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A Long Awaited Letter

It's been a long while since I've posted anything on here. I personally have had many changes since the last time I have spoken to anyone on here. I've graduated high school, moved across the country, rented my first home, bought my first car amongst many other big milestones. During all of those times I've had this yearning to write, to tell a story for anyone who is willing to listen (or read).

As such I'm slowly making my way back through the fandoms I held so dearly 3 years ago when I first started this blog. With that though I am asking any of you that read this to please reach out to me with what you would like to see first. The characters and stories that you want told that you can not tell for yourselves.

I hope you all have a wonder day, drink some water and get some sun loves.

Love,

Theodosia

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Please read through our company policies before requesting an letters.

General Company Overview

This company is 16+ with mainly sfw content, there are suggestive themes and darker themes (i.e. mental health, violence, gore) all of which will be properly marked. No NSFW will be posted.

Majority of posts are queued to post around 12 p.m. central time zone.

This is a safe space and my inbox is always open for anything you might need.

Our doll takes suggestions, over requests.

Company Policies

Be patient and courteous. I’m a human, not a machine which means it can take a while for your request to be completed.

All requests will be x reader. Please specify pronouns, otherwise they will be gender-neutral. I am also willing to be as inclusive as possible so don’t be afraid to ask for certain generalized traits for the reader.

As of the moment I will NOT be writing NSFW, I will make references but I will not actually write it.

Most other darker content is still on the table though I may decline a request if I’m not comfortable with it.

There is a three character limit for requests. 

Be specific in your request, the more details the faster I can write it lol!

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Auto-Memories doll, Theodosia (Theo), at your service. I’m a twenty year old wanna-be writer. You may refer to me by any pronouns that you would like. 

TAGS

#theodosia.answered - answers to asks

#theososia.rambles - ramblings

#theodosia.writes[insert fandom] - my writings

#theodosia.18 - technically not nswf works, but stories with suggestive and darker themes

#theodosia.reblogs - reblogs of other authors stories

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⇢ 𝙑𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙩 𝙀𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙜𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙣 𝙞𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨 ⇠

𝙇𝙞𝙠𝙚/𝙧𝙚𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙪𝙨𝙚/𝙨𝙖𝙫𝙚 (✿◠‿◠)

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little heads up i did change my name from torpid-writes to angel-letters :)

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fairy tail

FAMILY LETTERS

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for fairy tail members.

INCLUDES: Gildarts Clive, Natsu Dragneel, Laxus Dreyar, Gray Fullbuster, Freed Justine, Gajeel Redfox, Loke, Cana Alberona, Lucy Heartfila, Juvia Lockser, Wendy Marvel, Levy Mcgarden, Erza Scarlet, Mirajane Strauss, Evergreen

APOLOGIES

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for crime sorciere members.

INCLUDES: Jellal Fernades, Ultear Milkovich, Erik, Macbeth, Meredy

LETTERS FOR FRIENDS

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for sabertooth and lamia scale members.

INCLUDES: Rouge Cheney, Sting Eucliffe, Minerva Orland, Sherria Blendy, Lyon Vastia

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haikyuu!!

SPORTS INVITATIONAL

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for karasuno.

INCLUDES: Asahi Azume, Chikara Ennoshita, Shoyo Hinata, Tobio Kageyama, Yuu Nishinoya, Daichi Sawamura, Kiyoka Shimuza, Koshi Sugawara, Ryunosuke Tanaka, Kei Tsukishima, Keishin Ukai, Hitoka Yachi, Tadashi Yamaguchi

FORENSICS INVITATIONAL

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for nekoma.

INCLUDES: Lev Haiba, Kenma Kozume, Tetsuro Kuroo, Morisuke Yaku, Taetora Yamamoto

GRADUATION ANNOUCMENTS 

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for aoba johsai.

INCLUDES: Hajime Iwaizumi, Yutaro Kindaichi, Akira Kunimi, Kentaro Kyotani, Issei Matsukawa, Toru Oikawa

FAMILY REUNION

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for inarizaki.

INCLUDES: Shinsuke Kita, Atsumu Miya, Osamu Miya, Aran Ojiro, Rintaro Suna

RETIREMENT

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for shiratorizawa.

INCLUDES: Tsutomu Goshiki, Satori Tendo, Eita Semi, Kenjiro Shirabu, Wakatoshi Ushijima

CLASS REUNION

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for johzenji, itachiyama, fukurodani, date tech.

INCLUDES: Yuji Terushima, Kiyoomi Sakusa, Keiji Akaashi, Kotarou Bokuto, Takanobu Aone, Kanji Koganegawa

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Just curious, do you have any rules on requests?

Also, just an fyi, I love the way you made your blog navi it looks so cool :o

I haven’t made a post over any of my rules but I did answer a question similar to this before with some of my main stuff. here!

and thank you so much!!

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I really don't have the motivation to write now do I 😔

also hello to all the people that followed me this morning!! how are you lovelies?

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my hero academia

JOB ACCEPTANCE LETTERS

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for pro-heros.

INCLUDES: Shouta Aizawa, Nemuri Kayama, Keigo Takami, Enji Todoroki, Taishiro Toyomitus, Toshinori Yagi, Hizashi Yamada

INTERNSHIP ACCEPTANCE

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for students.

INCLUDES: Tamaki Amajiki, Katsuki Bakugou, Tenya Iida, Denki Kaminari, Eijirou Kirishima, Izuku Midoriya, Hanta Sero, Hitoshi Shinsou, Shouto Todoroki, Mina Adhido, Kyoka Jiro, Ochoco Uraraka, Momo Yaoyorozu

RESIGNATION ACCEPTANCE

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for villains.

