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push yourself to get up before the rest of the world - start with 7am, then 6am, then 5:30am. go to the nearest hill with a big coat and a scarf and watch the sun rise.

push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.

get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.

stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.

buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.

buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.

strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.

organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.

have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.

push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.

message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.

think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.

become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.

lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.

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Yeah, busy Over thinking

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i want a soft kinda love

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Please make yourself happy. And don't wait for anyone to do it for you.

I tell that to myself, every second of the day. // ma.c.a

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Fighting, future teacher!!

konting konti nalang magiging engineer na tayo laban mo na

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Last warmth in rhythm.

🎶 Heart beats fast, Colors and promises. How to be brave? How can I love when I'm afraid to fall But watching you stand alone all of my doubt, suddenly goes away somehow one step closer.... 🎶

The soothing sound of the music, and the warmth you're giving me - feels like home and i want to stay here forever.

My arms around your neck, while yours are caressing the sides of my hips, feeling each others warmth as we follow the rhythm of the music.

Should I blame gravity for pulling me near you? Or is your embellished pair of turquoise-eyes accountable for this feeling i have? All I know for certain is, you're drowning me deeply, and i have no escaped. None at all.

I rest my head in your chest and closed my eyes. And the music becomes slower,

And...slower ...

And ...slower....

and slower .

And then my eyes starts to water

Until i can no longer hear any sound.

And until then, i feel no more warmth.

Since then I realized, you're again gone. And this time, i know you'll be gone forever .

Yet, i still thank you for keeping your promise - Even if it's only in my dreams, at least it was you whom i first danced with.

Thank you for the worth treasuring mem'ries with you.

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Is this the beginning of the

E N D? 😢

Let's #PrayForAmazonas

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I will think positively.

I will think positively.

I will think positively.

I will think positively.

I will think positively.

Ugh. Such a pessimist 😕

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i guess the hardest part isn’t losing someone you love, it’s knowing you will lose them

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Enjoying the cold breeze from the sea;

Watched the horizon, as the sun beautifully set - and disappear

I waited 'till the darkness gain its dominion again.

I stood there, and there i saw my reflection in the water.

With a weary eyes, she smiled at me.

"..It's gonna end, real soon" she whispered right before a strong blew of the wind

And then, there was total darkness.

I smiled.

He finally gain what's his.

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" He heals the wounds of every shattered heart "

Psalm 147:3

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Hey, honey. Remember this?

We use to enjoy long drives together, don't we? We were so happy back then.

But now.

Now that I'm alone, all i could do is to reminisce the times we had together, and i missed you every second of the day.

Please come back to me.

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"Je t'aime mon vieil amour" I love you, my old Love

"You are worth the fight. But I'm already exhausted. "

Words you utter before turning your back away from me.

I was left dumbfounded. Unable to move; did i heard it right?

I tried reaching for your hand - just to find out you're already gripping someone else's arm; giggling and laughing with all your heart.

Wow, i never saw you that happy when you're with me.

But, why? After two goddamn years?! Why so sudden? What have i done? Where did I go wrong? Am i not worth it? Or Did you ever love me as much as i have loved you? -

But those questions were kept unanswered- bugging me day and night for almost 6 fcking months. It's been a long time but the painful mem'ry is still fresh. Never did i imagine living a lifetime without you until that "fairytale" of ours ( as what we use to call it, before) has ended so soon.

But you know what? I still thank you for what you did and for what happened; cuz it made me realized my self worth. That i should have loved my self first before anybody else Especially to incongruous people who will be the rock that blocks you from the feeling of eudaimona.

To you, who have built me then eventually shatter me again, i just wanna say Thank you for the love and the pain (it's bearable 😉) Fortunately, I'm already healing- not easy, but at least I'm trying it slowly but surely. May you be happier with your new found love.

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Soon we'll dance together -following the rythm of life 🎶