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GAHHHHHHHHHHHH đ€
fem reader intended
fiancé gojo who shocked the jujutsu higher ups when he revealed his engagement to you, a grade 1 sorceress with no relation to any big 3 clans. imagine their surprise when he decides to get married out of love and not just to create a heir.
fiancé gojo who teaches with you at jujutsu high and is the reason why you can barely arrive to classes on time. with his pouty face and insanely toned biceps trapping you in his hold, who are you to say no?
fiancé gojo who whines when you actually leave him to teach your students, feigning offence when megumi shoots him a disgusted glare.
fiancé gojo who often joins in on your lessons when he starts feeling lonely, acting as if he were your actual student. your annoyingly smart A+ student who does nothing but brag about his intelligence.
fiancé gojo who likes to text you and send silly voice messages no matter the situation. picture satoru replaying his minute-long burp vm in front of the jujutsu higher ups so that he makes sure you can laugh at it (spoiler: all you feel is disappointment).
fiancĂ© gojo who thinks itâs absolutely hilarious to flaunt his engagement and watch the irritation on their faces turn into pure horror. because for gojo, flaunting means interrupting you mid-sentence to practically make out for a minute straight.
fiancĂ© gojo who asks everyday, âshould we have our wedding now?â and sighs dramatically when you tell him to be patient. not that heâs actually mad, though. he likes the giddyness he feels while counting down to your wedding date.
fiancé gojo who drowns you in affection and praise after every mission, crying his heart out (jokingly) about how he felt like an abandoned princess waiting for her prince to come back from war.
fiancĂ© gojo who, deep down, thanks the skies above that you get to come home safely everytime. and while heâs a jokester, all the âmissing youâ parts in his sob stories were true. because while he knew you were strong, the lingering worry of you running into something way stronger bit his ass everytime.
fiancé gojo who indulges himself in your warmth, ignoring every single notification his phone pings out.
fiancĂ© gojo who has a hold on you so secure, even during sleep, that you have to wake him up before he presses on your bladder any further. now you have to deal with his complaints of âdo you not love me anymore? Is that why you let go? youâre so mean!â
fiancé gojo who shuts up when you offer to wash his greasy hair, immediately situating himself in front of you and leaning into every single touch you place on his head.
fiancé gojo who ends up getting you wet and makes a stupid excuse so that you can bathe together. no matter how difficult, the feeling of your skin against his was enough to get him through the day.
fiancĂ© gojo who settles your back on his chest, lifting your arm to trace âsatoru đ€ [name] 4evaâ. what a cutie.
fiancĂ© gojo who genuinely canât wait until he sees you walk down the aisle, exchange the vows heâs been working on since you first met, shamelessly give you the most passionate kiss ever (in front everyone you know and love), and officially get the privilege of calling you his wifey.
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move in with me
satoru gojo x reader. fluff. independent reader. domestic satoru
Youâve always prided yourself for being strong and independent. Solving your own problems, dusting your own shelves, and you knew when everyone else lets you down, that you could always count on yourself. So when you started dating Satoru Gojo, it threw you off kilter.
To say that it was an adjustment would be an understatement. He treated you like a princess, not wanting you to lift a single finger. He would tie your shoe laces, open doors, cook for you, carry your grocery bags, and with one single grimace from your face- due to you unfortunately wearing heels to dinner- heâd carry you on one arm with your strappy heels on the other.
In the beginning youâd frequently voice out to him that it was unnecessary, that you could do all of those things yourself. But he would just shrug before saying, âI know you can, but that doesnât mean you have to.âand when you wouldnât budge, heâd add, â Doing things for you, you relying on me makes me happy. And you want me to be happy,right?â
And what were you suppose to answer to that kind of blackmail? So eventually, you mellowed out. You slowly got used to relying on him and it was nice finally able to turn off you brain for once and just let him take the lead.
Going out for dinner? Heâd say just wear something nice and heâll pick you up at 7:00. Vacation? Heâs got all the tourist spots all mapped out and you donât even know what airlines your taking, only that the he has everything covered. Birthday? Heâll plan a full on surprise at the stroke of midnight with balloons, cake, a ridiculously huge bouquet of your favorite flowers, and that pair of cute earrings youâve been eyeing for weeks now. All this simply because, âYou deserve nothing but the best out of everything, princess.â
But time and time again youâd prove that old habits die hard.
Gojo watched amused as you paced around the living room of his spacious and modern apartment, trying to find a solution to your current predicament. You just got off from a call from your landlord telling you that he just doubled your rent due to market prices rising and other things you didnât care about. All you knew is that it was too much for you to afford and your brain immediately went into problem solving mode.
âI could find a smaller apartment, but its dead in the winter. Thereâs barely any good apartments available this time of year.â
âOr I could move in with Shoko! Yes! She always wanted me to so it would take a load off her rent and this way I could finally help her stop smoking-â
Satoru pulled you by the hand to his lap on the sofa making you yelp in surprise. âBaby, slow down.â He snaked his arms around your waist as you made yourself comfortable on his lap. You huffed, âBut Toru, Im basically homeless next month.â
He shook his head and pinched your nose making your face scrunch. âYouâre not gonna be homeless, your forgetting that you have me.â
âIf youâre gonna tell me that you have an extra apartment on hand, I wonât know how to answer that.â
He guffawed a laugh, the type that made your stomach flip that it was hard to not smile at him. âBaby, no- haha- no,â He pulled you closer to his chest and his thumbs made soothing motions on your side. âIâm telling you- no asking you to move in with me.â
âWhat?â You leaned back in surprise.
His hand gently cupped your cheek, making you lean in to his touch. âMove in with me, princess. Iâve got the space. Youâre already here most of the time and I was already planning on asking you to move in with me anyways so this spans out perfectly.â
His ocean eyes held nothing but warmth and sincerity, yet you still looked at him skeptically, âAre you sure? I donât want you too feel pressured into asking me, Toruâ
âBaby, are you forgetting all the times I practically latched on to your legs to stop you from leaving?âThe memory of him trying to bribe you into staying made you snort making him grin. âSee? I want you around 24/7.â
âI donât know, Toru.â You were coming around, but Satoru could still see a little doubt in your eyes. He pressed a kiss on your cheek, âI want to see your clothes besides mine,â a kiss to your other cheek, âYour ridiculous amount of skincare in the bathroom,â A kiss on your forehead, âI want the house to smell like those scented candles that you love so much,â a kiss on your nose, âI want to leave home with a kiss from you,â and finally a kiss on your lips, so soft and sweet as if trying to pour everything else he couldnât say into the kiss. âAnd I wanna come home to you sound asleep on our bed if I get home late.â
Your face burned with warmth from his kisses and small confessions,âOkay..â He raised an eyebrow, âOkay, Ill move in with you.â You said with more enthusiasm.
With a satisfied smile, he pulls you into his warm chest, placing his head on top of yours, âPlease rely on me more. Promise to rely on me more?â
You pull away a bit to look him in the eyes, âI promise, Toru.â
He leans his head down closer to yours, with a playful glint in his eyes,âYou promise what? Use your words, princess.â
âI promise to rely on you.â
âGood girl.â He mumbles against your lips before capturing it in his, his hands move to cup your face as he deepened the kiss. His tongue danced with yours as a hand moves to the back of your head, pulling you closer, as if trying to eliminate any space between you. Your chest pressed into his, making you moan into his mouth. He pull away with a lustful groan, a delicate strand of saliva connecting your lips before he licked it away. He dazedly nudged your nose with his, âYeah, Iâm really gonna love having you around, princess.â
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basketballplayer satoru gojo x reader. fluffy fluff. feat. a bit of geto, shoko and utahime.
The roar of the crowd resonates throughout the entirety of the huge gymnasium. People wearing different colors of the team they're rooting for, already screaming and hyping each other up like they all drank a can of red bull beforehand.
Amidst the noise, the squeaking of shoes could also be heard from your place at the top of the bleachers. You can see the players warming up on each side. The sight of a familiar white head of hair made your heart skip though he was too focused to notice you were even here.
You take a deep breath in as your nervous gaze swipes through the area. You bit your lip, hands fidgeting, not knowing what to do. Deciding to come here was a last minute decision, a whim, a risk. So you failed to inform anyone of your attendance, including the man who's last name was currently printed on the back of the jersey you were wearing .
Its not like you haven't been here before. You've come to countless practices, just not an official match. And in the thick of the crowd, you can't locate your friends that were surely here. You could feel pairs of eyes burning a hole on your back, probably wondering why you were wearing the jersey of the basketball teams star player.
Maybe, you should have thought this through. You didn't need to come here, you could have caught the next game where you could have actually told Satoru and your friends you were coming. Then you could have avoided this awkward situation.
But all of those thoughts gets push back when your mind races to Satoru's dejected eyes.
"Its okay, sweets. You don't have to go tomorrow." Satoru assured you as he brushes a stray hair away from your face.
You sat on the kitchen counter, with Satoru between your thighs, his big hands squeezing your hips comfortingly. "But you want me to go."
"I do wanna see my gorgeous girl cheering me on from the sidelines," You rolled your eyes at that, making him chuckle. "But, I don't want you to feel pressured. If your not comfortable making out relationship public yet then its fine."
And you know he means it. He has been nothing short of perfect throughout this budding relationship of yours. Sure, he can be a bit childish, but you liked that about him. In fact, it is still a mystery to you how you landed him in the first place. Though your insecurities had no time to properly take root with how Satoru showers you constant praises and compliments. Its like he wants your head to get as big as his, which you think is near impossible.
"Are you sure, Toru?"
He nods before pressing a kiss to your forehead, "Im sure, baby. There are still plenty of games this season. Missing this one doesn't matter."
Yet you couldn't help but notice the downhearted look in his eyes that he tried to hide by slapping on a dorky grin, but even that looked a little forced.
At that moment, the apartment doorbell rang. "Ooh, must be the pizza!" Satoru immediately started walking to the door, leaving you to your thoughts.
Its not like you didn't want to go. God knows you want nothing more than to scream your heart out as you sat on the bleachers with Shoko and Utahime. Its just the thought of everyone finding out that you were dating the star player of one of the most renowned universities in the country is a tad intimidating. Not to mention the scary fans, that look like they would have shrines built for Gojo and immediately despising anything that would come in between them and their idol.
Having a history with bullying in high school, you weren't good with hate, with the backtalking, the whispering and countless of judgemental eyes on you. Plus, sometimes your overthinking mind wins when Satoru isn't around, what if you broke up? Then everyone would know that you got dumped and that would be a million times embarrassing. Is this new relationship really worth the risk?
You sighed, damn you really needed to get a grip and grow a spine one of these days. Satoru walked back to the kitchen all giddy with two pizza boxes in hand. He grinned as he opened them one by one on the table. "Here's my pizza with cheese and crumbled oreo cookies on top."
His pizza choices made your nose scrunch everytime. "And here's your triple cheese pizza, and I got some lactaid in advance so your tum-tum won't get all weird."
You pursed your lips, your inner spiraling made you a bit emotional, as you hastily try to blink back the tears that were starting to form. Stupid Toru, It was your heart that got all weird and warm. He said that like it wasn't a big deal, like he didn't know that were gonna be deeply moved that he remembered. It really was the little things that got to you. He turns around to get the pizza cutter in one of the drawers.
Hastily, you jump down the counter and hugged him from behind. You embraced his waist tightly, nuzzling your head on his clothe back.
"Woah, whats this for? " He said, startled. "Not that Im complaining. Jump me all you want." He chuckled, clasping his big hands over your smaller ones.
"Nothing," You murmured, breathing in his scent. "I don't think you know how much I appreciate you, Toru."
Yes, you were a bit scared. But if there was anyone you would dive head first for, it was this man right here. Satoru was worth the risk.
"Well, there are someways you can sho-"
"Satoru Gojo!"
Yeah, you'd sleep on it.
So here you are. You showed up for him and somehow also for you. You were proud to be his girlfriend, jealous fans be damn. You weren't about to disappoint one of the best things that ever happened to you just because of a bunch of unwelcomed stares and whispers.
Thankfully not a minute to soon, a familiar voice calls out your name and you turn to see Shoko's surprise face that converted into a wide grin. "You actually came!"
You let out a breath of relief, finally a friendly face. "Shoko, you have no idea how glad I am to see you."
"You should've told me you were coming!" She excitedly pulls you by the arm, leading you down the stairs to the front of the bleachers, bumping into a few people that curiously stares at your oversized jersey, "That idiot is gonna be jumping hoops once he sees you."
Finally, the both of you made it to the seats right in front of where the team was warming up. Utahime jumps and gives you a hug. Obviously pleased with your arrival. "Hell yeah! Now we're a three girl cheer squad!"
Before you could take a seat Shoko pulls you by the arm once more, making you face the court. She puts a hand to her mounth as she yells, "Yo! Gojo! Look who's here!"
Suguru who hears the commotion first, nudges Satoru by the arm with a satisfied smirk on his face. Satoru turns his head, confused. His eyes lands on Shoko then on her hand that was obnoxiously pointing right on the top of your head.
The moment his eyes lands on you, he took a double take, as if he wasn't sure if his eyes were deceiving him. Clarity seems to find him as half a second later he beams at you, a wide grin breaking on his face, his bright blue eyes sparkling delight and happiness. He immediately ran towards you, screaming. "You came! You freaking came!"
You squeal as you were swept off your feet in seconds and into Gojo`s warm embrace, spinning you around in glee. You couldn't help but giggle at his unrestrained reaction, "Toru, put me down. Im getting dizzy!"
Unwillingly, he place you back on the ground, but he still held you flushed against him by the waist. "You're here, you're actually here. I just can't believe you're here."
You put your hands on his chest, rubbing soothingly as you look up at him shyly. "I couldn't miss my boyfriend's first game of the season now, could I?"
His cerulean eyes soften, gazing at you so tenderly, lips smiling gingerly, "You didn't have to do this, pretty."
"I know, but I wanted to."
Honestly, you didn't expect that you coming here would mean so much to him but the pure joy in his eyes were undeniable. How did you ever think of passing this up?
He rubs soft circles on your waist, eyes glancing at your outfit as he noticed you wearing a jersey. "Wait, are you wearing my.."
You laugh at his surprise. Pulling away, you give him a little twirl, showing off the huge Gojo printed on the back. "Of course I am. Whose else would I wear?"
"No, Its just-"
"Should I have worn Nanami's? but that wouldn't be appropria-"
You were cut short as he pulls you back to him possessively, tucking his face into your neck, making you laugh "No! You're mine!"
You could practically hear the crowd talk and whisper at Gojo's displays of affection, but honestly you didn't care right now. The only thing you cared about was the man that clung on to you like someone was about to steal you away from him.
Laughing softly, you manage to hug him back. "Im kidding, Satoru."
"Not funny." He pouts.
A tap to Satoru's back snaps the both of you out of the your little bubble. Its was Suguru, "The game's bout to start, man."
Satoru reluctantly untangles himself from you. "Yeah, yeah. Ill be right there."
"Hurry up, you can flirt with your girlfriend later."
He waves Geto off nonchalantly before he faces you again. He was gonna get scolded by his coach at this point. You push him away playfully to the direction of the court, "Go! I'll be right here."
Warm knuckles brushes your cheeks as he nods. "Cheer real loud for me, okay?" Your cheeks heat up as you give him a determined nod, "You got it!"
Geto practically drags him away from you. Halfway through the court though, he runs back to where you were standing.
"Toru?" You tilt your head.
He grins cheekily as he says, "I forgot something." Warms hands cup your face as he leans down and presses his lips to yours, your hands flew to his wrists as you kiss him back. Lips molding against his. It was short yet intense. It made your toes curl and your head spin.
"Gojo! " Utahime`s screeching voice flits through the air. "Save the kissing after the game when you win and actually deserve it!"
Gojo chuckles as he breaks away, a light blush dusting his cheeks. Your mind was still in a daze when he winks at you. "Nah, I already know Im winning."
Yep, he's definitely the risk that you would take over and over again.
Youre the risk, Im gonna take it. Obessed with this song lately.
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
Guys you donât know how much I love Spider-Man Gojo fics.
infect me with your love
pairing âžș spiderman!gojo x reader
summary âžș you have always existed in gojo satoruâs shadow. he is a physics prodigy, a person that everyone endlessly admires for his intelligence and charisma, and you hate him for taking the spotlight that you deserve to share with him. but it all changes one day at 5:07AM at your starbucks job when gojo barges in, ordering ridiculously sweet drinks and posing existential questions. is there more to gojo that meets the eye, and is it linked to the vigilante swinging around New York City?
warnings âžș college au, academic rivals to lovers, SMUT, tooth rotting fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, basically the holy trinity, reader works at Starbucks (BOYCOTT tho), set in NYC, both reader and gojo are physics majors, mentions of SA, attempt at SA on reader but nothing too graphic, some violence, gojo swings reader across NYC so might trigger fear of heights?. SPIDER-MAN KISS SPIDERMAN KISS, injury and mentions of blood, mentions of gun, inappropriate use of webs LOL, fingering, oral, p in v sex, reader has a vagina, fem reader implied
playlist âžș quantum rizzics
a/n thank you for @avaults my POOKIE for beta reading this. this has been a journey and my first longfic and i hope you guys enjoy this as much as i did writing it it's my baby:')
if u donât wanna read the smut just skip the part after they make up, itâs not necessary to the story and is the ending scene. but just to be clear, minors dni.
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fun fact: starbucks opens at 5am.
of course, that depends on your local hours and where you live, but in the campus starbucks you worked at, your manager fortunately didnât really care if you showed up to your opening shift a bit late. after all, no professor or undergrad is waking up at the ass crack of dawn to get a fuckin coffee; if they really needed a pick me up, theyâd go to get the free alcohol at one of the frats that was still partying.Â
matter of fact, your manager didnât really give a fuck what you did as long as you didnât get the shop blown up or the matcha spilled (it was expensive). this meant you could leisurely wake up at 4:45am and set up the display muffins and cake pops when you arrived in the shop at 5:20am. really, the manager ought to reduce the hours because all you do is finish your readings for your gen ed history classes on the canvas app on your phone. so, really you get paid for doing your homework on your shiftsânot that youâre complaining or anything.
that is, until gojo satoru.
first, letâs get the record straight about who gojo is. gojo is a physics second-yearâsame as youâwho is the bane of your existence. up until a few months ago, you never saw gojo satoru outside of classes (where he was dozing off) unless you happened to show up at a frat party, which was only a few occurrences when you got peer pressured by your friends. clearly, he was a âwork hard, party hardâ type person because he frequents the frats more than the library while having the grades to make up for it because heâs a prodigy. heâs charismatic and smart as fuck; right out of middle school he was studying manifolds and abstract algebra while the rest of the high school freshmen were learning the quadratic equation and the concept of variables. he probably learned what gravity was at age of two and was doing research in quantum field theory by the time he got into college.Â
take the last time you saw him outside of class, at office hours with professor yaga.
the air in professor yagaâs office is thick with the scent of old textbooks, the hum of the overhead lights adding to the familiar quiet. youâve been waiting all week for this chance, and youâre armed with a question thatâs supposed to signal iâve done my homework. you lean forward, trying to project confidence as you ask, âi read in your last paper that youâre working on optimizing error correction in quantum computing systems. is there a reason you prioritized stabilizer codes over surface codes?â
professor yagaâs brow lifts, impressed, and you can feel the warmth of his approval starting to settle around you. âah,â he says, sounding pleasantly surprised, âyouâve actually read it. thatâs... a complicated question.â he leans back, launching into an explanation, and for a second, you think this might actually be itâthe moment he notices you for your dedication, your depth of knowledge.
but then, the door creaks open behind you.
you tense, a sinking feeling pooling in your stomach even before you turn around. of course, itâs gojo satoru, strolling in like he owns the place. his bag is slung over one shoulder, and heâs flashing that easy grin that never seems to falter. he spares you the briefest glance before zeroing in on professor yaga.
professor yagaâs face shifts instantly, a mixture of annoyance and resignation flashing in his eyes as he sighs, âgojo. nice of you to join us.â
âhey, i was just passing by,â gojo says casually, though heâs clearly anything but. he doesnât pass by anywhere without making an entrance. âthought iâd check in on how everyoneâs doing.â
the glint in yagaâs eyes sharpens, and he fixes gojo with a look. âwhenâs that last problem set coming in, satoru? iâve had enough late assignments from you for one semester.â
at this, another professor at a nearby desk chuckles, casting an amused glance at gojo. âdonât push him too hard, yaga,â he says as if gojoâs delinquency is something charming, a shared inside joke. âkidâs already got the departmentâs highest scores without trying.â
oh, for godâs fucking sake. you force yourself not to roll your eyes, your grip tightening on the strap of your bag as you sink back in your chair. of course, all it takes is for him to show up and somehow youâre rendered invisible. just minutes ago, professor yaga was engaging with you, treating you as if you might actually belong in this room with your carefully constructed question. now, heâs utterly distracted, entirely absorbed by whatever pseudo-flattering insults heâs throwing at gojo. and, for the record, that stupid, balding professor is wrong. you have the same fucking scores as gojo, so youâre equals.
youâre not even sure gojo realizes heâs doing itâthat he has this magnetic, obnoxious effect on everyone in a room. but thatâs exactly what grates on you the most. he pulls all eyes to him, like heâs some cosmic force everyoneâs compelled to admire. and you? youâre just⊠there. not that itâs any different than the usual experiences youâve had as a woman in stem, always feeling like you have to prove yourself five times over. but somehow, gojo makes it worse.
and he does it all effortlessly, like physics is some sort of playground where he can breeze through research and exams, sprinkling charisma wherever he goes. heâs probably off writing his own theories on manifolds while everyone else is struggling to keep up with quantum mechanics. meanwhile, here you are, clawing for every shred of recognition, only to watch it fizzle as soon as he steps into the room.
he flashes a grin at professor yaga. âiâll get it in,â he says, waving a hand dismissively. âiâm just, you know, prioritizing. some of us have⊠extracurriculars.â he doesnât wink, but he might as well.
you resist the urge to scoff, sinking deeper into your seat as the frustration bubbles up, sharp and hot. itâs not like youâre jealous. youâd rather endure anything than admit that. but watching gojo waltz in and immediately siphon off any attention youâd managed to earn feels like a slap. if he could just stop showing up, or better yet, stop pretending to be so casually brilliant, maybeâjust maybeâyouâd have a chance at something other than this routine invisibility.
you let out a huff, pretending to check the time, imagining you had somewhere better to be. you have brilliant, observant blue eyes following you out the door, but youâre too busy trying to keep yourself together until you reach your dorm, where you ugly cry it out.
which, of course, brings you to mornings like this one, where you actually do have to be somewhere. namely, behind the counter at the campus starbucks, opening up shop while most of the world is still asleep. you catch sight of the green mermaid logo ahead, just visible through the dim haze of a 5:07 a.m. chill.
and right beneath it, thereâs a familiar head of silver hair.
your eyes have to double take on the man who seems to be looking a bit slouched, tired and leaning against the light pole while tapping his foot. the muscular yet tall stature and white hair are unmistakable; itâs the same ones youâve dreamed about throttling. but youâre so confused as to why heâs there that you just decide to wordlessly walk towards the store and open up, ignoring his presence until his voice cuts through the morning silence.
âdoesnât this store open up at 5?â his voice sounds tired and groggy, you notice.Â
âuh, yea,â you answer tentatively, shrugging. âbut, um, no one comes until 7 so i show up late.â
his eyes narrow and somewhat playfully (well, as playful as he can sound at the ass crack of dawn anyways), he asks, âdonât you know time is of the essence? seems pretty irresponsible to me that youâre not showing up on time.â
you just stare at him for a bit because, after all, this is the guy youâve been having the murderous equivalent of wet dreams about for the past year talking to you in a friendly, joking, familiar way. needless to say, youâre at a loss of words in your slightly flustered state, so all that comes out is a short âsorryâ before youâre walking in, getting ready to put on your apron and setting the oven on to heat up the croissants.Â
gojo follows in after you, choosing to sit at the table closest to the counter. he sets the backpack he had on his back down, rummaging through and whipping out his laptop and plugging it in. itâs a heavy old thing, and gojoâs biceps strain as he pulls it out and you almost snort when looking at it in its entirety. a gaming laptop.
 but you donât do that, because laughing at someone whoâs a stranger to you would be mean, no matter how much you hate him, so you resort to setting up the counter and getting some powders out. bending over, you get the newly shipped box of cake pops, deigning to put them out on display until youâre interrupted with a cough.
you turn, looking inquisitively at gojo until he points down to the counter, indicating that he wants to order. you mumble, âjust a second!â before you continue hauling the box to put it on the top counter where you can easily unpack it and brush your hands, walking up to gojo and getting the system ready to take his order.Â
and your fingers are poised on the buttons until you realize that no order is coming out of his mouth. you blink, and he blinks, keeping a stoic face that nevertheless poorly conceals an amused expression.
ââŠwhat can i get you?âÂ
at that, he pouts. âno good morning? no chirpy hello?â
you just stare at him for a good second. what the fuck?
