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merry crimmus???

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How I feel right now

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THE baby

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Had fun with the picrew bellow making my avatar.

I tried to do something as close as possible to what I look like. The result is a mix of what I feel looking like, and what my human appearence looks like.

I might post some of my drawings to have something more precise of was I feel I'm looking like (idk if that makes sense).

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So sweet✨

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Lifegoal

i wish i was a monster in a horror movie. it looks like they always have much fun. eating people. hunting them. stalking around. destroying buildings. drinking blood.

sounds like a wonderful time to me.

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To all the alterhumans / nonhumans who dont know what to do: now is the time for you to start putting your money where your mouth is.

If youre an animal, it's time for you to be a goddamn animal. Be feral, Be aggressive, fight for your life.

If you're a dragon, then be a terror to Kings, and start burning down the halls of power like the dragons of yore.

If you're a mythical creature, have no concern for the social constructs of man. Stand proudly outside what people even believe is possible.

If you're plural, know you're never alone. Fight against individualism that seeks to divide each body into deterministic boxes.

If you're a fictional character who saved the world, believe that you can save any world. Don't back down now.

Now is the time to really believe that you are what you say you are. People in power are going to try to take that away from you. Don't fall for it.

It's time shed any preconceptions you have about what you're capable of. If you're an animal it's time to fight like one. A dragon that uses gasoline and matches is still a dragon.

All bets are off. If they want to treat us like dogs in a cage then im gonna start ripping fascists' throats out like one. And I'd better see y'all there with me, on G-d.

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Still watching this youtube channel about what I can only describe as "Dark Classical art" and this one absolutely floored me because I was unaware of it and I want to share it because it changes my perspective on this artist completely.

You might be aware of Louis Wain. If not by name then by his art. He's the artist behind that series of cat drawings that slowly became more and more abstract and bizarre.

This series of paintings of cats are often labelled as a visual representation of Wain's deteriorating mental illness and schizophrenia. Even more so often labelled as "a tragic display of a painter's failing battle with schizophrenia."

The paintings look like this and were painted around the very early 1900s.

Ok got all that?

So here's the thing.

Although Wain did suffer from a mental illness that was strong enough for him to be institutionalized, his mental illness was never diagnosed with clear certainty. Although "Schizophrenia" is so heavily applied to him based purely on how his series of paintings LOOK, despite actual specialists widely disputing this. On top of this, although he did paint the kaleidoscope cat portraits during this time, it was not the only things he painted, and he was quite capable of painting "normal" pictures of cats.

The Kaleidoscope Cat portraits are more images of him experimenting with colour and shapes, something the Smithsonian themselves state on their website.

Wain had actually made his entire living painting whimsical images of cats, often for product adverts, before he was incarcerated and was actually a very beloved artist at the time. When his friends learned of his incarceration, they started a collection of donation money to help transfer Wain to the Bethlam Royal Hospital instead, one of the best mental health facilities of the time. Even the Prime Minster of the time donated, and they raised a large amount of money across England to help him.

4 years later, Wain drew this as his final image which he released publicly

I knew all about "the Schizophrenic cat Guy" but he had always been presented to me as some tragic case of an artist going mad and his skills and work unraveling as he went insane.

Which is why I wanted to share this information which was new to me. And because I think it's important.

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OH. MY. STARS.

same wish

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CW : Mention of blood

Can we normalize drinking your own blood, like, for example, when your nose bleed ?

Everytime my nose bleed when I'm in public (often) I feel awkward, struggling to grab my tissues, to cover the blood, I feel like everyone is judging and that I need to hide, that it's embarasing to be covered in blood in public.

Like come on, if I listened to myself I would not embarass using a tissue, I would just let the blood flow and lick it and eat it... I would not be embarassed by doing this, it's normal.

But I guess people are not expecting to see something, that they beleived was an human, to drink its own blood in the subway...

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I was never meant to be apart of society.

I was meant to crawl around the forest and make freaky noises.

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yeah you're nonhuman but you were raised in a human society and therefore your relationship with animals is going to be limited. you cannot assume you instinctively can understand and communicate with animals. please respect local wildlife and do your research I am on my hands and knees

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Why WHY do I need winter gloves and shoes (ugh) to run on all four on the snow ?!

I should be FLUFFY and built for WINTER why do I need a jacket!!!!!!

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Crowley: Do you want to know your gay name? Aziraphale: My… my gay name? Crowley: Yes, it's your first name- Aziraphale: Haha. Very funny Crowley- Crowley: *gets down on one knee* And my last name. Aziraphale: Oh- oh my God.

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Thanks you 💙💖🤍

It's 00:00 where I live, so I'm turning 30 right now

My sister does'nt know who I am

My parents don't know who I am

Most of my friends don't know either

Nor the rest of my familly

Please, tell me there is still time