INCLUDES: Kai Chisaki, Toga Himiko, Touya Todoroki, Tomura Shigaraki, Twice

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good morning

PAIRING: toru oikawa x gender neutral reader

REQUEST: Gah idk if I’m requesting correct! But can I have an invitation for Oikawa! Just anything fluffy and cute that you can think of!,,,, since I’m a bit stressed rn! Thank you!💞

WORD COUNT: 569

DOLL’S NOTE:  you did just fine baby!! thank you for requesting, you’re actually my first request and i was super excited to fulfill it and wasn’t given much time to actually write it because of school. however i still hope that you enjoy it!

The Writing Room!

Mornings with your boyfriend, Oikiwa, were nothing short of magical, no matter how mundane they were some days. 

Waking some mornings to the light scent of your boyfriend’s shampoo, his arms wrapped tightly around your torso, so tight that you have to shake him and whisper his name until he loosens up enough so that you can breathe again. Other mornings you would wake with a panic at the sound of your fire alarm and the smell of smoke, running out of your room to find Oikawa sheepishly smiling at you as he tries to fan the smoke away from the fire alarm. Behind him in the kitchen were several black lumps that you couldn’t even guess what they had originally meant to be. He would apologize softly, hugging you from behind, as he tells you that he had wanted to make you breakfast in bed only to fall asleep (yesterday’s practice had been a little harsh) while it was cooking. Even the mornings when he was halfway across the world, he made it a point to send you a good morning text or video call you if you were already up, making the distance between the two of you even less. The mornings you loved the most however were the ones where you both had decided to lay in bed a longer than usual, until the sun was in your eyes and it was no longer comfortable to lay there.

-

You woke to the familiar warmth of the sun on your face, shining in through the gap in your curtain. Blinking your eyes open slowly, as to not hurt them from the sudden light, you were greeted by the sleeping face on your beloved boyfriend. His mouth parted slightly (and what also looked to be a bit of drool) and the brown fluffy brown hair that you loved so much, a tangled mess around his face, and yet, as much of a mess he currently looked he was still one of the most breathtaking things you had ever seen.

Running a hand across his cheek you carefully pushed his hair back from his face so that you had a clearer view. Shivering slightly as you felt a cold hand run across your stomach and around to your back, tightening around you as a muscular arm pulled you forward until you were chest to chest with the man you shared your bed with. Warm, chocolate colored eyes started back into your own eyes, a smile forming on your face as the words, ‘good morning my love,’ were spoken to you, Oikawa’s voice soft and raspy early in the mornings as he buried his face into your neck.

“Let’s just stay in bed for a little while longer okay love?” he had asked, placing a soft kiss on the skin between your neck and shoulder, his hand rubbing light circles on the small of your back as you hummed in response. Your own arms reaching out to wrap around him as you pulled yourself even closer, closing your eyes again as you breathed in the warm vanilla scent of your boyfriend, slowly falling back asleep in his arms.

Mornings like these, having nothing to do or worry about, and simply being given the chance to relax in the arms of the man you loved the most, where the mornings you loved the most. They were, after all, truly good mornings.

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attack on titan

ORDER LETTER

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for veterans.

INCLUDES: Levi Ackerman, Moblit Berner, Erwin Smith, Mike Zacharias, Hange Zoe

PROMOTION LETTER

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for cadets.

INCLUDES: Armin Arlet, Marco Bodt, Jean Kirstein, Connie Springer, Eren Yeager, Mikasa Ackerman, Sasha Braus, Historia Reiss, Ymir

RECOVERY LETTER

DESCRIPTION: this letter is for warriors.

INCLUDES: Reiner Braun, Pieck Finger, Porco Galliard, Colt Grice, Bertholdt Hoover, Annie Leonhart Zeke Yeager

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Gah idk if I’m requesting correct! But can I have an invitation for Oikawa! Just anything fluffy and cute that you can think of!,,,, since I’m a bit stressed rn! Thank you!💞

Dear Anon,

thank you for the request!

here it is! good morning

love,

Theodosia

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good morning

PAIRING: toru oikawa x gender neutral reader

REQUEST: Gah idk if I’m requesting correct! But can I have an invitation for Oikawa! Just anything fluffy and cute that you can think of!,,,, since I’m a bit stressed rn! Thank you!💞

WORD COUNT: 569

DOLL’S NOTE:  you did just fine baby!! thank you for requesting, you’re actually my first request and i was super excited to fulfill it and wasn’t given much time to actually write it because of school. however i still hope that you enjoy it!

The Writing Room!

Mornings with your boyfriend, Oikiwa, were nothing short of magical, no matter how mundane they were some days. 

Waking some mornings to the light scent of your boyfriend's shampoo, his arms wrapped tightly around your torso, so tight that you have to shake him and whisper his name until he loosens up enough so that you can breathe again. Other mornings you would wake with a panic at the sound of your fire alarm and the smell of smoke, running out of your room to find Oikawa sheepishly smiling at you as he tries to fan the smoke away from the fire alarm. Behind him in the kitchen were several black lumps that you couldn’t even guess what they had originally meant to be. He would apologize softly, hugging you from behind, as he tells you that he had wanted to make you breakfast in bed only to fall asleep (yesterday’s practice had been a little harsh) while it was cooking. Even the mornings when he was halfway across the world, he made it a point to send you a good morning text or video call you if you were already up, making the distance between the two of you even less. The mornings you loved the most however were the ones where you both had decided to lay in bed a longer than usual, until the sun was in your eyes and it was no longer comfortable to lay there.

