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so a few months ago i had a weirdly delightful little exchange

where someone said "Yori is Eve tempting Adam" (in response to.... idk, either the Deleted Scene where she convinced Tron to take a circuit-touching break before he visits Alan-1... or maybe the end scene where she introduces Tron to kissing, which I guess would make Flynn the Serpent, lol)

And pretty much without thinking, because the Pattern Recognizer just works like that, I answered "That's like comparing apples and oranges"

Sooooo (also because of how the Pattern Recognizer works).... now that there is that trend of drawing characters in the negative space of an apple core... I want to figure out a way to do it with an orange. And Yori. Somehow.

Just putting this down as reminder to self. For when work is over.

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I wonder what this even means

I mean, the world of cliched gender stereotypes is a very unrealistic and non-existent place... but even in that world, "women" aren't even the ones who stereotypically "don't want to do dishes"

(i mean, not that anyone WANTS to, but stereotypically women are said to be the ones who keep doing the dishes every day because dishes need doing, but occasionally complain that the men don't ever, ever help with it)

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I somehow pictured this outfit

I don't even know why

It's not even gold and white

...hey. at least it's not blue and black

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Eh, it really really depends on where you work.

I don't think my social anxiety will ever recover from the job I had in Pennsylvania, where basically no one was conflict avoidant, and everyone had shit-tier theory of mind where they fully expected everyone to be fully cognizant of bizarre rules that no one could possibly figure out by intuition, and "asking questions" and "not asking questions and guessing wrong" would both get you screamed at for being stupid.

But then I already had a low tolerance for criticism. so maybe the only way to survive that job untraumatized would have been to be born in Pennsylvania

I think I just realized that part of my anxiety with being in public is that I feel like I don't have the same right to use public spaces as other people do. Like they're the real People Who Use This Coffee Bar. And when I try to use it as someone who is not Inherently Worthy Of Using The Coffee Bar I'm just getting in their way

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the sign of being an adult who actually remembers what childhood was like

and also remembers how the shift from that to being a grownup was a slow gradient and not a moment

there is not a fundamental clear line between you and the child who was never taught all the rules or exactly when and where each one applies, but still got yelled at for not following them all perfectly

it's all differences of degree

you have less of that in your life now... but the amount is never zero, and you don't know where that nonzero is gonna turn up, and deep down you are conscious of this

I think I just realized that part of my anxiety with being in public is that I feel like I don't have the same right to use public spaces as other people do. Like they're the real People Who Use This Coffee Bar. And when I try to use it as someone who is not Inherently Worthy Of Using The Coffee Bar I'm just getting in their way

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(it's like that picture of the blue tongue skink eating chicken nuggets that turned out to be a Photoshop)

(except now people who did Photoshops are out of business and replaced by people who just type in prompts of whatever ill-advised thing they want a picture of a blue tongue skink doing)

(this is good news for blue tongue skinks that shouldn't be eating chicken nuggets because staging a picture of that for real is now by far the least easy option)

(not so good for... lots of other reasons tho)

an underrecognised tragedy of AI slop isn't just that any piece of contemporary art could be AI, any news reel could be AI, it's that now just any video of something vaguely nice and whimsical happening in the world could be AI

this is about the trampoline bunnies

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so you know how sellers of homeopathic remedies are happy to encourage the obscuring of what the term "homeopathic" means

because when people know that "homeopathic" means diluted until there's nothing in it anymore except water, they often don't wanna buy it

but when people think "homeopathic" can mean pretty much any herbal remedy, they won't check too closely before buying something labeled as that

so if you're selling water claiming it's a medicine, you actually benefit from this expansion of the word usage, and the co-opting of your word by other sellers

because it increases the chance of customers buying your homeopathic product, because they confuse it with a real medicine, or at least a real something

it is strange because in most markets this sort of thing doesn't work.

in most markets, sellers who use a label don't want sellers of a different thing using the same label

in most markets, "brand dilution" isn't a good thing

is it

Is it good in homeopathy because

oh fuck this

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"Came back wrong," but it's just because i do everything wrong

("Died badly," but it's just that i did such a bad job of dying that i ended up still being alive)

(Came back wrong because i failed so bad at dying that there was nothing to come back from)

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#so this is Christmas

#and what do you get

#another year older

#and deeper in debt

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‘Twas brillig, and the slithy toves A stately pleasure-dome decreed. And what rough beast, its hour come round at last, Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

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my bathtub is to my right at the moment, I'm pretty sure running water is one of the standard weaknesses

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Donna Scully and Docs Mulder

(It's still called the X files because Roman numeral for 10)

Love it

Thats the last time i buy ‘official’ merch from etsy because who is this.

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Saint Sebastian Bach

Brian Yungen

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Update: who cares how worried I should be, I am immersed in whimsy

so I recently moved into a house that is over a hundred years old

And although it's been recently pretty well renovated, it still does... weird things that old houses do sometimes

And I am still trying to figure out which of those things are concerning and which are not

For example. It shifts. I am discovering that I cannot plan any arrangement of furnishings around the assumption that the measurements of the house will remain the same to within a couple inches over the course of a day

for example. In one place I ran an extension cord from an outlet on one side of the room, across the ceiling to the top of a shelf on the other side. I affixed the end of the extension cord to a basket on the top of that shelf, to hold it in place for the time being. The cord was not drawn extremely taut or anything. But even so, I later came back to find the end of the extension cord hanging from the ceiling, while still affixed to the basket-- which it had pulled off of the shelf, and was now dangling in the middle of the room like some sort of mischievous tentacle

Also: the tension rod which WAS quite snugly holding a curtain in my bay window has now fallen out. evidently the bay window has become slightly wider since I hung the thing up

...how worried should I be?

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Whats up wit da air lol