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no tears left to cry (2018) dir. Dave Meyers

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Amy winehouse dance

You generate your feelings for me like a revolving door. Around and around you go. Giving caution to me to get her by your side. They never listen nor would they care though. But just know I stay cause I've got nothing to lose anymore and I've lost it all betting on you. moving me in and out of dark waters. Closing in on surfacing light. you're always looking for more to score but you can't seem to bait for life. Now it seems we can't ever get back to Madison and I dare say this is the ugly truth. You can't turn back time when you always skip a beat traveling to a memory or pipe dream that's not even a calling to you. you didn't put in the work so it's never going to work. Let them go softly and and instead of that dope Inject the gratitude for what you've got. gouge out the metaphors and waste not. Pretty words and rhymes don't make a good distraction for me this time. In fact they stab at my barely healed wounds whenever I recall our image in my mind or those sentiments you professed in that dark room with string lights. You were Lookin at me with that pearly cigarette stained grin my doe eyed soul looking back at you while I unraveled myself to that soulful rift again. I was really into it that time. I loved being your lollipop then. Twirling around for your affection was Fun. But being Mis guided by your attention made things come undone. Got tangled in the mess you created while your thoughts were in doubt. But getting stuck was my own decision it was always a choice of mine to get out. But I'd rather leave you in charge of my devotion and let sway to whatever comes into motion. For I've become too weary to figure out where to dance anymore or who's really worth dancing for. Your good enough for me even though you play with my emotions and give doubtful reasoning to my devotion. You had me at first glance and razor blade smiles. You let me go with phone call and a 30 day trial. After 2 years I'm still not the only one.

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i’ve got two moods:

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When you discover a new obsession.

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When you realise that you have to grow up

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Breakfast at Tiffany’s (1961)

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All my love

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#Holocaust

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I’m always scared that every feeling is going to be permanent.

Melissa Broder, So Sad Today (via anintimacy)

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There are dark hours and bright hours. You only want the bright hours. What kind of fool would not want that? You will be a million people before you get to the bottom.

Melissa Broder in Gigantic (via tracydimond)

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I’ve projected entire narratives on people that they are definitely not worthy of or able to live up to.

Melissa Broder, Mental Illness Happy Hour, ep. 273 (via merdours)