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i don’t want to drag this out so i’m officially closing this blog until further notice.

i love you all, but i need a break for my own sanity. hopefully i’ll be back, but i don’t wanna make any promises. i’m not deleting the blog, just no longer updating or replying to any plots.

if you wanna follow me on my personal, message me and i’ll give it to you so we can stay in touch throughout my hiatus :’)

love you all sfm <3

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Nobody’s judging you b! I totally get it !! I used to run an anon blog and I just can’t keep up because a plot lost its spark but it’s hard to say something so don’t feel bad! Just do what you gotta do bc in the end, you’re doing everyone else the service by replying!

thank you for understanding. i love you loads.

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I think it’s better to tell people your no longer interested in their plots so they know & maybe they can look for someone else to RP with. I think people do care about your story the one’s I’ve read always seem really good.

tbh, this response is the exact reason why i am closing this blog.

i have reached out to multiple people and told them i didn’t enjoy their plots. it’s the reaction i get sometimes that causes my anxiety about the situation and causes me to just not say anything at all and just continuing on with their plot to make them happy. that’s why i cannot continue w this blog. it’s not healthy for me.

and yes, some of my partners do care a lot. some of my partners seem to care more for my plot than their own. some of my partners message me daily about ideas they had for my plot.

BUT, there are the other partners that make me feel they only agreed to a 1x1 rp on this blog to simply have an rp. they (IN MY OPINION) have zero interest in my story. one of the things that stands out the most to me and makes me have these anxious thoughts is when/if i post an ask meme, some of these partners are anonymously sending their own couples and badgering me about when i will post it. but they are never ever sending me ones for my plot. is it selfish of me to want that? yeah, sure, of course it is. but imo, that’s the fun in rp. it’s 2 sided. not just 1 sided. ofc i want to write one for my partners to get into their rp and plot more, but shouldn’t they want to do that for me and my plot? (yeah you can say “well if you write one for them maybe they’ll write one for you” “their just waiting for you to do it first”, and yeah that’s true but why should i have to be the first every time?)

i don’t want to piss on anyone i’ve met on here bc all of you are amazing, seriously. i just need to do what’s best for me at this point and that’s just leaving this blog as it is. even if i haven’t meshed well w someone writing wise on this blog, i will always love them and hold them dear to my heart bc the followers i had on this blog are the nicest ones i’ve had in my entire tumblr career. and yeah, maybe it’s not them and it’s just me and my nervous anxious brain (probably tbh), but at this point, my mental health and happiness is my main concern and this blog isn’t bringing me any happiness and definitely detrimental to my mental health so, yeah, i just gotta go :(

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i’m really at the point where i just want to remake this anon blog. 

i’ve lost muse for so many plots over the past few months and i’m sorry that i haven’t been very active. my main issue is being too nice to tell people that i no longer have the muse for their plots, so i just go silent so nobody feels left out by me replying to only 1 or 2 plots at a time. i also feel like my plots aren’t cared for, which makes me anxious and sad, which also makes me not want to write anymore because, well, what’s the point?

i’m a sucky partner and i’m really sorry. i love you all but i just really suck. :/

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I wish my mother could live her life all over again. But instead of it being filled with all of the hurt and sadness she has felt, I wish she could live the life she has given me; one filled with unending happiness and love. May God bless her always and may I make her the proudest mother in the world. I may say I live for myself but I truly live and push forward for her.

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me? doing my replies in a timely manner?

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Poetry Inspiration Moodboards | empty lies

Every heartache eats you, bite by bite.

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Katie

I set out all the food for you before pecking your lips gently, standing in front of you. “Well, you know how I have been so stressed these last several weeks trying to find a job? I found a job at the gym just a few blocks away and my boss is a super nice older woman so you do not have to worry there. And I am going to be teaching three different dance classes and one of them is a class for children and I am so excited.” I smile brightly at you. “I was so afraid lately because I want to support us just as you do and I hated that I had to leave a job that I loved even though I knew it was the right thing to do because I had to be away from that creep.” I let out a soft sigh.

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I smile happily when holding Ensley in my arms, kissing lightly all over her face before calling out to Arden. “Do not run around too fast there, little one!” I chuckle softly before looking back at you and nodding at you, hoping we could get along and be civil during the holidays for the kids. “Of course. And thank you. I cannot take all the credit, though. I have to admit that I hired a decorator to help me with all of this. I never had much of an eye for this kind of thing and I was always so messy and bad at it. This is something you have always been better at,” I chuckle softly. “I wanted it to look good for you guys, though.”

