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reverse gatekeeping. I am on my knees begging people to engage with the source material

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ghostly figures can get so bitter

"Hyuna’s map isn’t just places on Earth, but that’s most of it. She had written little notes in squiggly handwriting, colored ink, by her landmarks, discussing research and treasures and stories and what she’d been told about them all. “We’re finishing it,” says Mizi. “The map. You’re coming with me.” Luka snorts. Just slightly. It makes Mizi’s lips thin and her blood race. “Sure,” says Luka, finally. His eyes sweep around the room. As far as Mizi knows, no one goes into this room but him. No one goes out, either, usually. “Sure. When are we leaving?”" Or: In the aftermath of Hyuna's death, Luka and Mizi follow her map to visit the places on Earth she never got to go to.

🍓4.5k || Grief/Mourning || Road trips 🍓Hyuna/Mizi || Luka & Mizi 🍓Written for @femslashbigbang's March monthly challenge, prompt: the places on our maps

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Sex will give you stds, friendships are fucking fake, relationships will cheat on you, family will disown you. Dostoevsky.. is forever

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i don't believe in legitimate promo posting <3 tldr veinxiao are all grown and weird about it. stream pretending to be the cat that got the cream.

okay fun version of the promo post now!! someone brought up the concept of vein and liu xiao meeting at an earlier age than i typically assume they have and i blacked out for six hours straight and woke up in a daze with my brain melted and 2k of genfic written. if i come back in another week with a sequel where veinxiao are all grown up and weird about it no one's allowed to look at me. rotate the liu siblings and fratricide-by-proxy with me in ur head btw. stream modern day cain on ao3 todayyyyyyyy.

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Some sskk doodles

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so. y'know the concepts of akutagawa with a neck scar post chapter 88.

WELL i'm starting to see atsushi ones, and given the side of his body atsushi gets the cut in, that would pass over the ones from the orpanage like. not covering them fully but crossing them. and i'm obsessed with that.

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need sigma 'im the normallest guy ever' bsd to work a normal job (cafe with lucy perhaps) so he can find out that he is not in fact normal in any respect whatsoever and that perhaps your two best buddies being fyodor and nikolai skews your perception of what normal is

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do you ever think about li tianxi and about how resurrection-at-a-cost could just be another extension of the lack of agency offered to her for her whole life. and then lie down facedown and make incoherent noises. i do. anyway honey, i've gone away is on ao3 for you to read todayyyyy, featuring many issues of the following kinds: food, siblings, and cannibalism. etc.

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I dont want to be exposed to varying and diverse fandom opinions I love my echo chamber #myechochamber

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A 15 shirachuu from October

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just so you know i know this dynamic is toxic and i'm not romanticizing it :/ i'm actually sexualizing it

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u should absolutely jump on doing platonic fakedating asks i think everyone should o7 so in spirit of that: (1) yosano + kunikida (2) gin + tachihara for the platonic fakedating game if you want (-kavi/blackwaves)

hehe let's gooo

yosano & kunikida

i adore these two as besties!!! that being said, i think it could start with either "pretending to be a couple to get intel for a case" or "these thing we both wanna do does couple discounts, so to pretend we go!!", but in both cases they end up repeating for the couple discounts part.

also, they've known each other for a while + would plan these stuff, so pulling it off's gotta be easy af for them.

and if they pretend to be not only dating but also married, yosano will call kunikida "hubby" as a joke even when they're not doing it.

gin & tachihara

i do in fact ship them romantically, but them being besties tm is also very entertaining to me, sooo.

given how they act more hostile towards each other when we meet the black lizard as a whole, it'd be interesting (and funny af) if higuchi/hirotsu/both of them's desperate plan to ease what's going on there is making them pretend to be a couple for an infiltration mission of some kind. again, desperate, but it works.

it also can be either the moment their friendship starts per se or when they actually get to admit out loud they're friends.

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not doomed by the narrative but saved by the narrative. yeah i know you'd rather die than keep suffering but the story doesn't actually care what you want. you have to keep going, even when it hurts. even being erased from existence won't stop you from being salvaged from the wreckage of un-being. get up. keep pushing. keep bleeding. keep living.

