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S͟a͟v͟a͟g̲e͟ L͟o͟v͟e͟

Pairing: Jimin X OC. Jungkook X OC

Length: 10,000+ words

Rating: 15+ (it has no sexual activity or extreme violence, but has adult themes like cheating, toxic relationship, pregnancy and swearing, some mention of sexual themes but not graphic)

TW/Content: Angsty,angsty fluff, sadness, anger, mild violence (punching), depression, low self esteem, toxic relationship, hateful words, gaslighting, emotionally abusive, jealousy, mentally abusive, arguing and shouting, OC is chubby, unrequited love (but not really), male best friend is always there, clueless best friends, cheating, pregnancy (not OC) fluffy best friend, swearing, bad body image, Angst with happy ending, feelings exposed.

Kissing and hugging, mention of sexual things but no actual sexual content.

(Maybe in a part two if I feel like it)

But Jungkook has soft dom energy in the way he talks to her and treats her.

OC and Jimin being savage loves in their own ways. Taehyung being her secret rant buddy, who listens to her melt downs.

Genre: Angst, Toxic relationship, break up, angsty with a happy ending. Best friends being clueless.

Authors note: Not proof read but checked quickly by myself, was written in a day so it just flew out of my head.

Capitals means they are shouting or screaming at each other, which means that when she tells Jimin off she is really MAD!

Wanted to prove I could write something without the story getting sexual or yandere etc. And I would SHARE IT!

Sorry about the font, but not going over it to change it now. Had trouble with copy and paste, but I like it this way!

Link to a savage love Drabble below.

Master List Link: here

Savage Love Master List: here

Second Part (Standing Next To You): here

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S͟a͟v͟a͟g̲e͟ L͟o͟v͟e͟

Flashback

"𝑰'𝒎 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅...."

𝑨 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒊𝒔 𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔, 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆.

"𝑪𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑰𝑪𝑬! 𝑾𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲!”

𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒔 𝒖𝒑 𝒕𝒐 𝒖𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒖𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒇𝒖𝒓𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒎𝒆.

"𝑺𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒆𝒓, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕!"

𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒙𝒂𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅.

𝑰'𝒎 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒄𝒌 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆.

"𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏? 𝑯𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏'𝒕 𝒊 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒂𝒍𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒚? 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅'𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒆𝒏 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏! 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓'𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆!"

𝑰 𝒚𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒌𝒆, 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒆.

𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒊'𝒗𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒆𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉.

"𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆! 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆. 𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒂 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅. 𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔! 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒍𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕!“

𝑯𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒎𝒔 𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒆𝒈𝒈𝒚 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒚 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅.

"𝑬𝑿𝑪𝑼𝑺𝑬 𝑴𝑬! 𝑰𝑻 𝑾𝑨𝑺 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑨 𝑶𝑵𝑬 𝑵𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑱𝑰𝑴𝑰𝑵! 𝑶𝑹 𝑳𝑰��𝑺!"

𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒃𝒚 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒆.

"𝑺𝒉𝒖𝒕 𝒖𝒑 𝑪𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆”

𝑯𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒓𝒚.

"𝑰 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑺𝑯𝑼𝑻 𝑼𝑷! 𝑺𝑯𝑬 𝑫𝑬𝑺𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑬𝑺 𝑻𝑶 𝑲𝑵𝑶𝑾”

𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒙𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒎𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒅𝒍𝒚.

𝑷𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒊𝒍𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒖𝒎𝒂 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏....𝑮𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕!

"𝑰 𝑺𝑨𝑰𝑫 𝑺𝑯𝑼𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲 𝑼𝑷!"

𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒉 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒂𝒏 𝒂𝒈𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚.

𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏'𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆 𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒉𝒚𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒆𝒓, 𝒂𝒔 𝒉𝒆'𝒔 𝒂 𝒑𝒊𝒆𝒄𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒉𝒆’𝒔 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒑𝒉𝒚𝒔𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆!

"𝑯𝑶𝑾 𝑫𝑨𝑹𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑮𝑬𝑻 𝑰𝑵 𝑴𝒀 𝑭𝑨𝑪𝑬!"

𝑪𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒑𝒐𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎.

"𝑫𝒐 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝒕𝒐𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏! 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒑𝒊𝒆𝒄𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕!"

𝑯𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒉𝒂𝒊𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒔 𝒑𝒖𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌.

"𝑰'𝒎 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝑨𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑪𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒕𝒔 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏'𝒔 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚. 𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒌𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚. 𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒄𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒘. 𝑯𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒊𝒏𝒗𝒐𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒈𝒐. 𝑯𝒆 𝒌𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒆𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒘. 𝑺𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕"

𝑯𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒔 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒌𝒆 𝒎𝒆.

"𝑭𝑶𝑹 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲𝑺 𝑺𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝑴𝑨𝑵𝑫𝒀! 𝑰 𝑺𝑨𝑰𝑫 𝑰 𝑾𝑶𝑼𝑳𝑫 𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳 𝑯𝑬𝑹!”

𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅, 𝒔𝒐 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆.

𝑴𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒔, 𝒊'𝒎 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒑𝒔𝒆, 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒊'𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒑𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒄 𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒌.

𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒂𝒅𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒑𝒆𝒐𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒔𝒖𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒖𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝑻𝒂𝒆𝒉𝒚𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒉 𝒈𝒂𝒑𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒑𝒆𝒏.

𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒈𝒐𝒆𝒔 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑𝒔, 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒖𝒏 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒊'𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆.

𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝑰 𝒑𝒖𝒕 𝒖𝒑 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏?

𝑪𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒏 𝑨𝒍𝒊𝒄𝒆, 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒑𝒖𝒕 𝒖𝒑 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔, 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒅𝒆𝒍𝒖𝒅𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍!

"𝑺𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒆?"

𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒆𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒊𝒎.

"𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒚, 𝒘𝒆 𝒘𝒊��𝒍 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝑰 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖, 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝑺𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒏𝒐 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏, 𝑰 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒈𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒑𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒈𝒐 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒍𝒖𝒃𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆. 𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒊 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒗𝒐𝒖𝒓, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒅.."

𝑯𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒓𝒚 𝒈𝒂𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒄𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒂𝒖𝒍𝒕 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏.

𝑰 𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒊𝒄𝒊𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒏𝒂𝒑!

"𝑫𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕! 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑱𝑰𝑴𝑰𝑵! 𝑰 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑯𝑨𝑻𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼! 𝑮𝑬𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑯𝑬𝑳𝑳 𝑨𝑾𝑨𝒀 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑴𝑬! 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑫𝑰𝑫 𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑺 𝑻𝑶 𝑴𝑬? 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑻𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑬𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑰𝑻 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑨𝑫𝑬 𝑴𝑬 𝑭𝑬𝑬𝑳 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝑺𝑯𝑰𝑻. 𝑰 𝑾𝑨𝑺 𝑵𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑺 𝑩𝑬𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑰 𝑴𝑬𝑻 𝒀𝑶𝑼!”

𝑰 𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒔 𝒎𝒆, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝑪𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆.

𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒏𝒂𝒑 𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒄𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒓 𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒇𝒇 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒂𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅.

"𝑮𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒍𝒖𝒄𝒌! 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒈𝒐𝒕 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒃𝒚 𝒉𝒊𝒎. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒕, 𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒐𝒏 𝒎𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓'𝒔. 𝑺𝒍𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒉𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒂 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒏𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅, 𝒃𝒆𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒔. 𝑻𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒐𝒇 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏, 𝒂𝒍𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒏𝒂𝒏𝒕, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝑺𝑻𝑫'𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒔𝒐 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒄𝒌𝒆𝒅. 𝑯𝒆 𝒈𝒂𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒅𝒆𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅, 𝒂𝒏𝒙𝒊𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇. 𝑩𝒆𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒆! 𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒓!"

𝑰 𝒔𝒄𝒐𝒇𝒇 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒊 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒂𝒕 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏, 𝑰 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒛𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰'𝒎 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒖𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒚 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒆.

"𝑮𝑶𝑶𝑫𝑩𝒀𝑬 𝑱𝑰𝑴𝑰𝑵! 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑵𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑾 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑭𝑨𝑪𝑬 𝑨𝑹𝑶𝑼𝑵𝑫 𝑴𝑬 𝑨𝑮𝑨𝑰𝑵. 𝑰'𝑴 𝑨𝑩𝑺𝑶𝑳𝑼𝑻𝑬𝑳𝒀 𝑫𝑶𝑵𝑬!"

𝑰 𝒔𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎, 𝑰'𝒎 𝒂𝒃𝒔𝒐𝒍𝒖𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈.

"𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑯 𝑮𝑶 𝑭𝑰𝑵𝑫 𝑱𝑼𝑵𝑮𝑲𝑶𝑶𝑲 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑨𝑳𝑾𝑨𝒀𝑺 𝑫𝑶! 𝑰'𝑴 𝑺𝑼𝑹𝑬 𝑯𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑴𝑨𝑲𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑭𝑬𝑬𝑳 𝑩𝑬𝑻𝑻𝑬𝑹! 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑯𝑨𝑽𝑬 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑩𝑨𝑩𝑳𝒀 𝑩𝑬𝑬𝑵 𝑺𝑳𝑬𝑬𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝑯𝑰𝑴 𝑨𝑵𝒀𝑾𝑨𝒀, 𝑰 𝑪𝑨𝑵 𝑻𝑬𝑳𝑳 𝑯𝑬 𝑾𝑨𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑫 𝑻𝑶 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑾𝑯𝑶𝑳𝑬 𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑬. 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑫𝑬𝑭𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑻𝑬𝑳𝒀 𝑾𝑨𝑺𝑵'𝑻 𝑭𝑼𝑪𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑴𝑬 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑳𝑨𝑺𝑻 𝑺𝑰𝑿 𝑴𝑶𝑵𝑻𝑯𝑺!”

𝑯𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒕 𝒎𝒆.

"𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹 𝑻𝑨𝑳𝑲 𝑨𝑩𝑶𝑼𝑻 𝑱𝑼𝑵𝑮𝑲𝑶𝑶𝑲 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝑻𝑯��𝑻! 𝑴𝑨𝒀𝑩𝑬 𝑰 𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑳𝑫 𝑯𝑨𝑽𝑬 𝑮𝑶𝑻𝑻𝑬𝑵 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝑯𝑰𝑴 𝑩𝑬𝑭𝑶𝑹𝑬 𝑰 𝑴𝑬𝑻 𝒀𝑶𝑼, 𝑺𝑶 𝑰 𝑾𝑶𝑼𝑳𝑫 𝑯𝑨𝑽𝑬 𝑵𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹 𝑮𝑶𝑻 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑨𝑺𝑺. 𝑨𝑺 𝑯𝑬'𝑺 𝑾𝑯𝑨𝑻 𝑨 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑳 𝑴𝑨𝑵 𝑨𝑪𝑻'𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬. 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑳𝑰𝑲𝑬 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑺𝑬𝑹𝑰𝑨𝑳 𝑪𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑮, 𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑨𝑳𝑳𝒀 𝑨𝑩𝑼𝑺𝑰𝑽𝑬, 𝑮𝑨𝑺𝑳𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑨𝑺𝑺!𝑰 𝑯𝑨𝑽𝑬 𝑵𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑹 𝑪𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑻𝑬𝑫 𝑶𝑵 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑬𝑽𝑬𝑵 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑼𝑮𝑯 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑫𝑬𝑺𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑬𝑫 𝑰𝑻. 𝑺𝑶 𝑲𝑬𝑬𝑷 𝑴𝒀 𝑩𝑬𝑺𝑻 𝑭𝑹𝑰𝑬𝑵𝑫𝑺 𝑵𝑨𝑴𝑬 𝑶𝑼𝑻 𝑶𝑭 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑺𝑻𝑫 𝑹𝑰𝑫𝑫𝑬𝑵 𝑴𝑶𝑼𝑻𝑯! 𝑮𝑶𝑶𝑫𝑩𝒀𝑬 𝑨𝑺𝑺𝑯𝑶𝑳𝑬!“

𝑰 𝒚𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒑𝒖𝒔𝒉 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒇𝒇, 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝑱𝒖𝒏𝒈𝒌𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕!

𝑰 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝑻𝒂𝒆𝒉𝒚𝒖𝒏𝒈 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒑𝒊𝒆𝒄𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒐𝒇𝒇, 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒇𝒇.

𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝑰 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓 𝑪𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒆'𝒔 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒕 𝒉𝒊𝒎, 𝑰 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒍𝒂𝒑𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒎.

𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒍𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒈𝒉, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰 𝒅𝒐, 𝑰'𝒎 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒓𝒆𝒆.

𝑰'𝒎 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒂𝒔 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒐𝒇𝒇, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒕𝒐 𝑱𝒊𝒎𝒊𝒏 𝒊𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎.

