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Turns out that cake shot was fuckin foreshadowing for how this fight was gonna be: ✨️ass✨️ 💀

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No one:

Mike Tyson while netflix is buffering for the 10th time tonight:

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Not to be that person, but if you're blaming third party voters, just admit that you can't fucking do math.

Even if Every. Single. God Damn third party voter went blue, we would STILL be fucked.

No, i did not vote third party myself, I'm just so fucking sick of mfs blaming other leftists rather than the people who actively voted a literally fascist into power. Please shut the fuck up. You are guilty of the same in-fighting that you're accusing others of.

We are united in the fact that we are all fucked. I know we're angry and scared, but now is not the time for division. We need community. We need support. We need each other.

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Madoka got me cryin rn, but not for the normal reasons, but bc I've never experienced hope being so far from my grasp that it's become a this strange, nebulous concept.

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I. I cannot even process this shit. I'm genuinely so fucking scared.

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Welp.

Nederland, hier komen we ✌🏻🥲

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Hahahahaha we're so fuckin cooked yall holy shit

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I'm so bad at decision making lol

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Oh good heavens 👁👁 going through the work of getting my fiance into goth music as well as currently working on creating a goth music project with him is having unforseen consequences and I feel myself reverting

So uhhhh I'm probably gonna massively overhaul my blog's aesthetic again sometime soon lol

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𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 ����𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤 𝕋𝕦𝕞𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕦𝕝𝕝 𝕠𝕗 𝕠𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤

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I'm finally getting my fiance into goth music let's fucking GOOOOO!! So far he likes Vision Video, Twin Tribes, Rosegarden Funeral Party, and Depeche Mode :3

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It's ween 👁👁

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Sometimes I'll be super busy and go a week or two barely making any progress in my dutch lessons or I'll be struggling a lot with a unit and I'll get really discouraged in either case. I'll start telling myself "i don't even know why I'm trying. Learning a new language is such a fucking difficult task, I'll never truly get the hang of it" and consider just dropping it.

But then I'll listen to a song or watch a video in dutch and find that I'm able to understand bits and pieces of it, especially if there are captions or I'm looking at the lyrics, and I get super excited bc it shows that I am actually learning. I am slowly understanding more and more of this language that's entirely new to me. I'm not essentially doing this for nothing bc I'm actively experiencing the results of the work I'm putting in. I mean, I'm not even a year into dutch so it makes me really hopeful to think of where I'll be with it in like five years when I'm getting ready to (fingers crossed) move to the Netherlands with my sweetie.

So uh yeah, if you're learning a new language, instrument, skill, whatever it is, and you find yourself struggling, remember to be patient with yourself and don't drop it. Keep working at it and you will get the hang of it 🩷

^^^me @ myself and now also @ y'all ✨️🌸💗💕🫰🏻

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Working through grief against my will

The irony of the last interaction I had with my friend being him telling me that he missed me and our other friends and how he was gonna come by some time to see every one again. It's been about a year and a half and I still can't truly come to terms with the fact that I'm never gonna see him again. That weird part of my brain keeps telling itself that eventually someone's gonna say "psych, he's all good, get pranked idiots" or that I'm gonna wake up and it's gonna all have been a weird fuckin dream.

My other friend died not too long after him and I feel so much anger. She deserved to find a partner that actually appreciated her and made her feel secure. Her son deserves to grow up with his mother and have actual memories of getting to know what a sweet, strong, amazing person she was. Sje deserved to move out of her tiny town and live her own life and express herself how she wanted. I wish I could have told her about my engagement, talked about wedding plans, having her as a bridesmaid. I wish we could have had the weekend long sleepovers we talked about doing. Sometimes, I'll catch myself thinking "omg, I haven't heard from Zoe in a minute, I gotta check in her" and then I remember I can't. I never can.

It's not like I'm new to losing people that i love. But I've never lost anyone so young so suddenly. They both had so much ahead of them and it all ended in an instant. It's not fair. Death is never really fair, though.

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What are y'all's favourite Sanrio characters rn? ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ Here's my current top 5 (in no particular order bc I can't decide lol)!!

Mamegoma (specifically Shirogoma and Sakuragoma 🤍🩷)

Marumofubiyori

My Sweet Piano

Hanamaruobake

Sugarbunnies (too many super cute ones, I can't pick!! /(>×<)\)

(Honourable mention: Usahana. Just barely got pushed out of the top 5 by Sugarbunnies, but I still love her so much)

Comment or reblog, I wanna know who you like ♡☆*･゜ﾟ･*\(^O^)/*･゜ﾟ･*☆♡