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Michael Cunningham, The Hours

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i’ve  been  without  a  proper  laptop  for    …    a  few  months  now.  couldn’t  afford  a  new  one,  until  recently!  but  now  i’m  back    &    finally  ready  to  get  back  into  the  swing  of  things.

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Barbara, do you even remember how amazing you used to be? Honey,  I’m still amazing.

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like  for  barbara  to  send  your  some  memes.

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how  does  your  muse  carry  emotion?

happiness:  being  unable  to  stop  smiling.  laughter.  bear  hugs.  happy  tears.  waving  arms  around.  dancing.  contently  sighing.  eyes  twinkling.  laughter  lines.  childlike  playfulness.  skipping.  talking  more.  affection.  cracking  more  jokes  than  usual.  gesturing  more  when  talking.  higher  pitched  voice.  squealing.  jumping  around.  clapping.

sadness:  tearing  up.  self-hugging.  one-arm  cross.  an  aching  chest.  scratchy  throat.  a  runny  nose.  turning  away.  deep  breaths.  quivery  smiles.  crying.  infantile  sobbing.  hands  gripping  each  other  or  an  object.  covering  mouth.  puffy  eyes.  eyes  appear  red.  voice  breaking.  a  distant  or  empty  stare.  monotone  voice.  asking  for  comfort.  faking  a  smile.  crumbling.  shaking.  whimpering.  depression.  abusing  an  unhealthy  habit.  withdrawing  from  others.  big  teary  eyes.  doing  something  even  if  it  could  hurt  them.

anger:  furrowed  brows.  baring  teeth.  passive-aggressive  comments.  avoiding  eye  contact.  sarcasm.  headache.  sore  muscles.  hiding  clenched  fists.  irritability.  jumping  to  conclusions.  raising  voice.  going  silent.  demanding  immediate  action.  keeping  it  all  in  until  exploding.  body  tensing.  making  risky  decisions.  middle  finger.

fear:  wanting  to  flee  or  hide.  what-ifs.  images  of  what-could-be  flashing  in  mind.  uncontrollable  trembling.  rapid  breathing.  screaming.  a  skewed  sense  of  time.  irritability.  keeping  silent.  denying  fear.  turning  away  from  the  cause.  pretending  to  be  brave.  nail-biting.  lip-biting.  scratching  skin.  a  joking  tone  but  a  voice  that  cracks.  fainting.  insomnia.  panic  attacks.  exhaustion.  substance  abuse.  tics.  rushing  adrenaline.  face  draining  of  color.  hair  lifting  on  the  back  of  the  neck.  feeling  rooted  to  the  spot.  making  body  as  small  as  possible.  staring  but  not  seeing.  crying.  a  shrill  voice.  whispering.  gripping  something  or  someone.  stuttering.  flinching  at  noises.  pleading.

exhaustion:  constantly  yawning.  blurring  words  together.  dark  circles  or  lines  under  eyes.  mood  swings.  hallucinations.  calling  people  by  the  wrong  name.  dizziness.  denying  they’re  tired.  slow  blinking.  trouble  concentrating.  stumbling.  leaning  on  a  doorframe  for  support.  sluggish  movements.  falling  asleep  someplace  that  isn’t  a  bed.  becoming  irritated  by  the  smallest  things.  “i’m  awake,  i’m  fine.”  shaking  so  bad  they  spill  their  drink.  falling  asleep  in  their  clothes.  laying  their  head  on  the  table  because  they’re  so  tired.  passing  out.