𝑵𝒐𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆!

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All I can do is sob and I can't think of anything else, I can't sleep, I haven't showered or bathed in four days and I haven't thought of eating either, I tried to but it tastes like cardboard.

I feel like I just got out of a fever dream, one of my own stupid making.

I bet I look dreadful, I know my eyes are swollen and bloodshot and my face is definitely all puffy and red, I know I’m looking awful.

My hair is probably looking like a literal bird's nest right now and my eyes will also be looking black too from zero sleep.

I bet I look like the crypt keeper right now, but a fat one!

I muted my phone calls at first, then I turned it off where there were annoying notification sounds coming from all my social media too.

Some randoms I didn't even know had been messaging me, I know they are just trying to get the dirt on the absolute shit show that is my life right now.

I know they all filmed what has to be the most humiliating moment of my life, I hope my brother doesn't see it but I bet Jungkook heard about it from Taehyung who was there too.

Taehyung was a good friend to me but it was secret because he was my fellow rant buddy, he knew things I couldn’t tell the others.

So that means Jin probably does know.

I don’t want any lectures or pity parties.

I cringe knowing that everyone is gonna say I told you so, but really they all don't know the truth of why I stayed with him.

Someone was banging on my door for half an hour yesterday but I didn't answer it, just in case it was Jimin.

As I didn't want to see him or listen to his gaslighting ass.

He tried knocking on the door and calling all day Sunday after his baby momma and her friend had told me what he had done.

This is the thing he couldn't ever fix, not this time...It's permanent.

And my toxic nightmare is finally over...It’s finally done.

Why does he always do this to me?

He always cheats on me and then comes back telling me that he was wasted, drunk or the woman came onto him.

Then he manipulates me, lies, gas lights me and then cries if I don't listen to his apologies.

He knows how much it messes with my head, with my body image, especially when the women are tall, model looking and slim.

I'm short and also chubby, I wear glasses and wear cute and comfortable clothes, not short tight dresses.

Someone is currently banging on my door again and I just pull the quilt over my head trying to hide from the whole world.

I can hear someone shouting but I just put my hands over my ears and hum childishly under the blankets wanting the shouting and banging to stop.

When the banging stops I sigh, why don't they get that I don't want anyone's pity or fake sad faces, I don't want anyone asking me bullshit questions under the guise of being nice just so they can get the tea about my trauma.

And I definitely don't want to see Jimin.

I don't want to talk about how my heart has been ripped from my chest and stomped on, and not just by Jimin.

Or how there is no coming back from this, no lie or manipulation can make this go away, it's the permanent kind of mistake that I don't want to live with or have to deal with, not anymore.

I can't keep my mind occupied from what really torments me, I usually distract my mind with the drama Jimin brings me but not anymore, this is too much.

Jimin made his bed and he can damn well lay in it, we are done and I'm finally grieving the utter disappointment, disaster and despair that my relationship with him has been.

This whole relationship has damaged my soul and will leave a permanent mark.

Toxic wasn't a strong enough word to describe what our relationship was.

When I jumped into this relationship it was to forget someone else, but it never worked.

I’d never have to be there waiting for him to come home from the club anymore, or knowing I’m sleeping alone yet again.

Calling him only to get voicemail again or texting and seeing that he’s left me on read for the thousandth time.

Having people DM me to tell me that they are sleeping with Jimin or that they have just seen Jimin cheating with someone.

Or the multiple women’s scents lingering on his clothes, the occasional makeup smears on his shirt.

The marks he insists are scratches or pinch marks from working out.

My heart is no longer in my chest and I feel hollow and empty, but I also feel a strange calm, a feeling of relief that I can finally break free from this toxic and painful farce of a relationship.

It's cathartic and it feels like I have broken free from him mentally, emotionally and physically.

I'm grieving the painful loss but I'm scared of being alone after all my friends left or betrayed me because of him and of course some left because of me staying with him after his cheating.

It's been three years of me eating away my sorrows, crying into my best friend's arms, getting medication to deal with my depression and anxiety because of the pain and suffering.

Three years of my body looking worse and me not caring about my appearance anymore, because that's how I feel inside...Worthless and hollow.

Like I would never deserve or get the man I really wanted, he’s proven time and time again that he only wants to be my best friend.

When I think about it I don't ever remember a time when Jimin wasn't hurting me or making me feel like a piece of garbage.

Our honeymoon period was about six months and then it went to shit, then I found out he had cheated.

My friends all warned me away from him when I was in my first year of college and I should have listened, I was stupid and thought I could see the best in people.

One by one my friends had arguments with me about him, lost interest because of my depression and me not going out much anymore, or they slept with Jimin too.

The only ones I still see are my brother Seokjin and my best friend Jungkook, even though they don't see me as much due to them having arguments with Jimin about how he treats me.

Taehyung is sometimes still around when we are together as a group due to Jungkook and Jin though.

I see Taehyung on my own sometimes because he knows my big secret. He was there at a really bad time for me one night and saw my terrible meltdown.

No one else knows he is my rant buddy though, not even Jungkook or Jimin.

But I don't see Yoongi or Namjoon anymore because they detest Jimin.

I have lost count of the amount of times Jin had Jimin by his shirt threatening to punch his lights out.

Jungkook punched him once for sleeping with my other best friend Sharmin, they were doing it behind my back for six months.

This was at the beginning of the second year of our relationship.

My other childhood friend Denise slept with him on a drunken night out too, it was the night that I went to my auntie's wedding with Jin and Jungkook.

Jimin didn't want to come to the wedding with me because my family really hates him and he refused to be judged by them.

I wasn't aware that they all knew he was a cheater because Jin had told them.

That incident with Denise was the first time I was aware of him cheating on me, others already knew he was a cheater and they all tried to shield me from it.

They tried to force Jimin to break up with me but he never did, he would just goad them and tell them to fuck off.

It’s why Yoongi had punched him, he was vile about it and had got up in Yoongi’s face too.

The others knew because they had caught Jimin in the act multiple times, they had all threatened him, had him by the throat and had even punched him.

A mutual friend of all of ours Taehyung took a picture of them kissing in the club that night and had sent it to Jungkook’s phone, who totally gave it away by the look on his face and I found out because I grabbed his phone feeling worried for him.

It was then that he told me everything and explained how it wasn't the first time, I also found out that day that Jimin was cheating on me the whole time.

He promised to change and I believed him like a stupid idiot, I clung to a useless pipe dream.

Should've known better.

Jungkook has been my best friend since we were six and we have both grown up together, we went through our teens learning and making mistakes.

We had shared our first kiss when we were 13, a peck and it was a dare whilst we were ditching at his house and Jungkook was a little awkward for a few weeks after but we got over it.

Nothing else like that happened for at least a year after, I think we were fifteen when it started to happen again.

Both of us started having a rebellious stage that sort of started when we were thirteen but got worse when we were both sixteen.

We were bunking off school and daring each other to do things, getting drunk and smoking weed.

We once went skinny dipping because of a dare and another time I had to flash him, we had our first French kiss together at 16 too and we made out grinding on each other when we were wasted too, but Jungkook obviously didn't remember it because he got a girlfriend two weeks later.

We are the kind of friends who are comfortable cuddling and sharing a bed, telling each other our secrets and dreams.

I had a huge crush on him all through my childhood and teen years, by the time I was sixteen I knew that I was totally in love with him.

I lamented the whole thing and tortured myself about telling him, I was worried that I would lose him.

I was finally going to tell him on my seventeenth birthday after my other friend Denise told me to go for it, but a few days before I was going to surprise him he got a girlfriend and my heart literally broke into pieces.

I stayed being his friend and had to watch him be with another girl, so I had to learn to separate my crush from my friendship.

The only boyfriend I have ever had was Jimin.

I told Jungkook I had a boyfriend when he asked me what the surprise was but I didn't have one.

I lied when he got his first girlfriend and wasn't spending as much time with me, by the time he finished with the girl I just said I split up with the fake boyfriend.

I also lied and told him I had sex with that boyfriend before I met Jimin, I didn't though.

He was disappointed at me for staying with Jimin and our relationship suffered a lot because he would get angry at me every time I forgave Jimin.

Jungkook would argue with me, with our hurt feelings he would stay away for a few days, then come back knowing how hurt I would be to lose him too.

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I panic when I hear the keys unlock my front door, wondering who the hell would have the spare keys.

Who would be able to get them from my mother?

I hope it's not Seokjin as he will kill Jimin this time and I don't want him to get arrested due to me.

I grip on to my quilt when I hear the footsteps approaching, I don't want anyone to see me like this.

"Princess?"

I breath hitches immediately and I hear him sigh, he tries to pull the quilt from me.

"Baby, come on it's okay, let me see you"

I pull the quilt from my head and my lip quivers when he looks down to me with sad eyes.

"Oh my Princess, come here"

He pulls me into his arms and I straddle him crying my heart out, he smooths my back softly rocking me.

"It's okay Baby, it's gonna be okay. I'm here now and I'm gonna take care of my Princess"

Jungkook has come like he usually does. Why does he always come to save me, comfort me and look after me?

I don't deserve his kindness and love.

He's had to put up with this kind of shit for the three years of me being with Jimin and he still hasn't left this friendship.

"I heard from Taehyung that you had a huge argument in college with Jimin, he only picked up some details, I'm so sorry Baby. You don't deserve this kind of pain, my Princess. I tried calling you and texting and you didn't answer, I got really worried when you didn't answer the door to me Baby. I had to go get the keys from momma when you didn't answer the phone or the door"

He caresses my hair as he carries on gently rocking me, he's always called my Mother momma too.

"He...He...J-Jungkook..He..I.."

That's it I start sobbing again.

"It's okay Baby, you don't have to talk about it yet, don't upset yourself"

He coos at me kissing the top of my head.

"Don't cry Princess, it hurts my heart, please don't cry"

He sounds forlorn when he talks to me, it’s like he is in pain too.

My cries eventually turn into shudders and I calm down.

I must have fallen asleep in his arms because when I open my eyes again it's dark outside.

He must be stiff from holding me in the same position for so long.

"Are you awake?"

I hear him whisper and I nod into his chest.

"Shall we get you something to eat, and don't say no because I know you haven't ate anything in days, I know you by now"

He quietly says into my hair.

"Not hungry"

I mumble into his chest and he tuts at me.

"Baby, you have to eat! Now I'm gonna help sort you out and we are gonna have something to eat okay!"

Jungkook scolds me and I sigh and slowly start to nod because I know he won't take no for an answer.

"Let's run you a bath first and then get you into some comfy pyjamas, then I'm ordering us some takeaway, okay Princess"

I just mumble okay into his chest.

Jungkook places me on the sofa and goes off to run me a bath, I hear the water running and him moving about.

But being left to my own thoughts gets me crying again, by the time he comes back I'm in a state again.

"Oh my Baby! Come here!"

He says sadly pulling me into his arms picking me up, I cling to him like a koala and just sob.

I think I'm crying for many reasons, the reason I got into the relationship in the first place, the constant cheating, the outcome of said cheating, finally being done with the relationship.

How unloved, drained and damaged he has left me feeling and me feeling like I'm actually going to be free from it, it's finally over.

It's like I feel utter relief, but I'm numb because I carried on with this shit show for only one reason and now I have to live with my thoughts again, my pain.

"Come on my Princess, I'm going to help you alright. Is that okay? I won't look at you, but you need to wash and get into some clean clothes. Is that okay?"

I don't reply at first and just panic in his arms, he can't see me with no clothes on, he will be disgusted and think I look horrible.

He only saw me in underwear a few years back, once when I flashed him as a teen and once naked in the shower by mistake when I was about nineteen, I've put on weight since then.

"Princess?? Answer me! Words...Is that okay?"

Jungkook has a stern voice when he asks me and I just nod in his chest.

"Words Baby"

"Hmm okay, y-yes"

I mutter quietly.

"Okay let's go to the bathroom"

He softly replies, pecking my hair.

Jungkook puts me down and I just stare at the ground feeling flustered and embarrassed.

"Arms up Baby, good girl"

I slowly put them up and he slowly pulled my hoodie off.