-

You woke to the familiar warmth of the sun on your face, shining in through the gap in your curtain. Blinking your eyes open slowly, as to not hurt them from the sudden light, you were greeted by the sleeping face on your beloved boyfriend. His mouth parted slightly (and what also looked to be a bit of drool) and the brown fluffy brown hair that you loved so much, a tangled mess around his face, and yet, as much of a mess he currently looked he was still one of the most breathtaking things you had ever seen.

Running a hand across his cheek you carefully pushed his hair back from his face so that you had a clearer view. Shivering slightly as you felt a cold hand run across your stomach and around to your back, tightening around you as a muscular arm pulled you forward until you were chest to chest with the man you shared your bed with. Warm, chocolate colored eyes started back into your own eyes, a smile forming on your face as the words, ‘good morning my love,’ were spoken to you, Oikawa’s voice soft and raspy early in the mornings as he buried his face into your neck.

“Let’s just stay in bed for a little while longer okay love?” he had asked, placing a soft kiss on the skin between your neck and shoulder, his hand rubbing light circles on the small of your back as you hummed in response. Your own arms reaching out to wrap around him as you pulled yourself even closer, closing your eyes again as you breathed in the warm vanilla scent of your boyfriend, slowly falling back asleep in his arms.

Mornings like these, having nothing to do or worry about, and simply being given the chance to relax in the arms of the man you loved the most, where the mornings you loved the most. They were, after all, truly good mornings.

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snow days

PAIRING: levi ackerman x gender netural reader (can be taken as platonic or romantic)

DISCLAIMER: while not directly stated this story does deal with depression, and i understand that sometimes reading stories such as this one can make your own depression worse, so please feel no obligation to read it. your own mental health should be your priority. it is also important that if you are not feeling well that you reach out those around you, you’re not alone in your battle. there are also curse words, because apparently i can’t go without cursing.

WORD COUNT: 3551

DOLL’S NOTE:  did i project onto this because my own therapy session was cancelled because of the snow and maybe the fact that i just hate the snow in general because it makes me feel crappy? maybe possibly, but what can you expect when i’m supposed to get 4-8 inches when normally we get less than an inch? also, before i got the chance to finish writing this i had to go work and while i was working i was reading the web comic the maid and the vampire, so as i was writing the last part of this i kept thinking of millard, like the feelings i have for that man, oh my. also, once again, a thank you to @setenuma​ for helping me edit this garbage.

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You hated the snow. You hated the way the cold of it seemed to seep deep into your bones, how it made your limbs feel like lead, and turned your fingers blue. But most of all you hated the burden of memories and feelings that flooded into your mind with each new snow fall.

You still kept up with your duties, completing training drills and paperwork the way you had always done. Appearing perfectly fine and normal to those in the regiment that did not know you as well, but to those that did they noticed plenty the sloppiness that took place during training, noticing how you seemed to not care if you put yourself in a position that on an expedition would have gotten you killed. There was also the new found sense of heaviness in the air around you, like you were Atlas, carrying the world on your shoulders.

Slowly as the days turned colder and colder you found yourself distancing yourself from your comrades even more, opting to spend all your free time in your office alone completing paperwork instead of staying in the dining hall with the other high ranking officers and squad leaders, drinking tea and listening to Hange ramble for hours about new experiments and discussing new training exercises.

Most still tried to interact with you, trying to cheer you up, Hange would come and try and drag you off to help with an experiment, Mike would try and hold idle chit-chat with you, and Erwin would ask for your opinions on new formations in hopes of distracting you. However in the end all of them decided that it was best to leave you be and let you come to them when you were readly. Well everyone except one person.

Levi Ackerman.

The man refused to allow you a minute of solitude. Always finding you wherever you hid, two cups of tea in his hands and a stack of paperwork under his arm. Even if no words were spoken between the two of you, for you, however, it was the most calming part of your day, when it seemed that the bombardment of memories and feelings finally slowed down.

You and Levi had always had a special sort of bond, perhaps that’s why being in his presence had such a calming feeling for you. A bond that had developed when you yelled at Flagen for being much too harsh to them and consistently offered all three of the newcomers help whenever they needed it. Helping Isabel learn to tack up her horse, answering all of Furlan’s questions about the world above, and even sneaking a tin of tea leaves to Levi after hearing about his liking of tea from Isabel. Then when Furlan and Isabel were killed you were the one that took their wings of freedom from their jackets to give Levi. It was a small gesture but it’s one that led to you being the closest person to Levi other than Erwin.

-

It was another one of those days where you had hidden yourself away in your office, busy signing and filling out paperwork when your door was opened, not bothering to look up as a familiar voice rang out into the room.

“Get your ass up brat, Erwins called an emergency meeting for some shitty reason,” the raven haired man grumbled, arms crossed as he leaned his back and right foot up against the door frame, staring across the room at you with steely grey eyes.

He was worried about you, yes, though he would never admit it out loud. Throughout all his time as a scout you had been one of the most consistent people he had ever met. You weren’t the cheeriest person around, but then again not many people in the scouts were (though it wasn’t without reason), but you had a kind soul and a warm smile that helped calm down even the most distressed soldier. The only problem with you was that you were secretive when it came to your own feelings. You would offer an ear and advice to any soldier that asked, but never did you let yourself show vulnerability, instead you hide yourself away until you can put a brave face on and Levi hated it. After everything that the two of you had gone through he felt like you knew more about him then he did you and he had tried everything to get you to open up to him. Asking Erwin to move your squad closer to his in the formations so that two of you could ride together, mixing most of your training exercise together, preparing tea for the two of you during late nights. He had placed himself within nearly every part of your schedule and you in his, but no matter how many inside jokes and late nights it still felt like you had a wall up that you refused to let down, even around him.

