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self-indulgent seteth doodles

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colossus doodles studying the different styles he's drawn in

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ashe goes down the slide

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I honestly don't have a question about Colossus - I mean I could literally talk about Colossus (and his siblings) for literally, and I mean literally, days.

But I just want to say, I eat up anything that talks so much about the best Russian boy. I love your blog 👏🏾

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! i love talking about piotr!!! i am so glad i am finding all the other colossus fans on here!!!

i am so glad my xsays have been well-received so far, i was super worried i would piss people off :'D i've always been ridiculously afraid of the internet so the support really means a lot!

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apologies for reposting the piotr x kitty xsay i was super bothered by how it was formatted LOL. also welcome to my growing list of xsays my beloved trans/intersex logan rant. theres a surprise at the end if you read it :3

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Hey dude I totally don’t know at all you should totally write a manifesto on trans/intersex wolverine ooooo you wanna write it so bad ooooooo

you tease me, tumblr user that i am definitely not friends with. we both know this is bait i simply cannot help but bite. << if you read this till the end you get a surprise :) >>

i could go on a big long rant and list every single instance in which logan defies gender norms in the comics, but i'm gonna try to be brief this time. my headcanon that logan is trans/intersex is so personal and deeply rooted in my mind that discussing it kinda feels like sharing the secrets of a close friend if that makes sense. like, it's his business, it ain't my right to share that information.

i know there are trans logan truthers out there. i have seen them in the wild. i know there are people who would agree with this headcanon, and i'm sure i'm not the only one who takes trans headcanons super personally as a trans person, projecting your experiences and feelings onto a character you really like. it's the same thing with ol' logan (and kurt is not spared of this treatment either).

with the intersex headcanon, i don't often see those enough (for any character, in any fandom, honestly) especially considering intersex people make up, like, 2% of the entire world population. i know of several canon intersex characters in media, but not headcanons.

the biggest reason many people have the trans logan headcanon is because of his clone x-23/laura having XX chromosomes due to the sample used by dr. kinney having a damaged Y, making her 'female'. this is going off of a ciscentric intersex-exclusionary idea of what biological sex is, though.

i'm still totally down for the base concept of 'laura and logan having different gender identities means that at least one of them is trans since they have basically the same DNA' though, but i think both logan and laura are intersex. i think part of the reason it was so hard to clone wolverine is because of his unique DNA. it isn't contradictory for them to have different gender identities or different biology. i think we should stop looking for a reason to label laura Girl and logan Boy and just accept that they can be neither, both, in and out of the between, anything, it just requires so much less hassle. why is their biology so important anyway? that doesn't change their characters.

there's also just...general biological fuckery happening in the weapon x program as pointed out by 1random-starfish because this is superhero comics we're talking about where they're trying to explain how characters get superpowers. this shit doesn't make biological sense and that's okay. it doesn't need to make sense. transphobes and interphobes are constantly saying that our existences "don't make sense" and why should we ever even slightly cater to their beliefs? we make sense to ourselves and that's all that matters. trans and intersex logan makes sense to me.

another argument brought up in defence of trans logan is the fact that he's a short king. as a short king, i approve of this. but there's little emphasis on the fact that he is naturally extremely hairy, both him and sabretooth are super hairy, like way more so than most other characters (besides the ones that are covered in fur like kurt and hank) and that's pretty significant to me. i'm also hairy as fuck. almost all of my intersex friends are hairy too. obviously how much hair a trans and/or intersex person has will vary, but like i said, this trans/intersex logan headcanon is super personal, so i'm projecting personal attributes onto him, damn it.

as i said in a previous post, though i don't feel it's incredibly important to disclose, logan likely has POTS or CAH or something similar to those conditions. i don't think medicine can or should define what logan is. but just to give a reference for how i interpret his appearance, some of those attributes are similar to the ones logan has in my brain. fat, hairy, short, often experiencing fatigue/vertigo/disturbed sleep/etc (worsened by him having PTSD), adrenal issues (paired with PTSD), breast tissue, facial hair, decreased bone density (which was strengthened by his skeleton being bonded with adamantium), etc. he was also allegedly a very sickly child.

