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@maverickjedimasterjinn @angelfromiego and I already put in our votes for Master Harris. These cowardly Palpatine-wannabes will regret voting the opposite way. Believe that.

Sedition. Corruption. Treason. Betrayal.

Trump publicly works for our enemies.

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HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN as Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader Ahsoka (2023)

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Femicidal murderers on the extreme right will get my blade, whether it’s blue or red! They have to remember, I wield both sides of the Force, and I’m not afraid to go Vader on them! @sweeneytodddemonbarber @formerprinceofegypt

Y’know what is infuriating? In Texas, there is a woman by the name of Mrs. Kate Cox, a loving mother to two children and a wife, who is trying to ‘ave an abortion and YET SHE CANNOT, because you know why?! CISGENDERED WHITE CHRISTIAN MALES—REPUBLICAN MEN LIKE MR. KEN PAXTON KEEP GETTING IN HER WAY WHEN SHE TRIES TO GET AN ABORTION TO SAVE ‘ER LIFE!!!! THE BABE INSIDE HER CAN’T LIVE OUTSIDE THE WOMB DUE TO A DEADLY COMPLICATION AND MR. PAXTON WOULD WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO SEE HER AND OTHER WOMEN IN TEXAS BE MURDERED DUE TO ROE BEING OVERTURNED AND THOSE FUCKING ABORTION BANS!!!!! DAMN HIM AND THE OTHER REPUBLICAN MEN TO HELL!!!! I STAND WITH KATE COX AND THE OTHER WOMEN DEALING WITH THIS!!!! 🖤❤️‍🔥

@iloveyoutoinfinity @joshuawilliams74 @ebbyscrooge @victorwilliams69 @balancedwarrior

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This might be my favorite head canon because I have autism!!! Can this be me and Rule63!Anakin, since I’m a lesbian? 💖🏳️‍🌈

Sure thing! 😉

Anakin Skywalker x Autistic!Reader (Well… Technically Writer) Headcanons

(This will have been sitting in my drafts for a long time. By the time this is posted, the writers and actors strikes will be over. Hopefully, everyone is paid fairly!)

TW: Mentions of ableism (ANAKIN IS NOT THE PERSON BEING ABLEIST! TRUST ME: HE’S THE OPPOSITE), some very explicit asking for consent about kissing (why this is a trigger, Idk)

A/N: This really, really got away from me. This might actually be way longer than the Eleventh Doctor HCs. I honestly debated whether or not to just incorporate Earth stuff into this, but I decided against it because I’m already doing that with the Mixiverse. More on that later. Also, I’m drawing from even more personal experiences. 😔 It’s kind of how I cope.

You’re not like other people. You know that much. And that’s exactly what attracts the Chosen One to you

Much like himself, you express yourself in ways that are entirely different from others. Hell, you even express yourself much differently than the Jedi!

When Anakin meets you for the first time, it’s when he’s still a padawan learner. He’s immediately smitten by you. He loves talking with you about the things that interest you, and how similar you sound to him whenever he’s talking about mechanics.

He’s devastated when he learns that you come from a planet where people like you aren’t treated equally. It’s why your family took you to Coruscant in the first place: so you could be in an environment that fostered being different as a good thing.

Although Anakin knows nothing about autism, he’s willing to learn more. The more he learns, the more he comes to realize that he loves you. Not because you’re on the spectrum… but because you’re a lot like him. You’ve been put under pressure since a young age, and yet you’ve proven yourself time and time again.

Whenever you two go on an adventure- when Anakin has the opportunity, which is pretty rare- you find yourself falling for him too. But you’re terrified to confess your feelings because you know he’s training to be a Jedi, and you don’t want to get in the way of his dreams.

But when he tells you that he loves you… it feels like the world has collapsed. You wonder what you did wrong. And you make the mistake of asking that question out loud… in front of Anakin Skywalker, the boy who’s madly in love with you.

His heart nearly breaks in half when he hears you ask that question. To him, you can’t do anything wrong. He believes you’re the most perfect person in the galaxy. Anakin tells you exactly that, but it sends you deep into a state of overwhelming anxiety. You feel instantly afraid of being a burden on his life as a Jedi.

“You’re not a burden. Not to me. Not to your parents. Not to anyone,” he says, his voice soft as velvet thunder. [yes, I made a reference to B99. And what?]

