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genuinely could not recommend a better crime fic because WOOOO that was a ride but it always feels like a real cm episode! i also love the realistic ending like diva was not about to be sunshine and rainbows but sheâs getting there

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đŹđŽđŚđŚđđŤđ˛: a series of young women are being murdered in your town, and you â the host of a true crime podcast â are determined to investigate the case yourself, even if it means constantly getting in the way of a team of profilers and putting yourself in danger once or twice.
đđ¨đ§đđđ§đđŹ/đđ°: spencer reid x podcast host female!reader, criminal minds typical violence, case details, mention of sexual violence, abduction, addiction, and drug use, season 2 bau team [DISCLAIMER] this part contains content that is darker and more intense than the rest, so please proceed with caution
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The absurdity of the entire BAU team being in your bedroom reached you even despite the seriousnessâthe complete and undeniable seriousnessâof the situation.
Maybe it was even necessary. The absurdity, you meant.
The only thing keeping you from going insane or curling up into a ball in the middle of the room, on its dark floor, while the recording was played back once again above you. Agents leaning over the desk where you used to do your homework and draw X-Files characters, band posters hanging above it. One of them sitting on the duck-patterned bedspread, resting his chin in his hand as he listened to the recording in silence.
Of course, you immediately told Reid about the tape that had been planted on you, though you had to admit youâd had your moment of doubt. A brief one. The message was clear. You were supposed to include it in the podcast or elseâŚyou didn���t want to think about what would happen to Keasy.
The thought crossed your mind, that question, whether the BAU would even allow you to publish it. It wasnât an unfounded fear, but thatâs something weâll learn later.
Since you had already heard the recording, they didnât seem to care about your presence. Maybe because of the breakthrough brought on by the new lead, the recording, they forgot about you standing behind them, almost completely still.
âGarcia, we need you to check if the voice modulation on this recording can be reversed,â Hotch instructed, addressing the woman they were speaking to on speakerphone, the one who had introduced them to your podcast. âElle, come over here for a moment.â
She stepped up to the desk to help analyze the recording, at the same time Reid turned over his shoulder and met your gaze. He looked once more toward the tape recorder, then walked over to you, giving a small nod. âIt might be better if you go downstairs now,â he suggested in a gentle, quiet tone.
The team had already secured the package the tape had come in, along with the note that had been attached. Now their full attention was on the recording. Despite his polite tone, you gave him a slightly sharper look, folding your arms across your chest. âThe Executioner sent this recording directly to me. I want to know what happens to it next.â
He furrowed his brows at you slightly. âWhat happens to it next? We take it with us, analyze it again, or probably, knowing the nature of this job, ten more times, andâŚâ
âThen Iâll be able to post it on the podcast,â you finished for him.
Reid only looked at you, as if hesitating, and before he could say anything, Morgan appeared at his side. Your room wasnât some castle corridor that stretched endlessly out of sight. It was small, of course he had heard your entire conversation.
âThatâs not even an option,â he stated, addressing you.
It felt like the air caught in your chest; you wanted to both let out a bitter laugh and scoff. How could it not be an option when a victimâs life depended on it?
You were already opening your mouth, ready to argue. But Hotch beat you to it, turning away from the tape recorder, holding the cassette in a plastic evidence bag.
 âNo part of this recording can be made public. Thatâs exactly what he wants, and the most important rule when dealing with perpetrators who try to play games to gain control over law enforcement is not to engage with those attempts.â
You shook your head slowly, in disbelief. That was really what mattered more to them, not letting The Executioner feel like he had power over them, instead of Keasyâs life?
You looked at Spencer, hoping to see any sign of disagreement on his face. Then at Elle, searching for the same. You found neither.
 âIâm starting to think I was the only one who actually read that note,â you said, stepping back from all of them in one furious movement. âHe kidnapped Keasy. He literally sent a recording of her and told me to put it on the podcast. It seems pretty clear to me whatâll happen if I donât. And thatâs what you should care about. Saving the victim.â
One by one, the entire team exchanged looks. Something was off, you could feel it. But you couldnât quite place what. Maybe you were too shaken to figure it out.
 âWe appreciate you reaching out to us immediately after receiving the tape,â Hotch said with a small nod of his head. You opened your mouth in disbelief. Was he seriously changing the subject? âWeâll take the cassette in for further analysis, along with the actual footage from your cameras, to see if they mightâve caught whoever left it.â
 âYouâll be wasting your time, the camera hasnât worked in ages,â you warned. âYou canât just ignore that warning. We have to do what he said. I need to put it on the podcast, because if I donâtâŚIf you wonât let me post the actual recording, then Iâll just tell people what I heard.â You were threatening the FBI. Wonderful. But you didnât see another choice. âAt least then Iâll be doing something.â
âThat would count as interfering with an active investigation.â
A loud sigh came from Spencer, immediately drawing everyoneâs attention. There was visible irritation on his face. Maybe even frustration.
âSheâs going to find out anyway,â he said, directing his words to the team.
Your whole body began to tense. âFind out what?â
Hotch looked like he was about to say something to Reid, maybe to shut him down, but Reid was faster. âAbout Keasy,â he said, this time looking directly at you. His expression was almost apologetic, which sent a cold wave straight to your stomach before you even fully understood what he meant. He swallowed. âHer body was found this morning.â
Right after saying that, he pressed his lips into a thin line. It was easy to fall into the illusion that he hadnât said it, that those words had never been spoken. But they had, and their physical weight now hung in the corners of the room.
On unsteady legs, you approached your bed, which, though it sank slightly under your weight, felt as hard as a rocky ground.
âWeâre assuming the unsub didnât expect us to find her so quickly,â Morgan informed you, and it was one of the few times his voice was truly gentle when speaking to you. âHe wanted to blackmail us with Keasyâs safety, something he couldnât guarantee from the start.â
âOr the message was never about Keasy,â Elle spoke suddenly, her face marked by deep focus. You lifted your gaze slightly to meet her eyes, not paying attention to the one or two tears on your cheek, now your chin. Her words had caught attention, not just yours. Elle bit her nail in thought. âThe message cuts off after orâŚwe assumed he meant the tape not airing on the podcast would lead to him hurting Keasy. But maybe it was about attacking another girl.â
âIn other words, heâs planning to strike again,â Morgan summed it up.
Elle didnât wait for anyone to say anything more or even react. Her firm gaze shifted straight to Hotch.
 âI think she should record the podcast.â
You snapped your head up, thinking you must have misheard. You caught fleeting eye contact with Reid, who looked just as confused as you felt, but you quickly looked away when his eyes dropped to the tear on your cheek.
âElleââ
âBut not for the unsub. For the other women in town,â she finished her thought, placing her hands on her hips. âSheâs got a pretty decent audience, especially lately. A simple message, a warning, something we say all the time ourselves. Donât go places alone, especially after dark. Be cautious. She could work on it while we focus on analyzing the tape.â
You turned the idea over in your head and felt a sudden readiness rise in you, a drive to act on it immediately. You needed this, needed to feel like you could do something. Helplessness was the godfather of all murderers.
Hotch didnât seem convinced at first, but after a moment, he gave a small nod. âAs an additional form of warning, itâs acceptable. But it has to be just a warning,â he said to you. âYou canât mention the tape.â
Then, after a pause, he added,
 âReid should do it with you. Heâll give it a more serious tone, and make sure you donât say more than you should.â
You werenât even in the mood to argue. Not that you wanted to. Out of all the agents, theyâd picked the one you were planning to meet with that day anyway. What bothered you was the fact that heâd be acting as your supervisor. Then again, you remembered how many times youâd managed to pull information out of him before, and you thought maybe you could work around that.
The BAU team was getting ready to leave your house, and it hit you. They give you a relatively minor task, just important enough to keep your mind occupied and to stop you from bombarding them with questions they probably didnât have the answers to yet.
It was early afternoon, and once again, you were completely alone in the house. Reid was supposed to drop by later that evening so the two of you could record the episode together. In an effort to keep your mind off Keasyâs death, you threw yourself into drafting a rough outline for the podcast script. You also looked up Rebecca Yang onlineâthe familiar name mentioned in the recording. She had been Robert Taylorâs intended victim, the woman who managed to escape his attack.
Of course.
At the end of the day, everything led back to that case. The first one youâd ever presented on your podcast. Sitting at your desk, you tried to break it all down. The Executioner couldnât be him personally, not really, but the tapeâthe format, the interview styleâit all suggested someone was out there trying to carry out justice in his name. He had even forced Keasy to play the role of his victim.
Keasy.
Your gaze shifted to the house across the streetâher house. The one where, only today, you had dropped off groceries for a mother still waiting for her daughter to be found. Who had been found.
You stood up to draw the blinds.
Just before they fell all the way down, you caught sight of a bicycle crossing the street in front of your house. A boy riding it. The turn of his head and a stare that seemed to pierce straight into your room. The blinds shut completely, stopping him from doing so.
The sun had already set, though it wasnât particularly late yet, just the natural effect of the advancing autumn. You turned on the lamp in your room, and when the doorbell rang, you made your way downstairs to let Spencer in.
He stood on your doorstep in a blue and brown striped shirt, a dark unzipped jacket, andâas alwaysâhis glasses resting on his nose. With a slightly sluggish motion, he raised his hand in a small wave, another one exchanged that day. You gave him a faint smile, the only one you could manage, and opened the door wider to let him in.
Silence hung between you as you made your way back up the stairs to your room.
âIâm sorry about Keasy,â he said first, reaching the top just behind you. You turned to face him. His hand was still resting on the banister, and his face was partially swallowed by the dimly lit hallway. But you were close enough to see it. The expression of concern written across his features. âI didnât even know you two were friends.â
"First neighbors. But she and her mom would come over a lot and⌠yeah. I guess we were friends,â you said, your voice coming out weaker than youâd intended. Youâd have to get a better grip on it if you were going to record the podcast. Under his gaze, you took a deeper breath and gave a small nod.
âNever thought Iâd have an FBI agent on my podcast,â you added, trying to lighten the mood, motioning with your head for him to follow you into your room.
Spencerâs steps followed yours. He seemed to understand that you didnât want to keep talking about Keasy. Maybe you were still in some sort of denial that allowed you to function normally, but the more you thought about it, the more you feared that illusion would shatter.
âI mean, wellâŚI didnât think my career would lead me here either,â he said.
You were facing away from him, giving your notes one last glance on your laptop. You glanced over your shoulder at him. He seemed slightly awkward standing in your room without the rest of the team around.
âThis is a professional setup, okay? Donât let the duck-print bedsheets fool you.â
Even with your face turned back toward the laptop, you knew he looked at your blanket and pillows.
âPerish the thought,â he muttered, and a small smile tugged at your lips.
You told him to sit across from you on the bedâyou sat cross-legged with some pillows under you and your laptop balanced on your thighs, while he stayed on the other side, practically on the edge, feet still on the floor. It was a podcast, just your voices, so you didnât have to pay too much attention to how you looked.
âSo, before we start,â you looked up at him and fell silent for a moment. Of course, heâd left his coat downstairs, so he was in that striped shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows for comfort, and his tie loosely knotted around his neck.
He noticed where your eyes had landed and awkwardly adjusted it. You let out a laugh without meaning to. âNo, itâs okay, I donât want you choking to death in here.â
âIâll be fine, it just looks kind of sloppy soââ he fumbled with the collar and tightened the knot.
âIt looks really good,â you cut him off.
Spencer froze, hand still on the tie, looking at you. You felt a strange warmth spread across your neck. Definitely from the stuffy air in the roomâyou really shouldâve aired it out before he came over. You were flustered by how quickly youâd said it, but honestly, you meant it. You swallowed and nodded, more to yourself.
 âIt looks good,â you repeated. Reid barely blinked as he kept his gaze on you, head slightly tilted. âAnd itâd look even better if you didnât sit there like youâre on nails. Seriously, relax a little.â
A flush of red shot across his cheeks.
 âI am relaxed,â he insisted.
âMhm. I can tell.â
Reid, still red in the face, rolled his eyes. But right after, with a sigh, he shifted into a more comfortable position on your bed. Like he was your long-time friend, someone who by now could probably lay claim to part-time residency in your room.
âSo, before we start,â you repeated again, getting back to what you meant to say before getting distracted byâŚwell, him. âAnything new with the tape analysis? Maybe you managed to reverse the voice modulation orâŚor figured out anything else?â
For a moment, Spencer didnât say anything, before letting out a quiet, apologetic sigh.
âThe work on voice modulation is still ongoing, but it seems like it wonât be reversible. The rest is just our theories and guesses for now, a few leads the rest of the team is following while I⌠am here.â
You looked at his face after those words, pressing your lips together slightly.
You heard something pointed in them, a hint that he didnât really want to be here with you or help with the episode. Well, that was probably trueâafter all, his usual daytime job was surely a thousand times more fascinating, so you should just swallow the sting that had settled in you.
 âOkay, letâs get to it then,â you said. âWeâll get it done faster and youâll be able to go back to more important things.â
You lowered your gaze back to the laptop. The room was quietâstrangely, too quiet.You lifted your eyes again and noticed Spencer staring at you, his lips slightly parted. He shook his head from side to side, ashamed. âThatâs not what I meant, really.â
Now it was you who looked at him in confusion. You parted your lips as well and practically mirrored his head movement. âNo, no, thatâs not what I meant either. I mean. I didnât mean to be passive-aggressive. Okay, maybe a little, but⌠but I get it, that maybe you donât think this podcast is necessary.â
âI do,â he cut in, firmly. âI think it is necessary. Especially this particular episode. And Iâm glad Iâll get to help with it.â His chest rose as he drew in a breath. The red lingered on his cheeks. Again. That room was really stuffy. âBesides, I really wanted to see you. Today.â
You nodded quickly, in rhythm with your heartbeat, not really knowing what to say.
Some force lifted the corners of your lips on its own. Something you didnât even realize at first. Just like you didnât realize you hadnât said anything, and the two of you were stuck in that tense silence.
 âI wanted to see you too,â you said after a pause that made the confession insanely, fucking awkward. Oh God.
Spencer held your gaze for a moment longer before dropping it, directing it somewhereâanywhereâelse. There was a rasp in his voice when he spoke again, and he had to swallow to get rid of it. âYou were right, we can finally get to it.
âYeah,â you agreed quickly, adjusting the laptop on your lap. Yeah. âIâve thought it through and in this episode, itâs mostly going to be you talking. I mean, Iâll ask you a few questions and keep the dialogue going, but since Iâve got a guest on the podcast, I want to make use of it. Iâve got throat lozenges in my drawer in case you need some later. Some vocal warmups wouldnât hurt either.â
Spencer let out a laugh, then furrowed his brow. âWait, is that something you actually do before recording?â
âNope,â you denied simply. âI wanted to see if I could get you to make some ridiculous sounds, but you started questioning it too fast to fall for it. Anyway, does that plan work for you?â
For a moment, he looked at you like you were from another planetâbut in a good way, like in fascination. Probably caused by the chaotic nature of your speech.
 âIt does, it does work for me,â he agreed. âBut Iâm not sure it will for your listeners. They might be disappointed by the lack of your rambling.â
You gave him a slight smile.
 âA little bit of longing will do them good. Theyâll learn to appreciate it more. Unless they fall in love with you so hard theyâll want to make you a regular guest. Then it wouldnât be a guest anymore, if you think about it.â
âDoubt it,â he muttered, shifting in his seat. âIâm way too nervous to make anyone fall in love with me.â
âJust imagine youâre talking to me,â you suggested. You stuck out your lower lip. âOkay, technically, thatâs exactly what youâre doing, so you donât have to imagine it, but you know what I mean. Me? Iâm definitely not shoving a mic under your nose right now.â
You had a digital recorder you usually took with you out in the field, and a computer-connected microphone, which you were using now. Still with the laptop on your lap, you shifted closer to Reid to bring the mic nearer to his face. His gaze dropped to the device. You immediately placed a finger under his chin to tilt it back up.
His eyes locked onto your face, surprised.
âThis microphone right here doesnât exist,â you explained.
Spencer didnât respond, still frozen in place.You withdrew your hand from under his face and, after clearing your throat, got to work on the episode intro.This was the part where you always left the most space for spontaneity, and your guestâs brows lifted slightly as he listened to you begin without a single stumble.
â...also, this episode will be a little different than the rest, for two specific reasons. Mainly because it has a very targeted audienceâall the women of our dear, cursed little town of Fairview. And, well, everyone who wants to know how to live a little safer in this brutal world. Also because, for the first time in this podcastâs history, I have a guest. And not just any guest.â
Actually, introducing himself was what gave him the most trouble. hi, Iâm Spencer Reid sounded incredibly stiff, but once you got into the topic of the episode, he only got better. When he spoke, you encouraged him with a slight smile on your lips and nods when he lifted his eyes to you questioningly, making sure he sounded right.
You took the laptop off your lap and placed it beside you so you could look at your questions for him written in the empty document.The microphone sat on the bed between you in that small circle created by your knees almost touching.
âOkay, now that weâve talked about how to stay safe, the last thing Iâm interested inâand probably the listeners too,â you said, and Spencer raised his brows at you with curiosity, âIâm sure by this point you already have a profile of the killer.â
Reid shook his head.âYou canât ask me that. We havenât released that to the media yet, and the team probably wonât be happy if I suddenly decide to do it here.â
You leaned in slightly, looking at him pleadingly.
âMaybe itâs about time it was released to the media. Seriously. We warn everyone not to get into a white van when the guy says he wants to show them kittens, but not every killer is that obvious. It could be anyone. Better that they know what kind of⌠person to avoid. Because maybe he works at the shop around the corner and looks at them weird, or in extreme, but not completely unrealistic cases, theyâre having breakfast with him every morning.â
He sighed, looking at you more seriously.
 âOur profile changes every time something new comes to light. And something new does come to light all the time, even if it might feel like the investigationâs at a standstill. Just today, for example. That tapeâŚit changed everything.â
You kept looking at him for a moment, hoping he might decide to add something moreâbut you didnât want to push him either. You didnât think you wanted to break the atmosphere that had settled, or the ease with which you were talking. You nodded in understanding.
âOkay. Iâll cut that last question,â you said.
He looked at you with a soft flash of gratitude in his eyes. Slightly embarrassed, he tilted his head to the side and asked hesitantly, âCould you also cut the part where I introduce myselfâŚ? It was so awkward.â
âOh, absolutely not,â you shot back immediately, straightening up. âMy podcast is authentic. I donât cut things unless itâs absolutely necessary. That stays in. Worst case, a few listeners die from second-hand embarrassment.â
He parted his lips, like in protest.
 âDie from second-hand embarrassment? You think it was that bad?â
There was almost dread in his voice, which made you laugh.
âIt was bad. Maybe not that bad, but it was bad. Even the fact that I like you canât stop me from admitting that, Iâm sorry. But hey,â you added more gently, slowly tilting your headâSpencerâs eyes dropped to your face. âIf someone sent me to a crime scene right now and told me to say who the killer was based on what the body looked like, Iâd probably do okay-ish at best. Podcastingâs just new to you, and for the first time, you did just fine.â
Spencer just looked at you for a moment in this kind of warm way, before a short, fleeting smile crossed his face.âThank you. But I think youâd do well at a crime scene. If someone actually let you in, that is.â
âRight, that might be an issue. Though Iâd probably find a way. Waitâdo you seriously think so?â
Spencer gave a slight shrug.
 âYeah, I meanâŚyouâre smart. And you know your stuff.â
You laughed involuntarily, shaking your head side to side.
 âImagine Nikola Tesla patting you on the shoulder and telling you youâre a clever boy. Thatâs exactly how I feel right now.â
Reid visibly blushed.
You nodded toward him.
 âWoah, youâre blushing. Did I hit the mark and Nikola Tesla is your science crush?â
âIâm not blushing,â he said quickly, which was clearly a lie. He brought a hand to his cheek, feeling it.âOkay, maybe a little. Because this room is stuffy. And because of you, probably to some extent as well.â
âBecause of me, huh.â
âBecause of what you said.â
âThereâs not that much of a difference if you think about it.â
Spencer paused with his lips slightly parted, which also seemed to be blushing. Because their color was violently pink, something you noticed when you looked at them. Okay, you didnât look in a creepy way, you just briefly glanced down. Thatâs all.They were raspberry-colored. That popped into your head because you liked raspberries. A lot.
âWell, in a way, yeah, there isnât,â Reid continued, nodding with this sort of nervous enthusiasm. He swallowed. His Adamâs apple visibly moved, which your greedy eyes also noticed. You werenât listening to a single word he was saying, oh God, now that was embarrassing. By the way, had you mentioned that this room was stuffy? âActually, I shouldnât even separate that. If your words made me blushâwhich, by the way, didnâtâthen itâs kind of like you made meâfuck, please, can we change the subject, I reallyââ
You set your mic down at the edge of the bed so it wouldnât be between you anymore, and with surprising ease, pushed yourself up onto your knees in one smooth motion, so that in the next, your hand was pressed to the back of his head, and your lips to his.
Spencer sighed into your mouth, like in relief. Here you were, saving him from completely humiliating himself. In a way that was, okay, maybe a bit drastic, but very, very effective. And even if it was going to result in an even more blush-inducing atmosphere later, for now, he chose to ignore that and hold onto your face like an anchor as he sank into the kiss. His thumb finding your cheek while the tips of his long fingers slipped slightly beneath your hair.
AndâŚwoah. It was good.Youâd never thought youâd be hosting an FBI agent in your room, let alone kissing one on your bed until you were out of breath, with his hand suddenly dropping to your back and pulling you closer. This time it was you who sighed into his mouth, caught off guard.
You pulled back from his lips for a moment, slowly blinking your eyes open.Because he was sitting, and you were kneeling, your face was slightly above his. Your hand slipped from the back of his head, down his neck and to his shoulder, and both of you were breathing so loudly you couldnât even hear the sound of the otherâs breath.
You meant to grab his shoulder for support, but one hand was already tangled in his hair,
and the other. Well. Resting on your chest, in a sling.
Your gaze met his, and you werenât really sure what to say. Actually, you werenât sure if you were supposed to say anything at all, so you decided to get out of it the easiest way possibleâby leaning in for another kiss.
But thatâs when he spoke. A faint, probably involuntary smile on his lips.
âThis part,â he said, âyouâll probably have to cut from the podcast. Unless it fits your definition of authenticity.â
Right. The mic was still on. That smug little expression made you lightly nudge his arm, to which he looked at you with mock offense. Which you ignored.
âThat gets cut. Your awkward intro stays. End of discussion.â
 Kissing and giggling.
The next kiss was more like the next ten. Or maybe just one, just chopped into pieces.
Your mouths couldnât stay together for more than a second, two at most, before one of you started laughingâor to put it more adorably, enchantingly, glitter-sparklinglyâgiggling.
You always thought that phase in life had simply skipped you. Turns out, it was just fashionably lateâshowing up in the middle of a murder case investigation in your hometown.
That thought replaced the butterflies in your stomach with moths. You glanced at your mic out of the corner of your eye. Technically, youâd finished recording the episode, but suddenly it didnât feel entirely appropriate. Your facesâmostly your mouthsâslowly pulled away from each other, still lingering within reach, freezing there for a second.
You pressed your lips into a narrow line, thoughtful, while Spencer briefly lowered his gaze. His hand on your back moved. The pressure softened, turned into a feather-light touch, slowly sliding down and then back up, eventually finding its way to your side, his thumb brushing along your ribs.
You took a deeper breath, letting your whole body move with its rhythm. Your hand rested near his cheek, grazing his jaw, reaching toward his neck, and simply trying to settle into that exact spot, absently gliding across his skin every now and then.
 âI looked up who Rebecca Yang was,â you said suddenly, your voice piercing the calm, dreamlike space the two of you had created around yourselves. âShe managed to escape Robert Taylor. Thanks to her, they caught him. And thatâs how the Executioner used to refer to Keasy.â
Spencer looked up at you, a faint tension appearing on his brow.
âYouâve probably figured that out already. Do you guys think thatâs what this is all about? Robert Taylor is some kind of idol? Heâs trying to seek justice for his death, claiming he didnât deserve it? And thatâs why heâs hurting these women?â
His brow furrowed even more, his eyebrows drawing in with it. For a moment, you both sat in a very uncomfortable silence. One full of expectation, on your part.
You didnât know why you bombarded him with all those questions at that exact moment.
Maybe you just felt comfortable enough, relaxed enough in his arms, that they decided to rise to the surface on their own. Spencerâs hand suddenly stilled, just like his expressionâ
from warm and content, slowly turning colder.
 âD-did youââ he began, stammering, giving a small shake of his head. He swallowed. âDid you kiss me just to get more information about the case out of me?â
You opened your mouth, freezing up as well.No, you didnât want him to take it that wayâ
Your silence must have come across as guilt or confirmation, because his jaw tensed, and he pulled out from under you, shifting, which forced you to move away and sit at a distance.
As his feet met the floor, he closed his eyes for a brief moment, drawing in a breath.
âWeâve recorded everything we needed, right?â he asked, his voice laced with forced indifference.
You sighed softly, apologetically.
 âIâm sorry, I didnât think it would come across like that, really.â
âIf so, then I guess itâs time for me to go,â he said, as if he hadnât heard your words at all.
You sighed again, unsure of what to say in your defense. A sharp pang hit your chest as he stood up and headed for the door. Of all the moments, you really had to pick this one.
âI really meant it,â you tried again as he opened the door to your room.His movements, and the hand on the doorknob, slowed, as if with hesitation. âThe kiss,â you added, just as the door closed behind him.
âĄď¸
âWhy are you so quiet, hm?â
The words came from your left as you half-lay, half-sat on the couch in front of the TV, your hoodie pulled up to your ears and a pillow hugged tightly to your chest. Some cooking show your mom liked was playingâthe kind she always watched. She sat beside you with her feet propped up on the coffee table.
âMe?â
A dumb question, considering it was just the two of you in the house. Still, it took you a second to realize she meant you.
âMhm. You havenât said a word.â
You shrugged, chewing on the drawstring of your hoodie. It was lateânight, really. Too much had happened that day for you to fall asleep easily, so youâd planted yourself in front of the TV just to zone out. The morning talk with Danny. Conrad. The visit to Elena. Then cassette andâŚSpencer.
âJust thinking,â you replied after a moment.
âWhat about?â
She gently brushed the hair from your face, first sweeping your bangs off your forehead, then lightly combing through the strands that had slipped inside your hoodie. There was something soothing in the way she did it, especially when it was her.
You bit the inside of your cheek. You loved her, but you didnât really want to talk about yourself, not yet. Not when your mind was still trying to catch up with everything that had happened.
But there was one topic you did want to talk aboutâone that didnât have anything to do with you directly. You turned your gaze to her.
âYou know, Iâve been thinking about something lately,â you admitted.
Your mom nodded, encouraging you to go on.
âYou remember Dannyâs ex-wife?â
Your mom blinked, clearly caught off guard by the question.
âDannyâs ex-wife? Do I remember her?â she echoed, like she was making sure sheâd heard you right. âNo, sweetheart. I never met her. Danny moved here after she passed away.â
You froze, the hoodie string still between your lips. But Danny saidâ
 âI feel like I remember her,â you said.
Your mom shook her head, looking almost amused.
 âImpossible. You must be mixing something up.â
Her gaze drifted back to the TV, completely unfazed and uninterested by your strange confession. You thought of the photo in Dannyâs car. You were sure youâd seen that woman somewhere before.
After a moment, your eyes returned to the screen too. Someone had just burned an omelet.
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The next morning, bright and early, Charlie confessed.
To be specific, he confessed to the murder of Maggie Baker.
When he was arrested under that charge, a version of him began forming in your mindâand likely in the minds of the profilers as well. A version you didnât want to become permanent. You feared it becoming permanent. You feared his confession. The confirmation of the kind of person who could use and kill a girl just a few years younger than himself, a teenager from the same small town, and then, out of fear that the truth would come out, have the audacity to desecrate her body completely. To make it look like the work of the killer.
And it wasnât hard to copy the killerâs signatureâafter all, the man murdered in such a specific, recognizable way. All Charlie had to do was shave her head. Dress her in pajamas. Fry her body and dump it. Two other women had died in the same way, so of course the police would assume it was the same person. Theyâd chase a monster straight out of a horror story. Some figure of nightmares or urban legends. Someone who might never be caught.
And Charlieâs crime, driven by lust, simple in its brutalityâwhat would that be in comparison? It would vanish. UnlessâŚunless the guilt that haunted him day after day slowly started to crack him open.
He wasnât, after all, some cold, calculating psychopath. He was just a boy working in a tech store, barely scraping through high school year after year.Â
When he confessed, he sealed itâand you, lying on your bed in your bedroom and working on the podcast, mechanically, like a robot, started to have doubts.
The strange thing was that when he was arrested, you were able to believe in his guiltâtruly.
Maybe you were still driven by fear, after all, just the day before you had run from him, convinced you were running for your life. You broke your arm in the process, and the echo of the bone cracking made it really easy to believe.
You tried to look at it from a different perspective.
If he werenât your friend, but a man you heard about in a true crime podcast or read about in police reports, would you still have so many doubts? Probably not. But it was nagging at you so much that you fought for the chance to visit him in holding. And you got it.
Danny offered to drive you, and you agreed. Mainly so you could take a closer look at the photo he kept in his car. Or at least, well, that was your initial plan. But once you found yourself in the passenger seat, on your way to speak with your former friend, a possible murderer, you completely forgot about it.Â
The man gave you a few worried glances during the ride.
 âAre you sure you want to talk to him?â
You gave him a serious look. âI have to talk to him. Whether heâs really guilty or not.â
 Danny nodded quickly. âNo, I get it,â he said.
He went quiet for a moment, eyes fixed on the road.
âConfrontation is...itâs necessary in a way. I mean. What matters most is knowing for yourself. Try to look him in the eyes. Maybe youâll see a version of him different from the one the police... and everyone else believes in.â
You fell into thought, your eyes lingering on his jawâtenser than usual, just slightly.
Crime films often focus on this exact moment. The main character goes to meet the suspect, sits down in a chair separated by glass, holding the receiver to her ear. The inmate sheâs come to see is brought in by two guards, takes a seat, and places his hands on the table. She lowers her gaze, unwilling just yet to face h
Hand cuffed together.
The skin around his nails was torn, tiny wounds scattered along his cuticles. You looked upâand your eyes met. Like in every film, you both remained silent for a moment, even though you knew your visit would only last a handful of minutes. No matter how it sounded, the change in Charlie wasnât drastic. He had already looked terrible before, unhealthily thin, his face sunken, with deep purple shadows around his eyes.
The purple remained, but his frame seemed fuller now, his posture slightly stronger. Most likely the result of a forced withdrawal from drugs. He was looking at you too, though not as intently as you were at him. The fingers of his cuffed hands began to tremble slightly, so he curled them into fists. His lips pressed into a thin line, gaze dropping to the table and then returning to you. This time more present.
 "I'm sorry about your arm," he said.
He didn't quite meet your eyes, rather somewhere nearby. As if trying to give the impression he was, choosing some point on your face to imitate eye contact. Your lips parted. You hadnât expected him to speak first.
"Nothing hapâ" your voice trailed off; the words came automatically. You drew in a deeper breath. It wasnât true that nothing had happened. Something didâyou had a broken arm. And a few bruises on your wrists from how he grabbed you multiple times, in some kind of frenzy. "Yeah. You should be sorry."
He nodded. âIâm sorry,â he repeated calmly. His gaze dropped back to the table. No more pretending to meet your eyes. He swallowed, his shoulders gave a slight twitch as he added, âI never wanted to hurt you.â
With those words, he was practically asking for it.
âBut Maggie Baker, you did?â
His head snapped upâfastâfor the first time. Your eyes met and held for a long moment. At first, his face showed no reaction, then it began to tremble, twist even, as if youâd held something foul right under his nose. He didnât answer.
You drew a breath. Sharp, reluctant. It hurt a little.
âYou know, I assume you realize I didnât come here because I wanted an apology,â you said, resting your elbows on the table in front of you. The phoneâs receiver trembled slightly in your grip. You tightened it.
Charlie nodded, lips pressed tightly together, showing that he knew exactly why youâd come. Or maybe it was just your imagination, but you thought you saw a flicker of pain cross his face. Pain caused by the reason for your visit. Because it wasnât simply to see an old friend.
âYou confessed,â you said.
A moment of silence.
âI did.â
A moment of silence on your end.
âDid you do it?â
Again, it dragged out. You didnât know how much time you had left before someone tapped your shoulder and told you the visit was over. It was always meant to be a short conversation.
âI confessed,â he finally replied, lifting his head again.
His gaze was steady. He didnât blink. He leaned slightly toward the glass pane, fingers around the phone receiver turning white.
To look you in the eyes. This time for real, not somewhere beside them.
Dannyâs words suddenly echoed in your mind like a whisper try to look him in the eyes. So you did.
In his eyesâŚhe was telling the truth.