âwhat?â gojo frowns. âshouldnât you do that to every customer?â you realize belatedly youâve said it out loud in your shock, but shake it off nonetheless.Â
the silence lingers after gojoâs teasing comment, making you acutely aware of the odd situation: youâre standing there in your work apron, face-to-face with the man youâve imagined taking down in your head a thousand times, and yet here he is, tired but playfully trying to chat you up. you should hate thisâheâs getting under your skin, but for some reason, you just feel unsettled, disturbed that heâs so human.
you donât trust your voice to not crack while making eye contact with him, so, instead, you focus on your screen. you settle on a simple, flat, âmorning,â without a hint of cheerfulness, staring down at the register like itâs your lifeline.
gojoâs eyebrow quirks at your half-hearted greeting, but he says nothing, opting instead to study you with an amused glint. you can feel his gaze, like a weight on your skin, and it almost makes you shiver. he leans forward a little, propping his elbows on the counter, his posture loose but expectant. his playful energy is barely masking something beneath it, something harder.
gojo's grin is wide, almost boyish, and it makes your stomach churn more than it should.
âsee? was that so hard?â he says, leaning forward on his elbows like heâs settling in for a chat. his tone is too friendly for someone whoâs never exchanged more than a glance with you in classâsomeone youâve been actively avoiding whenever possible.
you scowl, moving to the register to finally punch in his order. âwhat would you like?â
âhmm...â he taps his chin, dragging out the silence. heâs enjoying this, that much is obvious. âsurprise me.â
you blink, fingers still poised over the buttons. âsurprise you?â
âyeah,â he says, shrugging like itâs no big deal. âyou work here. you know whatâs good.â
you want to throttle him. really, truly throttle him. thereâs no way this is realâno way the gojo satoru is sitting in front of you at 5:07 in the morning, asking you to surprise him with a starbucks order like heâs some quirky regular.
and yet, here you are.
âfine,â you mutter, punching in the order for the sweetest, most ridiculous concoction you can think of. caramel drizzle, extra whipped cream, a pump of every syrup in the back roomâyouâre not going easy on him. âthatâll be eight dollars.â
he doesnât blink at the ridiculous price. of course, he doesnât.
pulling out his phone, he taps it against the card reader and flashes you another grin. âthanks, iâm sure itâll be great.â
you barely resist the urge to roll your eyes. âuh-huh.â
as you move to make the drink, the silence between you stretches uncomfortably. youâve spent so much time thinking about gojo, despising him, that now that heâs here, right in front of you, you donât know how to act. and the worst part? he seems perfectly at ease, completely unfazed by the fact that youâve spent the better part of a year dreaming of his downfall. heâs back to looking at his stupid heavy ahh gaming laptop, and as you move over to put in copious amounts of caramel pumps, you notice that heâs on cool math games playing fireboy and watergirl and almost snort out loud. heâs locked in on his game, his legs moving up and down anxiously, reminiscent of an ipad kid.
after a few minutes of assembling his monstrosity of a drink, you slide it across the counter. âhere,â you say, trying to keep the irritation out of your voice.
gojo raises an eyebrow at the drink, the sheer volume of whipped cream threatening to spill over the lid. âwow,â he says, sounding genuinely impressed. âyou really went all out.â
âyou said to surprise you.â
âi did,â he admits, grabbing the cup and taking a slow, deliberate sip. his eyes widen slightly at the overly sweet taste, and for a brief moment, you think youâve won.
but then he smiles again, that same irritatingly carefree smile, and you know you havenât.Â
âso,â gojo begins, leaning back in his chair like heâs settling in for a long conversation. âwhatâs a genius like you doing working the early shift at starbucks?â
your hands freeze mid-clean, and you glance at him sharply. genius?
you canât tell if heâs being sincere or mocking youâprobably the latter, considering who he isâbut the word still lingers in the air between you, unsettling.
you scoff, trying to brush it off. âgotta pay the bills somehow,â you mutter, going back to wiping down the counter. but gojoâs gaze is heavy on you, and you can tell heâs not letting it go.
you glance up at him. âlook, i like having time to think in the mornings. itâs quiet. besides, no oneâs lining up for coffee before 7, so itâs not like iâm missing anything.â
gojo chuckles softly, but thereâs something off about it. âthinking time, huh?â he repeats your words, but thereâs a strange edge to them, like heâs mulling them over. in fact, you think you just realize that heâs been acting oddly this entire morning, restlessness evident in his figure. he taps his fingers on the table, his eyes flickering to the window, watching the gray morning light spill into the shop.
âdoesnât it ever feel likeâŠâ he trails off, brow furrowing slightly. âi donât know⊠like you should be doing something else? like⊠something more?â
his question hangs in the air, heavy and unspoken, but you get the feeling heâs not talking about you. thereâs something in his voice, something that sounds like heâs grappling with his own thoughts, with his own place in the world.
for a moment, youâre tempted to brush him off. to tell him heâs overthinking things, that heâs gojo satoru and he already has everything laid out for him. but something stops you. maybe itâs the way he looksâhis usual confidence slightly cracked at the edges, his playful tone masking something else. something deeper.
you shrug, turning back to the counter. âi mean⊠it doesnât have to be âmoreâ all the time. sometimes just showing up is enough.â
thereâs a pause, and you can feel the weight of your words sinking in. gojo goes quiet, really quiet, and when you glance back at him, his usual smirk is gone. heâs just⊠staring at you, eyes narrowed slightly like heâs trying to figure you out.
âjust⊠showing up, huh?â he repeats softly, almost like heâs testing the words. his fingers stop tapping, and he leans back in his chair, his gaze unfocused, like heâs somewhere else entirely. somewhere in his own head.
you donât say anything else. youâve said your piece, and somehow, you know it hit deeper than either of you expected. thereâs a strange silence between you now, not uncomfortable, but heavy with understanding.
gojo stands up after a long pause, grabbing his bag and slinging it over his shoulder. he looks at you, his usual grin slipping back into place, but itâs softer now. less cocky. more real.
âmaybe youâre right,â he says, and this time thereâs no teasing in his voice. âsometimes itâs enough just to show up.â
and with that, he gives you a small nod, turning and heading out into the cold morning. the door swings shut behind him, and for a second, you just stand there, staring after him.
somethingâs shifted. you donât know what it is, but it feels like the start of something. something bigger than just a rivalry.
you shake your head, turning back to the counter. itâs too early for this shit.
âŠ
âyou know, i didnât get your name.â
gojoâs voice cuts through the low hum of the espresso machine as he leans against the counter, that same insufferable grin plastered across his face. heâs here again, of course, only this time itâs during your closing shift. the place is quiet, almost deserted except for the occasional customer who swings by for a quick coffee before heading back out into the cold.
you look up from the equipment you were cleaning, already annoyed. âiâm pretty sure weâve shared at least one class every semester.â
you werenât trying to hide the pettiness. gojo, for all his academic genius, clearly couldnât be bothered to remember youâa recurring face in his orbit. itâs not like you were expecting him to remember you, especially among the sea of faces in lecture halls, but something about the way he strolled in, acting like this was just some cute, quirky meet-cute, got under your skin.
gojo quirks an eyebrow in confusion, his gaze drifting up toward the ceiling as if searching the recesses of his mind for your nameâonly to come up empty. âare you a grad student?â
you flash him an exasperated look. âjust for that, iâm not telling you.â
grabbing a towel to wipe your hands, you step out from behind the barista counter, heading towards the trash can just behind him to restock the straws. as you make your way to the supply room, you can feel his eyes following your every move. to your surprise, gojo starts walking toward you, his presence looming as you dump the straws into the container.
it isnât until you turn around that you realize heâs standing right next to you, bent comically at the waist and squinting at something on your chest. heat creeps up your neck and into your cheeks as you realize his proximity and move to take a step back.Â
he wasnât ogling you (thank god), but instead, squinting at the nametag pinned to your apron.
"ah," he says, straightening up with a triumphant grin. âthere it is. y/n, huh?â the way his mouth rolls over your name slowly makes you feel a bit weird, because after all, this is the guy youâve shit talked about in your diary finally acknowledging you existed, but before you can reflect on the feeling, you bristle again in annoyance.Â
âreally? you had to get that close just to read my name?â
gojo doesnât seem fazed by your annoyance, in fact, it only seems to amuse him further. âhey, i was just trying to be thorough. gotta make sure i get it right, you know?â his grin widens, and you swear heâs enjoying this way too much.
âthorough. sure.â you turn away, trying to busy yourself with the straws again, but the heat still lingers on your face. his proximity had been⊠unexpected. and a little too close for comfort.
when youâre done with the straws, you steel the courage to turn your body so youâre facing him, making an indication with your hands for him to move out of your way. instead of him giving you space to leave the cramped corner, he leans against the counter now like he practically owns the place. in doing so, he effectively pins you against the corner of the coffee shop, leaving you no option but to fiddle with the straws while pointedly avoiding his gaze, but not before you see the pout on his face. âyouâre not going to ask me for my name?â
âi know it. itâs gojo.â you immediately curse yourself for letting your lips loose.
fuck. he squints his eyes in what you perceive as suspicion. âhow do you know my name?â
âi saw it on your credit card information.â you couldnât exactly tell him how youâve stalked him (as well as how inefficient you found a function in his 6th grade robotics code), so that would be a plausible enough reason.Â
but gojo, of course, doesnât let up. âso, y/n,â he starts. âyou going to the party next week? you know, for halloweekend?â
ah, halloweekend. the ultimate weekend for getting excuses to dress slutilly, excessively drink, and get laid. at your college, it was an even bigger deal, with people partying for all three days of the weekâs end as well as the weekend before and after halloween. you shook your head. âi donât think so.â that phys 321 assignment was not going to finish itself, nor were parties really your scene.
âwhat?â he immediately crosses his arms across his chest, frowning and leaning closer to you to squint at you. âwhy?â
you sigh inwardly, awkward at the prospect of him bugging you further about your life. âiâm buââ
youâre interrupted by the sound of the door opening and instinctively move to get behind the counter to take the new customerâs order; at first, you thank the heavens that you got a distraction from gojo, that youâre not alone anymore, but seeing who the customer was, the hope extinguishes like a candle face with wind.
you both see a man swagger in, the same guy youâve noticed hanging around far too often lately. his eyes immediately lock onto you, and a slow, sleazy grin spreads across his face.
âhey, look whoâs still here,â the man says, sauntering over to the counter like he owns the place. âmy favorite barista.â
you tense, forcing a smile. âwhat can i get you?â
he doesnât answer right away, his gaze sliding down your body in a way that makes your skin crawl. âi was thinkingâŠâ he drawls, leaning in closer than necessary, âyou and i should hang out. youâre always here, and iâm always here, so itâs like fate or something, right?â
your stomach churns, and you take a small step back, maintaining your composure. âiâm good, thanks.â
but he doesnât let up, leaning further across the counter. âcome on, donât be like that. just one drink. you deserve it after a long day.â
âi really canâtââ
âdonât be shy,â he interrupts, a grin spreading wider. âiâm a nice guy, i promise.â
before you can think of another polite rejection, gojo steps forward, his body language shifting entirely. the playful air around him evaporates, replaced by something colder, more dangerous. he positions himself squarely between you and the guy, effectively cutting off the manâs view of you.
âshe said no,â gojo says, his voice firm, low. âso why donât you fuck off?â
the sleazy guy blinks, clearly not expecting the sudden shift. his smile fades, and he glares at gojo, sizing him up like heâs considering pushing back. but one glance at gojoâs unwavering stare, and the guy decides itâs not worth it. with a muttered curse, he turns and leaves, the door swinging shut behind him.
you let out a breath you hadnât realized you were holding. the guyâs been bothering you routinely; part of you thinks that heâs still not going to leave you alone, but the rest of you visibly relaxes, the weight of this guyâs harassment lifting off your shoulders under gojoâs protection.
gojo turns back to you, the usual teasing smirk creeping back onto his face, though his eyes are still sharp. âyou okay?â
âyeah,â you manage, though your voice is quieter than youâd like. âthanks for that.â
âdonât mention it.â he shrugs it off like it was nothing, but thereâs something different in the way heâs looking at you nowâsomething protective. âi know youâre perfectly capable of handling yourself, but i figured iâd speed things up a bit.â
you roll your eyes, trying to shake off the tension. âyouâre such a hero, gojo.â
âalways,â he replies with a wink. and just like that, the momentâs lightened again, the balance between you restored, though thereâs a subtle shift in the air. something unspoken between the two of youâan understanding, maybe.
you donât acknowledge it out loud, but as you go back to restocking, you find yourself glancing at him more than before. and for the first time in⊠well, ever, you donât completely mind his presence.
âŠ
fast forward a few hours, and after a bit of conversation, gojo finally leaves the fine institution that is your campus starbucks. right now, youâre alone and finishing cleaning up. you lock up, the starbucks finally closed, finishing your last task for the night. itâs quietâtoo quiet, actually, with the usual streetlights casting strange shadows across the empty sidewalk. the air feels heavy, like something unseen is lingering just out of reach, watching from the dark. you shake it off, telling yourself youâre just tired and letting your nerves get to you.
as you start your walk back to your dorm, the feeling only grows. the streetâs nearly empty, and with each step, the silence presses in closer. itâs fine, you tell yourself, picking up your pace. but then you hear it: the echo of footsteps, faint but unmistakable. heart pounding, you speed up, every instinct telling you to just get back. almost there. you just have to cross the alleyâ
âhey there,â a voice drawls, and your stomach sinks. a hand moves to grab at your shoulder, making you turn quickly. what meets your vision is the same guy from earlier, his grin widening in a way that makes your skin crawl.
you try to move out of his grip, but he grabs you harder, cutting off any escape. âaw, donât be like that. i just wanted some company.â
your throatâs dry, but you manage, âi said no.â
he doesnât even pretend to listen, his gaze trailing over you with that same leering interest. âno need to be so uptight. i could make this fun for you.â
your back hits the wall of the alley. trapped. he leans in, his breath warm and sour against your face, one hand reaching out as he says something sleazy that you can barely hear over the pounding in your earsâ
and then a voice cuts in from above, all easy humor. âyâknow, i always thought this cityâs trash problem was bad, but this is something else.â
your heart leaps in your chest at the small flicker of hope, that someone has the balls to try to rescue you. but as youâand this creepâturn, you find no evidence of another party present, only his mysterious presence.Â
âwhoâs there?â the guy snarls, his grip tightening so much that you wince. âwhy donât you get lost if you know whatâs good for youââ
âdude, donât you have any rizz?â the mysterious boy retorts.the stranger has a youthful voice, someone of your age. âthe way you have to resort to sexual harassment is just sad. you guys are always sooo predictable, youâre so gonna tell me to scram or something.â
the man scowls, hand leaving your arm in an effort to search for the stranger in the dark. âwhy donât you mind your own business, punkââ
and heâs interrupted, because a shiny, silver something flings out in the darkness and lands on his face, sending his arms in a frenzy to uncover what it is. the man rips the sticky, silver webbing off his face with a growl, looking around wildly, his expression shifting from confusion to anger. his eyes dart through the dark alley, searching for the source of that cocky voice, but thereâs nothingâjust shadows and the faint flicker of a streetlamp somewhere down the block.
âwho the hell are you?â he snaps, twisting his neck as if he could scare whoeverâs hiding out there into the open. âshow yourself, you bastard!â
a chuckle echoes from the darkness, bouncing off the brick walls. âwow, real tough guy, huh? but you should work on those anger issues. theyâre, uhâŠa bit unbecoming.â
the man spins around, and another burst of webbing flies out from somewhere unseen, sticking to his shoulder this time. he yanks it off with a frustrated grunt, his head whipping from side to side as he tries to locate the stranger.
âyou think this is funny?â he spits, voice raised in a mix of fear and fury.
âdepends. do you?â the voice is closer now, almost like the stranger is right above you, yet no oneâs there. âor is this just a big overreaction? all i did was suggest you rethink your approach. go to therapy or sumâ.â
the man snarls, fists clenched, starting to look downright unhinged. âget down here and say that to my face, punk!â
âas you wish.â
with a soft thump, a figure drops from above, landing directly in front of the guy in a low crouch. in the dim light, all you see at first are the blue and black accents on the otherwise white suit, his head tilting up, illuminated just enough that his white, wide eyes glow with a certain playful menace. and then, your eyes widen as you gasp to yourself.Â
youâve seen him before.
okay, pause.
youâre a busy college student, one who stays entrenched in the bubble of upcoming exams, assignments, and problem sets that you donât check the news often. in the off chance you do turn from your usual consumption of social media during your breaks to the news, you only have time to read the big headlines.
so you did read somewhere that in your universityâs city of new york city, there was a masked menanâvigilante that had beat up a few guys near a shawarma joint or prevented some shootings at a nightclub. new york city was full of incompetent cops that were on the lookout for him (a/n acabbbbbb) since this guy was a vigilante, some kind of superhero slinging around on webs. some nameâspiderman.
but before you could read more into the article, your soul almost left your body when you got a canvas notification saying your midterm was graded, so that was the end of that.
alright, pause over. back to now.
âhi!â spiderman chirps, giving him a friendly wave before ducking just as the man throws a punch. the swing goes wide, and spiderman straightens up with a disappointed sigh. âsee, this is why iâm the one with the web powers. youâd hurt yourself with these moves.â
without warning, the man charges again, swinging in rapid succession, but each one misses as spiderman easily sidesteps, practically dancing around him. âoof, dude, how did you make it this far in life with reflexes like that?â he ducks another blow, slipping behind the guy to give him a light tap on the shoulder as he passes.
the man stumbles, eyes flashing with frustration, and lets out a roar, reaching down to pick up a loose brick from the alley floor. he raises it above his head, face twisted in a snarl.
âoh, so weâre improvising now?â spiderman quips, and before the man can bring the brick down, a strand of webbing shoots out, sticking to the brick and yanking it from his grasp. it flies off somewhere into the alley, landing with a dull clatter.
the guy stumbles forward, off balance, and spiderman takes the opportunity to web his feet to the ground, immobilizing him in place. the man struggles, pulling his legs, but heâs stuck fast.
âever heard of boundaries?â spiderman asks, tilting his head with mock innocence. âor, like, self-restraint? you should look into it.â
the man glares, seething, still struggling against the webs. âyou think youâre some kinda hero?â he sneers.
spiderman shrugs, glancing over at you, catching your gaze in a way that makes you feel both strangely comforted and seen. ânah, heroâs a big word. iâm just your friendly neighborhood guy with slightly above-average reflexes.â
with a frustrated yell, the man finally wrenches one arm free and makes a desperate lunge, his fist connecting with spidermanâs side. spiderman lets out a small grunt but only wobbles slightly before grinning. âokay, buddy, playtimeâs over.â
before the man can even react, spiderman sends out another web, this time at his wrist, effectively pinning him to the alley wall. he struggles, face twisted in anger, but spiderman just raises a gloved hand to his lips as if hushing a child. then, in the lull that follows, you remember the thick quantum mechanics textbook in your bag. without thinking, you yank it out and, in a burst of adrenaline, swing it at the manâs head. the book lands with a solid thud, and he slumps, finally, into silence.
spiderman looks at the unconscious man, then at the textbook in your hand. he lets out a low whistle. âyou know, iâve always thought textbooks were a weapon of choice, but thatâs next-level dedication.â thatâs when you realize just how tall he is compared to you, and you canât help your excitement when you realize that heâs here in the flesh.
ânice hit, by the waââ
âitâs you!â you exclaim.Â
âwhat?â he sputters, white eyes widening almost comically. âme? oh,â then he straightens up, âyea, yea. just your friendly neighborhood spiderman. rescuing pretty girls from creeps, kinda my thing. â he shrugs.
you continue, excitedly, âright, youâre the one on the newsââ you move your hand to point at him but quickly wince, the pain of the manâs grip catching up to you.Â
he doesnât miss the movement, eyes squinting at you. âhey, weâll have to get you home. do you trust me?â
you look at him, clutching your arm in pain, and really take a moment to check him out. heâs saved you, heâs probably six feet tall, and his ass looks fantastic in his suit. at this point, youâre looking at him with heart eyes. but you canât exactly tell him you want him to propose, so all you utter out is a ây-yeah. my dormâs randall.â
he doesn't waste any time. with a quick nod, he hooks an arm around your waist, pulling you close as he aims a webline up toward the buildings. âhold on tight, randallâs just a swing away,â he murmurs, his voice light but steady. his hand settles on your hip, and you can't stop the way your stomach flips at the contact.
before you can even process whatâs happening, he launches the two of you into the air, the city blurring beneath your feet as you cling to him, fingers gripping the fabric of his suit for dear life. his arm stays solid around you, his grip somehow both gentle and strong. he lands lightly on the roof of your dorm, setting you down carefully like youâre something fragile. and he steps back, dusting his hands off in the most nonchalant way possible, like he didnât just take you on the most exhilarating ride of your life.
âthis is your stop,â he says, that signature, almost cocky smile playing in his voice.
âuh⊠yeah. thanks. for the rescue,â you manage, your voice a little shakier than youâd like. you donât know if âthank youâ is enoughâit doesnât even come close to covering what you feel.
but he just shrugs, taking a step back. âall in a dayâs work,â he says. âor nightâs work, i guess.â he pauses, giving you a quick once-over. âget some sleep, yeah?â
and just like that, he gives you a small, almost playful salute and vanishes, swinging off into the night as easily as heâd appeared, leaving you standing on the rooftop with your heart still racing.
back in your dorm room, you drop onto your bed, staring up at the ceiling as tonightâs events replay in your head: the alley, his voice cutting through the dark, that cocky smirk, the way he felt holding onto you as you soared over the city lights. a tiny part of you wonders if you imagined the whole thingâif maybe youâre just the victim of some wild, sleep-deprived hallucination.
but no, your arm still aches from where the creep grabbed you, and you can still feel the ghost of his hand on your waist, steady and reassuring. you bite your lip, a smile creeping onto your face despite yourself.
just before sleep finally claims you, you let out a quiet laugh, shaking your head at the absurdity of it all. âthe cityâs vigilante, huh?â you murmur, as if heâs somehow still listening.
the thought is wild, a bit surrealâand strangely comforting.
âŠ
âone caffe americano!â you call out, reading the label on the cup before handing it over with a small nod. the customer takes it with a quick thanks, and you return to the counter, barely holding back a yawn. the events of last night flicker through your mindâa web-slinging hero, an alley, the lingering ache in your armâand you shake it off. thereâs no room for distractions. life as a college student means the grind never stops, especially on a morning shift right before class.
when your coworker finally arrives, you let out a quiet sigh of relief, grab your bag, and step out into the brisk morning air. the chill helps wake you up as you make your way across campus, hoping to catch up with your friends before the lecture starts. just outside the building, you spot utahime, sitting on a bench, waiting with her usual tired smile.
âhey, finally off the clock?â she asks, raising an eyebrow.
âyeah, barely,â you reply, rolling your eyes. âiâm still running on fumes from last night. you guys save me a seat?â
âof course. nanamiâs already inside,â she says, gesturing toward the building.
you sigh. âyou wonât believe the things that happened last night.â
she gives you a look, in the traditional utahime protective-mother-hen type way. âwhat happened?â
you give her the rundown of what happened, the guy (who she bristles at, gives you a slap at your hand to tell you that you shouldâve told her earlier, kento wouldâve been able to beat his ass if she hadnât gotten to it first) and how spiderman saved you. âi would give him what heâs missing,â you sigh, dreamily.Â
utahime looks at you in a judgmental way. âand thatâs all you got from this? for fucks sake, heâs a vigilante, you donât know if heâs started to tail you or not. pooks, he could literally be dangerous. try to convince your boss to let someone else get your night shift.â as soon as you open your mouth to protest, she cuts you off immediately. âand no, i donât give a fuck about your people pleaser tendenciââ
âweâll revisit this conversation later.â you give her a sweet smile as you start to speed walk, door of the lecture hall of the 9am section of phys401: intro to quantum algorithms, falling in with the usual stream of students after you hear an irritated âyea, cause iâm gonna kill you otherwise.â the familiar chatter and echo of footsteps make the day feel almost normal, grounding you as you weave through the hall.
inside, you quickly spot kentoâs shining, disney prince-like blonde hair, who has saved seats for the three of you near the middle of the hall, away from the ugly, smelly grad students who always crowd the front. he gives you a quick nod as you settle down beside him, flipping open your notebook. the reliable calm on his face helps ease the lingering jitters you hadnât realized you were carrying.
âlong night?â he asks, glancing at the dark circles under your eyes.