Placing the paper you had just finished on a stack to your right you placed the pen in your hand down as you stood up from your desk, and silently joined the shorter man at the door. A feeling like a knife went through Levi’s heart as you said nothing when before you would have come up with some sort of snarky remark to his jab. Instead of saying anything however he pushed himself off of the door frame and started down the hall, with you by his side, to Erwin’s office.

-

You sat at a large wooden table with the other senior officers. Erwin, as the commander, sat at the head of the table discussing the plans for the latest expedition outside of the walls, Mike sat to your left, Hange to your right (being loud as always), and Levi was directly across from you staring at you once again with those steely grey eyes of his. Normally you would have returned his gaze with one of your own, raising a brow and maybe throwing in a wink to make him roll his eyes and turn his gaze back to Erwin, but today you opted to turn your gaze downwards. Glancing at the papers in front of you attempted to read them, though you knew it was pointless, no matter how many times you read them over you never retained any of the information, similar to know matter how hard you tried to listen to what was being said you never seemed to be able to properly comprehend what was being said. It was frustrating to say the least.

“According to the weather experiments that Hange has been performing it appears that there will be a massive storm arriving within the next couple of days. That is why, after careful consideration, it has been decided that should a storm take place that all troops will be given the day, and following days off as it will be near impossible for any training to take place,” It was the last of Erwin’s announcements and though the blond spoke like he doubted the storm would take place, everyone knew that while often extravagant, Hange’s experiments often worked, with their weather experiments becoming fairly accurate in predicting the weather. So with the idea of maybe getting a little more sleep, and being able to escape your mind just a little, in a couple days you left the room with the others, returning to your office.

-

The storm that Hange had predicted did happen, starting with low howls of wind late in the night, as clouds burden with snow covered the sky, sending large flakes of snow down onto the earth. By the time that the sun had risen the next morning, though the winds had not calmed by much and the snow was still falling, large drifts of snow had formed around the scouts headquarters. With the lower ranked soldiers being informed of the day off, most stayed in the mesh hall, playing games of chess and idly chatting, while senior officers went to their offices, attempting to catch up with overdue paperwork now that they had a day not filled with training drills. You however were a different story.

You had woken up just as the sun was rising to be greeted with frosted window panes, and a chill that seemed to speed in from the outside, numbing your body even with the fire that was still going in the fireplace. The fatigue that was filling your mind also did not help the chill that had crept into your body, making you want nothing more than to sleep, and perhaps you could. Erwin had said that when the storm blows in they would all be given the day off, so perhaps, just once, you could give into your mind and just sleep. Yes a part of you screamed that no matter how bad you feel, no matter how hard it is to bury everything you’re feeling, you need to get up, go and eat breakfast and do your work. But the thought of food had your stomach in a knot and the thought of paperwork brought back the image of fog whenever you had been working the past days. So before you could tell yourself no you sank back into your bed and pulled the blanket up and over your head and went back to sleep.

-

Levi was in a panicked mood to say the least, though it did not appear so if anyone were to comment. He had waited for over an hour for you to appear in the mesh hall, and when you hadn’t he had merely shrugged it off as a day that you weren’t hungry (he’ll bring some bread alongside the tea he normally brings later), but slowly as the day went on and as he continually went back and forth between all of the places you went to be alone and his own office, you were nowhere to be found. He had checked the library, Mike, Hange, and Erwin’s offices, the storage closet on the east wing, he had even braved the cold weather and checked the stables. So now with just one place left, if he didn’t find you he was going to raise a high alarm, after all it was already late into the afternoon and not one person had seen you all day, if that wasn’t a reason to worry or panic then he didn’t know what was.

Arriving in front of the room that had you shared with Hange (though it was more of just your room as they tended to sleep in their lab), he tried the handle, finding it unlocked (thankfully he didn’t have to kick the damn thing down, he let himself into the room. Shivering slightly as he walked in, automatically noticing the dying fire in the fireplace, however he quickly turned his gaze to the bundle of blankets on the bed. Pushing the door shut with his hand he quickly turned the lock before he walked slowly towards the bed. Reaching his hand out to grab the blanket, he hesitated, was this the right thing to do? Should he bother you like this? But before he could decide to leave (he doubted that in that state you were that you had even noticed him) he remembered something, a promise the two of you had made.

-

The night sky had shone so bright that night, if felt like it was mocking him, with each night since their passing not even a cloud crossed the night sky. He may have chosen not to regret anything that happened, chosen to follow the man he had been sent to kill, but that didn’t mean grief did not find its way into his heart. As his mind clouded, silent tears falling down his cheeks, the sound of a cup being placed next to him startled him. Jumping to his feet, his hand reaching for the knife in his pocket, he was surprised to find you there, laughing softly as you held a cup out to him. Eyeing you suspiciously he glanced between the cup and you.

“It’s not poisoned if that’s what you’re thinking, I would drink it to prove it to you, but as much of a clean freak you are I don’t think you would appreciate that now would you?” Rolling his eyes he sat back down, (in the same spot he had sat every night he had come up here with Furlan and Isabel) taking the cup gratefully, though still eyeing you as you rested you arms on the way, now holding your own up between your hands, eyes aimed towards the sky.