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ivan alien stage i love you. you have done many things wrong ♥️

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fandom approaches male characters from a watsonian perspective and female characters from a doylist perspective

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no one here is or should be following me for link click posting and therefore we should all be glad for a second that my link click thoughts are primarily going into insane character dynamics that are sometimes rooted in canon and sometimes not and that they are Not going into posts. etc. in some universe i am making posts about veinxiao's weird sex rituals that are real to me and assuming everyone reading has the background context of. they're real to me. and it is in the exact same tone as any textually-supported meta i have done about a bsd character ever. i am considering this today as i restrain myself.

it's so sad being obsessed with characters who aren't fan-favorites this is always the case but sometimes u are staring at the ceiling going wow. i should be sinking my teeth into a 10k+ well-written long fic about liu xiao that accepts a key facet of his characterization is that he behaves like he doesn't believe he's a real person. rn. and yet <3

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heiiii haiiii hellooo! for the fake dating ask game i implore chuuya and kunikida. also nikolai and dazai. and soutsuji ofc <3333

HELLO MOCHA SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY. AMAZING CHOICES YOU HAVE HERE SINKING MY TEETH RIGHT INTO THESE. platonic fake dating ask game

1. chuuya + kunikida

im not going to lie i have zero kunichuu thoughts just in like, general, but this is one the less disastrous results of fake dating i think. there's no way kunikida would agree to date even fake date someone for shits and giggles, so naturally: on a case. this goes less disastrously because chuuya is good at this, good at acting natural while keeping an eye out. kunikida is....less so, but chuuya inspires less anger in him, i guess? which is not to say they don't argue; they do, it's just less explosive and doesn't carry on as long because chuuya isn't willing to drag it out for longer than necessary and compromises on things as he sees fit. (he really is an angry 15yo around dazai....)

they look highly odd to anyone who does know them, what with kunikida looking so stiff and chuuya's smiles, or expressions in general, being very strained, but they do a....passable job? there are a surprising amount of things they can relate to, too—copious amounts of paperwork (listen, chuuya is a paperwork guy. you expect me to believe he's constantly at the scene?), wrangling their coworkers and subordinates into order they should get to complain about dazai in a weirdly fond way for a few minutes and dazai, listening over the earpiece, should feel very, very strange about it and such.

all in all it's not a horrible experience and kunikida vows he's never doing that ever again. chuuya just shrugs and goes well. part of the job i guess.

2. nikolai + dazai

oh my god the CHAOS DEMONS. okay this would probably be either the best or worst ever to fake date depending on who you ask. they're both highly enthusiastic about everything they're doing—dates, PDA in the office or whatever just to annoy kunikida and sigma, all of that. they're rather loud and giggly and are smart enough to not be too over the top with it, because then it would look fake and that is not what they're aiming for, but if given the choice, they'd definitely throw loud and exaggerated declarations of love at each other. you know. it's even worse because of dazai being in love with everyone forever and juggling like three different situationships at once. atsushi regularly wonders if he should be investing in headache medicine or something.

at the same time they're basically safe to let out in public, i think! of course they're....questionable, as usual, but not too crazy. in general they're likely to hold hands and all of that. i also think they'd make out where anyone else likely to shriek and wish death upon them would see (so usually kunikida or sigma. sigma learns to just walk out after a few days though.) importantly ranpo is extremely entertained by all of this.

i don't even know how it ends. in my head they continue doing this forever because it's so entertaining.

3. ayatsuji + tsujimura

SOUTSUJI RAHHH [they drag me screaming into the woods]

okay here's the thing. i don't think literally anything would change about them if they fake-dated.

they bicker and banter and argue the same as they always do, and it passes because nobody can figure out besides the real reason why tsujimura chooses to keep ayatsuji around when he so clearly gets on her nerves yet at the same time is different around him in a good way. ayatsuji, for his part. i mean. gestures. he sucks at hiding how fond he is of tsujimura regardless of what that love means to him.

i guess the only different thing would be an attempt at physical affection but this fails miserably because ayatsuji would rather chop off his own arm than act like he likes tsujimura in any capacity and tsujimura is not a very physical affection person to begin with, or at least, she's not used to it with ayatsuji. they give this up and default to their status quo: ayatsuji needling at tsujimura and enjoying this greatly while tsujimura snipes back. it works well enough to convince most people which is the intended goal here.

(if you asked me why they're doing this i'd tell you it's either a casefic or some kind of stupid bet. who knows.)

they're both so relieved to finally end their fake relationship. i do think that no matter what they feel for each other they're most comfortable with what they normally do, so life carries on and ango wonders if he should be trying to tell tsujimura that as disastrous as it was it passed for a reason but neither of them really seem to care, so he decides, oh what the hell. he's not going to touch that.

therefore soutsuji just end up doing their own thing forever. and i love that for them. gaiden adaptation when....