âyou could say that,â you mumble, not quite ready to get into details. instead, you wave it off. âjust work assignments, and getting jumped, the usual.â
nanami breaks into a series of shocked coughs, and you hurry to pat his back as he undeniably burns his tongue on the coffee he was taking a sip of. âwhat?â
his rather loud exclamation sets off stares from people sitting closer to you both, so you give utahime, who lets out a quiet groan as sheâs settling into her seat beside you, a knowing look. âitâs a long story, iâll tell it to you later.â
he reluctantly settles in after that, not because he has a choice but because yaga is starting to address the class by asking about the weekend and getting his usual blank stares in return until a voice you recognize as suguru getoâs is saying something to undeniably piss him off, but you donât register quite what it is exactly because the door opens and any attention on geto is directed to the boy with white hair and blue eyes tiredly walking into class.Â
heâs about ten minutes late to the lecture, which is already weird because heâs usually about 27 seconds late, not that you keep count. but also, normally gojo is the picture of confidence and cockyness, making some of the female grad students whisper things about him that you donât think they should be for the five year gap between them and gojo.Â
but today, he looks differentâmessy, unkempt, with shadows under his eyes and a weird angle to his torso, the way he walks, and the way his opposite hand is subconsciously hovering around his side.
your brows knit together as he heads to an empty seat rows behind you next to geto, ignoring the stares of half the room. itâs so out of character for him that you canât help but wonder whatâs going on. you shoot utahime a knowing look, and she stifles a laugh, barely managing to keep a straight face as she watches gojo slink to his seat. nanamiâs usually impassive face exchanges a look with you as well before he turns his attention back to professor yagaâs opening remarks. gojo slides into the row behind you without a word, avoiding everyoneâs gazeâor so you think, until you feel it.
as you attempt to listen to professor yaga, you canât shake the sensation of eyes boring into the back of your head. you resist the urge to turn, telling yourself itâs probably nothing⊠except the feeling lingers, so strong that your pulse ticks up a notch.
âokay, now that weâre all here,â yaga says in a dry tone, barely able to hide his irritation as he glances pointedly in gojoâs direction, âletâs begin with todayâs lecture on groverâs.â
professor yaga taps the board, and the projector switches to a set of slides titled quantum speed-up and the grover search algorithm. he launches into his explanation, voice clipped. âgroverâs algorithm provides a quadratic speed-up for unstructured search problems, a notable advantage in quantum computing. but can anyone tell me why this isnât considered an exponential improvement?â
you raise your hand, as does nanami. a subtle shift of movement in your peripheral vision draws your eye to gojo, whoâs leaning back in his chair, arms crossed. yagaâs attention lands on nanami first, and he gives a succinct answer about how groverâs algorithm yields only a quadratic speed-up in terms of computational complexity. as he answers, you swear you catch gojo watching you, again, through the corner of your eye.
determined not to let him get under your skin, you lean over to whisper to nanami. âwhatâs with him today?â
nanami, still watching yaga, raises a brow. âmaybe he finally realized that he canât get by without skipping class today.â
utahime snickers quietly. âdoubtful. more like he thinks itâs funny to waltz in whenever he likes and still ace every test.â
âexactly.â you sigh, drumming your pen against your notebook. gojoâs rare absences donât even seem to faze most professors. and despite his unpredictable attendance, heâs always managed to stay miles ahead. today, though, somethingâs⊠different about him. like heâs made a life changing decision in the past 48 hours.
âmoving on,â yaga says, pointing to the board where the next slide materializes. âthe heart of groverâs algorithm lies in its use of an amplitude amplification technique, where we iterate a search oracle along with an inversion process. pay attentionâthis concept of iterative improvement will become key when we start covering variational quantum algorithms.â
as yaga delves deeper into amplitude amplification, you manage to focus, jotting down notes on the necessary steps in groverâs search. yet each time you settle into the lecture, you feel gojoâs gaze pricking at you. the first time you turn around, thereâs nothing thereâjust him slouched, seemingly absorbed in whatever heâs staring at on the ceiling. but then, you sense it again and, on your second glance, you catch his blue eyes meeting yours, and he quickly looks away.
whatâs his problem? you give him a questioning look, but heâs adamantly not looking at you, trying to look nonchalant as heâs pulling out his laptop. he might look like a student taking latexing notes of what yagaâs yapping about, but the way heâs using his mouse more than he is his keyboard tells you that heâs probably on papaâs freezeria instead.
you decide that youâre going to waste your time wondering how gojoâs brain functioned, so you instead focus back on the lecture. after all, you didnât understand any of the lecture notes you took notes on before and what it said about the diffuser in the circuit.Â
ânow,â yagaâs voice sharpens, pulling you back into the room, âthese iterations act as amplitude amplification steps, so pay close attentionâespecially those of you who have a habit of being late.â his eyes slide back to gojo, who remains oblivious, leaning back with a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as the sound of his name brings him back to the lecture.
gojo doesnât even look phased. instead, he raises a hand casually, like heâs about to ask a simple question. you can feel the anticipation ripple through the roomâhalf the students are waiting to see if heâll fumble, and the other half already know better.
âprofessor yaga,â he drawls, âdonât you think amplitude amplification is a bit of an oversimplification? the way itâs typically presented, youâd think groverâs algorithm was just⊠guessing with style.â he flashes an infuriatingly smug smile, drawing out the pause before continuing. âbut we both know itâs more about quantum phase inversion, right? the oracle reflects about the mean state, iterating with a precision that isnât just luck. or maybe thatâs all too technical?â he leans back, feigning innocence.
the smugness in his tone makes something flare up in you, and before you can stop yourself, your hand shoots up.
âactually, gojo,â you interject, your voice louder than you intended, âcalling it âguessing with styleâ is a very gross oversimplification. groverâs algorithm isnât about intuition or luck. itâs about optimization. itâs not just about spotlighting a target like a rando guess, itâs more like rotating the probability in a controlled mannerâwith iterationsâto amplify the correct solution. not just some quantum trick or guess.â you cross your arms, leaning back in your chair as you stare him down. âitâs not even that bad, compared to what we have classically.â
as soon as you spoke, it seems that the fight and mischievous look in gojoâs eyes fades, replacing it with something that shockingly looks like him being flustered as he averts your gaze, looks to the ceiling, and murmurs something like âyea, thatâs basically most of quantum computing, desperately trying to prove weâre not just wasting our timeâ but yaga interrupts him, clearly a bit annoyed at the two know-it-alls that you and gojo were acting like.Â
ânow,â yaga says, shifting back to the lecture as if nothing happened (probably because he wasnât paid enough to deal with this shit), âthese iterations act as amplitude amplification steps, so pay close attentionâespecially those of you who have a habit of missing lectures.â
youâre just left confused as to why the conversation didnât escalate like the typical academic rivals in movies, because youâve definitely seen gojo bully some people who didnât know what the fuck they were talking about instead of just blushing like some schoolgirl. regardless, you canât help but notice the thrill that you felt, having finally argued with him, having been seen as someone worth arguing. you try to temper it as yaga continues onto the rest of the lecture.
âŠ
âi canât believe youâre making me go.â you tug at the hem of your white corset, paired with a matching skirt, still incredulous at how utahime managed to talk you into attending one of the infamous halloween frat parties. the night air is crisp against your exposed shoulders, and despite your complaints, you shiver more at the thought of wasting the next few hours among sweaty strangers than the actual cold.
utahime, walking beside you in a devil-red version of your outfitâcomplete with horns perched precariously on her headâlooks far too satisfied with herself. she adjusts the horns with one hand, giving you a sidelong glance that practically drips with smugness.
âstop pouting,â she chides. âiâm not going to let you waste another night holed up in your room, buried in manhwa or quantum physics. iâm pretty sure there are cobwebs growing in yourââ
âutahime,â you hiss, cutting her off with a mortified glance around.
âpussy,â she finishes, completely unbothered. âiâm going to find you a guy to hook up with. iâm not saying you have to go all the way, but flirting? kissing? maybe something more? very healthy. highly encouraged.â
your mouth falls open in protest, but before you can get a word in, she fixes you with a sharp glare, her dark eyes flashing with all the authority of a disappointed parent. âdonât even think about arguing with me. i swear, if you donât at least try to enjoy this, iâll make it my personal mission to find someone for you.â
âi canât believe this,â you mutter, crossing your arms. âyouâre supposed to be my friend, not my pimp.â
âoh, iâm your friend. thatâs why iâm doing this. youâll thank me when youâre sixty and not crying about how boring your college life was.â
âiâm not boring,â you counter. âiâm selective.â
âsure,â utahime drawls, clearly unconvinced. âand whatever weird sexual tension youâve got going on with gojo doesnât count.â
you scoff, stopping in your tracks to stare at her. âwhat tension? weâve literally talked once this week. and that was the first time we had a conversation.â
she doesnât respond, already scanning the scene ahead. the street of frat houses looms just ahead, glowing with gaudy orange lights strung up across balconies. the bass from the nearest party reverberates through the pavement underfoot. itâs already crowded, hordes of people shuffling in and out, laughing, shouting, and showcasing their half-baked halloween costumes.
you follow utahimeâs gaze to the nearest house, packed with enough people to make the windows fog up. just the thought of squeezing into that humidity makes your stomach churn.
âlooks crowded,â you mumble. âmaybe we shouldââ
before you can suggest retreating, utahime grabs your wrist and practically drags you toward the house. ânope. youâre coming in. no backing out now.â
the moment you step inside, the smell hits you. sweat, stale beer, and an undercurrent of what you can only describe as frat-house musk. your nose wrinkles, and you instinctively recoil, pulling your arm free from utahimeâs grasp.
âgod, it smells like a gym locker in here,â you say, covering your nose.
utahime doesnât seem fazed. sheâs already scanning the room, her eyes landing on a beer pong table set up in the corner, surrounded by cheering students. âthis is perfect!â she says, beaming.
âfor what? contracting a fungal infection?â you mutter.
but sheâs no longer listening, her focus shifting as a tall, broad-shouldered guy in a makeshift cowboy hat approaches her and then stops in front of both of you, his stare fully enthralled by utahime. âhey,â he says, a bit suavely, in the way that makes you inwardly roll your eyes because you know sheâs going to eat it up. she likes it when theyâre a little ugly, and this guy fits the bill.Â
âhey,â and she giggles, making you have to physically fight the urge to puke, âwhatâs up?â
 they exchange a few words, and before you know it, sheâs smiling in that way that tells you sheâs found her entertainment for the night.
âgo ahead,â you say dryly, waving her off. âiâll just fend for myself.â
utahime starts to protest, but youâre already beelining for the kitchen, trying to get a drink thatâs not too crazy to survive the night. itâs surprisingly less chaotic in the kitchen, though the counters are cluttered with half-empty bottles, red solo cups, and some questionable punch that looks radioactive. you scan the room, your eyes landing on a cupboard that might hold something simpleâlike water. a series of ding! ding! ding!âs go off in your mind as you find the pack of plastic water bottles.Â
standing on your toes, you reach for the handle, but itâs just out of your grasp. you huff in frustration, shifting to get better leverage when a hand way bigger than yours suddenly appears above yours, effortlessly grabbing the item you were reaching for.
âlet me get that for you.â
you turn to thank the person, the words dying on your lips when you see who it is.
gojo.
heâs standing impossibly close, his signature smirk firmly in place, but thereâs something almost casual in the way he looks at you, as if this is the most normal interaction in the world. you swear youâre so close that you can see like the two open pores on his otherwise flawless skin, as his eyes inevitably drag themselves downwards to scan your outfit for the nightâa shitty angel without wings and halo (you couldnât be paid two shits to put in the effort; both of the top and skirt were utahimeâs, anyways.) then, his eyes meet yours again, a bit of playfulness in them.Â
âwell, well,â he drawls, handing you the water bottle. ânever thought iâd see you here.â
you take the bottle, trying to ignore the brush of his fingers against yours. âdidnât have much of a choice. utahime dragged me.â
his grin widens. âclassic. let me guessâsheâs off trying to find her soulmate at the beer pong table?â
âsomething like that,â you mumble, not wanting to give him the entire story. twisting the cap off the bottle, you take a sip, hoping heâll just leave you alone, but instead, he leans against the counter, looking entirely too comfortable.
âso,â he says, tilting his head, âi heard through the grapevine that you had a run-in with that spider-man guy this week.â
that makes you pause mid-gulp of water, instead coughing a bit as you try to swallow it down without basically drowning in kirkland signature natural spring water. youâve only told like, three people outside of kento and iori, so youâre confused why he knows this information, but you continue on regardless. the memory of spider-man swinging in to save you flashes through your mind, and you canât help but smile softly to yourself. âit was amazing. heâsâheâs incredible, honestly. the way he just swooped in and handled everything? so fast, so precise. heâs like a real-life superhero.â
youâre basically gushing to him, and you realize that a bit too late as you look at his face to gauge his reaction. heâs looking at you with a newfound interest, albeit a bit too conflicted to fully tease you about it when he says, âsounds like youâre smitten.â
âmaybe i am,â you admit, laughing. âi mean, who wouldnât be? heâs brave, heâs kind, and he doesnât even stick around for the credit. itâs like heâs this selfless, untouchable figure.â you also kind of want to give him a sloppy toppy for saving you like that, but you spare gojo the details.Â
âuntouchable, huh?â gojo echoes, his tone turning a bit wry andâŠjealous? âsounds like someoneâs got a crush.â
you roll your eyes, but itâs half-hearted, and you think gojo can tell with the way youâre heating up and bashfully looking at the ground. âdonât be ridiculous.â
âiâm just saying,â he continues, leaning closer, âif thatâs your type, you might want to raise your standards. superheroes are overrated.â
you raise an eyebrow. âand what, youâre not?â
he grins, that infuriatingly charming grin that makes you want to simultaneously punch him and laugh. âiâm better. iâm real.â he then puts his hands on the counter behind you, caging you between them until your knees are lightly brushing, and suddenly his face is so close that small little breaths from his nose are fanning across your face. âi can prove that to you.â
and you hate your body for being soâŠreactive and enthusiastic to his smooth-talking, face flushing. despite that, you try to put on an air of nonchalance. âgod, youâre insufferable.â
âreally?â he teases. his hand leaves the marble counter to hover at your hip, his hand subconsciously tracing your curves an inch above your skin. the motion, firm but tentative as if heâs waiting for you to give him the green light, makes you shiver as you subconsciously move your hips to finally have the skin-to-skin contact. and your skin sings in happiness as he draws circles into the area right below your skirt, even momentarily dipping just below, to which you realize that heâs treading very close to your panties, since your skirtâs really short.
"yea," you basically sigh, hating yourself for how breathy your voice sounds.Â
it seems to have an effect on gojo because his eyes darken as he murmurs, "wastin' your time on that spiderman guy."
maybe it's the fact that it's late (you've been getting sub four hours of sleep this past week) or the lights in this humid frat bring a heady air, but all academic-rivalry-overshadowed-woman-in-stem history between you and gojo disappears in your brain as you rake your eyes up and down his torso and then look at him through your lashes. "who should i spend my time on instead?"
he gives you a little smile as he stares down at you, eyes raking over your face, catching at your lips and then going back up again to meet yours. âi donât know, someone whoâs as smart as you,â he murmurs.
âyea?â you laugh out breathlessly. your faces are so close that in normal circumstances, you would worry about how you both looked so close together, one hand on your thigh and the other splayed on your waist. âand how would you know how smart i am?â
satoru starts, lips coming closer and closer. âbecause iââ
but heâs interrupted, because you both hear a âsatoruâ and pull apart, breathing heavily as you both turn to look at the offender standing in the entrance of the kitchen: suguru geto, gojoâs best friend, looking more tired than anything as his eyes catch on you, then going to gojo with a pointed look. itâs not hard to figure out what was going on based on how disheveled you both look, your skirt crooked and his shirt crumbled, and your cheeks heat. before you can say anything, however, suguru sighs and says to gojo, âthereâs a burglary happening nearby.â then, he turns but not before giving you a nod. âmake sure to stay safe.â
he promptly leaves, leaving you confused standing there. was this such an emergency worth noting that he interrupted his best friend?
you try to seek the answer in gojoâs face, but he has this conflicted, annoyed countenance and you suddenly feel kinda of insecure because heâs raking his hand through his hair, staring painfully at the ceiling then at you. at the same time you utter out a âuhââ he says âi have to go.â
âoh.â you blink. a why brews on top of your tongue, but you temper it, reminding yourself that youâre not close to gojo like that. needless to say, you feel a little embarrassed as you watch him jog out of the kitchen with a little wave to you. you want to overanalyze gojoâs last look to you, the one that looked a bit like disappointment and yearning, but you shake it off, staring at the 16.9 oz plastic water bottle in your hand that you forgot about.
taking a sip, you cringe as you become more aware of your surroundings and the state youâre left in because of gojo. that your panties are a bit more stickyâyou reach under your skirt to adjust them so they donât stick to your crotch so muchâand youâre hot all over.Â
then reality comes crashing back. what the hell did you and gojo just do right now?
you groan out loud, banging your head against the fridge, but as you reel back, in your peripheral you see someone there. your head shoots to see the guy whoâs now looking at you with a weird expression as he undeniably waits for whatever freaking out you were doing to gain access to the fridge.Â
âsorry,â you blurt out, and gather yourself to beeline for the exit. god, you needed to find utahime.
âŠ
the soft hum of a tv in the corner of satoruâs apartment provided the only sound, save for the faint rustle of suguru flipping through a textbook. the remnants of takeoutâboxes of half-eaten pad thai and a pile of discarded chopsticksâlittered the coffee table between them. satoru leaned back on the couch, legs stretched out, staring at the ceiling like it held answers he hadnât thought to ask yet. he held a small foam ball, tossing it up and catching it over and over. his mind, however, wasnât focused on the ball but on you.
it was starting to feel like an obsession. heâd always been able to compartmentalize thingsâhis studies, his friends, his other responsibilities. but you? youâd broken through the usual barriers in his head, wedging yourself firmly into every free thought he had.
âdo you think she likes me?â he asked suddenly, breaking the quiet.
suguru glanced up from his book, his expression unreadable. âwho, starbucks girl?â
satoru scoffed. âsheâs not starbucks girl. sheâsâŠâ he trailed off, tapping his fingers against his knee. your name lingered on his tongue, oddly weighty in a way that felt almost unfamiliar.
suguru smirked. âoh, sheâs got a name now? progress.â
âshut up.â
but he couldnât shut his mind off, not when you kept taking up space in it. it wasnât just that heâd noticed you nowâreally noticed you, for the first time. it was more than that.
satoru had always known who you were. you werenât exactly easy to miss. in a program full of ugly guys who didnât shower and loud personalities, you had carved out your niche by being the cold, unreachable one. the one who didnât bother with group projects unless she had to, who barely engaged in conversations beyond what was strictly necessary. other guys in the program talked about you, of course. they always did.
âfrigid,â they called you. âtoo serious. probably thinks sheâs better than us.â
they werenât entirely wrong. you were better than most of them, but not for the reasons they assumed. satoru had read your workâpapers that brimmed with insights that most of their half-baked theories could only dream of. he could tell you put in the effort in your classes and research, while all the guys left shit-talking had to rely on their grad student mentors to be able to write a legible paper. for fucks sake, he doesnât even thing anyone could code in qiskit or cirq like you could; he had skimmed your notes once, left them behind after a lecture, and found them meticulous and sharp before he turned them into the professor to return to you.
and yet, despite the brilliance you carried with you, you had never given him a second glance.
that day at starbucks, though.
satoru rolled his head to the side, gaze drifting toward the window. he hadnât expected to see anyone at five in the morning, let alone you. heâd been desperate for answers thenâhe had spent his night staring at his hands, which had seemed to keep ejecting spider-like webs after heâd been horribly sick. he knew he shouldnât have gone fooling around in new yorkâs subway tunnels at 3am with suguru and shoko, but after a seemingly-harmless spider had bit him, he had been reeling from the discovery of his newfound powers and grappling with the weight of what they meant ever since.Â
and there you were, unlocking the starbucks, bleary-eyed but no less composed.
youâd handed him his coffee, not interested in him the entire time, and he remembered blurting something outâsomething ridiculous about fate or responsibility, his usual bravado faltering in the quiet of the moment. he had been spiraling, unsure of who he was anymore, and youâd said something.
what was it again?
âit doesnât have to be âmoreâ all the time. sometimes just showing up is enough.â
the words had stayed with him, carved deep into the corners of his mind. you didnât know it, but they had pulled him back from the edge that day. since then, heâd started noticing you in ways he hadnât before.
the way you brushed your hair behind your ear when you were deep in thought. the furrow of your brow when you argued as respectfully as you could with a professor (gojo knew you were holding back, though, and the thought always made him smile to himself because if he wasnât an idgafer he would be incensed like you at the idiotic teacher). the smileârare, fleeting, but utterly disarmingâthat occasionally lit up your face when you talked to utahime or that guy you were too friendly around, nanami.
âyouâre doing that thing again,â suguru said, snapping him out of his thoughts.
âwhat thing?â satoru asked, sitting up straighter.
âbrooding. youâre thinking about her, arenât you?â
âno.â
suguru arched an eyebrow. âyouâre a terrible liar.â
satoru sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. âfine. maybe i am. but itâs complicated.â
âhow is it complicated?â
âshe doesnât like me,â satoru said, shrugging. âat least, not as me. she likes spider-man.â
suguru blinked, clearly unimpressed. âyouâre being stupid bro.â
âiâm not being stupid,â satoru argued. âshe thinks spider-manâs this amazing, selfless hero. she doesnât know iâm just some guy who canât even figure out how to flirt with her without making an ass of himself.â
suguru leaned back in his chair, regarding satoru with an almost pitying look. âso let me get this straight. youâre worried that she only likes spider-man, even though spider-man is you. like itâs some kind of split personality thing?â
âwell, when you put it like thatââ
âit sounds dumb,â suguru finished. âbecause it is dumb.â
satoru glared at him, but suguru only shrugged. but how could he not think about you? even now, the memory of your voiceâcalm, steady, and unexpectedly warmâechoed in his head. you had this way of looking at him, like you were peeling back layers he didnât even know he had. and that smile... he groaned inwardly. he wasnât supposed to be so drawn to you, wasnât supposed to imagine what itâd feel like to have you smile at him like that all the time.
âlook,â suguru continued, âif you like her, shoot your shot. youâre already overthinking this, and you havenât even done anything yet. whatâs the worst that could happen? she says no?â
âor she laughs in my face,â satoru muttered.
âwhich would be deserved, honestly,â suguru said, smirking. âbut seriously, youâve got nothing to lose. and everything to gain.â
satoru didnât respond, his gaze fixed on the takeout boxes on the table. he wanted to believe suguru was right, but there was a small, stubborn part of him that wasnât so sure.
because it wasnât just about rejection, or even whether you liked him as satoru or spider-man. it was about what came after. if he let you in and something happened to youâif his double life brought danger to your doorstepâhe wasnât sure heâd ever forgive himself.
but then there was suguruâs voice in his head, steady and persistent: youâve got nothing to lose. and everything to gain.
âŠ
amidst a week of endless projects upon projects and other miscellaneous assignments from your research group partners (since the grad students loved to pile their work on top of you, the helpless undergrad), you find yourself nursing a hot chocolate while on top of your dormitory buildingâs roof.Â
you find sanctuary, coming on here for time to yourself whenever you find yourself stuck in a busy week. quiet, solitary, with a view of the city lights flickering like scattered fireflies. you hugged your cardigan tighter around your shoulders as you stepped onto the roof, your laptop tucked under one arm, a mug of tea precariously balanced in the other hand. the air was crisp, biting just enough to sting your cheeks.
setting your mug down on the ledge, you perched beside it, pulling up your knees and balancing the laptop precariously as you typed. the words on the screen blurred after a while, blending into the chaos in your mind. frustrated, you closed it with a snap and leaned your head back to gaze at the stars.
ârough night?â
you startled, spinning your head around so fast your tea nearly toppled. but you canât find anyone, just the sound of soft footsteps landing somewhere not visible to you.Â
âyou scared the hell out of me,â you sighed, clutching your chest.
âsorry,â he said, though his tone didnât sound all that apologetic. âdidnât mean to interrupt.â
âthen maybe donât sneak up on people like that,â you muttered, still trying to calm your racing heart.
he chuckled, and the sound was warmer than youâd expected. ânoted. so, whatâs got you out here at three in the morning? donât tell me youâre pulling an all-nighter.â
you sighed, the initial shock fading into a dull thrum of shyness. âitâs not an all-nighter if the night isnât over yet.â then, you squint at a random spot, pretending itâs him. âbesides, why are you here? shouldnât you be out stopping robberies or saving cats from trees?â
âdone and done,â he said, crossing his arms as he leaned against the ledge. ânow iâm just enjoying the view.â
you turned your gaze back to the skyline, hoping the darkness hid the faint heat creeping up your neck. âso, whatâs a guy like you doing on a random rooftop at three in the morning?â
âcould ask you the same thing,â he countered.
you hesitated. for some reason, admitting the truth to him felt easier than admitting it to anyone else. âjustâŠneeded a break.â
âfrom?â
âeverything,â you said, exhaling slowly. âclasses. expectations. people.â you paused, then added with a faint smile, ânot you, though. youâre an exception.â
âoh?â his voice lightened, carrying a hint of playful intrigue. âshould i feel honored?â
âmaybe,â you said. âitâs not every day you get to meet a real hero.â then, âokay, but why do you always hide in the dark?â
his voice is smug, meant to be playful. âit adds to the mystique?â
you pout. âwhat if i call the police?â
âitâs not like the cops can catch me anyways, baby. their shitty coffee and donut filled asses arenât enough to keep up with me.â
you really try not to flush when he calls you that pet name. âis success getting to you?â
âwhat success? most i hear is everyone debating whether or not i should be experimented on.â
âreally?â you teased. âthatâs not what i saw on my for you page last time. there are girls out there who want you to sign their tits after you rescued that baby.â
then, you hear the soft thud of nimble feet dropping onto the ceiling and turn your head to see him in all his glory. he has a muscular figure highlighted in his white suit, blue and black lines traveling their way across his body. casually, he stretches and then drops down to the floor, sitting cross legged from across from you as if joining you in a regular gossip sesh. he puts his elbow on his knee and rests his head on his hand. âare you one of those girls?â
you laugh sheepishly, turning away as heat creeps up your face again and your heart hammers, because you canât exactly tell him that, yes youâre absolutely enamored with him after he saved you that day and yes, you do indeed want him to sign your tits.