He couldn’t help but wonder why you went through all the trouble, why you’ve gone out of your way since he first arrived, to try and befriend him (if that’s what you were trying). Even after knowing he had joined the scouts to kill one of your own friends, you had still cared enough to hand him the bloody wings of freedom that had belonged to Furlan and Isabel, and every day you made sure to greet him when passing by, or even dragging him off to train with your squad, because (and he could quote it), ‘Flagen’s an ass and you won’t learn anything from him’. Now even, you had sought him out in the middle of the night, when he was at his lowest, to offer him a cup of tea. Why, what were you gaining from this? Most everyone else still treated him like an outsider, so why were you so kind?

“You’re wondering why aren’t you? Why am I so kind to you?” you mused softly, speaking his thoughts out loud for him. Looking his way, you met eyes briefly before he turned his gaze away, silently answering your own questions. Another small laugh escaped you as he avoided your gaze.

“There’s no reason, if you must know, no reason other than I don’t think that you should be alone after everything that happened.” He scoffed at that, causing you to laugh once more, humans were selfish creatures, that much was true, so you had to have a reason, something that you wanted, but for the time being he would indulge you, you were rather calming to be around (and not just his curiosity getting the better of him). So he sat silently, occasionally speaking up, as you talked about random things to fill the silence. The two of you stayed like that for several hours into the night, and it wasn’t until you both were finally heading to bed to get the few hours of sleep that you could before you would be required to be up and training, did he ask what the both of you knew had been on his mind all night long.

 “What do you get out of this, what do you want in return? And don’t say nothing, everyone wants something.” You smiled softly nodding as you thought carefully.

“I really do want nothing, but if it satisfies you, I’m doing what I would want someone to do for me if I were in your shoes, so why don’t we say that what I want in return is for someone to kick me in the ass if I ever appear to lose hope in everything, okay? Does that work as an answer for you?”

Though shock coursed through his body, he rolled his eyes, letting out yet another scoff among thousands that he had made during the night, muttering, “I suppose that works.”

“Great, then it’s a deal. I keep annoying you and in return if I ever get mopey and depressed I expect you to kick me in my ass and tell me to get over it,” you said, laughing all the while.

-

‘If I ever get mopey and depressed I expect you to kick me in my ass and tell me to get over it.’ That was what you said, so while you may end up being momentarily pissed at him for what he was about to do, you could only blame yourself, after all you were the one who said he could do it.

Grabbing the blanket with both hands he gave a hard tug as he pulled it off of you, shaking you awake. As the sudden cold hit your body and light flooded your face, blinding you, you blinked your eyes quickly, trying to adjust to the sudden light while giving Levi a look of, ‘what the hell are you doing?’

“You look like shit,” Levi said once you met his eyes, and it was true. Your hair was a mess, your eyes bloodshot and swollen, tear streaks running down your face, your skin looked duller than normal, but those were not the things that shocked Levi. The look of absolute defeat, of brokenness shook him to his core, never had he seen you look so small and helpless, causing him to yell at himself mentally for not realizing how badly your mental health had become. 

“Yeah, yeah, now what do you want,” you eyed the blanket that he had ripped away from you longingly, but made no move to try and take it back, your arms felt too heavy to move, pushing yourself to sit was hard enough.

“I’m here to get your lazy ass up, seeing as you decided to sleep all day.” You raised your eyebrows, glancing to look at the window, to see that long shadows had started creeping across the land outside of your window, the sun would be setting soon.

Sighing, Levi draped the blanket over the headboard, reaching a hand out to gently grasp your chin to turn your gaze back to him, “What’s wrong brat?”

“Nothings wrong, I just decided to sleep all day. What’s wrong with that.” While you still denied it, one look, however, he could tell it was a lie. From the way your eyes watered and refused to look at any part of him, knowing that you would cave if you looked directly at him and not wanting to burden him with your own memories and feelings, he already dealt with more than his fair share.

“Don’t lie to me. And if I must remind you, you gave me special permission to beat your ass if you ever got like this.”

“I-,” you finally met his eyes, seeing for the first time the amount of worry that shone behind them, “fine,” you mumbled, slipping out of his grasp and resting your back against the wall, staring at your hands as you gathered you thoughts, trying to find a place to start. Slipping his boots off Levi joined you on the bed, resting against the headboard, arms crossed as he waited patiently.

Once your thoughts had been gathered you started speaking, telling the story of all the people you could never save. Your fellow cadets that had graduated from the same cadet corps as you, joining you as a scout (there had only been five of you who had joined that year), all of whom had died during their first expedition, leaving you alone. Of fellow squad mates that were killed saving you, fresh new cadets that you were given to train that never made it through their first expedition. The guilt you felt from not being there to save Furlan and Isabel. The screams of mothers when told that their child was dead and never returning home. Then finally, as your voice became shaky and tears had filled your eyes until you could no longer see clearly, you told him of your siblings. Of the snowstorm that rolled through your hometown, of the argument you had with your parents, how you had left right before the storm had it, leaving for a friends house, and how your younger siblings had gone out in the storm to search for you only to not be seen again until spring, about the blame your parents had placed on you, and the blame you placed on yourself. You told him everything as he sat silent, watching as your highest wall crumbled and fell to the ground.