“But your dream is to be a Jedi,” you sob.

“Why does that matter, Y/N?”

“Because you can’t have attachments!”

You’re overwhelmed now, and Anakin hates it when you get overwhelmed. It’s not annoying. But it definitely feels terrible to see you in such a heightened state of anxiety and frustration and panic.

The tears on your face make him feel awful. He wants nothing more than to take away your pain. He doesn’t like hearing you talk this way. Anakin is suddenly overwhelmed now too, but by something much different: the urge to press his lips to yours. “Y/N, is it okay to kiss you?”

The question is straightforward, simple… and it brings the heat to your cheeks. You’re not sure if you even heard him. “What?”

He can’t help the smile that comes on his face: soft, sweet, and oh so full of love. Love he feels for you. “I asked if I could kiss you.”

“Oh.”

He feels like a little kid when he asks, “Well, can I? There’s no pressure.”

You eagerly nod. And then his lips are on yours. He’s a very gentle kisser. When he pulls back, he smiles at you and holds your face in both hands. “Now, how in the universe could you possibly be a burden if you’re so wonderful, Y/N?”

From then on, you two start a relationship. But it needs to be kept secret. Not because Anakin is embarrassed to be seen with you- quite the opposite, actually. But he’s sworn himself to the life of a Jedi, and attachment is forbidden. That doesn’t stop you two from doing all you can to see each other and spend time together. Whatever that looks like.

On days where you’re feeling depressed, he takes you out to dinner. He makes sure that it’s at a place where you’re able to eat something that doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable, but that also allows for you two to be unrecognizable to patrons and employees… and a place that isn’t too loud or overwhelming for you. That’s challenging but you manage somehow.

When he’s drafted into the Clone Wars, you’re devastated. You barely get to see him as it is, and now he’s going off to war? Top that off with a very secret relationship between the two of you, and the fact that he’s got a fourteen year old padawan now? Why can’t he just be with you?

You completely forget that he’s there. Anakin is right there when you vent out, “He should just be mine!”

To your shock, he agrees. “I wish I was yours too, but I can’t.”

You immediately feel shame. “I didn’t mean it like that, Ani. I’m sorry-“

He hugs you, rocks you from one side to the other to soothe you. The same way your parents would sometimes do for you. Anakin has truly done his research on autism and how best to help you whenever things get tough emotionally.

Oh. By the way, your occupation is in the arts. You have a big bag of art supplies that you carry around wherever you go in case you get inspired by something you see. And Anakin Skywalker is one of your most frequent muses.

So, when you see him sporting that CW hair [not the obnoxious CW variety. I’m referring to the Clone Wars], you’re instantly inspired. And you draw him in action with his lightsaber and that gorgeous curly hair, and you give it to him as a gift when he comes back from one of his missions.

“What could I have done to deserve you?”, he asks before kissing your cheek. He goes on to praise your talent, which you’ve been very insecure about lately.

There are times when you get overstimulated by the world around you. The first time Anakin is present for an instance like that is when he’s taking you for a ride in a speeder.

He’s alarmed at first, but he pulls over quickly to help you.

“What can I do, sweetheart?”, he asks.

“I don’t know. I don’t know. It’s so loud here. I can’t think!”

The instant he hears you say that it’s too loud, he pulls your head towards his chest. Anakin has a tight but gentle grip on your body as he does his best to keep your ears protected from the noise. And he reaches out with the Force, going through your mind to make things a little easier for you as he takes you back to your place.

By the time you get home, you’re mentally exhausted from being so overwhelmed. But Anakin carries you into your room- your mom knows him, and she adores him. She calls him your boyfriend… which is a very scary thing for you and him because he’s absolutely not allowed to have any attachments whatsoever- and he puts you down on your bed.

When you open your eyes, he smiles at you and runs his fingers through your hair. You can’t smile back because you feel embarrassed about getting so overstimulated by everyday noises.

“Y/N, I understand how hard it can be to deal with noise like that. It’s no big deal,” he whispers. The reason he’s whispering to you is because he knows you’re very tired and just want to sleep.

And, after you do all the things you usually do before bed, you fall asleep in the arms of Anakin Skywalker. And even though he has no choice but to leave, he makes sure to leave a note on your nightstand that says “So sorry I had to leave. I would’ve stayed with you all night if I could’ve. But duty calls. I love you. See you soon, my star”. Gosh, what a sweetheart.