âyou should do that more,â he said.
âwhat?â you look back at him, wide eyed in confusion.Â
âlaugh.â
the way he said it, low and almost reverent, made your cheeks heat. you busy yourself with toying with your cardigan, scooting yourself away from the edge and closer to him. âand you should stop being such a flirt,â you said, though there was no bite in your voice.
âcanât help it,â he said, leaning closer. âitâs kind of my thing.â
âis that right?â
âmm-hmm.â he paused, then added, âyou know, thereâs something iâve been meaning to ask you.â
âwhat?â you asked, arching an eyebrow.
âtake my mask off.â
the words hit you like a gut punch, dissolving the playfulness that had filled the air seconds ago. you blinked up at him, searching his faceâor at least what you could see of itâfor any sign that this was some elaborate joke. but there was no hint of humor, no smirk tugging at his lips. he meant it.
your fingers hovered at your sides, hesitant. âare you sure?â the question came out soft, barely audible, but it felt like it echoed in the quiet night.
ânever been more sure of anything,â he murmured, voice low and steady.
you swallowed hard, your heart hammering in your chest. slowly, almost against your better judgment, you reached up, fingertips brushing the edge of his mask. the fabric felt smooth, warm under your touch, but your nerves were anything but.
with a deep breath, you peeled it back. bit by bit, his face came into viewâa shock of white hair, impossibly sharp features, and finally, those eyes. those unmistakable, infuriatingly familiar blue eyes. your breath caught, and for a moment, the world tilted sideways.
âgojo?â
the name fell from your lips before you could stop it, unsteady and disbelieving. your mind raced, trying to piece together the impossible puzzle that had just landed in front of you.
he grinnedâthat grin, the one that always made you want to slap it off his face and yet somehow managed to disarm you every single time. âhey.â
âhey?â your voice cracked as you took a step back. âthatâs all you have to say? hey?â
âwould you prefer, âsurpriseâ?â he quipped, his grin widening as though this was the most normal thing in the world.
you laughed, the sound a little hysterical but real, like you couldnât contain the storm of emotions rushing through you. âsurprised? youâve been⊠youâve been spider-man this whole time?â the words felt foreign on your tongue, like they didnât belong in the same sentence as gojo satoruâthe one youâd argued with in class, the one who had no problem making you want to tear your hair out. and yet here he was, standing in front of you, the last person you ever would have suspected to be the cityâs most infamous masked hero.
gojo gave you that crooked grin, the same one he wore when he thought he had wonâwhen he thought he had it all figured out. âi know. itâs a lot to take in.â
you stared at him, trying to make sense of it, but no amount of logic could bridge the gap between the gojo you knewâthe guy who drove you up the wall in class and always had a cocky comebackâand the masked hero who had saved you and the one you had a crush on.
you didnât know whether to scream, laugh, or cry.Â
you take a shaky breath in, still trying to process everything. âyou... you saved me, gojo. youâve been right there, all these times, and i had no idea it was you.â
âguess iâm just that good at keeping secrets,â he said, his tone playful, but there was something more there, something softer, that you couldnât quite put your finger on. his eyes held a flicker of somethingâmaybe vulnerability, maybe uncertainty.
the weight of the moment hung thick in the air between you, and for a long second, you didnât know what to say. this revelation was like the ground beneath you had cracked wide open, and you were left staring into an abyss that was both terrifying and exhilarating.
finally, you shook your head, letting out a short breath. âthis is insane.â
he didnât seem bothered by your reaction, though his eyes darkened just slightly, the smirk still there, but with something a little more honest creeping into his expression. âyeah. but youâre handling it better than i thought. kinda thought you would faint, or something.â
the world had shifted, but somehow, with gojo now sitting in front of you like this, with the mask off and the man behind the myth revealed, it felt like the pieces were finally starting to fall into place. even if they didnât make perfect sense yet.
and yet, something about his presenceâhis undeniable realnessâfelt oddly grounding. he wasnât the invincible spider-man anymore. he was just gojo. the gojo who had somehow become more than just your academic rival, and maybe, just maybe, a little bit more than that.
something in gojoâs facial expression shifted to something a bit more hesitant, a little nervous as he stands and extend his arm out to you. softly, he asks, âdo you trust me?â
âyes.â you took his hand, standing up as he flashes you a charming, yet mischievous grin, one so shit eating that you regret saying that. âwhy?â
âiâm taking you for a ride. consider it an apology for freaking you out earlier.â
you hesitated, looking between his outstretched hand and the city skyline just beyond your college campus. âi donât think this is a good ideaââ
âyou trust me, donât you?â
and somehow, against all logic, you realized that you did.
âfine,â you said, stepping closer to him to cling onto him.Â
he pulls you closer, and as he does so, he cranes his neck down to meet your eyes, smiling giddy. âanywhere you wanna go?â
you think for a moment, but know immediately the place where youâd like to visit thatâs open at this ungodly hour. âdo you know that one shawarma jointâ-â
before you can even finish, the wind whips around you as gojo slips his mask back on, pulls you closer to him, and uses his free handâthat is, the one thatâs not clinging onto your firmlyâto shoot a glistening web, one that you saw when he used it on the man who harassed you in the ally. it clings onto a nearby building, and then youâre off the ground, soaring through the air.
you let out a scream of terror against gojoâs chest, tightening your arms around him. you can feel a laugh rumble in his chest, a boyish chuckle as he peers down at you and shouts, âare you having fun?âÂ
âgojo,â you whine, burying your head into his chest further. despite your initial fear, exhilaration creeps its way into you as you the city blur, skyline jumping and dipping as gojo effortlessly swung you both around.Â
when he finally stopped, landing gracefully on a secluded rooftop, you were breathlessânot just from the ride but from the way he was looking at you.
âyou good?â he laughed, panting from the exertion and tenderly using his hand to rake his hand through your hair, which, you note out of embarrassment, mustâve been messed up from the wind passing through it.
âi hate that you made me dizzy, but yea, iâm good,â you mumble, pulling out your phone to open your camera, fixing your hair.
when youâre done, gojo looks at you with the manic buzz you can only have at 3am. âready to get some shawarma?â
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the streets were eerily quiet, the kind of silence only a city at 3am could have. just the two of you, your footsteps echoing against the pavement, the occasional glow of a streetlamp painting your path.
âokay, that shawarma was like, mid at best,â gojo walks alongside you. heâs thrown on a sweatshirt and gray sweatpants over his suit, walking alongside you on the street. your stomachs are full, and you suggested a walk to be able to digest the bigass bowl you both ate.
ânothing tastes better than something youâre eating when youâre supposed to be studying, instead,â you shot back, hiding your little smile as you cross your arms while strolling. the shift between you and gojo was so jarring that youâre still reeling at it, but what is 3am if not for big life changes?
âyea, thatâs fair,â he sighs, crossing his hands behind his head as he continues strolling beside you. âso,â he continues, ânow that iâve officially blown your mind with my secret identity and fed you some incredibly mid shawarma, whatâs next? should i fly you to paris, or is that too clichĂ©?â
you roll your eyes, but deep inside, youâre really biting back a grin. ârelax, bugboy. maybe first let me recover from being swung like a human pendulum.â
gojo stopped walking, turning to face you with a playful glint in his eye. âyouâre still thinking about that, huh? admit itâyou loved it.â
you raised an eyebrow. âi screamed into your chest for a solid ten seconds. does that sound like love to you?â
he tilted his head, feigning deep thought. âi dunno. thereâs a fine line between terror and thrill. and judging by how tightly you were holding onto meâŠâ
âyouâre insufferable,â you muttered, but your voice lacked bite.
âand yet, youâre still here.â
his words hung in the air, the playful edge softening into something quieter, more sincere. your steps faltered, and you looked up at him, the absurdity of the night fading into the background as your gaze held his.
âguess iâm curious,â you admitted.
âcurious, huh?â he said, taking a step closer. âcareful. curiosity killed the cat.â
without thinking, you blurted, âat least iâve got a fifty-fifty shot, right?â the words barely left your mouth before the regret hit, your inner voice screaming at you for making a lame quantum mechanics joke at a time like this. schrödinger would be proud, you thought bitterly.
but then gojo laughedânot the teasing, obnoxious kind of laugh or the weird look youâd expect, but a genuine, boyish chuckle that reached his eyes. he smiled at you, soft and unguarded, and suddenly, the space between you seemed to shrink.
the flickering streetlamp cast a warm, uneven glow over the two of you. in that moment, the sprawling city felt impossibly small, narrowed down to just him and the pounding of your heart in your ears.
gojo reached up, fingers brushing a stray strand of hair away from your face. âyou know,â he murmured, his voice low, âiâve been wanting to do this for a while now.â
your breath hitched, heart thundering in your chest. âdo what?â
âthis.â
before you could respond, he closed the space between you, his lips brushing against yours in a kiss that was somehow both soft, yet electrifying. for a moment, time seemed to stop, the city around you fading into nothing as the warmth of his touch anchored you in the moment.
when he finally pulled back, his grin was back in full force. âso, was that better or worse than shawarma?â
you blinked at him, still trying to find your footing in the aftermath of what just happened. an immediate feeling of bashfulness crept over you because not only did you just kiss spiderman, you just kissed gojo. there are girls who would kill to be in your position, and that makes you flustered as you turn your head away from him so you donât have to make eye contact. âi hate you,â you mumble half heartedly, cheeks burning.
gojo doesnât let you off so easily. his thumb brushes gently along your chin, coaxing your face back toward his. his touch is warm, deliberate, and it sends a shiver down your spine.
âoh my god,â he says, a grin spreading across his face. âare you embarrassed? youâre so cute.â
when the warmth of his hand leaves your chin, you open your eyes, shocked as you find out that heâs nowhere to be seen. you call out a tentative, âgojo?âÂ
somewhere behind you, to the left, comes out a muffled shout. âiâm here!â you whip around, your brows furrowing as you follow the direction of his voice. itâs coming from an alley just off the street, dark and bathed in shadows.
âseriously?â you mutter under your breath, your annoyance half-hearted, making your way toward the sound. you find yourself at the mouth of the alley, the dim glow of a distant lamp barely illuminating his silhouette.
gojoâs perched on the side of the wall like itâs the most natural thing in the world, one leg propped up, his mask pulled halfway up to reveal that damn smirk. âyouâre slow,â he teases, his tone light and infuriatingly smug.
âwhat are you doing?â you ask, crossing your arms.
he gestures toward himself. âyou came looking for me, didnât you?â
you roll your eyes, stepping closer despite yourself. âwhat, did you think iâd just leave you lurking in some alley like a creepy insect?â
âwell,â he says, shooting a web to stick on the bottom of some stairs of one of the buildings to hang upside down, âyou couldâve left, but i had a feeling you wouldnât.â
before you could retort, he shoots his web closer to something on top of you, now dangling upside down yet again but his proximity even closer, stealing the air from your lungs. his fingers brush a strand of hair from your face, lingering just long enough to make your knees feel unsteady.
âso,â he murmurs, his voice low and teasing, âare we doing this again, or are you gonna keep pretending you hate me?â
your heart stutters, but before you can overthink it, you pull his mask down even further to uncover more of his lips, and you join them togetherâthis time, softer, slower, as if savoring the moment. you grab at his chin to pull him closer to you, you both sighing into the kiss, and then smiling giddily each time you pull back, only to come back in.
and just like that, you start to fall intoâŠsomething with not only the vigilante thatâs swinging around new york, but also gojo satoru, your long-time rival.
âŠ
when satoru swings by your dorm next, he doesnât expect his heart to lurch so much at the view of you so cozy.
itâs undeniable; you and satoru have been dancing around each other. youâre not exactly a hook-up to each otherâyou two havenât had sexâbut youâre not exactly girlfriend and boyfriend. and itâs not something casual, either. he doesnât reveal that heâs spiderman just to get into girlsâ pants.Â
youâve both developed a sort of rapport, he supposes. itâs been stolen glances during phys401 and late nights spent talking or, occasionally, making out. youâve even started to nurse his wounds, if he ever shows up with bruises and blood matting his suit. one of the perks of you having a single.Â
heâs even fallen asleep overnight, especially on friday nights when he doesnât have lecture in the morning. some of his things, like some spare equipment and suits, have even found their way into your closet.Â
youâre both on a dangerous roller coaster, and satoru is closing his eyes on the fall down.Â
but right now, heâs perched outside your window like a creep. youâre sitting on your bed, cross-legged and squinting at something on your laptop, and satoru smiles to himself as he sees your tank top and shorts and just how homey you look. you probably know satoru is coming, but youâre so comfortable around him that it makes his heart ache. he shouldnât be doing this, but he canât stop.
satoru lightly taps on your window, his knuckle brushing against the glass softly, not wanting to startle you. you glance up, catching sight of him, and thereâs no hiding the smile tugging at your lips.
you get up, and satoru follows the movement of your bare legs with his eyes as you slide the window open. âyou know, most people knock on doors like normal humans,â you say.
âi like to keep things interesting,â he shoots back, climbing in effortlessly. the faint chill from the night clings to him, and his hair is slightly disheveled from the wind.
he glances around your room, catching sight of your scattered notes and the distinct look of frustration etched across your face. âwhatâs got you looking so miserable?â
âphys401,â you reply with a resigned sigh, flopping back onto your bed. âthis problem set is impossible.â
satoru smirks, peeling off his gloves and mask and plopping down beside you. âlet me see.â
acquiescing, you hand over your notebook, watching as he scans your work with intent, eyebrows scrunching as he tries to understand the statement to prove. he makes a few thoughtful noises, before grabbing a pen and scribbling something down. âhere,â he says after a moment, âyouâre overcomplicating this step. instead of doing the tensor product you did, you could just make this zero by taking an inner product, since theyâre orthogonal states. the rest will fall into place.â
you squint at his messy, rushed handwriting, and sure enough, the proof seems to come together. âhow are you so good at this?âÂ
âphysics prodigy, remember?â he teases, leaning back on his hands as he lays down on your bed.
âthanks for the help,â you say softly, your eyes lingering on him a beat too long. heâs kind of dreamy, you think. the moonlight filters across your window, giving his platinum hair a sheen as his cerulean eyes look into yours with kindness.Â
his smirk fades, replaced by something softer, something unspoken. âanytime.â he then makes a show of stretching out his limbs, purposely bumping into you with one eye open smugly to observe your reaction, to which you glare at him. he spots your notebook, picks it up, and flips through it. âyou know, for someone who complains so much about phys401, youâre not half bad at it,â he teases, scribbling something in the margin of your notes by grabbing a stray pen next to him. Â
you roll your eyes, shifting so youâre cross-legged on the bed, facing him. ânot all of us are physics prodigies, satoru. some of us actually have to work hard.â Â
he chuckles, handing the notebook back to you. âhard work is overrated when you can just charm your way through everything.â Â
you snort and joke, âif charm was all it took, iâd have aced the midterm.â Â
thereâs a beat of silence as you glance down at his notes. heâs corrected a mistake you hadnât even noticed, and his scrawled proof flows so effortlessly it makes you a little envious. âhow do you do that?â you ask, more to yourself than him. Â
âdo what?â Â
âmake it look so⊠easy,â you say, frowning slightly. âeverything. physics, life, swinging through the city.â Â
satoru leans back on his palms, his smirk softening. âtrust me, itâs not as easy as it looks.â Â
you glance up at him, surprised by the honesty in his tone. âwhat do you mean?â Â
he shrugs, but thereâs something vulnerable in the way his gaze flickers away from yours. âi mean, everyone sees the guy with the jokes and the perfect test scores, but no one sees the late nights or the bruises.â he gestures vaguely to his chest, where you know the bruises from his spider-man escapades hide. âguess iâm just good at pretending.â Â
you sit with his words, the weight of them settling between you. âyou donât have to pretend with me, you know,â you say softly. Â
his eyes meet yours, and for a moment, the maskâthe real oneâdrops. âi know,â he says, just as softly. Â
the air between you feels heavier, like the world has shrunk to just the two of you. youâre hyper-aware of how close he is, the faint smell of the night clinging to him, the way his knee brushes against yours. Â
âthanks,â he says, his voice barely above a whisper. âfor letting me be here. forâŠâ he trails off, his gaze dropping to your lips before flicking back up. Â
your breath catches. âsatoruâŠâ Â
âyeah?â he says, leaning in slightly, his voice lower now. Â
âiâŠâ you trail off, not even sure what you were going to say. Â
he leans closer, and it feels like everything around you stills. his hand finds its way to your face, his thumb brushing your cheek. âcan i?â he asks, his voice barely audible. Â
you nod, and then his lips are on yours. Â
the kiss starts tentative, almost shy, but it doesnât stay that way for long. it deepens, his hand sliding to your waist as you pull him closer. the tension that had been building for weeksâmonths, maybeâfinally snaps, leaving nothing but heat and want in its wake. Â
his weight presses you back into the bed, and you can feel his heart racing against yours as he pins you to the bed, now on top of you. his hand slips under the hem of your shirt, warm against your skin, and as his thumb traces shapes into your circle and closer to more sensitive areas, a sigh escapes you. Â
thatâs when he freezes. Â
he pulls back, his breathing uneven, his eyes wide and filled with something like fear. âwe canât,â he says, his voice hoarse. Â
your heart drops into your chest.
âwhy not?â you ask, trying to catch your breath. Â
âbecause,â he says, sitting up and running a hand through his hair and heâs heaving. âbecause iâm spider-man, and youââ he breaks off, looking anywhere but at you. âyou deserve better than this. better than me.â Â
you sit up, pulling your shirt back into place and looking at him, hurt. âthatâs not your call to make, satoru.â Â
âiâm trying to protect you!â he says, his voice rising in agitation. he sits back onto his heels, raking a hand through his hair as he looks at the ceiling, as if in pain.
you canât believe him. his self-righteousness irritates you to no end, especially after youâve bared your soul, and now your body to him, something you considered intimate. you feel conflictedâwhatever you had, it didnât have a label. but that didnât mean that you didnât want that to be true. badly.
âand who asked you to?â you snap back. âiâm not some damsel in distress who needs saving.â Â
âi know that,â he says, his tone softening. âbut if something happened to you because of meâŠâ he shakes his head. âi couldnât live with that.â Â
the anger bubbling in your chest boils over, and you snap. âso what? youâre just going to walk away? after everything?â Â
he stands, his expression pained. âiâm sorry,â he says, heading for the window. Â
âdonât you dare apologize,â you say, your voice trembling as you stand by the foot of your bed, hating how your eyes brim with tears. âif you leave, donât bother coming back.â Â
he pauses, his hand on the window frame, before glancing back at you. âiâm sorry,â he says again, softer this time, before slipping out into the night. Â
the window clicks shut behind him, and youâre left alone in the silence, the ache in your chest threatening to swallow you whole.Â
âŠ
the whir of the espresso machine and the gentle hum of background music fill the mostly empty starbucks, the occasional customer wandering in like clockwork. itâs a quiet shift, the kind youâd usually relishâexcept today, the quiet only makes the knot in your chest tighten.
youâre stationed behind the counter, staring blankly at the milk steamer as it hisses, lost in your thoughts. that is, until utahimeâs voice breaks through.
âalright, spill,â she says, leaning her elbows on the counter beside you.
you glance at her, eyebrows raised. âspill what?â
utahime rolls her eyes, brushing a strand of her hair behind her ear. âoh, please. you look like someone stole your favorite pen and broke it in half. whatâs going on?â
ânothing,â you lie, turning back to the steamer. âiâm fine.â
utahimeâs skeptical gaze bores into you. âyouâre a terrible liar. nanami, back me up.â
from his spot at a nearby table, nanami looks up from his book, his sharp eyes narrowing as they lock onto you. âitâs boy trouble,â he says flatly, like heâs solving an equation.
your head snaps toward him, a glare already forming. âexcuse me?â
âitâs obvious,â he says, setting his book down and regarding you with his usual piercing gaze. âyouâre distracted, you look upsetâitâs boy trouble.â
utahime perks up, leaning closer. âwait, is he right? is this about a guy?â
you let out a groan, leaning your elbows on the counter. âcan you two not gang up on me right now?â
âso it is a guy,â utahime says, her tone turning smug.
âi didnât say that,â you retort, but the heat in your cheeks betrays you.
nanami raises an eyebrow, clearly unimpressed with your deflection. âyou might as well just tell us. itâs not like weâre going to let it go.â
you sigh, running a hand through your hair. âfine. itâs⊠someone i liked. someone i thought liked me too. but he freaked out and said it was tooâŠdangerous to keep going.â
utahime frowns, her curiosity replaced by concern while kento snorts. âdangerous? what does that even mean?â
âthatâs what iâd like to know,â you say bitterly, the frustration bubbling up as you speak. âhe acts like he cares, but the second things get serious, he bolts. like iâm some fragile thing that canât handle it.â
nanami leans back in his chair, his expression thoughtful. âhe might not be scared of you. he could be scared of what it means for him. of responsibility and commitment. some people run when they feel too much.â
utahime nods, her hand resting gently on your arm. âwhatever his problem is, itâs not fair to you. if he canât get it together, thatâs on him, not you.â
you glance between them, the weight of their words settling in your chest. âi know that,â you say quietly. âit just⊠sucks.â
âof course it does,â utahime says, her voice soft but firm. âbut youâre not the problem here. donât let him make you think you are.â
nanami picks up his book again but pauses before opening it. âand donât let him live rent-free in your head. if he canât see what heâs giving up, thatâs his loss.â
their support feels grounding, like a steady hand in the middle of a storm. you manage a small smile, nodding. âthanks, guys.â
âanytime,â utahime says, flashing you a reassuring grin. nanami simply nods, returning to his book but keeping an eye on you like always. for the first time all week since gojo left your room, the heaviness in your chest feels a little lighter.
âŠ
the knock at your window is faint, almost timid, but it jolts you out of your daze. you sit up in bed, your heart pounding as your eyes dart toward the window. itâs lateâso late itâs earlyâand for a moment, you think you imagined it. you hate to admit it, but because of your boy troubles you havenât been able to sleep all week. youâre also no stranger to imagining ants crawling up your body or phantom noises, so you adjust in your bed, trying to go back to sleep.
then it comes again, a little louder this time.
you throw off the blanket and pad over, the chill of the floor biting at your bare feet. when you pull the curtain aside, your breath catches.
satoru.
heâs crouched outside, his suit torn in places and soaked with blood. his head lolls slightly, like heâs barely holding himself up, and when he lifts his gaze to meet yours, itâs tired and pleading.
you donât thinkâthereâs no time for that. you unlatch the window and shove it open, reaching out to help him inside. âsatoru, oh my god,â you breathe, your voice shaking.
âhey,â he mutters, his grin weak but still so unmistakably him. âsorry for the mess.â
âshut up,â you snap, guiding him onto your bed and setting him down with gentle hands, ones that contrast your tone with him. âwhat the hell happened?â
ânothing i couldnât handle,â he says, wincing as he tries to sit up straighter and flashes you a sheepish smile. âyou should see the other guy.â
âyouâre bleeding everywhere, satoru. you clearly didnât handle it.â you grab your first aid kit from under the bed and yank it open, your hands trembling.
âiâve had worse,â he murmurs, but his bravado is thin, cracking at the edges.
âstop talking,â you say, your voice trembling and cracking. âjustâjust stop.â
for once, you thank the gods that he listens.
you work quickly, cutting away the shredded fabric of his suit and cleaning the worst of the wounds. itâs not prettyâhis torso is littered with bruises and gashes, the kind that make your stomach turnâbut you keep your focus.
when you press a disinfectant-soaked pad to a particularly deep cut, he hisses, his hand flying to grab your wrist.
âsorry,â you whisper, glancing up at him with a tender look in your eyes. his expression matches yours, and your faces are so close to each other that you canât bear it anymore, going back to your work.
his fingers loosen but donât let go, his grip warm and grounding. âyouâre good at this,â he says softly, his voice rough.