Then he reaches for my t-shirt and I start to panic because I have no bra on and he is going to see my chubby belly too

Grabbing on to the bottom of my t-shirt to stop him he tuts at me.

"Princess! Are you gonna do it yourself? What's wrong?"

I shake my head and tears start to drop from my eyes.

"Y-You can't see me, I'm gross! J-Jimin said he only cheated because I've turned into a fat pig and I look disgusting! I d-don't want you to be d-disgusted by me or my fat!”

He now looks really angry with me and he cusses loudly.

"He fucking said what?! How dare he talk about my Princess like that! I'm gonna punch his lights out when I see him next!!"

Jungkook looks furious and I start worrying that he is going to get in trouble and I'm not worth getting arrested for.

"NO!! JUNGKOOK! You can't get arrested because of me! I'm not worth it!"

I panic and he just sighs at me.

"You ARE worth it! To ME you are worth it! You are my beautiful best friend and I would go to jail...for you"

He tells me with no hesitation in his voice.

"Now stop being stupid, I could NEVER be disgusted by you! Come on, I won't look! Let's get you in the tub before it gets cold"

Jungkook adds pulling my top off looking me in my eyes, my arm goes to my belly immediately but he doesn’t say anything.

He just kneels down and tugs at my leggings looking to the side, then he gingerly takes my socks off.

Only my panties are left so he quickly yanks those down and stands up only looking me in the eyes.

"Come on Baby, get in the tub"

I quickly get in and pull my knees up to my chest, he gives me a small smile and nods to himself in reassurance, picking up my dirty clothes to put them in the washing basket.

"The sponge and body wash is there. I will help you do your hair first okay. Then you can wash yourself, alright Princess"

He quietly says pulling the shower attachment to rinse my hair, I sigh as he runs his fingers through my long tresses.

Stopping he puts shampoo on and massages it in making me hum and put my head back.

"Does that feel relaxing Baby?"

He gives me a little chuckle as I nod.

After finishing my hair he tells me to wash my body and he's going to go order some food.

I nod and gingerly pick up the sponge washing myself all over, after I'm finished he knocks back on the door and asks if I'm ready to get out.

I reply that I am and he walks in holding up a towel and wrapping me up in it.

Then he picks me up and walks me into my room.

He proceeds to dry my hair first and then tells me to dry my body, he goes off when the door buzzer sounds off.

I get myself dried and look at the loungewear set he has set down on the bed for me.

I grab the top first and quickly put it on, then I quickly pull on the bottoms.

Jungkook walks in just as I finish and gives me a small smile.

"Let's put your hair in a plait or something first. The food is here Baby, so let's hurry up and go eat"

I nod and he comes over to comb through my knotty hair, then he does it in a side plait.

Afterwards we sit down to eat, well Jungkook eats and then forces me to eat by feeding me himself when he sees that I just push my food around on my plate.

When he is satisfied that I have eaten enough he cleans the dishes and we snuggle up in my room to watch one of my comfort films.

We watch spirited away, he knows it won't trigger me or remind me of Jimin because he never watched anime with me, he hated it and called it childish.

As I cuddle up to Jungkook I wonder how I can be so lucky to have such a great best friend.

He has always been there for me, he has never left me even after the arguments we have had about Jimin.

Jungkook even put up with Jimin's horrible attitude every time he came to mine, with the constant sarcastic comments and the loud scoffing every time Jungkook talked to me.

He ignored it all just to make me happy.

He came on my birthday to see me, on Christmas days too and never forgot any important events, not like Jimin did.

Jungkook has even put me above the few girlfriends he has had and finished with them when they got jealous of our relationship, one demanded for him to stop seeing me and he refused and finished with her the next day.

He refused to go to any dances with girls that asked in high school too because he would always pgo with me.

They didn't like him calling me Princess at all or hugging me goodbye or pecking my head, or when he would hold my hand.

Or when he would drop a date to run to me because of Jimin cheating again, when he would tell them he couldn't spend Sundays with them because it was our day together.

I sometimes feel really bad anxiety and guilt about what he has given up due to me, am I stopping him from being happy, from finding love?

I actually told him this once, to stop finishing with his girlfriends because of me and he said if they didn't like his Princess then they aren't the one for him, that they have to be able to deal with the fact that his best friend is a woman.

All of his relationships were short and he told me he never loved them, that it was easy to choose me over them.

But I still feel riddled with an uncomfortable guilt about ruining his relationships and interfering with his dates too.

I feel like I'm subconsciously trying to keep him to myself or that I'm messing with his relationships on purpose because of my own problems and feelings.

That I was toxic because I stayed with Jimin not only because I was trying to forget Jungkook but because he would come comfort me and spoil me for weeks after Jimin had cheated.

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Jungkook has stayed with me all week, he even called the college for me and got me my notes from any classes I needed.

He has been a godsend and an Angel like he always is.

He even spoke to Seokjin and my mother when they came round and I didn't want to talk to anyone yet.

I felt embarrassed because they were all right about Jimin and I had stubbornly ignored all the talks and advice.

Jungkook knew that there was a few videos going around and told me people were actually on my side, but I didn't want to relive it.

Apparently no one at college was saying bad things about me, he told me that they are mad at Jimin for how he treated me AND Candice.

I told him that I still needed a little time and that I wasn't ready to go back and hear the gossip yet.

Jimin tried knocking on the door twice over the last week and Jungkook said I didn't want to see him anymore.

When I finally texted him to come get his things he must have thought he could get in and gaslight me again, but he was definitely not happy when Jungkook was the one that came to the door with a box of his belongings.

He just got into a fight with Jungkook at my front door now too, his attitude stinks.

It happened right after he handed Jimin's things to him in a box because I definitely didn't want to.

Jimin clearly wasn't happy that Jungkook was still with me and had just answered the door in just a pair of sweats and socks with no top on.

Jungkook punched him hard giving him a black eye after he started goading him saying that he must have finally hit it and saw how good my fat ass bounces when you hit it from the back.

That I was really good at sucking dick and that maybe he can finally feel what it's like for me to deep throat him, he was vile with his words.

After that he said that he was glad that Jungkook could finally get with me after pining after me for so long and how horrible it must have been for Jungkook having to listen to him fuck me raw all those times he slept over.

Then I gasped when he said that he made sure that I used to scream extra loud the nights Jungkook stayed over, just to give him something to wank off to, where he felt sorry for him.

That he stayed with me just to piss Jungkook off and how he always used to laugh with his friends when he used to see how sad and love sick he was over me. Jungkook totally lost it punching him again making his nose bleed.

He was absolutely fuming when he slammed the door in his face, it made a picture fall on the floor and I could see how furious he was as he paced around the room.

I just walked over and cuddled him, it stopped his pacing, luckily it calmed him down enough to not go beat Jimin's ass, because he looked ready to go back to the front door and kill him.

When I asked him if he was okay he just kissed me on the head and then nodded silently, then quietly saying he just needed a few minutes alone, then he walked off to the bathroom slamming the door hard.

I sat there feeling really uncomfortable because of what Jimin had just said to Jungkook, surely Jungkook doesn't feel that way about me, he would have told me...Wouldn't he?

He always told me everything, we never kept secrets from each other.

Why was Jimin saying those things?

I knew Jimin was jealous of Jungkook and that's all it sounded like up until the fight I last had with him and he had mentioned Jungkook in jealousy.

But what Jimin just said to him was too much, what does he know that I don't?

What did Jimin see that I didn't?

I know that I have always loved Jungkook but he never felt that way about me, did he?

When Jungkook doesn't come out of the bathroom I quietly walk over to the door on top toes, I’m about to knock but I pause when I hear him sniffling and clearly crying.

Why is he crying?

Do I still knock? What if he's crying because he can't take my shit anymore and all of this has finally gotten to him?

I pick up the courage to finally knock after agonising about whether to disturb him or not.

"Jungkook? Please let me in"

I plead with him, feeling guilty that he's crying because of Jimin and what he just did.

He goes quiet and I hear the tap turn on and water splashing, then I hear him let out a loud sigh.

When he finally opens the door I can clearly see that he has been crying, his eyes are red and puffy, his nose red.

He looks so down and sad when he looks at me though, I frown at his defeated demeanour.

I absolutely hate seeing him cry, Jungkook has never been one to shy away from his emotions but it has always made me cry whenever I saw him crying.

Cuddling him immediately because I can't bear to see him suffering or sad, I fling my arms around him.

His arms go around me squeezing me tightly and I hear him sniffle again.

"Jungkookie please don't cry! I hate seeing you cry Kookie. Please tell me what's wrong, what's upset you?"

I ask him mumbling into his muscular torso.

"I..I can't Princess...I can't tell you. I don't want to ruin our friendship, I don't want to lose you"

Jungkook sounds so broken as he replies to me, I'm worried that he has betrayed our friendship in some way and is too scared to tell me.

"Kookie, nothing would ever make me stop being your friend. You are my person, my everything and my soulmate. You have been there for me when everyone else betrayed me or hurt me. You know nearly all my secrets and I know yours! The only ones I haven't told you about were for the sake of our friendship. I know our friendship has been strained over the last three years because of Jimin, but you have always been there for me, even when you were mad at me, you still came back to comfort me"

I tell him still hugging him.

"Not ALL my secrets Princess, that's why I can't tell you and what do you mean for the sake of our friendship?"

He finally sighs, squeezing me a little tighter, but sounds puzzled when he asks me.

"Oh..Umm I'm not sure whether it's even worth me telling you now as it doesn't really matter because I can't go back in time and change anything"

I mumble into his chest feeling shy and too scared to tell him.

"Baby, just tell me. If it was so long ago then what does it matter?"

I sigh, biting my lip and wondering if I should just tell him.

"I...Please don't leave me if I tell you, I can't take you leaving me too Jungkook, promise me. And technically it started when I was a child but it's not long ago too as it has still not ended. It’s still relevant”

I inhale a big intake of air after he promises that he won't leave me, I finally tell him what I have hid from him for sixteen years.

"I had a huge crush on you all through my childhood and teenage years. But when I was sixteen I realised that I actually loved you romantically after we did that dare and kissed and got off with each other when we were drunk, but you acted like you forgot. I was going to finally tell you later on when I was seventeen after agonising about it but...but you got a girlfriend a few days before I was going to tell you. I was going to surprise you in a cute way but it was too late, so I lied when you finally asked what my surprise was and I told you I had a boyfriend, but I didn't. I...I was also a virgin and hadn't ever been with anyone else or had a boyfriend when I met Jimin when I was nineteen. You were the only person I had kissed or had ever done anything sexual with. I stayed with him because I didn't want to ruin our friendship and every time you got a new girlfriend I would just forgive Jimin because it hurt me too much to be left with my thoughts of you being with another woman. I have always felt guilty about it and felt like I was ruining your real chance at love. So I just stayed with Jimin because you kept losing your chance at love because of me being a fucking screw up and I knew you couldn't possibly love someone who looked like me. All of your girlfriends were so beautiful and looked like models, I knew I stood no chance because I'm small, not pretty and dumpy. I'm not them. I also walked in on you having sex with your girlfriend a few days later when I was seventeen and cried for a whole week. I lied and said I had the flu and didn't come to school for a whole week”

I stop and it's totally quiet, he doesn't say anything for a few minutes and neither do I.

I'm just waiting for him to walk out on me and tell me he could never love me like that.

"Oh Princess! I'm so sorry!"

He suddenly starts crying again, but he is not just crying he's sobbing.

"I..Th-That is all my fault! I..I listened to a friend who told me to get a girlfriend to try to get over liking you. I didn't like her, I just didn't want to fuck up our friendship..and.. and he said I had to get over you. Because you clearly weren't interested like that, especially after you didn't acknowledge our drunken dare I thought you didn't remember either. OR that you wanted to forget it! When you lied and said you had a boyfriend, that you had had sex. I was so hurt and in my anger I slept with...with that g-girl! It was dreadful and I felt awkward doing it with someone I didn't love. WHY? WHY DID YOU LIE? WHY TORTURE YOURSELF AND STAY WITH JIMIN BECAUSE OF ME? YOU HURT YOURSELF AND ITS ALL BECAUSE OF ME!"

He gets louder as he starts to sound almost angry with me.

