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[blocky-wulf]

check it, my byf

https://blockywulf.carrd.co/#

i whipped this up last night on a whim, bcuz my feed looked kinda ugly with just the random list at the bottom!!

it has no password or anything but just a little bit of information on me and what i’ll be posting. lol

[blocky-wulf]

i ordered some new stim toys/fidgets so, hopefully, i can manage some of my concentration issues easily.

but on the topic of stim toys, it got me thinking about two of my past ones, of which one i can’t find and the other had gotten /practically/ destroyed.

i had an really fuzzy cat that was brown, with an white mouth, paws, and belly. i’m pretty sure she was a ty stuffed animal, but i can’t remember well. she also had an see-through amber bow and she was literally the shit.

i loved rubbing her paws on my face, and i’d hold her whenever i felt upset or just drained. she was more like an childhood toy, but she helped me relax when i was in a bad mood. she was also so heavy but i loved her, i’d hug her up and keep her close. i’d also usually put her tail in my mouth, and chew, because why not? she was a comfort toy, too. like my best friend. i’m not sure if she had a name, but i just called most stuffed cats kitty, just as a habit.

and the one i actually bought, the second one, was a chewy shark. i kept it with me constantly and i loved chewing on its tail because, well, it was softer than the body? of the shark. it was yellow and i’d purchased it along with an cookie necklace, but i didn’t bother it much. (too hard, it hurt my jaw a lot)

idk i just got thinking about stimmimg and the toys i used in the past and it’s got me feeling kinda sad, or melancholy. lol

- sal, 01.04.20

edit!

i think i found her, she looks exactly like the beanie baby spice, with a blue ribbon instead of brown! i wish i’d found that out before i went and spent it on different toys :(