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A matter of time

synopsis 𑁤.ᐟ wolfstar as fuck buddies who don’t expect to run into each other outside of the bedroom, and definitely not in regulus black’s apartment.

disclaimer: english isn’t my first language, bear with me:3 also, open ending! i can definitely do a part 2. if enough people want it.

warnings: implied nsfw, kms comments.

ᡣ𐭩 request from @walaburgasaplusparenting — hope this lives up to your expectations!

The rule was simple: no contact outside of sex.

Sirius had agreed to it, because at first it seemed like a dream. No strings, no messy emotions — just sharp gasps, hands gripping too tight, teeth on skin and shaky moans. Remus wasn’t clingy, didn’t ask for things Sirius wasn’t willing — or ready — to give. They met up, fucked like the world was about to end, and then parted ways like strangers.

Sirius wanted that, he really did. He wanted to meet Remus at night, feeling desperate and needy, knowing that he would take care of him just how he liked it. The mere thought of being in an actual relationship, with emotions and vulnerability? That scared the shit out of him. So yes, being ‘fuck buddies’ — as he graciously named it the first time, earning a scoff and a quiet “that sounds like i’m a bloody toy” from Remus — should have been enough.

And yet.

Sirius doesn’t know when it started — the wanting. Perhaps it was when he caught himself lingering after, watching the way Remus stretched, lazy and content, as if he hadn’t just ruined him. Maybe it was the mornings when he woke up alone, and foolishly thought ‘how would it feel to wake up next to him?’.

Sirius wanted more, but he couldn’t ask — because Remus had never shown a single ounce of interest, not really. For him it was just meaningless sex. When Sirius talked to James about it, he just blinked and stared at Sirius like he was dumb (which he wasn’t, thank you very much) and asked ”right… did he tell you that?” (as if Sirius wasn’t perceptive and couldn’t read the guy he’s been fucking). Lily, bless her heart, reacted the exact same way — “did you ask him, or are you assuming he doesn’t want more?”.

So, in an act of desperation, Sirius decided he would go to his baby brother for advice. This was, probably, the worst decision he had ever made — he wasn’t thrilled about whining about his sex life with Regulus. But desperate times call for desperate measures, and considering his best friends absolutely sucked at giving him actual, helpful advice, Regulus’ coldness and indifference would have to suffice.

The bell announcing the end of the lecture finally rings, forcing Sirius to stop overthinking absolutely everything — because lately it’s the only thing he does — and grab his things, leaving towards his brother’s apartment. It was inside the same college, meaning he didn’t have to walk much. He grabbed his phone and quickly texted Regulus, a simple “i’m going to yours rn”. Regulus, answered an immediate “no”, making Sirius huff.

He didn’t text him back, because he didn’t really care about what his little brother wanted. Apparently, he understood the message, because seconds later another text came: “whatever. my roommate is here, so behave.” Sirius rolled his eyes — he didn’t knew Regulus’ roommate, but it had to be someone equally annoying if he put up with his bullshit. He arrived to his apartment, knocked on the door and waited.

The annoyed face of his brother appeared in front of him, and begrudgingly he moved away so Sirius could walk in. Usually, he would’ve been smirking, ruffling Reg’s hair just to make him scoff, and throw himself on the couch. Today, he just slowly sat on a chair, motioning for his brother to sit in front of him.

Regulus rolled his eyes, closing the door and humoring Sirius. He sat in front of him, his back facing the bedrooms, and raised a single eyebrow — “Well?”. Sirius fidgeted with his hands, and taking a deep breath, started talking.

Regulus reaction was exactly what Sirius expected — “Do I look like someone who gives a fuck about your sex life, Sirius?”. But, seeing that his brother was actually conflicted about it, and hearing that James useless Potter couldn’t help, he sighed and nodded briefly, listening. The door of one of the rooms cracked open, but Regulus paid no mind. Sirius, on the other hand, lifted his gaze — and immediately closed his mouth.

“I’m killing myself” Sirius blurted out after a few seconds of silence, still without looking at his brother — because his eyes were now fixed on Remus motherfucking Lupin. Regulus, still unaware of what was happening, mumbled “Great. Can I watch?”, but frowned when he noticed that Sirius was pale as a ghost, looking behind his head as if he had seen Walburga Black herself.

Sirius and Remus made eye contact for approximately ten seconds, before Regulus turned around and noticed that he was standing there. Apparently, his little brother wasn’t as good as reading people as he thought, because instead of realizing what was going on, he just scowled.

“Great, now Lupin can help with your problem too. He probably has better advice than me” Regulus said, just wanting to leave the conversation. “My brother is apparently fucking a guy who-“

“Shut the fuck up, Regulus” Sirius practically cried, resting his head on his hands trying to hide the blush that crept up his face. This was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. This was the day Sirius Black killed himself, because there’s no way Remus didn’t hear him rambling about wanting to have something more, wanting to be something more.

Remus was still quiet, which honestly was terrifying. Regulus narrowed his eyes, and it clicked — Sirius knew it clicked thanks to the groan he suddenly let out, and the sound of the chair scratching the floor, meaning he stood up.

“Really, Sirius? My roommate?” Regulus said with the most annoyed voice he could muster. He turned towards Remus, looking horrified. “My brother? You are disgusting. Absolutely disgusting”. Sirius didn’t even want to look up, but then he heard Regulus locking himself in his room, and he knew he was alone with Remus, and-

“You’re overthinking”

Sirius made a little pained sound, like Remus voice alone was enough for him to have a stroke and die. “I’m perfectly fine”. He mentally slapped himself, because the way he said that was definitely not convincing at all. Oh, he was fucked, and not in the sense he liked-

“Sirius”

He lifted his head as soon as his name left Remus lips, because how could he not? He was used to hear him whisper his name between kisses, when he moaned and closed his eyes in pleasure. But now? It was soft. Soft. What was he supposed to do with that if not look? If not beg for him to say it again?

Remus sighed, walked towards the couch and sat in front of him, just where Regulus was sitting seconds before. He looked so collected, so calm — but Sirius knew better. He noticed the way his fingers drummed against his knee, the way he bit the inside of his cheek. “Let’s have a chat”.

And Sirius, for the first time, was terrified of what was going to come out of Remus’ mouth.

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