"I lied because it fucking killed me Jungkook and my friend said that I should really try to get over it and realise that you only loved me as a best friend! I couldn't understand how we always ended up doing things when we were drunk or daring each other but acted normal when we weren't. I saw you two all over each other on the bed the day before I told you and lied that I had sex, I went to your house and ran out when I caught you. You must have liked her or you wouldn't have been kissing her like that Jungkook. And you never told me you liked me either and after we kissed that time when we were thirteen too, you also acted like it was a mistake! And what friend?"

I exclaim back as he is not going to just lay this at my front door!

"It was Hoseok! What does it matter now?"

He scoffs at me and I chuckle sarcastically now, he has to be kidding.

This has to be a cruel joke, Hoseok?

"You do know that Hoseok kept asking me out and I refused him loads of times! I even shouted at him one time that I was already in love with someone else. I got so exasperated with his persistence and even though I didn't admit it he guessed it was you and I just walked off without confirming it. He did that because he was mad that I refused him so many times, I hope you know that! And you had so many girlfriends over the years and kept talking about your great sex life in front of me! Even before I got with Jimin! SO WHY THE FUCK WOULD I THINK OTHERWISE JUNGKOOK?”

I yell at him, sounding exasperated, throwing my arms up.

He looks really shocked at what I just said, then his whole expression darkens and he now looks really angry.

"That piece of shit! If I ever see him again I'm gonna punch him! After you got that boyfriend I tried to act like a normal friend because I thought you didn't like me either. And I only did that the last three years because Jimin would constantly talk about doing sexual things with you every time he spoke to Taehyung in front of me. Or when I would come over even. And I literally hate fucked those women where I was so mad all the time. I never told any of them that I loved them, I always left them when they tried to tell me to stop talking to YOU! Loads of them demanded that I choose them and I NEVER DID ALICE! I CHOSE YOU! I never did because...because I.."

Jungkook is exclaiming really loudly at me before his defeated voice drops off getting quieter.

He sighs, running his hand over his face.

"And do you know I haven't slept with Jimin for about six months! I told him to prove he loved me. And every time he cheated again I barely went near him for ages. So as you could imagine it was a lot of time with no sex. Because of what Jungkook?”

I’m so exasperated with this whole thing and it shows when I talk.

But when I ask him the last question I go dead still waiting for him to answer, it feels like ages before he finally does answers.

"Because...Because I love you Alice, I have loved you since we were kids. But I was scared to lose you and I didn't think you wanted me like that. When I kissed you that day when I was thirteen I felt so happy, but I was also scared that you would think it was a mistake and stop being friends with me. I even panicked that night when you slept over, because you almost caught me having a wet dream about you and I thought you heard me! So I joked off the kiss the next day so I wouldn't get hurt or that you would think I was moaning your name because of that! Then as we got older even though our dare's were getting more sexual you always talked about crushes and wanting to get a boyfriend one day, that you would have one who would be your best friend. But I didn't think you meant me, I thought you were going to get a new best friend and forget about me. And my friendship with you was always special to me”

He pauses his actual rant running his fingers through his hair then he carries on sighing.

"When you got with Jimin and I had to see you kiss him for the first time I was so upset I ran off and I think Jimin saw me and realised that I loved you. That's why he said all those things! He would also start grabbing you and kissing you on purpose to see my reaction, he even used to look right at me or smirk at me. I thought it was because he knew I hated him for cheating on you, but it was to flaunt it in my fucking face! Do you know how that felt, to watch him treat the woman I loved for so long like that! Did you know that I almost left here for a once of a lifetime internship about two years ago, I couldn't watch you two together anymore. But he cheated with Sharmin just before I was going to leave and you were so upset that I couldn't leave you in that state! So I bailed on them and lost the internship! But he would always goad me saying things like you had just had make up sex and was a little sore and horrible things like that. That the neighbours complained last night because of you screaming. But now I know it was all fucking lies!"

His hands are moving everywhere as he speaks, he looks so frustrated and angry.

I'm about to reply and he starts ranting at me again, unloading everything.

"I feel like I have been fucking stuck in limbo since I was a teenager! Never being able to move on because I can't love anyone else! It’s like we were in an emotional relationship. There is no one else I can imagine having kids with or marrying, no one else I could ever imagine living with because in my imagination and dreams it's always you!They are just never you and they never will be you. It's why I always picked women that I wasn't really that attracted to and that looked the furthest thing from what you looked like! I didn't want to feel like I was using them as a replacement or as a substitute! Because no one could ever replace you in my mind”

He looks really hurt and is just unloading the mother of all rants on me, the pent up energy is just spilling out of him.

“One girl finished with me because I was moaning your name in my sleep and it clearly wasn't a normal dream! It's no wonder they were always jealous of you, I have pictures of us in my apartment everywhere. I have your clothes in my apartment, your toothbrush, your deodorant, pyjamas, your favourite food, your favourite films even! I never called them Baby or Princess, they got no pet names. All of my phone is filled with pictures and videos of us together, my phone screen is of one of us together too. My wallpaper on my computer is even of us together. I finished with a girl once because she threw a picture of us together as kids against a wall in a fit of jealousy and it smashed and she ruined it too! I have only had angry one night stands for eighteen months because I couldn't go through these bullshit lies about liking these women anymore. I lied about having girlfriends to you too”

He lets out a huge huff of air where he is literally panting from spilling every last piece of frustration from the last sixteen years.

Jungkook stops his angry rant and looks down at me with a horrible hurt look in his eyes, my heart clenches at his pain because it’s my pain too.

His hand tenderly reaches for my face, placing his hand on my cheek, rubbing his thumb against it.

I tenderly place my hand over his and lean into his touch, closing my eyes.

"How dare he hurt my Alice, MY ALICE! I have wanted to beat his ass so many times over the years. Please never go back to him. I couldn't bear it, not again. I would leave for good, because I just can't handle watching it anymore Alice, it’s been destroying me. Please give me a chance, I would never treat you like that or cheat on you. I meant every word I said Baby, I love you so much. No one will ever love you as much as I love you, I love you so much that it hurts to be apart from you. I love you so much that I stayed because you are my home and my heart, my everything and I would be hollow without you"

Jungkook tells me with tenderness in his voice.

I open my eyes to finally look up at him, he leans in to give me a firm kiss on my forehead, then each cheek, then finally he leaves a lingering chaste kiss on my lips.

When he pulls away his face is still right by mine, my eyes scan his face and he is so beautiful, his dark doe eyes look more hopeful because I didn't stop him from kissing me.

I place my hand in his hair pulling his head back to mine pressing his lips against mine and as soon as his lips part I kiss him with a fervent passion my tongue caressing his, because I'm so hungry for this kiss, I'm finally able to kiss them like I have imagined so many times over the years.

He picks me up so fast making me straddle him, his lips still furiously kissing mine as he groans into my mouth.

Jungkook walks over to the sofa sitting down with me pulling me against his body, his hand moves to my waist and the other winds its fingers into my hair keeping me against his enthusiastic mouth making me whimper into the kiss.

When we pull away he keeps his lips ghosting over mine as we pant from the lack of breath.

"I love you so fucking much Jungkook! I always have and I always will, forevermore. I have never loved anyone else but you, it’s always been you. It could never be anyone but you”

I pant as my hot breath falls against his lips.

"My Princess, my Baby, I love you with every single part of my soul. My Alice. My beautiful girl, my best friend, you have never been anyone else’s but mine”

He replies, squeezing me tighter.

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After our big argument we decided to take it slow but we are finally together, we laugh now about how stupid we both were as teenagers.

But we have been having really long deep conversations all the time to get through the hurt we have put each other through.

We both thought it was wise to heal first and not to jump headfirst into a sexual thing yet.

I have some really happy parents right now who told us it was about time we both realised that we loved each other, that it was so obvious to everyone but us.

They are all happy that Jimin is now a thing of the past, that I finally broke it off with him.

They were terrified that I would get pregnant and have him stuck in my life for good.

It's been six weeks since I split from Jimin and he still keeps trying to call me and message me on social media.

I blocked him a few times and he keeps getting new accounts, Jungkook finally texted him and told him to back the hell off.

He wasn't happy with Jungkook and told him to mind his own business.

Every time we see him we walk off in the opposite direction before he can see us.

We have been still taking it slow and I've been back at college for two weeks now, no one has noticed that we’re a couple where we were so close before anyway.

We are liking it that way for now, so there is no pressure from anyone.

People just thought he was being extra cautious and protective with me, so they didn't say anything when he held my hand or fed me food in the cafeteria.

Well they did think that, until Jimin just tried to approach me again today in the cafeteria and Jungkook told him to get away from me.

I can see everyone already whispering and I can see his baby momma watching us with a hurt look on her face, I notice her belly looking bigger than before and her friend is definitely looking pissed.

"What damn business is it of yours Jungkook? Let me speak to Alice and stop being the pathetic unrequited love disguised as a best friend”

Jimin sneers at him loudly before looking back at me, I hear an 'oh shit!' from Taehyung who knows Jungkook is probably going to punch him.

I'm about to stand up to tell him to get lost and to not speak to my boyfriend like that but Jungkook beats me to it.

"Best friend? You are a little behind on the news Jimin. Ha ha ha!! What you say to MY GIRLFRIEND, very much affects me”

He replies loudly standing up in his seat pushing his tray away, we hear gasps from people.

"ABOUT TIME! IT WAS OBVIOUS!”

Someone yells out, I dart my face to the sound source but I don't see who it is.

Pretty sure it was Taehyung though as he knew I loved Jungkook, I realised that he may have known that Jungkook loved me too.

Not that I can hold it against him as he kept my secrets, one of my darkest secrets. So it’s only fair he kept Jungkook’s secrets too.

"YOU AND HER! Oh you finally wormed your way in there and took advantage of my little mess. I always knew you wanted to take Alice from me. Do you think I didn't see all your love sick looks and those times you would walk off when I was kissing her. She is definitely on the rebound, how does it feel to be the rebound, poor Jungkookie! How did it feel to watch the girl you loved be kissed by me and to have to listen to her getting fucked by me"

He mocks him, sounding really angry and Jungkook jerks towards him where he is about to grab him but Jungkook pauses his head darting to me when I slam my drink down making a mess.

I’m just about ready to upload all of my frustration, anger and trauma on him, I’m ready.

"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP JIMIN! YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS THE STAND IN, THE FUCKING REPLACEMENT. WHERE I COULDN'T HAVE WHO I REALLY LOVED. YOU COULDN'T HOLD A CANDLE TO JUNGKOOK. HE AND I HAVE BASICALLY BEEN IN AN EMOTIONAL RELATIONSHIP FOR SIXTEEN YEARS AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE! BUT WE WERE TOO STUPID TO ADMIT WE HAVE LOVED EACH OTHER SINCE WE WERE CHILDREN. HE WAS WHO I THOUGHT ABOUT WHEN I DREAMED, WHO I THOUGHT ABOUT WHENEVER I DID HAVE SEX WITH YOU, WHICH WAS RARELY DUE TO YOU CHEATING SO MUCH! WHO I DREAMED ABOUT MARRYING. DON'T YOU REALISE THAT I HAVE NEVER SAID I LOVED YOU TO YOU, NOT ONCE! DID YOU NEVER NOTICE THAT I ONLY EVER REPLIED ME TOO. NOT THAT YOU HAVE EVER LOVED ME ANYWAY! BUT I ALWAYS TOLD JUNGKOOK THAT I LOVED HIM! AND EVEN IF HE DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS IN A ROMANTIC WAY, IT WAS! HE IS A THOUSAND TIMES THE MAN YOU ARE. HOW DOES IT FEEL TO KNOW I LOVED ANOTHER MAN THE WHOLE TIME I WAS WITH YOU?”

I’m shouting so loud that I’m surprised the college security hasn’t come yet.

I hear someone suddenly yell out.

"YES SAVAGE! Tell him Alice! He damn well deserves it. He is the ultimate piece of shit!”

I look and see that it's my old friend Yoongi who grins at me, he hates Jimin and punched him really hard once.

Jungkook is smiling at me, I can tell that he is really proud of me.