He confessed.
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âAnd howââ
You cut Dannyâs question off halfway with a single look. You really didnât want to talk about it. Was there even anything to say? A large part of your conversation had been encrypted in looks, with a code inaccessible to outsiders. Hard to understand even for yourself. So, you really didnât want to talk about it yet.
Danny nodded understandingly, gave you a weak, briefly uplifting smile that vanished as soon as it appeared, and you drove back home in silence. It was late-lunch time and you planned to eat together with your mom at your place. You hoped she wouldnât push for a conversation either.
You turned on your phone to check the time, to see exactly how long your conversation with Charlie had taken. You saw one new message. One you had to admit you hadnât expected at all.
Can we meet later and talk?
For a moment, you just stared at it. You and Reid hadnât been in contact since yesterday, for obvious reasons. Your question right after the kissâwhich, by the way, you had really wantedâhad made it look like some sort of game, a form of manipulation. Well, you knew that sooner or later youâd have to straighten things out, but honestly, you didnât have the energy. In this overwhelming mess, you made room for romance (a serious word. letâs add silly at the start to soften it) only if it was built on giggling and kissing. When misunderstandings came into playâŚ
You locked your phone without replying and slid it under your thigh, your gaze fixed out the window. You werenât in a good mood after meeting with Charlie, and thatâs why you didnât want to see Spencerâafraid youâd drag him into your doghouse and make things worse. And you, well, you really liked him.
Before you knew it, you were standing in your driveway, and moments later you were stepping through the front door. Your mom was slicing iceberg lettuce on the kitchen counter; she turned toward you with a visibly concerned, questioning look, but then her eyes met Dannyâs. He must have silently told her you werenât in the mood to talk, because her mouth closed. She exhaled through her nose and, still holding the knife, asked, âDid you buy balsamic dressing?â
You pointed straight ahead, toward the stairs. âIâll be upstairs.â
Neither of them protested, preferring to let you have a moment to yourself. Maybe there, in private, youâd decide whether you wanted to see Spencer today. Youâd barely made it up two steps when you realized you couldnât feel your phone in your pocket. With a heavy sigh, you turned back toward the kitchen.
âDan,â you called. He was just popping a slice of cucumber into his mouth and looked at you questioningly. âI think my phoneâs still in your car. Could IâŚ?â
âSure,â he replied immediately, patting his pockets until his hand stopped on the one at his chest, over his flannel shirt. He pulled out his keys. âHeads up, Iâm throwingââ
âI canâtââ
âFuck, I forgot about your arm. Sorry. Sorry for my language. Anyway, here you go.â
He stepped out from behind the kitchen island to hand them to you, a smirk glinting on his lips. Behind him, your mom let out a short laugh. âApologizing for your language? Since when are you such a gentleman?â
âSince always! How could you not notice?â
Even you smiled involuntarily. For a brief moment, in a quiet sort of realization, you knew that no matter how many things had gone wrong latelyâor even tragicallyâat least in your home, among your closest ones, everything had stayed the same. Safe and kind.
You opened the door to Dannyâs car. Just as you expected, your phone was lying on the seat.
 You reached for it, and out of the corner of your eye, you caught something on the dashboard. The photo you had forgotten to take a closer look at.
You froze for a moment, staring at the womanâs face. That strange feeling filled you again. The sense that you knew her from somewhere. This time, when you were alone with it, it was even stronger. That face was familiar.
Without thinking much, you shoved it into your pocket.
You nearly sprinted the distance from the car back to the house, eager to get upstairs as quickly as possible. You almost forgot to return the keys, skidding to a stop on your heels before tossing them toward Danny, who caught them with wide eyes. He said something about reflex, but his words didnât register.
You, on the other hand, made it to your room, tossing the photo onto your desk. If it had been a book or anything larger, it would have landed with a thud.
Once again, you studied the womanâs face, analyzing every detail. The photo must have been taken when she was a teenager; it looked like something from a school yearbook. Her hairstyle, her outfit, and even the quality of the image all suggestedâŚthe 1940s.
You did the math in your head, your train of thought halting like ants caught in a death spiral. Danny was forty-nine. That would mean he was a teenager in the late 1960s. Something didnât add up. Sure, marriages where the woman was older happened. But this whole thing reeked far too much for you to accept such an explanation.
You sat down at your desk, resting your chin on your hand. The memory of that woman in your mind was old, faded. Barely there at all. It had to come from long ago, from your childhood. You were born and raised in this town, you had no grandparents to visit elsewhere, and you doubted youâd met her at any summer camp. That narrowed the search to Fairview.
Specifically, you turned to the townâs online archives. Yes. Your little hometown actually had one.
The photo gallery was extensive. You dug your way back to the year you were born, then began moving upward through the years again. Carefully studying each photo from every fair, event, concert, and largest homegrown pumpkin contest. There were hundreds, and you hadnât even realized that time was still slipping away behind you. At some point, someone knocked on your door, but without even turning around, you called out that you werenât hungry.
Sometimes, in old photographs, you spotted women who looked physically similar to her, but none gave you that shiver down your spine, that rush of realization that it was definitely her. A few times you found your mom. Danny, too, but always without his wife. Your momâs words came back to you, about how heâd moved here after her death. Why would he lie to you about that? Had you misheard him? Your momâs memory was probably a more reliable source than your single conversation with him.
You sighed, resting your hand on your head in exhaustion.
It was only the afternoon, but your covered windows created the feeling that night had fallen, or at least evening. You were drowsy, but you didnât want to sleep. You wanted to keep yourself busy with something calming, something that wouldnât pull you out of rhythm if a theory or conclusion suddenly came to you.
You looked up at the empty corkboard above your desk. Sometimes you made small boards when discussing a case on your podcast, to capture that movie-like mystery-solving atmosphere. But honestly, you preferred keeping your information in files on your laptop, printing out some and storing them in labeled folders for each case. Thatâs what you had done with The Executioner.
Should you be working on that now? Pinning everything onto the corkboard in the hope that something in your brain would click? After all, you needed something to occupy yourself anyway.
When making a corkboard like this, the most important thing was to start from the beginning. The very beginning. So you reached for the folder where you kept all the information about the first case you ever covered on your podcast. Robert Taylor, we meet again.
You spilled all the documents onto your duck-patterned bedspread andâŚ
Your hand froze above the page listing all his victims. Their photographs.
One of them. One specific one at the very bottom of the page â the one who escaped and helped lead to his capture. You even knew her name; you had looked it up again recently, though you hadnât looked at the photos. Because you had heard it on the cassette recording. Rebecca Young.
You walked over to your desk, to the photo of Dannyâs wife.
âHi, sweetheart.â
The door to your room cracked open, and you jumped in place. Your heart started pounding as if youâd been caught doing something â which, in a way, you had. Your motherâs head peeked in through the doorway. âJust letting you know Iâm heading over to the lake house to see how the tile work turned out. Eat something, okay?â
And with that, she left, and you pressed a hand to your chest, your first breath coming out heavy. Maybe it was good she interrupted you, good that she pulled you out of that trance. You needed to clear your head to think logically. Logical thinking was key.
You compared the photo of Rebecca Young with the photo of Dannyâs wife. It was the same woman, you had no doubt. Thatâs where you knew her from. Not from your childhood, but from the very first case youâd covered on your podcast.
You swallowed hard. Had Danny kept his wifeâs past from you to avoid painful questions? He knew you, knew you were nosy, especially when it came to these kinds of things. It was probably a heavy subject for him. A wife who had died of cancer. In your podcast, you always explored the later lives of women who had survived attacks by serial killers. If they managed to rebuild, you presented it as proof of their strength and resilience. Was Rebecca one of those women?
You couldnât remember â you had covered the Devil of Bristol case a long time ago. But thatâs what the internet was for.
You sat down in front of your laptop again.
Rebecca was the one who had survived the attack and led to his capture â of course there were plenty of articles about her later life. And⌠her early death. After the execution of her attacker, she had fallen into addiction and eventually overdosed in her home. So, she hadnât died of cancer. Sure, Danny could have lied, made up the cancer story to avoid telling the truth about his wifeâs tragic end.
His wife.
Suddenly, it felt like your whole room froze.
In any of those articles, there wasnât a single word about Rebecca ever getting married. Your good hand began to tremble uncontrollably, and you reached for your phone.
The last message from Spencer.
Can we meet later and talk?
With a sharp pain in your chest, you ignored it and wrote something else, something more important at the moment.
Could you give me Garciaâs number?
The reply came immediately, as if he was waiting for your response. The pain in your chest deepened. Reid sent you the number, without asking any questions. Next message.
Can we talk, please?
Sorry, I canât talk right now, I think Iâve just solved a criminal case â you thought. You were too shaken to reply to him. Later. Youâll do it later.
Taking a deep breath as if you were about to dive, you dialed Penelope Garciaâs number. Before she could say anything, you blurted out âHi Pen. Okay, I donât know if I can call you that but itâs me, hmm, you probably know me better as Rotten Cherry than by my name.â
There was complete silence on the other end for a moment.
Squeak.
âOh my gosh, itâs you! Hi, Iâm a fan! Oh my god, I probably shouldnât be this excited, but aaa, Iâm so jealous Spencer met you!â
You winced.
âWell, heâs told me a bit about you. Iâm glad to be talking to you too,â you said, your throat tight, barely managing a friendly tone. You sat on the edge of your desk, closing your eyes for a moment. The world around you was slightly blurred, and your heart was racing. You think you could hear your blood rushing through your veins. âMy listener from the FBI, I never wouldâve guessed. AnywayâŚcould you check something for me?â
âSure, it would be an honor. Iâm booting up my database nowâŚwhatever you wish, sunshine.â
She was surprisingly eager to help you, even though she didnât know what you were really after. You thought maybe she would even give you access to some highly guarded information if you asked.
You exhaled sharply. âI want you to check if a man named Daniel Lewis was ever married.He currently lives in Fairview and is forty-nineâ.
You heard the clicking of keys, something gnawing at your stomach. Your breathing was probably annoyingly loud.
âHm,â she murmured.
âWhat is it?â
âI donât know how to tell you this, sunshine,â she said. âOkay, let me put it this way. Daniel Lewis was never marriedâŚâ
You squeezed your eyelids shut.
ââŚbecause someone named Daniel Lewis doesnât exist. At least not, well, officially. Are you sure thatâs the name you wanted me to check? I canââ
âRobert Taylor,â you forced out. Another breath. You felt as though the air wasnât reaching your brain at all. âActually, Robert Taylor Jr. Check what heâs doing now.â
Once again, the sound of typing.
 âRobert Taylor. Robert, Robert, RobertâŚâ she muttered under her breath. âWell, he and his mother changed their last name to her maiden name in 1964. Any trace of Robertâsince then BennettâvanishedâŚtwenty years ago.â
The same time Danny moved to Fairview.
 âYou know, sunshineâŚyou sound very, very strange. Whatâs going on? Do you think he, ohâ!â
You hung up at the exact moment Penelope put it together. Of course, she didnât know Danny, but she realized you uncovered something. For a moment, you thought you might collapse. Nothing youâd gone through recently, not Charlieâs arrest, not Keasyâs death, hit you like this. Heâd been right under your nose.
The Executioner. And not for a week, a month, or since the murders had started. Always.
Once more, you grabbed your phone and, with a lump in your throat, opened your conversation with Spencer.
At my place in 15
You sent the message, standing motionless in your bedroom for a moment. At your place in 15? You couldnât wait that long. You had to talk, to tell someoneâŚGod, you had to warn your mom. She was at the lake house they were renovating together. Usually, she went there with Danny. What if they were there together right now?Â
You physically couldnât wait those fifteen minutes. You moved toward the door. Driving with a broken arm wasnât impossible, just difficult. And, well, legally not recommended. Anyway, any cop who stopped you should understand.
You started running down the stairsâŚand stopped halfway, face-to-face with Danny.
With Robert Taylor Jr.
With The Executioner.
Your good hand gripped the banister, your body frozen in place.
âHey, I just dropped by because I think I left my drill here when I was putting together that table for your momâs bedroom,â he said with a smile.
Loose tone, relaxed posture, corners of his mouth tilted up. Typical Danny. Typical Danny, always hanging around your house, playing the father figureâand in his free time murdering young women in search of justice for his father, a serial killer.
Typical Danny whoâŚdidnât know you knew.
Though your breath caught in your chest, you forced yourself to let it out.
 âYeah. S-sure, you know you donât have to feelâŚawkward here,â you managed to choke out.
His brows drew together in mild confusion.
 âEverything okay?â
âMhm. You justâŚstartled me.â
He nodded in understanding, his eyes scanning you more intently. The look sent goosebumps rippling across your skin, something you tried desperately not to show.
âHeading somewhere?â he asked.
You hesitated, letting out a nervous, betraying hum as you scrambled for a lie.
 âMhm. MeetingâŚa friend,â you said.
Danny tilted his head to the side. The same way your mom did when you tried going out after dark. Concern in his eyes. You eased slightly. Danny had never hurt you. And he wouldnât, as long as you didnât let him know you knew.
âOkay, actuallyâŚitâs sort of a date,â you added. Extra details made the lie sound more believable. âAnd heâs gonna be here any minute soâŚyeah, I should get going.â
You tried to step past him, but he placed his hand on the banister. You flinched.
âWoah, easy,â he laughed lightly, in what was meant to be a calming tone. âSorry, didnât mean to scare you. Again. Just wanted to say⌠be careful, you know? I donât know this guy, butâŚspeaking as a man. Most of us are pigs.â
âI trust him,â you blurted, the words coming out sharper, more forceful than you intended.
Probably the only true thing youâd said during the entire conversation.
Dannyâs gaze locked on yours, neither of you blinking. His hand stayed firmly on the banister, blocking your path. You couldnât ask him to move it. You couldnât let him see how badly you wanted to get out of that house.
Suddenly, he gave a half-smile. In fact, his whole body seemed to move with a short, amused snort.
 âYou took the photo from my car,â he said. That same relaxed look was still on his face, unchanged. You froze. âYou know which one. And I know youâre a smart girl. Youâve probably figured it all out by now, and here you are, lying straight to my face.â
Never. In your life. Had you been. This. Terrified.
 âI-I donât know whatâw-what youâre talking about.â
âCâmon. Donât make me out to be an idiot. You think I donât know where you were going? To call the cops? That your date? A cop?â
You took one sluggish step back, forgetting you were on the stairs, and lost your balance. Danny caught you by the arm, and in your terror, you instinctively jerked away.
 âLet me go!â
âYouâre coming with me,â he replied, still calm.
Youâd always imagined that in a confrontation with a deranged killer, heâd be more outwardly violent. Well, he was gripping your elbow hard enough to nearly crush it, but outwardly, he was very, very composed.
âWhereâs my mom?!â you demanded, your voice trembling.
Danny pulled you down the stairs. You tried to slip your hand from your sleeve, but heâd anticipated it. Grabbing the fabric tighter and then your arm itself, yanking you closer to him. You hissed through clenched teeth from the pain, fighting as much as you could. Danny tried to grab you around the waist, lift you off the ground, taking the floor from under your feet. Resisting with one arm in a cast was incredibly hard â you kneeled him in the crotch, and taking advantage of the moment when he doubled over in pain, you reached for your pepper spray.
The same one he had given you. He even seemed amused by the sight.
You barely had time to aim before he knocked it from your hand. It rolled across the floor, under the dresser.
Fuck.
In the next moment, he did what he initially intended â threw you over his shoulder. Danny was always a strong man, a laborer. Tall, too. You tried to break free somehow, maybe fall enough to bite his ear or scratch his face, but you werenât physically able. You groaned in helplessness and only kicked your legs and punched his back, making it harder for him to carry you through the garden door.
He grunted in pain as one of your fists hit the same spot several times, harder and harder, more panicked. He sighed, slowing his pace.
âOkay, you know what, maybe I justââ
He abruptly turned sideways just as you passed through the door. Your head hit the threshold, and, well. Shit went dark.
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You were awakened by an electric, buzzing sound.
You blinked, dazzled by the light directly in front of you. You felt nothing at first, but gradually a throbbing pain started to pulse in your head, along with the sensation that someone was holding your head still, preventing it from moving. There was another kind of pain, in a different place...
In your hand, just like when you fell down the stairs.
A pain-filled groan escaped your lips. Why were you going through this again? Had you dreamed of this moment so vividly that you even recreated the sharp sensation of breaking bones? You tried to move your hand, but it wouldnât budge. Not because it was in a cast. Because it wasnât. It was free, yet immobilized by something else, chained to something.
You wanted to look down, away from the source of the light burning your eyes. It was a bulb hanging from a low, rounded stone ceiling. You couldnât move your head either, though you tried. Someone was holding it.
âCalm down,â a voice behind you commanded. A familiar voice. A steady voice. âOr Iâll accidentally cut off your ear.â
âWhatââ you murmured, still drowsy.
Then your eyes widened despite the pain. Danny released your head. It dropped forward, as you didnât have the strength to hold it up yourself. You groaned again and started looking around, ignoring the pain.
You were somewhereâŚwhatever the fuck this place was. A low ceiling and stone walls, something like a bunker or a tunnel, but in front of you wasâŚa church altar? You couldnât make sense of your surroundings. Maybe youâd understand your situation.
In front of you stood a table, and on the other side, a chair that Danny slowly approached. He leaned casually on it with one hand, blowing on an electric razor to get the hairs off its blade.
Your hair.
You looked around, which made no sense since you couldnât see the top of your own head. But you knew you were completely bald, you could feel the cold on your skin. You wanted to be sure and touch it, but your hands were bound with straps. Leather straps, fastening you to the chair. Another wave of pain in your hand, now free of the cast.
The chair.
You were sitting on a chair.
You werenât wearing your own clothes, just a hospital gown and your underwear. You were in your underwear. What a gentleman. Your feet were bound too, and the only things you could move were your head and your fingers. Escape was impossible.
You shifted your terrified gaze to Danny, swallowing hard.
âDanny,â you croaked. âDanny, why?â
âWhy in general, or why you?â he asked gently, sitting down on the chair opposite you. He rested his elbows on the table and leaned toward you with a smile. âHow about this. You tell me why in general, and Iâll tell you why you.â
You swallowed, holding his gaze. There was madness in his calm, maybe it had always been there. You wereâŚdamp and cold, so you guessed you were underground. There were only two of you; you had been kidnapped from your home. Was it possible anyone was looking for you? You hadnât told anyone, butâŚyou had asked Spencer for a meeting in 15 minutes. Had he come to your house? Had he guessed what might have happened?
Danny kept staring at you, waiting for an answer. Escape was impossible. Talking was recommended. Always, in cases of kidnapping. Buying time, getting inside the killerâs head, manipulating him. You sighed. It always seemed easier in podcasts; you had no idea what to say.
âYoure Robert Taylorâs son. The Devil of Bristol,â you began.
âIâve always liked that nickname. Commands respect.â
You swallowed. Where had your Danny gone? The one who gave you pepper spray and always asked if you needed a ride? You shook your head from side to side, lips pressed tight. âDanny, pleaseâŚâ
âKeep talking.â
For a moment, you closed your eyes, extinguishing the burning fear inside you, reducing it to a flicker, though it took some time. But Danny was patient. Good.
âYouâre his son, and you witnessed his execution. With your own eyes, along with your mother. Neither of you ever believed he was a murderer â actually, many people didnât. He had fans. Women. You⌠changed your last name andâŚmoved awayâŚand thenâŚâ you trailed off.
What happened next chronologically? His move to Fairview? No, something had to come in between. For some reason, he eventually came to town. He was running from something.
 âWhen you grew upâŚyou killed Rebecca Young. Your fatherâs victimââ
 âA dirty liar,â he corrected you.
âShe ran from him. You believed he was innocent, and she was lying. Thatâs why you killed her, and thenâŚâ
You frowned, and Danny tilted his head with fascination.
âI delivered the justice that I, and my family, deserved. Then I lived in Fairview under a new identity, leading a quiet life for thirty years without murderous urges. Besides, is the need for justice a murderous urge, or a fundamental human right?â he pondered. He snorted. âThatâs not irony or dark humor. Iâm serious.â
So why did he start killing again? You didnât ask aloud. Your eyes did.
âThere was no fucking candle in this monsterâs pumpkin head. I donât even know how an idiot like him could have murdered so many women, because, damn it, his methods were worse than offering someone to see kittens out the back of a white van labeled âdefinitely not a suspicious van, not a serial killerâs,ââ Danny said in a strangely modulated voice.
You just stared at him.
âDonât you recognize your own words?â he asked. âAbout my dad? In your stupid little podcast?â
Your mouth fell open. Fuck, he was right. Those were your words, your exact quote.
âYou know, there was one good thing that came out of him,â he continued. âIt opened my eyes to how many people donât know the real story. How my father was framed, and that junkie lied about him. If they could hear your false version on your podcast, why shouldnât I have the right to record mine? Here, in his tomb. To ask for Rebeccaâs own opinion. She wasnât nearly as brave sitting in that chair as she was in court when she accused him. She admitted to lying, and hearing that live wasâŚâ Danny shook his head, almost with a touched gleam in his eyes.
Bile rose in your throat. This wasnât your Danny. This was Robert Taylor Jr. He had been all along.
âYou didnât ask her,â you said, your voice bitter. âBecause she was already dead. You killed her. You asked women who werenât even born when your father was killed.â
âBut they thought the same thing. When they sat here, they didnât want to admit to lying. They clung to their hypocrisy, only confessing the truth later. Thatâs right, I gave false testimony about your family, about your father,â Robert again put on a female voice. He nodded at you. âWill you repeat that?â
Your head shook automatically from side to side. âThatâs not fucking true.â
You flinched as something hit the table. Not his fist. He wasnât aggressive. From Keasyâs interrogation recording, you knew things were sometimes different. A voice recorder fell on the table between you. A familiar-looking voice recorder.
âYes, I stole it from you, I admit it. But I did it for a higher purpose. For justice.â
You felt like vomiting. You thought you had lost that recorder months ago. You accepted it and bought a new one, while the old one was still being used forâŚ
Robert looked at the watch on his wrist and started recording.
â6:18, interrogation ofâŚâ
âYouâll kill me, so what then? The police already know who you are. I told them,â you said simultaneously, desperately. You probably had to start threatening him. Unfortunately, Robert didnât look even slightly scared.
He just rolled his eyes, placing the recorder on the table in front of you.
 âNo, I wonât. You were going to tell them, but I beat you to it. Your mom will come home, notice youâre gone. Maybe sheâll worry, but youâve gotten her used to you wandering around at night. The police will only find you when you admit you lied about my father on your podcast.â
So when Iâm dead, you thought. You started breathing heavily through your mouth, trying to focus. You couldnât admit he was right, or heâd fry you. As if reading your mind, Robert stood up from his seat and circled your chair, fastening something around your head. You didnât see your reflection, but it was metal and cold against your shaved skin. You struggled once more, and a wave of tearing pain washed over your arm.
âCalm down, Iâm not turning it on yet,â he murmured soothingly behind you, adjusting the leather strap around your wrist. âThis is just to prepare you.â
âYouâre really going to do this to my mom?â
âDo you admit that what you said about Robert Taylor on your podcast was blasphemy, slander, and untrue, and that he was wrongly accused?â
You closed your eyes. You remembered the pepper spray that fell from your hand and rolled under the dresser. The BAU would surely find it and recognize it as a struggle attempt. Then theyâd only have to find you. Where were you? Robert called it his fatherâs tomb, and it probably was, the altar before you likely concealed his body or ashes. Would they figure it out?
Maybe. But it would take time before they did. You had to give them that time.
âI do not admit it,â you said.
Robert was behind you, where the mechanism to activate the chair had to be. Surely his hand rested on the right switch, ready with pride and satisfaction to press it at the right moment. He repeated his question patiently.
You patiently repeated yourself. âI do not admit it.â
You lost count of how many times each of you repeated it before you both started shouting. You were glad he was yelling at you, and you yelled even louder so that anyone above ground could hear you. The room didnât seem soundproof, made of stone, not any sound-absorbing foam or material.
He hissed behind you, showing the first sign of impatience. He circled the table again, as if thinking that if he slapped his hands on it and leaned toward you, he could pressure you more, force you to speak. âDo you admitâŚâ
 âI admit your father was an idiot who didnât have a single fucking candle in his pumpkin head!â you interrupted with a scream, carefully choosing your words, pulling from your own quote that probably haunted him like a mantra since he learned it by heart.
Robert froze motionless, his eyes seemingly empty. You heard a voice above you, above the surface, and tried to tilt your head up with hope, but you were immobilized. He also looked at the ceiling, his hands clenched into fists.
 âYou know what, this fucking makes no sense.â
He circled the chair, and you instinctively struggled again, ignoring pain everywhere. If only those straps would give wayâŚYour heart was in your throat because you guessed where this was heading. Your body convulsed, but not because electricity was shooting through you â because you wanted to escape, maybe knock the chair over, do anything to get outâŚ
 âDanny, pleaseââ
Did you hear footsteps? You definitely heard The Executionerâs heavy breathing behind you, panicked. He was scared. Scared just like you, but for a different reason. The footsteps grew louder, and you heard one last, final sound â the pressing of the switch.
Then, a moment of blissful silence settled from every side, filling your ears and mind before the first wave of electricity pierced your body through and through.
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The streets of Fairview were completely empty that day.
Lately, people had been going out alone less and less, but for the past few days The Executioner had been where he belonged â behind bars â and with no specific danger lurking for the townsfolk, Elle slowly made her way down the sidewalk without spotting a single soul.
That didnât mean they were all shut away in their homes. That particular morning, everyone had gathered in one specific place, dressed in black. In a town where everyone knew everyone, funerals were big events. They reflected the weight of the life that had come to an end.
Well, the street being completely empty wasnât entirely true.
A few dozen meters ahead of Elle, a boy was gliding along the sidewalk on his bike. At some point, he got off, grabbing the handlebars and inspecting the rear tire â the air had gone out of it so much that riding was impossible. He had probably run over some glass. At least, thatâs what he was most likely going to think.
The boy was forced to walk his bike the rest of the way home. He turned into a narrow alley, the shortcut he always took. Elle did the same, a few dozen meters behind him, ready to cut him off from an entirely different side.
Everyone was at the funeral. The boy had no reason to expect that a woman would suddenly appear in front of him. Let alone one pointing a gun straight at his chest.
The bike hit the ground with a loud clatter.
âHi, Conrad,â Elle greeted him. âDo you know who I am?â
The boy raised both hands in the air and looked around, hoping to spot someoneâanyoneâwho might help him. He saw no one, and his terrified gaze settled back on Elle.
She didnât feel the slightest trace of remorse for the fear on his face. She lifted one eyebrow slightly and adjusted her grip.
The arrest of the Executioner had left Charlie facing only the charge of rape and murder of sixteen-year-old Maggie Baker. He had fully confessed to the crimes. Elle was the one who had interrogated him, and the one who knew there was something off in his statement. That he was trying to protect someone. Someone he cared about so much he was willing to go to prison for them.
And someone who would have gotten away with the crime completely.
If it hadnât been for her and her crazy idea.
âN-no,â the boy finally stammered, his knees trembling as if he wanted to run, but knowing he would be shot the moment he tried.
âGood,â Elle replied. âBut I know who you are. And what you did. Iâm just missing a few pieces of this whole puzzle, and Iâm counting on you to give them to me. OtherwiseâŚâ She gave a meaningful glance at her gun.
Conradâs jaw tightened, his face almost translucent.
âIâm not joking,â she added. âIâve got a gun, everyoneâs at the funeral, and I can disappear without being seen. Besides, you wouldnât be the first rapist Iâve shot, though youâd definitely be the youngest. So? Are we talking?â
After a brief pause, Conrad gave a stiff nod.
Elle cleared her throat. âLetâs start then. Why did you kill Maggie Baker?â
âI didnât want to,â he blurted out immediately, shaking his head. âReally, I didnât. I just⌠I got into that party, even though they didnât want me there because I was younger. And she didnât pay any attention to me at all, and when I saw that they were taking something, I⌠I put it in her glass andâŚlater after IâŚshe started choking, I donât know why, I didnât do that.â
Elle was silent for a moment. What heâd just added had to be some form of rape drug, which had slowed her breathing dramatically. And Maggie had asthma. She must have suffered an attack, and without access to her inhaler, nearly unconscious, she had suffocated.
That was the missing puzzle piece.
��You called Charlie. Big brother, always ready to help you out, even when youâve just raped a girl. How did you know about The Executionerâs former hideout in the woods?â
The police had determined that the first murders were committed there, before Robert Taylor Jr. decided to move them to his fatherâs tomb.
âIâI stumbled on it once. When I was riding my bike. But I didnât know h-he was thereââ
âYou thought it would be the perfect place to dump the body. Charlie drove you there, with Maggieâs corpse. You went inside, and there it wasâthe electric chair. Whose idea was it, hmm? To stage the whole thing as the work of a serial killer?â
Conradâs chest rose. âCharlieâs.â
âAh, the caring big brother, and so clever too. Even willing to go to prison for both of you.â
âC-can I go now?â he asked.
Elle let out a short, derisive laugh. She reached into her pocket without lowering her gun and tossed something toward the boy, landing right next to his bike. He glanced down, confused. It was a pair of handcuffs.
âGo on. Put them on yourself. Youâre going to see your brother.â
Conrad didnât move, his expression tightening slightly. âIâll deny itââ
Elle reached into her pocket again. This time pulling out a voice recorder. It was switched on, capturing their entire conversation.
Watching Conrad cuff himself, Elle glanced at her watch. This had gone much faster than sheâd originally planned. She might even make it to Keasy Turnerâs funeral after dropping this idiot off at the station.
The BAU had stayed in Fairview for a few extra days, something far from their usual practice. This time, however, theyâd deemed it necessary. The girl who had helped them crack the entire case was still in the hospital after they had rescued her at the very last moment, just as the first wave of electric shocks tore through her body. The ordeal had caused several severe burns and robbed her of her memory for a time, but she was expected to recoverâat least physically. And they wanted to wait until she woke up.
To thank her.
EPILOGUE
10 months laterâŚ
The sound of the doorbell rang.
You moved toward the door, but before opening it, you stopped in front of the tall mirror in the hallway of your new apartment. Rented, still filled with boxes from your moveâŚeven though a week had already passed. You glanced briefly at your reflection, nodded slightly, and finally went to the door. Instead of the usual two locks, you had agreed with the landlord to install three additional ones. Each time you opened them, it felt a bit like a safe-cracking scene from a heist movie.
You knew who to expect, yet you peeked through the peephole before opening the door to a smile â a smile that naturally spread across your lips, though you couldnât hide feeling a little nervous about the meeting. Spencer was nervous too, because when he didnât know your eye was watching him from the other side, he straightened his tie. Beneath it, a gray-blue shirt and a beige blazer; as usual, glasses on his face. Although his hair was slightly longer than the last time you saw each other.
âHi,â he started, swallowing nervously. Somehow, you exchanged glances. His fell on your hair, yours on the small, charming bouquet of violets in his hands. But then Spencer snapped out of it, shaking his head, pulling himself out of his reverie. âHi, wow, sorry, itâs justââ
âI know. When I told you I got a new wig, you probably didnât expect this.â
Spencer looked embarrassed in an apologetic way.
Although when you were in the electric chair ten months ago, you only felt one shockâit caused localized burns on your scalp. To take care of them, you consistently kept your hair as short as possible and only recently allowed it to grow out fully. But as you know, that was a long process.
 Anyway, you bought a wig that imitated your old hair, but you didnât like wearing it. You felt uncomfortable pretending to be your old self when you no longer felt like her, but you also felt bad with your head shaved against your will. So you bought a wig in a deep navy color.
 âYou look beautiful,â he said. You looked at his face; his eyes widened slightly. He cleared his throat. âI mean, that color really suits you.â
You smiled, and for a moment, you both stood in silence before you realized you were literally holding him at the doorstep. âOh, sorry. Come in, please.â
Spencer nodded, but before he took a step, his eyes dropped to the flowers, which he probably just remembered. He held them out to you uncertainly. âI know they look a little tired, but I literally took the subway with them and it was really, really crowded, andâŚI hate public transport.â
You took the flowers from him thoughtfully and smiled wider. It was a kind gesture that made warmth flood your body. Although, it was a bit unexpected. Since the BAU narrowly escaped Robert Taylorâs hands, your relationship with Spencer had simultaneously taken a step back and a few forward. You had basically avoided the problematic issue of your kiss and had become friends. Really good friends, because the state you had been in over the last few monthsâmainly mentallyâdidnât make you feel ready for anything more.
Not once during your friendship had he given you flowers before. Well, maybe because until recently you lived in different states and mostly talked on the phone, but still. It was something groundbreaking.
âThey match my hair,â you noticed, letting him into the apartment. âAnd theyâre really pretty.â
Spencer was in your new apartment for the first time. As you both went deeper inside, it must have immediately caught his attention. Boxes. Everywhere.
