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it’s the way Cas legitimately always says exactly what Dean needs to hear. Literally sees through his shit and clocks it, Dean looked like he was about to cry saying he’s failed people so many times and who’s fault was it if not his, and Cas is dropping lines like:

“everything isn’t your responsibility”

“It’s not about fault, it’s about will”

“you can’t save everyone my friend, though you try”

Like no wonder Dean refused to leave purgatory without him and fought tooth and nail to get him to that portal, that’s his emotional support angel

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Ok let’s break it down shall we:

In season 4-5 I could already see the shipping potential with the concept of an angel pulling a faithless man out of hell, and said angel who is a robotic soldier suddenly starts to feel emotion after interacting more and more with said man.

Insane foundation already but I did think of how castiel seemed to already have a fascination with humanity after I saw his chat with uriel at the park where he tells dean that not only does he think all humans are works of art but that he already has doubts in heaven and in his absent father. Dean IS the one to inspire him to ultimately rebel and discover free will but I could excuse it as mainly a personal journey that you could certainly just say is a budding friendship. Setting aside the fact that they would constantly look at each other for long moments in a really charged way (for castiel I could say he’s a cosmic being that is unfamiliar with social norms or human emotion so staring intensely can be a byproduct of that but I don’t have an excuse for dean’s reactions to it, you can tell he wants to be threatened but my guy looked enraptured, if not ignited by it)

It wasn’t until season 6 and the episode The Man Who Would Be King that the “oh they’re so gay” hit me.

You’re telling me that this angel has been around for eons, witnessed the creation of everything on earth and observed it’s many big events, but did not start to feel emotion or act out until he met dean?? And he champions dean’s mission of free will even when he doesn’t fully understand it himself when the other angels ask him. I can say this is still apart of his personal journey but at this point I cannot deny that dean is the one that really spearheaded it forward. He starts a whole war in heaven so that he can maintain dean’s mission and so that his sacrifice (his brother) was not for nothing. The fact that cas’ bad decisions were all based on the fact that he just didn’t want Dean to be involved because he was finally retired and at peace so he had no one else to turn to except crowley. He really cares about dean’s happiness THAT much, that is a mighty intense feeling to have for someone to me.

Then they emphasize the fact that dean is the one who feels the most betrayed by cas after struggling to even accept it in the first place. There’s a lot of intensity within the dialogue in the scene they confront him about it, and they’re sure to give me a close up on only dean to make sure I know how he feels about it. The eye contact in that scene really goes crazy because there was so much there on a deeper level, It was like you could see how they both realized the betrayal was breaking the trust between them but they were still wanting to hang on to that connection because it was something they both cherished, the way dean looked back before leaving? Insane.

That episode was the main hit for me, but it was largely mainly on castiel’s end. The main hit from dean’s end for me was when I saw the purgatory flashbacks in season 8.

In season 7 it seemed to me that dean was very effected by cas’ death and handled it in the classic dean winchester way of internalizing it all, but we get lines here and there about how bothered he is by it whenever his concerning behavior is somewhat addressed. Before Cas even had a chance to redeem himself after what he did, Dean seems to have already forgiven him, defending him once cas re-gains his lost memory and says he deserved to die. This showed me that the connection they had meant as much to dean as it did to cas.

And he really shows how much it means to him with how he fights tooth and nail to get cas out of purgatory. Cas literally disappeared once they got there, making it look like he abandoned dean, and then actively ran away from dean because he thought he belonged there. Yet dean was so insane that he hunted down cas’ location, caught up with him and dragged him to that portal. He literally had a way out that he chose to ignore until he found castiel, and was willing to die to get him out. Dean very desperately wants cas to be around when he gets out, he did not like how it felt when he previously wasn’t. Again, that is a mighty intense feeling to have for someone to me. Especially with how his memory literally changed what happened because he couldn’t handle that cas was left behind??

