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just sleep like 4 hours i'm fine now lollllz

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also just to end this. i'm incredibly classist btw. bc (one of) the root(s) of this thing is that i will never be what the "high class" of my city expects... but i fit perfectly with the lower classes. i don't know if it's my friend group even. i want to get along with THEM. but they hate me. actually i hate them too. do i even wanna get along with them? or i just want everybody to know my actual status? i don't even know...

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but like, maybe i'm depressed or whatever, but where does that even get me. i'm embarrassed of everything. everything is embarrassing about me.

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why am i always falling behind? i've been falling behind for quite some time actually. but behind of what? what does behind even mean? i'm just dissatisfied with my life since forever. and it's eating me alive. maybe i must cry a little to sleep and pretend i actually voice what i feel so i can get ride of these thoughts

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i can't belive these thoughts are coming back. This feeling like i'm literally a child. That i'm unreliable. Worst thing is that the /core/ of all of this is so fucking stupid. Like if i was idk 15, 16 it would be a cute thing to worry about. But i'm fucking 20. 20 fucking years old. And i just can't get my life together

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I often think about how I made this post as if I don't hang with my only male friend in the class that #SHE is in... like ??

sorry for the #INCEL post is just that this exact image happened to me

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#looking at my 2021-2022 A5 binnacle is so ??? WHY I used to be so incredibly and ridiculously good at drawing while simultaneously believing I was the worst artist on earth?? like I remember being good and all but not THAT good... WHAT HAPPENED TO ME I FELL OFF SO BADLY

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ayer me dieron ganas de picarones y fuimos a la tienda que vende picarones (pq mi mamá quería q vaya a comprarle una mazamorra de calabaza a mi abuelo) pero por alguna razón me pedí un EMOLIENTE pero después me acordé que yo quería unos PICARONES pero ya era demasiado tarde y encima se me chorreó 1/4 del emoliente en mi CASACA que había lavado hace MENOS de UNA SEMANA estuve al borde del colapso la verdad

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listen i'm a #NightShower team BUT an occasional afternoon shower is great. Wonderful even. like it's really nice

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sorry for the #INCEL post is just that this exact image happened to me

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not to sound like an incel but why do pretty women always go for the ugliest and most disrespectful man ever. Like he isn't handsome, he doesn't have money AND he is a terrible person. What do you even see in him. fuck

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My only problem is the fact that I'm still grieving a life I never had

okay guys joke's over I do want to be a better person

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okay guys joke's over I do want to be a better person

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DO YOU REMEMBER... THE 21ST NIGHT OF SEMPTEMBER

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btw idk why i almost didnt use this acc the entirety of last semester