âI know, nothing is unpacked. I know, itâs been a month. But I just canât force myself to fully settle here,â you explained. âIt⌠doesnât really feel like home. But nothing does anymore, so I guess I donât really have a good excuse for not unpacking. Oh, and I only have one chair.â
For a moment, he looked at you silently, a trace of concern flashing in his eyes. You felt stupid for what you saidâhe had just arrived, and you were already complaining and pouring out your sadness. After everything that happened in Fairview, your mom didnât want to live there any longer. She put the house up for sale, which strained your relationship a bit. For a while, you tried living together somewhere else, but you needed a complete change. Thatâs why you moved to Virginia. Well, that wasnât the only reason. The other was the studies you decided to start.
âDonât worry about it,â he assured you gently, nodding slightly in understanding. I donât mind sitting on boxes. Even the floor is fine if Iâm being honest. I came here to see you. The rest doesnât really matter.â
You turned the bouquet of violets in your hands. âI missed you, you know.â
A slight movement of his head, a narrow smile like a simple line. âYeah. I missed you too.â
âShould I put them in a vase? Want something to drink? If so, just a heads upâyouâll have to find yourself a glass in one of these boxes, I have no idea which oneââ
Spencer had dropped by for a chat, whichâunsurprisinglyâstretched on. Not that you minded. Warm orange light filled your kitchen as you washed the dishes from the meal youâd eaten together at a table with chairs made of cardboard boxes, as if that were the most natural thing in the world. You were glad to have talked with him. This particular way of talking, balanced between casualness and trust, between comfort and honesty.
âYour plans havenât changed? Criminology?â he asked, referring to your studies and the upcoming semester.
You handed him a clean plate so he could put it in the cupboard beside his head. On the counter in front of him sat a cut-off water bottle, serving as a makeshift vase for the violets. Youâd have to get a prettier one. Who knows. Maybe you could expect them more often from now on.
âThatâs right. You know, I think itâs something that will always be with me. But Iâm not sure what Iâll do once I finish. Maybe Iâll keep going with the podcast.â You paused for a moment, drying your wet hands with a cloth. Spencer stood right beside you, his back to the cabinets you were facing. You shrugged. âMaybe Iâll try my luck in law enforcement. But I could never do what you guys do. I mean, I donât think Iâm built for fieldwork. Being in danger. Collecting information, working behind a deskâŚthatâs probably more my speed.â
You werenât even sure if you were speaking honestly. Just a year ago youâd been ready to break into places or visit abandoned buildings in the evening, and now you had five locks on your door and sometimes pressed your ear against the wall to your neighbors, wondering if they might be serial killers. Not to mention that nearly every day you googled the name of one specific prison to check if a certain inmate had somehow, against all odds, managed to get out. You were full of fear and, it seemed, permanently stripped of trust.
Spencer cleared his throat gently. âIf you ever do want to try your hand at the FBI Academy, youâve got my recommendation.â
You nudged him with your elbow. âNepotism,â you muttered.
He shrugged with a faint smirk. âMaybe.â
You turned toward him to hand over the last clean glass to be put away in the cupboard. Spencerâs hand closed lightly around itâso lightly that you didnât let go either, your eyes lifting to meet his. For a moment, his gaze simply held yours, thoughtful and unblinking, before he leaned in to kiss you. Carefully and slowly, in a way that felt unlike him.
âI really missed you,â he said quietly as he drew back just a little. âAnd Iâm so glad youâre here now.â
âAnd Iâm glad youâre here,â you replied, and you meant it. Maybe you werenât entirely glad that you were here. Your new apartment still felt strange, the neighborhood still unfamiliar, and everything still so frightening. But that he was there with you in that moment, you were truly glad for that. âPut the glass in the cupboard.â
Spencer let go of your gaze, dropping it to the glass you both still held.
âRightââ
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You had big shoes to fillâeveryone warned you of this, but youâve never been one to back down from a challenge. Transferred to replace Elle Greenaway during her four-month long leave, you strode into Quantico the same way you had in New Yorkâ impeccably dressed, wholly prepared to be the best. To stay.
Except waging psychological and social warfare against trained and established profilers is turning out to be much more difficult than the meddling, mid-level bureaucratic agents you previously dealt with.Â
Oh well. Youâll get what you want, one way or another.
Youâre highly intelligent, after all, and ruthlessly ambitiousâa doe-eyed, bon mot tossing package of girly evil*, as your classmates from the Academy liked to whisper. Born into privilege, youâve spent your life proving that you didnât simply buy your way inâyou got to where you are through hard work and perseverance (and admittedly, a little scheming). The insinuation otherwise is frankly insulting; all your life, youâve been trying so hard. Effort is etched deeply in your bones and stitched into the fabric of your skin.Â
You wear your clothes like armor, your words are poisonâcutting, and spilling from perfectly glossy lips. Youâre goal oriented to a fault, and nothing will stand in your wayâat least until him.
Spencer Reid. Genius, and yet infuriatingly clueless. Your sharp barbs don't land because he doesn't understand the intention behind them. He tilts his head and suddenly you're framed in tenderness and there's threat of hopeâof being seen, of acceptance. And maybe, devastatingly, even love.
đ favorite things: pastries and dark chocolate, early 20th century female writers, dresses and skirts with pockets, old movies, jojoba oil, lace tights, city skylines at sunset
âď¸ least favorite things: repeating yourself, charismatic and effortlessly beautiful blondes, things getting out of your control, not being taken seriously
đ whatâs in your bag? anti-slip heel pads, berry lip gloss, blotting paper, your Metro card, pepper spray, creedâs fleurissimo for women, wet wipes, a copy of simone de beauvoirâs the woman destroyed in its original french, wintergreen tic tacsÂ
đś your playlist: A mix of nostalgia and popâclassical music and golden age of Hollywood soundtracks, Cyndi Lauper, Radiohead, Mitski, Frank and Nancy Sinatra, Aretha Franklin, MARINA, Lana del Rey.
Notes: *quote from Gossip Girl, season 1 episode 4 **template inspired by @whisperedmeg This will be collection of semi-related one-shots with a reader-archetype inspired by Blair Waldorf. I figured it's not that weird to post this since I already have a few one shots with her, and this meet the reader was really helpful in motivating me to write more haha.
a few FAQs:
why call her Waldorf!reader? ⪠Because her personality is based on Blair Waldorf, and I feel like calling her rich girl reader or preppy reader dismisses several key elements of Blair's personality - the snark, the cunning, the insecurity - which are also integral to this reader and her dynamic with Spencer Reid + the BAU. is this a crossover? ⪠nope! this is just a reader archetype for this universe/series, similar to diva!reader by @darkmatilda / greenaway!reader from @whisperedmeg / and Gideon!reader by @atlabeth (I've linked all the masterlists, y'all should check them out!) will you be describing how we look? ⪠aside from certain fashion choices, no! Trying to be as inclusive as possible. Are requests for her open? ⪠Not at the moment, I'm still trying to go through my older requests.Â
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i love derek morgan mation!! and âback outâ as if i escaped alcatraz this has me giggling
21 questions - d.m



in which; new!bau!reader goes out with the girls and discovers she might have a chance with derek after all.
content ; mentions of alcohol consumption, majority of the fic is set in a bar, the girls tease reader, reader is quite nervous, some very light flirting.
wc: 1.2k
a/n; this request is from like march, so i extended it for you!!
A warm orange hue lit up OâKeefeâs as you walked in, creating a welcoming atmosphere inside the sports bar. Some radios spotted around played a faint tune, quiet enough to be heard but not loud enough to disturb the thoughts running around your head. You were a bit nervous, to say the least. Okay, maybe A LOT nervous.
After youâd wrapped up the last case, there were talks about a night out as the last Friday of the month was approaching. âA team traditionâ, Penelope had called it, but after Hotch had canceled because Jack had a fever and Spencer just outright refused, the girls decided to make it a girlâs night. To get to know you, the teamâs newest addition, better.
It wasnât that you were scared of the girls, theyâd been nothing but nice to you since youâd joined, so you had no reason to be anxious around them. It was more so about the impression you wanted to make on them. Although, being a nervous wreck about it probably only left more room for you to be awkward.
Quickly, you scanned the room for any signs of the three agents, but there were none to be found. You were early. At least that gave you some time for a quiet drink to calm your nerves. Once youâd received your drink from the bartender, though, a text from Penelope came through.Â
Before youâd even had a chance to respond, the blonde haired woman herself had appeared at the bar next to you with both JJ and Emily.Â
âHiiii, oh my gosh, you look BEAUTIFUL!!â Penelope gushed, while quickly pulling you into her embrace.Â
Her enthusiasm lulled a small laugh from your lips as you returned the hug before pulling back to greet the other two women, who seemed equally as amused as you were, at Penelopeâs extremely warm greeting.Â
A few drinks deep into the night and a lot of laughs later, Emily had suggested the four of you should play 21 questions so that they could get to know you and vice versa. It was your turn to ask Penelope a set of questions, ideas floating around inside your head. With liquid courage and a lowered filter, a question that youâd been dying to know the answer to had finally slipped out given the opportunity.
âSo, like, are you and Morgan⌠you know?â
âAre me and Morgan what?â she reiterated your question back to you, all three women staring at you with confused expressions.Â
âYou knowâŚâ you gestured with your hands to see if theyâd catch on.Â
There was a moment of silence before Emily burst into laughter, the two blondes following shortly afterwards.Â
Scared that your biggest fear for the night had come true, you immediately started to over explain yourself to the trio of giggling girls.Â
âI mean, you always flirt with each other, and the whole baby girl/dark chocolate thing. I donât know, I guess I just wanted to know if I had a chance with him or not.â
Almost immediately, Penelope stopped laughing and her expression changed from gleeful to a panicked shock, while JJ and Emily remained HIGHLY amused, although less vocal about it. Her manicured hand flew to your shoulder as she rushed to reassure you.
âOh. OH, honey no, thereâs nothing going on between me and Derek in that department. You totally have a chance with him, In fact, I encourage it!!â
As her words began to register in your mind, you felt your cheeks begin to warm and your expression was identical to that of a hopeful child at the promise of ice cream. Unbeknownst to you and Garcia, Emily and JJ watched the interaction carefully, full of mirth and mischief.
After ensuring that you were okay nearly a million times, Penelope went to order another round for the four of you, leaving you alone with a suspiciously gleeful duo.
âAwhh, has newbie got a crush on our resident heartthrob Derek Morgan?â Emily asked, smirking.
âItâs like middle school all over again,â JJ added.
âItâs not a crush! I just think heâs cute, thatâs all.âÂ
In unison, the pair began to sing a song that probably haunts every 11 year old girl across America; âYou and Morgan, sittinâ in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage.â
Defenseless, you endured the teasing from the pair until Penelope returned and told them off for giving you a hard time, devolving into a tangent on âtrue loveâ or something and or other.Â
The night continued on as it were, conversations flowing from one topic to the next until it was certainly time to throw the towel in and start your journeys back home. While you waited outside for a cab, Penelope made her way over to you after making sure JJ actually got into Willâs car and not somebody elseâs. She seemed to be having an internal conflict about something and her face was screwing up even more with every step in your direction.Â
âGah! I really wasnât supposed to tell you this but itâs been eating at me, All. Night. And I think if I donât get it out soon, I might explode from secret keeping, even though thatâs what youâre supposed to do to be a good friend - and I am. A good friend, I mean, not exploding or whatever I just said but keeping things from people is SO hard and I-â
âPen!! Itâs okay, if itâs something top secret, I wonât tell anybody. You look stressed, so if you need to get it out, thatâs okay. You can tell me.â
âOkay, well⌠Derek also thinks that youâre cute. Which you are,â She brought a finger up to boop your nose softly before turning back to her previous panicked state, âBut you CANNOT tell him that I told you, okay?!â
âOkay, I wonât, I promise!â
âPinky promise?â
âPinky promise,â you said, before interlocking your pinky finger with hers.Â
The following day at work, any and all interactions you had with Derek elicited wiggling eyebrows and hushed giggles from JJ and Emily, each teasing gesture causing you to roll your eyes at them afterwards. Of course, none of it was going unnoticed in an office full of profilers, so later on in the day it was no surprise that he had caught on.
The pair of you were leaning back against the counter in the small kitchenette, coffee mugs in hand while stood side by side, when he finally broached the subject.Â
âSo, uh, are you gonna tell me whatâs going on with all those wigglin' brows and giggles?â His lips turned up into a smirk.
âOh, that. Well, uh⌠thatâs just JJ and Emily for you.â
âUh, uh, uh, I know those two and this isnât how they act. Come on mama, throw me a bone here.â
âUhm⌠I may or may not have drunkenly confessed that I found you attractiveâŚ?âÂ
The inflection of your words went up at the end, almost as if you were asking him a question in response. The hand that was wrapped around your coffee cup tightened their grip as you waited for a response.Â
âOh, do you now, sweetheart?â
Before you could answer his rhetorical (although you didnât quite realise) question, he moved to stand in front of you and leaned towards you to whisper in your ear, âThe feelings mutual.â Then he walked away, leaving you alone in the kitchenette, smiling ear to ear like a mad man.Â
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21 questions - d.m



in which; new!bau!reader goes out with the girls and discovers she might have a chance with derek after all.
content ; mentions of alcohol consumption, majority of the fic is set in a bar, the girls tease reader, reader is quite nervous, some very light flirting.
wc: 1.2k
a/n; this request is from like march, so i extended it for you!!
A warm orange hue lit up OâKeefeâs as you walked in, creating a welcoming atmosphere inside the sports bar. Some radios spotted around played a faint tune, quiet enough to be heard but not loud enough to disturb the thoughts running around your head. You were a bit nervous, to say the least. Okay, maybe A LOT nervous.
After youâd wrapped up the last case, there were talks about a night out as the last Friday of the month was approaching. âA team traditionâ, Penelope had called it, but after Hotch had canceled because Jack had a fever and Spencer just outright refused, the girls decided to make it a girlâs night. To get to know you, the teamâs newest addition, better.
It wasnât that you were scared of the girls, theyâd been nothing but nice to you since youâd joined, so you had no reason to be anxious around them. It was more so about the impression you wanted to make on them. Although, being a nervous wreck about it probably only left more room for you to be awkward.
Quickly, you scanned the room for any signs of the three agents, but there were none to be found. You were early. At least that gave you some time for a quiet drink to calm your nerves. Once youâd received your drink from the bartender, though, a text from Penelope came through.Â
Before youâd even had a chance to respond, the blonde haired woman herself had appeared at the bar next to you with both JJ and Emily.Â
âHiiii, oh my gosh, you look BEAUTIFUL!!â Penelope gushed, while quickly pulling you into her embrace.Â
Her enthusiasm lulled a small laugh from your lips as you returned the hug before pulling back to greet the other two women, who seemed equally as amused as you were, at Penelopeâs extremely warm greeting.Â
A few drinks deep into the night and a lot of laughs later, Emily had suggested the four of you should play 21 questions so that they could get to know you and vice versa. It was your turn to ask Penelope a set of questions, ideas floating around inside your head. With liquid courage and a lowered filter, a question that youâd been dying to know the answer to had finally slipped out given the opportunity.
âSo, like, are you and Morgan⌠you know?â
âAre me and Morgan what?â she reiterated your question back to you, all three women staring at you with confused expressions.Â
âYou knowâŚâ you gestured with your hands to see if theyâd catch on.Â
There was a moment of silence before Emily burst into laughter, the two blondes following shortly afterwards.Â
Scared that your biggest fear for the night had come true, you immediately started to over explain yourself to the trio of giggling girls.Â
âI mean, you always flirt with each other, and the whole baby girl/dark chocolate thing. I donât know, I guess I just wanted to know if I had a chance with him or not.â
Almost immediately, Penelope stopped laughing and her expression changed from gleeful to a panicked shock, while JJ and Emily remained HIGHLY amused, although less vocal about it. Her manicured hand flew to your shoulder as she rushed to reassure you.
âOh. OH, honey no, thereâs nothing going on between me and Derek in that department. You totally have a chance with him, In fact, I encourage it!!â
As her words began to register in your mind, you felt your cheeks begin to warm and your expression was identical to that of a hopeful child at the promise of ice cream. Unbeknownst to you and Garcia, Emily and JJ watched the interaction carefully, full of mirth and mischief.
After ensuring that you were okay nearly a million times, Penelope went to order another round for the four of you, leaving you alone with a suspiciously gleeful duo.
âAwhh, has newbie got a crush on our resident heartthrob Derek Morgan?â Emily asked, smirking.
âItâs like middle school all over again,â JJ added.
âItâs not a crush! I just think heâs cute, thatâs all.âÂ
In unison, the pair began to sing a song that probably haunts every 11 year old girl across America; âYou and Morgan, sittinâ in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage.â
Defenseless, you endured the teasing from the pair until Penelope returned and told them off for giving you a hard time, devolving into a tangent on âtrue loveâ or something and or other.Â
The night continued on as it were, conversations flowing from one topic to the next until it was certainly time to throw the towel in and start your journeys back home. While you waited outside for a cab, Penelope made her way over to you after making sure JJ actually got into Willâs car and not somebody elseâs. She seemed to be having an internal conflict about something and her face was screwing up even more with every step in your direction.Â
âGah! I really wasnât supposed to tell you this but itâs been eating at me, All. Night. And I think if I donât get it out soon, I might explode from secret keeping, even though thatâs what youâre supposed to do to be a good friend - and I am. A good friend, I mean, not exploding or whatever I just said but keeping things from people is SO hard and I-â
âPen!! Itâs okay, if itâs something top secret, I wonât tell anybody. You look stressed, so if you need to get it out, thatâs okay. You can tell me.â
âOkay, well⌠Derek also thinks that youâre cute. Which you are,â She brought a finger up to boop your nose softly before turning back to her previous panicked state, âBut you CANNOT tell him that I told you, okay?!â
âOkay, I wonât, I promise!â
âPinky promise?â
âPinky promise,â you said, before interlocking your pinky finger with hers.Â
The following day at work, any and all interactions you had with Derek elicited wiggling eyebrows and hushed giggles from JJ and Emily, each teasing gesture causing you to roll your eyes at them afterwards. Of course, none of it was going unnoticed in an office full of profilers, so later on in the day it was no surprise that he had caught on.
The pair of you were leaning back against the counter in the small kitchenette, coffee mugs in hand while stood side by side, when he finally broached the subject.Â
âSo, uh, are you gonna tell me whatâs going on with all those wigglin' brows and giggles?â His lips turned up into a smirk.
âOh, that. Well, uh⌠thatâs just JJ and Emily for you.â
âUh, uh, uh, I know those two and this isnât how they act. Come on mama, throw me a bone here.â
âUhm⌠I may or may not have drunkenly confessed that I found you attractiveâŚ?âÂ
The inflection of your words went up at the end, almost as if you were asking him a question in response. The hand that was wrapped around your coffee cup tightened their grip as you waited for a response.Â
âOh, do you now, sweetheart?â
Before you could answer his rhetorical (although you didnât quite realise) question, he moved to stand in front of you and leaned towards you to whisper in your ear, âThe feelings mutual.â Then he walked away, leaving you alone in the kitchenette, smiling ear to ear like a mad man.Â
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THE WAY YOU MAKE RAPUNZELâS TOWER HIS MIND IS SO GENIUS I FUCKIN LOVE YOUR BRAIN MICHAELA
the princess in the tower s reid x rapunzel!reader
spencer sees the perfect girl right across the street. he imagines what she's like until fate intervenes.
genre: fluff wc: 2k warnings: rapunzel!reader, reader has long golden blonde hair, painter!reader, enfp!reader, mentions of kidnapping, princess imagery a/n: the first instalment of my rapunzel series!!! thank you to @cherrriesinthespring @esote-rika and @darkmatilda for help<3
The first time he saw her was an inherent accident. He shut his curtain possibly a mere five minutes later than usual. Every other day, the avoidance of his routine would result in unwelcome anxiety. Instead, he saw her.
The golden waterfall that was her hair, at least.
The second time was an accident caused on purpose. He got home from work and peered through his window. This time he wanted to see her. Across the calming road, her building had only one window alight. Lucky for him, that window was hers.Â
Spencer knew nothing about her other than her unnaturally gleaming hair. Now, looking in from the outside, he could see fragments of her life laid in front of him. An easel sat in the corner of her room, covered messily in various colours of paint. Small suns cluttered every surface they could.
It only made sense that a girl like her would be obsessed with the sun.
The walls were white, making a perfect canvas for a palette of vivid art made by her own hand. Swirls, portraits of girls with similarly yellow hair, and towers littered her walls. That night forced his mind into a spiral surrounding her.
Spencer thought about what kind of person she could be. Creative, he knew that. She probably had a lot of free time. She couldâve been in something temporary, something allowing her to pursue her dreams on the side. He thought about the suns threatening to swallow her room whole. He presumed she was outgoing, desperate for connection, but hopelessly hopeful and stuck in her head. She lets herself down with her own expectations and unrealistic fantasies. Sheâd been let down enough that she would do anything to make even the smallest dream come true.
She was stubborn. She was the type of girl that you donât see coming until youâve got her. And then you donât want to let go.
The third time he saw her was another carefully planned mishap. Spencer checked out his window every day he could, trying to catch another glimpse of her. A stroke of good fortune brought her to him again.
This time, he saw her on her bed, legs crossed and a book in her hands. Like every other pathetic attempt to see her, her hair was in the way of her face. He could see it more clearly, though. It just about reached the floor. With her back hunched over, it hung past her mid thigh.
Each instance in which their paths intentionally crossed, he felt equally smarter and dumber. Heâd make an assumption about her only after long contemplation but then he would learn something new and heâd have to come up with a whole new rationalization for why she is who she is. It wasnât truly a good thing to look into someone's life like heâd been doing, he knew. A part of him pretended she wasnât real. In his head, she was this untouchable princess.
Locked up in a tower like the ones ingrained in her home's memory.
The longer she stayed up there, away from civilization and Spencer, the more ivy that crawled up the stone. Time passed visually, every day being proven by a tick on her bedroom wall. Like a prison cell, she remained, counting down the days until she could be freed. She dreamt of the day her bare feet would touch grass. She wished to be saved from her very personal hell after a lifetimeâs worth of isolation.
She waited for the day someone would take her hand and drag her away. Not a perfect prince but someoneâanyone. Maybe the guy across the street?
Spencer opened his curtain after getting home late from a case. Fate allowed him to see the princess for the last time. Not that he believed in fate. He just figured she did.
She laid on her stomach, another book between her fingers. The golden hair that flowed from her scalp cascaded down her back. He watched as her hand tucked a strand behind her ear, letting him study the curve of her cheek. When she blinked, her lashes brushed her face. But then, as if heâd forced it into fruition telepathically, her neck craned towards the window.
And then she stood, her bare feet bringing her to the open curtains failing to conceal her from the world.
Spencer ducked out of view just enough so she couldnât catch a glimpse of him. Even though heâd been greedily stealing glimpses of her for weeks.
Her eyes found the street below and watched the few cars speeding by on the damp road. Then she reached up and pulled the curtains shut.
That was the last time he saw her purposefully on accident.
He wondered about all the things heâd observed. Would he ever discover if he was correct? Was the not knowing better?
Those were the questions that glued themselves to the forefront of his mind. The whole week following her metaphoricallyâand somewhat literallyâshutting him out was spent with his brain stuck in a perpetual question mark.
On his way to get some reading for the weekend, he thought and thought. Thinking wasnât new to him and never will be but heâs never found himself so deluded. This girlâwhom heâd not once metâwas stubbornly persisting like a creepy broken record always spinning in the back of his head.
Every time he had even the slightest of seconds where his brain wasnât busy, she fluttered inside. Even when his brain was conquered by a tough case, sheâd chisel her way in until the tower she was stuck in was his mind. There she could sit with her paints and make tapestries of the inside of his head. It wasnât like he wasnât imagining those pictures constantly anyway. Really, her presence would be no bother to him.
Her feet pitter pattering on the floor of his mind would be nothing but a new soundtrack to him.
Spencer stepped into his favourite bookstore like any other time and proceeded to his favourite section. His fingers scanned the spines of numerous books before he settled on The Sign of the Four. He had read it before, of course, but he had yet to memorize it. He picked up three other books before paying and leaving.
His Converse hit the cobblestoned streets with barely any mind. He still couldnât seem to escape her. One hand held his four books while the other held the strap of his satchel. No attention was being paid to where he was going or where he stepped. In what felt like less than an instant, he was colliding with a stranger on the street. A stranger wielding a box of potted paints. She gasped loudly, partially at the mess she made of his button-up, but mostly at the books scattered on the ground now painted in pastels. She dropped the box and tended to them like a military nurse would to a wounded soldier.
For the first time, he looked at her.
That golden hair flowed well past her shouldersâher hips. She glanced up at him from the ground, her eyes round with embarrassed apology. Spencer saw her fully and couldnât believe it. This was the girl heâd been dreaming about.
She was beautiful. Although, he never doubted.
Itâs always stated that reality never lives up to expectations. To that, he said never say never. But really, he said, âitâs okay! Iâve read them all anyway!â
âNo, itâs not, you bought them and Iâ!â Her fingers wrapped around one of the painted covers and she paused. âI have this!â
Spencerâs eyebrows knotted together in response. She continued, âyou can have my copy!â And then her big eyes found his shirt, the white of it making a perfect canvas for the flurry of colours seeping into the fabric. âAlso I can get you a new shirt. Please?â
It felt so wrong to take from her after so long of watching her like one of the UnSubs that he would hunt. But he was weak. He couldnât pass up an opportunity to see her space close up. âFineâŚâ
Probably his best acting ever.
Nonchalance was never something he excelled at. If anything, he cared too much. Some people say thatâs impossible but he was always under the assumption that feelings could only hurt. And maybe thereâs something to that. But what had been proven to him over and over was that the unnecessarily sensitive felt pain more. Now, with this enthralling woman, he started to wonder if it was possible that they also felt the good emotions with more intensity.
The room heâd admired from afar was even brighter when he got close enough to feel the bumps in the walls from paint being layered over the years. It occurred to him that she never questioned herself for inviting a strange man into her home. Curiosity pricked him and he began pondering if he was the first. The thoughts were innocent enough. He was concerned about her safety. But then, oddly enough, he found himself wanting to know of her romantic career.
She mustâve dated. He made the leap that she was a hopeful romantic. Of course she had taken a lover at some point.
She stood on her tippy toes to reach a book from the top of her bookshelf. She brought it to him with a proud smile. The cover was dulled and the spine was cracked. It had to be one of the earlier editions.
âItâs a good one.â
His head lifts from the book to her. âHm?â
âThe Sign of the Four.â
He felt foolishâlike he was staring the sun in the face and expecting to escape unscathed.
In a flicker, she remembered the other reason he was there. âLet me find you a shirt.â
As she floated around her apartment, she held so much energy while simultaneously being as light as a feather. Her long purple dress hung down to the floor. Seamlessly, a pale blue shirt was pulled from a crowded closet. âIâm not sure who left this here and it might be a little big⌠but here!â
She held it out to him and waited expectantly. He stood like a deer faced with bright yellow headlights. âIâll, um⌠go do something else,â she muttered.
His fingers worked at the buttons on his shirt while she called from her kitchen, âdo you want tea?â
âUhâŚâ Whatâs a little longer to stay? âSure. Please.â
The fabric of the shirt lended to him overwhelmed his frame. It was far too long and he looked like a little boy playing dress up. He wondered whose shirt it was.
Before he got a chance to think it too deeplyâthank Godâshe entered the room with a ceramic mug of warm translucent liquid. The mug had a big sun on the bottom of it visible through the drink.
He watched nervously as her eyes studied the way the borrowed shirt fit him. âIâm sorry about your shirt⌠It looked nice, too. I hope I didnât ruin a work shirt.â
Her eyebrows pulled together apologetically so he really had no choice. He figured his one and only option was to soothe her worries.
âIt wasnât a work shirt.â It was. âI donât care about it⌠Really.â
Spencerâs widened eyes and the way his lips formed a thin line made her realize that maybe it was weird to him that he was in her house. After all, she didnât give him much of a choice in the matter. She grabbed his hand and pulled him along.
âIâm also sorry for bringing you here⌠I mean, weâve never seen each other before.â That was when she started to ramble. âYou met me ten minutes ago and now youâre literally five feet from my panty drawer!â Her face was red. âSorry⌠Uh, well, I donât even know your name.â
Cheeks tinged with pink lifted when he tried to suppress an awkward laugh. âSpencer,â he muttered.
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hello! i saw that your request are open soooo i want to request this fic idea, derek morgan x bau!reader where reader is kinda new to the team and doesnât really understand derekâs and penâs dynamic soooo at a girls night reader asks pen if her and derek are yk because the reader thinks heâs cute and alll of the girls find it so funny and tease her about it. idk if it would be technically be considered derek x reader but i think itâs a cute idea!!
totally understand if you are not up for it, anywaysss thanks friend!!
hiii, i had so much fun writing this so thank u for the request!! you can find this fic here!
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21 questions - d.m



in which; new!bau!reader goes out with the girls and discovers she might have a chance with derek after all.
content ; mentions of alcohol consumption, majority of the fic is set in a bar, the girls tease reader, reader is quite nervous, some very light flirting.
wc: 1.2k
a/n; this request is from like march, so i extended it for you!!
A warm orange hue lit up OâKeefeâs as you walked in, creating a welcoming atmosphere inside the sports bar. Some radios spotted around played a faint tune, quiet enough to be heard but not loud enough to disturb the thoughts running around your head. You were a bit nervous, to say the least. Okay, maybe A LOT nervous.
After youâd wrapped up the last case, there were talks about a night out as the last Friday of the month was approaching. âA team traditionâ, Penelope had called it, but after Hotch had canceled because Jack had a fever and Spencer just outright refused, the girls decided to make it a girlâs night. To get to know you, the teamâs newest addition, better.
It wasnât that you were scared of the girls, theyâd been nothing but nice to you since youâd joined, so you had no reason to be anxious around them. It was more so about the impression you wanted to make on them. Although, being a nervous wreck about it probably only left more room for you to be awkward.
Quickly, you scanned the room for any signs of the three agents, but there were none to be found. You were early. At least that gave you some time for a quiet drink to calm your nerves. Once youâd received your drink from the bartender, though, a text from Penelope came through.Â
Before youâd even had a chance to respond, the blonde haired woman herself had appeared at the bar next to you with both JJ and Emily.Â
âHiiii, oh my gosh, you look BEAUTIFUL!!â Penelope gushed, while quickly pulling you into her embrace.Â
Her enthusiasm lulled a small laugh from your lips as you returned the hug before pulling back to greet the other two women, who seemed equally as amused as you were, at Penelopeâs extremely warm greeting.Â
A few drinks deep into the night and a lot of laughs later, Emily had suggested the four of you should play 21 questions so that they could get to know you and vice versa. It was your turn to ask Penelope a set of questions, ideas floating around inside your head. With liquid courage and a lowered filter, a question that youâd been dying to know the answer to had finally slipped out given the opportunity.
âSo, like, are you and Morgan⌠you know?â
âAre me and Morgan what?â she reiterated your question back to you, all three women staring at you with confused expressions.Â
âYou knowâŚâ you gestured with your hands to see if theyâd catch on.Â
There was a moment of silence before Emily burst into laughter, the two blondes following shortly afterwards.Â
Scared that your biggest fear for the night had come true, you immediately started to over explain yourself to the trio of giggling girls.Â
âI mean, you always flirt with each other, and the whole baby girl/dark chocolate thing. I donât know, I guess I just wanted to know if I had a chance with him or not.â
Almost immediately, Penelope stopped laughing and her expression changed from gleeful to a panicked shock, while JJ and Emily remained HIGHLY amused, although less vocal about it. Her manicured hand flew to your shoulder as she rushed to reassure you.
âOh. OH, honey no, thereâs nothing going on between me and Derek in that department. You totally have a chance with him, In fact, I encourage it!!â
As her words began to register in your mind, you felt your cheeks begin to warm and your expression was identical to that of a hopeful child at the promise of ice cream. Unbeknownst to you and Garcia, Emily and JJ watched the interaction carefully, full of mirth and mischief.
After ensuring that you were okay nearly a million times, Penelope went to order another round for the four of you, leaving you alone with a suspiciously gleeful duo.
âAwhh, has newbie got a crush on our resident heartthrob Derek Morgan?â Emily asked, smirking.
âItâs like middle school all over again,â JJ added.