I do think a big part of this storyline is showing how dean thinks everything and everyone is his responsibility because of the way he was raised by his father as a hunter and protector. But we’ve seen this in dean since the beginning, while not fully addressed until now, it’s not new, so the fact that they used castiel to further show this side of him is very insane. Leaving Cas in purgatory would effect nobody on the outside except Dean, Dean made it his personal mission to get that angel out even after everything he had done, and that level of intensity was another major hit on the Destiel train for me. That and the gay ass reaction dean had when cas walked out of the bathroom when he got back from purgatory???

anyway, I’m only on episode 8 of season 8 rn so that’s all I’ve seen so far.

y’all I am so sorry for years I assumed that gay ship in supernatural was just a delusion that people overanalyzed and claimed queerbait for no reason cuz I’ve seen that happen a million times but now that I’m actually watching the show they really were gay as fuck LMAOOOO

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when I had to draw dean in his business man ken fit

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when I did the color wheel character art challenge with iconic female movie characters 🙌

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y’all I am so sorry for years I assumed that gay ship in supernatural was just a delusion that people overanalyzed and claimed queerbait for no reason cuz I’ve seen that happen a million times but now that I’m actually watching the show they really were gay as fuck LMAOOOO

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Cloud & Aerith’s Synergy

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More Smallville Clois art

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damn, I’m glad people are liking my dean drawing, someone on reddit told me I made him look like ellen degeneres so I almost didn’t post it anywhere else 💀

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Dean Winchester as Dean Smith artwork

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Cloud and Aerith as Rosa and Alphreid drawing

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my new Elphaba and Glinda drawings 🙌

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Some Smallville Clois artwork I did recently!

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more clerith art ♥️ inspired by this painting

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new cloud & aerith drawing ♥️

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Can’t believe I have to explain this but Orpheus doesn’t turn around because he doesn’t care. Orpheus doesn’t turn around because he doesn’t trust her. Orpheus doesn’t turn around because he’s doomed by the narrative.

Orpheus turns around because he loves Eurydice.

Orpheus turns around because for a brief moment in his life he knew true happiness and the fulfillment of love but by his own deficiencies, his own distractions, he lost her. She died because he wasn’t around enough to notice she was dying. We don’t know what we truly have until we lose it.

Step away from the metaphor and remember that Hades courting/seducing/assaulting Eurydice is coded language for her dying. She died in the arms of another man not because she was unfaithful but because Orpheus was - he wasn’t there because he was too caught up in his own legend.

Then, he braves his own death to go where mortals cannot. He risks everything he has to go back and find her to make it up to her. Hades greets him there and offers a choice. A contest that cannot be won.

If Orpheus didn’t love Eurydice with every ounce of his soul then he wouldn’t have risked losing it to gain her back. He had nothing to gain but his love, he could have been much more heroic conquering kingdoms and killing monsters on the surface like so many other heroes. But Orpheus is what Heracles isn’t: where Heracles gives up love for his own godhood, Orpheus gives up his life to reconnect with his love.

It is love that makes him turn back for assurance that Eurydice is still there - the love he didn’t show her on the surface. He lost her because he wasn’t around, wasn’t paying attention to her until she literally died. Now, the only way for him to have her back is for him to neglect her again. Something he has sworn not to do. Something he has given up his life out of guilt and love to never do again. Hades punishes Orpheus for his sin by forcing him to recreate it. He lost Eurydice with neglect and now only neglect will save her.

But if he was still neglecting her he wouldn’t have come. If he was still uncaring and self obsessed then he would have moved on long ago. He has grown, matured, and he loves Eurydice with all he has.

How can he just go on without being sure she’s there this time?

Moreover, how can he be sure she would even want to come back to him?

It is love that motivates Orpheus. He’s not foolish or dumb, he’s learned that to love someone is to see them, to take care of them, to cherish them. And Hades knows this. He uses this love, this need to cherish against him. And Orpheus falls for it.

If you can’t understand that, then it is from your own lack of being pushed to the very brink and facing your own worst traits.

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CLOUD STRIFE by ROBERTO FERRARI, in commemoration of Final Fantasy VII Remake’ release date

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my recent drawing of my girl aerith ♥️