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Sept9ember

Today I feel at a loss, I feel like computer system on sleep mode, numb. Im so tired of cleaning up the mess Marie left me. Honestly I don't know what to expect when trying to talk to Alejandro after blocking me about the shit he said. tbh Jenni was right about him, quite a douche. By far the hardest of the 4 guys Marie told I liked them. Probably still thinks I do smh. Acting as if I'm wasting his time or something when he was the one calling me a nigger smh2. It was pretty obvious or whatever Ashley and him still believe about stuff she was lied to about. I'm tired being on the outside. Being probed and mocked at because its so easy. Marie is one of the most terrible people I've encountered. Such a twisted, manipulative, and selfish mind hers. She's created a fake world of deceit and illusion which she's believes herself. lies so easily as if its easier than breathing. I'm done. I need to breathe. smh3