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darker vibes

❛ i would let you rip me apart if it meant loving you. ❜

❛ this fear you feel? it won’t last. ❜

❛ you are my salvation. ❜

❛ i revolt you, don’t i? ❜

❛ get the hell away from me. ❜

❛ i want to sink my teeth into every inch of you. ❜

❛ i’ll be your dirty little secret, if that’s what you’re into. ❜

❛ worship me. until i tell you to stop. ❜

❛ don’t you know how sick with love i am for you? ❜

❛ fucking hit me already. ❜

❛ i would burn the world for you. ❜

❛ i don’t want to be good, no matter how hard you wish it. ❜

❛ i don’t know how you’ve bewitched me, but it needs to stop. ❜

❛ fix me. ❜

❛ they die for love, you kill for it. ❜

❛ you are mine, whether you agree or not. ❜

❛ do you like it when i bleed for you? ❜

❛ i will keep hurting. i will keep killing. anything to protect you. ❜

❛ i’m starved for you, morning and night. ❜

❛ now i get to ravish you. ❜

❛ i am your god and your executioner. ❜

❛ you are doing so well, my pet. ❜

❛ you’re my sweetest poison. ❜

❛ let’s do something about that mouth of yours. ❜

❛ your fascination with me will be your death. ❜

❛ you’re the monster that’s enticed me into your bed. ❜

❛ all you can say are pretty lies. ❜

❛ the fucked up thing is that it isn’t enough to just love you. ❜

❛ you’ve broken me. all i can think about is you. ❜

❛ you’ll beg for more. ❜

❛ an eternity with you would never satisfy me. ❜

❛ i would gladly let you drag me to hell. ❜

❛ everything i’ve done.. every horrible atrocity, it’s been for you. ❜

❛ you’re a fucking nightmare. kiss me. ❜

❛ feel grateful that i allow you to touch me. ❜

❛ every time your lips touch my skin, you burn me from the inside out. ❜

❛ there’s no black or white, only gray. ❜

❛ no one touches what’s mine. ❜

❛ make me indifferent, make me horrible. ❜

❛ i could never be the one to love you. i can only be the one that kills you. ❜

❛ your lips are poison, your laugh a curse. ❜

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𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙰  𝙺𝙴𝙰𝙽  𝙴𝙳𝙸𝚃𝚂    [...]    𝙼𝚄𝚃𝚄𝙰𝙻𝚂  𝙼𝙰𝚈  𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃.

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YOUR  APPEARANCE  CAN  BE  A  WEAPON  AS  POWERFUL  AS  ANY  KNIFE  OR  GUN.

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🐝  *  ―  𝑹𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑶𝑴 𝑫𝑰𝑨𝑳𝑶𝑮𝑼𝑬 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺 𝑷𝑻. 𝑰.

❛  it was wrong of me to assume you're ever gonna change.  ❜ ❛  that's it? it was all just a lie?  ❜ ❛  shame on me for thinking you were a good person.  ❜ ❛  you're gonna pay for what you did to me.  ❜ ❛  you didn't hear a word of what i just said, did you?  ❜ ❛  believe me, you weren't my first choice either.  ❜ ❛  if you've got a problem with the way i handle things, just say so.  ❜ ❛  do you think we're gonna survive this?  ❜ ❛  what's your problem?!  ❜ ❛  will you please slow down a little?  ❜ ❛  i can't believe you would do something like that.  ❜ ❛  did it mean anything to you?  ❜ ❛  i'm never gonna be good enough for you.  ❜ ❛  we were just fooling ourselves this whole time.  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry, i didn't know where else to go.  ❜ ❛  i don't want to argue with you anymore.  ❜ ❛  fine. you were right, and i was wrong. happy now?  ❜ ❛  this day feels like it's never gonna end.  ❜ ❛  i didn't think you'd care so much.  ❜ ❛  this must be like the first time you were nice to me.  ❜ ❛  out of all the people here, why do i have to be stuck with you?  ❜ ❛  do you want to go on a date with me?  ❜ ❛  honestly, i don't think i wanna leave the house today.  ❜ ❛  were you ever planning on telling me about all of this?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had another choice.  ❜ ❛  don't flatter yourself, a fifth-grader could've done this as well.  ❜ ❛  you're the most insufferable person i have ever met.  ❜ ❛  here, you look like you need this more than me right now.  ❜ ❛  oh, just so you know, i don't ever lose this game.  ❜ ❛  just let me sleep for five more minutes.  ❜ ❛  alright, is there anything else we have to do before they arrive?  ❜ ❛  do you believe in ghosts?  ❜ ❛  i wish we had more time together.  ❜ ❛  you don't have to leave just yet ... you could stay the night if you wanted to.  ❜ ❛  where are you taking me?  ❜ ❛  trust me, this is the last thing i want to do.  ❜ ❛  i need more time to think about what i want.  ❜ ❛  why didn't you say anything earlier? we could've avoided this whole mess.  ❜ ❛  i don't feel so good, i think i may be getting sick.  ❜ ❛  help me! please!  ❜