âItâs not a crush! I just think heâs cute, thatâs all.âÂ
In unison, the pair began to sing a song that probably haunts every 11 year old girl across America; âYou and Morgan, sittinâ in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G, first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes the baby in the baby carriage.â
Defenseless, you endured the teasing from the pair until Penelope returned and told them off for giving you a hard time, devolving into a tangent on âtrue loveâ or something and or other.Â
The night continued on as it were, conversations flowing from one topic to the next until it was certainly time to throw the towel in and start your journeys back home. While you waited outside for a cab, Penelope made her way over to you after making sure JJ actually got into Willâs car and not somebody elseâs. She seemed to be having an internal conflict about something and her face was screwing up even more with every step in your direction.Â
âGah! I really wasnât supposed to tell you this but itâs been eating at me, All. Night. And I think if I donât get it out soon, I might explode from secret keeping, even though thatâs what youâre supposed to do to be a good friend - and I am. A good friend, I mean, not exploding or whatever I just said but keeping things from people is SO hard and I-â
âPen!! Itâs okay, if itâs something top secret, I wonât tell anybody. You look stressed, so if you need to get it out, thatâs okay. You can tell me.â
âOkay, well⌠Derek also thinks that youâre cute. Which you are,â She brought a finger up to boop your nose softly before turning back to her previous panicked state, âBut you CANNOT tell him that I told you, okay?!â
âOkay, I wonât, I promise!â
âPinky promise?â
âPinky promise,â you said, before interlocking your pinky finger with hers.Â
The following day at work, any and all interactions you had with Derek elicited wiggling eyebrows and hushed giggles from JJ and Emily, each teasing gesture causing you to roll your eyes at them afterwards. Of course, none of it was going unnoticed in an office full of profilers, so later on in the day it was no surprise that he had caught on.
The pair of you were leaning back against the counter in the small kitchenette, coffee mugs in hand while stood side by side, when he finally broached the subject.Â
âSo, uh, are you gonna tell me whatâs going on with all those wigglin' brows and giggles?â His lips turned up into a smirk.
âOh, that. Well, uh⌠thatâs just JJ and Emily for you.â
âUh, uh, uh, I know those two and this isnât how they act. Come on mama, throw me a bone here.â
âUhm⌠I may or may not have drunkenly confessed that I found you attractiveâŚ?âÂ
The inflection of your words went up at the end, almost as if you were asking him a question in response. The hand that was wrapped around your coffee cup tightened their grip as you waited for a response.Â
âOh, do you now, sweetheart?â
Before you could answer his rhetorical (although you didnât quite realise) question, he moved to stand in front of you and leaned towards you to whisper in your ear, âThe feelings mutual.â Then he walked away, leaving you alone in the kitchenette, smiling ear to ear like a mad man.Â
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the way this series has me so hooked needs to be studied im actually gonna go insane

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đđ¨đ§đđđ§đđŹ/đđ°: spencer reid x podcast host female!reader, criminal minds typical violence, case details, mention of sexual violence, abduction, addiction, and drug use, season 2 bau team đ°đ¨đŤđđŹ: 9.7k đ/đ§: lemme know if you want to be added to the taglist! $orry for the longer break before posting the last part. (final part â august 10)
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âThat belonged to Maggie,â you said. âMaggie Baker.â
Charlie didnât move. The ticking of the clock in your room became unbearably loud, deafening even, yet neither of you could bring yourselves to speak and drown it out. He wasnât blinking eitherâhis eyes, for the first time in months, looked alive, wide open instead of half-lidded and fogged by sleep.
You looked back down at the little bunny. You remembered that same keychain clipped to Maggieâs backpack when she came over for tutoring sessions and set it on your desk while she pulled out her notebooks and school notes. You remembered it clearly, because when you complimented the cute plushie, she said it was made by her grandma.
"I..." Charlie began, his voice hoarse, the words barely understandable. "I... I found it."
You locked eyes with him again, a tight pressure forming in your chest, like something heavy had rolled straight over it.
"You found it," you repeated hollowly.
You remembered how, just earlier that day, youâd tried to reach into his pocket, convinced youâd find drugs. And how he had thrown you the pill bottleâhow he had preferred to admit to being an addict rather than owning up to carrying that specific item.
No wonder, when it had belonged to a victim of a serial killer. A killer whose identity remained unknown.
"You found it and carried it with you all this time," you said. A while ago, you'd taken a deep, full breath and you were still speaking on that same air, not daring to inhale again, your voice quiet and razor-sharp. "You think I'm that stupid? That belonged to Maggie, and even if you didnât know that, the last thing youâd carry around in your pocket for months would be a little plush bunny. You wouldnât be rubbing it between your fingers like a fucking rosary."
Charlie stepped toward you. You immediately stepped back, clutching the keychain tighter. You couldnât tear your gaze away from the man in front of you, whose features were suddenly beginning to blur, like you didnât recognize him anymore. Like it wasnât your friend who had walked out of that bathroom, but someone else entirely.
"You ran. That day we checked out that station together. You didnât go inside because you couldnât, you panicked completely. And then when you saw the cops, you ran." You began listing, while he slowly shook his head, side to side, the movement growing quicker and quicker. His eyes were shining with something manic. Then another detail came to you and your whole body tensed, your mouth opened wide. "And the next day you asked me if I saw a chair at the crime scene. And I asked, what chair? Because there wasnât one. It had already been removed before I got there. But it had been there for a while. Investigators confirmed the victims were killed right at that spot. So how did you know about the chair?"
âDonât,â Charlie choked out. âDonât play detective right now, you really donât know anythingââ
"I know enough," you cut him off.
You couldâve gone onâbrought up his panic attack when Mr. Benson mentioned Maggie in the store. But that didnât matter anymore. Maybe the full truth wasnât stretched out in front of you in all its clarity, but the feeling in your gut and the fear, the fear of being found out written all over his face were enough.
Enough to know you couldnât stay alone with him in that tiny room a moment longer.
You didnât bolt, but you moved toward the doorâand he moved after you immediately. Thatâs when it truly hit you.
Maybe you should have bolted from the start.
As you reached the door, so did his hand, slamming it shut the second it cracked open. Your forward momentum collided with the wood just as his chest collided with your back. Pressed against it, you hissed in pain and tried to push yourself away just enough to grab the handle again, not an easy task with someone literally clinging to your back, trying to pull you away.
âNo, wait, please,â Charlie begged, reaching around your elbow to block your grip on the handle. You could feel the adrenaline and fear coursing through him, overpowering you. You wondered who else he had overpowered like this. You groaned, from panic and pain. âYou canât do this to me, you canât tell anyoneâyou said youâd help meââ
âBecause I didnât know you were a murderer!â
Saying it out loud somehow gave you enough strength to drive your elbow into him hard enough for him to stumble back. You managed to get the door open just enough to slip through, but couldnât shut it. Charlie rushed after you with clenched jaw and that determined look in his eyes that made you truly afraid. You sprinted down the upstairs hallway toward the stairs. He grabbed your arm more than once, still shouting some desperate pleas, but your sympathy had vanished, replaced entirely by survival instinct.
Jumping down two steps at a time, all you wanted was to get out of the house, somehow put distance between you and him so you could call the police. But your foot missed a step, and you slipped. You went flying sideways, landing on your left forearm, which exploded with a searing wave of pain.
âHey, whatâs going on here?â a male voice sounded in front of you.
Still lying on the floor, you lifted your head enough to see someoneâs shoes. But it only took the voice and those shoes to recognize Danny. A breath of pure relief escaped your lips.
âHeâs the one whoâs killing the women,â you managed to say, as loud as your screaming arm would let you.
Actually, the next few hours were a complete blur. What stood out most clearly in them was Danny.
Danny, who managed to hold Charlie until the police arrived and who kept up his role by taking you to the hospital, where it turned out your arm was broken and you were, understandably, in a fair amount of shock.
Because, well â it wasnât every day that someone youâd considered a friend turned out to be possibly involved in the murders haunting your town.
Well. Actually responsible for them.
It still hadnât sunk in. Especially now, when the adrenaline had worn off and your logical thinking started to kick back in. Suddenly, you had so many doubts, but you werenât sure if you should trust them, maybe it was just that part of you that didnât want to believe youâd spent so much time with someone capable of so much.
Spent time with him. Trusted him, to some degree.
Everything felt so unreal. Sitting on the hospital bed with your arm freshly wrapped in a cast, for a moment you had trouble remembering how it even got there. Or what had happened to you. Only focusing on its weight helped ground you in the situation you were in. It hurt, but you had to stay present.
Danny and your mom â who had arrived at the hospital just before they put the cast on â had both stepped out of the room. Youâd had to reassure them maybe twenty times that it was okay to leave you alone for a moment, whether it was to go to the bathroom or grab something from the vending machine, before they finally did, both clearly feeling guilty about it.
Anyway, they left like two minutes ago at most, and youâd already sunk into your thoughts and flinched in surprise when you sensed someoneâs presence by your side. You stared with wide eyes at Reidâs face, his slightly soaked clothes, wet hair, and a few droplets on his glasses, suggesting it had been raining outside.
âOh, Iâm so glad youâre here,â slipped out instead of a greeting.
His eyebrows lifted in genuine, yet somehow warm, surprise.
âReally?â he asked.
You nodded eagerly, pulling your back away from the headboard.
âYes, youâll be able to tell me whatâs going on with Charlie. Did you question him? Itâs been, like...I donât remember how long Iâve been here, but you must have. What did he say? Do you think itâs really him?â you bombarded him with frantic questions.
You completely missed that subtle shift in his expression, The earlier warmth fading as he gave a small nod to himself, as if lost in thought. But then his attention was back on you, and at your questions, he gave you an apologetic look.
âYou know I canât tell you anything.â
âBut heâs my friend! I mean, you know, he was for such a long time. And I⌠I was the one who discovered it, now I just want to know if I was right,â you explained, looking into his eyes with a pleading gaze. Reid slightly pushed out his lower lip. You thought you might have had some effect on him, but not enough for him to reveal anything. âPlease. Just between us. Was it really CharlieâŚthis whole time?â
He held your gaze for a moment longer, visible hesitation on his face, then sighed softly and reached into the pocket of his blazer for a glasses cloth. He removed his glasses and began to wipe the lenses, still silent, still not answering, his expression unreadable and his brow slightly furrowed. Finally, he looked back up at you, lips pressed into a thin, apologetic line.
âHow are you feeling?â he asked gently.
You stayed quiet for a moment; the shift in subject drew a disappointed, discontented scoff from you. You leaned back against the bed again, shifting your arm in its cast.
 âAbsolutely wonderful. First, I find out my friend is a drug addict, then probably also a serial killer, and then I break my arm trying to run away from him. Oh, and now no one wants to tell me anything about him.â
 âI understand the frustration,â Reid said with a kind of emphasis, ignoring your immediate eye-roll. âBut nothingâs certain at this point. Charlieâs still being questioned, and I...I donât want to tell you something that will make you feel worse, only for it to turn out to be untrue. And we canât forget that, technically, Iâm not supposed to be telling you anything at all.â
If his decision had been driven by empathy, you couldnât feel it at all. What truly made you feel worse was the lack of knowledge. So you clenched your jaw, avoiding his gaze.
âThen why are you even here?â you asked.
Reid stayed silent for a moment, and when you finally looked back at him, you noticed his brows had drawn together in confusion.
âTo check if youâre alrightâŚ?â he said, his tone uncertain, like he was guessing the answer to a riddle.
âWas it an order?â
âWhat? Do you really think I wouldnât have come if it werenât an order? Iâ I just, you know, got worried,â he blurted out a little chaotically, his brown eyes focused on you with a sincere expression, resisting the urge to blink as if that might disrupt him. Before you could say anything, he glanced to the side and added, âYour parents are coming. Iâll leave you with them, but⌠you can call me if you feel like you need to. I hope your arm heals quickly.â
Reid gave you a fleeting, parting smile before, true to his word, he left. By your parents as he had called them, he of course meant Danny and your mom. What surprised you most was how you hadnât even flinched at the term. How it didnât sit wrong with you or spark any discomfort. Your gaze lingered a moment longer on the retreating agent, your mind still turning over his words, until you were gently forced to shift your attention to a cup being handed your way.
âTea for you, and a snack bar. You should eat something while we wait for the discharge papers,â your mom said. Her tone was stiff, but her eyes were filled with concern and fear. She had warned you before that digging into the case might draw the killerâs attention. And yet, it turned out that doing nothing might have still put you not exactly in his crosshairs, but uncomfortably close.
You knew they were holding back from talking about Charlie while still in the hospitalâeverything was too fresh, too unclear. You took the snack bar from her with your good hand. She was still holding the tea for you. Your eyes dropped to the wrapper.
âOh, wait, Iâll do it,â Danny offered, taking it from you and opening it.
You looked up at him, the faint smile on your lips touched with the sadness of the entire day, yet still breaking through was a deep gratitude. Who knew what mightâve happened if he hadnât shown up at your house at that exact moment, just to pick up the tiles for the bathroom floor in their lake cabin.
âThank you, Danny,â you said with a sincere nod. âThank you for everything.â
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All night long, raindrops pounded loudly against your window, and every so often, a flash of lightning lit up the sky, but it wasnât the storm that kept you from sleeping.
It was that room. The one where you'd been talking before you started to run, before he came after you. The door you both crashed into. The bed where Maggieâs stuffed toy had fallen. The desk where his pills still sat.
That small plush Maggie had gotten from her grandmother.
Murder itself is hard enough to grasp, but what you couldnât understand at all was why he had taken that from her. Sure, criminology had plenty to say about serial killers and their tendency to collect trophies. Items belonging to their victims, or even parts of them. It was about asserting control, treating it as proof of their success. But that specific bunny keychain was nothing if not a symbol of Maggieâs humanity, her gentleness, her youth.
You couldnât understand how he had carried it with him for months after killing her, looked at it, and each time remembered the life he took.
Your stomach twisted every time the thought came back to you. The avalanche of thoughts didnât stop, ticking forward like the hand of a clock counting down to morning.
Did Charlie even know Maggie? You hadnât been friends with him before you started working together, so you couldnât be sure. She was younger than both of you, only a little older than his younger brother, Conrad You knew you should look into it if you wanted to keep recording podcasts about the case, but you just couldnât bring yourself to do it. Talk to his family? His friends? Technically, you were one of them too, were you supposed to interview yourself? What could you even say about Charlie, list off his suspicious behavior? You werenât even sure he was guilty, maybe you didnât want to be. Just one question kept echoing in your mind.
Why her?
A stupid question. You might as well have asked why all the other women.
But for some reason, it was Maggie who stayed with you that night. Maybe because of the bunny. Proof that had literally been found in his pocket. Undeniable.
The day before, youâd known what you were going to face the next morning. Then again, perhaps you had been slightly surprised. You had expected the whole team of profilersâ not just three of them standing at your doorstep. Maybe you had overestimated your role as a witness. It was Elle, a blonde woman named JJ, whom you hadnât yet had a chance to speak to, and, over their shoulders, Reid, towering above them.
âHi. Howâs your arm?â the blonde woman asked gently, very gently.
You knew what this conversation was going to be about, so any kind of small talk felt redundant. You just wanted to get to the point and learn something. She must have seen it in your expression, so she hadnât intended to drag the pleasantries out forever either. They wanted to move the investigation along. So she nodded slightly, understanding. âWeâd like to talk to you.â
 âI figured,â you muttered.
You were completely alone in the house. Your mom had insisted on staying, but you convinced her it wasnât necessary. Truthfully, you needed the time to yourself. You were also sure sheâd be sending you text messages checking in regularly, and that at some point Danny would show up for some completely random item that would just be an excuse to check how you were doing.
Of course, you let them all in. The two women stepped across the threshold first, followed by Reid, who slowed down for a fraction of a second just before you. You hadnât taken him up on his offer and called, though you had seriously considered it at one point. When you couldnât sleep for what felt like hours and your fingers somehow curled around your phone, but you pushed the impulse down. It was the middle of the night. You were certain his offer hadnât included the middle of the night. You passed each other in the doorway, and you had the feeling he might have seen the dilemma in your eyesâthe one youâd faced only a few hours earlier.
But you couldnât read what was in his gaze aside from a greeting. You had to turn your attention to the others and brace yourself for the conversation ahead.
"I know you want to talk about Charlie," you began before any of them had a chance to speak. "And what happened yesterday."
 Elle drew in a shallow breath and nodded.
 "Among other things, yes, but weâve more or less heard about that from the officers you spoke to yesterday. The ones who were first on the scene. We also have a few additional questions, and itâs completely normal if you donât want Agent Reid to be present for this conversation. He can always step out, if thatâs what you prefer."
 Your eyebrows lifted in genuine confusion. You shook your head slightly from side to side.
 "What? Why? He can stay."
 "Maybe we should all sit down," JJ suggested.
You were in the living room, arranged for receiving guests and ready to be turned into a very practical yet cozy interview room. You took a seat in the red armchair with the high backrest, the kind you could sink into. They settled on the matching sofa, lined up like three ducklings in a row.
âSo weâre most interested in learning about Charlieâs behavior lately. Since Maggie Bakerâs disappearance,â JJ began.
 âSince Maggieâs disappearance?â you caught on suspiciously. âNot since the discovery of the first body?â
 âWeâre more focused on how he changed after Maggie went missing.â
You watched them closely. You knew they were professionals, and there had to be a very logical reason and explanation behind it. But you couldnât figure it out while also reaching back in your memory.
You took a breath. You wouldnât have mentioned it if you were certain Charlie hadnât hurt anyone. But you werenât.
âI know he was using drugs,â you said cautiously, swallowing hard. Elle narrowed her eyes slightly. âI canât say for sure how long itâs been going on, but something strange started happening with him a while ago. After Maggie disappeared.â
âDo you know what kind of drugs?â
Here, you hesitated carefully, but then remembered theyâd literally caught you at the crime scene a week ago, and if that didnât land you behind bars, possession probably wouldnât either.
âI took them from him and hid them in a drawer in my desk. I can go get themââ
"Spencer, could you?" JJ turned to the man sitting beside her, whose eyebrows lifted in surprise at the assignment.
He quickly looked at you.
 "Is that a problem...?"
"My roomâs upstairs," you said, the corner of your mouth twitching involuntarily. He was really asking you for permission to do his job.
None of the women spoke again until the sound of his Converse on the stairs faded. Only then did JJ lean toward you over her knees, already armed with another question.
"Did Charlie know Maggie personally? And if not, can you think of any circumstances where they might have crossed paths, gotten to know each other, or even just been in the same space? We know she volunteered at the shelter, maybe thereâ"
"No," you cut in, confidently. "No, he totally didnât go to places like that, but... itâs a small town. Itâs not hard to bump into someone or be around them. They definitely knew each other by sight, like everyone does here."
"How long have you two known each other?" Elle asked this time.
"Well, we went to school together here, but really⌠about a year. Since we started working together. He used to help me a lot with the podcasts."
"Has he ever acted in a way that made you feel uncomfortable?" The question was spoken slower, more gently. "If not toward you directly, then maybe something he said or did in front of other women? Can you think of anything like that?"
Your forehead wrinkled completely as you shook your head no even before truly thinking about it.
"No, never, no."
"Did he often react to things aggressively, was he impulsive?"
"No," you repeated. Both womenâs eyes were watchful. You felt like they didnât believe you, or thought you were hiding the truth, either from them or from yourself, or maybe trying to protect your friend. You shook your head more firmly, reinforcing your words. "No, really. Ever since he started using, it was the opposite, mostly apathetic. He barely talked."
"But he did act aggressively at times," Spencer's voice suddenly cut in.
All of you turned your heads toward himâhe was standing on the last step of the stairs, pausing there just long enough to say it. Then, eyes fixed on you, he walked closer.
"When I was at your shop and he didnât seem to be in a good mood, he sharply asked if I was buying anything..."
"Thatâs because we had just had a fight," you clarified. "It was more directed at me than at you."
Elle looked at Reid with a thoughtful expression, then slowly shifted her gaze to you.
"So, he did act aggressively at times."
You shot him a visibly frustrated lookâone he didnât hesitate to return. You drew in a breath and slowly let it out, reminding yourself that, from his perspective, it probably did look that way and he wasnât lying. Even though you were doing everything in your power to stay objectiveâafter all, you wanted this case solved tooâsomehow, subconsciously, you were trying to defend Charlie.
Or maybe you were just trying to give him the fairness that everyone, even the worst kind of monster, deserved.
âI need some air,â you announced, wiping your hand nervously against your pants.
Elle and JJ exchanged glances, but it wasnât a request, you simply got up and headed for the door, accidentally bumping your arm in a sling against the frame. The world spun. You stopped for a moment, clenching your eyes shut and waiting out the wave of pain without so much as a sound. Only then did you step outside.
It had rained the night before, and the clouds still held a soft gray hue, covering the sun.
You had meant it. You really did need some air. You felt lighter the moment the autumn breeze hit your cheeks. You had planned to walk around the house and sit in the garden on one of the chairs, but you gave up on the idea.
Youâd have to go back inside soon anyway, and honestly, you didnât care anymore. So you simply sat down on the grass under the living room window, on the front side of the house. Right next to a garden gnome figurine riding a goose.
The grass, of course, was damp, instantly soaking through your pants. Oh well. In a way, it was refreshing.
You hadnât been keeping track of time, not really paying attention to anything other than the chaos in your own head. At some point, a figure loomed over you, and even without looking up, you knew exactly who it was.
"I see youâve made a new friend," Reid began.
You looked up at him, lifting your chin. There was a small, worried smile playing on his lips. You glanced sideways at the garden gnome to understand what he meant and found yourself smiling too, despite everything.
âWell, my last one is currently in custody, so I had to find a replacement,â you muttered, pulling your knees to your chest and hugging them with your good arm. âItâs just a coping mechanism. The joke. I donât actually think itâs funny,â you clarified.
âYeah, I figured,â Reid nodded.
He sat down on the grass as well.
âItâsââ you tried to warn him.
âWet,â he finished, his eyes closed behind his glasses.
âYou came here to make sure I donât jump the hedge and run away from the interview?â
âI mainly came to talk. Which doesnât exclude keeping an eye on you so you donât jump the hedge and run away. Though that wouldnât really make sense in your current position, youâre not our suspect.â
âI know Iâm not. But the questions you were asking meâŚâ You shrugged, simply showing that you hadnât quite expected them. Then you bit the inside of your cheek, glancing at him from the corner of your eye, probing, pleading. âYou suspect Charlie. Otherwise you wouldnât be keeping him in custody, and that makes sense, because you have every reason to suspect him. After yesterday. But you donât actually think itâs him, right? The Executioner.â
Reid parted his lips, clearly searching for some middle ground, an evasive answer. You raised a finger in front of his face, stopping him from speaking. âJust say yes or no. I have the right to know, donât you think?â
He sighed, staring straight ahead. The street in your neighborhood looked deserted, like something out of an apocalyptic movie, their black SUV the only car parked in the driveway.
âWe donât believe heâs the Executioner,â he said finally, quickly adding, âWhich doesnât mean we think heâs innocent.â
âI figured,â you nodded. When you stepped outside and went over the questions those two women had asked you, it had all started to come together. You swallowed hard. âYou think⌠you think Charlie killed Maggie.â
"Well..."
"Just say yes or no," you asked.
 "Yes."
You didnât gasp in horror, didnât even move. You had asked him for a simple answer so you could accept it. Raw, unvarnished truth, without speculation or cushioning. You looked away. For a moment, the two of you just sat there in silence. You forced yourself to picture Charlie as a faceless perpetrator, the kind whose name the public never learns, just a blur of crime scene photos and news reports. A stranger.
"But Maggie was killed the same way as the other victims," you noted. You knew the case inside there was no way you could have missed it.
Reid shifted slightly in his seat. You could see the conflict on his face, whether he should be telling you any of this. Technically, he shouldnât. But in practice, you were already more entangled in the investigation than you were ever meant to be. And beyond that, you werenât just a witness anymore, or just someone who happened to live in a town haunted by murders.
He knew you by now. Enough, maybe, to trust you.
For a brief moment, he pressed his lips together more tightly, carefully choosing his words.
âYouâre probably aware that there are certain details about a crime. The crime scene, the motiveâŚthat the police keep strictly to themselves,â he began.
You nodded to show you were following.
âTo avoid situations where someone confesses to a crime they didnât commit.â
âYes, exactly. And in this case, with this whole investigation, our ace up the sleeve was the fact that Maggieâs murder was different from the others.â
Though Spencer was speaking in a calm, matter-of-fact tone, it felt like you were listening to a slowed-down podcast episode and couldnât speed it up no matter how hard you tried. Without taking his eyes off you, he finished, âThe later autopsy led us to believe that she didnât die from electrocution like the others. It was done to her after she had already died from another cause.â
Your brain was both racing and completely blank at the same time. You blinked slowly. A breath.
âSo, if I understand correctly, you think Maggieâs killer staged it to make it look like the Executionerâs work. So no one would connect it to him.â
Reid didnât nod, but the confirmation was in his eyes.
You parted your lips, but didnât speak just yet. Only let out a sigh. Thinking of it as the work of some nameless perpetrator had helped at first, but in the end, everything led back to Charlie.
âWhy would he do that? Why would he kill Maggie specifically?â
Reid looked at you in silence, as if asking whether you really wanted to know.
Your face was tense, unyielding. He had to tell you.
âThe autopsy also showed that Maggie was the only victim who was sexually assaulted before she died.â
Surprisingly, the fact didnât shock you all that much. It was tragicâof course it wasâand you felt for Maggie with all your heart. But at the same time, it made far too much sense in light of the questions Elle and JJ had been asking you. Had he ever made you feel uncomfortable.
Once again, you tore your eyes away from your interlocutor, fixing them instead on your legs in front of you, which now seemed like they belonged to someone entirely different, someone foreign. You bit into the inside of your cheek, hard.
You pictured the plush toy that had fallen out of Charlieâs pocket. Youâd had mixed feelings from the beginning about whether he couldâve been behind all of this. But taking into account the version Reid had just presented to youâŚ
You pressed your healthy hand to your eyes, feeling the pounding in your head.Â
At some point, you felt a faint touch on your shoulder. Surprised, you lifted your eyelids and glanced to the side, seeing his hand on your shoulderâresting there lightly, barely noticeable. You swallowed.
âYou think I really wouldnât have noticed?â
That my best friend was a rapist and a murderer?
You surrounded yourself with criminal cases, always felt certain that youâd notice if something bad was happening around you. You thought of yourself as smart, observant. But really, you were just plain blind.
âItâs always like that,â Spencer assured you softly. âParents donât know their child is killing, a wife doesnât know what her husband keeps in the basement. But no one blames them for not knowing, no one wants to suspect someone close to them isâŚâ
âA monster,â you finished automatically.
Reid only nodded.
You rubbed your eyes again. Looked like the headache wasnât going to leave you that day. But despite his presence, you knew what you had to do.
âI think we have to go back,â you said.
He pulled his hand from your shoulder abruptly, as if only just now realizing it had still been there.
âYeah. Youâre right. We probably should.â
He got to his feet first, offering you his hand, since standing up with a broken arm was surprisingly hard. You took it with a grateful, somber smile that quickly faded.
You took two steps before letting go of him, your arm falling stiffly to your side. Reid shoved his into the pocket of his gray blazer. Neither of you commented on the fact that both your pants were completely soaked, but somehow it seemed to ease the crushing weight of the atmosphere just a little.
The rest of the conversation with the women went much more smoothly once you knew what kind of information they were looking for and what theories and conclusions they were leaning toward in general. When their SUV pulled out of the driveway and you closed the door behind them, you waited exactly three seconds before bolting up the stairs.
Your podcast and blog had been dead for a while. You hadnât been able to bring yourself to talk about a case that had become so personal to you, but after the conversation in the garden, you decided you werenât going to stay silent anymore just because your friend had ended up among the suspects.
You talked about every update in the Executioner case you could find, distancing yourself from it as much as you possibly could. You were an objective podcaster digging into the smallest details and hidden informationânot a resident of the very town in question, whose voice trembled when she said the name of the victim she used to tutor.
The one who had died at the hands of your friend.
You set your laptop aside and lay down on your back on the bed. Youâd been so absorbed in working on the podcast that you hadnât noticed the day passing by outside the window, the darkness settling in.
Only then did you realize your mom had sent you a few worried messages asking how you were feeling. You replied that you were fine.
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Charlie remained in custody for another two days. Officially, no one knew his stance on the case, but from a phone call with Reid (one of several), you learned that he stayed silent. He didnât deny anything, didnât defend himselfâhe simply refused to say anything.
Speaking of your conversations with a certain familiar profiler, they usually took place at night. You couldnât sleep. Every time you closed your eyes and your mind went quiet, an impulse told you to reach for your laptop and scroll through forum threads or even the comment section under your podcast.
People were sharing their thoughts on the arrest of the suspect allegedly connected to the case, murders in Fairview, which were gaining more and more media attention.
As usual, various made-up theories surfaced. For example, Charlie was a real nutcase and apparently once breaded his sisterâs cat.
Charlie was allergic to cats and didnât have a sister.
The morning was quiet. Youâd maybe gotten three hours of sleep, and you were up before your alarm even went off, feeling like you hadnât slept at all. Getting dressed was a struggle with one arm still in a sling, but you managed. You had to drag yourself out early that day to drop off a few documents at work related to your medical leave. Your boss was in a rough spot, suddenly losing two employees like that, but what could any of you do?
Brushing your teeth in the upstairs bathroom, you stared at the phone resting on the edge of the sink. Youâd sent Reid a link to the cat-buttering theory. The day before, heâd forwarded you a horribly written article about the case in general, criticizing its factual inaccuracies and comparing it to your podcast. It made you feel a bit better about the last episode you published.
With your nose buried in your phone and still waiting for a reply from Reid, you walked down the stairs, making your way through the house youâd lived in since childhood without even looking around. You just wanted to grab something from the fridge that required the least possible amount of preparationâŚ
âOh shit, sorry,â slipped out of you when you ran straight into your mom and Danny.
Making out in the middle of the kitchen like a pair of horny teenagers.
You froze in place, feeling like a parent who had walked in at the worst possible moment. But it wasnât just the fact that two adults were engaging in perfectly normal human behavior that hit you (or them, as they pulled apart, clearly embarrassed). It was more the fact that, even though theyâd been friends for quite a while, and had worked together for just as longâand Danny, especially recently, had become someone close and important to you tooâthey had never officially dated.
"Good morning, sweetheart," your mom blurted out, stepping two paces away from the man and leaning her elbow on the kitchen island in the most awkward way possible, only to quickly lift it again, as if realizing exactly how awkward it was.
Danny, upon seeing you, briefly wiped his face, brushing against the three-day stubble on his chin, and looked at you nervously, as if guilty. You were tempted to say, chill, dude. Sure, they had caught you off guard â you werenât denying that â but you werenât the kind of daughter who made a scene over her parentsâ new partners for no reason. Especially not when that partner was Danny.
You remembered how both of them were there for you at the hospital after you broke your arm, and you thought your mom honestly couldnât have done better.
âI just dropped by to... I left my level here,â he explained.
You snorted a laugh and turned to the fridge, like youâd meant to from the start. With a mozzarella string in your mouth, you looked back at them, eyes glittering with dry amusement.
âYou do realize youâre making it more awkward by acting like I didnât just see all of that?â
That light, teasing edge in your voice made your momâs shoulders visibly relax. She gave you a half-smile. âDonât get cocky. And for the record, he really did come for the level.â
 âAnd was looking for it in your mouth?â you mumbled under your breath, trying to open a juice bottle with one hand.
 âIâll help,â Danny offered immediately.
Behind his back, your mom shot you a murderous look for your earlier comment, and you responded with an innocent smile. You glanced at your phone, just checking to see if youâd gotten any messages.
âDo you want me to drive you to work?â your mom asked as you were already holding a glass of juice, and Danny had just been met with a grateful look.
You were about to say it wasnât necessary and that youâd drive yourself, when suddenly you remembered. Your arm. Right. Considering how much it had hurt when you broke it, it was surprisingly easy to forget about it.
"I could just take her on my way," Danny spoke up.
Even just his eyes told you it was more than a friendly offer, iit felt more like a personal duty. With everything that had happened lately. Your neighbor Keasyâs disappearance, your injured hand, not knowing whether the killer was still out there or not, neither he nor your mom would let you take public transport, let alone walk.
âOh, that would be so sweet of you, Dan.â
âItâs nothing, really. Just let me actually find that level firstâŚâ
He tossed you the keys to his red pickup so you could get inside while he took a quick look in your garage.
You climbed into the truck parked in your driveway, your attention mostly on your phone â on the comments under some random article titled Whatâs New in the Fairview Murders? KILLER CAUGHT?, and once again checking to see if Reid had replied.
Which was stupid, really, since it was morning and he, like the rest of the team, was probably buried in work.
It wouldâve made more sense, that impatience, if youâd actually asked him something urgent.
But maybe you just liked whatever this was between the two of you. Maybe it filled a space you hadnât even known was there. Lately, most of your life revolved around the case. Details you couldnât talk about with your mom or Danny, both disapproving of your need to dig into all of it, and obviously not with Charlie either, for obvious reasons.
Youâd ended up a little isolated in all of this. Plus, you two just really got along.
