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Written for @bsdladiesweek Day 3: swap (role.organization swap): Yosano in the Specdiv and Tsujimura in the ADA AU!

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Fyodor from that one chapter. I think this is the best shading I've ever done yet :p

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thinking two characters have had sex does not equal shipping at all… i dont have to like it i just know it happened

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When I like posts for a certain fandom and start getting recommended not solely similar posts but just the common denominator posts for the fandom (which is monogamous content for the most popular or canon ship)…. Get this away from me I need these guys to get polyamorous and have friends right now. I don’t care about them being gay in a solo soulmate manner!!!!

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sorry to all the “bsd is badly written” believers unfortunately there is no feeling quite like doing background research and having a lightbulb moment when you make the connection of why asagiri wrote a character a certain way

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until your last scene

“I’m going to kill you,” Thorfinn promises, hands spasming with his fury. “I’m going to put a knife through that throat and I’m going to make you regret the day you chose to unfairly win a fight against my father.”

“Come on, now,” Askeladd’s smirk dims, and his eyes harden. “When are you going to do good by that oath of yours and give me a proper fight?”

(You’re a Nordic warrior, aren’t you?)

Hating Askeladd is easier if you don’t think about everything else he does.

🪐 3.6k || rated T || askeladd & thorfinn

🪐 character study || relationship study

🪐 a gift for @jonphaedrus written under yuletide fic exchange 2024! super glad you enjoyed it ♡

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new Harukawa art…I’m levitating

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the below is excerpted from Ivan's conversation with Satan in The Brothers Karamazov, Sec. 4.11.9 (The Devil. Ivan Fyodorvich's Nightmare):

I, for instance, demand simply and directly that I be destroyed. No, they say, live, because without you there would be nothing. If everything on earth were sensible, nothing would happen. Without you there would be no events, and there must be events. And so I serve grudgingly, for the sake of events, and I do the unreasonble on others. People take this whole comedy for something serious, despite all their undeniable intelligence. That is their tragedy. Well, they suffer, of course, but...still, they live, they live really, not in fantasy; for suffering is life. Without suffering, what pleasure would there be in it—everything would turn into an endless prayer service: holy, but a bit dull. And me? I suffer, and still do not live. I am an x in an indeterminte equation. I am some sort of ghost of life has lost all ends and beginnings, and I've finally even forgotten what to call myself. [...] Mephistopheles, when he comes to Faust, testifies of himself that he desires evil, yet does only good. Well, let him do as he likes, it's quite the opposite with me. I am perhaps the only man in all of nature who loves the truth and sincerely desires good.

oh, so bsd!fyodor isn't a christ figure. he's a satanic figure, as projected by ivan karamazov. which makes sense, considering everyone calls him a demon. and how he behaves. and his role as an instigator and adversary. and his schism between selves. and his comment that perfection is boring because he can't observe man's karma through perfection. and his aspect on earth as a parasite incarnated in and through those who've killed. and that he suffers but does not live. and that time he convinced ace to hang himself. okay.

(natsume is a buddhist, and also a cat, for whom there is levity and significance in embracing the absence of inherent existence and nature. so i can understand, now, why V was so concerned with him in The Untold Origins.)

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kyouka on whiteboard!!!

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Bsd Ladies Week: Day 1!

Fantasy AU (Kyouka)

Dusting off the old witch AU

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BSD ladies day 2: Band/idol au!

I love Drummer!Higuchi so much, you don't understand 😔

Btw I really loved making these drawings <3

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“i want them to kiss” good for you! i want them tearing each other apart limb from limb just to feel something. i want them creating wounds and scars just to leave a permanent mark on the other. i want them poking and prodding mercilessly at each other’s most vulnerable secrets but keeping them nonetheless.

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“I would never,” transparently false, a hand lifted to her heart as if to pretend at being wounded. Then, lilting and displeased, “Anyway, I suppose it’s all fine to her when you have a pack of child soldiers to serve at your every whim, but I take a single girl to the frontlines as a nurse and— ” “It’s because of our deep and ever-lasting bond,” she interrupts. Stubborn, goading, ignoring both the expression Mori levels at her and the impending feeling that she’s about to have her windpipe opened by a scalpel, “It’s because we’ve known each other so long that a few mildly traumatized children are fair game. So is any of the torture. Sucks to suck.” She punctuates the statement with a long swallow of wine, fingers loose on her glass. Meditatively, Mori says, “I should’ve given Tachihara-kun a better plan.” Smug, “You could’ve tried.”

or: genderbending middleaged lesbians so they can be messy in each other's directions. post-canon Fukuchi wakes up in the Port Mafia's basement, Fukuzawa dead and her plan failed. read living like a loaded gun on ao3, and check out this wonderful piece of art attached to see Fukuchi being sad and wet and pathetic.

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I can't remember if I've posted about this before but anyway, on the topic of Tsujimura and abilities, since Yesterday's Shadow Tag isn't her own ability, and the light novel confirms that people can have multiple abilities, what if Tsujimura one day develops her own ability? My bet is on A School Frozen in Time, since its protagonist is ALSO named Tsujimura Mizuki, meaning that Tsujimura Bungoustraydogs could potentially be both a character and a writer (since it's confirmed that she's named after her mother)

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The ADA bought these t-shirts for them and Dazai is very proud to wear it 😭🙏

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Testing artstyle

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if i was gin i would be praying for atsushi's downfall every day bc imagine you have a weird brother who kills people and joins the mafia so you join too bc wtf we're siblings that's what we do and then he comes home one day talking about how his annoying ex-mentor said his new disciple was soooo much better. by that point i would start hating on pure solidarity AND THEN the new disciple nearly kills your brother and he goes into a comma and all and he wakes up even crazier than before BUT THEN the same fucking guy makes your weird brother promise not to kill anyone like wtf i started killing bc HEE was killing and now he doesn't want to do it anymore wtf man anyway AND THENN he goes on some mission so THE SAME GUY doesn't die or some shit AND DIES WHILE SAVING HIM. AND THE GUY LOSES YOUR BROTHER'S CRUSTY COAT SO YOU HAVE NOTHINNNGGGG actually i would hate both atsushi AND ryuunosuke i would be on that funeral like was it worth it did you get what you wanted was the dick ever that good girl fuck you AND WORST OF ALL your brother was DYINGGG THE WHOLEE TIMEEE and you didn't even know but GUESS WHO KNEWWWWW

gin should come out of this experience at least slightly homophobic. it's what they deserve