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What makes you think we don't get along? We're pretty close... Maybe not as close as she and I are to Kome, but close. I never had many female friends growing up... But Ve's totally cool and we share a lot of the same views on things. We just... mesh really well.

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You're kiddin', right? Date Ivy? No. I probably wouldn't even have slept with Ivy as much as I did if I never knew Charlotte. It woulda been a one time thing, maybe. But no, I definitely wouldn't ever date her. She's not exactly the woman I'd ever see myself marryin'.

I really wouldn't wanna be in a relationship with anyone else but Charlotte either, honestly. She's my first honest, real relationship. And there's a good damn reason for that. I'm picky as fuck about who I get serious with. And generally, the type of women I'd settle down with are never too fond of me. Charlotte's a special kind of woman and one that is everything I need plus everything I want. So really, I wouldn't wanna be in a relationship with anyone else.

... If you wanna ask who else I'd sleep with if I weren't in a relationship though... that's different.

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Awww, I'm not really all that cute... I don't think. Am I?

Um... but thank you. As for fashion... I don't know. When I'm free to dress however I like, it really just depends on my mood. Honestly... a lot of the time, I just wanna be comfortable. I spend so much time in tight, uncomfortable, and impractical clothing that once I get a chance to dress myself, I'd really just be happy in a skirt and a T-shirt. I do like to accessorize though, I guess. I don't really know what draws me to it... I think I just like shiny things. :3

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You know I'm married to John, right? Well, so long as Kome's covering his ears... I don't know. I'd fuck all of them. Though Dan seems like he'd be bit too... soft (not that that's a bad thing ;3).

I guess... Marry Wallace. Fuck Alik. And reluctantly kill Dan. He's such a sweetie though, I don't think he deserves that. Sorry, Dan!

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I don't even know half the answers to these things, but okay.

What's the most important part of a relationship? I dunno, besides sex? Eeeh, maybe understandin'. I don't fuckin' care if everyone agrees with me and shit, but so long as I can see someone's makin' an effort to understand where I'm comin' from? That's good enough. Not to say I always do the same. I don't. But for people I actually care about... yeah, I try.

Do I believe in breaks? Fuck yeah, I believe in them. I mean, so long as you're not in some serious relationship and all. Otherwise, I'd say if you're goin' on a break then, your relationship's probably doomed anyways. But hey, I could always use a break with Ivy. But with Charlotte? I mean, aside from the one I was pretty much forced into 'cause of what's his dick face, I wouldn't want to ever be told she wants a break.

As for stayin' friends after breakin' up? I think that kinda depends on a lot of shit. Generally I'd say fuck no. But I did it for Char when she went off with the toolbag. I only made the exception because I wanted her so fuckin' much though. And I was sure she made a big fuckin' mistake in goin' with him. I wanted to make sure he didn't hurt her and I wanted to make sure neither of us lost our chance again once things fell apart. But generally, no. Stay the fuck away.

... God, you want me to give myself a piece of datin' advice? I... generally don't really "date" anyways, so I really don't know what the hell I'd tell myself. Not to get involved with Ivy, probably. Not that we were exactly "datin'" or nothin'.

It wouldn't bother me if the person I was with had a mental illness. I guess. I don't know. Depends what kinda "illness" it is. God knows my own head is fucked, so I can't necessarily see myself goin' with someone that's seein' things or hearin' voices. I'd lose my own mind and probably hurt them. Whether I meant to or not. I know what I can deal with and understand and what I can't. I have little patience, but I'll try, within my limits.

Oh, christ. Is it stupid to consider suicide after a break up? Fuck yes, it's stupid. If you want an even straighter answer, yes, Charlotte, you were fuckin' stupid to even ever PLAY with that idea after my death. That's not what I would have fuckin' wanted. At all. I mean, our situation aside, because it's slightly different, it's just a horrible idea all around. It ain't gonna make your true love or whatever shit pity you. It'll just make them feel awful. And they'll have to live with that for the rest of their goddamned life. I mean, if someone wants to die, I think they should have the right, but over a relationship? That's just... no. Get therapy. Get help. Move on.

