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We all die one day

Today is something new to me, the first time i'm "losing" someone. I use to think that I should help them somehow, but when searching for it, I found out that I need to let them go to not make things harder or impossible.

(Buscai no silêncio do Espírito perceber a extensão de seu amor. Senti bem como ele cerca com sua presença suas crianças e todos aqueles que ele deixou. Pedi ardentemente aos Seres mais elevados do que nós que o ajudem.

Orai segundo o ritual de vossa religião e então, talvez, seja concedido perceber aqui embaixo o desaparecido, porque a Morte não produz nenhum terror para quem conhece os Mistérios, e não é mais que uma simples mudança na qual a Terra retoma o corpo que havia emprestado ao espírito para uma existência, e onde este espírito, liberto e revestido de um novo corpo mais sutil, evolui para um novo plano.)

Everything is ok actually, it has been amazing with the new school from now, i think its because im looking out for someone i wanto meet. And I finally got my room organized, its amazing and i dont feel the necessity to change it anymore. I feel more loved by friends that i never imagined to have. Im loving the same nature that loves me, im wishing for good things only, cleaning my chakras b4 sleeping, trying to read more, study more, but always feel the necessity of puting myself, mind, body and soul first. Im trying to get away from energies that can kill me later, i already know them now. I dont fear death anymore, i know its not something bad, bud also dont wish for it because i know the love i have to share here b4 getting out. My bunny have been around me today, then I recived the notice about my loved one, I had recived a mensage from a black mariposa and a spider, so its not that shocking rn, i think that was the purpose.

I feel thankfull for everything rn, my room, my body, my mind, my mom, the nature, my friends, the ambience i created, the things im ayming for, the futurethat ive already seen, everything, the incredible thing si know, the horrible things ive been capable to survive, all the worst and foul humans that ive thrown away from my pulsing life.

Even thought i miss the summer, miss the nature, the plants, the flowers, the bees, the dogs and cats, the wind blowing my energy level up, the sunset and rising on the beach, the natural food and juices, the salty and sweet from our culture, all the beautifull things i can only visit in my memory. When I grow older, i wish to be that amazing human who reaches out for what they love, without being afraid of everything and everyone like iam now.

I know ill grow older, ill be different, like im different from who i was, and sometimes i forget i can grow at anytime i want to, just perceiving things i can change to be better to myself and everybody else. Even thought i shouldnt worry ab this, i will continue to have ridiculous worries, anxieties, depression, insecurities and everything "bad" that happens in life, no one scape, but we shouldnt run away from it, it natural, its ok, just know that youll get over it and grow beautifully. Reach out to live a peacefull life in earth.