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[angeliiite]

wahh no one love me no one care. get a fucking grip and just kill your self if you mean it.

[angeliiite]

i am filled with so much grief for relationships i don't have anymore. i have had so many best friends over the years who i connected with on an insane level where we talked all day every day and understood each other so well and had so much fun together and had inside jokes and we WERE each others person. and they are all gone. all of them. and it's mostly my fault. i am the fucking problem and it's my fault i am alone now

[angeliiite]

i am a burden to my parents i am a burden to my friends. even my closest friends if i try to tell them i'm suffering they just respond with one word answers. like no one fucking actually cares about me or thinks my problems are real

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& i feel like no one actually wants to be my friend or have me around really and they're only doing it out of convenience because i'm there. and i can't tell anyone i'm having these feelings because it'll come off like a guilt trip but i genuinely feel so unloved and alone. but that's a good thing because i make fucking everything about myself and every time i contribute in conversation or try to talk about things i've experienced or what the fuck ever immediately after i say anything i just know in the pit of my stomach that people are annoyed with me and they don't care and they're so tired of me being attention seeking and unable to connect with other people.

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i literally feel like i'm so fucking stupid all the time. like i think i truly don't understand anything and even when i agree with things i can articulate why or the reasoning or at least move it between my head and my mouth. and it's so so so fucking demoralizing because i used to be smarter & then a car accident and drug use and severe acute psychosis took so much cognitive functioning from me. like i literally feel like a fucking idiot all the time and it makes me feel like absolute shit.

[angeliiite]

perpetually convinced that none of my friends actually like me. i am struggling struggling struggling i feel so ALONEEEE and i feel like i'm so annoying and insufferable and no one wants me around and i am perpetually the outsider.

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[angeliiite]

i love you i would kill anyone for you mister boy man

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my sweet baby kitty cat coming to lay next 2 me while i'm crying and gently putting his giant paw on my face and licking my forehead. u are an angel

[angeliiite]

There’s a lot of things you’ve done that Becky doesn’t know about

[angeliiite]

dermatillomania is already a supremely unsexy diagnosis but getting staph infections on your face. that fucking hurt and look awful. really cool and fun

[angeliiite]

help. face hurt

[angeliiite]

i have some sort of skin infection on my face and it's rlly small right now but it hurts so fucking bad and i keep touching it even tho im really not supposed to and im making it worse. 👍

[angeliiite]

likeeee. but what if [horrifying and terrible thought] what then??? what would i do.... (answer: kill my self.)

[angeliiite]

i am normal and well adjusted. when one of my closest friends stops responding for a couple days i do NOT assume that they hate me and are actively conspiring against me. i do NOT fall into a deep spiral. i am normal.

[angeliiite]

i have to be up in 4 hours but it's fine