ask-theportgasfamily

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I am sorry for not being on anymore. Yet, I want to thank you all for liking my characters.

If you have added me on discord, please unfriend me. Please unfollow me.

I hurt a lot of people unintentionally.. and for that, I will be deleting this blog as well as several other blogs I run soon.

I am sick and it is not good for your mental health to be associated with me. I will not be coming back ever again for everyone's sake.

For those who loved my characters... thank you for loving them.

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"Fufufu~ Good to see you two again." Robin says, smiling at Ayase and Spade. "I was quite worried after that....incident."

Things were.. very difficult for a bit as we had to try and get over the incident as quickly as possible. Spade is still pretty shaken up..

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“Weep and ask for help. Lean on me with your runny nose. Cry when you feel like crying. Laugh when you feel like laughing. When you’re tearing up with an ugly face, I’ll give you a good cry with an uglier face. When you’re laughing so hard your stomach hurts, I’ll laugh in a louder voice. That’s how it should be. It’s far better to get dirty while living true to yourself, than to throw away yourself and die a clean death.”

Cho..chopper..? You okay..? I’m worried about you, buddy.. did.. did something happen..?

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Ace, Aya and Spade are ready for some asks!! But there’s none in my inbox!! Where are my lovelies???

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Hello, I'm sorry if it comes out as rude. But I am wondering if some info in your bio is considered as "too much information" and I am a bit concerned about your privacy. Just a reminder. You're amazing and please stay safe!

Not rude at all! I haven’t revealed anything SUPER important as far as I’m concerned.. I appreciate your worry! I’m pretty shameless.. but I doubt anybody would want any useless info about me.. if anybody tried taking my info, they’d quickly find that I’m not worth impersonating!

Thanks again for your concern, friend!! <3

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Saw some people do this.. I wanted to join in the fun. Hope you guys enjoy knowing more about my dumb ass. Maybe one day I’ll get top surgery.. buuut I don’t think I’ll ever get the cash together.

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YAAAAY ACE IS BACK!!! is spade happy he's back??

Ayase: They’re as inseparable as ever, Anon-san! Haha. The two of them are going to end up eating everything in sight, though!

Spade: DAAAAAAAAAD!! SHARE! MOM SAYS SHARING IS CARING!

Ace: Sharing may be caring, but pirates don’t have to share. Didn’t I teach you that?

Spade: MOOOOOM!! DAD WON’T SHARE!

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In honor of coming back, Asks will include Ace until the sleepy dork decides to leave. So many of you kept asking for him in the past, so here he is. Ask box is open and empty to boot!

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ask-the-marimozoro​:

Zoro: “ You don’t know if I could have killed you right where you stand. “

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“OI!!”

Huff huff huff! “I’m a kid, not stupid!! And I don’t have to go home!!!”

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It’s kinda cute..

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Please, take your pick from any of the trees--but please don’t pick from the one with the red ribbon.. It’s very important to me!

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HEY, HO!!

After a bit of time.. a few friends helped me feel well enough to come back. The inbox is open and we’re ready for asks.

I can’t tell you enough how much I missed you guys.

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HEY, HO!!

After a bit of time.. a few friends helped me feel well enough to come back. The inbox is open and we’re ready for asks.

I can’t tell you enough how much I missed you guys.

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How're you guys holding up?

I know this was aimed for the event that happened with Ichiji.. but I owe you guys a LOT since I disappeared off the face of tumblr for so long.. Read more is placed here for sensitive material.

I’ve realized a lot since I’ve been gone. I’ve been struggling even more since Covid hit.. I lost my job.. nearly lost my apartment SEVERAL TIMES.. My depression hit me pretty hard.

I’ve also learned that I have a medical condition that blocks serotonin to my brain.. so that’s great. I’ve been suicidal lately, feeling as though I don’t belong here.. hoping that maybe if I do pass, I’ll wake up in another world like those isekai series that keep popping up. I’ve been wanting to puke after eating every meal.. I don’t want to get up in the morning. I don’t want to do anything.

I don’t have the right body. I don’t have the right mind. I don’t have anything.. I’m constantly tired.. and I feel as though my writing and art are just mediocre at best.

I love these characters.. but I feel like they’re just bland and no one really wants them around. Ayase is too nice.. too motherly.. and she’s fallen into the ‘ODA DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO WRITE WOMEN’ category.. and Spade has fallen into the ‘annoying little bastard’ category for being a typical shounen protagonist according to some reviews from anonymous viewers.

I’m getting to the point where I just want to give up on everything. Art.. writing.. hell.. I’m even giving up on living. What else can I do other than lay in bed and stare at the ceiling like the fat fuck I am?

I want to say I’m sorry to each and every one of you.. and please.. forgive me. I don’t feel worthy of nearly 500 followers when I hardly come online in the first place.

I’m sorry.. and thank you. I’ll say goodbye soon. Cherish one another. Lift each other up. Don’t make mistakes like I have. Don’t let your actions control you. This isn’t a suicide letter. I promise. I’m too much of a fucking coward to kill myself.. but..

Thank you.. for loving me.

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oof, why did the ps4 game have to call me out 😔

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OC X CANON SHIPS ARE VALID AND GOOD LET US S A I L BITCH