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It's weird to me that people like. Do stuff for the future. Like you know what you want from your life? And you work toward it? How?? I've been living in survival mode just trying to get through each day since I was 12. What's it like to have motivation to do things because you know it'll make your life better in the long run?

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goodnight :)

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NOW I AM BECOME AVOIDANT. DESTROYER OF POTENTIAL CONNECTIONS

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Does anyone else just get completely burnt out from exposures?

There's a chance this is related to depression or health issues but I did 2 days of good exposure (going to work for a few hours) and yesterday I had high anxiety all day and today I'm just. Drained. Mentally and emotionally. Brain fog. Fatigue. No motivation. Ugh.

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ERP therapy is such a wild concept.

“You are going to make yourself upset on purpose.”

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being a person is so weird bc i’ll be like “i wish my brain was kinder to me esp when i’m already having a hard time,” and then i remember that i’m my brain and i have to be kinder to me and that nobody else will do it for me

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my avpd really does affect my friendships and i hate that fact deeply

i think of my friends every day, always wishing for more. but i'm extremely bad at communicating. im also extremely bad at resilience -- if is a friend is like "oh no i can't rn" without trying to plan when they're able to do smth w me or they forget what i had wanted to do w them, then i will see doing activities as completely off the table for me to suggest because the risk of "rejection" is way too high for me to handle (it feels personal when it never is)

i wish i could be more active in my friendships but fear and avoidance holds me back, and it's extremely detrimental. being afraid of hypotheticals about people yet craving human connection every minute so deeply is hellish

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sometimes avoidance is a very conscious and active thing but sometimes you don’t even know that it happened until much later. sometimes you just look back one day and realize you haven’t even thought about your dream job in 4 months because 4 months ago someone said something negative to you about it and that was all it took for your brain to throw the idea away. sometimes you think your life is going pretty well until someone asks you what you’ve been up to and you have no idea how to answer because you haven’t actually done anything in months.

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bitches be like "do i have a personality disorder or am i just looking for attention or am i just trying to find excuses for behaving the way i do"

im bitches

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*masks and represses my feelings and hides everything* why does no one care :(

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Something in me got BROKEN and no MATTER how HARD I try I CAN’T fix it.

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The idea behind exposure therapy is to disrupt the fear-avoidance cycle. Feel afraid of something -> avoid it -> feel better in the short term (but worse in the long term). Facing your fears in baby steps is supposed to help reduce anxiety by teaching you that you can handle stress and discomfort, gradually a little more at a time. It's not always practical or possible to practice facing fears head-on every day, so these visualization exercises at home have been helpful for me to keep working on those skills. Let me know if you try this and it's helpful for you!

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*adds "being the therapist friend who no one can help" to my resume*

I'm so sick of helping people with their shit just to have them turn away when I need help the most

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I cannot stand the Republicans saying people are voting for Kamala Harris because she's a woman. It's the same old sexist 2026 argument. People can be excited to vote for a woman without that being their only reason for voting for her jesus

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good morning, i love you ┈༝༚༝༚♡ﾞ