You were pulled out of your thoughts by the sound of the pickupâs back door opening. Danny tossed in the level he'd mentioned more than once, along with a coil of copper wire. Ever since he'd started helping your mom renovate the lake cabin, heâd been stopping by for increasingly weirder things.
He buckled his seatbelt and started driving through your neighborhood, sneaking glances at you from the corner of his eye. He sighed.
âYou know, I really feel like I should ask you this,â he said after a moment. You were passing a group of teens on their way to school, walking in a tight cluster. Thatâs how it had looked in town ever since they found Maggieâs body. Sheâd been in high school too.
You only then realized Danny had said something to you. You looked at him, confused. Just hearing Maggieâs name always pulled you into that state. The snowball effect, one thought leading to another until you landed on Charlie, and the BAUâs suspicionsâŚand your own.
âDoâŚdo you feel okay about me and your momâŚyou know, dating?â
You were speechless for a second, then let out a small involuntary snort.
 âYouâre asking for my permission now?â
âWell⌠itâd be weird to phrase it like that, but kind of? I know sheâs been alone since your dadââ he made a vague gesture with his hand, letting the silence speak for itself. âAnd this might be a whole new situation for you. I just want to know where you stand on it.â
Turning off your phone and setting it down on your lap, you looked at him seriously.
 âYouâre both adults. And single. My opinion really shouldnât stand in the way of⌠whatever. But if you really want to knowâŚDanny, you know I like you. Iâm actually rooting for you two, seriously.â
He took his eyes off the road for a moment to look at you, and something warm and grateful flickered in his gaze. You offered a faint smile to show you truly meant it, already starting to lower your eyes back to your phone, only to accidentally bump it against something. A photograph of a woman, pinned to the dashboard. Somehow, you'd only just noticed it now.
"I think I recognize her," you blurted out, almost involuntarily.
The man shifted his gaze toward you, his eyes unreadable. The presence of the photo didnât surprise you. Everyone in town knew Danny had once had a wife who had passed away. It looked like a school yearbook photo; the woman appeared young, with a wide smile and curled blond hair. Her features were fairly ordinary, but you couldnât shake the feeling that youâd seen her somewhere before.
You met his eyes and, embarrassed, pressed your lips together. You had just been talking about his new relationship, and now here you were, bringing up his late wifeâŚ
âYeah, thatâs possible,â Danny replied with a slight nod, distant somehow. You couldnât blame him for tensing up a little, it made sense, talking about this. âYou were about five when she passed. Maybe you managed to remember her somehow.â
âMaybe,â you murmured, thoughtful. You tried to push your memory. If you remembered her from childhood, surely there had to be one specific memory tied to her, right? âSorry. Maybe I shouldnât have asked.â
âNo, no, thatâs okay,â he reassured you. He had already parked in front of the store, but because of the direction the conversation had taken, you held off on getting out. âYou know, cancer took her over fifteen years ago. Iâll always miss her, but itâs not⌠you know, an open wound anymore.â
âCancer,â you repeated, genuine sympathy in your voice. âI didnât know. I realize itâs a bit late for this, but⌠my condolences.â
Your words seemed to amuse him. His whole face lit up ever so slightly, the corners of his mouth creasing with a faint smile. âSorry, itâs kind of funny. I was actually planning to stop by the cemetery, and here you are, offering condolences.â
You gave a slight, somewhat forced smile, unsure how to respond. You didnât feel entirely at ease in the conversation, or particularly comfortable. You were just about to thank him for the ride and politely excuse yourself when he added, âWould you maybe like to go there with me?â
Your hand froze mid-motion.
âTo the cemetery? Now?â you repeated blankly.
To visit his late wife? It wasâŚodd, probably, but you werenât sure if it was appropriate to say no in a moment like that. Thankfully, you had an excuse. You let out a vaguely apologetic sigh and lifted the documents you were supposed to deliver at work.
 âSorry, itâs kind of important.â
"It won't take long," he pointed out. "I'll wait for you, weâll go together, and then Iâll drive you home. How else would you get back?"
You were speechless for a moment, your mind blank. Danny was watching you expectantly, maybe even a bit insistently. You opened your mouth to casually decline the offer, but something stopped you. A flicker of hesitation, a strange uncertainty about why you didnât want to go. Was it just because it felt⌠odd? Visiting the grave of someoneâs wife, especially someone you considered a kind of older friend, wasnât inherently unusual. Maybe it just caught you off guard. Maybe there was something in the way he asked, in that unfamiliar look in his eyes, that sparked a strange discomfort in your stomach.
You shook your head slightly, forcing a smile.
 âI was gonna go grab some groceries, and my momâs supposed to meet me there. We were gonna head back together,â you explained.
 It wasnât even true, but the moment the excuse popped into your head, you decided to commit to it. There was no real reason to lie to Danny. This was Danny. Your momâs longtime friend, someone youâd always felt you could trust. You hated lying to him, especially as you watched him nod with understanding.
 âBut maybe another time,â you added more brightly. âWe could go with my mom too, if thatâs okay with you.â
Danny stared ahead for a moment, one hand resting on the steering wheel, the flannel sleeve of his shirt slipping back just enough to show a broad, dark-haired forearm. Then he glanced at you again, lips smiling, but his eyes didnât quite follow. Or maybe you only imagined that. âSure. Didnât mean to push.â
The car suddenly felt too quiet. You gave your head a small shake, trying to shrug off the weird feeling as the moment to get out arrived. You finally reached for the door handle.
âThanks so much for the ride, Danny.â
âNo problem. See you around.â
You walked into the store and, out of some strange curiosityâan urge to knowâyou discreetly glanced outside to see whether his car at the intersection turned toward the cemetery. It had. You scoffed at yourself, not knowing where this sudden suspicion was coming from. Maybe the whole situation with Charlie had made you overly sensitive. Not everyone was who they said they were.
Everything went according to plan, and after a moment you stepped back outside, calling your mom to meet up in town. She wasnât answering for now, so you walked slowly with your phone pressed to your cheek. Fairview was shockingly empty that day, the sidewalk covered in light orange leaves, the day bright and sunny. It was morning. Most kids were in their first or second period at school. For obvious reasons, police cars had been crossing through town even more often lately, and the watchful eye of law enforcement made people more likely to stay at home, if they could.
It was, then, unsettlingly quiet, and the sound behind you reached your ears far more clearly, enough to make you flinch slightly on the spot. You turned around to see a boy on a bike. He was right behind you, and you barely managed to jump aside before he could hit you. As he passed, he turned his head to look at you. You were about to yell at him, but then he turned fully, and you recognized him. Conrad. Charlieâs younger brother.
That alone was enough to shut you up.
âAre you there?â your momâs voice came through the phone like through a barrier. âHoney?â
 âYeah. Yes, Iâm here,â you said quickly.
You kept your eyes fixed on Conrad. He was supposed to be in school. Of course he wasnât. As Charlieâs brother, he was a suspect in the murders. Or rather, in one murder and a rape, but only you and the police knew that part.
Of course he wasnât going to school because of all that.
You sighed and turned your attention back to the call with your mom.
*
"It's really nothing. I'm just glad I could help in some small way. I can't even imagine what you're going through."
With the bag in hand, you stepped into your neighbor Elenaâs house. You knew where the kitchen was, so you headed there, intending to put the groceries away. You wanted to take as much off her plate as you possibly could.Her daughter Keasy had gone missing a few days earlier, and there was still no news. No progress. It was as if she had sunk into the ground.
Elena was tightly wrapped in a long cardigan, her face ashen. The look she gave you held no gratitude for the groceries, though it seemed like she wanted it there. She simply couldnât bring herself to feel anything but despair. Anyway, you simply wanted to help in any way you could. You left your groceries behind and chatted for a while, though really, it was you trying to keep the conversation going, just so some sound would fill that empty house, if only for a moment. You drank the tea she offered, told her she was welcome to visit you anytime, and then it was time to leave.
Your houses were separated by a street, and just as you were about to cross it, your phone rang. You raised it to your ear, glancing both ways even though traffic in your neighborhood was practically nonexistent.
"Hey, just wanted to make sure our meeting is still on," Spencer blurted out the moment you picked up.
Thrown off, you slowed down your pace. You had indeed made plans to meet at your place at a specific time andyou were the one who invited him but the conversation with Elena had completely made you forget about it. A bit guilty, you quickly replied:
 "Still on? Yeah, I hope so. Unless something came up on your end and youâre calling to say so?"
"No," he denied right away. This conversation was somehow funny. Both of you replying to each other at machine-gun speed. Where had all that nervousness suddenly come from? The magic of a phone call? "No, nothing came up, luckily. So⌠yeah. I think Iâll be at your place in fifteen minutes. Unless something came up on your end and you want to reschedule..."
You let out a small laugh and said no, absolutely nothing came up. You were already standing at your front door, but with one hand in a cast and the other holding your phone, you couldnât reach into your pocket for the key. So you just stood there, you werenât in a rush to go inside anyway. Still with the phone to your ear, you asked:
 "You remember the address?"
"Yeah, Iâm fine."
"Iâll send it to you just in case. So you donât get lostâ" you pressed your lips together when you realized how dumb that sounded. "Right. Your brilliant memory. Please accept my deepest apologies for doubting it."
You heard a quiet laugh on the other end of the line.
"The deepest apologies have been accepted."
A certain silence settled between you, full of anticipation, as if each of you was waiting for the other to speak. You slightly moved the phone away from your face so he wouldnât hear your breathing. You were about to see each other anyway, so you could simply say a quick goodbye and end the call. Your gaze drifted absentmindedly to your shoes, and suddenly you froze, noticing something you hadnât seen before.
 "I-I have to go," you said into the phone, as if in a trance.
Without adding anything else, you hung up and shoved the phone into your pants pocket.
On the doormat lay a small rectangular cardboard package, tightly wrapped in tape. You hadnât ordered anything recently. Maybe it was for your mom? She often ordered things online, mostly for use on the construction site. Special screws or bolts, maybe.
You bent down to pick up the package. When you shook it, it didnât seem like there were any screws or other small pieces inside, not a single sound came from within. But when you lifted the box, you noticed what was written on its thin side panel.
Your name.
First, you froze in place before you began, without giving it much thought, to unwrap the package right then and there. The key slipped from between your fingers and clinked against the doormat; it was hard to open the cardboard box and tear the tape off its sides using only one hand, while holding the whole thing under the same arm.
Finally, you sighed in defeat and bent down to pick up the damn key, stepping inside and shutting the door behind you with a slam.
Your legs carried you to the kitchen on their own, where you used a knife to slice through the tape on the sides. If you had found something like this on your doormat a year ago, your reaction would have been much more composed. Now, it was impulse that drove you, a whole avalanche of uneasy feelings that effectively crushed your reason down to its foundation.
The contents of the box were so perfectly fitted that they didnât spill out onto the kitchen island. Freeing them took considerable effort. It was a cassette. There was something else inside. A note, really. A piece of paper with a message written in red marker.
Play this in the next episode or. Play this in the next episode or. Not even a colon at the end to hint at wicked intent, a threat. Suggestions leave room for uncertainty. Whoever sent it had no doubt about what would happen if you didnât include it in the episode.
Strange, how you analyzed it like that when your body couldnât even move.
Even without a signature, you knew who the sender was, and you knew he wasnât stupid enough to leave fingerprints. Still, you picked up the cassette using a kitchen towel, carrying it upstairs like something that smelled foul. Whoever you asked for advice would tell you to inform the investigators immediately. But you knew they would immediately confiscate the tape, not letting you have a single look at it.
You had to know what was on it. Heâd sent it straight to you. You had to.
You walked over to the tape recorder sitting on the windowsill, buried under a pile of your papers, and wrapped your one good arm around it, pulling it to your chest as you moved it onto your desk, not much cleaner. You inserted the cassette.
The recording began with crying.
Terrified and exhaustedâbut it wasnât the only sound. Right after came a sigh, irritated and bored.
âOnce again, from the top. Interrogation of Rebecca Young, 00:14. The subject refuses to testifyâŚâ
You stood frozen, bent over the tape recorder, as if being closer to it might help you understand what was going on. It didnât.
The manâs voice sounded distorted. Someone was definitely using a voice modulator. The womanâs sobs were laced with fatigue, suggesting the scene had been dragging on for a long time.Â
Rebecca Young? The name rang a bell, but you couldnât place it. What kind of recording was this? It sounded far too real to be a prank.
âWhatâs your name?â came the question again.
Silence followed, not complete silence, though. You could hear the womanâs labored breathing, still broken up by sobs, slowly start to calm. More like she was forcing herself to, rather than actually finding composure. A loud swallow. A trembling reply âRebecca Young,â she said.
You straightened up.
That wasnât Rebecca Young, or whoever she was being made to pretend to be. That was Keasy. Your missing neighbor.
The recording kept playing, and you listened to it without any physical reaction, simply standing there with your whole face and body tense. Somewhere in the distance, the doorbell rang. You were aware of it, but the thought of stopping the recording and going downstairs to open the door didnât even cross your mind. Some things were important, and others were more important.
âDo you admit that your statements were false?â
Keasy sniffled. The pauses between her answers were long, it was clear she was using the last of her strength to think, trying to come up with a response that would satisfy her captor. One that might determine whether she survived. This particular pause dragged on, until she finally whimpered in resignation.
âI-I donât know, I donât know what you mean, I donât know what statementsââ
âYour statements about Robert Taylor. You claimed he raped and killed you, which was a false accusation. Do you admit that you lied to damage his reputation and his family?â
Another long pause, Keasyâs heavy breath, and then a desperate scream âYes! I admit it, yes, I admit it!â
"Finally," the man muttered
That was where the recording ended. It wasn't interrupted or cut off midway. He simply turned it off calmly. When its final second passed, there was only you. No thoughts. And the doorbell ringing again.
Your legs carried you down the stairs on their own, your good hand opened the door on its own, just like your eyes met Reid's gaze on their own. A gaze that, in a split second, shifted. From somewhat nervous but generally positive to fully alarmed.
 Based solely on the expression on your face.
âWhat happened?â
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previously...
You managed to get some shut-eye only around dawn, but when you woke up, you didnât feel rested at all, so you suspected you hadnât really fallen asleep, that maybe your brain had just briefly disconnected from your body and stopped registering the passing hours on the clock. But maybe that was better than dreams where everything was hair. Hair being cut, hair in tins, hair between your fingers, sliding along your arms like a plague.
In the morning, you washed your face with ice-cold water to wake yourself up. Life went onâyou still had to go to work, carrying that heavy feeling of uncertainty on your back. On top of that, the knowledge that the case had been handed over to the BAU filled you with mixed feelings. For the most part, you were relieved, they were professionals, the best when it came to catching serial killers, which was a glimmer of hope. But on the other hand, their presence and the fact that they knew about your existence, meant you had to be more careful getting involved in the investigationâŚ
âŚwalking into the kitchen to make yourself some coffee, you screamed at the top of your lungs.
The man kneeling by one of the cabinets jumped in surprise, hitting his head on it with a loud thud and cursing. It wasnât until he stuck his head out and gave you a confused look that you pressed a hand to your pounding heart, realizing it was just Danny.
âOh my God, Iâm so sorry, I didnât mean to scare you,â you blurted out in an apologetic tone, trying to mask how shaken you were. After the stress youâd gone through yesterday searching the station, your reactions to everything had become sharper, more intense. âI just scared myself more than anything. What are you doing here so early?â
Danny let out a breath through his mouth, rubbing the spot on his head where heâd hit it.
âThereâll be a bump, but itâs nothing serious. What am I doing here? Your mom asked me to fix the faucet, and it just so happens this is the only time Iâm free today,â he said, nodding toward the open cabinet just under the sink where the pipe ran, and only then stood up, resting his hands loosely on his hips. He gave you a casual, half-smile. âI forgot you get up this early for work. But looks like youâre in for a rough day, look like you didnât sleep a wink.â
âI did. For like fifteen minutes.â
Danny snorted.
âWhat kept you up? Digging through the details of some old case again?â
Neither he nor your mom followed your online activity all that closely, but from time to time, theyâd ask out of curiosity, show some genuine interest. You tried to look just as relaxed as he did when you shrugged your shoulders.
âWhy dig through old cases when Iâve got a current one right here?â you said. You really wanted it to come off as a joke, but after what happened the day before, you couldnât manage it. Your voice came out tight, like from somewhere deep down, and Danny furrowed his brows. You cleared your throat quickly. You could tell him about what youâd found yesterday. âNo but seriously I always have trouble sleeping when the full moonâs close. Heard a lot of people do.â
âThatâs interesting.â
âMhm. Some people also turn into werewolves.â
âTrue. There really are two types of us.â
You lifted the corners of your mouth slightly.
Danny went back to working on the sink while you started packing your lunch for work. You barely spoke, lost in thought and moving on autopilot. You didnât even notice the sound of honking outsideâDanny had to point it out.
âThatâs probably for you.â
You frowned and walked over to the kitchen window, lifting it only to spot Charlieâs car in your driveway. He never picked you up in the morningsâyou werenât on his way, and he always had to drop his younger brother off at work first. You froze for a second.
Your first instinct was pure anger, remembering how you had to go to that abandoned station alone, even though heâd promised to come with you. You wanted to ignore him, let him honk again and then drive off. But then you rememberedâyou hadnât talked to him yet about why he left.
You hadnât realized Danny had been watching the expression on your face the whole time. He mustâve noticed the hesitation and tension, because he asked,
âWhat? You two had a fight? I can give you a lift if you want, Iâm almost done with the sinkââ
âNo need. I mean, thank you, but...I need to talk to him.â
He nodded.
You stepped out of the house with your arms crossed over your chest. Instead of getting into the car, you stopped by the driverâs side window, quickly noticing that Charlieâs fourteen-year-old brother, Conrad, was sitting in the back seat. You wanted an explanation first and only then would you decide whether or not you even wanted to ride with him but you didnât want to bring this up in front of someone else. With a cold expression and a sigh, you walked past the car and got in.
âHi, Conrad,â you said to the younger boy.
Focused on his game, he just muttered something in response.
Your eyes moved to Charlie. His face looked even more drained than usual, like he hadnât slept either. But that didnât make you feel any more sympathetic, and you had no intention of being kinder to him just because of that.
He gave you an I can explain kind of look, but you shook your head.
âJust drive. You donât want your brother to be late for school, do you?â
You could tell that only guilt was keeping him from rolling his eyes at your passive-aggressive tone. When you arrived at the school, you patiently waited as Conrad grabbed his backpack, got out, and disappeared into the crowd of other students.
Still, you didnât say a word. You waited for Charlie to speak first.
There was no time to pull over and talk; you'd be late for work, so he started driving again. From the look on his face, it was clear he was deep in thought.
âOkay,â he began with a sigh. âI know I shouldn't left you there yesterdayâŚâ
âOh, you donât say. I literally had to get home with the FBIâŚâ
âI know, I figured, but listenâŚI panicked. Just imagine, theyâre looking for a serial killer, and here I am, alone in the car, parked outside a potential crime sceneâŚâ
âOh, poor you. They mightâve asked you questions, and youâd have to answer them.â
You saw him sigh heavily, clearly frustrated that you werenât understanding his very valid explanations, and worseâwere throwing sarcasm at him, painting him like the asshole he didnât think he was. He opened his mouth again, then closed it like he gave up, then went through the same motion again but before he could say anything of substance, the car jolted.
Your gaze snapped to the windshield. Charlie had slammed the brakes just in time to avoid hitting another car. For a moment, neither of you moved. Then he pressed one hand against his face, so hard it looked like he wanted to scrape the skin off.
You shook your head.
âWhatâs going on with you, Charlie?â you asked.
He ignored the question and started driving again. That tightening in your chest returned. Somehow, you had momentarily forgotten about yesterday only to now remember more than just the day before. You mentally reached back over the last few weeks, piecing together his recent behavior.
âShould you even be driving in this state?â you pressed.
This time, the answer came quickly and sharply.
âWhat state?â
âThat state. YouâreâŚconstantly distracted, you go to the backroom three times and forget why every time, most of the time you talk to me like Iâm attacking you. When I ask you to edit episodes for me, you send them back at four in the morning. You drink ten like coffees a day,â you started listing.
His expression was dismissive, defensive even. He let out a loud scoff as he parked in front of the store. You looked at him seriously, confrontationally.
âDo you even sleep?â
Another scoff, and your lips pressed into a thin line. Neither of you was getting out of the car yet.
âIâm asking, because Iâm yourââ
âDid you see the chair?â he interrupted you, turning his head in your direction. His pupils were dilated, deeply, his usually deathly pale face now had color, but not a healthy one, he looked like he had a fever.
Confused, you pressed your back into the seat.
âWhat chair?â
âThere. In the station. The electric chair, supposedly thatâs what he uses to kill them, right? You talked about it in the podcast?â
You delayed your answer, simply unable to string a sentence together. Where that sudden change of topic come from?
âThere was no chair there, Charlie. NothingâŚnothing was found.â
Charlie was looking at you, and his face expressed nothing. You felt uncomfortable in the atmosphere that had settled between you. Sure, youâd originally wanted to confront him, but suddenly everything turned strange. Maybe you pushed too hard, or maybe it wasnât your fault at all, and something was just wrong with him in general.
Your hand opened the door on its own.
âIâm going inside,â you said. âYou can go back home if you need to. I can handle the shop on my own.â
He didnât respond to your offer. You looked at him silently for a moment longer before actually heading toward the store, unlocking the door and raising the blinds once inside.
You stopped by the window, looking at his figure still sitting behind the wheel. You narrowed your eyes, and it seemed like his hand reached into the pocket of the hoodie he was wearing, pulled something out, and stared at it.
But then he got out of the car, and driven by impulse, you stepped away from the window.
*
You didnât speak to each other for the rest of the day.
Charlie spent as much time as possible in the back, only coming out when there was a customer. He served them stiffly, not even glancing at you. You did your best not to look at him either. For that one day, you treated each other like air.
It got a little boring without even the background noise of whatever game he always played, and the spiral of your thoughts and worries made the shift drag on painfully slow. Especially that last hour. You turned your back to the counter and started tidying up the shelves a bit.
The small bell above the door rang, signaling someone had walked in.
âGood afternoon, Mr. Benson,â you said almost automatically, because you just knew it was him. Like every day at the same time, he came in so you could set his alarm for 4 a.m. You turned around and froze for a second, slightly surprised. You quickly recovered.
âYouâre not Mr. Benson.â
Agent Reid was wearing a striped shirt with a tie, a dark red vest, and a dark suede blazer instead of his FBI vest. His glasses were resting straight on his face, not crooked to the side, and the lenses werenât coated in white dust like they had been after you quite literally fell on him from the roof. He had come to you in plain clothes, alone, but you werenât about to kid yourselfâhe knew you worked here, and he hadnât just randomly decided to stop by a tech store.
Your factual remark didnât seem to surprise him in the slightest. He observed you from the other side of the counter with a rather friendly look, but something told you to keep your distance.
âAs far as I know, Iâm not,â he replied, a flicker of a tight-lipped smile crossing his faceâbut when you didnât return it, it disappeared almost instantly.
You braced yourself against the counter with both hands, lifting your chin slightly.
 âHow can I help you?â you asked. âNeed your phone fixed? Buying a new USB cable? Or is it something more serious. Like you were sent to talk to me and make sure I wonât tell anyone aboutââ
 âCareful,â he cut in, tilting his head slightly to the side. You bit the inside of your cheek, wondering if the word hair would even make it past your lips, or if youâd stammer through it. âYouâre about to spill the thing Iâm supposed to make sure you donât spill.â
âAnd then youâll lose your job.â
Reid looked up, pretending to consider that.
 âYou know, I get the feeling Iâm too valuable for them to fire me over something like that,â he said.
You stared at him without blinking, but you couldnât tell whether he was deliberately arrogant, just pretending, or if that was his hidden nature.
He gave a small nod.
 âWell, maybe youâre the one who should be worried about that. Attacking a customer in your third sentence?â
âDid you take that as an attack?â you raised your eyebrows. It was the second time someone had accused you of that. On the same day. âWell, I just wanted to know where I stand. Should I be worried about whether our storeâs inventory meets your needs, or about being thrown into a room full of two-way mirrors and interrogated again?â
âYou donât have to worry about that,â he reassured you. âNo point in questioning you again. Whatever you didnât say to us, you mentioned openly on your podcast.â
âAnd as we all know, everyone in Quantico is a devoted fan of it.â
A narrowing of his eyes.
âIâd argue not everyone. But as youâve gathered, weâre familiar with it. Anyway,â he paused to take a breath, and his expression shifted slightly, as if heâd just remembered he came here with a purpose but had gotten sidetracked. âIâm not here to remind you of anything, or to keep tabs on you. I justâŚâ he searched for the right word, gesturing lightly with his hand âwanted to make sure youâre okay. And also, Iâve got a small favor to ask.â
Genuinely curious, you parted your lips to ask about the favor when Reidâs eyes shifted to something behind you. You turned and saw Charlie standing in the office doorway, glaring at your visitor with clear hostility.
âYou here to buy something or just to chat?â
It worked on you like an instant trigger. Red flag to a bull. You hadnât spoken to each other all day, but the tension had only been building.
âTo chat. With me. And itâs none of your business, so drag your ass back to the storage room where youâve been sulking all day,â you snapped, then turned back to your customer like nothing had happened.
Reid was frozen for a second, lips slightly parted, then he closed them and let the corners curve up just a little. A glint of amusement flickered in his eyes. You figured Charlie had followed your suggestion.
âWas that the friend who let you go into the transformer station alone yesterday and then ran off at the sight of the police?â Reid asked, enunciating every word carefully, making Charlie sound like he sucked even more than he already did.
You nodded almost automatically. Only afterward did it occur to you that, if this were to be divided into sides, you and Charlie were supposed to be on the same oneâand Reid on the opposite. Somehow your brain chose that exact moment to remind you of it, as if youâd gotten too distracted.
âHeâs usually reliable,â you said diplomatically.
âUsuallyâŚ?â
âWell, latelyâŚâ The words came to you again. Those past few weeks and Charlieâs odd behavior. But it was too complicated to get into with a profiler. So you held your tongue and returned to the foundation of your conversation. âYou mentioned a favor.â
âOh, right,â he said, apparently remembering, and to your surprise, he suddenly looked genuinely sheepish and his previously piercing gaze dropped downward.
 âItâs⌠itâs not exactly a favor for me. More like for my friendâŚan agent on my team, but Iâm the one delivering the request...â
He trailed off, lifting his eyes to you as if hoping youâd just guess what he meant. You had no idea. He sighed.
âSo, Garcia, the one who introduced us to your podcast and vouched for it as a decent source of information, she really wants me to take a picture with you. For her.â
Somehow, a smile found its way to your lips. Wide, mostly from disbelief.
âYou. A picture. With me. For her,â you repeated robotically, pausing between each phrase. It sounded like something you wouldnât believe even if you told yourself.
You shook your head slowly and pressed one hand to your temple for a second. Reid watched you, waiting for your response, looking both mildly embarrassed by the request and slightly amused.
âNo, stop, tell me youâre joking. Iâm still not recovered from the fact that the FBI listened to my podcast, you canât just walk in here and also ask me for a picture!â
You said it too loudly. Reidâs eyes flicked toward the back room, but you couldnât care less about Charlie, and judging by how quickly Reidâs gaze returned to your faceâdrawn by your disbelieving laughâhe didnât either.
âOf course, youâre totally allowed to say no,â he said. âAnd honestly, itâs probably best if you donât post it anywhereââ
âHow else will people believe me?â
âThatâs the thing, ideally, there wonât be any peopleââ
âIâm kidding. Iâm not about to share my fame with you,â you said dryly, making Reid huff a short laugh. Before he could reply, you extended your hand between you. âShow me your phone. That way, youâll know I wonât show it to anyone.â
It was just too ridiculous of a life experience, not to mention a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and a blow to your ego, to say no.
Reid slowly handed you his phone with the camera already open, and you motioned for him to come closer to the counter. He obeyed, his brows twitching slightly when you leaned in on your side just as much.
You made sure not to look serious. Your lips pushed into an exaggerated pout meant to absurdly contrast his utterly awkward expression.
âWow, my first picture with a fan. Mom, Iâm famous,â you said, handing the phone back to him.
He accepted it, glancing down at the screen and lingering on the image for a second.
âI hope Garcia likes it. Maybe sheâll frame it in gold and hang it on her wall.â
His eyes snapped back up to you like heâd been electrocuted.
 âPlease donât,â he said, horrified.
You couldnât help it and you burst out laughing.
He looked like he wanted to join you, but some frayed thread of professionalism held him back. Still, he couldnât quite suppress the twitch at the corner of his mouth or the ease softening his features. Something you decided, on impulse, to take advantage of.
âSo, whatâs new with the investigation?â you asked as casually as if you were industry buddies who routinely swapped updates, even the classified kind.
He fell for it like a naive lamb. Your earlier laughter and the smooth flow of conversation between you had completely dulled his vigilance.
âWe sent the hair in for analysis and, well, within the next 24 to 48 hours we should have confirmation on whether it really belonged toâŚâ He paused, then narrowed his eyes. âWait, did you just trick me into giving you information?â
He caught on.
You gave him a half-smile, feeling zero guilt for the maneuver.
âWell, you kinda walked right into it,â you murmured. âAnd admit it, that was clever.â
âI can only admit it was clever,â he said, reluctantly.
You gave him a look.
 âYou got your picture. Now you have to finish the topic. What about the hair? What if it turns out it belonged to them?â
Reid held your gaze for a moment, clearly debating with himself. He was probably wondering whether you could really be trusted to keep sensitive information to yourself. But eventually, he sighed, realizing heâd already said too much anyway.
âThen weâll just continue the investigation with that information,â he said. âAnd itâsâŚwell, itâs pretty key. It might even help us deliver the profile.â
âSo you donât have a profile yet.â
âYou know I canâtââ
The bell above the door chimed. You glanced toward it, then back at Reid, your eyes silently asking him to stay just a little longer. He visibly hesitated you saw it but then he shook his head and made for the exit.
You watched him leave with your eyes, then turned toward the new customer.
âGood afternoon, Mr. Benson,â you greeted the man.
*
You placed the tray of cookies in the center of the garden table carefully, making sure not to knock over anyoneâs coffee or tea. Then you took a seat in the wicker chair beside your mother, facing your two neighbors. Elena and her fourteen-year-old daughter, Keasy.
Your garden was spacious, and your mother took great pride in keeping it well-maintained, so afternoons like this werenât uncommon. During this particular one, though, your mind was both close and far.
Closeâbecause the subject was close to your heart.
 Farâbecause the subject was close to your heart.
âBut is it, like, confirmed confirmed?â Elena asked quietly. You noticed people always lowered their voices when talking about tragedies, as if that might somehow soften their weight. âI mean, Iâve heard it from several people already, but I donât know if I should believe it⌠shouldnât that kind of info be classified or something?â
In short, in case anyone was confused. The hairs youâd found at the transformer station had been confirmed to belong to Georgina, Gita, and Judy. The bodies of the first two had been found earlier, but Judyâs hadnât until now, which confirmed that your instincts about her disappearance had been right from the beginning.
You didnât feel even a shred of satisfaction.
Youâd rather have been wrong.
It hadnât solved much, aside from confirming that the station had been the site of executions.
Murders, really.
The area had been locked down even tighter, but no arrests were made. The killer was still out there. And yet, one question began to follow you like a round-the-clock shadow, always present. They had found the hair of three victims, most likely shaved off to allow for the placement of electrodes from the electric chair, and hidden in cans as some grotesque form of trophy.
Three victims.
But there had been four girls.
What about Maddy Baker?
The discovery of her body, in a hospital gown, her head shavedâhad shocked everyone.
You too, even on a personal level. She was a few years younger than you, and you used to tutor her, often spending time at her house with her and her parents, both pharmacists.
She volunteered at the local animal shelter. Youâd often run into her walking dogs.
She had bronchial asthma
She had honey-colored hair.
But it hadnât been found with the others.
Had the killer not added it to the collection? Heâd shaved her headâthat much was clear.
So what had he done with it?
Kept it? Why?
Was he personally connected to her?
Why had he suddenly abandoned the place where he committed his murders?
Did he sense that people were beginning to suspect someoneâs presence at the abandoned station, and that police involvement was only a matter of time? If so, that would mean he had to be from around here. Close enough to keep up with local rumors and whispers.
It also suggested he was smart.
Did he decide to pause his killing spree? Or did he simply move it somewhere else?
Nobody knew what happened to the electric chair.
These questions circled endlessly in your mind. It was crowded and loud in there, filled with thoughts that refused to settle. And yet, you couldnât pull any words from yourself, none that felt right for the podcast. You had paused posting updates about The Executioner, but that didnât mean you had stopped watching the case.
The case consumed most of your attention. Even now, you only snapped out of the spiral of those repeating questions because of a sudden scoff from Keasy. The girl was wearing a gray hoodie, playing with its drawstring, her hair tied into two thick brown braids. She was side-eyeing her mom.