onto how i portray logan in my art. some artists prefer to give him top surgery, not just for the "who cares it's a headcanon i do what i want" reasoning but also because there's evidence that logan could experience a permanent surgery like that if enough effort was put in. i, however, am one of the no-op logan truthers. not only do not all transmasc people get top surgery but it doesn't always feel required due to diversity of body types. it's why there's so many different kinds of top surgery, there's so many different ways a chest can look. i don't always draw logan's chest the same way consistently, and like, who cares. the only reason i bring this up is because i personally will never draw logan with any kind of scars, top surgery or otherwise, because of my understanding of how his healing factor works.

regardless of any reasoning i may have for these headcanons, it's just what i feel is right. i draw stuff how i want to. i think about these characters how i want to. the little version of logan that lives in my brain told me he is trans and intersex so that's how i'm gonna portray him. anyway,

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CONTINUED FROM THIS POST.

same warnings apply.

and now piotr is no longer reciprocating those affections. whether kitty is crying over leaving the x-men as a whole or piotr's lack of reciprocation is purposefully unclear.

kitty and piotr separate on a sad note. they separate not fully on the same page about their relationship. and that's the thing about a relationship, it has to be mutual, everyone has to be on the same page about how they feel about one another. it's the beginning of the end.

and then the secret wars happen.

if you don't know about the secret wars, it's fully up to your digression if you read them or not, i don't personally find it super important to the plots of any of the marvel characters' respective comics. but there is stuff that happens in it that's important, like piotr falling in love with someone else.

it's important to note with zsaji that her powers emotionally manipulate those that she heals into falling in love with her. eeeeverybody is in love with her.

piotr's just too sweet and innocent and gullible and takes those feelings to be entirely genuine. even after returning to his world, he's still hung up about zsaji. she died on the beyonder's world. it's unclear if it's because her powers still have an affect on him or not, but that's how i interpret it.

in issue #183 of uncanny x-men, piotr and kitty are reunited, and they officially break up.

storm wishes that piotr had died instead of break kitty's heart since she's so protective of her. awesome. and it's not that piotr isn't completely apathetic towards this, he knows how much hes hurting her, and hes hurting too.

then logan takes piotr on a bender with kurt in tow. these are my three favourite characters and yet this issue is one of my least favourite in the entire comic's run due to how piotr and logan talk to each other. again, piotr has no choice, because logan won't take no for an answer either.

a remark about how piotr is nearly 20 years old after having just broken up with a 14 year old. followed by logan and kurt arguing like a married couple about how to discipline their son, because the comic doesn't know whether to treat piotr like an adult or like a child.

then logan proceeds to allow juggernaut to kick piotr's ass and destroy the entire bar. top ten wolverine moments i hate

and once the battle is over and piotr is defeated, logan makes the only valid criticism of his actions he's made all night, pointing out how young kitty is and how much she sacrificed to save piotr's life. he should've said thank you.

but that doesn't mean he should've continued to be in a relationship he was not fully committed to. just because other characters want them to be together doesn't mean that's what piotr wants, or what's right for him. like i said, a relationship has to be mutual, if you aren't fully confident in your passion or ability to provide for your partner then you should not be together. you have to be in it together, there must be an equal amount of effort put in on all sides.

and one more thing about kitty almost being married off to caliban. what the fuck? it's all just so fucked up. why couldn't they make some other arrangement? why the fuck were the x-men just going to let caliban waltz away with kitty? it's a damn good thing caliban has a good heart and recognized that kitty wasn't in love with him, and it was best to let her go. that's good relationship skills right there. and i know that the x-men have respect for the way the morlocks and their culture function, but....jesus christ, why are they excusing child marriage and pedophilia??? they can't let calypso have warren for a prize but they can let caliban marry kitty. okay, guys. thanks, guys.

back on topic, though. piotr and kitty have well-needed space between the two of them, and we don't see them interact again until issue #210.

piotr never stopped caring about kitty. he just isn't in love with her. their conversation about second chances and rolling with the punches gets cut off by action, but the point is still there. they're both ready to move on.

