ateezyuri

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osaka memories

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WRITING + PRODUCING CREDITS

IOI

CHRYSALIS

knock knock knock (written)

crush (written)

MISS ME?

more more (written)

ping pong (written + composed)

m-maybe (written + composed)

DOWNPOUR

downpour (written)

POST-IOI

shadow ft. chaeyeon (written + composed)

ATEEZ

ALL TO ZERO

pirate king (written)

treasure (written)

twilight (written)

stay (written + composed)

my way (written + composed)

ZERO TO ONE

hala hala (written + composed)

say my name (written)

desire (written + composed)

light (written)

promise (written)

ONE TO ALL

utopia (written)

illusion (written + composed)

wave (written + composed)

aurora (written)

dancing like butterfly wings (written + composed)

ALL TO ACTION

wonderland (written + composed)

dazzling light (written + composed)

mist (written)

precious overture (written + composed)

win (written)

if without you (written)

thank u (written)

sunrise (written)

with u (written)

ACTION TO ANSWER

answer (written + composed)

horizon (written)

star 1117 (written)

precious (written + composed)

FEVER PART ONE

fever (written + composed)

thanxx (written)

to the beat (written)

inception (written + composed)

good little boy (written)

one day at a time (written + composed)

FEVER PART TWO

fireworks (written + composed)

the leaders (written + composed)

time of love (written)

take me home (written + composed)

take me home english version (written + composed)

celebrate (written)

i’m the one heat topping version (written + composed)

IN THE A TO Z

better (written)

DREAMERS

dreamers (written)

blue summer (composed)

FEVER PART THREE

eternal sunshine (written + composed)

feeling like i do (written + composed)

deja vu (written + composed)

rocky (written)

all about you (written + composed)

not too late (written)

FEVER EPILOGUE

turbulence (written + composed)

be with you (written + composed)

the letter (written)

better korean version (written)

the real heung version (written + composed)

wave overture (written + composed)

wonderland (symphony no.9) (written + composed)

answer (ode to joy) (written + composed)

BEYOND ZERO

rocky boxers version (written)

the king (written + composed)

THE WORLD EP.1 : MOVEMENT

sector 1 (written + composed)

cyberpunk (written + composed)

guerrilla (written + composed)

the ring (written + composed)

WDIG (written + composed)

new world (written + composed)

THE WORLD EP.FIN : WILL

WE KNOW (written + composed)

emergency (written + composed)

crazy form (written + composed)

arriba (written)

silver light (written)

crescent pt. 2 (written)

dreamy day (written + composed)

IT’s you (composed)

NO NAME (written + composed)

everything (composed)

FIN : WILL (written)

SINGLES

from (written)

the real (written + composed)

dont stop (written + composed)

SOLO

DARK SIDE OF THE MOON

intro: girl meets evil (written + composed)

eclipse (written + composed)

moon movie (written + composed)

the last (written + composed)

moonlight (written + composed)

so far away ft. yeseul of sapphire (written + composed)

interlude: dreaming of reality (composed)

set me free (written + composed)

lie (written + composed)

first love (written + composed)

raining all night (written + composed)

outro: tear ft. jae of sapphire (written + composed)

SINGLES

bad girl (written)

games (written + composed)

boyfriend (written + composed)

misbehave ft. joshua of svt (written + composed)

OTHER GROUPS

can we talk again — purple kiss (written + composed)

wa da da — ke1per (written + composed)

different night — loona (written + composed)

dance on my own — loona (written)

let me know — pixy (written + composed)

TOTAL: 108

OVERALL KOMCA RANKING: 26TH

4TH GEN KOMCA RANKING: 4TH

CHOREOGRAPHING CREDITS

ATEEZ

horizon

hala hala

say my name

SOLO

eclipse

games

OTHER

let me know — pixy

TOTAL AS OF 220711: 6

COVERS

how that taste, kehlani dance cover by YURI (2017)

7/11, beyoncé dance cover by YURI (2017)

work for it, kayla brianna dance cover by YURI (2017)

green light, beyonce dance cover by YURI (2017)

countdown, beyonce dance cover by YURI, DOYEON, YOOJUNG, CHUNGHA & KANG MINA (2017)

feeling myself, nicki minaj dance cover by YURI (2017)

look what you made me do, taylor swift dance cover by YURI & MOMO (2017)

bang bang, jessi j dance cover by YURI, WOOYOUNG, YEOSANG, YUNHO, SAN (2017)

breathin, ariana grande dance cover by YURI & MINA (2018)

outrageous, britney spears cover by YURI (2019)

freakum dress, beyonce dance cover by YURI (2020)

link up, tinashe dance cover by YURI & JESSI (2021)

ur best friend, kiana ledé dance cover by YURI & DINO (2021)

woman, doja cat cover by YURI & YUQI (2022)

diva (homecoming live), beyonce dance cover by YURI (2022)

UNOFFICIAL SONGS

comfort crowd

so what

i love you

listen before i go

happier than ever

i didn’t change my number

tags: @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @lunarxsun @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @fromfreesia @kittiverse [send an ask to be included or removed]

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i know yuri was flipping her shit

[240421] Dodgers TikTok Update with ATEEZ | ATEEZ 🤝 Yoshinobu Yamamoto

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this is so yuri and hongjoong coded (yuri as beomgyu and hj as soobin)

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send some asks for yuri!! <3

⠀⠀☆⠀⠀ask game ; idol career ver.

have u always wanted to become an idol? if not, did u have a "revelation moment" that made u want to be one?

