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Being Fat and having ED behaviours is the worst.

No one ever takes me seriously so I’ve never gotten ANY help and now it’s 10pm and I’m sobbing on my carpet b/c I ate “supper” but also so sad I wanna binge.

And I can’t even justify eating one thing even though I’ve had less than 500cals (not being specific) today.

I hate this. No one deserves this.

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Me: thinking I’ve been thriving for a while without falling back here

Me: sees my last post was only 6 months ago....

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Do you ever get the overwhelming desire to change everything about you and emerge a totally different person and then realize how much work and possibly it would take and just sigh heavily and continue with your life?

or is that just me?

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me when i catch myself admiring extreme thinspo that used to freak me out just a month ago

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Reblog if your pro recovery. Whether you’re in it or not

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Made it 3 days into the new year before I purged. :(

I was fasting but working an 11h shift so I had a snack and then I felt so guilty. Fuck me man.

I mean I’m sipping tea and I feel better now but I also fucked up my fast

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Well oneof you is lying

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me, drinking tea: pls leaf water….sage my body of the demons of my past…steam my colon…let me know peace

me, drinking coffee: I beg of u bean juice….cleanse me of the curse of sleep….make my heart beat like a tribal drum in ceremony….let me conquer this building

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I’m working with my co-worker who never stops snacking and offering me food. That’s fine. But my stomach won’t SHUT UP (and I ate breakfast and everything) I don’t want her to tell me to eat 😭😭

Anyone know how to shut it up?

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Saw this on Instagram and I’m like.. Bro, WHERE are you getting 0cal rice cakes. Hook me up mine are at least 45 😂😂😂

- but for real, every one of you deserves recovery!!! -

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accurate.

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I’ve lost 11lbs in 15 days. And part of my brain doesn’t think that’s fast enough but I gotta remind myself that’s like 5lbs a week which is still way more than healthy weight loss.

Also I’m proud cause I hit my first mini goal. :/

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Sure, being mentally stable is fun but can you do THIS: *operates on Caffeine and Nicotine alone*

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