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PROMPTS FROM TASKMASTER SEASON 12 *  assorted dialogue from the tv show, adjust as necessary

i was trying to start a heated debate, but no one gives a shit.

see, this is where i think i went wrong.

i feel like i've let down, like, god.

i think the public perception of me is that i'm quite cool.

i don't fear death. in fact, i yearn for it.

i want you to look at me the way i look at you.

it's the most passive-aggressive, calculated personal attack that i've ever experienced.

this is gonna summon something.

i'm not confident about it.

i've got a black belt.

are you ready, babe?

if i knew what cool was, i would not have arrived at this point in my life.

is there anything really basic that you don't know how to do?

do you know what that is, [name]?

i believe that's what you call a shelf.

it's like being on holiday in the '70s.

i'm going to have to make another one.

do you know i recently completed a master's degree?

i did the right thing.

what is beatboxing?

i knew you wouldn't let me down.

i don't want anything to do with you.

how does that look?

you could have stopped that sentence way earlier.

if you bump into anything, i'm going to prod you with it to stop it happening.

is it electric?

don't put pressure on me.

it looks like you're holding a piece of paper.

look down here!

that's a lovely twist on a professional sport.

i'm trying to express myself in different ways.

we've known each other 25 years and you've never heard me do this before.

do you have a favorite number?

you're a very charming woman.

are you serious?

i just want to visit once. could i?

lobsters are red, oceans are blue, i won't give you crabs if you let me marry you.

i'm so happily married.

if you got mad and killed a guy, i would be your alibi.

have you proposed to anyone before?

in a galaxy far, far away, everyone has tiny penises.

i was going to do great things.

i don't know what the hell's going on.

don't penalize me for that one.

i can't relax.

i always laugh when i'm nervous.

how can i add to this?

can you blow on my neck?

is that a thing i can ask you to do?

i'm not really up for this.

is that what happens at a certain time of day?

i don't remember at all.

me and you are different.

it's like looking in a mirror.

who created this atmosphere? i didn't.

can you let me in?

you look great.

i have flapjacks with me at all times.

i learnt that on instagram.

science is key.

that's the thing that ruined it?

i think that's actual dirt.

this is rather splendid.

i use it at least once a week.

is it weird that i want to slap it a little?

i hate everybody!

would we need snacks of some kind?

that's an hour well spent.

there's a word i've never used before in life. it's called hindsight.

can i touch one of those ducks?

i really wanted to do some substantial damage.

you've got to dig deep.

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𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙱𝙰𝚁𝙰  𝙺𝙴𝙰𝙽  𝙴𝙳𝙸𝚃𝚂    [...]    𝙼𝚄𝚃𝚄𝙰𝙻𝚂  𝙼𝙰𝚈  𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙰𝙲𝚃.

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YOUR  APPEARANCE  CAN  BE  A  WEAPON  AS  POWERFUL  AS  ANY  KNIFE  OR  GUN.