âyeah, well,â you mutter, ducking your head to avoid his gaze. âyouâve given me plenty of practice.â
the silence stretches as you finish bandaging him up. when youâre done, you sit back, your hands still trembling as you place them in your lap. âyouâre an idiot,â you say, the words tumbling out before you can stop them.
he laughs, soft and hoarse. âyeah. i get that a lot from this girl i know.â
you look up at him, and the weight of everythingâhis injuries, his secret, the distance he tried to put between youâcrashes over you. âyou canât keep doing this, satoru. you canât keep pushing me away just to show up like this.â
his smile fades, replaced by something raw and unguarded. âi know,â he says, his voice barely above a whisper. âi know, butâŠâ
âbut what?â you demand, your voice cracking. âyouâre spider-man? you think thatâs an excuse to keep shutting me out?â
âitâs not an excuse,â he says, running a hand through his messy hair, matted with even more blood. his or someone elseâs, youâre not sure. âitâs a reason. i donât want you to get hurt because of me.â
âyou think iâm not already hurting?â you snap, the anger bubbling to the surface yet again. âyou think it doesnât kill me to see you like this and know i canât do anything to stop it?â
his eyes widen, and for a moment, he looks like a little boy, lost and unsure. it is then that it hits you that heâs just twenty. a college student, not someone whoâs wanted by the cia or someone whoâs battled terrorists. for fucks sake, he canât even legally drink.Â
and your heart canât help but melt as he says, âi just⊠i donât want to lose you.â
âthen stop trying to,â you say, your voice softer now. âstop pretending like youâre protecting me by keeping me at armâs length. let me in, satoru.â
he stares at you, his breath hitching like heâs holding back a thousand words. then, in a rush, he closes the distance between you, his hands cradling your face as he presses his forehead to yours.
âiâm sorry,â he whispers, his voice breaking. âiâm so sorry.â
you exhale shakily, your hands finding their way to his wrists. âjust stop being an idiot, okay? stop trying to do this alone.â
he nods, his grip tightening like heâs afraid youâll slip away. âi promise,â he says, and for the first time, you believe him.
âŠ
a cramp gripping satoruâs entire leg is what wakes him up.Â
he winces in memory of the injury; one of those stupid terrorists had too good of an aim, grazing his leg while he was mid-air. it hurts like a bitch now, and he moves to lay on his back, until something stops him. roses.
he looks, bleary eyed, to you. the floral scent coming from you, making him dizzy. his body cocooning yours.Â
you both unconsciously moved in your sleep so that you were spooning, your fragrant hair, soft from shampooing, tickling his throat with your ass in his crotch.
nestled right against his morning wood.
good fucking lord, he groans to himself, then starts to panic because if you wake up and realize he had a raging hard-on while you were sleeping, you would definitely think he was a creep. heâs already on thin fucking ice. so naturally, he starts to recite the star spangled banner while trying to will his boner away.
oh, say can you seeâ
to no avail, because you huff softly in your sleep, soft and warm body unconsciously leaning back to grind your ass against his lap, turning his dick to steel.
âoh, fuck,â he curses out loud, using his hand to cover the lower half of his face and clench his eyes shut. you feel so sweet, innocently adjusting while he canât even control his lust for you.
but once the grind seems to continue for a bit too long, more than what can be chalked up as adjusting in your sleep, he peers down at you. youâre awake.Â
and because satoruâs selfish, his hands creep up your tank top, settling on your bare stomach, where he knew you were ticklish. as a result, you wiggle, and he uses this opportunity to pull you even closer to him, right up against him.Â
âbaby,â he says, making his voice all deep and sighs on purpose, just to be unfair to you. âis this okay?â
you whine, and he settles his face in your hair, the strands of it tickling his skin as he inhales in the scent of you. âi thought it was a dream.â
he smiles into your hair. you make him feel like sunshine incarnate, and the rush heâs getting right now is akin to the one he gets jumping off the empire state building. âno, this is very real.â
âhm,â and you continue to drag your ass into him, murmuring in a soft voice that makes him want to take you right there and then, âit still feels like a dream. like youâre not real, right now.â
oh, what he would do to make you say his name in that same voice; he wants to whisper all the things he wants to do to you right now. âi know, baby. you feel like a dream.â his hands continue to slide up and up your torso, groaning at your sharp intake as he gently fondles the softness of your breasts.Â
you overwhelm his senses, teasing him, and when you let out a whine of his name, satoru snaps.
âiâm going to make you feel good right now. tell me if itâs a fucking dream,â he grits out, ignoring whatever cramps that were screaming at him to get on top of you.Â
you gasp out a âsatoru,â wriggling in his grasp, and he canât take it anymore. he brings up one of his hands. shoots a web that lands right on your left hand. then your right hand.
satoru just tied you up using his webs.
you look at him in whatever version of shock you can muster in your tired state. âsatoru, what theââ but youâre muffled, because heâs kissing you, hard, roving his hands up and down your body and grabbing whatever he can as if heâs devouring you while making out with you.
âdo you know,â and his eyes flash dangerously while looking down at yours, âhow youâve teased me with these shorts?â his hands trails down to the waistband of the offending piece of clothing, pulling it to make it snap against your skin. you jump, looking at satoru desperately, whoâs left you bare at his mercy, subject to his super human strength as he grabs your shorts with both his hands again. âevery fucking time iâve sneaked up in to your room, itâs been so hard to not fuck you senseless in these flimsy things. itâs only fair you pay the price, right baby?â
itâs not like you have anything to answer him with, having lost all brain cells being fucked out like this. he pulls them down, and if he had laser vision, he would have stared through your panties long ago, eyes fixated on the crotch that was nearly translucent with the amount of slick going through it. burying his face right in between your thighs, he noses at your cunt before groaning. then, he uses his teeth to grab onto the middle and pull. until your pussy is bare to him.
âoh, fuck youâre so pretty,â he curses, lapping at your sweetness. his tongue roves up and down your folds, and if your hands could, they would be pulling at his hair solely because you were so sensitive. but you were trapped, thighs gripped in his strong hands and your arms trapped by his ultra-strong webs. âmy good girl.â
then, you feel pressure at your opening. âsatoââ you squeal but are immediately interrupted by your own moan as he curls his long, thick fingers, eyes observing your every movement as you squirm, electric shocks running up and down your body as he hits your spot dead-on.
and he notices, because the motherfucker chuckles. âoh, so thatâs the spot, huh?â he purrs, visibly pleased as he memorizes it and abuses it, hitting it with every stroke. you barely notice him add one finger, add two fingers as he starts to suck on your clit. overwhelmed with pleasure, youâre only brought back to reality when he rips all contact away from you.
âwhatââ you mumble mindlessly, until you see what heâs doing. he pulls his sweatpants down. and heâs not wearing boxers, so you drool when his cock springs out, leaking copiously and hard. without taking his eyes off you, he pumps it to its fullest length, and youâre just staring in awe at its sheer length.
âwhatâre you looking at, baby?â he teases, using his hand to wiggle his cock in front of your face to mock you. âwant it so bad, isnât that right?â
you glare at him half-heartedly, but whine regardless. âjust put it in, gojo.â
âoh,â and he flashes you a smile that makes a big danger sign in red flash across your mind. âitâs gojo, now is it?â
 âsatoru,â there are tears brimming in the corner of your eyes, the ones that make satoru even more aroused at your want, âplease. i need it.â
a boyish grin and a forehead kiss that has you reeling at his duality. âanything for my woman in stem.â with that, he pushes in, both of your eyes rolling back as his cock is engulfed by your gummy walls. soon after, he starts thrusting, desperation fueling both of you as you cross your legs behind gojoâs back, the deeper angle making his thighs shake while fucking into you.Â
he grabs your face, gives you a tender kiss. âfuck, i love this pussy. so sweet for me.âÂ
you give him a wanton moan in return as he continues to thrust deep, tender strokes into you. âsatoru, âm not gonna last long.â with the amount of foreplay heâs done alongside how sensitive you are, youâre steadily reaching your orgasm already, and with the way satoruâs now tightly gripping the sheets beside you while thrusting inside you, he is too.
wet squelching noises echoes across the room, and you know the neighbors can hear the obscene plap! plap! plap! coming from skin meeting skin, your hips against his. he buries his face into your neck, panting at your ear until he uses his hand to wrench your face towards his.
âi love you,â he groans, forcing your eyes to meet his. âi love you forever and will do so. so you canât break my heart,â and heâs desperately thrusting again, âand you canât leave me. please.â
at his confession, you break, back arching as you also squeal out a iloveyou while gasping loudly, hips rolling to rise against his as he fucks you through your orgasm. quickly, his thrusts veer into overstimulation and you whine. âtoru.â he takes one look at your stateâface impossibly flushed, hands tied, and pussy absolutely engulfing his cock, and his orgasm hits him like a truck, making him gasp and bend and break as he goes to heaven and back with the aftershocks of your orgasm making your pussy clench around him so beautifully. his cum enters you in hot spurts, making you exhale sharply at the feeling as he comes down from his orgasm, collapsing next to you.
for a few minutes, heavy breathing fills the room, both of you catching your breaths. until satoru breaks the silence. âso, whatâs it like to fuck a superhero?â
you take one look at himâall smug and propped up on his elbowâand spidey sense be damned as you try grab a pillow. key word is try because youâre then wrenched back with a reminder that youâre still bound. âsatoru,â and you give him a sickly sweet smile, the one that he knows means heâs in trouble, âwhen are these going to dissolve?â
and satoru pretends to be deep in thought, but you can see him trying to inch off the bed slowly, as if to escape your wrath after his answer. âuhmâŠmaybe five hours?â
if it werenât for the damn spidey sense that he had, he wouldnât have been able to escape the swing of your legs as you looked at him murderously. âsatoru gojo you will unhand me from these webs this instantâ-â
âi donât know,â he shrugs, shit eating grin in his face. âyou look kinda sexy in bed like this. mad at me.â but when your eyes flash with anger, he hiccups nervously, telltale of the fact he wonât mess with you.
âi hate you,â you groan out, pouting like a petulant child while you glare at the ceiling.
 satoru comes close to you to bend at his waist and give you a forehead kiss. âno, you donât.âÂ
you give him a pointed glare, telling him not to be testy. âclean me up. now.â
at your expression, his eyes widen in fear and he salutes. âanything for you, maâam.â
at his retreating form, you giggle and sigh to yourself. you never wouldâve known that spider-man would be the one fetching a clean up rag for you after fucking the shit out of you, but you wouldnât trade it for the world.
when satoru comes back, he cleans you up, tenderly, as if he is afraid that you will break. youâre a little drowsy when he returns to you, but he doesnât dare try to wake you up when he hears little breaths from your nose indicating youâve fallen asleep. after he finishes his job, he admires your features.
satoru lingers for a moment, his gaze softening as he watches the gentle rise and fall of your chest. the weight of his responsibilities presses on him, as it always does, but tonight, it feels heavierâlike a tether pulling him between the life heâs chosen and the life he craves.
you, so peaceful in sleep, represent something fragile, something precious. and that terrifies him. because what if he fails? what if the cost of being spider-man is losing the one thing that feels real?
still, he knows he canât walk awayânot from this city, not from you. with a deep breath, he leans down and presses a featherlight kiss to your forehead, a silent promise lingering in his chest.
âiâll keep you safe,â he murmurs, barely audible. âno matter what.â
instead of leaving, satoru settles down beside you, careful not to disturb your rest. the city can wait, just for a little while. for now, he wraps an arm around you, grounding himself in the warmth of your presence. as your breathing evens out against him, he lets his own eyes drift shut, the weight of his responsibilities momentarily lifting. today, he chooses to stay.
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Guys my face went like this đđŠđđđźđ in the span of reading this
Corpse Groom - G.S.
Synopsis. Till dĂ©ath do you partâŠor does it when a dĂ©athly error leads your newly-wedded husband to be from beyond the grĂĄve?
Pairing. Gojo Satoru x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, CĂRPSE BRIDE!AU, arranged marriages, period-typical mĂsogyny, Naoya is awful, accidental marriage, ĂĄngst, major character(s) dĂ©ath, HAPPY ENDING, talks of dĂ©ath, knĂves, poĂson, reĂncarnation, Gojo YEARNS, he loves you sm I cried, hĂĄndjobs, fĂngering, spĂtting, cĂșmplay, BRĂEDING, creampĂes, mentions of having kids, pĂșssydrĂșnk Gojo, overstĂm, oraI (fem rec.), pet names, swĂ©aring.
Word count. 12.7k (ohoho)
A/N. K!nktober isnât over until I had to make a rewrite of my favorite Halloween movie mhm <3
âMother, I refuse-â
âNonsense, child!â
That sharp snap! of your motherâs feathered fan is loud enough that the whole carriage rattles on its hinges, creaking you noisily to what seemed like your very doom.Â
You gulp when sheâs tilting her head down as far as her best, high-collared gown would allow, eyes narrowing. âThe Zeninâs are the only nobles left in this wretched town, and I will not have my daughter marrying some commoner.â
The unsteady cobblestone pathway jostles you in your cushioned seat ever-so-slightly, a pertinent little reminder of that fact.
In the deafening silence, your father pipes up - ever-the-pacifist, âNow now, why donât we all calm down, especially before such a glorious wedding.â But his words wither out into nothing but a whisper in the simmering tension. âLike your mother said, dear, the Zeninâs are a good family, with a uh-â Coughing nervously, â-good son. We just want you to be taken care of.â
As if that was the only thing.
But there was no use arguing.Â
Facing back to the gray window with a sigh, and you can only whisper. âIâd rather die than marry Naoya Zenin.â
---
âWith this hand-â
âLouder.â
âWith this-â
âMore passionate.â
âWith this damn hand-â
âNot a threat.â The older woman in front of you wrings her satin gloves, turning towards your fuming parents with a tone that matches their expression. âHonestly, I know that you new money people find it hard to adjust but this is our special tradition! My poor baby Naoya is going to be heartbroken tomorrow.â
Dutchess Zenin had a cruel sort of beauty to her, high cheekbones, and cutting eyes that picked apart every fray at your dress - the spitting image of her son.
And her âpoor baby Naoyaâ was currently finding it impossible to hide his smirk. Swiping away invisible dust from the velvety-clad shoulder of his overpriced suit, he sets down his wine bottle from the vows.
âDonât be too harsh, mother.â Naoyaâs smooth voice comes out in a dangerous purr, and you jolt when one of his strong arms slither around your waist. Possessive. âAfter all, itâs this oneâs face thatâs whatâs important.âÂ
God, if it werenât for your parentsâ pointed looks you would have shoved this overly-perfumed bastard away from you and bolted through those high doors faster than you could say âI do.âÂ
The Naoya Estate was as beautiful as its occupants could never be, brutal, looming architecture intended to make you feel smaller than you were. All those high cemented pillars, plush furniture, and gleaming chandeliers spoke of exactly what your parents wanted - power.Â
It wasnât the sort of home youâd like to call your own, but then again, you didnât have any choice in the matter.Â
âMy deepest apologies on behalf of my daughter, madam-â your motherâs gritting out the words, painted lips curling ever-so-slightly towards the end with a bitter taste. â-or should I say, co-mother-in-law? Ah, come now, we might as well be family already, right?â
âSure.â Dutchess Naoya turns, arching a needle brow. âMight as well, thanks to your family assets- if your daughter doesnât make a joke of the vows, that is.â
The wisened officiary standing at the altar nods solemnly towards you. âDo you even want to get married tomorrow, young lady?â No, you want to answer, but bite back. âZenin house traditions dictate that the mark of a good wife is one to follow the vows to its every syllable.â
You wince - and your features sting where theyâd been perfectly stretched into a plastic smile. Your next words come out small, strangled in a way that makes your future husband smile. âI apologize, I know how important these vows are, and Iâll- Iâll do better next time.â
âGood.â
With a click of Dutchess Zeninâs fingers, a hushed, swirling piano melody fills the hall once more.Â
Your wedding ballad.Â
Something that Naoya had prattled on and on about being an esteemed tradition in the Zenin household, a tender tune to accompany their sacred vows. Modeled after the long-lost royalty of this kingdom, and this was the closest youâd get to a taste of it.Â
It was your one initiation into power - saying those sweet, special promises - and the one thing you found impossible to get right.
â-for I will be your wine.â
Shit.
You didnât even realize that Naoya had polished off his own vows, before you jolt at the hefty weight of wine being poured into your cup.Â
And you could practically feel the burning stare of every eye in the room. Watching. Waiting.Â
Youâre fighting against your intricate corset to gulp in a deep inhale of the stale, thickening air. Clearing your throat ever-so-slightly, you raise the hand holding onto his wedding ring. âWith this hand, I will lift your sorrows. Y-your cup will never empty-â Fingers tightening around the silver goblet in your other, your breath hitches at the bile rising to your throat already. â-for I will be your- your uh- wine.âÂ
In the corner of your vision, you could spot Naoyaâs smug smirk already. You could hear his tiny âAs if you have any other choice.â
You knew what he was thinking.
That whisper is enough to make your jaw grind, your hand clench in a way youâd been taught by your mother not to - in a way that sheâd unfortunately forgotten to tell you was for the cupâs sake, rather than your own.
Because it only takes one harsh squeeze before it just bursts.
Red, red wine trickling all down your wrist, splattering onto the gauzy curve of your gown - but more importantly, onto Naoyaâs crisp suit.Â
It bleeds through the velvet in thick smears, seeping into the fabric as if catching on fire. Only staining further and further with each second heâs flailing frantically to wipe it off.Â
âShit- My apologies- oh, shit-â youâre gasping, but thereâs no one paying enough attention to tell you off for your unlady-like profanity right now. Body moving before your mind, you snatch some of the officiaryâs papers from him, âWait, it will only get worse- let me-â
Only to forget what was in your hands.
Honestly, if this was any other time you would have laughed watching the rest of the wine nestled safely in your cup come gushing down onto whatever was left of his unmarred suit - every single inch.Â
Itâs chaos.
Then itâs silence.Â
Every single breathing being in the room can only watch as the last few crimson droplets drip! drip! drip! onto Naoya Zeninâs lapels.
Wordlessly, you look to the aghast officiary, your stony-faced parents, and finally, your gaping fiancĂ©. Youâre the first to speak - to hold back your chuckles, more like. âI- I cannot apologize enoughâŠâ
âYou- you witch! This was on purpose, wasnât it? Do you know how much this custom suit cost? How it was worn by the late highness himself.â Naoyaâs screeching, voice shrill. Pointing a finger accusingly at you, it would be menacing if it wasnât for the big, fat droplets of red dripping from his angry features. More of a drenched cat than the gentleman he pretends to be. âRemember that Iâm doing you a favor by marrying you-â
You cross your arms, struggling to keep composure. âI shall reimburse-â
â-and acting all haughty as if you were from the royal family itself.â heâs frantic, mouth running a mile a minute. Tugging at his wet strands, âAnd my hair, oh my beautiful beautiful hair-â
âI shall reimburse the emotional damages, too!â
Dutchess Zenin tackles her son into a soothing embrace you find almost comical, granting you with a venomous glare that you were sure if looks could kill, sheâd be lowering you into your grave and waltzing over it with Naoya already.
Simpering, âItâs quite alright my poor boy, this wedding cannot take place! We can find another-â
âNo no no- no, I still want to marry her-â His greedy eyes sweep your trembling figure up and down, âDoesnât matter if sheâs an unfit wife, Iâll fix her up-â Youâre quirking a brow, âSwear Iâll marry her and fix her up into-â
THUD!
Youâre throwing the cup remaining in your hand as hard as you can, hitting Naoya right in the bullseye of his chest. And as soon as the air leaves his lungs, they leave yours too - in a stubborn, infuriated hiss, âWell, Iâd never marry a spoiled, pompous brat like you.â
And with a flick of the stray beads of wine on your fingers at his face for good measure, you lift your heavy skirts as scandalously far as theyâd travel to dart out of the door.
Out of the winding corridors.Â
Out of the Zenin Estate.Â
Ignoring every call of your name, every arm reaching out for you - urgently following your feet wherever they took you. Honestly, youâre so busy gasping in deep lungfuls of the cool, fall air embracing you that youâre half-surprised you only crash into a few people on the streets.Â
Again. And again. And again and again, yet never stopping. Afraid of being followed by Naoya. Or even worse - your parents.
You barely even slow down until your tailored shoes crunch against gray snow, eyes taking in lines upon lines of towering trees in front of you. Tall, towering. Weaving their branches with the sky - ominous, almost, against the steadily darkening night creeping its way in.
The forest, youâre realizing with a gasp. Have you really come this far?Â
Taking a glimpse over your shoulder at the twinkling lights of the town in the distance, you think of the vows that were waiting for you, and the town rumors youâd definitely sparked. Well, a walk to cool off wouldnât hurtâŠ
And despite wanting to relax, your thoughts only churn with each step. Replaying the scenes from earlier over and over and-
âAnd your cup will always- fuck- they probably think Iâm such a fool.â youâre spitting, kicking at a pile of snow. âFuck Naoya and his vows, fuck that stupid wine, shouldâve shoved it up his-âÂ
Just then, a sudden gust of fall air puffs up against your ear, sending goosebumps careening down every bit of your exposed skin. You shudder sharply, hands shovelling for warmth inside your gownâs pockets, âUgh, todayâs such a horrible-â Only to cut yourself off with a gasp- âThis isâŠâ
You feel for that metallic cold again, hastily pulling out that solid, silvery ring. Meant for Naoya Zenin.
Admittedly gorgeous, an intricate band with a delicate sapphire embedded in its middle. Your mother had spent months tracking down the best jeweler in the country to forge a ring that even the Zeninâs would be impressed with.Â
Fit for a king.
You scoff, âAn unfit wife, my ass. Itâs not even that difficult.â
Still feeling highly insulted, and only slightly embarrassed for it, you clear your throat. Speaking clearly into the stiff air, âWith this hand, I will lift your sorrows.â Determinedly you stride your way into the middle of a slight clearing, âYour cup will never empty, for I will be your wine.â
Grasping a stray branch, you mock lighting the altar candles. âWith this candle, I will light your way in the darkness.â
Before setting down on one knee - customary for the groom, yet feeling so right when you gaze down at a tree root sticking up from the blanket of snow. Poised like the prettiest of fingers at the foot of a towering oak.
âWith this ring,â Youâre sliding it down easily as you would have to onto the man you hated the most. âI ask you to be mine.â
.
.
.
You donât expect the sudden shift.Â
You donât expect the wind to pick up, you donât expect for a murder of crows to materialize from the midnight darkness and crowd on a tree right behind you. Letting the tree root slip from your fingers, you whirl around - what- a storm?
But before you can think of any answers, that withered branch shoots further out of the ground. Barely giving you a split-second to jump backwards before cupping your cheek, gently.Â
And you couldâve sworn that one twig glides across your cheek - just the way oneâs thumb would have. Like the softest of lovers.Â
Gasping in fear, you fall backwards, splaying out into the uncomfortably bone-chilling snow below.
You can only watch as the tree root twitches once. Twice. And your ears thunder with the high-pitched howls of the wind, and a sudden, booming bang! bang! bang!
Shit.Â
Your eyes widen, it was coming from under the ground.Â
The ground that was splitting open before your very eyes.Â
Wider. And wider. Like something was baring itself before you. Something was clawing all the way from hell, that tree root only surging up, up, upwards in a long, limb-like fashion. Branching out into five fingers that dig their way into the ground. Hard.Â
And if you didnât think you were about to faint from just this - you were definitely on the verge of it when the fingers lead their way into a forearm, a shoulder. Miles upon miles of skin - a person, towering above you, silhouetted by moonlight.
He looks at you with sapphire eyes. Close.Â
A man.
Beautiful.Â
Whispering, âI do.â Nose to cold nose, thick white lashes fluttering shut. âYou may now kiss the groom.â
---
Youâre barely half-awake when you realize that that was probably the strangest dream youâve had in your life.Â
Groaning, you rub blearily at your eyes - yet, through the bursts of stars and pounding flashes of headaches, all you can think about is him and his chilling lips on yours.
Soft, like a leaving lover. Â
Even in your most feverish of dreams, youâd never conjured up anyone so ethereal. Tall, powerful despite the almost-sickly air about him, and the deep circles underneath his gleaming eyes.Â
But so gorgeous - sorrowfully so.Â
The image burned permanently into your mind, like your most favorite of memories. Every tiny detail down from the almost-blinding reflection of the moon against his cloudy hair, to how that illuminated his soft smile - that tiny dimple at the corner of his pert, pretty mouth.Â
You remember how he wore a wedding suit, the kind that nobles these days wouldnât dare touch with a six foot sword with how it looked centuries out of fashion. Stark white, with fine silver detailing down the velvety fabric for you to admire.
How ironic, somehow, the thought made you sad.
But most of all, you especially remember the way he looked at you.
Just like he was right now.
âAh!â
âNow thatâs not usually the reaction I- fuck!â
He was real. So painfully real.
And clutching his face where youâd claimed a swat at one of high cheekbones.
