feel i can be two faced at times in the sense that i say something and do the complete opposite. or i can act one way and do a complete 360 and act the total opposite. i love change and adapt well to change in my life. also believe that the angel number 555 resonates with me (this number represents change). i don't like boredom and i always need to be doing something. if i am home all day, i cannot just sit on the couch today, i need something to actually do. people say i'm a chill and easygoing person to talk to once they get to know me. i think i give off don't mess with me vibes due to my aries rising but then people are like oh hey! she's really sweet.

[blogofageminimoon]

self reflection: life update

hey me, it's been awhile since you've written on here. a lot has changed in the last month and a bit.

congratulations, you've finally got the chance to travel. the montreal trip was planned about a year in advance so you knew it was coming. guess what? you had a lot of fun. you got to immerse yourself in a different environment and took in all that you could. you got to share this opportunity and make special memories with your very well loved friends. mind you, there were some conflicts along the way which are bound to happen in a group trip, but you still made the most of it. you got to experience various cultural differences and used those insights to compare how it is living back home. you explored new places, learned new things, and lived your life. those conflicts are learning experiences for the future trips you hope to take with your friends.

you also took a big spontaneous leap. you decided to go on a last minute calgary & banff trip with your friend 1 week before the actual trip date. moreover, it was with her boyfriend and his peers who are complete strangers to you. you came back from montreal, slept the night, woke up the next morning, packed for calgary and left the same night to go out west. it was a wild adventure and you knew nothing going into this trip. you didn't know who you were going to meet, you didn't know where you were staying, you didn't know the trip itinerary. you just jumped in and went with the flow. and you had a spectacular time. you got to experience canadian nature and hike various trails you thought you would never get to go to. you got to witness unreal, beautiful scenic views of the rocky mountains and some of the bluest, clearest waters you'll ever see. you learned about a different side of canada and it was totally unplanned. on this trip, you also got a concussion during the road trip on the ride home from banff but you're okay. a little lesson learned, to ALWAYS wear your seatbelt but life happens and unexpected things good or bad are bound to happen in that life. all you can do is take it, move forward and learn. you've met new people and got to socialize. you've gained new perspectives from these people. you don't know if you will cross paths with them again, but it is an experience you will remember nonetheless.

now you are back home. you were supposed to back to work the same evening your flight landed back home. your body crashed and said no, and that's when you found out you had a concussion. so now you've been stuck at home, off from work, limited to only your local neighbourhood. your mom tells you that you need to slow down and your dad tells you that you should space out your vacations in relation to going back to work.

you know what? sure, i've been on the go go go lately. but i had fun. and i lived and learned and i'm young and i still have life to keep living. i don't have any regrets. i'm bored out of my mind right now as i'm typing this entry. but i'm alive, happy, healthy and breathing. i'm in a good headspace. i'm excited for what's to come. i'm in tune with my spiritual self. i think everything that's happened this past summer was for the better. cheers to a smooth recovery, you're doing great and getting better day by day. you're accomplishing more every minute. you can now use this experience to empathize better with your patients at work. just keep living, and wait for what the future holds for you.

career wise, you are also levelling up. you're going to start precepting your first student, although it's somewhat on hold from the concussion. but don't worry, it's coming! you will get to meet her and you are excited. it's a new challenge taking a student, probably getting a heavier workload, all while healing from a concussion but you got this. you also got an email that a unit council is starting this fall. you reached out because you are interested. you are hopeful all will be well. timing is everything, everything is starting to happen now and things finally feel like they are moving forward and upward.

so from me to me, i am thankful and grateful for everything that happened and everything that will happen. i am just waiting to see where life takes me next. i was in a low mindset for the past few months but things are getting better. ups and downs are a part of life. :)

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p.s. you you need to make another astrology entry based on these experiences. fyi just a reminder, don't forget.

[blogofageminimoon]

lack of reciprocation.

i've always had a small circle of friends but lately that pool has gotten even smaller. i'm quite wary about who i fully open up to because i don't like fake, superficial people.

i love my friends but lately i just feel like i'm putting in all the effort in everything. i'm naturally the initiator type of person but i'm not very good at finishing what i start. this goes for a lot of things. in the context of my friends, i'm usually the one to initiate meet ups and start the planning process. my friends are down for activities and it's not like i'm being mistreated by any means. i just hate how i'm the one who is always doing all the work. we planned a girls trip and we are very behind on the planning process. i started our itinerary and i left room for them to add things, make suggestions, make changes and no one has touched anything.

i have another friend who is just very hard to make plans with since she is very particular. she's very strict with her money & spendings, she doesn't like to do a lot of things and is very picky, she prioritizes school and work over meetups (which is valid) but we mutually agreed to a pizza date sometime this month. i sent her the dates that i'm free to hang and she hasn't gotten back to me. at this point i just feel like she doesn't even want to hang out. this isn't the first time something like this has happened.

i kinda backed off and i'm leaving it to the rest of the group to see if they even end up doing anything with the itinerary. worst comes to worst, i'll finish it on my own. as for my other friend and the pizza date, if she doesn't get back to me. well then i guess we're just calling it off.

it just sucks being the one who is always putting in the effort but isn't getting anything back. i just want to be on a mutual playing field for once. i want someone who will just give me what i give them in return. is that too much to ask?

[blogofageminimoon]

self reflection: things i'm grateful for

i've been MIA for a month on here. this blog or journal site is fairly new, but i have a habit of starting lots of new projects and dreaming up new ideas only to forget about them down the line.

just want to reflect on the little things in my life that i'm eternally grateful for. i get in my head a lot and often forget about simple things like this. it's these little things that keep me going yet it's always kept in my brain subconsciously. so here i am bringing these ideas to the surface.

i am so grateful and thankful for:

having a home to live in

being able to move my body and be healthy

having my parents with me, alive and healthy and able to support me despite our hardships and challenges in life

living in a country where i feel safe, have access to free healthcare, resources, activities to do, free of war and major political mishaps

my small group of my friends who have stuck by me

a well paying job where i feel valued yet still have my freedom and flexibility

food and clean, accessible water

financial stability, being able to support myself and give back to friends and family

life lessons; i've grown immensely from low points in my life and they've shaped me to who i am today

beauty of the earth and being able enjoy the outside; seeing flowers, animals in their habitat, rainbows, trees and everything mother nature gives us

being able to freely read, listen to music, and speak my mind without consequences

having access to education and being able to complete my 4 year bachelor degree, the ability to be a life long learner in multiple capacities

for being strong and having the will to push through and keep fighting through all the challenges i've encountered

i'm sure there's a lot of other things which are not coming to mind right now but these are just some things which keep me grounded. i've read back on some of my previous posts and although they have been quite negative and self conceited lately, i still have that little bit of positivity and optimism which shines through.

forever thankful for all the good things in my present life. in a world where myself and society (especially in a first world country) always seem to want more and more, it's important to make reflections like this and focus on everything in the now.