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recent thoughts

i've had this in my mind the past month or two but decided to speak up about it on here since it's too much to write on other sites due to reduced character limits so i thought i'd throw it out here. lately i feel very fatigued from sharing my art online. at first i chalked it up to being very busy irl (fulltime job, hobbies other than drawing, socializing, etc.) but.. those are things i always do that never made me feel this specific way. so i've been thinking about it harder, and i think it is a lot of things really

mostly, the way the online landscape is for artists lately feels so dismal. like i'll share a piece and it makes me sad a little in my soul knowing that no matter what website i do that, it will be scrapped or used without my permission for ai. this kind of behavior makes it so that people don't view artists and art with proper respect. drawing and improving artistic skills is a lifelong journey. just a simple illustration takes several hours of a person's busy time. so to have that dismissed and just take people's art and put it into the ai feels so sad. even if you say not to do it, people do it anyway. it doesn't encourage me to feel like it's worth it to share my pieces

it also feels like it's hard to get people to engage with art deeply. because there are a lot of bots on websites and it's hard to see who actually engages or not. of course i deeply appreciate people who take the time to comment or tell me they like my art, i really do. but it can be hard when there's not a lot of that these days. i continue to post here for archival purposes but i continue to do it really because i'm also immensely appreciative and happy to have people leave comments, replies, ask questions, and engage people do here even though this platform is really dead and super quiet because that means the world to me. but i do wonder sometimes if i should just stop, not just here but altogether.

i miss the feeling of community. i feel kind of lost. i will never stop drawing, it's something i love to do no matter what happens regardless of showing people or to just myself, but i don't really get excited anymore uploading my art online as a whole and want to stop or delete my galleries maybe

anyway, that is what i'm feeling lately. i wanted to say something, maybe others feel this way too. let me know your thoughts

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AH! I love your art so much! Very inspiring, I appreciate your timelapse posts too! You draw Rouge so nicely, very beautiful, her charm shines through! And Shadow - my favourite, looks very cool!!! Handsome! Thank you for posting! Stay well! <3

awww thank you so much!! this made me really happy! lately i feel like stopping posting, but this makes me want to keep going. so thank you, wish you well (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

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if you're on there i'm on bluesky too! trying to use it more

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today is my birthday! 🖤🍰

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"are you well? do you have brain damage?"

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ツインテール

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