were ur family and friends supportive of ur chosen career path?

what's ur worst and best memory from ur trainee days?

is there anything u regret abt ur trainee days?

if u could restart ur career completely, would u still choose to become an idol?

is there something u think sets u apart from other idols in the industry?

how much do u look urself up online, if at all?

is there any rumor netizens made up abt u or ur group that actually made u laugh out loud? is there a rumor that genuinely offended u?

would u be ur own group's fan? why or why not?

do u like the music and concept that ur group is pursuing? if not, what would u change it to if u could?

who is the groupmate u get along with the most? is there a member u dislike or are awkward with despite working together for a while?

was there ever a time when ur group nearly disbanded? an issue between members or maybe a company decision... what led to it?

given the chance to re-debut, would u choose to be a part of a group or become a soloist?

if u had to put urself in a new group with idols of ur choice, which idols would u want to team up with? is there any existing group u would want to join?

if u could predict ur life after disbandment do u think that u would still work in the industry? or would u rather go for a quiet life far away?

[ateezyuri]

240330 — YURI DEPARTURE TO HONG KONG

yubu 🦭 :: let’s fly high ✈️

[ateezyuri]

hello hello (✿◠‿◠) I want to start by saying I love love LOVE your work, so glad to see youre back! (ˆ‿ˆԅ) I really just wanted to say that I think chaeyoung from twice gives me SUCH yuri vibes, have you ever thought of using her as a fc for yuri (pls don’t take this as me hating bc Im not! （ つ̥︣﹏╰̥̥）) its just that I think their vibes/aesthetics suit each other so well compared to jennie and I wanted to see if maybe you agreed or disagreed also (I dont mean this in a hating way so pls dont hate me and English isnt my first language so I hope this didnt come off as mean bc thats not what Im going for) heres a hearteu for you! (っ◔︣◡◔᷅)っ ❤️

hi there!!! i’m answering this like an entire month late i’m so sorry!!! THANK YOU SM! ur so so sweet!! and I AGREE, i have thought about using chaeyoung as a yuri fc!! i’ve had a lot of idols that i wanted to use for yuri but never did…i think chae and soyeon have been idols that i wanted to use for yuri but never did…her fc used to be siyeon from dream catcher awhile ago as well! thank you for sending a message love 🥰 i love hearing from everyone!

[ateezyuri]

Some encounters you wear forever

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JENNIE | ELLE FRANCE (B-CUT) | SEPTEMBER '23 ♡

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yuri’s relationship with ateez :: wooyoung + jongho

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer [send an ask to be included or removed]

WOOYOUNG !

WOOYOUNG ALWAYS HAS BEEF WITH YURI. affectionately of course. but with these two, wooyoung is the drama and yuri is the instigator…she always finds a way to mess with wooyoung. (“it’s too easy! you can’t blame me, i barely did a thing!) but the door goes both ways, wooyoung has to get his revenge some way!

wooyoung can be seen cuddling and being OBNOXIOUSLY affectionate towards yuri - and yuri is just sitting there like 🙂. now don’t let her coldness fool you - she’s a sucker for wooyoung hugs. and when it’s just them two, she doesn’t push him away as much 🥰.

woo is always making food for yuri and this girl LOVES IT. it’s like wooyoung is her personal chef!! and in exchange yuri promises to dedicate one night to hanging out with him - their favorite outing is drunk karaoke 😁

JONGHO !

GYM RATS. GYM RATS. GYM. RATS. yuri and jongho are each other’s gym BUDDIES. when yuri first stated she wanted to start working out, jongho is only one that will keep yuri committed and DEDICATED. he doesn’t care if yuri is grumpy or sore, he will drag her ALL the way to gym, he has NO TOLERANCE for her complaining.

but now that yuri actually got into this routine, she looks forward to the gym days (most of the time) because she gets to spend time with her jongho!!! they will always be there to spot each other and they always have the best tunes playing! atiny goes WILD whenever yuri posts gym pics because she is BUFF. and she never fails to post a picture/video of her and jongho working out together 😚

other than working out - the pair is literally like tom and jerry, but interchangeable, depending on their mood lol. but sometimes they can be seen working together to mess with someone! whenever someone in between them when sitting down, they will both lean against the person and squish them…rotten children i tell you. you gotta watch out for them, because they are always plotting to do something evil 😁

[ateezyuri]

is it over now? [may 2020]

summary — after months apart, yuri and yuqi finally reunite. but it doesn’t end in the way they hope.

warnings — mentions of depressive episode, argument

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax [send an ask to be included or removed]

notes — this seem familiar? cuz it is. my 2024 twist on love of my life 🥰

Yuri sighed, curling deeper into her bed, sinking further into the soft mattress below her. She had woken up not too long ago, but she couldn’t find it within herself to roll out of bed just yet. She found it frustrating that she couldn’t find any motivation for anything, because she had so much she wanted to do and so much she had in mind, but all of the tasks just seemed overwhelming, and Yuri kept pushing everything back, telling herself that she could do it later, just not now.

She had tried her best not to beat herself up about everything that she couldn’t get done, but it was a learning process. She still felt guilty, no matter the reassurances she got from her therapist and her members.

It wasn’t until her door had creaked open that Yuri had looked away from the corner of the room she had been staring at, turning around to see a smiling Jiwoo at the door. Jiwoo was her personal manager, and she had always made Yuri feel less alone. She had been staying in the apartment with her during her hiatus, and Yuri had been thankful that she wasn’t completely by herself, even if that’s what she said she wanted.

