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System Updates

It's really fun to cut the body's hair! But Mommy says we shouldn't do that...

Especially since we have a job interview Wednesday! We already cut the body's hair tho...

Asphodel is still refusing to eat and says she doesn't need it, so Mommy's gonna give her a feeding tube and formula tonight. Asphodel says she just needs fruit, milk, and honey to live on cuz she's an angel but that's not true for real angels, not even demons like Asphodel

I don't wanna go to bed but Jadie says I need to stop crying about it and to shut up!! She's so mean!!

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The whole parts vs. people debate also just doesn't acknowledge that the concept of personhood is subjective.

What is a person? Alter are not going to have their own body or brain, but do you know what they might have? Different perspectives and different experiences (amnesia go brrr). Different ways of looking at life. Different likes and dislikes. Different opinions and different relationships to others. Hell, some alters even have different tastes in food. Everyone is going to draw that line differently, and that's ok.

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“i’m not the same as who i was before [x] thing happened to me” does it help to know that you would not have stayed that person regardless

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Tw: psychotic thoughts

So Asphodel is no longer allowed to front. For reasons.

After this, Vaggie spent a while with her. Fed her, talked her down off the metaphorical ledge. It took all night to get her to a safe mindset and get her to bed.

We haven't seen her in months, and now all this.

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system ask game for traumagenic systems!

reposted due to us deleting our previous sysblog <3

remember that you are free to decline any question if it feels too invasive, this is for fun and you are not forced to answer anything 🤍

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

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Quietly panics and drops our ko-fi

I haven't got a chance to front since we moved and I'm the main person who looks for jobs at the moment. (Is there a role for that) We're currently unemployed and desperate to contribute to our current rent prices. If you can't help at least spread the word so someone else who can may see it.

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Today at dinner Rhea just started throwing a huge fit. She was crying and stomping and just being a brat. She almost knocked over her plate and got noodles everywhere. Lucifer took her on a walk and I think he took her to the sensory room upstairs. She's such a brat, I'm not a brat like her. I'm a good girl. I listen to the caregivers and I eat my meals and I DON'T throw big toddler tantrums. I'm the good one. 💚

-Jadie

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I swear I'd choke Jadie out if I could. She just ruined another therapy session. She won't let us talk, she won't speak for her goddamn self, she won't let OTHERS speak. The therapist is getting frustrated with all of us.

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Jadie bullies us. We know it's a trauma response but she is mean.

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woooaag… can you do a stimboard with lots of jellyfish

✨🌀🪼 Jellyfish 🪼🌀✨

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Water Stimboard!

requested by: my wife for life !

creds after the cut! have a fantastic day and drink some water!

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Living mirrors illuminate the water 🪩

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Headcanon meme~

Put a symbol (or several) and a character/characters in my ask box, and I’ll give you a headcanon.  Yes.  Do it.

☾ - sleep headcanon

★ - sad headcanon

☆ - happy headcanon

☠ - angry/violent headcanon

✿ - Sex headcanon

■ -  Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

♡ - romantic headcanon

♥ - family headcanon

☮ - friendship headcanon

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon

▼ - childhood headcanon

∇ -. old age/aging headcanon

♒ - cooking/food headcanon

☼ - appearance headcanon

ൠ - random headcanon

◉ - Any other question of your choosing

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Here’s to hoping that every single person with schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder or DID or NPD or any other ridiculously demonized mental illnesses has a wonderful day

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We went into inpatient this week, and it was long overdue yet really traumatic. We were told to go voluntarily or else they'd get a court order to keep us there against our will...so yeah, it was against our will. Jadie was so scared. Some of us feel like the hospital is going to call us any minute and say we need to come back or else. That's not realistic, but it's a paranoid thought that follows us at night. We're finally home.