 âMom, nothing in this town is classified. And if it is, not for long,â she commented and it was hard to argue with her.
Suddenly, she locked her brown eyes directly on yours. She gave a slight nod in your direction.
 âLike the fact that a young FBI agent visited you at the store recently.â
There was a smirk on her lips. Yours parted in surprise. Your mom and Elena both turned curious eyes on you.
 âHow do you know that, you little smartass?â you asked with a disbelieving snort.
 She was absolutely right. Nothing in this town stayed a secret.
Keasy gave a slight shrug, a proud look on her face, like she didnât want to reveal her sources. Your relationship had always been a bit sibling-like, full of teasing. You looked at her with raised eyebrows, expectantly, already knowing sheâd tell you anyway.
âMr. Benson,â she replied shortly. You tilted your head with curiosity. Right, Mr. Benson had entered the store while Spencer was inside, but when had Keasy talked to him? As if reading your thoughts, she added, âIâm kinda seeing his grandson now.â
âYouâre joking.â
 âFBI agent,â your mom suddenly spoke, holding a bitten cookie in her hand, her worried gaze focused on you. âWhat did he want?��
âFBI agents have phones that need fixing too.â
âIâm being serious,â she said, and from the look on her face, you could tell she wasnât joking. You saw Elena exchange an awkward glance with her daughter, but like everyone in this town, they loved drama too much to try and soften the conversation. âI know youâre recording something about the case, but youâre not getting involved in the investigationâŚare you?â
You sighed, searching for an answer that wouldnât be a flat-out lie.
âWell, of course Iâm getting slightly involved in the investigationâthatâs kind of what my work is aboutâŚâ
âThat is not your work,â your mother cut in sharply. âItâs just some silly internet project that could get you into danger. What if⌠the person killing these girls is listening to it?â
âYou think thatâs possible?â Elena asked, genuinely intrigued but also clearly frightened. âThat heâs listening⌠to something about himself?â
âVery possible,â you answered with a nod. âPsychopaths, assuming thatâs what he is, often follow how the public reacts to their crimes and what the media says about them.â
âAssuming thatâs what he is?â Keasy repeated, frowning. âArenât all killers that?â
âNo, a lot of people think so, but in realityââ
âThatâs not what matters right now,â your mother interrupted. âWeâre talking about you putting yourself in danger. If the FBI is interested in you, they must think youâre getting too involvedâŚâ
âAnd is that a bad thing?â you shot back defensively. âIf my too involved helps spread awareness about the case and the victims, warns women, maybe even contributes to finding the killerââ
âFinding the killer is the job of the police.â
âWho did nothing when Judy went missing! The ones who came after the murders donât know anything about the people here. Theyâll be doing interviews and witness statements, all of which I already gathered myself. And in the meantime, while theyâre doing that, another girl could get hurt. So I think itâs morally right for me to keep going with my own investigationâŚâ
âNo. I donât even want to hear it,â she said, cutting the air with her hand.
You pressed your lips together, but you were ready to keep fighting, ready to defend your point and your decision. At that moment, you didnât care that the two of you were ruining a peaceful afternoon with the neighbors. You understood she was worried, but how could she call your work stupid? You stared each other down, and you saw she was preparing to say something else, her temper matching your own.
Then, timidly, Elena chimed in.
âDid I just hear your doorbell?â
You both fell silent, listening. After a moment, the faint ring of the doorbell reached your ears. You exhaled through your nose and stood up, stepping ahead of your mom.
âItâs probably Danny. You invited him, right? Iâll get it.â
You left the garden quickly, let the man inside, and even greeted him warmly. But you didnât return outside with him. That was the whole reason youâd jumped to answer the doorâyou wanted to use it as a chance to slip away.
Your motherâs words had hit you twice: first, with anger. Then, they struck something deeper, reawakening a dormant sense of resolve.
Judy Perkins was dead, which meant another woman could go missing soon.
There was no time to waste.
You went upstairs to your room and grabbed your recording equipment. For the first time in days, you actually felt able to say something.
Not new information.
A request.
For your listeners to send you anything they knew.
There mightâve been more people like the one who told you about the station. People who knew something, maybe had some kind of gut feeling or suspicion, but didnât know where to take it. It felt too trivial, in their eyes, to bring to the police. Or they were afraid of exposure. You offered them a way to speak up anonymously, and you fully intended to follow up on everything they sent.
Keasyâs words about your townâs people gave you a lot to think about. Here, everything was always somehow connected.
Almost in a frenzy, you started going back through the information and notes youâd collected so far. Over the following days, you didnât just go over the theories your listeners submitted. You reanalyzed everything and everyone from the beginning.
You visited Georginaâs ex-boyfriend for a follow-up conversation. Sheâd broken up with him shortly before her death. He wasnât exactly eager to talk. You didnât deny that you were a bit pushy.
You watched Gitaâs stepfather. The one people said had abused his family. You had no explanation for why he would suddenly start murdering in such a specific way, but it gave you a sense that you were doing something, not just sitting back and reading what others sent in. Youâd bump into him at the store by accident sneaking glances at his cart full of alcohol.
Sitting in your car, parked just down the road from Gitaâs houseâfar enough not to raise suspicionâyou found yourself thinking about the murders again. The electric chair as the murder weapon. Its connection to execution was obvious. But what was execution a symbol of? Justice. Or rather, the desire to carry out justice, no matter how subjective it might be.
From that point on, two paths branched out in front of you, two questions.
Justice, but for what?
And second: who carried out the executions?
Of course, The Executioner.
But there were usually more people involved. Medical and technical staff. People who had acquired the knowledge of how it worked and had seen it with their own eyes. People who couldâve been affected by it.
You contacted your one listener who always seemed to know real things, things from unknown sources.
Still sitting in your car outside the Kopeckisâ house, you didnât pay attention to anything around you. Night had already fallen, and the streets were empty, bathed in the soft glow of the streetlights.
Then came a reply from blackqueen6969.
A full list of namesâevery person involved in the last execution ever carried out in the state of Connecticut. The killer was Robert Taylor. The very first case you ever covered on your podcast.
He was strapped to the electric chair in 1964. Known as The Devil of Bristol, he lured women into his car with charisma, good looks, and the reputation of a decent man. Even in prison, he received fan letters. There was a surprisingly large number of people who believed in his innocence even though one woman had escaped and managed to call the police, which directly led to his arrest.
Youâd chosen that execution for one simple reason: it was the last one. The people whoâd carried it out might still be alive. They might agree to talk to you.
You tapped out the phone numbers blackqueen6969 had sent, pretending to be a journalist writing a book on the history of executions.
Only one person agreed. Yes, it took a few minutes of faking wide-eyed passion, of raving about how much you cared about this book, how honored youâd be to speak with someone so brilliant, before his ego was stroked just enough to say yes.
Michael Pershing. The Executioner of Robert Taylor himself.
You couldnât have gotten luckier.
You scheduled the meeting with him for the next day, in Richmond, around lunchtime.
The call ended, and for a brief second, you couldnât believe it had actually worked. You wanted to squeal out loud in excitement, but instead of a happy little shriek, what came out of your mouth was a startled yelp.
Someone had knocked on your car window.
Through the glass, you saw a police officer standing on the dark street outside, his lips moving as he said something to you. You stared forward for a moment longer, biting back a loud curse. Then, because you had no other choice, you rolled the window down.
âGood evening, officer,â you greeted, giving him a nod.
It probably came across as arrogant, because it was. You didnât exactly have a glowing relationship with the local cops. Too many times youâd asked for comment and gotten shooed off, or been accused of bothering someoneâs family, which had never actually happened. Either way, neither of you was ever thrilled to see the other.
The officer sighed, leaning in toward your window with a tired look on his face.
âWhy are you sitting here?â he asked bluntly, voice colored with weary condescension. He clearly wasnât in the mood for your usual games.
What a shame. Because you were.
You shrugged.
 âAnswering a message. Like a model citizen and responsible driver, I pulled over to the side of the road so I wouldnât text while driving. Would you rather I replied while behind the wheel?â
âYou stalking me, bitch.â
 Another figure approached your car.
The officerâs hand landed squarely on Mr. Kopeckiâs chest before he could get too close.
âWatch your mouth.â
âSheâs harassing me! Follows me wherever I go, watches my house. What the fuck is your problem?â
Right. Youâd kind of forgotten you were still parked in front of his house. You pressed your lips into a thin line and glanced at the officer, who was now flicking his gaze between the two of you, clearly waiting for your explanation.
âWell⌠thatâs not true,â you tried.
âNot true?! Not true?! Youâre literally sitting outside my house, you fucking psycho!â
You pointed straight at him, locking eyes with the officer.
 âHeâs being aggressive. Iâd recommend a breathalyzer. And maybe a nice little trip downtown. Who knows what heâll do once he gets back inside, wouldnât want anyone getting hurtââ
âOkay, thatâs enough,â the cop cut you off, running a tired hand down his face. This was probably his last call of the night and he clearly wanted it over with. You relaxed slightly, guessing he'd let you off just because he didnât feel like dealing with it.
âStep out of the car. Iâm taking you in.â
Your eyes flew wide.
âI was literally answering a text!â
âOut. Of. The car.â
You let out a sound of protest and shot him a pleading look, but he didnât budge. Point to him for not cuffing you, but stillâsoon enough, you were sitting in the backseat of the patrol car as it sped toward the station. Arms crossed, you silently hoped Kopecki was fucking proud of himself.
You really, really needed to be out by tomorrow. You had a lunch scheduled with Michael Pershing.
Unfortunately, you couldnât exactly use that as your defense. And honestly, there wasnât much else you could do either. Your only option was to keep your mouth shut, pretend to be polite and cooperative, and hope they let you out quicklyâŚ
 But that didnât sit right with you.
Not when you had a better idea.
You slipped your phone between your knees and fired off a quick message. No time to wait for a reply. You turned it off, tilted your head back, and caught the officerâs gaze in the rearview mirror. Then gave him the faintest, knowing smile.
He sighed, more to himself than anyone else. His partner threw him a confused look.
When the car finally stopped, you waited until one of the officers opened your door, gesturing for you to get out.
You resisted the urge to roll your eyes, stepped out onto the dimly lit station parking lot, and thenâ
âWeâll take it from here,â a male voice cut in, as two pairs of footsteps approached the patrol car.
Morgan didnât even bother flashing his badge, which told you BAU and your local police were already well acquainted.
âWe understand if you had reason to detain her,â Reid added, shooting you a suggestive, faintly mocking look.
You dragged a finger across your throat in a slow motion while holding his gazeâan unsubtle gesture, quickly dropped when the officer to your left noticed. You let your hand fall casually to your side and greeted him with a polite smile.
Reid cleared his throat. âBut sheâs a witness in our case and we need to speak with her. It canât wait.â
You nodded in agreement, as if anyone gave a damn about your opinion in that situation. One of the officers waited a second out of courtesy, then shrugged like he couldnât care less. The other one wasnât as quick to let it go.
âHey, you canât justââ
âLet it go,â his partner cut in, shaking his head slightly. Then, quieter, under his breath, âSeriously, I donât have the energy to deal with her tonightâŚâ
Both Reid and Morgan heard it and looked at you, in sync. You tried not to look overly proud. None of you said anything until the police officers disappeared from your line of sight, which, given the darkness, happened rather quickly. Your lips parted first. There were so many explanations you wanted to let out, you wanted to share your theory, of course stretching the facts a bit and not saying where you got your information.
 Morgan beat you to it.
âYou better have some kind of explanationâŚâ
âA reasonable one,â Reid specified.
 âAs it happens, I do!â you declared energetically, because, in fact, you did. One of their pairs of eyebrows rose first, unconvinced, Reid seemed to have a bit more faith in you â after all, it was him you texted. And he was the one who decided to come pick you up. You hoped he saw that note of gratitude in your gaze, which you tried to communicate. He wasnât the best when it came to eye contact though. âAnd it is something reasonable, or at least I think so. Itâs not totally out of nowhere, otherwise I wouldnât have messaged youâŚby the way, thanks guys, for being here. Wait, can I call you guysâŚâ
 âUnusual, but acceptable,â Reid agreed so quickly it proved he was following your rambling with engagement and keeping up, which, to be honest, didnât always happen.
 âWhat a relief, I know some people who wouldâve called that insulting a federal officer on dutyâŚâ
 âTo the point,â Morgan cut in.
You drew in a breath. Thoughts snapping back into place. You started from the beginning , about how you asked your listeners to send you tips and how you verified them, and then moved into your own attempts at profiling the unsub, secretly cringing inside, fully aware that two literal professionals were watching you. Still, you tried not to show it, avoided looking too closely at Spencer and the focused way his eyes squinted behind his glasses, and pushed on.
The last execution in the state, Robert Taylor. The people involved. Tracking down their identities (you claimed you found them online).
âAnd the main idea is,â you continued, gesturing animatedly, âTo meet with them. But not as the police. I mean, undercover. For example⌠I donât know, a journalist writing a book about crime. Just a loose idea. And that way, figure out if any of them could be connected to this somehow. Like, the most obvious first pick would be Michael Pershing. If, purely theoretically, someone had arranged to meet himâŚâ
You trailed off, waiting for their reaction.
Of course you saw that exchange of glances. With growing unease, you searched their faces for signs of dismissal, scorn â maybe pity. Pity wouldâve been the worst of all.
That poor, foolish girl who has no idea what sheâs talking about⌠so embarrassed for her.
You didnât expect the knot in your stomach to tighten that much.
"Did you come up with all of that on your own?" Morgan asked, a strange mix in his eyes â clear, dominant skepticism, but also a hint of curiosity.
You nodded in confirmation. Reid, meanwhile, rested his chin on his fingers, thinking.
"What you said has a fairly stable foundation," he offered enigmatically, causing you to tilt your head slightly. You caught his gaze, and for the first time, he held it. When he spoke about psychology or profiling, he always seemed more confident. "A person who participated in or conducted executions might have severely blurred moral boundaries and a distorted sense of right and wrong. They may believe it's in their hands or even their duty to deliver justice. Tying this back to the last execution carried out in Connecticut makes sense. What it doesn't fully explain, though, is why heâs targeting young women specifically."
You felt strangely lighter listening to him, the way he actually talked with you, how he genuinely considered your theories instead of dismissing them outright just because you didnât have their experience.
"I hadnât thought about that," you admitted honestly, pausing. Reid seemed to only just realize you two were making eye contact, because he abruptly broke it. Shame. It had helped you speak more clearly. You cleared your throat. "Childhood trauma? Bad experiences with women? Iâm guessing here, I know, but like, 90% of the time itâs some shit like thatâŚâ
"We canât generalize like that," Morgan interjected suddenly, his tone surprisingly calm and focused.There was no trace of pity, something that had already caught you off guard earlier and kept doing so. He gave a small nod, as if agreeing with you, and you could hardly believe it. "But the premise is definitely worth attention, and itâll get it. But you," his tone regained its edge "are absolutely not going to keep investigating this on your own, you understand? You had an idea, and it was helpful, but from here on out, itâs our responsibility. Under no circumstances are you to meet with anyone from that list."
Biting the inside of your cheek, you nodded with feigned obedience.
 "Of course. I wasnât planning to. That could be, like, fatally dangerous."
"Alright. If thatâs understood, letâs get you home..."
*
You checked your reflection in your car mirror. Five minutes until your meeting with Michael Pershing.
You hadnât slept half the night preparing your entire persona and backstory. Youâd chosen the name Phoebe Wright because it was simple and sounded somewhat journalistic, in your new project you were focusing on the history of executions in the United States, on how the methods and public opinion had changed. And since you came from the state of Connecticut, it was an honor for you to speak to the man who carried out the last one.
You adjusted the sleeves of your elegant blazer and, with a notebook under your arm, stepped out of the car.
The place didnât require you to dress like that. You were literally meeting for lunch at a breakfast diner whose specialty dish was bagels. But whenever you imagined the executioner, your brain served up the image of a distant man, with a piercing gaze, the kind of man you subconsciously want to impress.
You were excited as fuck.
Because even if this man wasnât the killer, he was still someone your passion for criminology simply wanted to meet. And to record an episode, but that was impossible. Phoebe Wright didnât host a podcast.
Right before pushing open the glass door, you whispered a few words of courage to yourself and stepped inside, ready to conduct the most important interview of your entire amateur career.
Michael Pershing turned out to be the most ordinary man in the world. White polo shirt, a silver chain around his neck, and gray hair. Stocky, with a broad nose. Had you sat down with the wrong person?
âWhat, were you expecting the Grim Reaper?â he scoffed at you.
There was nothing friendly in his eyes. He looked bored, like he had ten more interviews lined up before noon and had already slogged through eight of them. The words slipped out before you could stop them. And Phoebe Wright was supposed to have better control over her tongue...
âNo, but deep down I was pretty sure youâd have a killer sense of humor.â
His expression changed. Froze entirely for a second. Then suddenly, he burst out laughing. Smokerâs laugh, rough and crackling.
"I like you," he said, pointing at you with a thick finger, a wedding band glinting on it. His laugh vanished as quickly as it came, and in a blink he looked bored again. And they say itâs the younger generation with no attention span. âThis might actually be an interesting interview. What you wanna know?â
Straight to the point. You were starting to like him, too.
You cleared your throat; everything you wanted to say was already carefully prepared.
 âAs I mentioned during our phone call, Iâm working on a book abââ
He cut you off with a dismissive wave of his hand.
 âOh, donât repeat what you said on the phone!â he barked, loud enough that the waitress, who had just placed his plate in front of him, quickly retreated from your table. Eggs and bacon spilled from his bagel. âJust get to it. What you wanna know. Do I feel guilt sometimes, would I still choose this career if I could go back, how did I manage to get into a relationship and what does my partner think about itâŚâ
You raised your brows. It looked like he was very eager to talk about himself.
Good.
 If he wanted direct questions, even better.
You leaned your forearms on the table between you, nodding slightly.
â1964. The execution of Robert Taylor.â
He grimaced.
 âThe Devil of Bristol.â
âKnew youâd remember.â
âHow could I forget? They caught him, he waited three years for an appeal, and after it was all over, people lost their fucking minds. Constant noise, saying he was innocent.â
âIn your opinion, was he guilty?â
He laughed mockingly in your face.
âIn my opinion? Yes, of course. Iâm not a fucking moron like the rest of them. Especially those women who wrote him letters, just a group of brainless idiotsâŚâ
You let him rant about society for a moment. The topic was warming him up and loosening his tongue. Maybe itâd be easier to draw some real information out of him. You asked what his role in the execution was, in each one. You asked for a detailed explanation of the process, which took over thirty minutes.
âAnd what did you feel,â you asked, watching his face carefully âwhen you pulled the switch?â
You didnât expect him to be honest. Heâd probably give you an answer he thought you wanted to hear, something curated. The real feelings, the true experience of the executionerâthose heâd keep to himself, and theyâd only flicker across his face for a split second. It would be your job to catch them. To interpret them. To decide if he could be responsible for the recent murders.
There was nothing in his eyes when he said, âHunger.â
You didnât flinch, but a chill ran down your spine.
 âHunger?â you echoed.
He looked you in the eyes for a moment, let you dig around in them as much as you wanted. His lips twitched, and for a second, you thought he might burst out laughing again.
âThe execution was early. Around seven. Theyâre usually done later in the evening. I hadnât had dinner yet and I was fucking starving. On top of that, the bastardâs last meal request was for this insanely overcooked steak,â he shook his head, like he still hadnât gotten over it. Like he still held a grudge. Over the fact he had to wait an extra hour for dinner.
You needed to take a slightly deeper breath, sort this out in your head.This man was definitelyâŚan interesting, alarming specimen.
You looked out the glass window next to your table just as he changed the subject to his preferred cuts of meat and suddenly, you sat bolt upright. Quickly, you forced yourself back into your usual posture. But he didnât notice, too caught up in his own rambling.
In the parking lot, right next to your carâthankfully unfamiliar to themâanother vehicle pulled in. One you knew very well, since you'd ridden in it just yesterday. And you immediately recognized the face in the front seat, in his signature tweed blazer and a tie knotted neatly at the neck, mid-sentence as he spoke to his absent partner who was busy rummaging for something under the seat.
He was cleaning his glasses with that thoughtful expression of his, then slid them back onto his nose and looked up.
Right as you were staring at him.
He froze mid-sentence, completely still, then his eyes widened.
You shot to your feet.
âExcuse me for a moment. Restroom,â you croaked out to Pershing, and without waiting for a response, bolted across the rectangular diner toward the corner where the bathrooms were tucked. Out of the corner of your eye, you caught Morgan finally finding what heâd been looking forâand the moment both of them got out of the car.
Shit, shit, shit.
Theyâd told you very clearly yesterday not to do this.Not to meet with anyone from that list.
And where were you right now?
At a meeting with him.
Hidden around the corner, you spun in place, hovering without entering any of the three restrooms. You wanted to stay back there, behind the wallâthey couldnât possibly know youâd planned to meet someone here. Maybe theyâd just stopped by for lunch while working a lead in Bristol, following up on the information youâd given them yesterday. If it were anything more, Reid wouldnât have looked so shocked to see you.
It was also possible they hadnât recognized Pershing. There werenât any photos of him online. If he hadnât noticed you, maybe you couldâve ducked into the restroom and waited them outâŚ
âWhat are you doing here?â
Reidâs voice came out in that conspiratorial whisper-shout combo. You peeked around the corner in panicâMorgan wasnât looking your way. Good. He was too busy placing an order. So they really were just here for lunch.
You grabbed Reidâs shirt and yanked him a few feet away so no one could see him talking to anyone.
He gasped in surpriseâand then groaned when your heads collided. Ouch.
You took a step back, rubbing your skull.
âI came here for lunch?â you half-asked, half-said.
Reid shook his head, clearly not buying it in the slightest.
 âIn Bristol? Two hours from Fairview? For lunch? You are a terrible liar, you know that?â
âHa! Says the guy who got totally tricked by me last nightââ
âWhat?â
âYou didnât tell Morgan I was here, did you?â you cut in quickly, changing the subject.
Spencer paused, adjusting the shirt youâd just yanked. His glasses had tilted slightly askew, so you reached up to fix them for him.
His eyes went wide, startled, then he caught himself and cleared his throat. Twice. And once more for good measure.
âN-no, I didnât,â he stammered. Inhale. âI didnât. I figured Iâd find out what you were doing first and then decide if it was worth getting you into trouble.â
You shot him a grimace, though deep down, you appreciated it.
 âThank you, your grace. Now maybe let me explain, and then you can decide if itâs worth it or not,â you offered.
Before you could say anything else, someone appeared right in front of you, and both of you jumped like kids caught sneaking around. It wasnât Morgan, though, just some guy on his way to the bathroom, who brushed past without a word.
âOkay, so,â you began. âThe man in the white polo shirt you probably saw when you walked in? Thatâs the executioner of Robert Taylor. I arranged a meeting with him, pretending to be a journalist and an author which is also why I look insanely good today,â you said, smoothing your blazer for emphasis.
Reid was dressed similarly, and the two of you did kind of look like youâd just walked out of an office meeting.
When he parted his lips to speak, you raised a finger to cut him off.
âAnd before you tell me how irresponsible that is, I just want to say that the conversation was going really well and I already got a few interesting bits out of him, so it would be a shameâa big, big shameâto waste this opportunity. So please, pretty please, donât tell Morgan Iâm here.â
You even pressed your hands together in a prayer-like gesture, looking at him with pleading eyes.
Reid looked at you for a moment with an unreadable expression, like he was preparing to say something several times but kept changing his mind. Finally, he rolled his eyes slightly upward and let out a deep sigh. You couldnât tell if that meant yes or no.
He gave a subtle nod, more to himself than to you.
âIâll go talk to Morgan,â he began.
You opened your mouth to protest, but he raised a single finger to your lips and continued, âIâll talk to him and come up with something to get him to leave me here. And then Iâll come back andâŚâ he exhaled again, like he couldnât believe what he was saying, ââŚweâll finish the conversation with Pershing together.â
He said it with a firm tone, but his eyes searched your face, clearly wanting to know if you liked the idea. For a moment, you stood completely still and speechless. Then you jolted like someone had stuck a pin in you and closed the distance between you, throwing your arms around his neck in a chaotic, unexpected hug, swaying him from side to side in some kind of victorious dance.
âOooh, thank you!â you practically sang, squeezing him tight.
Reid froze, rigid and startled, clearly having no idea what to do with his arms or his face. You didnât blame him.
You stepped back with zero shame about your outburst, flashing a grin toward his now slightly pink cheeks. âThank you. I swear you wonât regret this decision. Together, weâll definitely be able to confirm or rule out whether he has anything to do with it.â
You said it with a confident, full-of-faith nod, one that Reid, seemingly involuntarily, mirrored. It wasnât until he shook his head slightly that he managed to speak again.
 âIâllâIâll go talk to Morgan,â he announced. He was just about to step away when something seemed to occur to him. âIâll text you when he leaves, so you can come out safely, go back to the table and thenâŚI dunno, Iâll have to figure out how to join the conversation, maybe sayââ
You waved your hand in a calming gesture, a confident smirk on your face.
 âDonât worry about that, my dear. Go do your thing, and Iâll handle the rest. Iâm a master of improvisation,â you said proudly.
Reidâs eyebrows rose slowly.
âNot gonna lie, thatâs exactly what Iâm afraid of,â he muttered.
 âNothing to be afraid of. Now go on, shoo shoo,â you said, waving him off. âWe donât have all day.â
You couldâve sworn you saw a soft smile bloom on his face as he disappeared around the corner, a smile just for himself. Waiting for his message, you unconsciously wore the exact same expression.
When the message finally came through, you returned to the table. Pershing was finishing up his bagel, and remembering the chill that had crept down your spine just before the conversation was interrupted, you were secretly relieved that someone would be with you from now on.
âSorry that took so long,â you said, catching a glimpse of Reid approaching the table, uncertain whether it was time to join you. You waved him over with a discreet motion. âBut the good news is, from this point on, weâll be joined by my assistant. I think I mentioned him during our phone call. And if I didnât, Iâm mentioning him now.â
The men didnât greet each other in any particular way; Spencer simply slid into the seat beside you.
âAssistant, mhm,â hemuttered.
You elbowed Reid hard enough that he bit his lip to keep from making a sound. Pershing couldnât have cared less whether one or two people were conducting the interviewâhe pushed his empty plate aside, wiped his mouth with a napkin, placed it on top, and cast a glance between the two of you, already looking somewhat impatient.
âThereâs one matter myâŚfriend here hasnât brought up yet,â Reid began, his voice carrying the faintest trace of irony. âAnd we both felt it would be incredibly valuable to hear your undoubtedly insightful opinion on the subject.â
Before youâd parted ways earlier, youâd handed him your small notebook containing notes from your conversation, but you hadnât expected him to go through them so quickly. Turns out he had, and heâd clearly taken to heart the part about how much your interviewee liked to be praised.
âWeâd like to know if youâve heard about the series of murders in the town of Fairview.â
Pershing let out a scoff so fast it was clear he hadnât even thought about it.
âWhere?â he asked, dismissively.
âFairview, just under two hours from Bristol,â you chimed in. âBut the location itself isnât that important. The case has been getting enough attention that you mightâve heard about it. Someoneâs been killing young women, even teenagers, in a style that mirrors executions. Most likely using an electric chairââ
âWhatâs that got to do with me?â he cut in. âI donât even know where that is. I donât watch the news. And if youâre wondering whatâll happen to that killer when they catch him, well, they sure as hell wonât fry him. Thatâs been banned over forty years ago. And Iâm not the one whoâs gonna do it.â
âBut this killer sees himself as a self-appointed executioner,â you said. âWeâre trying to understand where that belief might come from.â
âWhatâs that got to do with your book?â
âA lot,â you answered sharply, not even blinking, tired of the subject constantly being derailed. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Reid glance at you, then turn his steady, observant gaze on the man across from you, and leave it there. You had a gut feeling he already had some idea of what was really going on.
âMy book wants to examine the topic of executions from the broadest possible perspective, across different decades, different social climates. In depth.â
âThen I hope you find someone who wants to talk about that. Maybe the local PD. Because I donât even know where the hell that backwater is, and I donât know anything about that case,â he replied, his tone just as firm as yours. âI came to this meeting to talk about my experience. You said you had questions about the last execution in this state, and thatâs all Iâm here to answer. I can tell you how many times Robert Taylor appealed his sentence, how he escaped prison once, what he had for his last meal, and how his wife and teenage son, a kid, really, watched him fry. Iâm not wasting time on anything else.â
You clenched your jaw, unsure how to steer the conversation back to the Fairview murders. Your eyes shifted to Reid, hoping heâd know how to navigate itâor at least be puzzling over it the same way you were. Maybe heâd have an idea.
But instead, he was staring at Pershing with a cold, tilted gaze.
âIn that case, we wonât waste any more of your time,â he said, and your eyes practically bulged out of your head in shock.
Even the man across from you froze, caught off guard by the sudden shift.
Reid, calm and controlled, leaned slightly forward, his eyes cold but his mouth forming a polite, artificial smile.
âEnjoy your afternoon.â
âHe has nothing to do with it,â he stated confidently, gesturing with just one hand, his slim fingers slicing smoothly, almost sensually, through the air. âWith Fairview, I mean. Sure, his behavior shifted the moment we brought it up, but not because heâs guilty. Itâs because heâs a self-centered jerk who only wants to talk about himself.â
You stopped just by your car, at the driverâs side door, facing each other with barely a meter between you.
âI couldnât have said it better myself,â you scoffed, forcing a joke to try and soften the awful knot curling low in your stomach.
It didnât really work. Your lips didnât twitch, your voice didnât rise. In fact, it came out quieter than usual, thoughtful and low, tinged more with discouragement than humor. And whenever your tone dropped an octave like that, it was always a dead giveaway that something was off.
Reid mustâve picked up on it, because his brow furrowed slightly, and his dark eyes settled on you with a soft, concerned look.
 âAre you okay?â he asked gently.
You lifted your eyes to him, saying nothing for a moment before shrugging.
âI really thought this would lead us somewhere,â you admitted, pressing your lips together. One of your hands found the car door handle, but you didnât press itâyour fingertips just danced lightly across its surface. You were disappointed, and suddenly you regretted that heâd even come with you. Maybe youâd rather just go home alone and forget about this false lead you'd pinned so much hope on. âBut I just wasted time.â
âNo, you didnât,â he replied, shaking his head slightly from side to side.
You rolled your eyes, already expecting him to disagree, just out of decency.
âEven if you didnât find a connection between him and Fairview, I can tell from your notes that the conversation meant something to you. And right, Iâve got your notebook,â he said, pulling it from the inside pocket of his blazer and holding it out toward you. You wrapped your fingers around it gently, but for a moment, he didnât let go. âRobert Taylor was the first case you covered on your podcast. It was worth meeting his executioner if only to hear details no one else couldâve given you. Like the fact that his wife and teenage son watched his execution, which is almost unthinkable, considering the boyâs age. That probably wouldnât happen today.â
âI meant I wasted your timeâÂ
âThatâs what investigations look like. Sometimes we follow leads that take us nowhereâitâs just part of the process. You didnât waste my time.â
You looked at each other in silence for a moment. You bit your lip, trying to read if he really meant it or was just saying what he thought you wanted to hear. After a few seconds, you figuredâhe had no reason to lie. You gave him a small, grateful nod for those words. And thatâs exactly when something heâd said earlier caught up to you, and your eyebrows slowly, suspiciously rose.
âWait, wait. How do you know what the first episode of my podcast was about? Did you listen to it?â
He looked slightly flustered, though tried to keep a pseudo-casual demeanor as he shook his head. âNo, I mean yes. Someone...someone from the team had to go through it. But we already established youâve got fans in Quantico.â
âYep, I do. And no wonder my podcast is genius. But I didnât think you specifically had listened to all of them from the very beginning.â
âResearch purposes,â he said, and you could swear there was the ghost of a smile on his lips.
âSure,â you scoffed. âOr it was my incredible storytelling and razor-sharp sense of humor.â
âAnd above all else, your stunning humility. Should we head back now?â
You glanced to the side, only just realizing you were still standing in the parking lot by the car, your hand resting on the door handle. Right. You should head back. Youâd taken the day off work and didnât have anything else planned, but Reid? He was literally working on the murder case in your town. Since youâd dragged him all the way out here, it was only fair to drive him back. Just the two of you. Two hours on the road.
Spencer took the passenger seat.
âBut I will admit,â he said after clearing his throat, âanalyzing your podcast was one of the better assignments Iâve ever had. It wasnât just informative, it was...well. I laughed a few times.â
You froze mid-buckle at those words, then turned your head toward him, tilting it slightly, a smile forming on your lips almost instinctively.