âOuch, my wife has a real good arm on her, huh?â Blinking back the haziness in your eyes, you catch sight of that same summer blue gaze, eyes crinkled slightly at the ends. Tender, despite being attacked by you less than a minute after gaining consciousness. âThough, I love a strong woman.â
âNew arrival! Looks like we got ourselves a breather-â
âLooks like she fainted, is she alright? You know we canât keep her long-â
âCan I touch her? Looks so soft~â
White - white fills your vision, too-late are you realizing that youâre being pressed into the soft coat of his chest. Inching you away from a hulking, four-armed creature, he mutters, âSheâs my wife, you curse.â
âWhat-â It takes you a few more seconds to finally find your voice. In those moments you look up to take in his boyishly pretty features - about your age. Human, had it not been for that otherworldly faint blue pallor. âIs this a joke? Where am-â
Choking on your words as you take a sweeping look around the - tavern? Realm? It looked like the very same one in your own town, except bright. Musical. Everything that your home wasnât. Finding faces you could never imagine looking at you - some beautiful, some mere skeletons, all taken out of your wildest dreams.Â
And all dead, it hits you with a jolt.Â
Yet, somehow, youâve never felt safer in his arms.Â
âSomething wrong, my love?â
You pinch yourself, âI need questions- now.â
âYou mean answers.â One from the pub crowd scoffs - a towering man, handsome. Heâd look ever-so-ordinary if it wasnât for the completely skeletal arm on his left side. And of course, that same death-like serenity. âHonestly, Gojo, you picked an airhead or what?â
The man that still held you - Gojo, you assume - whines in protest, âShut up, Toji. Iâd always love her regardless- and she said her vows so perfectly.â
âI didâŠâ you breathe.
Shit.Â
Shit shit shit- you did.
Cocking your head, you ask. âWho are you?âÂ
Heâs rolling his eyes, gifting you a crooked grin of pearly whites. âYour husband, obviously?â
And before you can pinch yourself again to make sure you werenât dreaming, and that last time was a fluke - or perhaps smack him again - Gojo shows off one slender hand. Naoya Zeninâs ring adorned proudly across his ring finger. Your ring. With your vows.Â
âSoâŠâ you let out a giggle of still disbelief. âYouâre the tree-â
âNot quite but-â
âOh! I love this story- could make a skeleton cry.â
âHeh, yeah yeah sing it, king of curses.â
âPlease donât.â
âYou see, welcome to the Land of the Dead, doll.â A man with pink hair sets down his drink to throw one of his four arms around your shoulder, much to Gojoâs chagrin. Words dripping with taunt, âNâ lemme tell you the story of our lovely corpse groom.â
Youâre dragged along through the crowded, eerily lit tavern, everyone jostling each other to better get a look at you. Poking and prodding, some even gasping at the feeling of your thundering pulse.Â
He hums, âHere we have a pompous prince known miles around-â And you could tell him and Gojo had already known each other long, with how he was toying with the other man. â-fell hard and fast for a cute lilâ peasant girl much like yourself-â
âSukuna, stop it.â Gojo grits, jaw clenched.Â
â-but, alas. When dear olâ dad the king said ânoâ, he jusâ couldnât cope. So our dear lovers came up with a plan to elope-â
Youâre thrust into the arms of an attractive blond man, almost half of his entire face held together with stitches and bone. Heaving out a sigh in a way you could very much feel akin to, âMeeting up late at night is always a stupid plan, even with all the wine and riches for the road. You might not need much when you have love, but you never know whatâs lurking. And, well, on that dark night, our prince here paid the price.â When you look back at the white-haired man his eyes seemed significantly softer, if that was even possible.Â
Tojiâs the one by your side this time, âPoof! Dropped dead as dust waiting for his dear girl, no evidence, no body, no bride. What a crybaby he was when he arrived. Didnât even want to stay here-â
â-because then he made a promise to wait upstairs.â Another man - with such gorgeous, long hair makes himself known this time. Forehead littered in strange stitches, as if itâd been opened and fixed many, many times. âAnd waited and waited asleep for one hundred years to this day until out of the blue, you came along, sweetness. The lovely bride, to our corpse groom.â
You.Â
And Gojo looks at you like he canât look away.
Lone, standing there with his arms open as the story tapers out. Waiting.Â
Until you came along.
---
âHERE YE, HERE YEâŠFUTURE BRIDE OF ZENIN HOUSE SEEN LURKING IN THE FOREST WITH A MYSTERY MANâ now for the weatherâŠâÂ
âWhat?â your mother hisses at the bellows of the local newsman, well, rumor-spreader, more like. But heâs never been more useful than now. Sneaking an urgent glance at the stunned Dutchess Zenin by her side, she elbows your father, âWe come outside to search for our daughter only to hear this? How could we let this-â
âMaybe itâs a ah- slow news day?â
Theyâre interrupted by a sudden, sharp clearing of oneâs throat - dripping with the distinct tone of condescension that only a member of the Zenin family could possess. âWe are one bride short for the wedding tomorrow. What a scandal!âÂ
âAh!â sheâs gasping. Waving her hands frantically, âW-we promise weâll find her before the wedding-â
âYou better.â
âNo.â Naoya Zeninâs voice was brimming with something dangerous, an eerie, steady lilt of determination to it. But heâs not even looking at anyone in the group, eyes trained firmly on the woody entrance to the forest in the distance. âIâll be the one to find her.â
Finally, something that seems to appease the huffing matriarch.
Only leaving her sullen son with a nod of approval, âAnd NaoyaâŠâ She makes sure the other two bothers were out of earshot, greedily scurrying back to the warmth of the Zenin household. âRemember, the ah- family funds are drying up. Hurry.â
---
Gojo Satoru, you learn, was as nervous about this marriage as you were.
âThis is where I always visited after first dying.â he muses, ice-cold fingers wrapped snugly with yours as he guides you gently through various crooked stairs and skeletons of town. âThe view takes my breath away- well, if I could breathe, that is.â
Youâre startling out a laugh that has both of you surprised, and he turns to you with such breathless awe.Â
âBeautiful.â
âWhat-â your eyes widen - and you donât know whether itâs from his sudden little compliment, or from where you two had finally stopped walking.Â
A steep cliff, overlooking the entire, vast town of multi-color lights. The rigid structure from where you came could never compare. Complete chaos. But as pretty as those paintings you read about in books, views you never thought youâd see.Â
You rest your hands atop the spindly barrier surrounding the very edge, marveling. âIt is beautifulâŠâ
âIt is.â Gojoâs tone is rich, and his eyes never stray from you despite all else there is to drink in. It takes you a few moments of counting all the bustling figures in the distance before you finally mount up the courage to meet his hypnotic gaze.Â
Gojo jolts when you look his way, as if he wasnât expecting it. Hastily, he flusters to pat down the sides of his suit - tattered at places, patchy as if once-pristine but ruined with age. Heâs smiling once he ruffles through his breast pocket, pulling out something glinting.
Youâre letting out a tiny gasp when he shows off a silver, heart-shaped locket. Intricate, obviously custom-tailored - youâd never quite seen anything like it. Positively beaming with all the shine that the rest of him had lost.Â
Treasured.Â
âItâs for you.â
âWhat?â Your jaw falls slack in shock, pushing away Gojoâs held-out hands. But he was ever-persistent. âPlease- I canât, that- that looks like it should be for someone precious.âÂ
âAnd it is.âÂ
This was the firmest youâd heard his sing-song voice, and at your slightest split-second of faltering, he snatches the opportunity to circle his hands around your neck. Deftly clasping it from behind, Gojo only smiles, soft pads of his fingers lingering at your nape. âIâve had it for years.â You wanted to know exactly how many years that meant. âConsider it a wedding gift~â
Your own dust over the cool metal pendant, heart lurching. âIf only you let me know about our wedding in advance, I wouldâve gifted you something, too.â
âHeh, you donât have to.â
âDo tooâ
âDo not.â
âDo too.â You cross your arms, boring your eyes into his. âIâm not going to be an unfit wife.â
Thereâs a second of silence.Â
One.
Two.
And at this point, you half-expected your parents and Naoyaâs to just burst from behind the nearby stairway to tell you this was all some elaborate test - before Gojo just explodes in peels of cackles.Â
âIâm sorry- Iâm sorry I- hah!â heâs barely able to wheeze out, wiping away stray tears of joy. âYou never change, huh-âÂ
It takes the embarrassed tapping of your feet for Gojo to finally straighten back up to his tall figure, muttering out a few more indiscernible phrases underneath his breath. Clearing his throat, âNow who said youâd ever be an âunfit wifeâ, sweetheart- Yâknow I really didnât believe Tojiâs airhead comment but- oh-â
You land a half-hearted punch solidly in his stomach - and usually, youâd think twice, thrice before acting this familiar with anyone. Even then, you wouldnât follow through underneath your motherâs watchful eye.Â
Ah, but youâve never smiled harder when you claim. âI think I won our first argument as a married couple.â
âOh, can you do this fâme when I have an argument with Sukuna, next?â Gojo chuckles, wiggling his brows.Â
He has to dodge your playful hand a few more times - well, he would have had to. But heâs taking them all gladly, pulling you by the wrist to press you flush against his chest. âBut fine, you win. Maybe as a wedding gift we can consumm- Iâm kidding Iâm kidding- follow me, I have the perfect idea.â
And you couldnât not come with him, with the way that Gojo was eagerly dragging you through the town plaza and back into the now-empty tavern, where youâd remembered had a grand piano nestled away.
Gojoâs pulling out the seat for you, before promptly taking his own flush beside you. Nudging you with one of his shoulders, he starts up a beautifully haunting few lower notes. Delicate. âYou donât have to play, you can listen if youâd like-â
âHey, I know this one.â youâre gasping, eyes lighting up with the recognition of that familiar somber from the Zenin house. But something about it this time felt so right.Â
Before you know it, your hands are moving faster than you can hold them back, joining Gojo in his sweeping melody on the higher notes. It rings in the air around you two, jostling your body up against his.Â
âYou know it.â he breathes, such a brilliant grin making way onto his pretty features when you two continue your little duet. And you swear you could hear him suck in a sharp inhale before playing even harder on the keys - a challenge.
And you were never one to back down.Â
âHeh, youâre not half bad-â But his own little boast gets cut off by Gojoâs half-skeletal wrist snapping off, twiddling up, up, up the grand piano and on its merry way around your shoulder. âPardon my enthusiasm, my love.â
You help him reattach it back, an interesting quirk of being half-dead, you suppose. âI like your enthusiasm.â
Thereâs a slow, stuttering silence that echoes afterwards, and youâre shivering from the slightly cold bite of the underground. Gojo wraps his full arm around your shoulder this time, and you donât have the heart to tell him that he was still bone-cold.Â
âHowâŠâ he gulps, barely meeting your eyes. âHow did you know that song?â
But you couldnât tear yours away from him, âOh? That song? Well- before I uh- married you, I was actually engaged-â
His pretty lips fall slack, âOhâŠâ
Youâre not sure why you hasten to explain yourself, âB-but he was a prick- and I threw a wine cup at him just before coming here.â
âThatâs my girl.â Gojo winks, and youâre feeling your skin heat up.
âAnyway, this song was to be played at the wedding. So my mother made me memorize every single note- she failed to tell me it was a duet, however.â
âIt was.â
Something about those two words comes out breathless, barely hanging on. And youâre biting your bottom lip ragged before the question escapes you, âYou were engaged, as well? Before- as a prince- I mean- oh, forget-â
To your surprise, Gojo only chuckles - deep voice breaking ever-so-slightly at the very end. His fingers glide across the piano with a familiar sadness that you canât quite pinpoint. Chest rumbling, âWell, itâs just as the others said. We were meant to run away together, but your dear olâ husband here died just before we could.âÂ
Youâre swallowing the lead thatâd seemed to piled up heavily in your throat, still afraid to push too far. âAnd the- the bride? What happened to her?â
âIâŠdonât knowâŠshe probably saw I wasnât there and went back, had a happier life with a more deserving husband- children, even.â He looks towards the perpetual night sky, Adamâs apple bobbing heftily. âItâs funny- todayâs a hundred years since that day.â
Something hurt. And your chest churned at the thought of him waiting and waiting in the darkness for years. For someone.
âYou loved her?â
He looks at you - really looks at you - and then down at the gleaming locket. âI love her. And I made a promise, I wait for her - in life and death.â
Something really hurt - and it wasnât just that hollow, aching burn in your chest. No, your head was now throbbing with such a splitting pain that you canât help but grab your temple with a yelp. Eyes scrunching shut with tears, trying to down out that drilling thrum.Â
âShit-â youâre hearing, foggy, like it was in the distance. âShit shit shit-â Big arms wrap around you, âAre you alright? Shit-â
The swinging pub doors slam-
âWhat happened?â
âThe bride from upstairs-â
âSheâs still here?! She already dead or what?â
More and more voices are joining in - and youâre not sure if youâre thankful that they drown out that harrowing thunder of blood in your ears or angry that theyâre making it ache more deafeningly in response.Â
âPlease- space.â Gojoâs stern command rings across the plaza, for a moment of clarity youâre thinking that heâd make the perfect leader of sorts. The perfect prince. âMy wife needs space, and you all will leave-â
Nanamiâs strict tremor was distinguishable anywhere. âWhat she needs is to go back upstairs, Gojo.â Another pair of rough hands grasp your shoulders, and you hear a growl from above you. âWith fresh air, with her kind. I donât know what fantasy youâre playing out but she needs to be back with the breathers, down here isnât good for her.â
âBut-â
Just at that unfortunate moment, your head wracks with another painful burst, making you cry out. Clinging onto Gojoâs soft jacket for dear life.Â
âBut sheâs my wife.â
Everyone goes quiet.Â
You were sure he was crying now, and oh how badly you wanted to reach out and comfort him. But, instead, Gojoâs the one soothing a hand down your back, nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck. He breathes in deep, grounding gasps by the chain of your locket, âN-nanaminâs right- we- I have to get you back.â
Your eyes shoot open, âWhat- no-â
âItâs for your own good.â Pressing a slow kiss to your forehead, âTrust me.â
âBut-â
âPlease?â
---
Gojo Satoru had spent so long in the darkness, that heâd almost forgotten how beautiful the moonlight is.
Even more so when you were by his side.Â
âOhâŠâ And despite not having a beating heart, he swears he could feel it racing at the crisp scrunch! of freshly fallen snow underneath his polished shoes. Arms immediately wrapping around your waist, twirling you to him, âHow I missed the beautiful upstairs.â
Youâre giggling, batting your lashes up at him. âWell, youâre not doing much sightseeing right now, are you, Gojo?â
âPlease.â He rests his icy forehead against yours, waltzing you slowly around the clearing. Your first dance. âCall me Satoru, I would like to part ways having heard my name on your tongue once, than not at all.âÂ
And ah, it hurt him more than that dull, spreading pain of death to simply see your expression crumble. Lower lip wobbling when you whisper, âDo we have to?â
Itâs as if that tiny tremble in your voice jolts him back to his senses, and heâs letting go of you as if you burned. Turning his back so that you wonât see him swipe underneath his dampening eyes, âWe do.â he nods solemnly. Still gazing out through the barren trees, the snow breaking in. âBut I wouldâŠif youâd like- I would really like you to say my name just once.â
Nothing - not one of your quipping insults, not even one of your sweet, sweet giggles. Gojo could barely even hear that shallow breathing of yours.Â
âMy love?â
Nothing.
Gojo whirls around, âMy love?â
Nothing.Â
---
âLet me go let me- go-â you spit, voice dripping with a deadly growl that should decidedly not be used in front of your future in-laws. But you didnât give a fuck right now. âI will never- ah-â
Unceremoniously, youâre thrown like a mere debris in front of Dutchess Zeninâs gold-tipped boots, hands splaying out against the cool marble to dredge up some ounce of balance. You look up into her burning glare, hissing, âI will never marry your son.âÂ
But itâs like youâd never spoken at all.
Sheâs turning to Naoya, stood proudly behind you, holding back his snickers. âAh, my son-â Reaching her arms around to brush off the soft pattering of snow down his coat. â-I see youâve brought your wife back.â
âOf course, mother.â heâs humming. âHad to walk all throughout that crummy forest until I saw her-â At this, heâs turning towards your parents, who could only watch from the sidelines. â-with another man no less- well, canât quite call him that if he didnât even see his woman being dragged off into the dark.â
Dutchess Zenin cackles,and the sound makes you grit your teeth. âThat other man is my husband-â
âWhat?âÂ
Itâs your own mother speaking this time - eyes widened. Fuming. She comes up to you in a few urgent, sharp strides, grabbing at the now-torn and frayed edges of your gown. âWhat nonsense are you speaking-â Sneaking a glance at your father, âOur daughter seems to have lost her mind, dear.â
Heâs just a bit more gentle - cautious, almost. As if confronting a cornered wildcat when he ruffles through your pockets for the ring. Finding none.Â
Youâre wrenching yourself away, âIâm fine- but father, listen- I was practicing my vows in the forest-â Every eye was on you know, and oh youâve never felt more of a spectacle. â-and I put that wedding ring on a tree root- and it- it came alive and oh- he was a groom. A beautiful corpse groom-â
âThat trip to the forest must have bogged up her mind- yes yes, she must be imagining things.â
âOf course, but the weddingâŠpoor dear-â
âThe only thing sheâs good for is the money.â Dutchess Zenin gruffs, tired of hiding her disdain. âAnd maybe a free trip to the hospi-â
âThe wedding will take place.â Naoya cuts in gruffly, snapping his fingers at a nearby attendant and pointing at you. âCall the officiary, and as for my future bride, I donât care if you must force her into that wedding dress, I donât care if you have to drag her here - she will marry me one way or the other. Now.â
Itâs like youâre a puppet - their puppet. Being rapidly walked and bathed about, dolled-up in a white, silken wedding dress that you could never see yourself standing in next to him.Â
It fits you like a glove, attuned to your body as if it was made for you - and you almost hated how beautiful it was, adorned with tiny silver inklings and the most delicate of lace. Made with too much love to be borne out of this dreary household, but when you turned to ask your jittery handmaiden about it, sheâd only cryptically answered about âthe dress being with this family for a long, long time.â
No one here seems to give you answers.
Or grace.
Or anything but locked windows that you crack a nail or two attempting to open and flee and a long, decorated aisle to walk down to your future husband. Naoya.Â
Your throat tightens when youâre stepping back into that hallway - now flourishing with bouquets of blue, blue babyâs breath, and twinkling candles. It was almost colorful, for this town, at least.
You shudder out a teary sigh when the tender piano starts up again - the exact same tune youâd played with Gojo. But cold. And suddenly, youâre realizing that you never asked him how he knew the song.
âPssst! Walk!â Your motherâs high-pitched hiss is enough to snap you out of your little reverie, glassy eyes snapping up to look at her urgent signal to hurry up.
And so you walk, but not to the one man you wanted to.
Naoyaâs smirk lies as smugly as ever when you take your place beside him at the altar, poised, and perfect in his pressed suit, his glinting sword. Whispering snidely from the corner of his mouth. âSmile a little, itâs a wedding after all.â
You keep your gaze trained firmly on the officiary starting his speech, âPerhaps in disappointment, we are perfectly matched.â
âDearly beloved, we are gathered here today to join this man and this bride in holy matrimony-â Gesturing a wrinkled hand at Naoya, âYou may begin first.â
He raises his hand in a solemn oath, razor eyes boring relentlessly into yours. Voice dangerous, humming. âWith this hand, I will lift your sorrows.â This time, he was pointedly the one to pick up that cup on the altar table - a steady, unbreakable metal this time. âYour cup will never empty, for I will be your wine.âÂ
Your trembly fingers wrap around the bottle of wine, starting to slowly pour. âWith this hand, I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never be empty for I- I will beâŠâ
Shit.
Shit, you canât do it.Â
Your words struggle to come out, and you could burn in the sheer anger already wafting from Naoya.Â
âI will- I will be-â
âHow scandalous to marry an already-married woman~!â
The gasp that echoes throughout the hall is almost as deafening as the booming crash! of those towering, mahogany doors being swung open. Clattering against the walls so hard that your teeth chatter with vibration - but you didnât care. Didnât even feel it because youâre too awe-struck by what was standing in front of you.
Or more accurately, who.Â
âSatoru!â The tears are falling hotly down your cheeks, you barely have the patience to lift up your layers upon layers of gauzy skirts before stumbling your way into his arms at the very end of the aisle. Ready. Ever-loving. Catching you easily like heâd been waiting a hundred years for this very moment.Â
âI thought you left me waiting.â he breathes.
âI would never- and- and youâre here.âÂ
âMhmââ
You canât help but let out a laugh, âHow did you even know where to find me?â
âOur duet- there would be no other but this house that would know it-â He wraps his arms even more snugly around your waist, white locks tickling your nose. âAnd you did promise to lift my sorrows, what type of husband would I be if I didnât do the same?â
âYou. You- What- what is the meaning of this?â Dutchess Zeninâs squawk tears through your little moment, sheâs whirling into a furious stand, fists clenched. âMarried woman- husband? Youâre dead!â
Gojo remains calm, sapphire eyes narrowing, âI am.â
But the ever-composed woman youâd feared for so long was now running her mouth a mile a minute, half-ripping out chunks of hair in frustration as the officiary held her back from storming her way towards the two of you.Â
âYouâre dead youâre dead youâre dead-â she screeches, and even Naoya could only watch with his mouth fallen. âYouâre dead- my family made sure of that-â
She stops short, mouth opening and closing in a gasp until you breathe, âM-made sure?â
âYes-â Sheâs fighting against the hold, still muttering to herself maniacally. âShit- we made sure to- oh god why- do we have to kill you all over again! Your wretched Gojo royal family is wiped out- I still- I still have the power, the riches- All because we left you-â
âFor dead.â he whispers. Youâre too shocked to gasp - to do anything but look up at his reaction. âBut she came back to me.â
âHer? This one- Once more you found that insignificant little-â
And at this very moment, Naoya just bellows in a guttural scream, everything his mother was restrained from doing with how heâd closed the gap between you two in a few urgent seconds. One hand wrapped roughly around yours, âI donât care- You forget she was engaged to me first.â
âSheâs still my wife.â Gojo spits.Â
âNot if youâre-â Naoyaâs unsheathing his sword haphazardly. Swinging. âDead!â
Schwingâ!
It would have been sure to hit you.Â
Would have been sure to gravely injure your side - if Gojo hadnât deftly moved himself squarely in front of you, that is. The sharp blade slicing right through his ribs - yet, he still smiles. âYou forget I already am.â In one, fluid motion tackling the sword to holt at its bejeweled hilt - pointed right at Naoyaâs chest. âLet go of me and my wife, before you join me.â
Itâs silence.
Silence and the smell of fear. Sour, and saturated when Naoyaâs stepping away, one unsteady foot after the other-
âI will ruin you as my ancestors have, Gojo brat-â
Dutchess Zenin.
Your body moves before your mind - before any form of thinking, as if on instinct. Yet, you already knew what was coming.Â
And soon enough, youâre standing in front of a stunned Gojo, face splattered with the red, red wine in her silvery cup. Drip! drip! dripping down your stained lips and onto the marbled floors.Â
But something about it tasted bitter.Â
Different.
.
.
.
And all of a sudden - you see dark.
âPoison! By gods, the wine was poisoned!â
âHow will the wedding go on?â
âNo- no no no I just wanted to her sick- to get her willâshit-â
âMy love---listen----hear--me?âÂ
In the foggy distance, you could hear girlish, high-pitched screams that sounded strangely like Naoyaâs, and the familiarly dark chuckle of- Sukuna? Sounding ready to pounce on fresh meat. âHeheh, new arrival - and some unfinished business, huh?â
âSâToruââ youâre whispering, eyes blearily. Heart cold. Suddenly, everything about you was cold. And the only thing you could register right now is the fact that you were still in his arms - always was. âToru- am I- where am I?â
âYouâre here, sweetheart.â he gasps, big fat tears splattering onto your face. The only sense of warmth that you could feel, other than the one in your no-longer-beating heart. And you canât help but wonder - can a heart be broken even when it stops beating? Because he was living two deaths now - his own - laying there poisoned with wine so long ago on the forest floor, with only the Zeninâs to watch, and you to wait for him much later - and most importantly, yours. âYouâre- youâre here, with me.â He places a sweet, sweet kiss onto your lips. âRest now, Iâll wait for you. I promise- I promise.âÂ
And through your hazy vision, the only thing that you could quite see was that silver locket youâd never thought to look through, out of fear - sprung open. Baring two grainy, clouded portraits - as good as a photo.Â
Of himÂ
AndâŠyou.Â
âIâll always wait for you, in life and death.â
---
âHey- Toruââ your voice rings out in Gojoâs favorite song, peering curiously at the boyishly grinning prince. âDo you think Iâll be an unfit wife?â
He throws his head back with a cackle, peering through his long lashes from where he was resting his head in your lap. âWhat- no? Whatever makes you think that, silly girl?â
Youâre settling yourself further down the young oak - your favorite little hiding spot ever since youâd introduced your secret lover to it. Grumbling half-jokingly, you thread your fingers through his soft, snow-white hair. âWell perhaps because someone refuses to help me do anything in preparation for tonight-â
âShhh!â Gojoâs bringing a finger to his lips, glancing around over-dramatically. âYou never know when my father will be jumping from behind the bushes.â At your amused laughter, âNâ besides, doesnât matter if weâre going to elope, Iâm not letting my wife pick up a thing.â
âWhat- no-â
âIâll snag my wedding suit- and that specially-made dress for you heh- and get the attendants to sneak out some leftovers from the banquet. The Zenin family has just gifted some wine I know youâll love.âÂ
Craning his head to press a slow kiss to your forehead, âWeâll drink, weâll say our vows- you better have memorized them this time-â And another on your nose, âThen Iâll have you drunk in another way~ ow! Okay okay- donât hit royaltyâ! And run away to our happily ever after.â Then, finally, lingeringly on your mouth,âTrust me.â
âBut-â
âPlease?â
Youâre fiddling with the chain around your hefty, heart-shaped locket with a huff, finally caving in. âFine- but then-â Deftly unclasping it, â-you have the responsibility of keeping this safe, too, I have to teach piano to the little ones in town again today, and if anyone catches me with a piece like this Iâll be hanged for thievery before ever getting married.â
âOur duet?â
âOur duet.â
He twirls that delicate pendant around his fingers, brows scrunching in half-seriousness. âIâll protect it with my life-â Almost flinging it towards the end of the clearing in his haste to salute you, âAh- pardon my enthusiasm, my love.â
âI like your enthusiasm, dummy.â youâre rolling your eyes at his antics. âBut what if Iâm late? The music lessons always take so longâŠâ
âJust meet me here at our place - promise Iâll wait for you, of course. In life and death.â
You never did find out if Gojo Satoru waited for you.
