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Casual reminder that we are very broke.

Keep an eye on our Kofi page as we are gonna start writing fanfic commissions soon.

~Eza

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Jadie Hla Nwe Moe 🩰

2005-2024

Cause of Death: Complications of Anorexia Nervosa

Developmental Regression Range: 4-5 years old

Support Needs: Limited Mobility, Selective Mutism, Trouble Regulating Basic Bodily Systems

Jadie was a hyper competitive gymnast and ballerina in life. She had potential to go pro in both, however was more keen on having a career in ballet.

Her family was extremely toxic. But where Rhea's parents were uninvolved, Jadie was smothered by an overbearing, enmeshed mother. She put Jadie up on a pedestal one moment, telling her how slim and beautiful and graceful and talented she was, just to tear her down the next. Jadie was never truly good enough. The pressure of trying to chase the approval of her mother, her toxic coaches, and the hypercompetitive gymnast and dance world eventually lead her to developing an eating disorder.

I won't go into detail, but I will say that Jadie tried many, many times to recover. However, she passed away shortly after her 19th birthday from chronic health complications brought on by the ED.

Jadie arrived rather unceremoniously to the hotel. Lucifer found her one evening sitting in front of the fireplace in the lobby. The poor girl was so cold that she was literally sticking her hands and face in the fire, yet wasn't burning.

Jadie is a solid piece of jade stone. She's as beautiful as a carved Greco-Roman statue. Her hair, her eyes, her lips, her hands, only move because she wills them to. As with any natural stone, she has natural variation to her skin tone; some parts are nearly pure white, while others are a deep mint green.

She is 300 lbs of densely packed rock in a petite frame. She moves slowly, but is not in pain. She often needs walking breaks, so her stroller and adapted shopping carts are a necessity. The stone of her body audibly grinds against itself with every movement; her legs walking, her eyes shifting, even her stomach digesting food.

Jadie cannot regulate her body heat, and relies on cozy clothes, heating pads, heating lamps, and snuggles to stay comfortable. When she gets too cold, she lets out a heartbreaking cry and it takes a while to get her to warm up/calm down. She cannot recognize when she needs to eat, drink, sleep, or use the bathroom. Because of this, her main caregiver Angel Dust keeps her on a strict care schedule.

Jadie's personality is calm but content. She loves the hotel. She loves the caregivers. She doesn't speak, but follows directions very well (Charlie gives her the "Best Listener Award" every week in nursery school). She doesn't attempt to communicate, although she is very bright and in tune with what's going on around her. Her favorite toys are cars, and her favorite games are Candy Land and Duck Duck Goose. She loves the Barbie movies (animated and live action). Rhea keeps trying to fight her, but Jadie always wins. Rhea will get on top of the couch to pounce on Jadie, and Jadie just throws her across the room and goes back to playing. It's weird as hell and Vaggie can't figure out 1) what Rhea's deal is, and 2) how a baby of HERS is so bad at fighting. Seriously. Rhea can't even get a hit in but keeps going back for more.

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System Updates

It's really fun to cut the body's hair! But Mommy says we shouldn't do that...

Especially since we have a job interview Wednesday! We already cut the body's hair tho...

Asphodel is still refusing to eat and says she doesn't need it, so Mommy's gonna give her a feeding tube and formula tonight. Asphodel says she just needs fruit, milk, and honey to live on cuz she's an angel but that's not true for real angels, not even demons like Asphodel

I don't wanna go to bed but Jadie says I need to stop crying about it and to shut up!! She's so mean!!

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The whole parts vs. people debate also just doesn't acknowledge that the concept of personhood is subjective.

What is a person? Alter are not going to have their own body or brain, but do you know what they might have? Different perspectives and different experiences (amnesia go brrr). Different ways of looking at life. Different likes and dislikes. Different opinions and different relationships to others. Hell, some alters even have different tastes in food. Everyone is going to draw that line differently, and that's ok.

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“i’m not the same as who i was before [x] thing happened to me” does it help to know that you would not have stayed that person regardless

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Tw: psychotic thoughts

So Asphodel is no longer allowed to front. For reasons.

After this, Vaggie spent a while with her. Fed her, talked her down off the metaphorical ledge. It took all night to get her to a safe mindset and get her to bed.

We haven't seen her in months, and now all this.

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system ask game for traumagenic systems!

reposted due to us deleting our previous sysblog <3

remember that you are free to decline any question if it feels too invasive, this is for fun and you are not forced to answer anything 🤍

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

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Quietly panics and drops our ko-fi

I haven't got a chance to front since we moved and I'm the main person who looks for jobs at the moment. (Is there a role for that) We're currently unemployed and desperate to contribute to our current rent prices. If you can't help at least spread the word so someone else who can may see it.

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Today at dinner Rhea just started throwing a huge fit. She was crying and stomping and just being a brat. She almost knocked over her plate and got noodles everywhere. Lucifer took her on a walk and I think he took her to the sensory room upstairs. She's such a brat, I'm not a brat like her. I'm a good girl. I listen to the caregivers and I eat my meals and I DON'T throw big toddler tantrums. I'm the good one. 💚

-Jadie

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I swear I'd choke Jadie out if I could. She just ruined another therapy session. She won't let us talk, she won't speak for her goddamn self, she won't let OTHERS speak. The therapist is getting frustrated with all of us.

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Jadie bullies us. We know it's a trauma response but she is mean.

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woooaag… can you do a stimboard with lots of jellyfish

✨🌀🪼 Jellyfish 🪼🌀✨

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Water Stimboard!

requested by: my wife for life !

creds after the cut! have a fantastic day and drink some water!

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Living mirrors illuminate the water 🪩

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Headcanon meme~

Put a symbol (or several) and a character/characters in my ask box, and I’ll give you a headcanon.  Yes.  Do it.

☾ - sleep headcanon

★ - sad headcanon

☆ - happy headcanon

☠ - angry/violent headcanon

✿ - Sex headcanon

■ -  Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

♡ - romantic headcanon

♥ - family headcanon

☮ - friendship headcanon

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon

▼ - childhood headcanon

∇ -. old age/aging headcanon

♒ - cooking/food headcanon

☼ - appearance headcanon

ൠ - random headcanon

◉ - Any other question of your choosing