and then they're friends again. they never stopped caring about each other, they work really well as soon as they're on a team together, but they did need that space. kitty needed time to mature more. i still don't think a 14-15 year old should be on the x-men team but i've honestly given up with that argument

CONCLUSION.

i don't like piotr and kitty together. their age difference has always disturbed me and i think there are better people for both of them to be in relationships with. when i think of piotr and kitty, i think of how messy their relationship was in these comics. they may be able to work in other iterations of the x-men where they're both consenting adults, but in what i consider the heart of canon, i don't think they should be together.

i'm definitely pissed off at how the writers, artists, and comic book heads at marvel handled their relationship and the fact that it was pursued at all. but just because i'm pissed off about that doesn't mean i hate them, and i'm not accusing any of them of being pedos or pedo apologists. they still created my favourite thing literally of all time. the comics have issues, but this IP has been my special interest since i was itty bitty. it's impossible for me to hate anything x-men related. i may critique it, but that doesn't mean i hate it. media literacy ISN'T dead!

this also isn't to say i assume anyone that ships piotr with kitty is a pedo apologist. not every x-men fan has read these issues (or any of the issues) and not everyone knows the characters' history with one another. not everyone knows of just how big that age gap was between them. i sincerely hope that this entire rant hasn't come off as me bashing people who like the pairing, because that isn't my intention at all. people can ship whatever they want, it just ain't my cup of tea.

anyway, hope you enjoyed my anti piotr x kitty propaganda! i'm gonna go lay on the floor and think about the fastball triple now

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ily watxm kurt most gorgeous bisexual man ive ever seen

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Ur autistic Colossus post is so good! I like it a lot. I'm a bigger fan of his sister so I don't usually analyze him on his own so it makes me appreciate him a lot more! I'd love to hear your thoughts on his relationship with Kitty

ty!!!!! and i also love illyana, she's so awesome and her relationship with her big brother makes me so happy. i love how different and yet so similar they are and how they always care about each other so much no matter what. <333

kitty and piotr....oh boy. this is probably gonna be way longer than it needs to be, it will probably take multiple posts. i just have a lot of thoughts. i also anticipate pissing a good few people off so i apologize in advance for that.

<< warnings: inappropriate depiction of a minor (visuals), inappropriate age gap in a relationship, non-consent, mentions of pedophilia and child marriage, alcohol (visuals) >>

it's too big of an age gap. that's it. it's not that i think the two of them don't have some kind of chemistry as characters, it's simply the fact that kitty and piotr met when piotr was 18 and kitty was 13. 13 years old. when they break up, kitty is 14 and piotr is nearly 20. and their ages are constantly commented on. it makes my stomach twist to think of either of them in that kind of inappropriate relationship, and it makes me feel even worse to know how much the other x-men encourage their relationship in the comics. really, really makes me sick.

issue #129. kitty is introduced as 13 years old. two pages later, the writers draw attention to kitty noticing piotr first when she meets the x-men.

issue #131. piotr carries kitty to safety. after bopping one last baddie, piotr notices kitty staring at him.

this is all innocent stuff at first. i'm not bothered by this, as it's a one-sided crush kitty has on an older soon-to-be teammate. teen girls can have their cute little crushes! it's no biggie. it isn't reciprocated by piotr, and that's all that matters to me.

then the shit hits the fan when "days of future past" starts up in issue #141.

they're married in the future. married. they had children together.

once again, there is nothing inherently wrong with this. they're two consenting adults in the future, an age gap isn't that big of a deal. but this is the writers' way of solidifying that they want piotr and kitty to be a couple. that is the plan.

where my problem with the writers' portrayal of these characters starts is when kitty's future self takes over her present body, and everything immediately becomes weird.

smells like a woman. what the fuck does "smells like a woman" mean???

now that the writers have established that kitty and piotr will assumedly become a couple, they can start pushing for it even when the events of this story arc end.

issue #143 is when my skin really starts to crawl. i have seen multiple people draw fanart specifically of these few panels, and as cute as the art may be, the fact that kitty is 13 years old and piotr is 18 years old at the time will never leave my mind.