You never found him that night - running late to the clearing, only to be met with no sign of him. Not that night. Not the night after. Night after night, you waited for him - watched as the Gojo royal family fell and the Zeninâs raided their palace, as the town started to grow and you stayed the very same.
With stray hope, even in your final ages, waiting for him and the marriage that wonât take place.
Not for a hundred years.
---
Youâre waking up remembering the feeling of those cold, cold lips on yours.Â
Finally, remembering.
âSa-Toru-â youâre gasping, gulping in heavy lungfuls of air before you realize - you donât need it anymore. Eyes startling open, you wince at the even the dim, heady lighting overhead. âIâmâŠâ
âDead.â
His words are gentle - just above a whisper, as if anything else will scare you off. But his words have the complete opposite reaction, in fact, youâre reeling him in so close by the silvery lapels of his weathered jacket. Wedding suit meeting your wedding dress.
You feel over his broad chest, and then over yours. Breathing out in awe, âI- I really am dead.â
Gojoâs wincing, running the soft pads of his fingers down your scalp. Massaging, âHow- how do you feel, my love?â
Too-late youâre realizing that youâre splayed out on what seems like a plush, engulfing bed. Blankets upon blankets of velvety fabrics covering the surface, like someone had tried their very best to replicate warmth.Â
âI think I feelâŠâ youâre muttering, the very corners of your painted lips turning upwards at the way that Gojo was hanging onto your every word. Pretty mouth dropped into a soft oh! eyes wide and true. You just canât help but drag him into the tightest embrace your joints could possibly handle. â-that I havenât spent enough alone-time with my husband.â
He laughs - he laughs and laughs like he hasnât before, like itâd been bubbling up in his throat for years and finally set free.Â
âOh, my love.â Gojo reveres, pressing a trail of hot kisses down the side of your face. Lingering in a languid lick where big, salty tears of yours were welling up. âWe have all the time in the world- I just- just- do you remember?â
Youâre pretending to think, leaving him careening at all your minute expressions. Finally cracking, âOf course, I remember- all of it, dummy-â Swatting his chest, âWhy didnât you tell me?â
Heâs gulping heavily, âI always knew that- that it was you the moment I saw your face- you look exactly as you did. Exactly as beautiful as the day I lost you, after all.â Cupping your cheek, âAnd oh, sweetheart, what a blessing it would be to marry you. But how could I ever tell you when you didnât even remember me? How could I so selfishly ask you to throw away something so dear as life for me? Even for a promise?â
âI would have done it.â youâre pouting, brows scrunching.Â
âExactly.âÂ
âI waited for you, yâknow. For years, until my death. No âdeserving husbandâ, and no children.â
He gasps a tiny, meaningful gasp. And for all how Gojo loved to run his mouth, right now he only presses a sultry kiss to your forehead, âBut in this life, or the last, or whatever comes next-â On your nose now, â-Iâll wait for you. Always have, always will.â Finally - yearningly - on your mouth, âIn life and in death.â
Gojo kisses you like heâs been waiting a hundred years for it - and would wait a hundred more before he can again.Â
Pressing one, two. Three steamingly hot, open-mouthed on your spit-glossed lips before moving to trail them down the underside of your jaw. Dragging his raw lips in a messy glide, heâs tittering when all it takes is one sudden bite at the soft spot on your neck to get you to jump.Â
âHeh- you never change-â he murmurs into your heated skin, licking down the sting with a slow spread of his tongue.Â
âT-Toruââ youâre managing to gasp out despite his relentless attack on your mouth. Making him wrench out such a pained grunt when you pull his face back ever-so-slightly to look into Gojoâs eyes. âArenât you forgetting something?â
Gojo can only cock his head in confusion, gaze still half-lidded and locked on your lips.Â
âYouâre forgetting your promise from all those years agoââ youâre dragging out in a honeyed-tone, giggling at the way his hulking body squirms impatiently. â-to consummate our marriage.â
And oh.
Oh, Gojo Satoru feels heâs dying six times over already.Â
He feels like his bleary head is about to go into overdrive - as was the sudden tightening in his pants.Â
âW-well thenâŠâ heâs rasping out, voice so ragged, dipping into a husky baritone that for a second you almost donât recognize it. Two of his long fingers cup your face once more - rougher this time, making your lips squeeze together into an almost-embarrassing oh! âOpen that mouth fâme, my love.â
You barely even realize it when you do - not until Gojoâs spitting a thick, translucent wad of his syrupy saliva right onto your lolling tongue.Â
Nodding smugly when youâre taking him all, heâs swiping the curve of his thick thumb down that purposeful splatter on the corner of your lips. Because you knew the prince of a nation should have perfect aim, you knew he just liked seeing your dewy eyes flutter.Â
Whispering hoarsely against your lips, âI ask you to be mine.â
âYes-â youâre whining, your hands scrambling down the decadent fabrics of his suit. âYes yes yes- please- n-need more, Toru-â
And the sound of that cute lilâ nickname youâd made for him in that sweetened tone makes Gojoâs entire body wrack with a violent shudder. Head throwing back, white lashes flickering shut- âO-oh, shit- shit youâre gonna be the death of me-â
But whatever little joke playing on your tongue just dissipates when Gojoâs shedding his outer coat off slowly. Bloodied, silken jacket hitting the ground- bloodied? Youâll have to ask about that later.
And then his mouth is on yours again - teeth clashing, tasting metal, his pretty lips wrapping around your hot tongue to just suck. Lazily, like his favorite candy.Â
âSo beautiful-â his words puff out in a feverish pant. Chest huffing - no, heaving - you can only keen when you feel something so hard and massive nudge up in a gentle kiss against your high. âSo perfectââ The sodden curve of his achy tip dragging in a wet smear down your leg. âSo mine.â
As soon as youâre blinking your dazed eyes back open, youâre hit with what looked like miles upon miles of Gojo Satoru. Curving muscles sitting prettily and casting shadow in the low lighting - it made you just drool.Â
Shit, when did he even take his shirt off?
âHeh, already so needy, sweetheart?â He kisses up the glossy trickle, groaning into your mouth, âSo cuteââ
But, of course, you werenât exactly one to be pushed around, either.
With a low purr, you cup that bulging tent right in-between his muscled thighs. Fingers skimming over inches upon inches of his girthy, solid shaft - he just gasps. âO-oh, you little minx- do you enjoy p-playing with my hngh- sanity?â
With a snicker, it doesnât take you long to smudge the pads of your digits at that thickly spreading pool of precum. Glossing a thin sheen all the way down to your wrists with how fucking greedily he was throbbing at your touch.Â
âF-fuck-â heâs hastily clearing his throat as soon as it breaks off into a pathetic whine. Hips bucking forwards in mindless, staggering gyrations into your hand like Gojo didnât even realize what he was doing right now. âFuck fuck fuck- honey, I-â
The neediest little grunts spill from his puffed-up lips, and heâs moving urgently - hastily, when sitting upright to all but rip that bejeweled belt off of his slender waist. Tugging his white pants down, down, down and-
Oh.Â
âFuck, Toru.â
Gojo was so unfairly pretty - all of him.
Even every single inch of his long, thick shaft, smeared with glistening precum sobbing out from his fat, round head. Blushed darker than the rest of him - matching his innocent cheeks right now. So hard it looked painful.Â
Twitching over and over in saturated gushes coating his prominently throbbing veins, his tight balls. Your fingers.Â
Wrapping tight around his flushed base, he was so incredibly big that youâre worried your fingers wouldnât even close. Scratching up against those drenched tufts of cloudy white at his toned pelvis, the sight is enough to make you gulp.Â
âYes-â Gojoâs rasping, head thrown back because shit did it feel good to have your pretty lilâ fingers all wrapped around him. Hips stuttering up, up, up- âYes yes yes- câmon- c-câmon my wife-â
Shit, those words spilling from his lips are enough to steer into such a loud moan, and heâs letting his jaw fall unhinged. Jaw-droppingly powerful back muscles flexing when he falls into a hunch, kissing wetly at your lips.Â
âTighter- squeeze ah, squeeze me at my tip-â Gojoâs babbling, drunken eyes so thoroughly locked on where you were pumping your fist back and forth. âY-yeah hngh- and glide your thumb over justââ
Youâre swiping the very tip of your thumb underneath that sensitive slit of his, the slightest touch enough to make him bawl out in a dripping sheen of precum. Reddening even more, his hefty girth in your hand jolts sensitively.Â
âS-sâthisââ you stagger out, wrist aching when youâre moving it faster. And faster. Ears ringing with the sloppy fap! fap! fap! of your fingers clenching around his thick, circular girth, the splatters of precum itâs forcing from him. Kissing gently down his burning shoulder, âSâthis good, Toru?â
And god, how dare you even ask that?
With a sudden groan, he crashes his lips into yours again. Addicted. Growling against your whiny mouth, youâre flinching at the nip of his sharp canines.Â
âOh, yer perfect-â heâs blinking back big, fat tears from behind those glassy eyes. And the soft plane of his palms dance ravenously down your body - all your curves, your dips where your wedding dress was hiking up. But most importantly at your sopping wet cunt. â-so so- p-perfect- any harder nâ mâgonna make ya a pretty momma right now, right here.â
His words come out a burst - a beg.Â
In that very heady moment heâs just bullying his thick digits past your soaked pussy - absolutely useless with how fucking translucent it was. Sticking to your sopping wet folds like a second skin that he wanted to rip off.Â
âS-so oh!â Sucking in a sharp gasp at the sight of that tiny lace wrapped around his fingers, âSuch a pretty cunt, wearinâ such a dirty lilâ thing, naughty girl- who was this for?â
And you couldnât dare bear to wrench your lips open, to meet that dark glint in Gojoâs gaze. Hooded, such a slow, leering grin growing all over his face when the seconds tumble by. When your softened fingers falter around his length.
âWho was this for?â heâs echoing. âNâ no lying to your h-husband.â
âToru-â
âTell me, my pretty wife.â
âIt was-â youâre mewling out, choking on your tiny confession when he slides his index solidly down the drippingly wet purse of your swollen pussy lips. Puffed-up and sensitive against where he was rubbing that cool metal ring against them. â-w-was for ngh- N-Naoya- but it was Dutchess Zenin that made me-â
Oh, but fuck - it didnât matter who made you wear those sinful panties.Â
Because itâs only taking Gojo Satoru a split-second to crane his hot mouth downwards and bite down on the very hem of your saturated panties. Biting the edge of your skin only slightly - before just tearing the fabric off with his very teeth.Â
He takes a few seconds with his greedy gaze boring into yours, crazed. Canines bared glintingly around that tender lace, he just groans.Â
Eyes rolling to the back of his head before spitting it out - and kissing you like youâve never been kissed before.Â
âH-hngh, Toruââ youâre moaning, your fingers half-cramping up with the way they were turning around his swollen cock. Swiveling around the heated bumps of his sensitive spots, the drag of your nails gently down his veins make him shiver. âFeels so- ah!â
And ah, for how much Gojo loved those saccharine sweet moans in your ear, how much he loved teasing you - he was hungry.Â
Shoveling all the way into your gummy channel, until your puffy pussy lips were kissing his very knuckles, gushing out in spurts of wet slick down his wrist. Twirling those cold digits, so stark against how toasty you were inside.Â
It made Gojoâs thickened tip twitch in your fingers, huffing out a humorless laugh when he was easily knocking against that bulbous bullseye of your g-spot. Pressing down. Hard.Â
âMhmââ heâs purring, nosing down the tender crook of your neck. âTell me how it feels- hngh- gotta tell me- fuck oh fuck donâ squeeze me like that- ah-â
Heâs just wrenching out the most dripping squelches with each rummaging pump into your melty cunt, your walls were just molding around his digits. Sucking him back in like youâre trying to milk out something delicious- fuck, how he wished this was his achy cock right now, instead.
Gojoâs biting down hard at that magical spot on your neck, sending shocks of electricity down your sluttily arched spine. âCanât- hah- canât take it anymore- shit- needa be inside you soon. Needa fill ya up soon.â
And he didnât even have to tell you - you could feel it.Â
Building up and up with every relentless such of his glistening fingers. Glossy.Â
âNeed to make you mine-â heâs gasping, heatedly. Tone cracking on almost a bawl, his hips are fucking into your hand like his little cocksleeve, up all the way from weepy head down to thwack into his pulsing base. Fingers bumping messily into his taut, twitchy balls - making Gojoâs mouth water. âNeed to- hngh- need to make you cum! Please-â
Tears crinkling at the very ends of his doe eyes, after every single crash along your sweet spot. Thorough wet glides. âPlease please please-â
And itâs whispered over and over like a mantra when youâre cumming - again and again, so hard that you didnât even realize youâre reaching your high before your tight pussy clamps around his fingers.Â
âYeah- yeah yeah, cum all over my fingers.â Heâs thrusting his fingers in and out so rabidly, hitting all your forbidden spots. Free hand pushing apart your quivering thighs even further, âSpread wide- heheh, yeahhhââ
Those sudden slurps sounded so thunderous in your ears, and your maw sags open deliriously in a higher-pitched ah! ah! ah! Grinding your hips down over and over in needy swivels, using him. Music to his ears, making his staggering erection just weep so dangerously- but he canât cum.Â
Wonât cum just yet.Â
Not until heâs fucked you through each and every one of your peaks, not until your convulses are tapering out into nothing but tiny tingles.Â
And then heâs dragging out his ruined fingers from your sodden cunt - out, out, out. Snapping delicate strings of the mess heâs made of your poor pussy, before pushing them through his lips rawly.Â
âM-mmm-â heâs rumbling from the very depths of his broad chest, pecs heaving. And through your half-lucid gaze, youâre spying a silvery dribble of drool down the side of his lips. Moaning at the sweet, sweet taste. âShit- shit, sweetheart-â
You canât even react before heâs then spitting a steady stream of wispy saliva down to your sloppy hole, swirling it around with one of his thumbs.Â
âBetter let her know mâcoming back for seconds later.â
You whine all brattily, your hips arching into the perfect buck upwards - which only makes him grin. âHeh- my greedy girl, if I waited one hundred years ya can wait a few seconds.â
Itâs so admonishing - and Gojo has never told a bigger lie.Â
Because heâs the one thatâs so painfully impatient right now, angry cock spewing out a few more velvety waves of precum down your gleaming palm. A low string of profanity rips from his throat, and heâs just diving his hands around every inch of your body he could reach.
Deftly untangling those tedious ties at the back, âDamn these little- forgot how many ribbons I fuckinâ- ordered-â
In split-seconds, youâre being flipped over with one fluid push of Gojoâs biceps, sinking your front into the royally soft mattress. You felt like you were in heaven.
âToruââ youâre whirling your head over your shoulder to admire just how much his biceps flex. Twitching with each eager rip down your bodice. Shaky fingers tightening on the silken sheets, âH-hurry up-â
âEasy there, my love.â
Itâs ragged, breathed hotly against your ear, and suddenly Gojoâs resting every bit of his body weight on top of yours to pin you down helplessly onto the bed. Holding your squirming hips captive onto one rough hand attached to them, âArch jusâ a bite more- please- fuuuck like that yeah-â
Heâs taking the opportunity to fling your wedding dress down easily, bunching it somewhere towards the corner of the bedroom - right alongside your bra and inner layers.Â
Youâre gasping - stunned.Â
âDonât l-look at me like that, Iâve had one hundred hah- years to practice this exact moment with my hand nâ imagination-âÂ
And then Gojoâs gasping, heâs snapping his eyes open, heâs heaving out the most whiny call of your name when you push your hips back in a wet slide against his painfully hard cock.Â
Your folds smacking wetly against his shaft, dragging in a dripping trail along his veins - and shit, Gojo really underestimated how fucking hot youâd feel against his cock. How readily awaiting when his slender hips rut down in a furious push and pull. âThis is long overdue.â
âHey!â you jut your spit-sheen lower lip out when heâs rudely smacking away your hand from the clasp of your locket. âWhaâs that for?â
âKeep it on.â Gojo nips at your earlobe.
And then heâs spitting you open - heâs pushing in.Â
Inch by fucking inch of his swelteringly hot cock being shovelled into your gooey cunt, stretching out your snug walls to their limits. Pulled taut. Barely giving an apologetic kiss to the side of your head before Gojoâs circling one big beefy arm around your hips, easily tilting your entire body upwards for him to surge his hips even deeper.Â
He gasps, he shudders at the faintest of your wet clenches. âCâmon-câmon câmon câmon- a-ah- you can take it please- please take it fâme.âÂ
How could you not?
Because every one of his tiny, shallow grinds just to fit in have your mouth dropping further and further open cockdrunkenly.Â
âPlease-â your hands fist at the plushy pillows, the headboards, craning behind at Gojoâs neck. âFuck me h-harder, Toru- I can-â
âOhhh- you play a hah- dangerous game.â He swipes away the stray hairs on your forehead, kissing at your sweat-slicked forehead. âMy beautiful bride- my beautiful, beautiful bride - ah- almost makes me wanna m-make you more.â
Just that split-second of sultry shock is enough for Gojo to push in fully - all the way until your thighs sting with the sudden thwack! of his hefty, cum-filled balls, your folds kissing up against his thickened base.
Heâs hissing when his achy, rounded tip recoils ever-so-slightly against the spongy mess of your cervix, hitting it relentlessly in harsh jackhammer. Spearheading his fat cock to massage up against all your sensitive spots in a more dizzying way than even his fingers could.Â
âWh-what do you m-mean-â Theyâre falling from your mouth as hastily as Gojo can pump you stuffed full of his cock. Not even easing into it, starting up a sloppy cadence. â-b-byââ
âAwww, donâ hngh- p-push yourself, my loveââ heâs simpering out. But oh his hips were speaking a completely different language from how soothing your husbandâs tone was, one hand curling deftly around your throat to reel you in even harsher in sudden swats against his ever-pushing hips. Twirling around the chain of your locket, âWhat I mean isâŠâ
Both of your half-lidded gazes are downturned to where he feels for that tiny nudge at about halfway down your stomach. Drawing an imaginary line about halfway through, before splaying down all five digits. Hard. â-that mâgonna make ya a pretty momma as well as my pretty wife.â
This little confession is followed by a particularly hard slam! from Gojoâs end, and you dart your hand out to grasp desperately onto the wooden headboard.Â
Crying out, âIs- is that even possible, Toru?â
But the only actual response that Gojo can give - that he thinks himself capable of giving right now, with how mind-numbingly your pretty pussy was milking any rationality out of him - is a breathless chuckle. His head throwing back with a whimper, brows knitting together. âI donât know hah! Havenât got a fuckinâ clue- but that doesnât mean mânot gonna fucking tryââ
And he was fucking you into the mattress just like it, well and fully intent on breeding your tight cunt. Jostling the locket at your chest with rough, reckless abandon. Every sodden drag down your slobbery walls having those dreams from a lifetime ago about your happily every after playing through his mind.
You, with your drooling pussy painted all white with his potent cum, making such a mess of him that he just has to do it all over again, of course.Â
You, all round and glowing - full of him, his heir.Â
You, looking up at him with those gorgeous eyes - another, tinier set held delicately in your hands. His hair, and your smile. Everything that heâs ever wanted in life and death.Â
Stupidly. Pussydrunkenly.Â
âOh oh-â Gojoâs groaning, the sudden bump of your fingers against the sensitive curve of his balls making him jolt back into his reality. His heavenly, heavenly reality. âAww, have I b-been neglecting you, my love?â
No, you want to scream - but you canât.Â
Because heâs only hiking up a powerful thigh to pressurize his harrowing rams with even more power, and you could feel every flex and ripple of his washboard abs. The spatter of pearlescent beads of sweat setting in with fatigue.Â
But Gojo wouldnât listen in the first place, couldnât even think of anything that didnât stem from his achy cock pummeling into you.Â
Messily, heâs swiping at those fingers of yours that were currently reaching for your angrily puffy clit, aching for more more more-Â
Giving a mean little smack onto where your sensitive nub was drenched in all your sweetened juices, it sends bolts of electricity all over your body. Clinging your gummy walls around his girth so tight.Â
âThis what y-you wanted?â he rasps by your ear, drawing slow, determined circles on the very peak of your clit. And when that doesnât have you crying out all prettily for him the way he wanted - Gojo just tugs. Unapologetically. âTell me- ngh- tell me how it feels, fuck- can feel this cunt gettinâ so soaked-â
âYes-â youâre sobbing out. Hips now aching with the burn of pushing back into his unrelenting hips - it hurts almost. The sting of his skin against you, the hard collision of his fat head against your cervix. But you want more. âY-yes feels so good, Toru- need more hngh- need you t-toâŠâ
âWhat?â heâs spitting. Wild. âTell me, sweetheart- please- please-â
And, hell, Gojo Satoru wanted to hear so badly that heâs just slowing his hips down every so slightly to let you catch your breath. To answer.Â
But what he was actually blessed with was another one of your long, drawn-out whines. Grumbling ever-so-slightly as you jolt your hips back with every one of the thorough swivels of his fingers on your clit. Toying.Â
Fucking back harder than ever into his rock-hard dick, the locket just slams itâs cool branding onto the heated skin of your chest-
âNeed you to f-fill me up-â you mutter wetly, nothing more than a few gurgles wrenched out when his clashing head French-kisses your g-spot. Drawing wet glides of his steamy precum down it. â-make me a hngh- m-momma, Toru-â
Oh, this might just be his third death ever.Â
Because the bed creaks riotously with every one of his ragged rams, in a way that made you glad for the ever-present music of this town.Â
Over and over.
âYeah- shit, gonna make you a p-pretty momma-â heâs babbling away, a mile a minute. So sloppy that youâre barely able to understand what Gojo was saying. âFill you- up- ngh- so theyâll look at you and see me. All me- all pretty and r-round- me me me- ohââ
Right now, Gojo didnât give a fuck if his little dream was even possible. He didnât give a fuck if his moans were turning into whimper, staggering thrusts trudging into the sloppiest of grinds. The neediest.Â
Because right now you were cumming.Â
That rapid throb of your clit increasing twofold when youâre finally plummeting into your high, wave after wave of pleasure that he fucks you through with heavy pound after pound.Â
Your eyes are rolling to the back of your head, toes curling, flashes of white flitting behind your firmly shut eyes. Fuck, it felt so good.Â
And your fingers clench hard around where they were still firmly stationed on the headboard to keep at least an ounce of your sanity. Intertwining with- Gojoâs when he slams his hand down hard enough that the entire bed shudders.Â
Or maybe that was just him - because so was he.Â
âF-finally-â Gojoâs hiccuping, angling his head just right to be able to catch your pretty lips in what could barely be considered a kiss. Just a sloppy suck of your tongue while he pumps you snugly full of sloshing loads of his cum. âWanâed this for- so long- finally hngh- consummate- you- most beautiful ah momma-â
His whines were nonsensical at this point, only growing more and more so with each velvety ribbon of cum being poured around into your tight pussy. You could feel it swashing about your soft walls with every one of your hard, convulsing clenches, painting your insides over and over again in a second, sticky skin of his seed.Â
âYeah- fuck fuck fuck, yeah Toru- hah- m-more-â
And just when Gojo thought the almost-painful clenches of his heavy balls were coming to a close, just when he thought his thick streams of voluminous cum were stretching out into thinner wisps - you have to go and say those syrupy sweet words.Â
Fuck.Â
Heâs gasping, locking his finger with yours even harder on the headboard, âGonna- ngh- gonna be the death of me I s-swearââ
Oh, and then you looked at him with that fucked-out smile of yours. A sight heâs gifted to see. Humming, âIn life and in death, r-remember?â
Bang!Â
The headboard crashes down onto the floor. Your back is hitting the now utterly drenched sheet below you before the realization hits you.Â
In nothing but a split-second, Gojo pulls out his dangerously twitching cock to manhandle you flatly onto your back. Swiftly, he throws your legs over the curvaceous deltoids of his sculpted shoulder, easily bending you down, down, down into half.