Sometimes, Anakin gets very protective of you, especially when he comes across people from your birth planet.

And if he finds out that they’ve- as he so bluntly puts it- “wronged you”… he’s even more protective. He won’t let you out of his sight because he’s terrified of you getting hurt again.

When Anakin crosses paths with a person who was supposed to be your friend, he’s instantly upset with them because he can sense that they didn’t love you as much as they really should’ve. And as much as he’d like to see them in the same pain you suffered, he’s wise enough to know that you wouldn’t want that.

However, he doesn’t let that “friend” get away without knowing the face of the man who loves you more than anything else he’s ever known.

When your birthday comes around, Anakin gives you a new set of art supplies. He knows you very well, and this only proves that.

All in all, Anakin Skywalker is the boyfriend of the century. And come what may, he’ll never stop loving you. Though that might be your undoing… but let’s just assume that he never turns to the Dark Side, shall we? After all, this is a different love story. And who knows? Maybe you foil the plot to overthrow the Republic!

If that’s the case, then hurrah! You and Anakin live happily ever after with four children! (Three sons, one daughter: Luke, Leia, Finn and Poe) Also, Obi-Wan is happy to help. And Anakin welcomes his help because he knows how difficult life can get. Not because of you being on the spectrum… but because this is Star Wars, not Star Domestic Life.

However, if you prefer the original trilogy… then yeah. You’re doomed. But, on the bright side, you know for certain that there is good in Anakin. Your son is proof of that.

But let’s just stay in the reality that has the happy ending.

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Anakin has TWO DADS CONFIRMED!!!

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And you haven’t changed a bit. *smile* @disruptednaboo

“Anakin…” her eyes widened slightly, unable to believe that he was standing right in front of her after all this time.

Hello, Angel. @amidalvs

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As you wish, my princess. I was not always the monster you knew as Darth Vader. I was a little slave boy from Tatooine, who had dreams of becoming something more. One fateful day, a Nubian starship landed on the outskirts of Mos Espa, where I grew as a boy. I met a Jedi Master named Qui-Gon Jinn, the most beautiful handmaiden (Queen) I had ever seen, named Padmé Amidala (your mother), a droid named Artoo, and a Gungan named Jar Jar. They were stranded because their hyperdrive generator was damaged, and they needed to get to Coruscant. There was a crisis happening on your mother’s planet of Naboo, and a malicious organization called the Trade Federation put a blockade there, and invaded the planet, and tried to get her to sign a treaty, but they had escaped, just barely, and they needed to pled their case to the Senate there.

Tatooine was where I had often helped your grandmother around our hovel. The day I met your mother, I wanted to help. I entered myself into a very dangerous podracing competition to win the hyperdrive that she needed. Not only did I help win the hyperdrive. I had won my freedom, but it came with a price. By becoming a Jedi, I had to leave your grandmother behind. I was torn about it, but I had promised her that I would come back to free her.

On the way to the Nubian cruiser, Qui-Gon was attacked by a Sith Lord named Darth Maul, but we escaped. On the ship, I met Qui-Gon’s apprentice, Obi-Wan Kenobi, who would later become my Master. Originally, Qui-Gon wanted to train me, but the Jedi High Council said that I was too old after testing my Force abilities, and that I had much fear in me. So, Qui-Gon told me to watch him and be mindful since he wasn’t allowed to train me, but in the battle to retake Naboo against the Trade Federation, he was killed by Darth Maul. His last words to Obi-Wan were to promise to train me.

Did you know that I was the one who built Threepio? I never got to complete him when I went away to become a Jedi, but when I came back to look for your grandmother, your mother completed him, putting the metal coverings on him and a little later, got spray painted gold. He often accompanied your mother on diplomatic missions, and in the Senate, while I had Artoo with me during the Clone Wars.

Now during that time, I became a Jedi Knight, your mother and I were secretly married, and I had just taken on an apprentice of my own—Ahsoka Tano. She was just as reckless as I was, and snippy when I first met her, but we were both teenagers, finding our way together. After a rocky start, we started growing closer, and I trained her to the best of my ability. We trained countless hours and went on many missions together, and we were inseparable, until she was unjustly framed for a crime she didn’t commit and was expelled from the Jedi Order. I stood by Ahsoka and figured out on my own who framed her and why, when no one did. After she was cleared from charges, she decided not to return.