“I’m going to the store, will you be okay by yourself?” Jiwoo questioned, entering the room and gently stroking Yuri’s hair, smiling when the girl nodded in confirmation. “Call me if you need anything.”

“Okay, I will.” Yuri smiled, waving goodbye to Jiwoo as she left the room, turning back to her previous spot in her bed after she had left. Yuri had reached for her phone, smiling when she had seen a few text messages from her members.

[hwa] good morning love bug, text me when you see this <3 we can call later if you want! i’m free whenever :)

[minki🥰] san had tried to steal a few of your plushies, but don’t worry i hid them all in my room!

[ jjongie] *song link*

Yuri hummed, replying to all three of the boys a simple thank you, turning off her phone after the text messages had been sent.

Although she didn’t reply as often as she used to, the boys had still texted her throughout the week whenever they could, something that Yuri had looked forward to, even if she didn’t have the energy to talk to them. And the boys had always understood, they never held it against her, which touched Yuri to no end.

Yuri played the song that Jongho had recommended to her in the background softly, curling back into her bed and pulling the blankets closer, slowly trailing off into a slumber.

“Yuri, someone is here to see you.” Jiwoo’s soft voice caused Yuri to awaken, slowly opening her eyes and squinting over at Jiwoo, widening her eyes once they had adjusted. Who would it be? If it was one of the members she would have just let them in….

“It’s Yuqi...I can ask her to come another time if you want?” Jiwoo added, seeming to read Yuri’s confused expression. Jiwoo didn’t know that Yuri and Yuqi had dated, but she figured that something had happened between them, since Yuri had never mentioned her anymore.

“No...it’s okay. Tell her I’ll be there in a few minutes.” Yuri whispered, shock still going through her veins, and she swore she had never gotten out of bed faster, she probably had gotten ready in record time as well.

She didn’t change out of her sweatpants and oversized hoodie, but she had taken care of her hygiene, she didn’t really mind on how she looked at the moment, because Yuqi had seen her bare-faced and with heavier eye-bags before.

She slightly hesitated before grabbing the door’s handle, cringing at the slight squeal the door made, biting her lip to hold back the smile when Yuqi’s face was revealed.

Yuqi and her hadn’t seen each other since February, and no matter how many times Yuri had sworn she was over Yuqi, all of the butterflies and love that she had for Yuqi came rushing back when she saw the small smile that Yuqi had adored on her face.

“Is it alright if we go into your room?” Yuqi quietly mumbled, smiling when Yuri had nodded and let the girl in, and guided her into her bedroom.

“Sorry, it’s a bit of a mess.” Yuri chuckled sheepishly, moving the piles of the clothes that were littered around her floor to a single corner in her room, gently smiling at Yuqi once she had finished.

“I’m sure my room is messier.” Yuqi nervously laughed, hesitantly sitting on the edge of the bed, smiling when Yuri joined her.

“You are probably wondering why I’m here…” Yuqi mumbled, looking over at Yuri and quickly looking away when they had made eye contact.

“I well...I want to tell you something.” Yuqi whispered, and Yuri had barely heard her, but she still nodded nevertheless, urging the girl to continue.

A pit of nervousness had begun to form in Yuri’s stomach, the uncertainty of what Yuqi was about to say had made her head spin. She had definitely not expected the next words to flow out of Yuqi’s mouth.

“I’m in love with you.” Yuqi uttered out in a rush, and Yuri had quickly raised her eyebrows, Yuqi...loved her? Yuri could feel excitement bubbling in her stomach, she had craved to hear those three words from her previous lover for so long, but the longer she stared at Yuqi, the heavier her chest felt - her heart remembering all of the pain from the night she kissed the girl of her dreams goodbye.

This was what she wanted, right? So why isn’t she happy hearing this?

Yuri watched Yuqi’s face slowly drop from her reaction - which was clearly not the one she anticipated, and Yuri wanted nothing more than to reach out, to feel the smooth lines on the girl’s palm, to embrace her into her arms, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it. The air was too stiff, too tense to allow for Yuri to move any muscles in her body.

“After you said ‘I love you’ when we broke up...I can’t stop thinking about it. That had been the first time you said it. And it could have been the last. But I don’t want it to be the last, I'm not ready to give you up.” Yuqi whispered, tears starting to pool in her eyes. The hurt im Yuri’s chest started to turn into anger, seeing the girl who broke her heart, begging to be let back in. How could Yuqi, show up out of the blue, after months of no contact? Claiming she was in love?

“You hurt me.” Yuri whispered, looking down at her hands, the sight of Yuqi crying infront of her becoming unbearable. Even if she was angry, she still cared. She couldn’t let her weakness betray her, and allow her to take Yuqi back without a thought, because that would only end up with her heart broken again.

“You broke your promise.” Yuri continued, after a moment of silence. “You told me you wouldn’t let anything get in the way of us, but as soon as thing started getting scary, you left me.” Yuri couldn’t help it, she knew that she was being irrational, that Yuqi was hurting too, but she couldn’t swallow everything that happened and pretend it was fine, because it was very far from fine.

“I had to, Yuri! Don’t you understand? We- I could have lost my job!” Yuqi exclaimed, frowning when Yuri only shook her head and scoffed. “What, do you not care if I got kicked out of my group?”

“I care just as much as you care for my well-being, Yuqi.” Yuri said, and as soon as she said it, she wished she could take it back. She knew it was harsh - but she couldn’t stop herself. “I texted you, every single night, begging for you to just send me something, anything. You told me that I could call you when I felt like everything was falling apart. You told me you would be there for me - but were you?” Yuri asked, nodding when Yuqi slowly shook her head, too stunned to speak.

