anonformerpro

[anonformerpro]

Another way to articulate why I left the proship community—

I feel like some proshippers low key kinda moved the goal post. When proshippers were marketing themselves to me, y’all said “anti harassment, pro as in favor of fiction. “ I thought that was awesome, so I joined. Then I got comfortable, and start seeing people say tone deaf shit like “teehee maps, zoos and necros are welcome as long as they’re anti contact!”

I signed up for defending fictional characters having fictional urges onto fictional victims and so on. Not fucking with real people who have disgusting disorders and attraction to real children. Not to mention, be so for real. You can’t complain about people thinking you’re a pedo or a weirdo when you wanna make a space for people with dangerous attractions. I loved this community and I’m still pro-fiction but what the fuck is this part?

[anonformerpro]

Why I left the proship community, even though my stance on fiction hasn’t changed

I made an entirely new and blank blog just to write these thoughts because I didn’t feel comfortable putting it on any of my pre-existing ones. I don’t wanna be tied to anti or proship discourse on a long term basis anymore. I really wanna scream into the void and get this off my chest.

I was a super active poster in the proship positivity community and here’s why I cut that shit out. (Like I had lots of mutuals, quite a few of my posts went viral, I was well received, so on, so here’s what I sacrificed because I truly believe in what I’m saying.)

The funny thing is, my most basic opinions regarding proship stuff actually haven’t changed. I still believe in artistic freedom. I still believe that fiction doesn’t automatically effect reality (but there’s nuance and SOMETIMES it can) and I still think anyone can indulge in dark, messed up fiction to their hearts content and I still believe they shouldn’t be harassed for it. So why would I “leave” the proship community for lack of a better expression? Well, here’s the thing.

I signed up to defend FICTIONAL expression, not real life attractions to things that can’t consent (corpses, animals, children etc)

When I started seeing popular blogs on here say shit like “yeah maps are welcome as long as they’re anti-contact hehe!” I lost the plot with y’all. I signed up for FICTIONAL characters being into messed up shit, not real people. I don’t care if they’re not acting on it. I don’t want to share a space with dangerous paraphilia. I was into darkshipping as a coping mechanism for what pedophiles did to me. Why would I want to share a community with them? Sure. Not every proshipper does this from trauma but you can’t deny so many of us do. SO many of us, so don’t even try to play with me.

Before you hit me with the “well non-contact pedos/zoos/whatever are people and deserve love too!” Let’s be cold, hard and real. Those are still complicated, serious and sometimes very dangerous (often times) attractions/disorders.

Most of you aren’t therapists. Most of you are not mental health professionals or trauma experts. I’m gonna be straight forward. It’s not our place or business as random fucking fandom people to try to make a space for dangerous attractions like pedophilia and necro-shit.

“Maps, zoos, etc are welcome as long as they’re not pro contact!!” You need to be self aware. You need to realize how bad that sounds. You’re actually making it so much harder to defend yourself from being called a pedo yourself when you welcome them into your space.

Proshippers need to be better at gatekeeping. Because why I was seeing popular, well-liked blogs pushing this shit with little to no criticism?

I’ll reiterate again, and hope y’all can understand my feelings even if you don’t agree.

I signed up for defending FICTIONAL expression. Not getting mixed up with REAL pedophiles and zoophiles and so on. Alright I’ve said my peace. I loved this community until I got deep enough to see stuff like this.