My fear of letting go of the ones I loved tore me apart, and I played right into Palpatine’s hands. While it’s true, he was the reason I fell to the Dark Side, I was the one who made that choice. There were a handful of times I felt the darkness in my heart, and the first time I did, was after your grandmother died in my arms and I killed the Tusken Raiders who tortured her. I let the darkness in so many times, and when I did, I lost your grandmother, I lost your mother, I lost Obi-Wan and Ahsoka, I lost you and Luke, the family that we were meant to be…and I lost myself. @thestarslinger

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Leia had slowly come to terms with who Luke and her were. Who they had come from, but the answers were still hard to parse. She had always seen visions of her mother, but flashes of a blue eyed man. Always out of reach. Anakin Skywalker. A man who had once been Darth Vader. A man who would have had her dead without a second thought. But his eyes were blue. The Organa girl didn't fully understand the force, but she could feel his blaze. It was cold like the moon in the wake of the blonde's blazing sun. The darkness kissing the power that earthed in him. Fear lingered. Yet, terror and despair did not hold her hostage. Brown eyes felt like lingering with tears. The blonde had, at least, owned up it. She tried to stifle her anger. Standing a little straighter didn't help the height difference between the two of them. A mother that the Organa girl didn't even know the name of. it hurt worse to have lost her papa and failed her planet than to have worried that her parents may have chosen something else. Was the darkness lingering inside of her? Luke had seen the good in him. Could she? Her fingers ran soothingly along the blaster letting the wind court her skin. Those eyes were her twin's though they told stories of worlds that she would never know. "Father-" Leia said. A peace offering in her despair. "I can't say I can forget what has happened, but- Maybe we can rewrite a page. you can show me what you showed Lulu. The man that Anakin Skywalker was instead of Vader."

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I still can't believe this is a real post-

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anakin and leia, aka what could have been

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It’s been far too long, milady. @disruptednaboo

“Anakin…” her eyes widened slightly, unable to believe that he was standing right in front of her after all this time.

Hello, Angel. @amidalvs

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“Anakin…” her eyes widened slightly, unable to believe that he was standing right in front of her after all this time.

Hello, Angel. @amidalvs

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“Your saying your my father- and you wanted me?” - from leia

Yes. I did want you, my Princess. When I found out that your mother was pregnant with you and Luke, I was the happiest man alive. That night of the same day, I had dreams of your mother dying in childbirth, and I sought a way to save her. What I ended up doing was destroying myself and her when I turned to the Dark Side. While Palpatine pulled every string and groomed me since I was a boy, I must admit that I chose wrong, and I ended up paying for my actions. There’s no excuse for what I did to the Jedi, to Obi-Wan, your mother, to you and Luke, to the Rebellion, and to Alderaan. I do realize that an apology is not going to bring any of them back, and I understand that you may not forgive me. Whenever you’re ready, I’m here to talk.

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HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN as ANAKIN SKYWALKER Ahsoka - Part Eight: The Jedi, The Witch, and The Warlord (2023)

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Just pathetic. The GOP got what they deserved. @iloveyoutoinfinity

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HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN AND ARIANA GREENBLATT as Anakin Skywalker and Ahsoka Tano Ahsoka - Part Five: Shadow Warrior (2023)

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"He was a good master."

This line broke me.

I will always believe that Anakin was, at heart, a good man. He loved Ahsoka as a sister and would have given his life for her.

And Ahsoka has forgotten that, justifiably. She has had to live in a galaxy Anakin destroyed. She has battled so much pain and hurt and anger for Anakin. So she hasn't grieved the man he was. She hasn't been able to. Because her last memory was him trying to kill her.

Why grieve a man who hurt her like that?

But now, she can grieve. Now, she can move forward and remember the man Anakin was. Not the monster he became.

Because he was a good master. And he did love Ahsoka.

And she remembers now. He showed her.

He was a good master.

Ahsoka isn't completely healed, that will take time. But she's moving forward. Laughing again, smiling and watching Anakin's recordings. And she's acti g like a Skywalker again, jumping out of ships and riding in whale mouths.

She's doing better. And I know that Anakin is so proud of her.

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