“I love you Yuqi, and I want to be with you, but it hurts to be with someone who breaks their promises.” Yuri finally said. Yuri had thought this for a long, long, time - but she never could bring herself to say it, fearing that Yuqi wouldn’t haven’t wanted to talk it out. Now that she told Yuqi how she hurt her - it felt like weight was leaving Yuri’s chest. Like she could breath again.

“What did you want me to do? Tell my company I was in love with you? Drop everything just to be with you?”

“I wanted you to fight for me, for us. That’s what I would have done. I would have found a way for it work. I always put you first, whenever you needed me, I was there. But you never put me first, Yuqi. I’m not telling you to quit your job - i’m asking you to at least to pretend you care about me.” Yuri pleaded, tears finally escaping her eyes. She couldn’t let Yuqi walk all over her anymore, she needed to stand her ground. Even if that meant loosing her.

“I do care about you! I’m here, aren’t I?” Yuri couldn’t believe the ignorance of the girl she though so much of - is this how she really thought? Did she really think this small amount of care was enough? Yuri felt completely blindsided. She felt this feeling before, many times, but with other people. She never expected Yuqi to make her feel this way, which only added to the pain.

“After three months! After three months of avoiding me! Am I too much of a burden?” Yuri asked, a sob escaping her lips when Yuqi didn’t say anything - confirming her worst nightmare. Fear of being a burden was the reason why it was so hard for her to open up for Yuri. She could feel her chest begin to close in on herself again, the reality of the situation starting to come clear to her.

The girls didn’t say anything for awhile, letting the bitter silence overtake them while Yuri cried. She couldn’t believe it. Yuqi’s true colors were finally starting to show - and every word that Yuqi spoke was like a knife piercing through her heart, and to make it worse, it didn’t even seem like the girl cared.

“You don’t love me. You can’t love me.” Yuri finally breathed out, breathing in sharply before continuing. “You don’t know how to love someone like me. And i’m not going to sit here and watch you force yourself to love me.” She finally looked up, sighing when she saw Yuqi’s puffy eyes, her lip quivering.

“Is it over?” Yuqi asked, but she didn’t need an answer. She already knew. Without a word, without a goodbye, or a hug, she left. Again. She left Yuri all alone, crying and distraught.

When she heard the front door shut, she let all of her locks on her emotions free, allowing herself to sink to the floor, freeing all of the tears and all of the sobs - letting out all of the heart wrenching screams her throat trapped inside her for so long until it went dry. She let everything go, until two pairs of strong arms lifted her up from the floor, rocking her back and forth until her breathing slowed down.

Yuri didn’t have to even look up to know who it was, there was only one person who Jiwoo would call when Yuri started loosing control of everything - Mingi. The boy who knew Yuri like no other.

“What did I do Mingi? What did I do to be so unloveable?” Yuri asked in between her sobbing fits, her entire body shaking as more tears rolled down her cheeks.

“You didn’t do a thing to deserve this. You are loveable, Yuri. I love you - she just wasn’t the right person. And that’s not your fault.” Mingi whispered, frowning when his words made Yuri cry harder.

“I wanted her to be the right person. I don’t think I can ever stop loving her.” Yuri didn’t think that any of this pain would go away. How could it? How could any of it go away, when Yuqi was the only person Yuri ever dreamed of loving for the rest of her life? How could she just move on?

Mingi didn’t say anything, knowing that Yuri needed this silence to gather herself, gently running his fingers through her hair until she fell asleep. Mingi lifted the girl up, wincing when she felt lighter than normal, placing both her and himself in her bed, throwing the covers over the both of them. Mingi sighed as he looked over at his best friend, who was in so much pain to begin with - and now has an added heartbreak into the mix.

“You never deserved any of this,” Mingi whispered into the cold air, pulling Yuri closer to him and closed his eyes, wishing to the stars above him that Yuri would be able to heal all of her wounds before he fell asleep.

Maybe this time - the universe would be on her side. Yuri would later find out that closing the door on Yuqi, would open so many other precious doors.

[ateezyuri]

yuri’s relationship with ateez :: mingi + san addition

MINGI

BESTIES BESTIES BESTIES. THE ULTIMATE DUO. yuri and mingi ARE THE DUO. literally icons, LEGENDS. whenever the two of them are together, yk you’re about to have a good time.

they are both so chaotic and their vibes ALWAYS match. they will never fail to make eachother and you laugh. they are literally inseparable. they always joke and say that their souls and emotions are connected, and there are countless of compilations of the two of them being on the same brain wavelength.

mingi is the lalala and yuri is the okay okay okay. there was one youtube video of mingi and yuri, and mingi DESPERATELY wanting to do the intro but he didn’t even know what the video was about, so yuri was holding papers up telling him what to say behind the camera, and it was SO OBVIOUS. yuri kept yelling at him because he kept messing up 😭. it’s so funny whenever yuri and mingi are teamed up together because yuri always blames everything on mingi and he’s like WHAT DID I DO???

even if they tease eachother a lot, they are always there for eachother. mingi and yuri facetimed pretty much every night when they both had their hiatus. and when ateez was known as kq fellaz, yuri went home with mingi for every holiday, and mingi’s family (as well as all of ateez’s family) adopted yuri as their own daughter :(. mingi complains that his mom calls yuri more that him 😭

they love each other with everything in their being <3 their friendship is just so pure and special <3