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verse  001    (  gotham  universe.  )

barbara  follows  canon  events,  from  her  troubled  fiance  of  jim  gordon  arc  in  season  one,  to  her  insane  in  the  membrane  arkham  arc  after  being  forced  to  murder  her  own  parents  by  the  ogre,  and  all  the  way  through  that  wild  ride  that  was  seasons  three  to  five.  i  cannot  think  of  any  immediate  canon  divergences,  but  i’ll  be  sure  to  add  any  in  when  they  come  to  me.  this  verse  covers  every  event  before  the  finale’s  timeskip.

verse  002    (  post  -  series  universe.  )

this  verse  is  set  in  the  future  timeline  gotham  presented  in  their  finale.  babs  is  now  a  mom  to  barbara  lee  gordon,  daughter  of  jim  gordon.  she  thrives  as  a  successful  businesswoman  and  semi  -  reformed  career  criminal,  though  she’s  still  more  than  happy  to  get  her  hands  dirty  when  she  needs  to.  

verse  003    (  the  walking  dead  universe.  )

this  version  of  barbara  remains  similar  to  her  canon.  prior  to  the  outbreak,  barbara  kean  was  still  a  former  art  gallery  owner  turned  woman  who  ran  her  own  criminal  empire,  dealing  weapons    &    running  a  nightclub  called  the  sirens.  the  switch  happened  after  a  serial  killer  known  as  the  ogre  kidnapped  her  and  forced  her  to  murder  her  own  parents,  putting  babs  in  arkham  asylum    (  and  a  coma  after  she  later  escaped    &    tried  to  murder  her  ex-fiance's  new  girlfriend  )    for  a  hot  second.  the  only  parts  of  her  background  i’m  erasing  are  any  with  supernatural  elements,  such  as  her  resurrection,  the  demon’s  head,  etc.  as  those  do  not  fit  in  with  twd  lore.  when  the  walkers  started  swarming,  few  survived.  babs,  and  her  two  right-hands;  tabitha    &    selina  stayed  together,  forming  a  survivalist  group  that  would  later  become  known  as  the  sirens.  at  first,  they  let  whoever  could  benefit  them  in,  but  after  a  betrayal  from  a  man  called  butch,  barbara  closed  invites  to  women  only.  they’ve  got  a  bit  of  a  reputation  for  targeting  other  survivors  for  supplies,  weapons,  anything  it  takes  to  survive.  their  base  is  an  underground  bunker  they  discovered.  and  yes,  it’s  important  to  note  babs  still  does  all  these  things  in  heels.

verse  004    (  supernatural  universe.  )

this  version  of  barbara  remains  similar  to  her  canon.  the  name  barbara  kean  hit  the  press  when  a  human  serial  killer  known  as  the  ogre  kidnapped  her,  and  forced  her  to  murder  her  parents.  mind  was  never  the  same  after  that.  it  snapped  and  when  she  was  found  trying  to  kill  her  ex-fiance’s  new  partner    (  twice  ),  they  put  her  in    an  insane  asylum,  but  not  before  a  short  coma.  here,  a  corrupt  demon  known  as  dr.  hugo  strange  experimented  on  the  patients.  by  the  time  barbara  was  released,  having  been  incorrectly  declared  sane,  there  was  no  going  back  for  her.  she  slipped  out  of  normal  life  and  entered  the  criminal  underworld.  that’s  where  she  met  bela  talbot.  these  days,  barbara  has  put  herself  in  the  neutrality  side  of  humans  vs.  supernatural,  selling  weapons,  occult  antiques,  etc.  to  the  highest  bidder,  demon  or  hunter.  her  business  takes  place  in  her  night  club,  the  sirens,  which  allows  all  creatures  as  long  as  they  pay.  on  top  of  this,  her  and  her  girls,  also  known  as  the  sirens,  have  a  violent  reputation.  in  this  verse,  barbara  has  died  at  least  once  at  the  hands  of  her  own  friend,  tabitha.  she  was  resurrected  by  a  demon  known  as  ra’s  al  ghul.  when  barbara  killed  ra’s  al  ghul,  she  became  head  of  a  group  of  demons  known  as  the  league  of  assassins;    a  cult-like  organisation  of  supernatural  trained  killers,  which  babs  allows  people  (or  monsters)  to  hire  for  the  right  (expensive)  price.  this  has  also  given  her  the  gift  of  precognition.  