"HOW MUCH OF A BASTARD ARE YOU THAT YOUR BABY MOMMA FIANCÉE IS OVER THERE, AND YOU ARE TRYING TO GET ME BACK! WHY? JUST SO YOU CAN TELL ME HOW FUCKING FAT I AM OR HOW I AM SOOOO DAMN LUCKY TO BE WITH YOU?? WHY? SO YOU CAN TREAT ME LIKE SHIT AND CHEAT! OR WAS IT JUST SO YOU COULD RUB IT IN JUNGKOOK'S FACE? YOU KNEW HE LOVED ME AND THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TO MAKE HIM FEEL LIKE ACTUALLY LEAVING! SO HE DIDN'T HAVE TO WATCH YOU TEARING ME DOWN AND MAKING ME LOSE WHO I WAS! YOU MADE ME LOSE ALL OF MY FRIENDS BECAUSE OF YOUR CHEATING! SLEPT WITH MY FRIENDS! AND STILL TRIED TO TAKE THE ONLY ONE I HAD LEFT BY TRYING TO PUSH HIM TO LEAVE TOO!"

I shout so loud that everyone is most definitely listening.

"Tell him Baby! Unload it all!"

Jungkook mischievously grins at me.

"I WILL SAY THIS ONLY ONCE. YOUR SEX WASN'T SHIT COMPARED TO JUNGKOOK'S AND YOU DON'T EVEN COMPARE IN SIZE! HA HA!YOU COULDN'T EVEN GET ME OFF SO I HAD TO THINK ABOUT JUNGKOOK EVERY TIME! I WAS ONLY WITH YOU TO TRY TO FORGET ABOUT JUNGKOOK! SO FUCK OFF AND DON'T TALK TO ME AGAIN! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR BULLSHIT AND I FEEL SORRY FOR CANDICE HAVING TO PUT UP WITH YOUR TOXIC CRAP FOREVER! I HATE YOU WITH A PASSION AND WOULDN'T CARE IF I EVER SAW YOU AGAIN! I WASTED THREE YEARS OF MY LIFE ON YOU AND I CAN NEVER GET THEM BACK! WHY WOULD I WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER THREE SECONDS MORE LISTENING TO YOUR RIDICULOUS RUBBISH! NOW LEAVE BEFORE I LET MY BOYFRIEND BEAT YOUR ASS LIKE HE HAS BEEN DYING TO DO FOR THREE YEARS!"

I sneer at him panting from my insane rant and I move to Jungkook who looks really proud of me for standing up for myself against Jimin finally and for what I just said.

He smirks and kisses me like he misses me and I don't care, I let him.

"WOO HOO!! THAT IS THE ALICE I MISSED!"

My friend Yoongi shouts out and Namjoon hollers out too whooping, I lost both of them due to Jimin.

My old friend Denise even whistles at us because she found out exactly what Jimin was like first hand too.

Taehyung even shouts out loudly.

"ABOUT DAMN TIME JUNGKOOK! I WAS LOSING HOPE THAT ALIKOOK WAS EVER GONNA BE A REALITY"

Jimin scoffs at us and finally marches away, my whole body goes pliant in Jungkook’s arms as I relax finally.

"I'm so fucking proud of you my Princess! My sex is much better huh, how do you know Baby? Or is that the sex you had in your dreams or imagination when you needed to get off? Hmm I like thinking that you were imagining me and I might have been imagining you at the same time. Now if he ever tries to get under my skin by saying something I can say that it was me who used to make you scream”

He groans in my ear, oh he likes that I thought about him every time or had to use him to get off.

We haven't had sex yet, just a little light foreplay until we both feel ready, as we are both still healing from years of suffering and trauma we put ourselves through.

"I know. But I couldn't have him mock you Kookie. I was about to punch him and I had to give him the cold hard truth. The way he talked to you was vile, I wasn’t having it, not anymore. That was the only part I lied about though, Kookie. As your dick is almost twice the size of his. THAT I didn't lie about!"

I giggle when he pecks all over my face.

"You two! Is this what I'm going to have to put up with every time I'm at Kook's now?!"

Taehyung shouts out groaning and I look to see everyone staring at our PDA, we cough and he pulls me to his lap and we sit down chuckling as we eat our dinner in peace.

Yoongi congratulates us as he walks to class with us and Namjoon said that he's proud of whoever went for it and confessed.

He was shocked when I put my hand up saying it was me, but he says he's damn proud patting my head.

Tells me that I’m glowing and look so much happier now, that he’s so happy for us.

Yoongi tells me that he is so glad that I’m finally free from that nightmare and Candice actually did me a favour.

Denise messaged me on Instagram telling me that she was sorry about what happened between us and that she is actually glad that I'm finally away from Jimin.

That he is one manipulative, toxic man.

That she was happy that I finally got with Jungkook after all those years of pining, she of course knew because I told her in high school.

She said it was so obvious over the years that we still loved each other.

I feel so damn amazing, I have had friends talk to me again for the first time in a year and I just told Jimin where to go.

AND I finally told him the cold hard truth!

Truths I couldn't admit to even myself before and now I'm brave enough to scream them at Jimin in the cafeteria in front of everyone.

I've finally broken the chain of toxicity and distrust, I'm utterly free.

And when I look up at Jungkook I couldn't be happier, I'm finally where I was supposed to be all along, with my heart, my soulmate, my person, my Jungkook, my love, my everything.

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PREY. . . RUN!

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PREY. . . RUN - Oneshot!

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader (only pet names mentioned no use of y/n though)

Genre: Hybrids, Predator Hybrid, Prey Hybrid, Role Play Sex Games, Smut, Mates, Consensual Non Consensual, Rough Outdoor Sex. Chase Me And Catch Me Role Play, Porn With A Little Plot.

Rating: 18+ Mature Rating, Sexual, Smut, Swearing, Filthy.

Word Count: 8.9k words

Triggers And Content:

Hybrids, Shifter hybrids, Mates, Wolf Hybrid Jungkook, Deer Hybrid Reader, Predator Jungkook, Prey Reader, Alpha Jungkook, Wanting To Get Back To Their Roots, Camping, Weekend Away, Swearing, Outdoor Sex, Sex In The Forest, Role Playing, Consensual Non Consensual, Messy And Muddy, Primal Sex, Rough Jungkook, Dominant Jungkook, Submissive Reader, Chase Me Roleplay, Sexual Content, Degradation, Humiliation, Extreme Almost Sadistic Teasing, Rough Sex, Threats, No Protection (wear protection kids!), Knotting, Rut Mentioned, Heat mentioned, Breeding Kink, Breeding, Biting Kink, Hair pulling, Spanking, Being Held Down, Tugging On Her Tail, Wrists Tied, Strength Kink, Size Kink, Oral Sex (F), Scenting, Growling, Messy Cum, Creampie, Aftercare, Fluff, They Are Absolutely Besotted With Each Other, Roleplay Slips At The End.

Authors Note:

Someone asked me for a reader fic and as this had no names yet and only pet names I decided to make this one as Jungkook x Reader. Oh a SCUT is a tail it’s not a spelling mistake!

🔞⚠️ NO MINORS ON THIS BLOG!! THERE IS EXPLICIT CONTENT AND TRIGGERING ADULT CONTENT.

The Master List: Here

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“Run!”

The terrifying roar echoed into the forest making a few birds fly off from the trees in fright, sensing the danger below them.

A deep feral growl erupted sending shivers up her back, the small woman’s body reacted in a way she didn’t expect.

The way he growled was feral, raw and animalistic, but rather than scare the woman he exhilarated her and made her heart beat out of her chest.

She could feel him behind her and the heat that radiated from his huge body. He was so much stronger and taller than the little doe hybrid and it aroused her.

The immense presence behind her almost made her knees buckle, his aura was dark and delicious.

His pheromones collided into her like a intense wicked wind, her eyes dilated as she took in a long shaky inhale of his tantalising aroma.

The strong scent of pine and fresh rain combined with his wolf musk invades her senses.

Her arousal peaks and it instigates intense goosebumps that spread across her shivering skin.

A sudden whimper fell from her plump parted lips making him growl like a savage beast.

His pheromones almost drown her as they surround her, making her whine.

This was in her nature, she felt jittery like she should bolt immediately and her very instincts told her to.

But her instincts also told her that the slick she could feel in her panties was not what a prey usually felt when a predator was aggressively growling at them.

Nevertheless, she did bolt, feeling a thrill that energised her very being and vibrated through her, inciting adrenaline to pump around her delicate body.

The predator that told her to run suddenly let out a harsh snarl that she immediately heard and gasped in surprise speeding up.

Excitement erupts on her skin and a whole swarm of butterflies are fluttering inside her stomach.

She knows that he’s going to catch her, because she’s the prey and he’s the predator.

He will smell her overpowering scent and be able to track her for miles, but the chase that it invited was the thrill, a magnificent thrill.

Oh how the woman wanted to be caught because when the predator found her, he would do the most sinful things to her.

The predator watched with his keen wolf eyes not worrying if she left his sight. Knowing that even if she ran far away he could track down her mouthwatering scent anywhere.

His powerfully built body immediately wants to run and give chase, sink his sharp teeth in her pretty, vulnerable little neck.

This exquisite creature was his prey to capture and she was so delicate and fragile, so precious and that made him want to catch her.

His very nature demanded it, to subdue such a delicious creature.

So tiny compared to him, she was able to bring out that primal feeling in him and it made him so very hard.

His wolf hybrid ears twisted, listening for the loud snap of branches, the rustle of leaves against her bare feet, the harsh breathing as she fled and of course the sound of his prey’s erratic heartbeat.

He can obviously hear her for much longer than he can see her, although he can see a lot, even in the moonlight of the forest at night.

His large erection is pressed against his shorts as his bare chest moves faster where his breathing has quickened from pure excitement.

The lust drunk predator can’t help himself as he starts sniffing the air, still feeling frenzied from his prey's scent, the wonderful intoxicating smell of cut grass and wildflowers.

The smell of her enticing arousal was still thick and lingering deliciously around him.

An eager whine erupts from the wolf hybrid's throat, the predator was getting antsy pacing and couldn’t hold himself off much longer.

His very own nature dictated that he follow, that he claim his pretty prize.

And how could he not want to follow that mouthwatering creature, so precious, so small and beautiful.

And all his. . . His little doe, his precious Deer Hybrid.

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Jungkook and I had decided to do something different for his rut, my heat would follow immediately as it always did once his pheromones consumed my senses.

So we decided to go away for a long weekend. We were going camping in the forest near his village.

Jungkook had packed a ton of blankets and pillows so we could build a nest in the tent for our mating, for aftercare purposes.

We had wanted to go back to our roots and get down and dirty with nature.

Both of us have this predator and prey kink, the non consensual chased and subdued type.

We always did some predator and prey roleplay at home but this was different because it was outdoors and he was actually going to chase me as soon as his rut took over his body.

His pheromones would do the rest of the job making me come into my heat at the same time.

Most hybrids are not as wild as they used to be fifty years ago, they are all working jobs and living in apartments and houses.

Back in my grandparents days they lived in secret hybrid communities and had wood cabins.

Mates would find their mate’s in the forest at mating ceremonies and apparently it was commonplace to see two hybrids overcome with their heats and mating up against a tree or on the forest floor.

Many different hybrid communities went to these things especially if their mate wasn’t in their community.

They also didn’t care if they were caught out in the forest mating due to their ruts or heats.

Nowadays hybrids always planned for when they go into their rut or heat, which happens every three months. Partners booked three or four days off work and spent their time mating at home in bed.

Condoms were ready, a nest already made and food delivered daily.

Alpha’s have no condoms due to their knots as they always break as soon as the knot inflates or are too big for them at first and that’s no good.

They just haven’t found one that works properly without it causing issues.

So their partners have to take a special hybrid herb that stops them from getting pregnant.

If you weren’t mated already you either took chemical suppressants or went to a mating clinic to find a heat or rut partner, or got yourself a heat or rut partner on hybridex the dating site.

Or you just got through your heat or rut at home with herbs that lessened it.

Hybrids don’t tend to mate with humans as it’s still very new to humans and hybrids, and there is still some prejudice there.

Especially considering some hybrids were kept as pets and sexually abused by humans before the law changed.

Although I do know of two mixed couples and they face a lot of challenges and bias from both sides of the species. Especially considering that we are also shifters and have ears and tails etc.

Jungkook and I are a bit unusual as he’s a wolf hybrid and I’m a deer hybrid, so we are a predator type with a prey type.