SAN

san helped yuri get out of her shell so so much during pre-debut! before yuri transferred to KQ, she considered herself an extrovert. after having a few waves of anxiety, she found herself being able to make friends to ease, in fact, she had so so many friends at JYP. but once yuri left the busy environment of JYP and transferred to a smaller company, yuri found herself struggling to connect to the boys. she adored them, she really did, but she was so used to being surrounded by people she knew since age 15, she wasn’t used to being in a room full of strangers every day.

san had noticed that she was often by herself during breaks or during stretches, and he always made an effort to make sure yuri felt included. whether that asking her questions to get her in the conversation, or simply walking over and sitting next to her, san had done it, until eventually, yuri didn’t have to be coaxed out of her own bubble.

now, yuri and san can be seen CONSTANTLY sitting in their own world. they can be so oblivious to their surroundings when their together - they can either be sitting in comfortable silence (rarely, only happens when they are really tired), gossiping (most likely), or giggling over memes (most likely of each other 🥰). san never fails to bring her soft side out!!

the two of them dancing together? 4 + 4 = ATE!!! san just makes her dancing so much powerful, it’s the VIBES!!!

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax [send an ask to be included or removed]

[ateezyuri]

how to appeal to the future in-laws: a guide by woosanhwa (✿◡‿◡)

[ateezyuri]

is it over now? [may 2020]

summary — after months apart, yuri and yuqi finally reunite. but it doesn’t end in the way they hope.

warnings — mentions of depressive episode, argument

tags — @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax [send an ask to be included or removed]

notes — this seem familiar? cuz it is. my 2024 twist on love of my life 🥰

Yuri sighed, curling deeper into her bed, sinking further into the soft mattress below her. She had woken up not too long ago, but she couldn’t find it within herself to roll out of bed just yet. She found it frustrating that she couldn’t find any motivation for anything, because she had so much she wanted to do and so much she had in mind, but all of the tasks just seemed overwhelming, and Yuri kept pushing everything back, telling herself that she could do it later, just not now.

She had tried her best not to beat herself up about everything that she couldn’t get done, but it was a learning process. She still felt guilty, no matter the reassurances she got from her therapist and her members.

It wasn’t until her door had creaked open that Yuri had looked away from the corner of the room she had been staring at, turning around to see a smiling Jiwoo at the door. Jiwoo was her personal manager, and she had always made Yuri feel less alone. She had been staying in the apartment with her during her hiatus, and Yuri had been thankful that she wasn’t completely by herself, even if that’s what she said she wanted.

“I’m going to the store, will you be okay by yourself?” Jiwoo questioned, entering the room and gently stroking Yuri’s hair, smiling when the girl nodded in confirmation. “Call me if you need anything.”

“Okay, I will.” Yuri smiled, waving goodbye to Jiwoo as she left the room, turning back to her previous spot in her bed after she had left. Yuri had reached for her phone, smiling when she had seen a few text messages from her members.

[hwa] good morning love bug, text me when you see this <3 we can call later if you want! i’m free whenever :)

[minki🥰] san had tried to steal a few of your plushies, but don’t worry i hid them all in my room!

[ jjongie] *song link*

Yuri hummed, replying to all three of the boys a simple thank you, turning off her phone after the text messages had been sent.

Although she didn’t reply as often as she used to, the boys had still texted her throughout the week whenever they could, something that Yuri had looked forward to, even if she didn’t have the energy to talk to them. And the boys had always understood, they never held it against her, which touched Yuri to no end.

Yuri played the song that Jongho had recommended to her in the background softly, curling back into her bed and pulling the blankets closer, slowly trailing off into a slumber.

“Yuri, someone is here to see you.” Jiwoo’s soft voice caused Yuri to awaken, slowly opening her eyes and squinting over at Jiwoo, widening her eyes once they had adjusted. Who would it be? If it was one of the members she would have just let them in….

“It’s Yuqi...I can ask her to come another time if you want?” Jiwoo added, seeming to read Yuri’s confused expression. Jiwoo didn’t know that Yuri and Yuqi had dated, but she figured that something had happened between them, since Yuri had never mentioned her anymore.

“No...it’s okay. Tell her I’ll be there in a few minutes.” Yuri whispered, shock still going through her veins, and she swore she had never gotten out of bed faster, she probably had gotten ready in record time as well.

She didn’t change out of her sweatpants and oversized hoodie, but she had taken care of her hygiene, she didn’t really mind on how she looked at the moment, because Yuqi had seen her bare-faced and with heavier eye-bags before.

She slightly hesitated before grabbing the door’s handle, cringing at the slight squeal the door made, biting her lip to hold back the smile when Yuqi’s face was revealed.

Yuqi and her hadn’t seen each other since February, and no matter how many times Yuri had sworn she was over Yuqi, all of the butterflies and love that she had for Yuqi came rushing back when she saw the small smile that Yuqi had adored on her face.

“Is it alright if we go into your room?” Yuqi quietly mumbled, smiling when Yuri had nodded and let the girl in, and guided her into her bedroom.

“Sorry, it’s a bit of a mess.” Yuri chuckled sheepishly, moving the piles of the clothes that were littered around her floor to a single corner in her room, gently smiling at Yuqi once she had finished.

“I’m sure my room is messier.” Yuqi nervously laughed, hesitantly sitting on the edge of the bed, smiling when Yuri joined her.

“You are probably wondering why I’m here…” Yuqi mumbled, looking over at Yuri and quickly looking away when they had made eye contact.