verse  005    (  the  boys  universe.  )

barbara  kean  is  a  vought  experiment  gone  wrong  at  sage  grove  center.  once  an  innocent  art  dealer,  she  found  herself  driven  criminally  insane  when  a  human  serial  killer  known  as  the  ogre  abducted  her  and  forced  her  to  murder  her  parents  to  survive.  she  then  tried  to  murder  lee  thompkins,  her  ex-fiance’s  new  partner.  this  final  act  saw  her  originally  sent  to  arkham  asylum,  but  following  an  escape  (and  a  second  attempt  on  lee’s  life),  a  comatose  barbara  was  instead  sent  to  sage  grove.  here,  she  (like  many  other  patients)  was  used  for  compound  v  testing.  this  gained  barbara  the  name  siren,  due  to  her  abilities:    enhanced  senses    /    agility    /    strength    /    voice  mimicking    /    and  perhaps,  her  most  lethal,  a  variation  of  siren  songs.  the  first  is  a  low,  enticing  hum,  that  acts  in  a  hypnotic  manner,  lulling  her  intended  victims  to  her  and  creating  the  illusion  that  she  is  the  person  they  love  most  rather  than  barbara.  while  under  the  spell,  these  people  are  devotely  loyal  to  her,  but  this  can  come  to  an  abrupt  end  if  the  illusion  is  shattered.  the  second  is  a  sharp,  piercing  shriek  that  creates  a  sonic  blast,  usually  triggered  when  enraged.  this  song  can  shatter  glass,  throw  people  across  the  room  and/or  can  kill  due  to  causing  internal  bleeding  if  piercing  enough.  the  third  is  a  constant,  never-ending  ringing,  that  creates  madness.  this  madness  can  linger  even  when  the  song  stops  if  suffered  long  enough.  upon  realising  that  barbara’s  mental  capacity  was  too  unstable  to  bear  such  power,  vought  made  an  attempt  on  her  life.  unfortunately,  they  didn’t  count  on  her  already  have  being  under  her  spell,  using  hospital  employees  to  break  her  free.  these  days,  she  runs  an  underground  nightclub  that  also  serves  as  a  weapons  armory.  she  often  deals  to  the  highest  bidder.  

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basic  information.  

full  name:  barbara  sloan  kean. nickname(s):  babs,  barbara  queen,  queen  of  gotham,  siren,  the  demon’s  head  formerly.  aliases:  none. name  meaning:  barbara  is  a  given  name  used  in  numerous  languages.  it  is  the  feminine  form  of  the  greek  word  barbaros  meaning  "stranger"  or  "foreign". date  of  birth:  25  december,  1983. place  of  birth:  gotham  city.  gender:  cisfemale. pronouns:  she    &    hers. sexual  orientation:  pansexual. occupation:  businesswoman,  owner  of  the  sirens  nightclub,  weapons  dealer,  mob  boss,  career  criminal. temporary  occupation(s)  depending  on  verse:  leader  of  the  league  of  assassins,  agent  of  ra’s  al  ghul. former  occupation(s):  art  gallery  owner.  education:  highschool  graduate,  college  drop-out.  living  arrangements:  mostly  dependent  on  birth.  barbara  originally  lived  in  a  penthouse  apartment,  though  she  gradually  stayed  there  less  and  less  the  further  she  slipped  into  the  underworld  of  gotham.  from  that  point,  she  lived  more  from  place  to  place  than  one  specific  address  too  long.  

physical  information.  