kitty starts coming on to piotr and it is immediately joked about and encouraged by the other x-men. kurt and logan will be especially bad about this from now on.

even kitty's parents have no issue with this relationship. y'know, the incredibly protective parents that didn't want her to join the x-men at all at first due to how dangerous it is.

issue #149. "boyfriend." cool. thanks, logan.

i must emphasize again that my problem is not with the characters themselves, i love all of the x-men, it is the writers and the marvel heads that approved of this character arc. the characters don't question the inappropriate nature of this relationship because the writers don't question it. the characters encourage it because they're given the morals the writers have.

in my heart, logan, kurt, and every other x-man would never approve of this kind of relationship. in my heart, kitty would never pursue it. and in my heart, piotr would never reciprocate it.

but he does, because the writers want him to. and in issue #151, we see them kiss for the first time in the present:

i also want to point out that the writers aren't the only ones at fault with this. in this same issue, look at how the artists choose to illustrate kitty:

this is way too sexualized of a depiction of a minor. they choose to emphasize her ass and skinny waist and give her the facial proportions of an adult woman. this is not the first nor the last time they will sexualize kitty while she is still an underage character.

it sows discord how different the characters look/how they're depicted visually vs. how they're written to act. piotr as a teenager was still drawn to be a fully grown mature adult despite his very young demeanour. kitty is constantly in bikinis and her face is drawn as if she's much older than thirteen. she's immature and impulsive and has traits that are expected of a kid/teenager, she is treated like a kid and even called "kid" by characters like logan, but she isn't always drawn as one. and i don't want to hear about "oh well some teenagers physically mature faster than others" because if this is the only way you depict people of this age group, there is a problem. comic artists of this time are kind of famous for having no clue how to draw kids (though honestly comic artists of today still have that issue). it is incredibly important to me as an artist and a writer that these depictions are as accurate and appropriate as they can be.

continuing on to issue #153. god, i hate this one. if not for the depiction of kitty and piotr, then the racial caricatures for sure.

kitty begins taking on a motherly role for illyana (who is still a toddler at this point) as piotr watches over her. kitty tells her a bedtime story, and in the story, piotr's role in it is as "her true love".

oh and also? hate the portrayal of kurt in this issue. yeah, he's got mad game, he gets so many bitches, can we not have one of the people he pursues be 13 years old??? please??? and, again, the characters don't take issue with this because the writers don't.

issue #159. she simultaneously talks about being 14 years old and being in a relationship with piotr. the writers want to emphasize how young and inexperienced she is while simultaneously pairing her up with an adult character.

then the brood arc happens. if you don't know about the brood arc, it's like an alien ripoff. i love the drama of it, seeing how characters grapple with their imminent death, but i am not one that enjoys the analogy of something alien growing inside of one's body. not my cup of tea at all.

anyway, onto issue #165. i want to share these pages in full.

this entire sequence feels more like an older sibling or parent comforting an upset child then two consenting individuals pursuing a relationship. the dynamic is completely off. this is not romantic, this is exclusively platonic/familial to me. they're going to die, and piotr is not swooning over her till his dying breath, he is comforting her like he would his little sister.

they have a conversation about the importance of age in their relationship. kitty looks noticeably younger in these panels, drawn more like the child that she is.

i wish i knew what piotr was thinking in all of this. i miss his thought bubbles going into detail about how conflicted he feels all of the time. all we get, in this entire arc of a relationship with kitty, are his physical actions and what he chooses to verbalize. like i said, piotr is very autistic-coded to me, and he very often keeps his thoughts and opinions to himself. as the audience, we don't even get that usual inner monologue of his this time around. i truly do not know what he is thinking.

is the thought of imminent death really making him question their relationship now? or has he been questioning it from the start? why did he kiss her if he's starting to feel as though he shouldn't be in a relationship with her? why is he the only one that has an issue with their age gap? there are so many questions i will never have answers to. i only get to speculate about how he feels and what the intentions of the writers were in this scene.

the brood is defeated, the parasites destroyed, and the x-men have their lives back.

then professor xavier jumpscares everyone in issue #167 leading into #168 by declaring that kitty MUST join the new mutants and leave the x-men for good because she's too young. the iconic "professor xavier is a JERK!" opening page comes from this.