“I well...I want to tell you something.” Yuqi whispered, and Yuri had barely heard her, but she still nodded nevertheless, urging the girl to continue.

A pit of nervousness had begun to form in Yuri’s stomach, the uncertainty of what Yuqi was about to say had made her head spin. She had definitely not expected the next words to flow out of Yuqi’s mouth.

“I’m in love with you.” Yuqi uttered out in a rush, and Yuri had quickly raised her eyebrows, Yuqi...loved her? Yuri could feel excitement bubbling in her stomach, she had craved to hear those three words from her previous lover for so long, but the longer she stared at Yuqi, the heavier her chest felt - her heart remembering all of the pain from the night she kissed the girl of her dreams goodbye.

This was what she wanted, right? So why isn’t she happy hearing this?

Yuri watched Yuqi’s face slowly drop from her reaction - which was clearly not the one she anticipated, and Yuri wanted nothing more than to reach out, to feel the smooth lines on the girl’s palm, to embrace her into her arms, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it. The air was too stiff, too tense to allow for Yuri to move any muscles in her body.

“After you said ‘I love you’ when we broke up...I can’t stop thinking about it. That had been the first time you said it. And it could have been the last. But I don’t want it to be the last, I'm not ready to give you up.” Yuqi whispered, tears starting to pool in her eyes. The hurt im Yuri’s chest started to turn into anger, seeing the girl who broke her heart, begging to be let back in. How could Yuqi, show up out of the blue, after months of no contact? Claiming she was in love?

“You hurt me.” Yuri whispered, looking down at her hands, the sight of Yuqi crying infront of her becoming unbearable. Even if she was angry, she still cared. She couldn’t let her weakness betray her, and allow her to take Yuqi back without a thought, because that would only end up with her heart broken again.

“You broke your promise.” Yuri continued, after a moment of silence. “You told me you wouldn’t let anything get in the way of us, but as soon as thing started getting scary, you left me.” Yuri couldn’t help it, she knew that she was being irrational, that Yuqi was hurting too, but she couldn’t swallow everything that happened and pretend it was fine, because it was very far from fine.

“I had to, Yuri! Don’t you understand? We- I could have lost my job!” Yuqi exclaimed, frowning when Yuri only shook her head and scoffed. “What, do you not care if I got kicked out of my group?”

“I care just as much as you care for my well-being, Yuqi.” Yuri said, and as soon as she said it, she wished she could take it back. She knew it was harsh - but she couldn’t stop herself. “I texted you, every single night, begging for you to just send me something, anything. You told me that I could call you when I felt like everything was falling apart. You told me you would be there for me - but were you?” Yuri asked, nodding when Yuqi slowly shook her head, too stunned to speak.

“I love you Yuqi, and I want to be with you, but it hurts to be with someone who breaks their promises.” Yuri finally said. Yuri had thought this for a long, long, time - but she never could bring herself to say it, fearing that Yuqi wouldn’t haven’t wanted to talk it out. Now that she told Yuqi how she hurt her - it felt like weight was leaving Yuri’s chest. Like she could breath again.

“What did you want me to do? Tell my company I was in love with you? Drop everything just to be with you?”

“I wanted you to fight for me, for us. That’s what I would have done. I would have found a way for it work. I always put you first, whenever you needed me, I was there. But you never put me first, Yuqi. I’m not telling you to quit your job - i’m asking you to at least to pretend you care about me.” Yuri pleaded, tears finally escaping her eyes. She couldn’t let Yuqi walk all over her anymore, she needed to stand her ground. Even if that meant loosing her.

“I do care about you! I’m here, aren’t I?” Yuri couldn’t believe the ignorance of the girl she though so much of - is this how she really thought? Did she really think this small amount of care was enough? Yuri felt completely blindsided. She felt this feeling before, many times, but with other people. She never expected Yuqi to make her feel this way, which only added to the pain.

“After three months! After three months of avoiding me! Am I too much of a burden?” Yuri asked, a sob escaping her lips when Yuqi didn’t say anything - confirming her worst nightmare. Fear of being a burden was the reason why it was so hard for her to open up for Yuri. She could feel her chest begin to close in on herself again, the reality of the situation starting to come clear to her.

The girls didn’t say anything for awhile, letting the bitter silence overtake them while Yuri cried. She couldn’t believe it. Yuqi’s true colors were finally starting to show - and every word that Yuqi spoke was like a knife piercing through her heart, and to make it worse, it didn’t even seem like the girl cared.

“You don’t love me. You can’t love me.” Yuri finally breathed out, breathing in sharply before continuing. “You don’t know how to love someone like me. And i’m not going to sit here and watch you force yourself to love me.” She finally looked up, sighing when she saw Yuqi’s puffy eyes, her lip quivering.

“Is it over?” Yuqi asked, but she didn’t need an answer. She already knew. Without a word, without a goodbye, or a hug, she left. Again. She left Yuri all alone, crying and distraught.

When she heard the front door shut, she let all of her locks on her emotions free, allowing herself to sink to the floor, freeing all of the tears and all of the sobs - letting out all of the heart wrenching screams her throat trapped inside her for so long until it went dry. She let everything go, until two pairs of strong arms lifted her up from the floor, rocking her back and forth until her breathing slowed down.

Yuri didn’t have to even look up to know who it was, there was only one person who Jiwoo would call when Yuri started loosing control of everything - Mingi. The boy who knew Yuri like no other.

“What did I do Mingi? What did I do to be so unloveable?” Yuri asked in between her sobbing fits, her entire body shaking as more tears rolled down her cheeks.

