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Kevin: “It’s easier to be straight in the sports world.”

Also Kevin: *gets the world’s gayest tattoo on his cheekbone*

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I’m being *my* normal about it, which is to say I have such intense feelings on the subject to a degree that can be understood by very few!

i love saying “i’m being normal about it” bc i’m actually a filthy fucking liar and i’ve never been normal about anything a single day in my life

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Me, once a month:

“Huh, I wonder why my lower back hurts.”

*gets deeply emotionally affected by something that normally wouldn’t not impact me that much*

“Man, I’m really craving sweets right now.”

“Why am I so tired today?”

*has an acne breakout

“Why am I so extra sad and overwhelmed right now I’m literally sitting down doing nothing?”

“What did I eat that I feel so bloated?”

Me when my period comes that night/the next morning:

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Oops I accidentally

Created a fic around my lived reality

The problem w writing fiction is that you'll be like tee-hee I'm going to write a story about a fucked up little scenario that's got nothing to do with anything in real life, just some pure messed up nonsense, and then you finish it and take a step back and go aw rats I made a metaphor again

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Do you ever think that maybe Andrew doesn’t want things because everyone in his youth that “wanted” only wanted in a way that was awful.

Drake “wanted” him. “Wanted” a matched set. He was a pedophile and his want was awful and gross and Andrew lives with the ghostly hands in places he begged them not to go.

Tilda “wanted” Aaron. She chose to keep a son and she beat him. She laid hands on him, even on the one she wanted. She was an abuser and Aaron still wanted her love.

Luther “wanted” the perfect family. Except that “perfect” means straight. Perfect means sending Nicky to get “fixed”. And still Nicky wanted his parents’ approval and love.

Andrew is so afraid of what want causes people to do. I think he has seen the “everything I’ve ever let go has had claw marks on it” in the claw marks left in him and has decided that the very act of even holding on was too dangerous to be worth it.

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I will never get over the parallels in aftg. Neil is a rabbit that becomes a fox. He spends his whole life running and the second he’s backed into a corner, he grows teeth. As a striker he’s constantly running and maneuvering and avoiding, but to win against the Ravens, Andrew has him be a backliner. To win, Neil can’t just run anymore, he has to defend, has to stand his ground and use teeth and claws and every ounce of himself to protect what he’s earned. And Andrew is apathetic right? He wants nothing, no one. He’s the goal keeper and sometimes he can’t even be bothered to block the shots. But when that racket comes down towards Neil’s head, Andrew is there. To protect what he *wants* he has to go towards it. He has to make the move himself. Neil chooses to defend and Andrew chooses to want and they become more

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I don’t often think I’m petty and then I remember that I stopped reading the ACOTAR series when Nesta and Elaine showed back up because I don’t care if Feyre forgives them, *I* don’t forgive them. Absolutely nothing could make me root for their happiness; they let Feyre—the youngest sibling—handle so much shit on her own and I will not forget that.

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One of my biggest pet peeves has to be when people say “oh this dog breed isn’t for everyone”. Like I get what they’re trying to say, but people only ever say that about a select few breeds, when the truth is that no dog breed is good for them everyone. Especially the influx of online trainers/vets/vet techs/etc. I’ve been seeing hopping on the trend of “dog breeds I wouldn’t own as a *insert dog related profession here*” because 9.9 times out of 10, it only ever has to do with their personal preferences and nothing to do with professional opinion, but that’s what people often walk away from those videos with. There is such a large German Shepherd boom in shelters right now and continuing to stigmatize them is irresponsible tbh. No, not everyone should own a GSD, nor should everyone own a mastiff or a cocker spaniel or a poodle or a lab and there are some people that shouldn’t own dogs at all, but it’s more clickbaity and view inducing to have an opinion on a contentious dog breed. Thanks for coming to my TED talk

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How badly do you guys think Riko wanted to still mark Jean as 4 even without actually having Neil there? Do you think Jean holds on to that little victory, that the butcher’s son, his other half, maybe is a little below him? That Jean was *just* worthy enough to get that 3 in Neil’s absence? And even worse, that part of him that knows, deep down, he was destined to be the lowest number in the perfect court. Do you think it angers him, late at night, knowing that he desperately wanted his partner to suffer with him, even if that meant being lower than he already was? Do you think he looks at Neil Josten, ordering a hit brazenly at a restaurant, and thinks: You are everything I can’t be and I am everything you should have been.

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Some art for a character from my dnd game; made with grey scale turned on

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I am a FIRM ginger katelyn truther. the idea of aaron and andrew having the same type? phenomenal. amazing. I need it so bad, she's ginger idc

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Neil is canonically pretty and absolutely a liar, so I definitely think that Andrew thought he was hot and interesting from the beginning, but I don’t think he really saw Neil, bone-deep like-knows-like until the Kathy Ferdinand show. This paranoid, lying, run-away sees Kevin shutdown and just goes apeshit. Neil didn’t want to be on air; he could’ve used this to go completely unnoticed. How could Andrew “Make a Deal With Me” Minyard not see, recognize, that he and Neil may be different flavors but they are the same fucked-up cake. Two boys that have seen and gone through too much, but Andrew’s burning rage is under the skin and Neil’s is like a pot of water boiling over.

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“Why do you remember that”

My brother in Christ you told me.

Is it sadder that I hang onto your every word or that you expect not to be listened to?

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The list of fears Neil SHOULD have:

-Riko

-the mafia

-torture

-his hitman father

-Lola

-abuse

-murder

List of fears Neil DOES have:

-A 23 year old blonde Christian with rainbow ends

-telephones

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Drew my friend’s wizard with random colors in grey scale!

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Mid life crisis? Yeah, I'd have a crisis too if my life was mid