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Just saw a tiktok video...

They're basically ostracizing a HUGE portion of the therian community by implying it should only be spiritual

Psychological therians exist, and if that's so confusing to you...oh dear.

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Just a reminder that if u *Do not* believe u r physically inhumane / u are aware that physical shifting 'isn't possible,' then u are NOT a clinical lycanthrope. Because believe me there is not a single person on earth who can convince me I'm physically human. I full on believe I can and have physically transformed before. However, I'm a diagnosed psychotic so I have some level of self awareness. I may call it a delusion to please other people, but I'll never not think I am a real canine / just a human shell riddled with canine DNA. Clinical lycanthropy ain't some werewolf kinnie shit, it's literally severe longterm psychosis, u don't just develop it or one day decide to be one. Ok thanks.

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Help With Community Language

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I'm not wholly coherent right now but I'll attempt to express what I'm trying to express here as quickly as possible.

I'm scared.

I arrived at the otherkin label very, very recently.

And suddenly years of my life and things I had no names for, were validated and given language and a community. I wasn't alone. I had a name and a place.

And i've enjoyed that ever since.

But now I'm seeing second hand the effects of the language drift.

I'm no expert, so I'll talk only briefly.

The sudden influx of kids looking for names for their own games, which my peers largely attribute to tiktok, is causing a drift in the community and it's adjacent community's language.

While I'm not a therian, it seems inevitable to me that this will impact otherkin sooner or later if it hasn't already.

I saw a post recently where someone formerly known as a wolf therian talked about themself and others choosing to go with "were" titles instead.

Which means very soon, the title of werewolf will no longer be accurate for me. It seems at some point "werewolf" wil mean "wolf therian". And all the connotations of the name that were specific to werewolves as opposed to "real" wolves- will be permanently lost. The nuance in the name will be gone as it becomes a blanket statement for any and all wolf adjacent beings.

And that's scary.

What am I going to do about it?

Honestly I don't know- I just wanted to share my thoughts while I try and stew on this a little longer and figure out what my next steps are gonna have to be.

It may be as simple as distinguishing my "type" of werewolf. Something specifically fiction/mythology related as oppose to being ex-therian related.

Consider this an open discussion, alternative views and suggestions are wanted as well as welcome.

I'm tagging therians and specifically wolf therians since they're much closer to the front lines of the whole language drift situation and more likely to understand what's happening and it's ramifications.

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Hosing down my Werewolf gf because she got out again last night and slaughtered a small village. She's biting at the stream of water.

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Why do we say “conceive”? We all know the right term is “cum-dumpstered”. STOP HIDING FROM THE TRUTH.

twitter is hell but i really hope it doesn’t actually die because this is in contention for the funniest thing i’ve ever read in my life

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Slight TW: hate speech on trans women

Howdy! I dont usually post within this community although I do reblog (perhaps you’ve seen me lurk on your page <3). Just in case anyone doesn’t know…

this individual who also identifies as a clinical lycanthrope is a terf so if you haven’t already, I suggest blocking if you don’t want to risk seeing hateful shit like this.

Anyway carry on!

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I'm a dead dog most likely from the impact ('cause I don't want to call it "trauma". It doesn't feel serious enough to be trauma) of my suicide attempt and how my life was in the months leading up to it + cause of psychosis. Almost everything about my church grim form, even the dog breed I am, has a personal reason related to my life. I've had this delusion for at least 3 years now, thoguh I can't be sure when it really started because my brain likes to fuck with the memories from the time period where it probably formed. I suspect that even the way I remember acting in pseudo memories of my past life as a church grim are related to things I experienced in this current life.

That's one if the reasons why seeing people claim to be exactly like me, down to the appearance and "personality" of my grim form is so incredibly angering and hurtful to me.

There's so much shit I've had to deal with because of my mind telling me I'm a dead black dog. Going days with almost no food and barely any water because my mind says I'm dead and don't need to eat, snarling and snapping at people irl who even slightly annoy me when I'm in that mindset, being very homicidal and having to hold back the urges to maul people because that's the type of creature I was, the tactile hallucinations of maggots and fleas, self harm from dysphoria of not physically being a rotting dog... And more shit that I don't feel like listing anymore.

Seeing so many kids suddenly appear and say "I'M A ROTTING BACK GSD CHURCH GRIM WITH WHITE EYES AND FLEAS AND I'M AND A CYNANTHROPE TOO" feels like a fucking mockery. Seeing people claim to be exactly like me without knowing anything about why I am waht I am is not only infuriating but can also sometimes border on reality checking (because it makes me feel like I'm not really me 'cause there's someone right there claiming to be literally the same thing as I am.). Hell, some people even fucking copied the way I described me in my pinned post word for word.

You wouldn't want to be delusional so bad if you knew what it's actually like. You don't know shit about what it's like to be a real black dog.

You're just otherkin who want to be special by pretending to be mentally ill to somehow fucking feel more "valid" or whatever.

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Honestly?

Fuck cringe culture.

Wear your tail. Wear your ears. Be an animal. I’m a 22 year old man who fell asleep with his realistic wolf plush yesterday because it felt like a wolf pup to me. Embrace your alterhumanity. Time goes on and you only live once in this body. Make the most of it and fuck what others think.

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God I fucking hate the fact that clinical zoanthropy (and animal delusions in general) is becoming another "cool" disorder to fake in the alterhuman community just like what happened with all the DID shit.

Fuck off.