“You didn’t do a thing to deserve this. You are loveable, Yuri. I love you - she just wasn’t the right person. And that’s not your fault.” Mingi whispered, frowning when his words made Yuri cry harder.

“I wanted her to be the right person. I don’t think I can ever stop loving her.” Yuri didn’t think that any of this pain would go away. How could it? How could any of it go away, when Yuqi was the only person Yuri ever dreamed of loving for the rest of her life? How could she just move on?

Mingi didn’t say anything, knowing that Yuri needed this silence to gather herself, gently running his fingers through her hair until she fell asleep. Mingi lifted the girl up, wincing when she felt lighter than normal, placing both her and himself in her bed, throwing the covers over the both of them. Mingi sighed as he looked over at his best friend, who was in so much pain to begin with - and now has an added heartbreak into the mix.

“You never deserved any of this,” Mingi whispered into the cold air, pulling Yuri closer to him and closed his eyes, wishing to the stars above him that Yuri would be able to heal all of her wounds before he fell asleep.

Maybe this time - the universe would be on her side. Yuri would later find out that closing the door on Yuqi, would open so many other precious doors.

[ateezyuri]

YURI — WRITINGS

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faking it

2018 —

another brother

2019 —

late night butterflies

2020 —

shattered hearts

is it over now?

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love languages

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note: i am aware that this masterlist looks so small — you can still read my previous works on my linked old masterlist, but the writing is 😬. i wrote the majority of her works 2-3 years ago, and i hope to rewrite them and make them somewhat better! this will be a long process, so plz bear with me!!!!

[ateezyuri]

another brother

time :: december 2018

summary :: yuri wanted nothing more than a hug from her older brother — but when he wasn’t home, yuri finds herself getting another brother.

warnings :: busy schedules, stress, crying, not having time to sleep/eat

tags: @chaerincore @atzaria @ateezjuliet @m00niesk7 @btsnvra @softieteez @shinyddeonghwa @girlzwfun @still-astray @txt-yaomi @billboard-singer @newjeansmax send an ask to be included or removed]

It had been a long, exhaustive, excruciating day for Yuri. With back to back practices, vocal lessons and schedules, she wanted nothing more than to throw herself in the comfort of her brother’s arms — just like when she was younger. She hadn’t seen Jae in a few weeks — which was the longest time she went without visiting him for years. She didn’t realize how much stress Jae had relieved her of until now, and she swore she was never going to go without her brother for this long again.

Thankfully, Jae had given her his spare key when he moved out of the dorms, telling her to use it for ‘emergency purposes only’ — which resulted in her breaking the rule just an hour after he handed the key to her. To be fair — she had just heard that she would be able to meet one of her favorite artists due to their comeback schedules overlapping, and it was quite the emergency.

Yuri knew she should have texted Jae before she came over — because she wasn’t even sure if anyone was home. If Jae wasn’t there, she knew Bambi, Jae’s dog, would be there, and nothing was more therapeutic than getting cuddles from an overly excited dog — expect for, actually going to therapy, which was something Yuri wasn’t able to do recently, not with her hectic schedule.

Yuri opened the door to Jae’s apartment and closed it behind her, sliding off her shoes and putting on her house slippers — ones with an adorable bunny face and bunny ears attached, courtesy gift from Jae’s three year boyfriend, Jeonghan.

Jae and Jeonghan had lived together for under a year — the couple only moving in together at the beginning of the year. Jeonghan and Yuri were acquaintances before he fell in love with her brother — and they had slowly became better friends as his and Jae’s relationship progressed.

Jeonghan had been home almost everytime she came over when she had an “emergency” — and slowly got used to hearing her obnoxious yell as soon as she entered the house. But this time, Yuri didn’t let out a scream or slam the door behind her, instead, she was slowly walking into the living room, praying that her brother was home. She could feel her emotions starting to bubble up in her throat again, tears beginning to cloud her vision. She swore she could have burst when Bambi excitedly jumped down ran towards her, surprising Jeonghan, who had been cuddling her before she left him.

“Oh, Yuri. I didn’t hear you come in. I must be going deaf from the amount of times you screamed coming in.” Jeonghan chuckled, frowning when Yuri didn’t laugh for comment, only absently mindlessly scratching behind Bambi’s ears. “Is everything alright?” Jeonghan asked, furrowing his eyebrows even more when he heard the girl sniff, wiping under her eyes with her sweatshirt. He never saw Yuri be vulnerable in front of him — it almost scared him to see the girl in tears. Something had to be very wrong in order for Yuri to break down her walls so easily, and Jeonghan didn’t know what to do in response.

“Is Jae home?” Yuri asks instead of answering, slowly raising her head to look over at Jeonghan, only to look back down when she saw his concerned expression. Fuck, she couldn’t hold back her emotions for a few more minutes — and now she had someone worried for her. She couldn’t help but feel like a burden when Jeonghan got up from his spot on the couch to move infront of her, crouching down to where she sat on the ground.

“No, he’s not home. He went grocery shopping,” Jeonghan answered, awkwardly clearing his throat when Yuri only turned away from him, hurriedly wiping her face — in hopes to wipe away any expression of pain. “You could call him, i’m sure he would pick up —”

“No, no. It’s okay, I think i’ll just go home. I’ll call him later.” Yuri said, pushing herself up and attempting to walk towards to door, halting when Jeonghan stood in front of her. Yuri tried to move around him, but the man only moved with her, blocking her in. “Jeonghan, please, let me go home.” Yuri sighed exasperatedly, biting her lip in annoyance when Jeonghan continued to block her, eventually grabbing her shoulders to keep her from moving.