... And thank you. Now I don't have to leave off on that. Nope, I don't think watchin' porn with your girlfriend/boyfriend/whatever is inappropriate. Really, if you CAN'T watch it with them comfortably, then why the fuck are you even in a relationship with them in the first place? Like, seriously? Besides, it might introduce you to new things and all that. What's the harm?

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Activities? What, like... sex? 'Cause I enjoy that. I dunno. I like goin' out. You know, pretendin' I have some sorta glamourous life or whatever while really I'm just out at the same bars and pubs, with the same stupid people, buyin' cheap drinks for girls who will barely even look at me. I like playin' pool. ... And I like eatin'. ... Take that as you will. *clears throat*

If I had any future to plan for, I'd just say continue movin' on up the tier and start a family. I woulda liked to have two kids, if I could. ... Not right away or one after the other, but. You know. I woulda liked to talk to my brother again. At least once. Once I got the money to show for anyways. I mean... I figure he probably hates me, but... Just once would be good enough for me.

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... Ivy? >___> Is that you?

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... Are you fuckin' with me? 'Cause I don't care what Ivy thinks, but she's not exactly... If I wasn't as desperate as I was, there'd be no way this would have happened.

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Not really, actually. If she does, it's only if she wants to dress up. But... that's kind of rare. She doesn't wear dresses very often. She's got some skirts, but she doesn't wear those too often either. She just sort of has her own thing going on. Not like I mind. We stuffed her in plenty of cutesy things when she was little anyhow.

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I would, but uh, I'm kinda on a leash here.

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You're not seriously askin' me this, are you?

'Cause... they're two complete opposites. I can't fuckin' compare them. Jesus christ.

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... Should it? I mean... yeah, I guess it surprised me a little... but she is a grown woman and... I should have known in the first place. It's just... hard to remember, considerin' the way she... you know. And with me bein' the way I am, I just naturally wanna... not be... me. If that makes sense.

I think the only thing that worries me 'bout her is that I don't think she quite understands certain things. Maybe that's me treatin' her like a kid again or somethin' but... she really does do some stupid things sometimes. She's not afraid of me, but... maybe she should be. And I don't mean that as a threat or nothin', I just mean that... well, I don't always trust myself.

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I... I don't wanna talk about this. Do I have to talk about this?

There's lots of things I wish I could say to my ma, but... I guess I could still say them to her if... 'cause she's still here. So I guess it'd be either my brother or his... the guy that... yeah.

I don't know where I'd start with Clyde though... I just... there's a lot I'd want to say. A lot I'd wanna ask. Too much for me to try and put here.

And as for his killer, I... I don't know. I'd wanna ask him why. I know he probably just did what he was told to do, but. That doesn't make it right. If Clyde was one of his own then... why? Why didn't they just decide to kick him out? If he was so... bad for them, then why didn't they just kick him out? Or were they just too afraid of him? I just... I don't understand.

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Uh... Weird, I guess? I mean, it's nice and all, but... I'm still a bit confused as to why. >__>

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I dunno... there ain't much I'm good at and I'd hate doin' any kind of office work, so... I'm not really sure. I mean, I can box, I know how to do that, but I ain't good enough to do it professionally. And I don't always... like people. So teachin' wouldn't work either. I... yeah. I don't know.

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Why the face?

I don't fuckin' know though. I don't really fuckin' care how I'm remembered, honestly. Just as long as I'm not forgotten.

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Christ, I don't know.

I... I really don't know. You'd expect me to say Charlotte or my brother or maybe even Danny... but. I mean, they've all been far nicer to me and cared for and about me far more than anyone ever should, but... I don't know. I... think I'd have to say Ve, actually, if you want me to be 100% serious.

And it's not to undermine everyone else in my life that's been great to me or nothin', it's just... you know. Ve just kinda...yeah, I can't do this. You know what I'm tryin' to say right? No? Too bad then.