You spent those two hours talkingâsurprisinglyâabout things that had little to do with the only common ground you'd really shared so far. And you needed that. You needed a momentary departure from the weight of it all, especially after the day youâd had, and the several before it, where your thoughts had been entirely consumed by The Executioner.
It was your last chance for that kind of relief. And maybe the only reason you were able to bear the news that awaited you once you returned.
It was afternoon. Even from a distance, you could see the BAU vehicle parked in your neighborhood, right outside your next-door neighborsâ home. But in hindsight, ever since you'd crossed the town line into Fairview, something had felt off. Heavier than usual.Â
Your fourteen-year-old neighbor, Keasy, was missing.
*
From the beginning of the day, your head was only searching for an opportunity to find itself in a horizontal position.
And well, since the day at work was, as usual, calm, you allowed yourself that. To close your eyes, stinging from lack of sleep, but not to give in to dreamsânightmares, to be precise.Three days had passed since Keasy's disappearance, and it felt like time in the town had stopped. Except for your life. Unfortunately, it had to keep moving forward, even when it wasnât clear if hers still was.
They managed to determine who had seen her lastâit was the boy sheâd recently started seeing, who turned out to be five years older than her. But despite that age difference and the rather mixed opinions about him, suspicions didnât really turn in his direction.
Everyone knew who was behind Keasyâs disappearance, everyone knew it wasnât just a disappearanceâit was a kidnapping.
The BAU and the local police were doing what they could, but from what you knew from Reid, with whom, due to lack of time, you communicated only sporadically, and from your own, old, reliable sources, there simply was no trace of her.
No witnesses. No leads.
Just like in the previous cases.
There was a soft scraping sound by your ear. You opened one eye to see a cup of coffee set down on the counter in front of you, and a manâs hand pushing it in your direction. You opened your other eye and sat up, resting the weight of your head on your palm.
âIf you really canât manage today, go home early,â Charlie offered, his hands shoved awkwardly into the pockets of his red hoodie. He avoided your gaze, and the sound of his voice struck you as strangely unfamiliar.
Right. You hadnât spoken in days.
So much had happened since then that the reasons for the silence now felt distant, irrelevant.
âWeâre basically done anyway. Iâll close up on my. No problem.â
Your dry lips parted slightly in surprise at the suggestion, but after a moment they closed again, and the two of you just stared at each other in silence. If the last time you looked at him he seemed awful, now he had clearly hit his lowest point. His face was thin, the skin stretched tightly over the bones, almost translucent. A beanie on his head, with strands of long, clearly unwashed hair sticking out from underneath. His eyes bloodshot and sunken, with purple circles around them. It hit you then that his preference for loose hoodies probably wasnât just about fashion. It was also a way to hide his increasingly thin frame. A lump formed in your throat, and you lowered your gaze to the coffee cup in front of you, wrapping your hands around it.
âThanks, Charlie. But Iâll stay till the end, as you said, weâre basically done,â you replied in a soft tone, one that suggested you werenât holding anything against him anymore.
Charlie nodded, leaning back against the counter on the same side as you. A long silence passed before he spoke again, hesitant and slightly remorseful.
âSoâŚweâre good? Weâre talking again?â
You nodded without hesitation. It wasnât just that your anger had passed, or that seeing him in that state stirred something in your heart and made you not want to leave him completely alone (although mostly that) it was also that work was boring as hell when you werenât speaking to each other. You smiled faintly.
âBack to normal.â
Charlie returned the expression, one that looked almost foreign on his worn-out face. Then the sound of the bell above the door rang out, signaling someoneâs arrival. You both looked toward Mr. Benson, walking in right on schedule with his phone in hand.
âGood afternoon,â you greeted him, already reaching out your hand. Silence followed as you set his alarm for 4 a.m., but just before handing the phone back, a question slipped from your lips before you could stop it. You could blame your talkativeness, or the way your mind was wrapped up in the case. Either way, you couldnât help yourself. âHowâs your grandson holding up, Mr. Benson? I mean, he was quite close toâŚKeasy.â
Her name was hard to say. Which made podcast recording especially difficult. Youâd known the other victimsâMaggie, who you used to tutor, and Judy, who youâd chatted with a few timesâbut not like this. They hadnât lived across the street your whole life. You hadnât handed down clothes to them or had them playing in your yard.
Mr. Benson made a sour face. At first, you thought you were imagining itâyou even glanced at Charlie, but he was staring at the man too, just as shocked.
âWell, serves her right,â Mr. Benson said, dismissively, coldly.
You froze, stiffening all over.
âSame goes for the rest of them, if you ask me. Nothing but little whores with no decency,â he went on, taking the phone right out of your hand so suddenly that it practically slipped from your fingers.
He turned to leave, then paused, like remembering something.
âWell, maybe not that one. Whatever her name was. The one from the Bakers, you know, the ones who run the pharmacy. Good girl, smart, pretty. Always said hello. Didnât deserve that. If that freak was right about any of them, well it sure wasnât herâŚâ
Charlie moved suddenly and sharply, and for a moment, you were sure he was going to react. His jaw was clenched tight, hands balled into fists and shoved into his pockets. But instead of doing anything, he just squeezed his eyes shut, his brow furrowing hard, and turned away, heading toward the back room with a quick, staggering gait.
You followed him with your eyes, confused, then turned your gaze back to Mr. Benson. For a moment, you didnât know what to do at all. His words had gone off like a bomb, Charlieâs reaction only added to the chaos, making it hard to think clearly. You should probably go after your friendâright? The only thing you were sure of was the burning fury inside you. Fury at the disgusting, morally bankrupt man standing in front of you.
You stood from your seat and leaned over the counter, meeting his eyes with your own, blazing with anger.
âDonât come here again,â you ordered.
You waited just long enough for him to leave and for the door to shut behind him before you headed straight to the back room. Inside the tiny, quiet space, Charlie was standing in front of one of the cabinets, hunched over, head buried in his arms, his body shaking either from tremors or dangerously erratic breathing.
You approached him immediately, placing a hand on his shoulder, but he flinched at the touch, so you quickly pulled it back.
âCharlie, whatâs going on?â you asked.
You wrapped your arms around yourself, forehead furrowed with worry, silently watching as he tried to regain control, to slow the frantic breathing that at times sounded like quiet sobs. At one point, he started shaking his head with his mouth slightly open, as if he wanted to say something but couldnât force the words out. His hands slipped back into the pockets of his hoodie, fidgeting, like he was touching something, turning it over in his palms.
Suddenly, something clicked in your head. But first your friend, and his panic attack.
âN-no, donât say anything,â you instructed him firmly. âJust breathe for a moment, okay?â
You had to repeat yourself once more before he started to follow the instruction, closing his eyes and breathing through his nose so deeply that his nostrils flared. The shop remained unattended, but at that moment, you didnât care. Something else was festering in your mind, something that made sense of everything that had been going on with him latelyâhow his appearance and behavior had changed. You waited a little longer, giving him a moment to collect himself.
Maybe you shouldâve asked more gently, but you didnât know how.
âAre you using drugs?â you asked, your tone serious.
Charlie only opened his eyes at that question, locking onto your gaze. He held it for a long moment without answering, and that was all the confirmation you needed.
âGod, I canât believe I didnât figure it out sooner,â you muttered, some shame aimed directly at yourself.
Now everything seemed so obvious. But clearly, youâd been too absorbed in yourself to notice something was seriously wrong with your friend. Or maybe you did notice. You just didnât do anything about it.
He started shaking his head, denying it.
 âIâm not⌠itâs not thatââ
âThen what do you have in your pocket?â you asked, confrontational.
The shaking intensified, turned almost frantic. The fear was just another confirmationâyou didnât want him to keep denying it. You werenât trying to shame him or push him away. You just wanted the truth. So you reached for his pocket yourself.
For someone who had been slow and sluggish for months, Charlie suddenly found enough strength to grab your hand before you could even touch him, squeezing it hard. You let out a hiss, but he ignored it, not loosening his grip.
âDo you ever listen to a damn thing people say to you?â he snapped, pushing your arm back so forcefully your whole shoulder rotated and you had to take a step.
Yes, your heart jumped slightly with a flicker of fear, but you werenât about to back down at the first hint of aggression. Youâd known him for too longâyou couldâve guessed his reaction wouldnât be meek.
âShow me whatâs in your pocket,â you demanded.
You remembered how heâd taken something out after your argument, staring at it while sitting alone in the car. Probably another dose of whatever it was heâd been taking. It all added upâand it only fueled you more. Maybe even too much. Looking at the tension on his face, you softened slightly, tried to shift your stance to something gentler.
âCharlie, you know you can trust me. Iâll help you, if you need it. If⌠I donât know⌠if youâre scared Iâll report it to the boss, just know Iâd neverââ
He shook his head slightly, eyes closed, like he couldnât take another word.
 âMove.â
You blocked him even more.
âShow me whatâs in your pocket.â
He tried to push past you, but failed. The difference in strength between you wasnât significant, especially not when his body was this weak, almost sickly. You literally grabbed hold of his hoodie, stopping him from leaving the back room.
Charlie tilted his head back with a sigh of frustration.
 âJesus fucking Christ,â he ground out through clenched teeth, then reached into his hoodie pocket. He shoved something into your hands. Before you could even register what it was, he used the slack in your guard to push you back hard enough that you stumbled. As he left the room, he turned around briefly, spreading his arms with a bitter smile. âHappy now?â
You dropped your gaze to the small, orange plastic container.
You hadnât been wrong for a second.
It was filled with pills.
*
It wasnât even the next day when you heard the doorbell and knew it was Charlie.
After your confrontation, he had left the shop, leaving you alone. Ironic, reallyâhe was the one who had suggested you go home early. Okay, maybe not the best time for irony.
After he squeezed your hand and pushed you, combined with everything else going on in your life outside of him, you probably had some unspoken right to just cut him off. Well, no one would be surprised that you didnât. Just fifteen minutes later, you texted him asking to meet. A message he ignored. But you knew he read it. And you knew he would come.
After all, you had all his pills.
You hid them in the drawer of your desk, keeping them as a bargaining chip, just so you could talk to him a little longer. Just so you could ask how it had even started, and what you could do to help.
So, the doorbell, the steps up the stairs, the uncertain way he sat down on the edge of your bed, and silence. There was silence between you the whole time. Heavy and deafening.
The room was lit by your bedside lamp, the same color as the pill bottle hidden in the drawer of your desk, where you sat now.
Charlie kept his eyes fixed on the pattern of ducks on your bedspread. When he swallowed, it was so loud he might as well have shouted.
âIâm sorry for how I acted toward you,â he said stiffly.
âYouâre only saying that so Iâll give you your pills back?â
âYes.â
âYou could at least try to make it less obvious.â
He pressed his lips together and shrugged apathetically.
âWhat for?â
Exactlyâwhat for?
You slid down from your seat, still lightly leaning against it, arms loosely crossed over your chest. Charlieâs eyes gleamed with hope, thinking maybe you were moving to hand him back what was his. It was a pathetic sight.
"I need it," he said after a moment, placing heavy emphasis on the word need, his whole face tightening with it. "You obviously donât get it, but for me this is... itâs the only way to, I donât know, move forward."
You let out a sharp laugh.
"Charlie, youâre not moving forward. Youâre barely dragging yourself."
âA small step is better than none.â
âDonât bring up motivational you-can-do-it believe-in-yourself businessman quotes when we are literally talking about drugs!â
His hands slapped against his thighs with a tired sigh.
âI told you, this isnât something you can understand. Just give it back, okay? If you donât, Iâll get more anyway. Itâs not a problem.â
You stayed silent. You knew he would say that, had even expected him to use that argument. But you couldnât get past the moral block of physically handing your friend something that was slowly destroying him.
âNo,â you answered plainly.
 He rolled his eyes.
 âCan I use the bathroom?â
You had your own bathroom upstairs, with the door right in your room. You gave him a look.
âJust so you know, I didnât hide them in there. Donât even think about going through my cabinets.â
âI just need to piss, psycho.â
You waved a hand.
âBe my guest.â
Charlie lazily got to his feet, with a look on his face like it had taken the effort of climbing Mount Everest. Then, with equally energetic movements, he dragged himself toward the room and closed the dark wooden door behind him. You were glad he had disappeared from your view for a moment, it meant you had time to think about what you were going to say to him when he came back. At least he wasnât stubbornly denying his addiction anymore, and you considered that a good start.
As your eyes wandered around the room in thought, across the dark wooden floorboards and the walls covered in posters and photos, they eventually had to return to the place where Charlie had just been sitting. Your bed, the duck-patterned bedding, something lying on it.
And it didnât belong to you.
You glanced toward the bathroom doorâyour friend was still inside.
You pushed yourself away from the desk and walked to the bed, picking up the object that must have slipped from his pocket when he stood up. Your brow instantly furrowed. It was a small crocheted bunny with button eyes, made into a keychain, with a clasp that allowed the tiny, adorable mascot to be attached to just about anything.
You carefully lifted the object, as if it might shatter upon falling. Your hands, for some reason, were trembling, so dropping it was actually a pretty likely outcome. You held your breath for a moment, as if oxygen deprivation might sharpen your other senses. And that strange feeling in your core.
Charlie wasnât the kind of guy whoâd clip a small, cute plushie onto anything, but even if he did, heâd wear it attached, not hidden in his pocket, right? You shook your head slightly, not knowing why you were analyzing it so much. Maybe he just got it from someone, maybe he bought it, found it. There didnât have to be anything deeper behind it.
You were about to toss the oddly familiar plushie back where it had been, but then you glanced to the side and locked eyes with Charlie, just as he was stepping out of the bathroom. Upon seeing you, he froze in the doorway with one hand still on the handle, his gaze falling on what you were holding.
Your fingers closed more tightly around the little bunny.
If there hadnât been anything deeper behind it, you wouldnât have felt such tension in your body. You stared at his pale face for a long moment, without blinking or moving. Charlie parted his lips, then closed them againâhis lower lip was trembling nervously. If there wasnât anything behind it, he wouldnât be reacting like that.
âThat belonged to Maggie,â you said. âMaggie Baker.â
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hi hello cmblr read this right the fuck now !
matilda you do it again and again i genuinely believed i was in an episode of cm while i read this your writing is so immersive and beautiful. i canât wait to see how this pans out!!

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đŹđŽđŚđŚđđŤđ˛: a series of young women are being murdered in your town, and you â the host of a true crime podcast â are determined to investigate the case yourself, even if it means constantly getting in the way of a team of profilers and putting yourself in danger once or twice.
đđ¨đ§đđđ§đđŹ/đđ°: spencer reid x podcast host female!reader, criminal minds typical violence, case details, mention of sexual violence, abduction, addiction, and drug use, season 2 bau team
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đ/đ§: i finally managed to finish the series ive been working on for so long. entire case and most of the characters were created by me i hope you enjoy it! (part 2 â 31 july)
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Spencer turned his head to the side to answer Elle's question, but his words were drowned out by the sound of JJ's approaching heels. It wasnât just their conversation that stopped â when the blonde briskly circled the table where the rest of the team was seated, a silence fell over the brightly lit morning room.
Expectant.
JJ ended up standing with her back to the screen, clutching a file in her hands, and she tilted her head to the side, glancing over their faces.
âGet ready,â she began. âBecause youâve never seen anything like this.â
Sure, at first it sounded rather ominous, but right after, there was Morgan's skeptical snort.
âIâm so sorry JJ, but Iâm pretty sure Iâve seen it all since I started this job,â he said.
âDonât be so sure,â Elle warned him, resting her forearms on the table and leaning forward so she could look at him. âOne day your arrogance is gonna bring down something so messed up on us that youâll take those words back real fast.â
âTo some extent I agree with Morgan,â Reid suddenly spoke up, relaxed in his seat with his hands clasped over his stomach, on his brown vest.
Derek smiled to himself with satisfaction, his arm shooting to the side to pull him in.
âSee, genius boy agrees with meââ
âIâm not finished,â Spencer objected, smoothly dodging his friendâs limb and ignoring his eye roll. He realized everyone was waiting for him to finish his earlier thesis, so he mechanically adjusted his glasses on his nose and cleared his throat. âWhat I meant is that itâs simply impossible that weâve seen absolutely everything. If that were the case, working on every case would, by the way, be at least half as short, but what Iâm trying to say is that maybe we havenât encountered everything yet, but weâve developed such a diverse range of patterns, human behaviors, disorders, and motives that itâs not entirely stupid to doubt that anything can still surprise us.â
Morgan sighed. Shrugging his shoulders, he shook his head briefly from side to side.
âYep, thatâs exactly what I meant. Glad we agree.â
âWell, I literally just explained that I donât exactlyââ
âJJ, you can start now,â Hotch cut in at the right, measured moment, steering everyoneâs thoughts in the direction they should be going. Toward the case.
The blonde turned toward the screen, where, after pressing a button on the remote, a map of some area appeared along with an entire array of photos â the typical set when working a serial murder case. The faces of living women accompanied photos of their bodies and the locations where they had been found. Spencer froze, trying to analyze everything thoroughly. He didnât look around, but he knew the others were doing the same.
âFairview town*, northern Vermont,â JJ said by way of introduction. âOver the past two months, three bodies of young women have been found. The first one came as a surprise â identified as Georgina Abbot, twenty-two, a prostitute from outside of town. Because of her profession and peopleâs judgment, it didnât cause much of a stir within the local community, and the investigation, unfortunately, was closed rather quickly. Until the second body appeared.â
A moment of silence followed, during which the screen zoomed in on the face of a young girl with warm blonde hair and large, trusting brown eyes.
âMaggie Baker. Sixteen years old. A girl from a good family, good grades, and a reputation for being helpful. She earned some extra money walking the neighborsâ dogs. Of course, when she went missing, it drew the policeâs attention, and a search began. Even before her body was found, another girl went missing, Gita KopeckĂĄ. She had just turned nineteen. Her mother and stepfather didnât report her missing to the police, claimed it wasnât her first time running away from home.â
âOkay but how do we know itâs the same unsub?â Elle asked, narrowing her eyes at the photo of the brunette on the screen. âThey were different ages, one of them was a prostitute, the second a girl next door, the third a troubled teenager. They donât even look that much alike physically, especially Maggie stands out from the rest.â
JJ caught her gaze and gave a slight nod, as if agreeing.
âThatâs something weâll have to analyze. Maybe talking to the locals will help us find some connection. But what does give us certainty that itâs the same unsub is the method of murder. Thatâs the part I mentioned that might surprise youâŚâ
âThey were electrocuted,â came an unexpected voice from the very end of the table.
Gideon, wearing his narrow glasses slid down to the tip of his nose. His eyes fully focused on the case files in his hands.
âThatâs the conclusion weâre leaning toward,â JJ corrected, drawing a little more air into her lungs. âAll of them were found dressed in white hospital gowns. Their heads were shaved, their skin had localized burns, and they had distinct marks pressed into their wrists and ankles, as if straps had been tightly fastened around them.â
âWeâve worked cases where the murders were carried out execution-style before,â Hotch pointed out. âIn those situations, the offender believes the victims are somehow guilty morally or socially and that's his duty to deliver justice. The use of electricity as a murder weapon is what sets this one apart. We need to go there andââ
âJJ, JJ, JJ my sweet girl, did you mention the podcast like I asked?â Penelopeâs voice suddenly came from the laptop, usually silent or absent when it came to discussing the gruesome details of a case. The woman inhaled sharply, realizing she had interrupted Hotchâs sentence. âOh, Iâm so sorry, I didnât mean toââ
âGarcia, Iâm not sureââ JJ began.
âWhat podcast?â Spencer asked.
That question seemed to seal something, caused silence to fall over the room, and focused everyoneâs attention on the two of them, the ones who knew something the rest didnât. And something JJ didnât seem particularly eager to share.
âWonderful that you ask,â Garcia replied enthusiastically, her tone taking on that same excited note as when she talked about her favorite game. She caught herself slightly, just enough to underline that she was now speaking with seriousness and conviction. âSo, my favorite true crime podcastâŚâ
âWait, wait,â Morgan cut in with a slow, halting motion of his hand. âSorry to interrupt you, but tell me, babygirl, since when do you listen to true crime podcasts?â
âOh, youâd have to listen to this one to understand! Itâs not that typical iâm a man with a deep voice and Iâll lower it even more while adding door creaking sounds in the background so youâll pee your pants listening to it at night kind of podcast,â Penelope, of course, demonstrated exactly what she meant.
Spencer glanced at Gideonâs face when she did that. He noticed Elle did the same.
âItâs called Rotten Cherry. This girl is so fun and she adds tons of her own commentary while still being respectful toward the victims and, well, significantly less toward the murderers but thatâs not the point, Iâm not giving her free promotion right nowâŚactually, no, I am! Because guys, she lives in the town where this is happening, so sheâs there, reporting on everything, talking to the localsâŚâ
âGarcia, youâre seriously suggesting we use some amateur podcast as our source of information?â Spencer asked skeptically, absolutely not believing it could be useful to them in any way. No matter how fun that girl was.
âSheâs not recording some kind of bullshit, she actually takes this seriously and professionally! And not as a main source of information, just something worth checking out. You know how small communities work. Nobody wants to talk, especially not to outsiders. But she actually managed to talk to one of the victimâs sisters, sheâs working hard to gather information about them and, you know, honor them in some way and that really could be helpful. I mean, you always look into the victimsâ histories and families anyway, trying to get to the unsub,â Penelope explained in a defensive tone.
A moment of silence fell, during which Spencerâs eyebrows remained doubtfully raised.
Until he felt Hotchâs sharp gaze fixed on him from across the table.
He understood what it meant almost instantly, and was already opening his mouth to protest â but got cut off.
âReid, youâll listen to it and let us know if thereâs anything useful for the investigation. In the meantime, weâll meet on the jet in fifteen minutes. Thatâs all.â
As everyone got up to leave the room, Spencer stayed behind for a brief moment, sighing with his eyes closed. He could go through hundreds of pages of case files four times faster than the rest of the team, and it wasnât nearly as exhausting for him â but listening? And not even dry facts, but information gathered by someone else, presented in a humorous way on top of that?
Hell no.
With that approach, Spencer set about what he considered a sisyphean task, already on board the jet. Because he couldnât refuse just because he had a feeling it wouldnât lead them anywhere. He hoped someone would offer to take on the task instead of him, but after they saw his reluctance, their sadistic tendencies toward him kicked in and no one made him such an offer.
Away from the rest, without enthusiasm, he put the headphones on. Garcia had sent him a link to episodes related to the case they had just started working on; unlike others discussing, for example, killers like Jeffrey Dahmer, these focused on local murders and were short, somewhat like brief news updates. Apparently, the host girl posted many of her thoughts on the matter on a blog closely tied to the podcast, but he decided to check that out later.
âCanât believe Iâm saying this, guys,â the podcast began in a clear, pure female voice. Spencer immediately liked her flawless diction but was a bit surprised by how she started the episode with no introduction or greeting.
âBut in todayâs episode, weâre heading to a picturesque place in northern Vermont where the church is right across from McDonaldâs, in case the guilt after your seventh burger this week pushes you all the way to the confessional and the most exciting event of the summer season is a festival with a contest for the best apple pie. Letâs not forget that everyone here knows not only you, your family up to five generations back, and your kindergarten friend, but also knows what youâre going to do even before you think about it yourself. And donât even get me started on how fast rumors spread. Welcome to Fairview, the town I had the pleasureâor notâto be born in and suffer in, I mean, be raised in for over twenty years. And where a murder happened. Oh, I feel guilty now for all those times I prayed for something interesting to happen here, obviously, I didnât mean thatâŚâ
Spencer caught himself listening to the intro completely still, fully focused on her rambling. Which didnât even directly relate to what interested him (the information needed for the investigation) and yet it engaged him completely! He reprimanded himself for it and for the rest of the episode made sure not to allow even the slightest corner of his mouth to lift â his task was to focus on the factual side.
And well, it turned out to be easier than you might think â the host immediately eased up on the jokes as soon as she approached the topic of the first discovered body. Sure, she still spoke quickly and with enthusiasm, and didnât entirely hold back her commentary either, but it was aimed straight at the local police, not the victims or the human tragedy. Spencer listened to the episodes chronologically;could feel the shift in mood that probably took hold in the whole town too â the girls were disappearing, and more bodies were being found.
The information she dug up was surprising, and for a moment he even wondered where she was getting it from. A few pieces seemed valuable enough that he made note of them in his mind. Of course, only as things worth considering, not as enlightened truth. After all, she was still an amateur. Although, he had to admit, some of her observations and insights were very accurate and this girl herself seemed really intelligentâŚ
Without realizing when, Spencer had listened to all the episodes related to this case. He slowly looked around the jet, not taking the headphones off his ears. Everyone was busy with somethingâtalking, playing cards, reading case files. No one paid him much attention, and they still had some time before landingâŚ
Reid started the first episode where the Rotten Cherry story began. It also concerned the Connecticut case, this time Bristol, one of the most notorious American killers â Robert Taylor. Of course, he knew almost everything about it, so he didnât understand why he decided to listen to it.
Maybe he was simply killing time. Maybe he wanted to find out what Garcia saw in this podcast that made it her favorite. Maybe there was something in her way of speaking that reached himâand held him.
In any case, her voice accompanied him right until they landed.
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The door of the trailer swung open in front of you, and you were endlessly grateful to Danny for teaching you how to unlock it with nothing but a screwdriver. And for not asking why you needed to know that.
You stepped inside carefully, the yellow blinds covering the small windows combined with the sun rays attacking them from outside created a warm, golden glow, and you could see tiny dust particles floating in the air. The interior was rather modest â a worn-out couch, a fridge probably dating back to the Cold War, a wardrobe with a broken handle that you had to open by digging your fingers into the gap between the doors.
You werenât expecting luxury â all the trailers on the outskirts of Fairview looked exactly the same, cheap enough to rent for people passing through, stopping there for a short time, a brief stage in their lives.
One of those people was twenty-eight-year-old Judy Perkins.
Judy had arrived in your town just a year ago. She didnât get too involved in the life of the local community, but she seemed polite. You could have a nice chat with her over the meat counter at the store or exchange a short but genuine hi when passing on the street.
According to her own words, she didnât have a place of her own yet â she was still looking for it, moving from one place to another, picking up waitress jobs and staying in cheap places.
You didnât know anything about whether she had any family. The label homo viator stuck to her.
And thatâs exactly why it seemed to you that you were the only one who truly cared about her disappearance.
Vanishing.
When a person is alone, their disappearance really gives meaning to that word. Suddenly, theyâre gone â they fade like they never existed. People notice it eventually, when they happen to remember, but they immediately wave it off, saying she probably just left. The police act the same way. Searching for a person feels pointless to them when there arenât worried parents visiting the station every day, asking about breakthroughs or new information.
You probably wouldâve thought she simply left, too. You probably wouldâve thought that â if it hadnât been for the three other women who went missing before her, and whose bodies had been found shortly after â in hospital gowns, with shaved heads, burned.
You pushed that vision away from yourself and forced your focus back to the task at hand. You broke into ahem ahem visited Judyâs place to find anything that would convince others, especially the police, but also yourself, that her absence wasnât just a regular disappearance.
Looking around the trailer, trying to figure out what could help you with that, you automatically drifted toward that retired fridge.
Okay, sour milk wasnât exactly evidence, but it was a good lead. After all, when you plan to leave, you donât really leave behind things that could spoil and stink up the place.
You sniffed the milk and immediately felt a gag reflex coming on.
You had to keep looking. Anything.
You moved back to the small living area of the camper, to the tiny dresser that turned out to be full of clothes she wouldâve packed if she were leaving. The wardrobe with the broken handle was nearly impossible to open, so you used the screwdriver you had brought with you.
On a hanger, there was the denim jacket Judy almost never parted with. Somehow, that made your stomach turn even more than the sour milk.
You drew a breath and turned away from the wardrobe, freezing for a moment. And thatâs when your eyes landed on the light red couch and the faded pillows.
Or rather, on something sticking out from under one of them.
You took three steps to reach it and sat down on the edge of the couch, grabbing the object.
A wallet.
A wallet with all her documents and cash.
Suddenly it felt so heavy in your hand. People take their wallet when they go to the store â all the more reason she wouldâve taken it if she was leaving. Or if she decided to move out.
Even if you choose to get rid of your old identity, you take that damn credit card and driverâs license with you â if only so they donât stay behind in the trailer thatâs about to be rented to someone else.
You felt your heart pick up a little. You were afraid the police wouldnât take it as enough proof, but for you â it was.
It was, and you were going to do something about it. Even if it meant bothering the cops every day and starting the search on your own.
You pushed yourself up onto straight legs, but you didnât get the chance to look around for anything else to be sure, when you heard someone walking up the metal steps leading to the camper.
It couldâve been anyone, but every version your mind came up with was terrifying.
You didnât really expect to come face to face with the killer â with the Executioner, as you called him on your podcast but the idea of running into the woman who rented out the trailers, Nora, who loved shooting at cans with her shotgun, wasnât much better.
You glanced around in panic and, without a moment of hesitation, jumped inside the wardrobe you had just searched.
Right around that same moment, the door to the camper opened.
The person who stepped inside mustâve stopped and looked around, because a long moment of absolute silence fell, during which your body was tangled up in the denim jacket and flannel shirt, surrounded by darkness.
You didnât want to hold your breath only to gasp for it later like a drowning person, but at the same time, it felt like you were breathing so damn loudly, youâd be noticed any second.
The police didnât like you much already for so-called â please, insert the monotonous, snarky tone imitating those old mustached cops â sticking your nose where it doesnât belong.
You didnât want to explain a break-in on top of that.
You heard how that person slowly, even more cautiously than you had, looked around the place. They were practically following your path heading to the kitchen and then back, stopping.
For a moment, a thought flashed through your mind. What if it was Judy?
Maybe, by some sick coincidence, she picked today to come back (assuming, of course, she hadnât been kidnapped) the same day you were searching her place? You felt the urge to lean out just a little, press your eye to the crack in the door and peek outside.
But you quickly reminded yourself â there was always a risk that it wasnât Judy. Or Nora.
The footsteps headed toward the exit.
And your damn phone.
Ringing at literally that exact moment, the ringtone filling not just the tiny wardrobe but the whole camper.Frantically, you shoved your hand into the jacket pocket, pulled it out and smashed your fingers against the screen, rejecting the call like crazy.
The callerâs name lit up. Charlie. Fucking Charlie â your friend and coworker.
The phone went silent, and for a split, tiny second you let yourself hope that maybe just maybe the person who entered the camper hadnât heard it. Maybe they had already leftâŚ
Of course not. Youâd have to be some damn favorite of fate for that.
The wardrobe door was yanked open, leaving you face to face with the intruder.
Your first instinct was to shut your eyes, but you quickly realized that was potentially the dumbest thing you couldâve done. So you opened them again, wide even, and immediately threw your hands up in a submissive gesture when you saw the owner of the campers, Nora, with a shotgun slung over her shoulder.
Her gray hair was tied back in a braid, and on her nose were small, narrow glasses. She seemed, in her own way, relieved at the sight of you â well, she probably wouldnât have taken the shotgun if she expected that it was just some nosy girl poking around her camper.
âMy God, kidâŚâ she muttered in a tone that sounded like spitting.
You jumped outside, still with your hands raised in the air. It was fine, just good old Nora. Good old Nora, who you now had to convince not to press charges for breaking and entering.
âGood morning, whatâs up?â you threw out, overly friendly, voice as high and innocent as possible. âI amâŚa very close friend of Judeâs and I dropped by to visit her. Um, actually, I dropped by for my jacket that I left here. In the wardrobe. The wardrobe I was in. Jude told me to just grab itâŚâ
Nora shook her head and slammed the wardrobe door shut, as if she simply wanted to cut herself off from the enormous nonsense you were saying with that sound
âSpare me that, I know youâre not,â she muttered, lowering the shotgun so it wasnât quite so in-your-face anymore, adjusting the strap top that revealed her heavily tanned, almost reddish shoulders.
She went quiet for a moment, pressing her lips together.
âI thought it was her. Judy. I thought she finally came back. I was hopingâŚâ
You stayed silent too, watching her expression closely. Was there worry in it? You finally lowered your arms and dropped the overly friendly act.
âSo you donât know what happened to her either,â you said.
Nora paused. She seemed cautious about giving away any information, eyeing you carefully over those narrow glasses.
âI know you,â she suddenly stated, narrowing her eyes. âYouâre the detective girl.â
âWell, more like a sort ofââ
âShe sometimes didnât come back to the camper for a few days, but never more than three,â Nora continued, turning her back to you and walking along the couch, though she didnât sit down.
You fell quiet obediently, letting her speak. You needed this information.
Also â did they really call you the detective girl?! Your fourteen-year-old Sherlock Holmes-obsessed self wouldâve been so proud.
âBesides, she never missed a weekâs rent. Normally, I kick out people like that immediately, but with her, I decided to wait. Sheâs been living here nearly a year. Always on time. Maybe something came up, maybe she had to deal with something out of town. But when it turned into weeksâŚâ
She trailed off.