face  claim:  erin  richards,  main.  sydney  sweeney,  younger.  hair:  various  shades  of  blonde,  with  an  ever  -  changing  style  that  gets  shorter  and  shorter.  red  in  future.  eye  colour:  blue,  with  hints  of  grey.  height:  five  foot,  four  inches.  tattoos:  three  doves  flying  upward  on  her  right  wrist  from  when  she  turned  eighteen.  scars:  bullet  wound  in  her  arm,  scattered  bruises  from  falling  out  a  window,  scattered  bruises  from  numerous  fights,  bullet  wound  in  her  leg.  piercings:  ears,  tongue.  signature  scent:  spiced  cinnamon,  blood  orange  hand  cream,  peroxide  hair  dye,  that  fresh  new  shoe  smell,  men’s  aftershave,  vodka,  gunpowder.  

abilities.  

high-level  intellect/expert  tactician.  both  of  which  allow  her  to  be  a  strong,  albeit  unhinged,  leader.  barbara  is  highly  trained  at  coming  up  with  plans  and  tactics  in  order  for  her,  or  her  team,  to  come  out  on  top.  leadership  skills  were  proven  when  she  was  able  to  run  the  underworld  of  gotham,  as  well  as  be  the  leader  of  the  sirens.  after  killing  ra’s  al  ghul,  the  members  of  the  league  of  shadows  swore  their  allegiance  to  her.  network.  as  a  prominent  figure  in  gotham  and  its  ugly  underworld,  barbara  has  connections  to  many  other  crime  families.  this  appears  to  be  known  to  most  people  as  jim  gordon  always  goes  to  her  when  he  needs  answers  or  information.  she  has  become  a  well-known,  and  feared,  figure  in  gotham  city.  skilled  manipulation:  barbara  has  perfected  the  art  of  deception  and  manipulation.  she  learnt  from  a  very  young  age  that  her  appearance  could  be  a  weapon,  and  she  isn’t  afraid  to  use  that.  however,  it  isn’t  her  only  trick.  she  also  knows  the  right  words,  the  right  approach.  expert  hand-to-hand  combat/later  martial  arts:  originally,  a  lot  of  barbara’s  fighting  ran  on  brute  force,  anger  and  insanity.  anything  around  her  could  be  a  weapon  she  wasn’t  afraid  to  use,  including  her  heels.  though  she’s  often  underestimated,  people  usually  learn  to  never  make  that  mistake  twice.  after  being  resurrected  by  ra’s  al  ghul,  she  trained  alongside  the  league  of  shadows,  thus  upgrading  her  skills  to  something  a  little  more  professional    &    a  lot  more  lethal.  expert  markswoman.  babs  is  highly  trained  in  using  firearms,  including  being  able  to  shoot  people  directly  in  the  head  from  a  long  distance.  the  art  of  self-defence  was  taught  to  her  as  a  young  girl,  and  she  only  further  improved  those  skills  when  she  entered  the  criminal  underworld.  she  had  to  if  she  wanted  to  be  in  charge.  expert  knife-wielder.  this  girl  can  and  will  stab  you.  

equipment.  

various  guns/firearms.  given  the  fact  barbara  has  been  a  weapons  dealer,  her  own  collection  is  extensive.  she  primarily  uses  a  golden  handgun,  which  is  her  main  weapon  in  all  verses  including  the  walking  dead. knives.  and  believe  her,  she’s  always  got  more  than  one  hidden  somewhere.    cattle  prod.  all  the  better  to  knock  people  out  with!  this  weapon  makes  a  particularly  frequent  appearance  in  her  walking  dead  verse.  hand  grenades.  because  a  gal  never  knows  when  she  might  need  to  blow  something  or  someone  up.  

familial  information.  

mother:  rita  kean,  deceased,  murdered  by  barbara  herself  after  being  kidnapped  and  driven  insane  by  the  ogre.  father:  everett  kean,  deceased,  murdered  by  barbara  herself  after  being  kidnapped  and  driven  insane  by  the  ogre.  siblings:  none. children:  barbara  gordon,  verse  dependent.  extended  family:  the  sirens,  girl  gang.  jim  gordon,  ex-fiance  and  father  of  barbara  [verse  dependent].  

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