He had known you were a kind soul, but he had never realized just how kind you were, how much you cared for people, and how much you blame yourself for not saving people who could not be saved. Stepping out of his comfort zone you reached his arms out, wrapping tightly around your torso as he pulled to his chest, whispering soft affirmations, and speaking of all the lives you had saved. And as he held you in his arms, speaking to you and rubbing calming circles on you back as you fell apart before him and sobbed your heart out, you realized something. You weren’t in this alone in any of this pain, there were others all around you who felt the same, friends, strangers, so many people in your own life who had also lost others and shared in the same grief and pain as you. You realized that as long as you reached out to those you cared, you would never be alone.

Wrapping your arms around the dark haired man, between your sobs, you whispered out a small thank you, for caring, and for reaching out.

[angel-letters]

snow days

PAIRING: levi ackerman x gender netural reader (can be taken as platonic or romantic)

DISCLAIMER: while not directly stated this story does deal with depression, and i understand that sometimes reading stories such as this one can make your own depression worse, so please feel no obligation to read it. your own mental health should be your priority. it is also important that if you are not feeling well that you reach out those around you, you’re not alone in your battle. there are also curse words, because apparently i can’t go without cursing.

WORD COUNT: 3551

DOLL’S NOTE:  did i project onto this because my own therapy session was cancelled because of the snow and maybe the fact that i just hate the snow in general because it makes me feel crappy? maybe possibly, but what can you expect when i’m supposed to get 4-8 inches when normally we get less than an inch? also, before i got the chance to finish writing this i had to go work and while i was working i was reading the web comic the maid and the vampire, so as i was writing the last part of this i kept thinking of millard, like the feelings i have for that man, oh my. also, once again, a thank you to @setenuma​ for helping me edit this garbage.

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You hated the snow. You hated the way the cold of it seemed to seep deep into your bones, how it made your limbs feel like lead, and turned your fingers blue. But most of all you hated the burden of memories and feelings that flooded into your mind with each new snow fall.

You still kept up with your duties, completing training drills and paperwork the way you had always done. Appearing perfectly fine and normal to those in the regiment that did not know you as well, but to those that did they noticed plenty the sloppiness that took place during training, noticing how you seemed to not care if you put yourself in a position that on an expedition would have gotten you killed. There was also the new found sense of heaviness in the air around you, like you were Atlas, carrying the world on your shoulders.

Slowly as the days turned colder and colder you found yourself distancing yourself from your comrades even more, opting to spend all your free time in your office alone completing paperwork instead of staying in the dining hall with the other high ranking officers and squad leaders, drinking tea and listening to Hange ramble for hours about new experiments and discussing new training exercises.

Most still tried to interact with you, trying to cheer you up, Hange would come and try and drag you off to help with an experiment, Mike would try and hold idle chit-chat with you, and Erwin would ask for your opinions on new formations in hopes of distracting you. However in the end all of them decided that it was best to leave you be and let you come to them when you were readly. Well everyone except one person.

Levi Ackerman.

The man refused to allow you a minute of solitude. Always finding you wherever you hid, two cups of tea in his hands and a stack of paperwork under his arm. Even if no words were spoken between the two of you, for you, however, it was the most calming part of your day, when it seemed that the bombardment of memories and feelings finally slowed down.

You and Levi had always had a special sort of bond, perhaps that’s why being in his presence had such a calming feeling for you. A bond that had developed when you yelled at Flagen for being much too harsh to them and consistently offered all three of the newcomers help whenever they needed it. Helping Isabel learn to tack up her horse, answering all of Furlan’s questions about the world above, and even sneaking a tin of tea leaves to Levi after hearing about his liking of tea from Isabel. Then when Furlan and Isabel were killed you were the one that took their wings of freedom from their jackets to give Levi. It was a small gesture but it’s one that led to you being the closest person to Levi other than Erwin.

-

It was another one of those days where you had hidden yourself away in your office, busy signing and filling out paperwork when your door was opened, not bothering to look up as a familiar voice rang out into the room.

“Get your ass up brat, Erwins called an emergency meeting for some shitty reason,” the raven haired man grumbled, arms crossed as he leaned his back and right foot up against the door frame, staring across the room at you with steely grey eyes.

He was worried about you, yes, though he would never admit it out loud. Throughout all his time as a scout you had been one of the most consistent people he had ever met. You weren’t the cheeriest person around, but then again not many people in the scouts were (though it wasn’t without reason), but you had a kind soul and a warm smile that helped calm down even the most distressed soldier. The only problem with you was that you were secretive when it came to your own feelings. You would offer an ear and advice to any soldier that asked, but never did you let yourself show vulnerability, instead you hide yourself away until you can put a brave face on and Levi hated it. After everything that the two of you had gone through he felt like you knew more about him then he did you and he had tried everything to get you to open up to him. Asking Erwin to move your squad closer to his in the formations so that two of you could ride together, mixing most of your training exercise together, preparing tea for the two of you during late nights. He had placed himself within nearly every part of your schedule and you in his, but no matter how many inside jokes and late nights it still felt like you had a wall up that you refused to let down, even around him.

Placing the paper you had just finished on a stack to your right you placed the pen in your hand down as you stood up from your desk, and silently joined the shorter man at the door. A feeling like a knife went through Levi’s heart as you said nothing when before you would have come up with some sort of snarky remark to his jab. Instead of saying anything however he pushed himself off of the door frame and started down the hall, with you by his side, to Erwin’s office.

