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“You get under my skin more than anyone’s ever been. But when we lay in bed you hold me harder ‘til I forget that you hate me now and I feel the same way. You love me now and I feel the same way. Scream and we shout and make up the same day, the same day. Oh, we’re on the right side of rock bottom and I hope that we keep falling. We’re on the good side of bad karma 'cause we keep on coming back for more. We’re on the right side of rock bottom and to you, I just keep crawling. You’re the best kind of bad something 'cause we keep on coming back for more. Keep on coming back for more. 'Cause we keep on coming back for more.”

— Rock Bottom by Hailee Steinfeld

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“I’m done hoping for things that will never happen. I’m done with your inconsistency. You’ve only ever put yourself first. Your egotistical behaviour is disgusting. I hate the way you lie to me. And how every time you promise something you fill me with so much hope. So much happiness. You build me up only to break me down and watch as I fall. Watch as I break before your eyes. Then you have the audacity to ask me what’s wrong. Why I’m broken. I guess that’s because you’ve only ever bitten the hand that feeds you. So it’s your loss really. I guess you will just have to starve.”

— My mind

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I chose you over everything and you chose everything over me

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Love. I love you. With eyes closed, there is only you, you, that I see. With thoughts of nothing there is always a small glimmer with your name. My heart, that beats slowly begins to race when you touch me. The blood in my veins starts to get warm. And I love you. Love. You.

Meins.

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“I tried so hard to make you feel a bit better each day, yet you kept making it way more impossible for me. People get tired, you know? You were not the only one who grieved when it all started to go downhill, but guess what, life keeps going, I kept on going, but you couldn’t.”

— Rewind (A.S)

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No, you don't understand. I choose to stay. I choose this. I choose face my feelings for you. I choose to come back to you. I choose us. I choose you.

Even when you keep choosing him.

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"I fear you going away, leaving and never coming back.. it's not the being alone that bothers me, it's the imagining life without your smile. I really don't like to think about that, but it is what it is.."

Life without your smile is the embodiment of hell - eUë

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“My sun, my moon and all my stars”

— and so your footsteps carried all the light of my Universe away

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“When I wake up I’m afraid somebody else might take my place”

— The Neighbourhood

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@solounastupidaragazza​

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I've been preparing myself for a while now, maybe that's the problem. But as bad as I wanna take every bit of the blame we both know we each hand a part in this broken relationship. Ur my best friend my safe space my back bone my rock my soul mate my love my ride or die I was your Bonnie you was supposed.to be MY FUCKING CLYDE. .............my zing. U only zing once, I can't believe life has fucked us both up so bad. U think I'm making a fool outta u and I feel your making a fool outta me. Why can't we just come to a middle ground, stop fighting against each other and fight everyone else together? Life doesn't make since it actually just does whatever it wants willy nilly no plan oh she wanna act a.fool watch this. God forbid life get hight and get bored we would all be fucked. I don't wanna believe you would ever.betray me I don't wanna believe u would make me hurt that way after I've told u how I feel. Yo I just wanted u to.take up for me. I wanted u to be on my team just like u use to be. I wanted u forever. Now I feel like neither of us is strong enough to walk away neither of us wanna leave.... I feel idk I feel like we are just going with the flow waiting to see who caves first or waiting to see who hurts the other to the point where one of us finally gives up. And I know if that day ever comes when we finally have to say our last goodbyes I'm gonna want closure Im not gonna want it to end. I'm gonna hate myself for fucking up I'm gonna be completely empty and alone inside. But I'm not gonna get the closure I would be searching for bc in all reality.i don't want closure I want the.chapter to continue when I think ab my future I see u my wedding ...u my first home u.... And if it's not u. There is no wedding and I'll be alone with the kids at home. But u. U can move on ur so good at pushing that shit back. And ur fine asf, ur funny, your sweet, u got hella game and tbh ur probably one of the.coolest mfs.i ever met. u will.be able.to have anyone u want. And u will find happiness.in them. But me I'm lost I'm depressing I'm weird N I don't fit in unless I'm being used to clean or having to now.down to people like a puppy dog yo. Do I'll probably be doing that for the rest of my life. Being a slave to keep my thoughts pushed.back keeping myself so fucking busy that i forget to be happy much less remember being hurt. Wear myself out everyday to the point to I literally can't sit for 2 secondz without falling asleep. Draining everything left there is to drian.

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“It feels like our bond is breaking.

And it hurts because I thought you and I would be forever.

But I guess that even the thickest bonds, break at times.”

- to the person I’m drifting from #2

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watching your love fall into someone else’s arms is painful, but especially when they met that someone else because of you.

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“I couldn’t help but feel that the universe had conspired to tear us apart.“ - Last of the Lancers

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Years from now you’re going to look back and wonder what happened to us. The saddest thing is that nothing happened, and darling that’s why we failed.

@sea-lillies

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my heart is beating. somewhere out there, in a world i can no longer reach, your heart is beating. they used to sing in harmony, but one of us has fallen out of tune over time.

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I wish we could solve our problems but it seems we're becoming the problem.