“I’m not letting you leave when you’re this upset — now sit, and tell me what I can do to help.” Jeonghan stated, and if Yuri had any energy left in her body, she would have pushed past him and smarted off to him, but she had no motivation to continue to fight with man. With a defeated sigh, Yuri threw herself onto the couch, pulling a blanket from the side and wrapping herself in it, resting her head on the armrest.

“I really don’t want to talk about it.” Yuri muttered, swallowing harshly in hopes that it would get rid of her tears. “I know you want to help, but I just don’t want to talk about it...please.” Yuri said after a few beats of silence, her voice only being a pained whisper. She saw Jeonghan sigh and moved to sit next to her, leaning back and resting his head against the back of the sofa, turning his head to look at her after a few minutes.

“Are you sure? Because i’m a really good listener.”

Yuri knew that Jeonghan wouldn’t give up on the subject anytime soon — his expression mimicking one of a kicked puppy. Yuri couldn’t push him away again — his pout pulling at her heartstrings. So, with another defeated sigh, Yuri pushed herself up again to sit, bring her knees to her chest and turning to face Jeonghan, looking back down to her hands when she started talking.

“I don’t know...i’ve just been really stressed lately. I have no time at all, I don’t even have time to go to therapy. It’s been so busy — and I know that I should be happy because that means Ateez is getting more popular but — it’s so exhausting.” Yuri admitted, her voice cracking when she realized how tired she truly was. “I just — I can’t handle it. I cant constantly be going from schedule to schedule without any break at all, I just can’t do that. And everyone else seems to be fine, they’re tired, but they still manage to smile through it all. I just feel like i’m holding my group back — in so many ways.”

Yuri raised her eyebrows after she finished talking — she hadn’t even opened up that much to her members. She knew that her feelings would hurt them, and that they would tell her over and over again that she wasn’t holding them back at all — but Yuri knew that there was some truth to it. Ateez missed out on so many opportunities just because they had a girl on their team — not even her popularity from the past could save them from the hate. In fact, it only made the hate stronger.

Yuri thought that she wouldn’t let the hate get to her — especially with her tough skin, but the comments were terrifying. They hit every wound Yuri had with a grain of salt, and left no remorse for her whatsoever.

“You aren’t holding your team back — not one bit. The boys might be able to smile through it, but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t exhausted too. Some people are just better at masking it than others, and that’s okay.” Jeonghan said after awhile, softly smiling when Yuri looked up at him.

“When I first debuted, it was so busy. And it only got even busier — we barely even had time to sleep, let alone eat. Some members could handle the pressure...while some of us couldn’t. But that didn’t make them any lesser to us, because they were still our members at the end of the day. We are all human, we can’t be running full speed at life all the time.” Jeonghan finished, sighing as he thought about his earlier debut days. It was hard and stressful, but he had friends and family on his side to help him get through it.

Jeonghan wanted to be a person that Yuri trusted and could come to when things got hard, like she did tonight. He knew she originally came for her brother, but he was glad she stayed with him. He heard the girl sniffling next to him, so he quickly reached over and handed her the tissue box that was laying on the coffee table, calling Bambi back into the living room.

“Bambi! Give Yuri kisses!” Jeonghan said, giggling when Bambi laid on top on Yuri’s figure, attacking her with love and affection. Jeonghan couldn’t help but smile when he heard Yuri’s giggles, laughing as she attempted at pushing the dog away.

“You can call me Yeong-mi, Jeonghan.” Yuri said once Bambi calmed down, now resting her head in Yuri’s lap. “And thank you for the kind words, I really needed that.”

“Of course, I was a rookie once too.” Jeonghan joked, nudging Yuri’s side, scoffing when Yuri shook her head in disbelief. “I’m not that old!” Jeonghan protested, only for Yuri to sarcastically agree.

The two bickered back and forth about Jeonghan acting like he was an old man until they heard the front door creak open, Bambi waking up and running to attack the intruder, smelling for any treats in the grocery bags.

“Yeongmi? Why are you here?” Jae asked once he walked into the living room, freezing in his tracks when he say his sister lean over to put Jeonghan in a choke-hold, biting back his own amused chuckle.

“Shouldn’t you be excited to see me?” Yuri exclaimed, pushing herself off of the couch to slap her brother’s chest, laughing when he picked her up and threw her on the arm chair next to them, squishing her cheeks together. “Is this how you treat me after everything i’ve done for you?”

Jae could only sigh and roll his eyes, ruffling her hair before going to sit next to Jeonghan. “I don’t know if you breaking into my house every week is really doing something for me...” Jae mumbled, yelping when Jeonghan pinched his side.

“You should be nice to your sister! She comes over because she misses and loves you!” Jeonghan scolded, winking at Yuri when she giggled. Jae only shook his head and pulled his sister into a hug, smiling when she didn’t push him away.

“I love you very much, sis” Jae whispered, making Yuri almost break into tears again. She didn’t say anything, but Jae knew when Yuri wrapped her arms around him, that she loved him too. Yuri knew that as long as her brother was on her side, everything would be okay. Jae would always be on her side - no matter what.

And now, she knows she can count on Jeonghan too.

“Oh to witness sibling love - this is too precious!” Jeonghan yelled out, making both Yuri and Jae laugh, separating to see Jeonghan dramatically wiping away tears. Even with all of her hardships, Yuri wouldn’t wish for any other life.