Your foot twitched involuntarily in place â a mix of emotions, engagement, and restlessness. Why hadnât you thought to contact Nora before? She usually seemed cold, and youâd assumed from the start she wouldnât tell you anything. Maybe even scare you off with her gun and tell you to mind your own business.
âAll her documents, things, money, theyâre all here,â you stated, nodding toward the wallet lying on the couch. âThis doesnât look like she moved out or ran off to avoid paying rent. Did you report it to the police?â
Nora snorted.
âTheyâd say sheâs an adult. Probably left town. Besides, she wasnât from here. When youâre not born here and donât live in a house with a white picket fence, suddenly itâs not their problem,â she scoffed.
You nodded involuntarily, listening to her. Well, you couldnât exactly argue with that. Not that you wanted to.
âBut now we have to. This is a disappearance, and especially considering whatâs been happening lately⌠those murders,â you said, noticing Nora wince as you spoke.
âThere should be some kind of search underway. Iâm going straight to the stationââ
âGo straight home, kid,â she cut you off, turning fully toward you. âItâs getting dark, and itâs not safe to be wandering around like this. Not now.â
âBut I have to,â you repeated stubbornly.
You regretted that there wasnât any option other than involving the damn police, but really, it was the most logical place to start.
Nora sighed.
âIn that case, Iâll drive you myself,â she offered.
Your head pulled back slightly in genuine surprise. She shot you a look like, whatâs the matter? and you quickly nodded side to side, then up and down in your own chaotic way to show you agreed. You thought you caught a flicker of a smile as she turned toward the camperâs door.
You followed her like a ghost, one question still flickering on your lips. Outside, it was indeed getting dark. You stepped down the metal stairs and watched as Nora locked the door with a key from the set hanging on her pants belt.
You bit the inside of your cheek, mustering the courage to ask.
âWould you maybeâŚwant to be on my podcast? Say a few things about Judy?â
Nora passed by you without a word, heading toward her pickup.
âFirst, the police,â she replied.
âIs that yes?â
She didnât answer that, but after everything was over, after both of you argued a bit with the cops, squeezing all the juice out of your mixed personalities, and you stopped in front of your house where, as promised, she gave you a ride, you delayed getting out. And then, she agreed.
But she didnât want to come inside. You had to use your phone to record her briefly talking about Judyâwhat she was like, what she did, and that there was no trace of her. You added yourself what Judy looked like, just in case any of your listeners somehow spotted her somewhere.
If Judy was out there, safe and sound, which you forced yourself to believe, she wouldnât mind that episode.
Noraâs pickup disappeared down the road as you made your way along the short, greenery-lined path leading to the houseâyour mom loved gardening.
Even before stepping inside, you could already see the light on in the kitchen. You walked in and, fully expecting who youâd find there, tossed a casual hi, Iâm back while hanging your jacket by the door.
Only when the warmth of the house wrapped around you did you fully register how much colder the daysâand especially the eveningsâhad gotten as September pressed on.
With the recording of your conversation with Nora safely on your phone, you wanted to head straight upstairs to your room and, well, your little home recording studio. But you also didnât want to openly ignore your mom and Danny.
So you trudged into the kitchen, where they were having dinner by the breakfast nook, both more focused on the laptop screen than their food.
âWhen it comes to the electrical stuff, I really think we should hire a professional,â your mom was saying, eyeing the man beside her. She suddenly noticed you and offered a brief smile. âHey, hon.â Then she turned back to Danny. âOkay, I get it, youâre a genius, hardworking, and your hands are basically gold, but this is also about your safety.â
Danny raised his eyebrows.
"Wow, now thatâs some serious flattery. Genius, hands basically gold?"
"Ugh, thatâs the last time I compliment you. You always get so smug about it"
"Yeah, yeah, donât mind me" you muttered, opening the fridge to grab something edible to stuff your face with.
Your mom worked in buying and renovating small summer houses, which she later rented out or sold at a higher price. Danny, on the other hand, was her friendâthe townâs go-to handymanâcapable of fixing pretty much anything, from a broken pen to, probably, a tank.
You didnât know exactly how they met, but it was common knowledge around town that Dannyâs wife had passed away back when you were still a little kid. Either way, they worked on all this together. Dannyâs skills significantly cut down on renovation costs, and once they got caught up in their endless discussions about tiles, rooftops, and furniture, there was basically no getting through to them.
They kept teasing each other behind your back for a moment longer as you took a sip of juice, when suddenly you felt a hand with long nails tangle in your hair. You instinctively ducked, trying to slip away.
"Thereâs still some pasta left," your mom said, letting go of your hair with a small smile as she walked past you toward the kitchen door. "Iâm gonna take a shower. Be the most wonderful daughter ever and do the dishes, okay?"
You raised a warning finger.
"I always thought I was the most wonderful daughter no matter the conditions," you called after her.
"You are," she threw over her shoulder as she walked out. "But do the dishes."
Even though, after grabbing a snack, you'd much rather head upstairs and work on your blog and podcast, you didnât protest. You stayed behind with Danny, and for a moment, the small kitchen space was filled with complete silence but not because you felt awkward around him. Heâd been your momâs and your friend for so long that you could easily talk to him about almost anything, and besides, you were never the quiet type. But right now, he was focused on his laptop, and you were lost in your thoughts.
Your mind kept circling back to Judy and the hope that in the next few days, youâd finally manage to figure something out about her disappearance.
You loaded all the dishes into the dishwasher, and when you closed the door, you were surprised to notice that Danny was no longer sitting by the small kitchen counter. Instead, he was standing right next to you, leaning casually against the counter. He was a fairly tall man, solidly built thanks to his profession, with black, curly hair. Without saying a word, he was watching your movements, the thoughtful expression on his face â combined with the faint stubble that always made him look slightly scruffy â suggested he was preparing to say something.
You straightened up and tilted your head toward him questioningly.
"You got back a little late today," he remarked.
You finally recognized the look in his eyes â you could tell it was worry. Seeing your hesitation, which, to be fair, was mostly just surprise, Danny added quickly,
âItâs not like Iâm trying to lecture you or anything,â he said. âYouâre an adult. And Iâm not even your parent. But Iâm sure you know what I mean.â
You pressed your lips together slightly, showing him that yes, you did know. You figured you probably werenât the only girl in town who had recently had a similar conversation with one of her parents. Or siblings. Or friends.
âI know, Danny,â you sighed, nodding. âI really try not to go anywhere after dark. Alone. I drag Charlie with me whenever I can like heâs no bodybuilder, but better company like that than none at all. And when some guy in a white van offers to show me his cute little puppies, I make sure to say a firm only if you bring them outside first.ââ
He snorted with amusement, and you thought that would be the end of the conversation. It was genuinely nice of him to worry about his friendâs daughter and to make sure you knew how to handle yourself in dangerous situations but as it happened, after dozens of true crime cases you'd analyzed for your podcast, you were pretty damn good at that already. But instead of going back to his work, Danny suddenly reached out his hand. And in that hand, he was holding something.
You raised your brows at him.
âAre you seriously giving me pepper spray?â
He practically shoved it into your hands. For a moment, you just stared at the small bottle in surprise, but of course, you werenât about to say no. Better to have something to defend yourself with in a crisis, right? Before you managed to mumble your thanks, Danny spoke up again.
âAnd that oneâs really strong. Works great on serial killers, bears, and pushy boys. Donât be afraid to use it, just be careful not to spray it in your own eyes.â
You tightened your grip on the pepper spray and looked the man in the eyes, giving him a small nod.
âThanks, Danny.â
For a moment, silence settled between you and for the first time, probably not just between you and him, but between you and anyone, it actually felt awkward. Danny was the one to break it, clearing his throat and nodding towards the laptop.
âWanna see some pictures of the inside of the cabin weâre working on? Slowly, day by day, itâs actually starting to look likeâŚyou know, an actual structure.â
This time, you chuckled softly but shook your head, feeling a tiny sting of guilt.
âIâm so sorry, but Iâve got some work to do. You know⌠podcast things.â
âNo, totally get it. Good luck.â
âYou too. And thanks again for the spray.â
Danny waved his hand dismissively, as if to say donât mention it.
âĄď¸
The biggest perk of working at a tiny tech shop was that, for the most part, there was practically nothing to do.
It was about the size of a modest neighborhood convenience store, but instead of candy bars and cigarettes behind the counter, there were flip phones on display, various cables, monitors, USB sticks. Sometimes people stopped by to grab a charger after losing theirs somewhere, but most customers came in asking for device repairs â water damage, viruses, screen protectors. The last one you could handle yourself, but the real tech genius was your coworker, Charlie.
Most days, the two of you spent sitting on the chairs behind the counter, quickly pulling your feet down whenever someone walked through the door. It allowed you to use your job to work on something way more interesting. More than once, you edited podcast episodes there, or like now, replied to comments under one of them.
When it came to editing, your go-to help was, of course, Charlie. Especially when you were so caught up in research for a case that you simply couldnât make it in time for Friday, when the new episode was supposed to drop. That was the only reason you hadnât strangled him for calling you yesterday right when you were hiding in the closet of a camper you had, wellâŚbroken into.
But anyway, you two were supposed to finish work in an hour, and it had been a very quiet day. Charlie was sitting next to you as usual, buried in one of his oversized hoodies, his long, light brown hair falling over the hood, and a giant, probably his fifth that day cup of coffee in front of him.
You often wondered how the hell that boy wasnât constantly shaking from caffeine overdose. But it was quite the opposite. He always looked sluggish and spaced out, with grayish bags under his eyes and his phone in hand, killing boredom by playing some game.
You were holding your laptop on your knees, nervously chewing your thumbnail for the past five minutes, staring at a single comment youâd received.
Rotten Cherry hadnât brought you nationwide fame, you didnât have to swat away fans everywhere you went but you had managed to build a pretty loyal audience. Fans who often sent you their own sources or additional information to go along with the episodes you made. You never took it as nitpicking; you actually wanted your materials to be as thoroughly researched as possible, and you didnât feel pressured to dig up every little thing yourself.
One user, blackqueen6969, regularly sent you documents so detailed youâd caught yourself wondering whether they were some bored FBI agent killing time after hours. Youâd joked about it to Charlie (before he had his coffee, so naturally, he was grumpy though, honestly, heâd been grumpy a lot lately). His response you seriously think some agent would risk their entire career for a random girl with a podcast?
This time though, the comment didnât come from blackqueen6969 but from some other, unregistered user.
i like to go urbexing in abandoned places from time to time and last time i ended up at the old transformer station in the woods near fairview. iâd heard a couple rumors before about someone regularly hanging around there and even people hearing weird noises. i didnât even dare to go inside. swear to god someoneâs using that station and considering all those women got electrocuted i instantly kinda connected those two things. i think someone should check it out.
âCharlie,â you muttered to get your friendâs attention. His eyes were still fixed on his phone, but it didnât look like he was actually playing anything. âCharlie.â
You kicked one leg of his chair, which turned out to be a much more effective way to snap him out of his daze. He straightened up in his seat, shooting you a questioning, slightly irritated look. Unfazed, you turned your laptop screen so he could read the comment.
He leaned in to see better. You patiently waited for him to get to the last line you knew exactly when he did yet the boy still stayed silent. It wasnât until about a minute later that he started shaking his head, first slowly, then faster and faster.
âThereâs no fucking way Iâm going there with you.â
You were sure he was going to say that, and even before he finished the sentence, you were already looking at him intentlyâconvincingly, almost pleadingly.
âAnd thereâs no fucking way Iâm going there aloneâ
âSo, donât.â
âBut I have to! I have to check it outââ
âListen,â Charlie cut you off with a hand gesture, signaling you to stop before you could say another word. When you opened your mouth, he repeated the motion, this time more forcefully. âI know playing detective is your dreamââ
âThis isnât about dreams, asshole, itâs about a missing womanââ
âBut you canât just go alone to some remote place because someone on the internet told you to. It could be anyone. Maybe someoneâs just trying to lure you there.â
It was a very valid point, which you also quickly considered, but decided to ignore for a simple reason. It was holding you back from acting. And you wanted to act. You wanted to do something. Besides, you didnât plan to blindly rush into danger marked as the lair of a serial killer. You only wanted to investigate the lead youâd been given, taking every precaution and bringing someone else along.
You fell silent, knowing Charlie wouldnât understand if you tried to explain it to him.
âWell,â you finally began, deciding to approach it differently. âMaybe someone really is trying. In that case, theyâll succeed, because Iâm going there.â
âForget it, Iâm not going with you.â
âIâll go alone.â
âNo.â
Charlie stared at you with anger, which must have been fueled by your deliberately arrogant expression. He had been quite distant lately. Often mean and curt. But one thing about Charlie was that he truly cared about his loved ones and was ready to do a lot for them, whether family or friends.
Finally, he sighed, and either you imagined it or his breath was truly trembling. For a moment, he even squeezed his eyes shut, his temples all wrinkled, and you hesitated, not knowing where that reaction came from. He took his time and opened them, looking at you unfavorably. The strange behavior was gone.
âFine,â he grumbled.
You tried not to look too smug so he wouldnât change his mind, but inside you were literally dancing.
âI can always count on you, Charlie.â
âShut up.â
âWeâll meet at midnight.â
He was halfway looking back at his phone screen, then snapped his gaze back to you.
âYouâre completely insaneââ
âIâm joking,â you rolled your eyes. âSix oâclock? Itâs been getting darker earlier lately and I have no idea how long this will take.â
He seemed to genuinely consider it, even paler than usual, the gray bags under his eyes turning almost purple.
âIâll pick you up at five,â he decided.
You agreed and wanted to get back to answering comments, but you couldnât help sneaking a glance at him out of the corner of your eye. He hadnât returned to playing the game at all, clenching his fists tightly, seeming to hold back from shaking.
âSorry for a moment,â he finally muttered and got up from his chair, heading to your small shop bathroom.
You watched him leave but didnât have much time to guess what it could have been about when the little bell on the door jingled, signaling that someone had come inside.
âGood afternoon, Mr. Benson,â you greeted the man, who was probably nearing eighty, with a neatly trimmed white beard and a navy blue shirt thrown over a white undershirt.
Mr. Benson, as usual, approached the counter and slid his phone towards you. A funny thing â he came to your shop every day, asking someone to set the alarm on his phone, which was too technologically complicated a tool for him.
âBe so kind,â he said, as always.
You grabbed the phone to do the usual, unchanged for nearly a few months now.
âFour in the morning. I really admire you.â
He ignored your attempt to start a conversation, took the phone from you, and with just a âgoodbye,â headed toward the exit without looking back, as usual, unchanged for nearly a few months now.
You really liked your job.
âĄď¸
As promised, Charlie picked you up a few minutes after five. He wasnât in the best mood. Honestly, you werenât exactly bursting with joy either at the thought of exploring an abandoned, potentially dangerous murder site, but your driving force â curiosity, determination, and the desire to help restore safety to the women in your town â was too strong. Adrenaline completely pushed out the bad gut feeling.
Wanting to somehow spark conversation during the ride out of town, you teasingly commented on the black beanie Charlie had put on, saying he really looked handsome dressed like a burglar, but he only shot you a warning look. You rolled your eyes.
The town's main road, sprinkled here and there with the first orange autumn leaves and sparsely spaced buildings, slowly began to transform into empty roadsides, tall metal electrical towers, and after about half an hour of driving trees, trees, more trees, and before you even realized it, you were driving through the forest.
You became your navigator, having earlier dug through the internet in search of clues on how to get to this place. The pockets of your jacket were practically stuffed with items. The pepper spray Danny had given you, a flashlight even though it was bright outside, a fully charged phone, a pocket knife. With every passing meter, your knee tapped out an increasingly fast rhythm and you started to consider whether maybe you shouldâve brought garden shears, in case the area was surrounded by a fence. But it was too late for that. If you asked Charlie to turn around, heâd probably do it without hesitation, but then he wouldnât come back here later.
Speaking of Charlie, you watched him out of the corner of your eye, you felt like the distance you covered was proportional to how shallow his breathing became. When the car bounced along the forest path and the building you were looking for was already visible ahead, his chest covered by a navy blue hoodie barely rose at all. He parked.
You took a deep breath to give yourself some courage, and your hand was already reaching for the handle when you noticed your friend wasnât moving, just staring straight ahead at the transformer station and shaking his head.
âThis crapâs gonna collapse on our heads,â he said. The shaking of his head intensified, his face was completely white. âIâm not going in there. Weâre not going. Iâm turning backâŚâ
You literally had to pry his hands off the steering wheel, he pressed the gas pedal and then immediately let go, the car jolted and your ears rang when the back of your head hit the seat. You angrily exhaled through your teeth with a hiss.
âWe came all the way here just for you to change your mind now?â you asked.
âI didnât know it looked like this. N-no⌠no, no way, itâs dangerous, it might still be hooked up to electricityââ
âThatâs why I brought you with me! So we could help each other if necessary, for godâs sake, are you seriously going to chicken out now when weâre literally already here?â you hissed at him, waving your hand toward the area in front of you.
Charlie clenched his jaw, holding your gaze without blinking. His hands still gripped the steering wheel, one of your hands covering them, preventing him from driving off. You glanced down and noticed his knuckles were trembling. Knuckles. If he loosened his grip, his whole hands would start shaking in panic.
You exhaled through your nose, lowering your tone a bit. But only a bit. He might be scared, but he was still here with you, and he was your friend and friends support each other when one of them is about to investigate a potential serial killerâs hideout.
âFine, just stay here,â you finally said, letting go of him and reaching for the car door. You placed one foot outside, already knowing that nothing would make you turn back. âIf Iâm not back in, say, half an hour, call the police. Unless thatâs too scary for you too.â
With that snarky comment, you fully stepped out into the forest clearing and slammed the door shut behind you.
But you walked slowly.
Not because you were scared.
You were simply sure that Charlie would soon call out wait and jog after you. You turned around. He was still sitting in his seat, one elbow resting on the window and his head supported by the same hand.
You pressed your lips together tightly. From the beginning, you thought this would be a two-person job. The thought of having him by your side gave you courage. Now, completely alone, you picked up your pace even more, refusing to let fear devour you.
Your target, the transformer station, looked nothing like the modern, small ones. Made of dark, rust-colored bricks, overgrown with moss at the bottom, it had a second floor and was fairly elongated. Most of the structure was heavily damaged, and probably for safety reasons, it didnât have any windowsâonly small ventilation openings covered with metal grates. Around it were the remains of some sort of fencing, rusty rods sticking crookedly out of the ground, but they didnât stop you in the slightest from circling the building in search of an entrance.
You turned on your flashlight even before pushing those metal doors open.
The first thing that caught your eyeâgrass.
Thatâs right, grass. The concrete floor was completely cracked, and long green blades of grass sprouted through it. Grass covered nearly the entire ground floor. The interior had been almost completely cleared of anything, so empty that if you spoke, your voice would probably echo off the walls. As you cautiously stepped further inside, sweeping your flashlight along the walls, you noticed coils of cables piled in the corners, some snapped, and dangling metal boxes marked with high voltage warnings.
You stopped, slightly disoriented. The place looked completely abandoned. Not that you were expecting a torture chamber butâŚ
You had probably arrived with expectations that were far too high.
But that wasnât the end of it. There were also concrete stairs without a railing, leading to the upper floor. You paused at the bottom, testing their stability. Decent enough, which couldnât be said for the floor above. It was cracked, destroyed, in places literally full of holesâbig enough that one wrong step and youâd earn yourself an express trip back downstairs.
It was brighter there thanks to a collapsed fragment of the outer wall, through which daylight streamed inside. You approached it, the plaster from the walls and ceiling crunching and crumbling beneath your boots. Your legs were shaking all over you were terrified the floor would simply give way beneath you at any moment. At least your worries about bumping into someone were gone this place didnât look like anyone had been using itâŚfor shady purposes.
You werenât mad at the person who left the comment that lured you here. You preferred to check this lead than ignore it and regret it later. You were just disappointed. You could already hear Charlieâs sarcastic remarks on the way back, the smugness, the complaints about why you even came here in the first place.
You leaned out through the hole in the wall, expecting to spot his car and flip him off. But something didnât add up. You froze in place. Charlieâs car, parked under that specific treeâŚwas gone.
Instead, there was a completely different one. Black, with tinted windows. Parked right up next to the station.
Still frozen, you felt a sting of panic spreading through your chest. You tried to swallow it down. Suppress it. Your fear wouldnât get you out of this situation. It would only make it worse. You had to be smart.
You instinctively took a step back, away from the hole in the wall. You immediately cursed silently. The plaster beneath your feet let out a cracking soundâwalking around here made noise. You strained your ears, listening for any signs that someone else had entered the building, but the loud pounding of your own heartbeat drowned out everything.
Shit.
It couldâve been a random urbex enthusiast. It couldâve been the Executioner.
50/50.
If they had entered the building, you were screwed. There was only one exitâdownstairs. Your only hope was that they wouldnât come upstairs. So, you should stay here. But if they did come upstairs?
Your eyes flicked toward the hole in the wall. Jumping from that height shouldnât hurt you. But if you landed badly and twisted your ankle? Youâd have no way to get out of here. Charlie had left. It was over a thirty minutes drive back to town.
Soâhide and pray.
As quietly and carefully as you could, holding your breath, you made your way to one of the walls, where a metal box lay, looking like it had fallen off the wall. There were no cables connected to it, it didnât seem like there was any risk of getting electrocuted, so the desperate idea popped into your head.
It was tiny. But if you curled up well enoughâŚ
You crouched down and opened the little door, the creak loud, and squeezed your eyes shut in fear.
Slowly, you pulled them open again, feeling dizzy from holding your breath. The open little door made you want to cry from that reality check â not even a four-year-old kid would fit inside. And on top of that, it wasnât even empty. Inside there wasâŚ
Instinctively, you grabbed the tin. The kind grandmas keep cookies in. Except this one didnât have a lid. It was open, and the moment you looked inside, you saw what was in it. You almost threw it away, thinking it was a spider nest â well, no surprise you thought that.
The tin was full of hair.
Black. Brown. And red.
You tossed it away from you the second realization hit you.
You studied the faces of the victims. You knew Judy had dark, dyed black hair.
Gita â natural, dark brown.
Georgina â born a redhead.
You took a terrified step back andâŚyou were standing close enough to the hole in the floor for the weak edges to simply collapse under your weight.
Any fall from that height knocks the air right out of your lungs. Pain shot through you like a blade, and mid-air you managed to shield your head with your arms, at the same time dropping the flashlight. Luckily, you didnât hit the floor flat on your back.
You didnât even hit the floor.
It wouldâve hurt more if you had hit the floor. The floor wouldnât have let out a shocked, cut-off scream and a groan when its body was suddenly crushed by another one and pinned down to the concrete.
In other words â you landed right on top of someone.
It didnât change the fact that the fall knocked the air out of your lungs and left you unable to remember your name, your age, or the difference between a killer and a murderer. Dazed, disoriented, aching all over, you tried to lift your head, only to realize you were lying directly on top of someoneâs face. A face positioned squarely beneath yours, most likely just as incapable of answering those three vital questions. His glasses were completely covered in the white dust falling from the collapsed ceiling.
But you didnât even get the chance to take a proper look at the man who had cushioned your fall when someone grabbed your arm from behind and yanked you upright. The guy in glasses, his face all twisted in pain, managed to push himself up into a sitting position, bracing one hand against the concrete floor, and that was pretty much the last thing you saw before your gaze dropped to a woman with chin length hair and bangs, wearing an FBI vest.
Thatâs when it hit you.
The person who had entered the building, and from whom you had tried to hide in the metal box, wasnât The Executioner, but someone from the complete opposite end of the spectrum. Police.
The metal box. And what you had found.
Suddenly, it all came back to you. Strands of hair flashed before your eyes, and a chill raced down your spine, making you jolt.
"Hey, hey, hey, easy," came a voice from behind you. The man who had pulled you off the ground.
You turned your head over your shoulder to see a solidly built agent with darker skin. You shook your head wildly, side to side, unable to find the words.
Given where theyâd found you, they probably werenât looking at you too kindly, but you didnât care about that right now, you had to tell them.
"You need to go upstairs," you urged, pleading.
All three of them (yes, including the man in glasses with the crushed leg, whoâonce he stood upâturned out to be the tallest of them, with a lean build and brown hair dusted with white plaster from the ceiling, which most likely covered you from head to toe as well) exchanged wary glances.
âOur people just went upstairs,â the woman said to you.
Her gazeâsteely at firstâsuddenly softened, for she now saw who you were, not who they had assumed you to be. You werenât a threat; you were simply at the scene they had also chosen to investigate, a terrified girl who had just fallen through the ceiling, showing no aggression, only pleading with horror in her voice for them to go upstairs.
âSSA Agent Elle Greenaway, Agent Morgan, and Agent Reid,â she introduced them all briefly. Out of the corner of your eye, you glanced at the man you'd landed on, making a mental note of his name. Since you'd already crushed him, common decency dictated you should at least know it. âAre you alright? Did you hurt yourself?â
The man behind you seemed to mirror the concern in her voice. He loosened his grip and, after a momentâs thought, let go of you entirely.
You murmured a thanks while rubbing your sore...everything.
âN-no,â you stammered, only just realizing youâd been asked a question. You cleared your throat, trying to give your voice a bit more strength. âNo, Iâm not hurt. I actually had aâŚpretty soft landing. Are you okay?â
You looked at Agent Reid, who didnât move at first, then blinked wide-eyed at being suddenly addressed.
âAm I okay? I meanâŚâ he paused, shaking white dust from his hair. Then he nodded slowly, mostly to himself. âYeah, okay. I think Iâm okay. Technically, I did hit my head on a concrete surface, and the real symptoms of a concussion like memory loss or light sensitivity usually show up a few hours later, so I guess Iâll only really know thenââ
Agent Greenaway gave you a look. Unfazed, as if well-accustomed to this kind of rambling.
âIâd only be worried if he werenât talking. Heâs fine.â
From upstairs, another pair of agents came down the stairs. A dark-haired man and another, shorter one, both dressed in FBI vests and putting away their guns, indicating the upstairs was clear. One of them, the older one, was holding your find in a gloved hand.
At the sight of the can, you took in more air. Agent Reid turned his head in your direction, but his attention was immediately pulled by the words of the dark-haired man. âWe need to send this for analysis as soon as possible. Itâs full of hair, and as we know, the victims were found with shaved heads. Other than that, clear,â he explained in a stern tone. Only then did his eyes fall on you, his brow furrowed.
You awkwardly raised a hand to wave and introduce yourself, but Elle spoke up first. âSheâs a civilian, Hotch. Sheâs here becauseâŚâ She stopped, looking at you with a raised eyebrow. âWhat are you actually doing here?â
This whole Hotch crossed his arms over his chest, expectant, and you felt the atmosphere in the building grow thickerâall eyes on you. Even the man holding the can, who remained silent; and when you looked at him, your jaw slightly dropped. âWait, are you Jason Gideon?â you asked, pointing at him.
Another round of collective glances. You ignored it, blurting out quickly, âSorry. Iâm a fan. Hi.â Ohmygodshutthefuckup You shook your head, one wide motion, forcing yourself to focus. You couldnât blame yourself for that reaction. Anyone interested in criminology knew that name. âIâm here because Iâm recording a podcast about the crimes in this town and, well, someone suggested I check out this placeâŚâ
âI knew your voice sounded familiar,â Reid interrupted you, a sudden look of realization crossing his face. âItâs a bit different from the recording, but I knew Iâd heard it somewhere.â
His words completely threw you off. You stared at the man in glasses like heâd just fallen through the ceiling onto you.
âYou know my podcast?â you asked.
He looked a bit embarrassed, opening his mouth to reply, but someone cut him off.
âWe keep track of all news related to this case, even if it comes from unofficial sources â itâs part of our work,â Hotch explained in a calm, low tone. You got the impression that since you met him, about three minutes ago, his face hadnât changed expression once, still holding that same stone-cold look. âWho suggested you check out this place? You need to tell us, it could be crucial to the case.â
You stood frozen, not answering his question. One thought echoed loudly in your mind. The FBI listens to your podcast?!
âI dunno, someone,â you finally stammered.
Wow. First the hair, then the collapsed ceiling, then Jason Gideon, and now this. It all felt like a dream where things kept getting progressively stranger. And thatâs exactly how you felt. Like in a haze, not fully grasping the seriousness of the situation. It only started sinking in when Hotchâs gaze seemed to bore a hole right through your skull. The hair. The victims. This place, the very place that could be a crime scene.
âThat was a comment. Anonymous. I donât know who sent it.â
âAnd you decided to come here? Alone?â
âIâm not alone, Iâm withââ
You stopped yourself, biting your tongue. Like you agreed with yourself earlier, the gravity of the situation was creeping back. They werenât exactly friendly toward you; maybe Elle was at first, when she thought you were hurt. But now, you were just a civilian at a potential crime scene, just like Charlie, who had probably left when he spotted them. Should you tell them he was with you?
âYouâre here withâŚ?â Agent Morgan cut in, folding his arms across his chest.
You bit the inside of your cheek; every second you hesitated about whether to tell them or not affected your credibility, and you could see it in their increasingly suspicious expressions. Yet, you didnât want to get arrested for further questioning, plus you were still angry at Charlie. Seeing the police, he should have stayed and helped you explain everything instead of running away. You sighed.
âI was here with my friend Charlie. He was waiting in the car.â
âWe didnât see any car,â Reid informed you, his hands folded over his FBI vest, under which a shirt cuff peeked out, something you found oddly interesting.
âYeah. He must have taken off when he saw you.â
âVery loyal of him.â
âWellâŚâ
âOkay, thatâs enough. This place needs to be completely secured and thoroughly examined,â Hotch interrupted, pulling his phone out of his pocket. âElle, take her outside. Iâll need to have a word with her.â
The woman led you outside, and because the area was so covered, everything was cast in shadow, even though it wasnât that late yet. Maybe it was just the effect of that day, the discovery in the building, but everything felt darker, more sinister. You didnât know how long you waited outside. No one wanted to talk to you, and when the BAU agents spoke among themselves, they did so in a way that not a scrap of information reached your ears. Whenever you tried to eavesdrop, you were immediately shot a warning look.
At some point, you noticed Agent Hotchner approaching.
âFollow me. Weâll talk in the car,â he announced without even stopping.
You furrowed your brow but followed him toward the black SUV.
âIn the car?â
âWe canât just leave you in the middle of the woods.â
Right. You forgot you came here with Charlie. Most of the agents stayed on site, but Reid was ordered to follow you both. He sat in the passenger seat as Hotch opened the door for you to get in the back.
Your knee jittered nervously the entire way. You had to steady it by pressing your hand against it. For a while, none of you spoke. You tried to keep your mouth shut so as not to upset them further, but it didnât work.
âThis is a crime scene, right? The Executioner was here and left hair as his trophy. In my opinion, itâs almost certainââ
âYour opinion doesnât count hereâ
âYeah, but you probably have your own suspicions, rightââ
You stopped yourself as you caught Reidâs warning glance in the rearview mirror. It told you not to say any more. You clenched your jaw. You had literally seen that hair with your own eyes! They could tell you anything.
âWeâre not going to discuss the irresponsibility of checking places like this on your own. Youâre probably aware of that by now,â Hotch began as you drove out of the woods, down the lonely road you had come earlier with Charlie. âWe just need to inform you that you have an absolute ban on mentioning this topic in your podcast. Understood?â
You didnât say it out loud, but mentioning it on the podcast was the first thing you planned to do once you got back. before they forbade you from doing it.
Reid, seeing your unreadable expression, spoke up.
âWee donât want people to start taking too much interest in this place, for anyone to try visiting it and interfering with the investigation. Itâs also for your own safety. We donât know if the killer isnât following your podcast.â
âI think youâre assuming Iâm a lot more famous than I actually am,â you objected.
They ignored the comment. You sighed. The ride continued in silence. Soon, the area around you started to look more and more familiar. You were driving through the streets of Fairview and eventually ended up in front of your house.
âIf anyone suggests you go somewhere again, or someone sends you some important information, contact us immediately,â Hotch instructed you just as you were about to get out of the car.
With your hand on the door, you shook your head. âHow am I supposed to contact you?â
Apparently, it was a valid point, because Agent Reid reached into a small notebook tucked under his vest and jotted down a few digits on a piece of paper.
âHere,â he turned slightly in his seat, handing you the number and for a fleeting moment letting his eyes rest on your face.
There wasnât a single speck of plaster left on his glasses, he mustâve polished them thoroughly. Slowly, you reached for the paper, holding it hesitantly like it was some kind of evidence.
âThanks,â you muttered.
Then silence. Right, they were waiting for you to get out of the car. You came to your senses and stepped outside, onto the driveway of your house. Slowly, still not fully at peace with what had happened that day, you walked inside. Turning back just once to glance at the SUV as it drove away.
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