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listen, when i go to open my mouth & what comes out is 12 degrees of seperation from what the original topic was, u need to connect the dots bitch. think fast. i’m not gonna hold ur hand but we’re leaving now and visiting every topic along the line. wave it goodbye, don’t get hung up on it

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When someone is explaining something to you and you get hit with the realization that you haven’t retained anything that has been said to you and the moment they stop talking you won’t be able to recall any part of it

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3 kinds of ADHD distractions:

sudden idea! i'll just take a quiiick little detour and be riiight back...(spoiler: you never return)

i know i am distracted. i wish i wasn't doing what i'm doing either, but i can't stop. i'm trapped and i can see the clock ticking down, but i just. can't. move.

where the fuck am i??? how did i get here?? what time is it????

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I think we should talk more about how adhd affects artistic hobbies. Some adhd artists, writers, and musicians might be able to hyperfocus on their art, but I also bet there are many adhd people who can't engage with their hobbies at all, even when they want to. Who tell themselves over and over "just create something, god damn it" but can't.

Those who feel like imposters, who think "I should want this, I need to want this, I need to do this, or else maybe I don't actually want to be an artist like I thought." Even without imposter syndrome, it's soul-crushing to be unable to start, sustain, or enjoy the hobbies that once fulfilled you.

You are seen.

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“3 Defining Features of ADHD That Everyone Overlooks”

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New meme game: #genderneutralize your name by replacing all the vowels with X’s and write your name in the tags

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Fucksea

“ Remove the first 4 letters from your name and add Fuck. “

this is people with 4 letter name oppression. my name is now just Fuck. height of comedy.

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anyways can we start recognizing adhd as an actual and serious disorder that

can affect on functioning in every day life so badly that it interferes with taking care of very basic human needs

is not 10 yrs old white boy exclusive disorder

is not a fake disorder created to benefit medicine companies

definitely should not be reduced to “kid who cant sit still and wont stop screaming” stereotypes because adhd has a whole fuckton of symptoms ranging from serious memory issues to fine motor control difficulties

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If anyone actually understands how music is sorted into genres please explain cause I have an 11 hour playlist and I need it sorted before I overload. jumping from Big Data to Three Days Grace to Hozier trips me up so bad. (thats just an example, its a playlist of over 40 bands, I hoard music like a dragon hoards gems I need a sorting method so bad) 

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Team “I can hear the near silent hum of electrical appliances and the bubbles fizzing in the can of soda on the coffee table, but can’t watch tv without subtitles and processes conversation at ¼ speed”

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I have the anger of a thousand suns inside of my tiny 5′2″ body. You think I can contain that shit? Hardly. 

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Coming to terms with the fact that you had a traumatic childhood that still effects you to this day is hard. 

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So I was going to write all that in a personal post, but I just start rambling and crying every time I try to, and its impossible to write out in a way that doesn’t make me feel way too vulnerable. 

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Tonight’s nonstop Brain Broadcast is:

Reliving Past Traumas

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Me: *awake seemingly inexplicably at 3am* I wonder why I can't sleep...

Also Me: *forgot to take the medicine for sleeps*

Me: its a mystery....

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@singull !!

My second design is much simpler. It’s Juuzou’s shirt from Tokyo Ghoul! Made 100% with default colors because he’s a mess (I did lighten up the grey but I don’t think that really needs a screenshot?)

Enjoy!

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I love collecting 100% of the achievements in a game, but at the same time... it’s very bittersweet.

There’s nothing left to do in the game, and if I really enjoyed it... it’s just... it’s finished. Time to move on. Even if I were to start the game again and play, what would I even do? I’ve done all there is. Why play more of it?

Shifting focus to a different game is hard.