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Gothic th!nsp0

this was actually harder than i thought but hopefully its still alr dolls <3

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thinking about all the clothes i’ve missed out on because i’m fat

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why wasn’t I born like this

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i’m back to starve for my birthday month

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watermelon is so good. if you need a snack go it watermelon it’s delicious and super low cal. 🍉

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Some low cal snacks (30 snacks!)

1. Apple slices with almond butter – 100 calories

2. Carrot sticks with hummus – 80 calories

3. Rice cakes with avocado – 60 calories

4. Cucumber slices with cottage cheese – 50 calories

5. Greek yogurt with berries – 90 calories

6. Hard-boiled egg – 70 calories

7. Celery with peanut butter – 90 calories

8. Air-popped popcorn (1 cup) – 30 calories

9. Edamame (half cup) – 90 calories

10. Cherry tomatoes – 30 calories

11. Almonds (10 almonds) – 70 calories

12. Sliced bell peppers – 40 calories

13. Cottage cheese (1/2 cup) – 80 calories

14. Baby carrots – 35 calories

15. Low-fat string cheese – 60 calories

16. Turkey roll-ups (turkey slices with lettuce) – 50 calories

17. Watermelon (1 cup) – 45 calories

18. Seaweed snacks – 25 calories

19. Sliced strawberries – 50 calories

20. Zucchini chips (baked) – 40 calories

21. Grapes (1/2 cup) – 50 calories

22. Broccoli with light ranch dip – 70 calories

23. Cherry Greek yogurt (low-fat) – 100 calories

24. Mini rice cakes (1 small bag) – 100 calories

25. Radishes with salt and pepper – 20 calories

26. Snap peas – 40 calories

27. Cottage cheese and pineapple – 80 calories

28. A small banana – 90 calories

29. Light tuna (half a can) – 80 calories

30. Mixed berries (1 cup) – 60 calories

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someone’s complaining to me about being hungry on a 2300 cal deficit. suck it up babes, you have NO idea what its like to be hungry lmao

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down 15lbs (almost 7kg) in one month. I'm on top of the world rn 🥹

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I need to look like her so bad 🐚

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went over (first day of my period) but it’s not too bad so I’ll just make it up tomorrow. also NEVER weigh leading up to or on your period, it will ALWAYS be inaccurate.

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3 inches off my waist 🫶🏻✨

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me feeling full for hours after eating a meal of whole ingredients w my family 🫶🏻

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4NA PLAYLIST ( + my fave lyrics from each song )

- cigarettes out the window by tv girl

“ she’d disappear for an hour and a half, and when she’d come back she’d brush her teeth “

- me and mia by ted leo & the pharmacists

“ fighting food to find transcendence, fighting to survive. more dead but more alive. “

- softcore by the neighbourhood

“ but you drain me out if i get too much. i might need room or i’ll break “

- ghosting by mother mother

“ i won’t make noises in your stairs, i will be kind and i will be sweet if you stop staring straight through me.”

- body by mother mother

“ my arms and legs, they get in the way and take my hands, they’ll understand. take my heart, pull it apart “

- oh 4na by mother mother

“ oh 4na i’ll be with you still, you are the angel that i couldn’t kill “

- i go hungry by mother mother (there’s a trend here lol)

“ she’s gonna think i’m dreamy, she’ll wanna show me off to all her friends “

- oh no ! by marina and the diamonds

“ if i fail, i’ll fall apart. maybe this is all a test; cause i feel like i’m the worst so i always act like i’m the best “

- orange juice by melanie martinez (this one has been recently removed from my playlist due to the allegations against her, though it is an option if you’re able to separate the art from the artist.)

“ please say that you won’t continue ordering oranges off the menu, stuffin up your mouth like tissue. the way you look is not the issue “

- numbers by pompeii (my fave)

“ it’s just a diet, i’ve kept it quiet. even if you told all my family and friends they would never believe it “

- dying on the inside by nessa barrett

“ what if i didn’t do this to my body? what if i quit and then you don’t want me? “

- 4st and 7lb by manic street preachers

“ i wanna be so sk1nn1 that i rot from view. i want to walk in the snow and not leave a footprint. i want to walk in the snow and not soil it’s purity “

- i’ll have some in a bit by crywank

“ i tell my friends i’ve e@ten when they ask me “

- pop shuvit (hall of meat, duh) by hot mulligan (also my fave)

“ you’re only here to feed and walk your pet. your stomachs empty. faking a smile on a phone call, practice so nothing can look wrong “

- prom queen by beach bunny

“ dissect my insecurities ; i’m the defect, surgical project. “

- please e@t by nicole dollanganger

“ it’s not your body that i love, but its the shell you’re inside of and you’re killing it. you’re killing the only piece of you i can touch “

- fat funny friend by maddie zahm

“ they can’t relate to how i’ve drawn out in sharpie where i’d take the scissors if thats what it took for me to look in the mirror “

- god must hate me by catie turner

“ when i look into the mirror for too long it hurts. they don’t track how many steps it takes to burn off dessert “

- i’ll die anyway by girl in red

“ i guess i could say i’ve learned to live this way, but it’s still hard to find reasons to stay alive. “

- sk1nn1 by edith backlund

“ being thin and not e@ting are signs of true willpower and success. you can never be too th1n”

- never good enough by rachel ferguson

“ she feels like she’s on trial, but she’s still in denial. “

- third degree by movements (i’m movements #1 fan so yk,,, fave. also i like to think of this song as my feelings towards having an 3d but not being ready for recovery. movements has a ton of songs on mental health, and it makes me feel less alone.)

“ i know this path from experience. i know the other side, the other side of it. i’ve been on the other side more times than i’d like to admit. “

- better off dead by sleeping with sirens

“ and maybe she could fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust, and tell her she’s enough “

- dressed in decay by cky

“ she turns a blind eye, will of stone. from stunning smile to flesh and bone “

- skin and bones by marianas trench

“ th1n, where the hell have you been? you always win “

- skeleton by jessie paege

“ i need to apologize for my body. will you forgive me for everything i’ve done?”

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me munching on my gummy vitamins after fasting nearly all day:

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✦ 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚂 + 𝚁𝚄𝙻𝙴𝚂 ✦

┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄ ✦ ┆ SW ~ 204lbs. (6 August 2024) ✦ ┆ CW ~ 189.6lbs. (21 November 2024) ✦ ┆ GW One ~ 180 lbs. ✦ ┆ GW Two ~ 150 lbs. ✦ ┆ GW Three ~ 130 lbs. ✦ ┆ UGW ~ 120 lbs ┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄

┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄ ✦ ┆ <1000 calories a day. ✦ ┆ 0 cal drinks only. ✦ ┆ Supplements every day. ✦ ┆ Weigh weekly. ✦ ┆ Track everything. ┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄

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well I got t3rm3d. who’s surprised. was automated-4n4.