-

You sat at a large wooden table with the other senior officers. Erwin, as the commander, sat at the head of the table discussing the plans for the latest expedition outside of the walls, Mike sat to your left, Hange to your right (being loud as always), and Levi was directly across from you staring at you once again with those steely grey eyes of his. Normally you would have returned his gaze with one of your own, raising a brow and maybe throwing in a wink to make him roll his eyes and turn his gaze back to Erwin, but today you opted to turn your gaze downwards. Glancing at the papers in front of you attempted to read them, though you knew it was pointless, no matter how many times you read them over you never retained any of the information, similar to know matter how hard you tried to listen to what was being said you never seemed to be able to properly comprehend what was being said. It was frustrating to say the least.

“According to the weather experiments that Hange has been performing it appears that there will be a massive storm arriving within the next couple of days. That is why, after careful consideration, it has been decided that should a storm take place that all troops will be given the day, and following days off as it will be near impossible for any training to take place,” It was the last of Erwin’s announcements and though the blond spoke like he doubted the storm would take place, everyone knew that while often extravagant, Hange’s experiments often worked, with their weather experiments becoming fairly accurate in predicting the weather. So with the idea of maybe getting a little more sleep, and being able to escape your mind just a little, in a couple days you left the room with the others, returning to your office.

-

The storm that Hange had predicted did happen, starting with low howls of wind late in the night, as clouds burden with snow covered the sky, sending large flakes of snow down onto the earth. By the time that the sun had risen the next morning, though the winds had not calmed by much and the snow was still falling, large drifts of snow had formed around the scouts headquarters. With the lower ranked soldiers being informed of the day off, most stayed in the mesh hall, playing games of chess and idly chatting, while senior officers went to their offices, attempting to catch up with overdue paperwork now that they had a day not filled with training drills. You however were a different story.

You had woken up just as the sun was rising to be greeted with frosted window panes, and a chill that seemed to speed in from the outside, numbing your body even with the fire that was still going in the fireplace. The fatigue that was filling your mind also did not help the chill that had crept into your body, making you want nothing more than to sleep, and perhaps you could. Erwin had said that when the storm blows in they would all be given the day off, so perhaps, just once, you could give into your mind and just sleep. Yes a part of you screamed that no matter how bad you feel, no matter how hard it is to bury everything you’re feeling, you need to get up, go and eat breakfast and do your work. But the thought of food had your stomach in a knot and the thought of paperwork brought back the image of fog whenever you had been working the past days. So before you could tell yourself no you sank back into your bed and pulled the blanket up and over your head and went back to sleep.

-

Levi was in a panicked mood to say the least, though it did not appear so if anyone were to comment. He had waited for over an hour for you to appear in the mesh hall, and when you hadn’t he had merely shrugged it off as a day that you weren’t hungry (he’ll bring some bread alongside the tea he normally brings later), but slowly as the day went on and as he continually went back and forth between all of the places you went to be alone and his own office, you were nowhere to be found. He had checked the library, Mike, Hange, and Erwin’s offices, the storage closet on the east wing, he had even braved the cold weather and checked the stables. So now with just one place left, if he didn’t find you he was going to raise a high alarm, after all it was already late into the afternoon and not one person had seen you all day, if that wasn’t a reason to worry or panic then he didn’t know what was.

Arriving in front of the room that had you shared with Hange (though it was more of just your room as they tended to sleep in their lab), he tried the handle, finding it unlocked (thankfully he didn’t have to kick the damn thing down, he let himself into the room. Shivering slightly as he walked in, automatically noticing the dying fire in the fireplace, however he quickly turned his gaze to the bundle of blankets on the bed. Pushing the door shut with his hand he quickly turned the lock before he walked slowly towards the bed. Reaching his hand out to grab the blanket, he hesitated, was this the right thing to do? Should he bother you like this? But before he could decide to leave (he doubted that in that state you were that you had even noticed him) he remembered something, a promise the two of you had made.

-

The night sky had shone so bright that night, if felt like it was mocking him, with each night since their passing not even a cloud crossed the night sky. He may have chosen not to regret anything that happened, chosen to follow the man he had been sent to kill, but that didn’t mean grief did not find its way into his heart. As his mind clouded, silent tears falling down his cheeks, the sound of a cup being placed next to him startled him. Jumping to his feet, his hand reaching for the knife in his pocket, he was surprised to find you there, laughing softly as you held a cup out to him. Eyeing you suspiciously he glanced between the cup and you.

“It’s not poisoned if that’s what you’re thinking, I would drink it to prove it to you, but as much of a clean freak you are I don’t think you would appreciate that now would you?” Rolling his eyes he sat back down, (in the same spot he had sat every night he had come up here with Furlan and Isabel) taking the cup gratefully, though still eyeing you as you rested you arms on the way, now holding your own up between your hands, eyes aimed towards the sky.

He couldn’t help but wonder why you went through all the trouble, why you’ve gone out of your way since he first arrived, to try and befriend him (if that’s what you were trying). Even after knowing he had joined the scouts to kill one of your own friends, you had still cared enough to hand him the bloody wings of freedom that had belonged to Furlan and Isabel, and every day you made sure to greet him when passing by, or even dragging him off to train with your squad, because (and he could quote it), ‘Flagen’s an ass and you won’t learn anything from him’. Now even, you had sought him out in the middle of the night, when he was at his lowest, to offer him a cup of tea. Why, what were you gaining from this? Most everyone else still treated him like an outsider, so why were you so kind?

“You’re wondering why aren’t you? Why am I so kind to you?” you mused softly, speaking his thoughts out loud for him. Looking his way, you met eyes briefly before he turned his gaze away, silently answering your own questions. Another small laugh escaped you as he avoided your gaze.

