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Neville Goddard, from The Power of Awareness

Text ID: You are God. You are the "I am that I am." You are consciousness. You are the creator. This is the mystery, this is the great secret known by the seers, prophets, and mystics throughout the ages.

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Albert Camus and his cat, Cigarette

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musings on august        

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musings on the sun

christina perneta, noor hindi, vincent van gogh, jeanette winterson, zinaida vysota docenko, anne sexton, olga kos, khalil gibran

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lina gordievsky

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Be too much. Be extra.

Live large. Smile big. Laugh hard. Celebrate your damn self.

Open your heart. Express your emotions. Use your words.

Giggle. Dance. Soak in the sun.

Splash in the waves. Breathe deep and love your damn life.

You only get one.

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I have spent most of my life terrified. Scared of things that could go wrong. Things that might happen; things that might not happen. But in time I’ve seen that it’s fear that’s the real enemy. So get up. Get out there, and live the life you want to live.

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The view this morning as I went on my third bike ride was motivating 🌞💖

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What’s something I wish people knew about me?

That I have good intentions. 

But isn’t that something everyone says? I don’t know, but I can’t help but feel like people believe I expect something in return for the “good” that I do for others when that’s not even the case.

I do good because it makes me feel good. Not because I see it as something billable.

Why’s it so difficult for people to believe I can be selfless as much as I can be selfish?

Why do they question me when I do something out of the kindness of my heart?

Why do they find it suspicious when I ask for nothing in return?

And why the fuck does it bother me?

I guess I could work on that. Let me be me, fuck what everyone else thinks. If you think I’m going to come back and demand repayment, that’s on you. Because guess what, I won’t. And I should rest easy knowing that’s not who I am…

I guess I wish others could see it, too.

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Rocío Romero García

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“Allow yourself to be a beginner. No one starts off being excellent.”

— Unknown

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so much of taking care of yourself as an adult is just learning to eat at home and going on walks

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On July 8, 2023, I began my lifestyle change. No more fast food, no processed foods, no added sugars, artificial ingredients, preservatives, etc. I increased my proteins and fibers. My exercise stayed the same: 5 days a week of minimum 30 minutes of activity. And any activity; walking, HIIT, kettlebells, etc. Just some sort of activity.

Why? I was pre-diabetic. My blood pressure was high, as was my cholesterol and triglycerides. Fatty liver, to boot.

It was either get on medication to control it OR change my habits. I opted for the habits.

It hasn’t been easy. But goodness, the reward has been great. I was almost a size 20, now I’m comfortably a size 12. I wore XXL shirts and pants, now I’m a medium in shirts and large in pants. Not only am I physically healthy, I’m full of confidence. Confidence I hadn’t had since my early 20’s.

Only difference is I have technology that wasn’t available to me before. Especially when it comes to the camera. I’ll admit, I kind of feel vain, taking photos of myself. Before the weight loss, I relied on filters and selfies. Now, I’m learning to model. I want to shine, show off my confidence and joy. But I still feel… like I shouldn’t?

It’s so foreign to me, taking photos of my entire self. Something about it just feels weird. Like maybe I shouldn’t? But why not, I ask myself.

I wonder if this feeling will fade the more I do it. I’ve pulled my husband into taking videos of our outfits of the day (on days we make the effort to get out of our sweats), because it feels less cringe if I don’t do it by myself. But he can’t be my crutch forever, right? LOL

It’ll be strange to me, but I’ll keep doing it. Because it reminds me of WHY I changed my habits. Of the hard work I’ve put into my health. Because it’ll build my confidence, something I never had.

So, excuuuuuse me as I learn to “serve looks”. 😘

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Out of all the photos I shot during my weekend in NYC, this is one of my few favorites ❤️

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