This kink tends to happen on the hybridex dating app a lot as some predators have a prey kink.

But it’s frowned upon by judgmental hybrids to do this if it’s not your mate, but it still happens in the safety of their homes.

The thing is Jungkook was my mate and everyone was shocked to realise that a deer hybrid had a wolf hybrid mate. Well, everyone but Jungkook and I.

He knew he must have a prey mate or at least someone who’s not a wolf.

His first erection was due to a bunny hybrid who he once saw at the edge of the forest and he liked her small size and her scared submissive pheromones.

He always said that as a single wolf on his rut he hated using the other wolf hybrid females in his village as they were always too savage and dominant.

Jungkook told me he wasn’t ever that into it and would have to lie and make out he was to his friends. That’s why we match as he’s into preys and being dominant over a submissive.

I always knew that big muscular predator hybrids would make my heart race and not in a horrible way.

My first crush at 14 was on a tiger hybrid and he definitely knew as he would smell me and hiss as he walked past me.

And of course when I first saw Jungkook I wanted him so badly and I didn’t even know he was my mate at first.

My family were not very happy about it at first because there is still judgement towards predators from preys, even though most predators aren’t very animalistic in nature anymore.

Hybrids have become way more domesticated once we had all gotten accepted by humans and stopped being kept as pets or hiding in the wild. The preys were still skittish and low key distrusting of predators, so my parents were still worried about me.

I didn’t care, I wanted him, the dominant predator who was still very animalistic in nature.

He came from a remote hybrid only predator village and they still indulge in mating rituals and practices. Their behaviour is different from the way we act in the cities now, they didn’t integrate into human society.

But when he turned 24 years old and his mate was definitely not in his village he finally went searching and got a temporary apartment.

Jungkook was actually happy as he didn’t want one of those wolf females as his mate. His parents gave him a year to get his real mate or take one in the village.

When he found me in a club dancing with my bunny friend Jia, his stares all night made goosebumps cover my skin.

His predatory glare as he sat there, buff tattooed arms and piercings on his lip made me feel so hot.

My friend Jia said that she was scared for me because he was staring at me but I wasn’t scared, I wanted him.

He sexily smirked at me running his hand through his hair when I noticed him staring at me, the exciting thrill of such a delicious built predator staring at delicate little me, really turned me on.

I know he could smell it from where he was as his obsidian eyes were dilated and I could see him inhale with a groan.

It wasn’t until he came up to the bar that I realised that he was my mate, his scent was so strong and dominant that my knees almost buckled.

His scent of pine and fresh rain was extremely appealing to me, especially considering that my scent is wildflowers and grass.

We went home with each other that night and were mated before the night was over, his mark on my neck.

He always intended to go home to his village with his mate, but his parents were a bit rude when he introduced me saying I wasn’t a strong predator mate.

So we left the visit with him in a foul mood and he ended up moving in with me in my apartment a week later.

Jungkook was supposed to be the next alpha of his village so they have all been going on to him to come back.

He told his parents that they needed to accept his mate because I’m perfect for him and they judged me before even knowing me. Jungkook is still angry about it, but we are thinking of at least moving nearby, but not quite in the village.

He has taught me some combat skills too and I had fun rolling around and getting sweaty with him.

I’ve been taught by him to use a knife too, he was so turned on when I finally bested him with my knife held up to his throat that he pinned me down and took me right then and there in the gym.

Luckily we were the only people there late at night and in a private workout room.

We always talk about having our own cabin in the woods because we both want to live off the land and get back to our authentic hybrid selves.

This is why we are going on this long weekend trip and having our heat and rut there, we want to see what it would be like if we lived in a cabin by his village.

And we wanted to properly indulge in our shared kinks, because usually I have to fight him off and run in our apartment and it’s not as fun.

Also I’m really good at growing food, my parents have a vegetable garden and some fruit trees too when I was growing up. Berries and herbs too, I’m pretty knowledgeable about it all.

So I’m going to grow some food whilst he hunts for meat.

Deer hybrids are usually traditionally vegetarian’s but after the domestication we eat some meat now.

We thought about releasing more rabbits into the area too. I think it’s a good idea, although I think we can raise chickens here too.

Jungkook will be able to help me set up a fenced garden and everything else needed.

He’s really good at making cabins as they all help to build new homes for the new mates in his village.

Of course it will only be us making our place a home but we are still going to do it if we decide this is definitely for us.

Jungkook sets our tent up as I start to get our other things from the off road vehicle we brought with us.

We have some food here but Jungkook wants to hunt for it too, as his wolf. Because this is part of the “getting back to our roots” experience.

I’m going to go gather some things like berries and herbs whilst here, he’s going to hunt for meat.

We have some cans and the whole set up for cooking over a fire and all of our equipment for now though.

As soon as he has our tent set up we get all the pillows and blankets for inside, our bags with towels and clothes too.

There is a lake right by us so we are going to bathe there too. I'm excited and I’m already certain that this whole experience is going to go well for us.

I can’t see us deciding that this isn’t for us, I can already feel that it’s going to be a good weekend and it’s going to make us feel really positive about making this move.

Jungkook is already looking into land for us to build a home on, some prime real estate that is near to fresh water and food sources.

But near enough for us to go to get things we need if necessary and have medical services and other things at least within a certain distance.

I’m pretty sure he’s trying to buy this very land we are on as the person who owns it knows we are here and he is an older wolf who lives in the village.

Of course he was going to buy some land right in his village at first BUT because of their attitude towards me being a prey type hybrid he didn’t.

He’s going to have us at a decent amount of distance away but near enough if we need anything.

Of course he’s still going to be the Alpha and I know he hasn’t told his parents yet but they will at least like him being near.

My parents live in the city so we won’t be near them, but we can always travel if we need to.

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We had just eaten some soup and some bread we brought and we were now cuddling up in the tent feeling all warm and snuggly.

We already have everything set up, which way to run and what’s going to happen after.

As we also want to fuck around in nature the rest of the weekend too, after our role play we are engaging in to start this off with a bang.

He is really close to his rut as his body temperature is higher and he’s being very possessive and really clingy right now.

“Hmm you smell delicious, my pretty little doe”

Jungkook savagely growls against my neck, licking against his bite mark making me squirm in his arms.

“Ahhh, are you on your rut? Kook?”

I pant as his pheromones fill up the tent and he presses his hard length up against me.

“Fuuuck, yes I think I am, baby”

He whines eagerly into my neck, thrusting against me harder with a lewd groan.

“K-Kook we need t-to do it then”

I stutter feeling my heat approaching, I’m trying so hard to play out our roleplay and not get blinded by my heat.

“I can’t wait to fucking chase you”

He growls snarling, getting up and stripping until he’s only in his black shorts.

I quickly shove a thin white nightdress on and some white cotton panties, it’s what he wanted me to wear so he can rip it off.

Undoing my braid in my hair, I ran my fingers through my hair. So he can pull at my hair too, I let it flow freely down my back now.

“Last time that I’m asking before we actually do this, you still green my little darling? As this will be the last time I ask, no more safe words after this”

He groans needily, looking like he’s already in pain, he’s definitely holding himself back from grabbing me because his hands are twitchy as he palms himself.

Luckily we can both see in the dark as it’s now nighttime now.

“Green my alpha, I want this”

I tell him with certainty, walking out the tent to the edge of the woods.

“Run!”

He animalistically roars out and so loudly too, making it echo into the forest, some resting birds fly off in fright and it makes the whole thing even more terrifyingly delicious.

My heart beats out of my chest at the anticipation and also at the sheer thrill of being chased by Jungkook and what he will do once he catches me.

Fully into his rut and having to chase me down to fuck me, he’s always excited to subdue me in our home.

But this is in the wild and I can run further than ever from him, I jolt almost immediately although it felt like forever.

I sprint into the woods feeling jittery, my very own prey nature, my heart and soul are battling against each other, whilst panicking about being chased by an apex predator, a wolf.

But wanting him to capture me so badly that my arousal is already gathering at my entrance.

My breath is staggered as my bare feet jump over large branches and logs, my deer ears are twitching on my head trying to listen out for danger.

The bright moon in the sky only adds to the dark atmosphere and the primal fear.

Jungkook will be able to smell me as heat rises in my gut and I whimper as my slick saturates my panties and starts to run down my thighs from the very thought of him burying himself in my soaked pussy.

My heat was started by Jungkook’s overwhelming pheromones and I know he will now be able to sniff out my scent from miles away.

I feel like I have been running for ages, my breath is ragged and my heart is thrumming in my chest.

My ears catch a growl in the distance and it reinvigorates me, I gasp running faster.

Jungkook is now not far behind me, my clit pulses when I catch a whiff of his scent and a loud whimper bursts from my mouth.

I can sense him nearby as I hear twigs snapping somewhere behind me, my whole being is on fire at the thought of him catching me.

“Come out my pretty doe, I won’t hurt you”

Jungkook taunts in a deep husky voice.

Gasping, I speed up trying to outrun him knowing he’s twice as fast as me, but still giving him the chase he wants and deers are good at dodging and bolting.

“That’s a lie!”

I exclaim panicking and looking for somewhere to hide as I run, I hear an amused chuckle from not too far away and the sound of hammering footsteps.

“I can smell you, delicious ittle thing. Hmm you smell so fucking tasty darling, I want to breed you and pump my pups into you. When I catch you I’m gonna bury myself in you and fuck you raw”

Jungkook harshly growls out, shouting into the forest with a ferocious snarl.

I let out a needy whine as I find a huge bush to hide, he’s near.

I feel dizzy from his overpowering scent, his very animalistic nature emits the most potent pheromones.

Trying to calm my nerves down and keep my heart steady is hard, I can hear my own heart thundering in my chest.

The harsh woosh in my ears is almost deafening as I try to breath slowly.

The fact that my slick is becoming really uncomfortable as it sticks to my thighs is definitely not going to help as his keen predator senses are extremely sensitive.

If he doesn’t smell me and hear my heartbeat I will be amazed.

“Come out, come out wherever you are! My little prey, I can smell your slick so I know you are nearby. Can’t wait to bury my teeth in your skin sweet thing. I bet you will feel so tight around my knot, look so tiny underneath me as I pound into you”

Jungkook coos, taunting me with his voice and his strong oppressive pheromones that surround the area.

I can hear his bare feet nearby as they crush leaves underneath them.

He’s so near I can hear his harsh breathing where he is on his rut, he lets out the odd whine and growl and I can hear him inhaling loudly trying to sniff me out.

“Fuck, you smell soooo good. Come on my pretty doe, just let me have a taste of your sweet little cunt. I’m not going to hurt you darling, I just want a little taste of such a tasty little treat”

Jungkook seductively purrs and I can hear the feral need in his husky voice, rough with want and desire.

I’m vibrating with need and a little whimper sounds out, I slap my hand over my mouth as soon as I hear an alerted Jungkook growl right by me.

A hand shoots into the bush grabbing my ankle making me yelp as he drags me out of the bush kicking and screaming.

He wanted me to fight him off, so I do. Biting, scratching and kicking him, yelling help as I do.

“Such a feisty little deer, hmm look how tiny and adorable you are. So sweet and ripe for me, I’m gonna take you as my mate so I can enjoy your little prey pussy every single day. Lock you up in my room so I can breed you like the good little prey you are”

He savagely growls pinning me down with his whole weight, placing a hand on my mouth.

My muffled yells sound out against his hand as his rock hard shaft grinds against me.

His eyes are dilated as he stares me down with a menacing smile.

“I can smell how turned on your are, sweetheart. I bet your little cunt is dripping right now for me to fuck you raw. Such a needy little prey slut, you definitely want this predator's cock. Aww do you get off on the danger, baby? I bet you would cum all over this predator's huge knot and beg for my seed. That’s why you are wandering in the forest like a little lost puppy, just waiting for a chance to feel an alpha’s knot”

Jungkook breathes in my ear with a little snarl as his say’s seed and knot, I whimper against his hand shaking my head.

“Such a little liar, if I run my fingers over your desperate little pussy right now, I bet it’s soaked. I bet I could just ram my cock right into your greedy little hole right now, couldn't I, pretty doe? Be quiet now for me now precious or I will choke you on my knot”

He sinisterly smirks at me holding both of my hands above my head, his fingers wrapped around my wrists with one large hand and removing his other hand from my mouth.