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I reoccuringly feel like im faking my cynanthropy, even though ive felt this way forever and i have clear moments where i feel like im shapeshifting. Im confident in the fact that this is because of delusional misidentification not being discussed in general spaces, nor is it even relatively known about. Not to mention how psychosis and psychotic disorders + its relatives are just simply not talked about in the same way that other disabilities are talked about.

I also occasionally feel like im “copying” things i see online, and am forcing my brain to believe something that i dont actually believe.. which is just blatantly not true. If i was faking i would be doing this all purposefully, which is not the case. I also feel sometimes that im just trying to be this cool dog breed or species just for aesthetics and its not what i truly believe, which again - is wrong because thats simply not how my thoughts work.

Alot of this has to deal with social media, so im just trying to let myself be and get off of it when i feel these thoughts arise. For example, sometimes i feel like im transforming into a wolf or something thats more wolf-like - but then my brain immediately tries to deny it because “i cant possibly be anything else” and as if i have to seem like im not “copying others”online. But when im offline everything is more natural and im more at ease.

I am allowed to just be. If i feel like im transforming into a dog thats that. If i feel like im turning into a wolf thats fine. Its okay to be me.

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When I thought I was a wolf, my blog meant too much to me. Not in the way of me loving having one, but in the sense of proving myself.

I was mostly a wolf online, I didn’t get out to experience being a wolf in different settings as often. I was too focused on documenting it all.

Now that has changed. I find myself going out and doing things more often now that I’m not only confident, but proud in who/what I am.

I love being with those I consider my pack while exploring and experiencing new things, without being unstable in my self image.

I’m learning it’s important to just let myself be a dog and enjoy life with those I care about.

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I’m not only learning how to accept myself as a dog, but also learning how to enjoy being one.

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being a therian is so cool. I wish animals were real

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Me possibly being a wolfdog complicates things when it comes to my ancestors.

If I'm actually part dog, not a pure wolf, then it must mean I've had both lycanthrope and cynanthrope ancestors at some point. It makes trying to do research about it harder. I don't know were I come from at this point. I'll probably never know.

I don't know how much is fact and how much is delusion anymore. For a while I used to think I'm biologically a german shepherd but it was probably just my grim or dog delusion, then I was sure I'm actually a wolf, but now I think I might be a wolfdog. It's confusing. I don't know which one is right.

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(TL;DR: therian content and media sucks. We gotta step this game up.)

Been going through therian Tik Tok tonight... I'm gonna say some things that might get me cancelled, but here goes: Mainstream therians are cringy af. It really is nothing but a bunch of 12-16 year olds wearing masks and doing quadrobics. There's nothing wrong with being young. The masks are even pretty cool. And quads are sick as fuck and I wish I could do them. But I'm getting massive "roleplay" vibes from the whole thing which is not really what I think of as "therian".

You guys wonder why the world thinks we're a joke? It's because the face of Therianthropy is a 13 year old kid in a FOX mask lamenting that he's having trouble connecting to his AVIAN theriotype through vocals. Like, kid, you're a bird and you wanna connect to that?? Take the dog mask off, climb a tree, sit on a perch and eat a fucking seed. Make a feathered mask that's actually BIRD SHAPED. Go to an aviary! You're roleplaying a dog and wondering why you feel disconnected from your bird self.

The face of therianthropy is a video of a 15 year old jumping on their bed in fox mask with the caption "I forgot how to jump and I can't force myself to shift anymore :(" Like hello?? You're in a bedroom surrounded by all your human posessions? You're jumping on giant foam rectangle? Do you really not understand why you're having a hard time performing quads or shifting into the headspace of a Wild Animal while you're enclosed in a small space and surrounded by plushies, artificial lights, and the whirrring of your $2,000 gaming computer?

The face of therianthropy is a 16 year old who's "coming out" as a wolf therian, calling themself "Alpha", and running on a Giant Hamster Wheel in a park(?). Like seriously, you don't have to "come out". Our existence isn't really mainstream enough for us to be an Oppressed Minority forced into hiding. (I understand that a lot of us are queer/trans/etc. That's not the point.) And completely ignoring the fact that "Alpha Wolves" aren't a real thing, (I do love my human A/B/O dynamics,) the title of "Alpha" is not something you just give to yourself and expect it to be respected. You gotta earn that shit, and when you do it only applies to your own pack. (-sincerely, a beta puppy/primal/therian.)

To everyone in the world from me, a kinkster, a puppy, a furry, a primal, a therian, a Freak: do what makes you happy. 1000% do what makes you happy and do what makes you feel good. But holy shit is it such a pain to go through so much Content Made By Therians, For Therians and not see a single piece of discussion. It's all just the same three videos being remade by hundreds of different people.

Sorry Not Sorry for the rant, but I want to see something informative. I wanna see stuff that makes me go "therians are so fucking cool". I wanna have a stranger at the bar ask me what that ΘΔ tattoo means and excitedly pull out my phone to show them videos explaining and demonstrating therianthropy. But everything I see on Tik Tok just makes me think "this is embarrassing, y'all just look like a bunch of roleplaying/cosplaying children." There's nothing wrong with that. Have fun. Do what makes you happy. But lets get some better content in this community. If you've read this far, I appreciate you. Comment some links to good therian content creators if you've got them.

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realizing i’ve been absent lately, irl life has been absolutely insane. why do i have to adult and do things like taxes? and work? and think of a future career? why can’t i be a wolfdog and live in the woods and run run run and thump thump in the dirt. catch prey, play with pack mates, just life my life.