His eyes widen when you say that you got a new job, his smile so wide that his face hurt. “Oh my god! Katie, that’s great! And even better that your working for a girl!” Harry had no issue with you working with men, but honestly, he was a bit jaded from the last experience. He never wanted anyone making you uncomfortable when he wasn’t there, and yes, he knew that women could make other women uncomfortable as well, but he wasn’t going to dwell too long on any of that unless you brought it to his attention. “babe, that’s amazing, I’m so proud of you!” He leans over and kisses you a few times, smiling as he does so. “I’m gonna miss you being a cute little housewife, but you need a job, I know. I’m so happy for you. I’m also glad it’s close by... your other job was far and I didn’t like you commuting there constantly.”

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“Yeah... you’re kind of a slob.” I smile kindly again, memories of us arguing over how messy Joel was and how our home wasn’t his tour bus and how he needed to be tidier. When Arden immediately stops running at Joel’s command, I just shake my head. “I wish he was that obidient for me. Such a daddy’s boy, that one.” Ever since the break up, Arden had been particularly troublesome and unruly, and I knew it was probably because of the change in Joel moving out and all that. But it made me quite sad since it seemed he preferred Joel over me. I knew it was just his little way of coping, but it still made me feel inferior and that he’d be happier moving in with Joel instead of staying with me. “So, I’m guessing you have a guest room?”

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Cameron… I don’t think it’s fair for me to make you wait.

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#how say to your best friend you are in love with her

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Hannah

*notices your slight lack of reaction but doesn’t think too much of it as I knew this was a lot to take on and it was a big moment for us, just wanting to enjoy it while it lasted* *smiles fondly at your words, chuckling a little and shaking my head as you kiss my stomach, seeing how much you loved this child and he wasn’t even born yet* Mhm, he’s being very active. Think he just likes your voice though if I’m honest, always reacts when you speak to him..*mumbles, grinning a little as I run a finger through your hair* ________________ *looks at you both with anger and hurt in my eyes, seething but also incredibly upset as I thought I was getting somewhere with you but clearly it was all an act* Looks at you with a dark expression* You will regret this…*says darkly before looking at Draco and glaring threatening, knowing he knew what position this put him in, especially knowing his family so well* *storms off in anger, so distraught* -Pansy *eyes widen and stomach sinks so low* Oh fuck fucking fuck…*frowns and rubbing my face in distress* -Draco

Of course he loves me. Who doesn’t love me? *he jokes and smiles, keeping his head close to your stomach, smiling as he feels the kicks again* I wonder if he’s kicking or hitting... if he’s kicking, that means he’s gonna be a footie star just like me. If he’s hitting, well, he might be just as fiesty as me.. either way, he’s gonna be just like me. *he jokes again, just wanting you to laugh. He sits up normally, looking at you* Are we gonna tell the lads?

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*I just look at him for a few moments once Pansy has left* I-I can say I gave you love potion or that I got you super drunk on purpose. We can blame this on me, you won’t take any slack for it... you’ll just be the victim of some obsessed Hufflepuff girl who wanted a night with the prince of Slytherin... *I was willing to put my own image on the line for Draco’s, knowing all that he had to lose versus what I had to lose. If people here thought I was desperate, that was fine. Better than Draco’s father getting to him and abusing him in however many ways he’d want too after the news got to him*

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I smile happily at you after you pecked my lips, handing you the lunch bag. “I made you fettucinne alfredo, garlic bread, a salad, and homemade cookies. And there is water in there, of course. I know it is a lot but I was in a good mood because I got some great news. I would love to share the news with you if we could have lunch together? Otherwise, I will just wait until you are home.” I laugh softly when watching you.

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I heard you guys pull in so I made my way to the door right after hearing the car doors shut. I open the door to see the three of you standing there, hugging Arden tightly as he ran to me. “Hey there, little buddy. And hello, my little princess,” I say when kissing Ensley’s forehead gently. “Thanks for agreeing to stay,” I say to you, giving you a soft smile before opening the door wider so that you could walk in, taking your bags for you. I let you see all the Christmas decorations that I had set up.

“Oh wow, you’ve made me quite a feast here, babe! Thank you so much.” He smiles at you and his eyes widen when you say you have some good news. “Oh yeah? Well, we can certainly have lunch together. The girls here can take over for a bit while we eat. It might have to be quick, but we can definitely sit and eat together.” He walks over to the two girls who were helping other customers, telling them he was taking a break and that they’d be in charge in his absence. He leads you to the back room and sits at a table with you, waiting to hear your good news.

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Ensley giggles loudly as she sees Joel, immediately reaching for him. I hand her over to him while he says hi to the kids, Arden immediately rushing into the house and admiring the christmas trees and the decorations. “Of course. I want the kids happy for the holidays. We owe them this, at least.” I smile kindly before stepping in, putting all our bags down and looking around the place. Joel was the one who moved out since he had more money when we divorced, and this was the first time I was seeing the interior of his house since usually I just dropped the kids off in front. “Nice place... it looks great with all the decorations.”

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