and the issue is majorly disappointing! by the end, she's back on the x-men team. xavier immediately retracts his statement because kitty does a good job in one training session and that's apparently enough. seeing her in action was enough to decide, yes, she's enough of an adult to be an x-man.

this is also around the time piotr starts referring to kitty as "katya", a pet name. is it because he's becoming more comfortable in his relationship or because she has now officially been promoted to Adult Status so hes allowed to be romantic with her now?

oh also illyana is a teenager at this point and that's why the new mutants have started their comic run in tandem with uncanny x-men. kitty appears in both comics from now on and is friends with both teams, especially besties with illyana.

i will be skipping over much of the caliban and kitty story arc that happens around this time that is supposed to emphasize just how much kitty is willing to sacrifice for piotr. caliban and kitty's relationship is more explicitly supposed to be depicted as gross and inappropriate since caliban is much more obviously an older adult, and all of the characters hate caliban for being in love with kitty. it felt hypocritical to me as a child and it still feels hypocritical now that piotr gets a pass for being with kitty but caliban does not. why? is it because he's conventionally attractive and still a teenager despite clearly being a huge buff adult man that is treated as an adult and an equal among the x-men? neither piotr nor caliban should be with kitty, it doesn't matter how much older caliban is supposed to be. both have significant age gaps with kitty so both should be inappropriate.

issue #174. "i won't take 'no' for an answer." he doesn't want to go with her, but he does anyway, because he knows she won't take no for an answer.

she surprises him with a kiss. he's upset, but he forgives her. that little surprise kiss leads to something more. piotr recognizes that kitty looks scared, but she doesn't care, so piotr goes along with it, because he knows she won't take no for an answer.

holy fuck thank you ororo for coming in at the perfect time end this immediately.

the echoes of what happened to him with nereel in the savage land still haunt me. i do not like that there is a theme of piotr not consenting to implicitly sexual acts in his relationships. << maybe i will talk about that entire aspect of piotr's character arc another time. maybe i won't. it makes me feel so, so much worse than everything that happens with kitty. >>

back to the topic of the new mutants, though. doug ramsey is introduced and becomes fast friends with kitty, which makes piotr, who already felt conflicted about his relationship with kitty, feel even more conflicted.

this conversation between piotr and logan in issue #180 sums up this character conflict the best:

i do not think that piotr genuinely feels jealousy towards doug and kitty's relationship. i simply think kitty's interactions with doug have brought even more attention to how much piotr and kitty lack in commonality, how much better doug would be as a match for kitty than himself. he's closer to her own age, with similar interests, same level of intelligence, more properly on the same playing field as mutants still mastering their abilities... doug is a peer to kitty, and piotr is not.

it's complicated. but it's also not complicated at all. i too think doug is a better match for kitty than piotr for all of these reasons. i don't blame piotr at all for feeling this way.

there's also this entire theme of changes happening in kitty's life and her having to accept them, like the whole subplot of her and storm who were previously incredibly close striking friction due to kitty not liking storm's new attitude or appearance.

there's been hints towards piotr and kitty breaking up for a while just as there's been buildup to this conversation between kitty and storm about those themes.

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just for funsies here's a comparison between the original colour palette vs my colour palette for the characters :3

BEHOLD! my fire emblem three bitches

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BEHOLD! my fire emblem three bitches

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MY COLLEGE FINALLY SENT ME MY GODDAMN DIPLOMA I AM FINALLY OFFICIALLY GRADUATED!!!

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the fe3h house leaders as laguz :3

picturing dimitri as prince of gallia, claude as an illegitimate prince of goldoa, and edelgard a "royal" of phoenicis (descendant of a heron and a hawk. kinda princess and kinda not princess? unsure of the politics on that one)

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a floorplan of piotr's room. im so normal.

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a thought i had knowing both of kurt's boyfriends are made of metal.

inspired by this sequence in UXM #165 and, of course, all credits to mickeys dick smasher go to splendidland

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tumblr sexyman'd michael afton i drew in 2022

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sometimes u gotta get . silleyyy