“There’s no reason, if you must know, no reason other than I don’t think that you should be alone after everything that happened.” He scoffed at that, causing you to laugh once more, humans were selfish creatures, that much was true, so you had to have a reason, something that you wanted, but for the time being he would indulge you, you were rather calming to be around (and not just his curiosity getting the better of him). So he sat silently, occasionally speaking up, as you talked about random things to fill the silence. The two of you stayed like that for several hours into the night, and it wasn’t until you both were finally heading to bed to get the few hours of sleep that you could before you would be required to be up and training, did he ask what the both of you knew had been on his mind all night long.

 “What do you get out of this, what do you want in return? And don’t say nothing, everyone wants something.” You smiled softly nodding as you thought carefully.

“I really do want nothing, but if it satisfies you, I’m doing what I would want someone to do for me if I were in your shoes, so why don’t we say that what I want in return is for someone to kick me in the ass if I ever appear to lose hope in everything, okay? Does that work as an answer for you?”

Though shock coursed through his body, he rolled his eyes, letting out yet another scoff among thousands that he had made during the night, muttering, “I suppose that works.”

“Great, then it's a deal. I keep annoying you and in return if I ever get mopey and depressed I expect you to kick me in my ass and tell me to get over it,” you said, laughing all the while.

-

‘If I ever get mopey and depressed I expect you to kick me in my ass and tell me to get over it.’ That was what you said, so while you may end up being momentarily pissed at him for what he was about to do, you could only blame yourself, after all you were the one who said he could do it.

Grabbing the blanket with both hands he gave a hard tug as he pulled it off of you, shaking you awake. As the sudden cold hit your body and light flooded your face, blinding you, you blinked your eyes quickly, trying to adjust to the sudden light while giving Levi a look of, ‘what the hell are you doing?’

“You look like shit,” Levi said once you met his eyes, and it was true. Your hair was a mess, your eyes bloodshot and swollen, tear streaks running down your face, your skin looked duller than normal, but those were not the things that shocked Levi. The look of absolute defeat, of brokenness shook him to his core, never had he seen you look so small and helpless, causing him to yell at himself mentally for not realizing how badly your mental health had become. 

“Yeah, yeah, now what do you want,” you eyed the blanket that he had ripped away from you longingly, but made no move to try and take it back, your arms felt too heavy to move, pushing yourself to sit was hard enough.

“I’m here to get your lazy ass up, seeing as you decided to sleep all day.” You raised your eyebrows, glancing to look at the window, to see that long shadows had started creeping across the land outside of your window, the sun would be setting soon.

Sighing, Levi draped the blanket over the headboard, reaching a hand out to gently grasp your chin to turn your gaze back to him, “What’s wrong brat?”

“Nothings wrong, I just decided to sleep all day. What's wrong with that.” While you still denied it, one look, however, he could tell it was a lie. From the way your eyes watered and refused to look at any part of him, knowing that you would cave if you looked directly at him and not wanting to burden him with your own memories and feelings, he already dealt with more than his fair share.

“Don’t lie to me. And if I must remind you, you gave me special permission to beat your ass if you ever got like this.”

“I-,” you finally met his eyes, seeing for the first time the amount of worry that shone behind them, “fine,” you mumbled, slipping out of his grasp and resting your back against the wall, staring at your hands as you gathered you thoughts, trying to find a place to start. Slipping his boots off Levi joined you on the bed, resting against the headboard, arms crossed as he waited patiently.

Once your thoughts had been gathered you started speaking, telling the story of all the people you could never save. Your fellow cadets that had graduated from the same cadet corps as you, joining you as a scout (there had only been five of you who had joined that year), all of whom had died during their first expedition, leaving you alone. Of fellow squad mates that were killed saving you, fresh new cadets that you were given to train that never made it through their first expedition. The guilt you felt from not being there to save Furlan and Isabel. The screams of mothers when told that their child was dead and never returning home. Then finally, as your voice became shaky and tears had filled your eyes until you could no longer see clearly, you told him of your siblings. Of the snowstorm that rolled through your hometown, of the argument you had with your parents, how you had left right before the storm had it, leaving for a friends house, and how your younger siblings had gone out in the storm to search for you only to not be seen again until spring, about the blame your parents had placed on you, and the blame you placed on yourself. You told him everything as he sat silent, watching as your highest wall crumbled and fell to the ground.

He had known you were a kind soul, but he had never realized just how kind you were, how much you cared for people, and how much you blame yourself for not saving people who could not be saved. Stepping out of his comfort zone you reached his arms out, wrapping tightly around your torso as he pulled to his chest, whispering soft affirmations, and speaking of all the lives you had saved. And as he held you in his arms, speaking to you and rubbing calming circles on you back as you fell apart before him and sobbed your heart out, you realized something. You weren’t in this alone in any of this pain, there were others all around you who felt the same, friends, strangers, so many people in your own life who had also lost others and shared in the same grief and pain as you. You realized that as long as you reached out to those you cared, you would never be alone.

Wrapping your arms around the dark haired man, between your sobs, you whispered out a small thank you, for caring, and for reaching out.

[angel-letters]

Do you have any kind of rules for requesting like characters or topics you won't do? Is there a limit on how many characters we can ask about at a time?

Dear Anon,

Thank you asking about this! I’ll be posting a request rules page in the future but currently I am working on an invitation and a formal letter so I haven’t had the time to post any rules so I’ll put the main ones here!

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And as of a limit of characters I will do, I still haven’t decided so you may request as many as you would like! Just know that the more characters you request the longer it take for your request to be completed.

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