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so. a pandemic, huh.

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not everything is discourse sometimes people just are allowed to say things

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i hate that now that i’ve gone through an incredible heartbreak of getting broken up with by someone i love, that i can relate to tv so well in ways i couldn’t before

like i’m watching hte buffy ep when angel tells her he’s leaving. this is my first time seeing it after having experienced the heartbreak. 

she said “i’m just trying to keep from dying” and “i feel like i can’t breathe” and i know for a fact i literally said those things. like. it hits too close. 

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my stepdad keeps getting drunk and getting mad at me for looking at him like “the bad guy” or making him out to be “the bad guy”

here’s the thing tho

you are a bad guy

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Who Run It outfit and look 🔥

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hey if you’re not jewish and you’re making or reblogging all those “mark zuckerberg is really a robot/lizard” posts…….. don’t maybe

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it’s annoying when people talk about how representation has gone “too far” and their argument is like “what’s next?? a trans schizophrenic immigrant lesbian?? an adhd bipolar physically disabled bisexual?? a japanese-american ocd nonbinary asexual??” and it’s just like. all those people exist. i’ve met all three of those people–one of those descriptions is of me!–and the fact that it’s ~pandering~ to have characters like that really proves that you can only be marginalized one way at a time before people start calling it ‘excessive’. who i am isn’t too much for representation! if seeing a disabled person, a mentally ill person, an lgbt person, a person of color—or, yes, ALL OF THOSE THINGS DESCRIBING THE SAME PERSON— is REALLY enough to bring you out of the story, that sounds like a you problem. because those people exist in real life, and we should exist in fiction too.

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My favorite art created by/for and/or about Black people from the month of february! let me put y’all on. 

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fyi- the age cap in CMBYN was nasty and should not have been supported by the academy. but here’s an important thread about why you shouldn’t call it pedophilia. 

Oscars: we hate pedophiles!! Anyway Call me by your name is so brilliant!!

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I just have some worries, as well as some concerns that could potentially turn into outright fears. Oh, there they go. They are fears now.

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i don’t have my journal and i’m in new orleans so here i am. 

i miss being in love. like, it’s wild because three years ago that wasn’t something i thought i’d ever feel but now i’ve had love and i’ve lost love. and i miss it. 

Brandt and i are gonna attempt to be friends (supposedly but this’ll be the third time we’ve said that) after spring break. which should be interesting. i don’t even know how to feel about it because like, at this point... it’s almost been a year since we broke up. we’re graduating in 75 days. and then we’ll probably never see each other again. 

part of me feels like it’s a bad idea to hang out with them because like...there’s definitely still something there. not something between us, i mean on my end. i don’t love him. i don’t want to get back together. but when you’re with someone for 2.5 years... that doesn’t go away over night. like we haven’t even been broken up for half as long as the time we spent together. im not saying that there’s a magic number to reach but i feel like... i’ve kind of been beating myself up over the fact that i’m not completely 100% over him. like on the nights i get sad... which doesn’t ever happen without some sort of trigger which i think is important, but on those nights, i’m usually telling myself i’m stupid for still caring at this point.

but that’s not true. he was my best friend. he was my first love. we spoke nearly every day for 3 years and dated for two and a half. it’s not unreasonable to think there will be something still there. 

but i also think, out of sight out of mind. most of the times i’ve been upset about him is because of like... seeing him or hearing about something he did. i’m not gonna get any of that after graduation. 

so with that in mind, i’m not too worried about hanging out as friends. i mean, it might not even happen. but even if it’s hard for me... it’s only gonna be two months and then i’ll be free of him. 

i also wonder how we’ll even feel hanging out. when he broke up with me, he said ‘we’d both changed’ and i honestly thought that was just a line to ease the pain for me. but he has changed. a lot. we were in the same room before an NPHC meeting and i was listening to him have a conversation (not like eavesdropping, i was in there first and they were right next to me) and he’s just so... different. 

the man i was in love with does not exist anymore. i don’t know if that’s supposed to make it easier or harder. 

but yeah, as far as friends... it’s not that i could never see us dating again (i’m not saying i want to or would try, trust me there’s a point) only because there’s so much history. like we’d have a foundation to go back on. not saying it’s a good foundation, but it’s there. 

but if we met today. if i had no prior knowledge and only saw who he was from this point on- i would not date him. 

he’s just so much like his line brothers now. and... i like them. some of them are good friends. but like- we don’t hang out, really. i don’t know we ever would. id ont know. 

i wish i didn’t talk about brandt so much still, now, but i also know that healing isn’t linear and that you have to allow yourself to feel. so that’s what i’m doing. 

college is really going to be over in just two and half short months. it’s hard to believe that the girl who wrote the very first #textpostposse posts is about to have a degree and be a Real Adult.

but she will. 

i will. 

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2018 #Blackout Dates & Themes

Each date, we will explore a part of our communities.

On Mar. 6th, it’s our Anniversary/Classic Blackout. 

On Jun. 6th, it’s our PRIDE Blackout, where we highlight our LGBT brothers, sisters, and non-binary people.

On Sept. 6th, as we head back to school (or continuing learning via other methods), we want to highlight Education.

And on Dec. 6th, we will take a look back at 2018 and celebrate moments big, small and in between with our Rewind/Throwback theme.

We hope that you’ll take the time to reblog, post and share some of your thoughts and experiences with these organizations, or maybe share some new ones with us. We’ll looking forward to hearing what you have to say about what matters to you!

Reblog and if you have any questions, ask away!

P.S. - We have an announcement to make on March 6th that you’ll want to stay tuned in for. 

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SOS I told the girl I like that I want a butch gf and she said "I'm butch" and I got really flustered and went to go make dinner for us (bc I'm at her place tonight)

uhh are you sure y’all arent on a date right now?

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