“Please. . . Please let me go. . n-no!”

I cry trying to wriggle, whining and quivering when he pulls at my nightie.

His tattooed hand slaps my breast, scolding me for talking, punishing me by roughly pulling at my nipple and harshly pinching it.

Jungkook leans back a bit yanking my white nightie up and tearing my panties right off and bringing them to his face.

He looks like an unholy angel, fallen and covered in the sin of lust, his tattooed and pierced muscular body rippling as he towers above me.

“See, such a lying needy girl. Your panties are absolutely drenched, hmm you smell so damn mouthwatering doe”

Jungkook lets out a feral growl, bringing them to his mouth and licking them, his eyes dilated and looking dark like obsidian orbs.

His nostrils flare inhaling a long intake of air, a muffled whine sounds out against my soaked panties.

“Oh damn! You smell like MINE. Like I’m going to breed you until you carry my pups, puncture my teeth into your skin, mate you and knot you. Then I’m gonna pump into your little prey asshole and knot that too”

Jungkook snarled, groaning, throwing his head back with his nose buried in my white cotton panties.

He moves both of his hands, tearing my white nightie in half in one go, his biceps bulging as he does, exposing me to the cold air making my nipples harden.

My breathing has picked up as I’m finding it harder to keep up the roleplay, as Jungkook’s hormones are bringing on my heat with an intense full force.

Jungkook snarls, wrenching my hair back as soon as more of my hormones escape invade his senses, his tongue running up my neck across my already healed mating mark.

I’m vibrating with a voracious need right now, I want him so bad.

“I’m gonna fuck you so hard, beautiful little doe. I’m gonna stretch out your tiny little pussy with my huge knot and have you sobbing as I breed you whether you like it or not. And I’m going to keep doing it until you are ripe with my little pups”

He savagely rasps in my ear, harshly nipping at my earlobe, he sounds so animalistic I’m gonna explode if he doesn’t do something soon.

My pussy is clenching on nothing and it’s feeling absolutely ravenous for him to fill it.

The sudden movement of him manhandling me and pressing me into the dirt, my nightie wrenched from my skin and chucked aside, makes me gasp in delight, my clit throbbing from how perfect this whole scenario is.

I want this all the time, it’s heavenly and beautifully right for us.

The way he wrenches my arms behind my back and grips onto my wrists eagerly has me yelping out in surprise.

I hear him grunting as something closes around my wrists, he’s using something to keep my arms locked together and really tightly too.

It feels like fabric, it’s wet in the cold air so it must be my panties.

His big tattooed hand grasps my hair pushing my head into the ground, I pant as the side of my face gets filthy from the nature underneath our bodies.

“Fuck yes, look at you, sweetheart. So adorable and tiny under me, presenting for me so well. Hmmm, such a cute little scut too, pretty little tuft. Can’t wait to fuck you onto my cock like a tiny little prey doll. So easy for me to chuck around and manipulate, I really like that. Look at your pathetic little hole dripping everywhere for me, my little doe whore”

The growl he emits is bestial, I shiver in anticipation of what he will do next.

He rubs his hand over my little tail humming in satisfaction as I desperately whimper from how sensitive it is.

Jungkook knows that I get turned on if he touches my tiny tail, he’s really going all out to tease me.

“Hmm, shivering under me too, doe. So magnificent, I’m so lucky I found you here in the woods. Perfect for me to claim as mine and steal you away”

Jungkook lewdly moans rutting up against my naked ass, I can feel his huge rigid bulge through his black cotton shorts and it makes me squirm and twist with a whine.

“Tsk, I think you are enjoying this, slutty little girl. You must have been desperate for some predator dick, that prey cock not doing it for you, pretty baby? You want an alpha wolf to fuck you that bad? Give you what you deserve, poor little pussy needs an alpha's knot to fill it”

He mocks me tugging on my hair and slapping my ass hard enough for me to hiss out in pain, a loud vulgar sounding moan falls out before I can stop it.

“Greedy little prey pussy, you sound like such a needy captive. My poor little desperate baby, don’t worry your alpha is going to give you exactly what you need. Those shitty buck heat partners have left you so damn pathetic and unsatisfied that you will let a strange predator fuck you raw in the middle of the forest. That’s why a slutty little doe like you is out here alone in her heat, waiting for a predator like me to savagely take you and mate you. I’m right, aren't I, pretty little doe?”

He’s leaning over breathing harshly, spouting pure filth in my ear as he degrades me, a feral growl rumbling in his hot breath.

A mewl abruptly falls from my parted panting mouth, I couldn’t help it.

“Stay still for me or I will knot your tight little ass instead. Be good for me my needy little captive”

Jungkook warns me growling at me in a stern manner.

I see him disappear and wonder what he’s doing until I feel his hot breath against my buttocks.

Yelping when he abruptly bites into my cheek with a snarl, he sounds beastial growling against my skin with his fangs buried in my skin.

I’m panting as he removes his teeth, lapping his tongue against the bite with a needy whine.

He starts voraciously cleaning up the mess on my ass and around my thighs earning him a desperate sounding moan from me.

I cry out when he gets nearer to my messy soaked folds and the twist of my body has him reacting by roughly grabbing my tied wrists.

An animalistic growl rumbles from his chest as a warning, making me shudder and squirm.

Another growl vibrates against my folds as he nips onto one of my pussy lips holding it in his teeth as an added warning.

My breath hitches but I try to calm down or he will punish me if I don’t.

Usually I would like that but I am so damn desperate and ravenous that I need him to ravage me.

As soon as I’m compliant he relaxes his grip and rewards me for my submission by burying his face into my ravenous pussy.

His long delicious tongue swipes right through my folds with a greedy whine.

He carries on just cleaning me up until I’m absolutely feral with need, but he doesn’t let me orgasm as he pulls away making me whine out a bratty noise.

This provokes him as a harsh spank for being bratty stings my skin and a spiteful tug on my hair makes me hiss, a starved whimper falls out of my parted lips and a stray tear falls from my right eye.

I feel him pull his shorts off and his harsh body heat radiates from his skin as his scorching hot hip touches against mine.

The wet tip of his length presses against me again and a needy whine blurts out of him, I’m amazed how long he’s held off already.

It feels like he’s edging the hell out of us both, I’m absolutely famished for him and I throw my ass back at him making him slap my ass with a rough palm. I immediately still or he won’t give me what I so desperately crave.

“Tsk, so greedy and starved of good predator cock. Insatiable little thing, aren’t you? I’m gonna give you exactly what you need, precious. You are now being so pliant for me, such a good girl”

Jungkook coos seductively, his leaking tip teasing my hole, rubbing my juices everywhere and making a mess.

“You want this don’t you, baby? I can smell how badly you want me, so horny and turned on after being chased by the big bad alpha. If you want this, fucking beg for it, sweetheart”

Jungkook teases my clit with his length rubbing so slowly around my hole and back again, my thighs are shuddering from the sheer desperation.

“Ahh p-please alpha. . . Hmm”

I shiver, twisting into a squirm where I feel so voracious, craving to feel him fill me up.

“Tsk, you can do better than that my pretty little captive! Much better”

Jungkook snarls as he leans in licking up my back, my tied hands clench digging my fingernails into my palms.

“P-Please Alpha, I. . I need your cock, pl-please fill me up and breed me. I want it soooo b-bad!”

I cry out, panting from the fierce heat building in anticipation.

“Hmm, do you, my little deer? But how will this huge alpha cock fit in your tiny little prey cunt? It looks so tight and small”

He purrs, tormenting me by pressing at my hole and removing it and circling it, I’m about to snap where I’m almost hyperventilating.

I’m absolutely voracious right now and I feel like I’m mourning the loss of him, absolutely bereft.

“Oh fuck! PLEASE ALPHA! I don’t care, fuck m-me with it! I need it, please! I don’t care if it d-doesn’t fit, make it fit! I want you to. . to fill me with your cum!”

I sob frantically and a needy tear falls down my cheek, my slick has reached my knees and I’m vibrating with a feral, insatiable urge.

But I have never felt so alive, my senses are sparking making me feel blissful and everything seems so enchanting around us, so damn perfect and right.

This is everything I have ever needed.

“Such a desperate little doe slut, fuck! You really want it that bad? Look how much your little needy body wants me, your pussy is dripping all over the floor. Once I fuck you I won’t stop, you will be mine forever”

He is sadistically ruthless with his actions, teasing me until I explode or scream from pure frustration.

Now his tip is pushing in and pulling out to rub all over my butt cheeks, how the hell can he be this strong in a rut. Jungkook is the very definition of sinful and predatory as he growls like a feral monster.

I feel like I’m going to cum furiously, the second he pushes in I’m gonna scream my lungs out and squeeze him tighter than I have ever done before.

My pussy is actually vibrating with need, it’s like I’m having one of those tiny unfulfilled orgasms constantly and it’s getting maddening with how gluttonous I feel right now.

My roleplay is about to snap, shatter to pieces if he doesn’t do something right now, I let out a high pitched bleat in total frustration and Jungkook actually chuckles at me.

“Oh dear, is my little doe getting frustrated? Shit, you must really need a big wolf hybrid cock to destroy this little deer pussy. Poor little thing, bleating at me. So worked up, you are literally famished aren’t you, pretty little doll? Just preparing you darling, you need to be absolutely drenched to take a big alphas dick. I can feel your little hole pulsing against my tip, baby. Your prey pussy is starving for me to knot it, such an impatient little darling”

He vulgarly groans, keeping his length pressed against my needy, starving hole as I whine and sob actual tears muttering please over and over again.

Jungkook instantly plunges into me with a fierce snap of his hips, savagely filling me up until I’m stretched to capacity.

I spasm around him, crying out in pleasure where my cruel suffering has ended.

“Hell yes! So tight for me little darling”

Jungkook greedily growls, slapping my ass and tugging at my tuft, the sting and sharp tug hurts so good that I clench around him, making him hiss and twitch inside me.

The lewd squelch of juices as he pulls out then rams back into me is filthy. But the pause again makes me whine sounding so pathetically needy.

“Alpha, please”

I sob trembling, I’m absolutely terrified he’s going to tease me again and pull out of me and drive me ravenous with a maddening need.

I gasp trying to calm myself before I snap and scream at him to fuck me hard.

“Shhh my little doe, your Alpha’s going to knot you and breed your tiny prey pussy and mate you. No need to feel so desperate for something bigger and better anymore. I’m gonna breed you and mate you so well, breed like the delicious little deer that you are, just like you deserve precious”

Jungkook rasps harshly, a rumbling growl vibrating in his chest.

He leans over me covering my whole body with his, mounting me and leaning on his forearms that are by my head. I can hear his harsh breaths as he sniffs at my hair, growling savagely.

As soon as I whine squeezing around him he pulls out slamming back into me. Then he repeats it with a deep groan, I cry out in elation as he starts to pound into me.

He feels so good as he fills me to capacity with his thick length, I’m mewling loudly where he is rubbing past my spot with every buck of his hips.

He always fucks me so good, he really is perfect and looks so hot doing it too.

Long deep strokes feel so amazing.

“Fuuuck you take all of me so well my little doe, your little pussy is so tight and hot. Good girl, my tiny doe, taking your alpha’s whole length like a good little prey. Greedy little dripping cunt is swallowing me whole”

He snarls into my hair getting faster with every punch of his hips, I’m whimpering so loudly as he pushes past my limits and rams into me with a needy whine.

Jungkook laps at the side of my face, pressing kisses everywhere he can reach.

Growling into my neck when he reaches my mating mark, I feel him throb really hard inside me.

“Hmm I can feel you creaming my length so well pretty little thing, I’m all sticky around my balls. Desperate little prey”

He husks nipping at my mating mark and I quiver eagerly, bleating excitedly.

“Oh shit, I really like it when you bleat. It’s so fucking hot little doe, my pretty baby”

He whines sucking on to my mate mark and I orgasm all over him, he knew what he was doing as I wail grinding against him.

My cries are mixed with moans, whines and bleats that provoke Jungkook to spear into me even harder as he fucks me past my intense overstimulation.

Long deep strokes feel so good with his huge alpha wolf dick, he’s impossibly solid and leaking precum everywhere.

The sloppy gush of all the milky liquids overflowing with every plunge is absolutely filthy and nasty, it sounds so vulgar.

He’s bucking into me so hard and fast that I’m wailing, his growls and snarls into my neck as he threatens to bite me pressing his sharp canines against my mark make me shiver from anticipation.

“Damn, so tight and hot! I’m gonna mark you again my pretty little darling. My sweet doe, I’m gonna breed you baby. I need to, fucking need it! Please let me”

He whines, pressing harder into my skin, almost piercing it.

“A-Alpha, I won’t take the m-medicine after. Breed me. . . please”

I sob, tightening around him where another orgasm is brewing and fast.

Our roleplay is breaking slightly as he drives into me with a feral need to breed me.

“Good girl, gonna breed you so well. So perfect. . . so magnificent. My tiny little doe, you feel sooo amazing. Such a good little mate for let. . letting me breed you. Gonna fill you up”

He snarls, sinking his teeth in my neck, re-marking me as his.

My orgasm abruptly explodes making me cry and blissfully grind back against him, a feral growl vibrates against my skin as he starts cumming in me.

I can feel him pulsing in me as he slams inside me bottoming out with a lewd sounding moan.

His knot starts inflating as he continues to flood my womb with his cum.

Jungkook’s teeth remain buried in my neck as his knot inflates until I’m filled to capacity and panting.

Once his knot is seated snuggly inside me he pulls his canines out and licks lovingly at my renewed mark.

I’m whimpering from feeling so turned on still and I quiver because of the strong aftershocks of my fierce orgasm.

I feel so full of him right now, he’s always utterly perfect.

“You take my knot so well sweetheart, my precious doe. My good girl, finally letting me breed you. Thank you my sweet little mate. I loved chasing you, I’ve never felt so hard and turned on in my life. I usually last much longer, but I had an insatiable desire to catch you and breed you. I love you so much baby”

He cooed, pressing kisses into my neck, licking lovingly at my sensitive mark.

“I absolutely loved it, I’ve never felt something so exquisite. The way you chased me down and teased me was intense but I feel content, filled with a perfect gratification. I feel dazed like I’m floating. This is definitely perfect for us and I want this all the time. I love you my amazing alpha, I want your pups. But I think I squirted!”

I pout feeling dazed from the afterglow.

Jungkook chuckles at me jiggling against me, making me whine as his knot moves inside me.

“Me too, I want this all the time too, baby. This whole thing felt so right and perfect. Can’t wait to see our little pup. And you did squirt, I think it trickled down my balls, ha ha!”

Jungkook laughs making his knot shift, he hissed as I whined clenching hard around him.

“Shit, sorry my pretty little baby. Didn’t mean to hurt you darling”

Jungkook soothed in my ear, pressing soft kisses everywhere on my shoulder, face and neck.

“I’m good babe, you didn’t hurt me. I’m just feeling extremely turned on still, I really liked your teasing I was feral for you”

I pant feeling so turned on still.

“Yeah? Well we can’t have that, I can’t have my pretty little mate feeling unsatisfied or left feeling horny. I want to make sure that I mate you so good that you can’t fucking walk”

Jungkook husks in my ear licking across my face with an insatiable desire.

I feel his knot throb inside me as his hand moves down to my sloppy wet folds and starts rubbing at my swollen aching clit.

I am squeezing him so tightly as I squirm, shivering with delight as he nips at my skin around my mark to tease me.

Of course I can’t move my arms or hands so I’m trapped underneath him twisting as I gasp fluttering around his solid knot.

My senses are tingling as I’m filled right up by him as his hot muscular body pins me down.

His long hot tongue is lapping across my shoulders and neck, putting his dominant scent all over me. And every so often his sharp teeth are nipping and softly biting against my skin.

And his knot is still leaking cum inside me, I can feel the lewd pulse of every pump and how hot it is as it floods into my womb to create pups.

Alpha’s are nearly always one hit wonders, if they want to breed you and you don’t take the herbs, it’s almost a given as it’s about a 98 percent chance.

Then we have his perfect tattooed fingers that are expertly rubbing and caressing my sensitive swollen nub.

His veiny hands with long fingers, his hands are so big and firm every single time they touch me. They feel so divine when they manhandle me and choke me out too.

Jungkook is subtly grinding against me and he is pushing his knot even further inside me making me cry out as I desperately mewled out into the night.

His savage growls and snarls are deliciously vibrating against my skin too.

The way he murmurs praise and pure filth into my neck is debauched.

Absolute perfection, he is a beast in bed and he’s my hot, sexy, savage Alpha. I just can’t help myself as I try to grind against his hand, his other hand roughly yanks my hair in a snarled warning as I could hurt myself on his knot.

“Tsk! Are you trying to hurt yourself? So naughty and desperate for my knot all the time. Be a good little mate for me and don’t be such a needy little doe. Shhhh, now let me pleasure you my precious darling”

Jungkook purrs in my ear, tonguing at my neck and scenting me again, sucking harsh marks on my goosebump filled skin.

My thighs are shuddering where another orgasm is building and I’m squeezing around Jungkook like I want to keep him there forever.

A rumbling growl is heard by my ears as he hungrily sniffs against my skin to check the melding of our scents on my skin.

I’m so close and I’m trying so damn hard to not grind up against him.

High pitched rapid pants and his name are falling out of my lips like a prayer.

“Come on baby, orgasm all over my knot. Drench it my greedy little doe”

Jungkook raspily demands into my ear nipping harshly at it.

“A-Alpha, bite me please”

I whimper as I’m so very close to being consumed by the impending heavenly bliss. He responds growling as he viciously pierces his canines into my shoulder to help me fall.

I heal quickly from normal bites anyway, if he wants to mark me permanently then a chemical gets emitted from his tongue.

Jungkook moans loudly into my shoulder when I cum fiercely, sobbing and powerfully clenching around him.

My moans and whines are peppered with bleats and his name as he grinds his hips roughly against my ass.

It’s like he’s trying to bury himself inside me even further than he already is.

I feel his hot cum give another powerful spurt and I’m surprised it’s not leaking out of me and down my thighs yet. Although the lewd squelch is heard as he grinds and it is feeling sticky and wet where we meet.

He snarls into my skin and it turns into an insatiable whine as he keeps pumping his cum inside me.

Jungkook pants as he releases his fangs from my shoulder, licking gently to heal the area.

“Shit, I’ve never cum so much in my life. I’m filling you up so perfectly my darling mate, gonna fill up your womb with my seed, pretty little prey. You deserve all of my cum. You're gonna be a good girl and give me loads of pups, aren’t you? Hmm?”

He seductively gushed into my neck, peppering kisses everywhere he can reach.

“Yes alpha, anything for you. Gonna let you breed me all the time”

I whine thinking about doing this all the time and having him chasing me down. My euphoric body quivers at the very thought as I pulse around him feeling sensitive.

“Yeah? You like the thought of your alpha chasing you and breeding you, don’t you? Such a perfect mate for me, I love you so much, baby”

He cooed into my neck giving me a warm gentle wet kiss on my neck as I moaned out a needy sounding yes.

“Hmm, I love that thought too. So are we moving out here, sweetheart? I’m ready to make the decision to move here, are you?”

He lovingly hums, hugging me tighter against his hot muscular body.

“Yes Jungkook, I want this all the time. I want this life with you, find us some land for our family. The pups will love being brought up here”

I sigh in contentment as I feel his knot start to deflate, he hisses as he pulls his softening length out.

Loads of mixed juices are leaking out of me now making a sloppy mess that immediately runs down my thighs, dripping on the floor.

“Tsk, such a messy mate”

Jungkook mumbles under his breath.

He undoes my wrists rubbing my skin before he picks me up bridal style and walks us off to the lake to wash. I always feel so small and tiny in his arms, but I feel safe and protected too.

Jungkook has a delighted smile on his face as he walks, he’s extremely elated.

He looks down with adoration in his eyes as he dotes on me with his onyx orbs.

“Do you know how much I love you my angelic mate? I’m so proud to have such a wonderful mate, you are so damn perfect my little darling. Thank you for agreeing to give me pups, I’m elated! So overjoyed to finally have children with you. I’m smitten, you have every single part of my heart, baby. I absolutely adore you my beautiful doe”

Jungkook proclaims looking absolutely blissful as he leans in to kiss me, pressing a chaste kiss to my lips.

“I love you too, my alpha, so much. I can’t believe you’re mine, you make me feel so special. I’m head over heels in love with you, my amazing, handsome, sexy mate. I can’t wait to start a family with you, Jungkook. I’m devoted to you and I worship you, my perfect, wild, savage, strong alpha. You are magnificent!”

I exclaimed feeling like I’m in seventh heaven.

I’m so content as Jungkook gently washes all the mud and filth from me in the cool water, it feels so refreshing.

He takes us back to the tent so we can cuddle until our next wave arrives, what we just did seemed to satiate him better than anything else ever has.

Usually he has to cum about three times until he’s calm enough to sleep.

I’m feeling blissful as he dries us and puts one of his t-shirts on me, it’s so nice to cuddle in our nest. His warm arms are around me hugging me to his body, his face buried in my neck.

I can’t wait for us to live in our natural state, it’s gonna be amazing.

Bringing my family up in such a beautiful place and welcoming all of our children into the world.

This is our paradise, the perfect place for our home.

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Oh they are really spoiling us lately! 💜

Can’t wait!

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Bangtan Momma’s

💕 Master List

BTS Fan fiction’s

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Content guide:

Angst (A), Yandere (Y), Fluff (F), Smut (S), Mature (M), Alternate Universe (AU), Polyamorous (PA), Homosexuality or Bisexuality (Q), Violence (V), Dead Dove (D) Triggering Content that needs a warning READ THE FICS WARNINGS (TC)

I do not own BTS or their likeness. These stories are only fan fictions that come from my own imagination and any depiction of BTS in any of my stories does not represent them in real life. None of this is real life, only pure fiction. None of the behaviour of the BTS member’s namesakes OR anything else that happens in my stories represents them in reality.

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JIMIN:

Go to savage love for some Jimin below on Jungkook’s list.

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JUNGKOOK:

Savage Love Series:

Best friend JK x OC (Alice), Cheater Jimin x OC (Alice).

Jungkook is there for his childhood best friend every time Jimin cheats on her. Her very toxic relationship with cheater Jimin is horrible and it chips away at Alice’s self esteem and confidence more each day. Alice stays in this relationship for one reason and it’s killing her inside very slowly. Jungkook absolutely hates Jimin and always goes to comfort her as her best friend, but maybe he likes her way more than just a best friend.

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Savage Love: here

Standing next to you: pt 1 | pt 2

Savage love drabbles:

Beginning: here

I dare you to kiss me: here

New kinks unlocked: here

One Shots:

❤︎︎ PREY. . . RUN : Here | Teaser

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Jungkook x Reader (only pet names)

Hybrid Wolf Jungkook and his Deer hybrid mate decide they want to get back to their hybrid roots and are are camping in the forest. They are going to indulge in some predator and prey chase and catch role play. (Some Consensual Non Con) So when Jungkook goes into his rut, he can chase after his little Doe, pin her down and make her submit.

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TAEHYUNG:

TBA

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SEOKJIN:

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NAMJOON:

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YOONGI:

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HOSEOK:

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Ot7 and Multiple Member Fic’s:

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bangtans-momma · 5 months ago

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지민 (Jimin) 'MUSE' Concept Photo - BLOOMING ver

지민 (Jimin) 'MUSE' Concept Clip - BLOOMING ver

#bts #bangtan #jimin bts #bts jimin #bts park jimin #park jimin #jimin #jimin muse #jimin photoshoot #jimin pics #jimin bangtan #jimin album

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bangtans-momma · 5 months ago

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Schedule for Jimin’s album 👏🏻💜

Track list from “MUSE” Jimin’s album is coming on the 20th! Can’t wait!

I think we might get the romantic and smooth version of Jimin, with songs like Promise. I hope he does an r&b song. Can’t wait to see!

#bts #bangtan #bts park jimin #park jimin #jimin bts #bts jimin #jimin #jimin muse #bangtan sonyeondan #jimin bangtan #jimin album

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