Into the meanest mating press possible.
Dredges of thick, hot cum just ooze down your sopping slit, spreading in a milky circle underneath you. And slobbering down Gojoâs swollen hilt as soon as he plugs himself back in - immediately.
The very divot at the end of his cock quivering - for only a split-second before bursting out in streams of more and more cum. Overflowing. Overspilling out of you.
And he canât help but glide an open palm over that tiny inflation beginning to form where heâd drawn a line just earlier. One hand pressing down on it hard, the other tweaking at your clit to make your walls clench.Â
âOh f-fuck yeahââ Gojo stutters at the glossy coating of his own seed all around him. Reveling in the toasty feeling again and again until his poor, overworked cock can only sputter out wispy strings of nothing. Shooting blanks. âGonna breed ya- make ya all round and and- ngh full until you c-canât take anymore. Until we hahh- have that happy ending y-you wanted.â
You mewl when heâs licking away those glistening tears rolling down your cheeks, â-happy ending w-we wanted hngh- Toruââ
âYeah-â he chuckles. Pecking at your lips with that salty sweet taste on his tongue, âWe wanted. Itâs why I didnât reincarnate like you, my love, unfinished hngh- business here sâto spend a long, long and happy marriage with you, yâknow?â
You bat your lashes in sweet disbelief, âThatâs- thatâs mine, too.â
Ah, he reels you in even closer into his arms. Snug. Ever-loving. Seemingly like heâd never let you go ever again - couldnât bear to.Â
He nuzzles against that now-open locket, eyes peering down at those bleary paintings of you two, as loving as if they were taken just today. And in the back of his fried mind, he makes a note to take newer photos for later. Fingers tracing their familiar pathway to press down on the outer edges of the metal - in only the way he knew how, in the way that you should have been taught all those years ago, but was never able to.Â
âThen-â His eyes light up as they always did whenever it came to you, when the tiny mechanisms on the locket open up to reveal a delicate, gorgeous ring. Strangely matching his own. Gojo doesnât think heâs done anything easier in his life when he slides that ring onto your finger, fitting so perfectly. Not even when he was waiting for you, not even when heâd taken care of Naoya in a way that left his coat spattered and stained with red. â-weâre both lucky.â
Itâs only after a few soft, lingering kisses that Gojo finally pulls away - like it hurt to.
And it did, sensitive shockwaves erupting down his overwhelmed length. But none of that shows above his drunken grin when Gojoâs shuffling down the bed, all the way until his hot breath was puffing up feverishly against your sloppy cunt.Â
Messy. Drooling.
Making such an utter mess on his tongue when he lets it loll out, swiping up the gushing creamy dredges with a long lick. It was so filthy, dribbling down the sides of his mouth, onto his pinkish tongue-
Just a tease for more.Â
âBecause I keep my promises, my wife.â his murmur wraps all around your thrumming clit. Tongue swirling a milky gloss all over his pert, raw lips. Only wanting more. Waiting. âIn life and in death.â
A/N. THIS- THIS WAS SO FUN TO WRITE Nâ GOT ME IN MY FEELSSSS. Hope yâall have a lovely lovely week <3
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And then I woke up đ Gege why.
THIS IS HOMEÂ â gojo satoru x (female) reader
summary: what happens when the strongest sorcerer in the world stumbles into the life of an ordinary kindergarten teacher? your worlds couldnât be more different â he fights curses and saves the world, while you teach children the value of kindness and glue glitter on construction paper. yet, when gojo satoru meets you, the lines blur. your mundane becomes his extraordinary, and his chaos becomes your comfort. through stolen moments, shared laughter, and the quiet intimacy of unspoken words, you show him what it means to have a home. but with his world full of danger and yours full of hope, can he balance being the strongest and being yours? or will his infinity prove too vast for love to bridge?
content warnings: canon adjacent (gojo lives), mentions of other characters (megumi, nobara, yuuji, nanami), implied smut (no detailed description), fluff (strangers to friends to lovers), angst with comfort (happy ending).
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gojo stood at a distance, the cool breeze carrying the faint smell of flowers to him. you sat there, oblivious to his piercing gaze, a bundle of wildflowers resting in your lap. your head tilted slightly as if listening to a melody only you could hear. it wasnât fair, he thought. you werenât special â not in the way he was. no six eyes, no inherited techniques, no impossible expectations. and yet, the peace that radiated from you gnawed at him like an itch he couldnât scratch.
he walked closer, his footsteps deliberately loud against the gravel path. you finally looked up, your expression curious but unbothered. he hated that. no flicker of awe or fear, no spark of recognition. to you, he was just another person in the park.
âwho gave you those?â he gestured to the flowers with a half-smirk, though his tone betrayed the irritation bubbling underneath.
you blinked, confused for a moment, before smiling again. âno one. i picked them myself. theyâre pretty, arenât they?â
pretty? gojoâs jaw tightened. pretty was easy. peace wasnât. âyou really just sit here⊠picking flowers? nothing better to do?â
âisnât that enough?â your response was light, genuine, and it struck him like a sucker punch. âwhat about you? what are you doing here?â
his first instinct was to scoff, maybe deflect with a joke, but your question caught him off guard. what was he doing here? stalking a stranger because their contentment was offensive? ridiculous.
âjust passing by,â he lied, sliding his hands into his pockets. his shoulders stayed stiff, though, his posture giving him away.
âhm,â you hummed, glancing back down at the flowers. âitâs nice to slow down sometimes. you should try it.â
his laugh was sharp, incredulous. âslow down? you donât know who youâre talking to, do you?â
ânope.â you didnât look up this time. âbut does it matter?â
he opened his mouth to argue, but the words didnât come. did it matter? your quiet, effortless peace felt heavier now, as if it was mocking the chaos that had always been his constant companion.
âyouâre weird, you know that?â he muttered, more to himself than you.
âmaybe.â you plucked a petal from one of the flowers, letting it drift to the ground. âor maybe youâre just wound up too tight.â
gojo stared, stunned into silence for a beat. wound up? him? but then he caught the faintest curve of a smirk on your lips, and something in him shifted.
he wanted to argue, to push back, but instead, he sat down on the bench next to you. not close enough to touch, but close enough to feel the calm you carried. he didnât know why he stayed. maybe he just wanted to see if it was contagious.
gojo leaned back on the bench, stretching his arms out across the backrest like he was lounging, but his fingers tapped an uneven rhythm against the wood. silence stretched between you, broken only by the occasional chatter of passersby and the rustle of leaves in the wind. you didnât seem to mind, but for someone like him â always loud, always in motion â it felt unnatural.
âsooo,â he started, the word hanging awkwardly in the air as he turned his head toward you. âwhatâs your name?â
you looked up from your flowers, giving him that same gentle smile that had been bothering him since he saw you. âitâs y/n. and you?â
he blinked, almost laughing at the sheer absurdity of the question. âyou donât know who i am?â
you shook your head. âshould i?â
he couldnât help the grin that tugged at his lips. ânah, itâs refreshing, actually. iâm gojo. gojo satoru.â
ânice to meet you, gojo,â you said, your voice light, unassuming. he hated how that seemed to settle something in him and irritate him at the same time.
âso, whatâs your deal? sitting in parks, picking flowers. you donât have work or something?â he asked, trying for nonchalance but ending up sounding more curious than he intended.
âi do. iâm a kindergarten teacher,â you replied simply, brushing a speck of dirt off your jeans.
he stared at you, processing the words. âkindergarten teacher? like, singing songs and finger painting?â
you chuckled softly. âthatâs part of it. but itâs more than that. i teach them how to be kind, how to work together, how to think about the world.â
gojo squinted at you like youâd just spoken a foreign language. âsounds heavy for kids.â
âtheyâre smarter than you think,â you replied. âbesides, itâs not just about the now. itâs about who they grow into. if they can grow up and make the world a little better, isnât that worth it?â
he was quiet for a moment, uncharacteristically so. the words hung in the air, tugging at something buried deep. âso, what? youâre building a better society, one crayon drawing at a time?â
âsomething like that,â you said, laughing softly. âwhat about you? whatâs your job?â
his grin faltered, just for a second, before he plastered it back on. âoh, you know. wrestling monsters, saving the world, usual stuff.â
your brow furrowed slightly. âyouâre joking, right?â
he shrugged. âmaybe. maybe not.â
you didnât press, and the silence returned, stretching longer this time. his gaze flickered to the wildflowers in your lap, then back to your face. something about you felt... too good. too genuine. it wasnât fake, he could tell.Â
but it reminded him of suguru, of the way suguru used to talk about saving people. about a society worth fighting for. except your version didnât have the edge suguruâs did. it was softer. hopeful.Â
and that made it worse.
âwhy do you do it?â he asked suddenly, his voice quieter than usual. âteaching, i mean. itâs not exactly glamorous.â
you tilted your head, considering the question. âbecause someone has to. because if i donât, who will? itâs a small thing, maybe, but small things add up.â
he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, his hair falling into his eyes. âyou ever feel like itâs not enough?â
âsometimes,â you admitted. âbut itâs enough for me to keep trying.â
his chest tightened, the ache sharp and unfamiliar. âyou make it sound so simple.â
âitâs not. but that doesnât mean itâs not worth it.â your voice was steady, calm, and he hated how much he wanted to believe you.
âyouâre weird,â he muttered, rubbing the back of his neck. âbut i guess... not bad weird.â
âthanks, i think?â you teased, and for the first time, he felt the corners of his own mouth lift in something more genuine than his usual smirk.
he didnât know why he stayed, why he kept talking. but maybe it was because, for the first time in a long time, someone wasnât asking him to be the strongest.
"so... whatâs with the hair?" you asked, breaking the rhythm of his restless tapping. the question was so unexpected it took him a second to process. he turned to you, blinking as if youâd just asked him to solve a riddle.
"the hair?" he repeated, stalling. "oh, uh, itâs â"
his fingers ghosted through the white strands, suddenly hyper-aware of how ridiculous he must look. "genetics? or maybe fashion? i dunno, itâs just cool, right?"
your laugh broke through, soft and genuine, completely devoid of malice. it hit him square in the chest. he didnât hate it â quite the opposite, actually. it was... grounding, somehow, like the kind of laugh that could keep a person tethered.
"cool, huh?" you said, teasing but not unkind. "i think it suits you."
his lips quirked into a grin, but it didnât feel like the usual cocky mask he wore. it felt... lighter. easier. "you think? glad to know iâve got your approval."
"youâre weird," you said, echoing his earlier words. "but not bad weird."
he tilted his head at you, watching the way you absentmindedly twirled one of the flowers between your fingers. something about the way you sat there, so unassuming yet so unshakably present, made him feel... aware. it was a strange, unwelcome sensation. for someone who lived above the noise of the world â untouchable, unshaken â you had this way of pulling him down, grounding him in a way he wasnât sure he liked. or maybe he liked it too much.
for the first time in a long time, he let go.Â
his infinity dropped, the invisible barrier dissolving as he allowed himself to feel everything around him â the breeze, the hum of distant chatter, the warmth of your presence beside him. it was addicting in a way he couldnât quite describe, like a drug he hadnât known he needed.
but that was the problem, wasnât it? feeling was dangerous. hope was dangerous. and you â you â were dangerous, because you made him feel like maybe, just maybe, there was something more to life than being the strongest.
he stood abruptly, the movement jerky and uncharacteristic. his usual swagger was replaced with something sharper, something almost panicked.
"yâknow," he started, his voice forced and breezy, "this has been... fun. but iâve got things to do. big, important, save-the-world typa things."
you blinked up at him, the confusion clear in your eyes. "oh. okay...?"
"yeah, so... catch you around, maybe," he said, already stepping away. he didnât look back, couldnât look back. the weight in his chest was too much, too unfamiliar, and it terrified him.
because the strongest didnât get to have hope. not when hope was something he couldnât protect, couldnât control. and not when it came in the form of someone like you â someone who made him want to forget the weight of the world, even if just for a moment.
âËđđËâ
gojo hated how he left that day, hated the hollowness of his own words and the way he practically ran from something he couldnât define. it wasnât like him to second-guess, to let regret sink its teeth into him. but every time he thought about you, about the way your smile had disarmed him so completely, the ache in his chest deepened.
he couldâve found you easily â he was gojo satoru, after all. it wasnât hard to find anyone when you could bend the world to your will. but he hesitated. what if you didnât want to see him? what if heâd already messed things up beyond repair? what if he couldnât be the person you deserved to see?
but fate â or sheer dumb luck â seemed to have its own plans, because there you were, standing at the counter of a tiny mochi shop. you didnât notice him at first, too preoccupied with carefully picking out assorted treats. the sight stopped him in his tracks. your expression was focused, thoughtful, as if each choice carried some deep significance.
he slipped inside, keeping his distance for a moment, his usual swagger subdued. he watched as you smiled at the cashier, explaining something about ârewards for the young ones.â
rewards. he couldnât remember the last time heâd even thought about the word, let alone experienced it. life for him had always been a cycle of expectations and victories that didnât feel like victories. but watching you â so earnest, so genuine â made it seem... not silly, but beautiful.
before he could stop himself, he was standing beside you. âyou know, kidsâll take advantage of that. youâre spoiling them,â he teased, his tone light, masking the swirl of emotions underneath.
you jumped slightly, turning to him with wide eyes before recognition dawned. âoh. gojo, right?â
he grinned, a flash of his usual bravado returning. âyou remembered. iâm flattered.â
âhard to forget someone so... distinct,â you said, glancing pointedly at his hair, though your tone carried no malice.
he leaned against the counter, his sunglasses slipping down his nose just enough for you to catch a glimpse of those piercing eyes. âso, mochi for the kids, huh? whatâs the occasion?â
âitâs just a little reward system,â you explained, holding up the neatly packed treats. âthey get one if theyâre kind, or if they help each other out. it encourages good behavior.â
he tilted his head, studying you with an intensity that made you fidget slightly. ârewards for being decent humans, huh? seems... unnecessary.â
âmaybe for you,â you said, your smile soft but firm. âbut for them, itâs something to look forward to. a reminder that their efforts matter.â
his chest tightened, the ache returning. he wanted to protect that â your simplicity, your hope, your belief in something as small yet monumental as a childâs smile over a piece of mochi. it felt fragile, something that could shatter if exposed to the horrors he knew too well.
âyouâre too good for this world, you know that?â he said, his voice quieter, almost reverent.
you blinked at him, caught off guard. âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â
he straightened, his grin resurfacing, though it didnât quite reach his eyes. ânothing. just an observation. anyway, need help carrying those? iâm great at heavy lifting.â
you laughed softly, and the sound eased some of the weight in his chest. he didnât know what he was doing, didnât know if this was a mistake. but for now, just for a moment, he let himself stay. maybe you didnât need to know the horrors of the world. maybe, just maybe, he could carry them for you.
you couldnât help it â your curiosity about this strange man was like an itch you couldnât scratch. the white hair, the cocky grin, the way he carried himself like he owned every space he walked into. and those glasses â always perched on his nose, hiding whatever it was that lay beneath. it felt like he was holding onto secrets, ones you werenât sure you had the right to know but couldnât stop wondering about.
so you asked, your voice steady but tinged with that teacher-like firmness that came naturally to you. âwhy do you always wear those glasses? what are you hiding?â
he raised a brow at you, clearly amused, his grin widening as if he found your attempt at seriousness endearing. âyou always this nosy, or am i just special?â
you crossed your arms, standing your ground. âitâs not nosy. itâs called being curious. youâre... intriguing, gojo satoru.â
his laugh was soft but laced with something you couldnât quite place. âintriguing, huh? thatâs a fancy way of saying i confuse you.â
âmaybe,â you admitted, tilting your head. âso? are you going to answer, or are you just going to keep deflecting?â
for a moment, he didnât respond. instead, he reached up, sliding his glasses down just enough to let you see his eyes. the sight made your breath hitch. they werenât just blue â they were unreal. vibrant, crystalline, like the universe had condensed itself into those irises. stars and galaxies swirled within them, a beauty so overwhelming it made your chest tighten.
âhappy now?â he teased, though his voice had softened, almost like he knew the effect theyâd have on you.
you tried to respond, but the words wouldnât come. your usual quick-witted honesty faltered in the face of something so... otherworldly. instead, you found yourself simply staring, lost in the depth of those eyes.
he smirked, clearly pleased with himself, but there was something gentler in the way he pushed his glasses back up. âdonât stare too long. might fall for me.â
that snapped you out of it, and you felt heat rise to your cheeks. âi... wasnât staring.â
âsure you werenât,â he said, his grin downright insufferable. but there was something about the way he said it that didnât feel mocking. it felt... playful, almost inviting.
you cleared your throat, suddenly hyper-aware of how close he was standing. âyouâre... something else, you know that?â
âi get that a lot,â he said, his tone breezy, but the way he looked at you â really looked at you, even through the tinted lenses â made you feel like he was seeing more than he let on.
you wanted to say something, to put into words the way he made everything feel... bigger. deeper. like there was more to life than the simple acts of teaching or shopping for mochi. but for the first time, you found yourself at a loss. instead, you just smiled, small and genuine, and he returned it with one of his own.
âyouâre something else too,â he said, almost quietly, before turning back to the counter to pay for your mochi.
gojo didnât need to do it. really, when had he ever gone out of his way to do something this mundane? carrying a bag of mochi for someone heâd only met twice wasnât exactly in his job description, but with you, it felt natural. unforced. like his hand had moved to grab the bag before his brain even caught up.
âyou know, iâm pretty sure i can handle a bag of mochi,â you teased as the two of you strolled down the quiet streets.
âsure you can,â he said with a grin, effortlessly balancing the bag on one hand like it weighed nothing. âbut why would i miss an opportunity to show off my incredible strength?â
you rolled your eyes but didnât argue, which was a win in his book. as much as he played it cool, he couldnât deny the weird sense of rightness he felt walking beside you. it was like everything had slowed down. the world wasnât a blur of missions and curses and expectations â it was just this. you, him, and the sound of your footsteps on the pavement.
if he wanted to, he couldâve used his powers to zip you both to your destination in a blink. no fuss, no time wasted. but for once, he didnât want to. instead, he found himself watching. truly observing. the way your hair caught the light, the way you tilted your head when you spoke, the way you laughed at his ridiculous quips. it was all so human. so simple.
his infinity buzzed in the back of his mind, an ever-present hum, a barrier between himself and the world. he could feel it tensing, almost instinctively growing stronger the closer he got to you. but then he looked at you, really looked, and something in him softened.
it was the smallest of decisions, the slightest shift, but it felt monumental. he let his infinity drop. just like that. no shields, no barriers. nothing between him and the world â or you.
the difference was immediate. he felt the weight of the mochi bag in his hand, the faint breeze brushing past his skin. but more than that, he felt you â your presence beside him, warm and grounding in a way he hadnât realized he craved.
âyouâre quiet,â you said, glancing up at him with a curious smile. âthatâs a first.â
âjust enjoying the walk,â he replied, his tone casual, but there was a softness there you werenât used to.
you didnât press, but your smile lingered, and he felt that strange ache in his chest again. he wasnât sure what it meant, wasnât sure he wanted to figure it out. all he knew was that for the second time in a long time, he let himself just be.
and as the two of you walked, side by side, he wondered if maybe â just maybe â he could get used to this.
âËđđËâ
gojo felt it before he understood it â a pull, a quiet, steady hum in his soul that only existed when you were near. it wasnât like his usual awareness of the world, the sharp, overwhelming clarity his six eyes granted him. this was softer, almost... intimate. he could feel you. not just your presence, but you. every fiber of your being seemed to resonate with something deep inside him, something he hadnât even realized was there.
it startled him at first, the intensity of it. but as the two of you reached your doorstep and he handed you the bag of mochi, the sensation only grew stronger. he tried to mask it, tried to act like nothing was out of the ordinary, but his fingers brushed yours as you took the bag, and for a split second, everything else blurred away.
âthanks,â you said, your voice warm and sincere. âyou really didnât have to, though.â
he shrugged, his trademark grin flickering to life, though it didnât quite reach his eyes. âwhat can i say? iâm a gentleman. sometimes.â
you laughed softly, and he felt the bubble form around him again. your infinity, he decided, was nothing like his own. where his was cold and untouchable, yours was warm, welcoming. being here, in this little space that seemed to exist only when he was with you, made him feel okay. better than he had in a long, long time.
and that scared him.
he lingered, his hand still halfway outstretched, his gaze dropping to the ground before flickering back to you. you were looking up at him, your expression open, curious. trusting. the ache in his chest tightened, and that traitorous voice in the back of his head whispered what he already knew: run.
run before he let this feeling take root, before he let himself believe in the impossible. run before he lost you too, because thatâs what always happened, wasnât it? everyone he cared about, everyone he dared to keep close â they always slipped through his fingers, no matter how tightly he tried to hold on.
but he didnât move. couldnât. instead, he let the silence stretch between you, the weight of it pressing against his ribs. his infinity stayed down, and for once, he didnât feel the need to raise it.
âgojo?â your voice was soft, grounding.
he blinked, realizing heâd been staring, his thoughts spiraling. he straightened, forcing a smirk onto his face. âdonât worry, youâre safe. i donât bite.â
you rolled your eyes but smiled anyway, and he felt a flicker of something that mightâve been hope. âgoodnight, gojo.â
âgoodnight,â he replied, his voice quieter than usual, almost hesitant.
he turned to leave but paused, glancing back over his shoulder. you were still standing there, framed by the soft light spilling from your doorway. and for a moment, he let himself imagine it â what it would be like to stay, to keep this little bubble intact.
but the ache in his chest won, and with a flicker of movement, he was gone.
âËđđËâ
youâd learned so much about gojo, almost without realizing it. the way he scrunched his nose when something didnât go his way, like a child pouting over a toy they couldnât have. how his limbs seemed to stretch endlessly as he leaned too close, casually draping himself over you, his frame practically engulfing yours. he had a knack for making himself impossible to ignore.
he had opinions on everything, even your studentsâ mochi. heâd list brands like a connoisseur, casually tossing the pricier ones into your basket without a second thought. âtrust me,â heâd say, winking like it was some grand secret. âtheyâll love these. and if they donât, more for you.â and no matter how much you protested about the cost, heâd already have it paid for by the time you could reach for your wallet.
then there were the smaller things, the subtle moments where his mask slipped. like how his face would light up when you told him his hair looked good â a rare compliment you didnât realize meant so much to him. or the way his grin stretched impossibly wider when you laughed a little harder at one of his bad jokes. you could tell he reveled in those moments, the quiet victories where he knew he made you happy.
you werenât sure when this companionship had started to feel so natural. it wasnât something you had planned, and you doubted gojo had either. but here you were, falling into a rhythm that felt almost effortless. he didnât tell you much about his work, and you didnât press him. you figured heâd share when he was ready. for now, you let him narrate his "work stories," spinning them into absurd, whimsical tales that sounded eerily similar to the stories you read to your students.
âand then,â heâd say, leaning in like he was sharing a forbidden secret, âthe curse â uh, giant monster â came charging at me, but of course, being the strongest, i took it down with one hand. no big deal.â
âdid it sparkle too?â you teased, your lips twitching into a smile.
âobviously. whatâs a fight without a little flair?â he shot back, waving his hand dramatically.
there was something comforting in these moments, even as you felt a soft ache beneath it all. a yearning you couldnât quite name. despite the physical closeness, the warmth of his arm brushing yours, or the way his laugh made your heart skip, it still didnât feel like enough. not entirely.
but maybe, in a way, it was enough. enough to bask in the quiet companionship of a man who made the mundane feel extraordinary. enough to learn the little things that made him who he was â the scrunch of his nose, the glint in his eyes when you laughed, the way he seemed to carry the weight of the world but still managed to make you feel like you were the only thing that mattered in his orbit.
and maybe, for now, that was more than enough.
gojo noticed more about you now, things he never thought heâd pay attention to. maybe it was because his infinity â once a constant, unyielding barrier â seemed to lower itself without hesitation when he was around you. the absence of that space, that cushion between himself and the world, made everything about you sharper. clearer.
he noticed how your fingers always seemed to find something to twiddle with â a pen, the edge of your sleeve, a stray piece of packaging â whenever you were deep in thought. how your brow furrowed just slightly when you were concentrating, like when you meticulously read the back of mochi packets to ensure they were both delicious and nutritious for your students. he teased you for it, of course, calling you "overly diligent" with a grin, but deep down, he admired the care you put into something so seemingly small.
âtheyâre kids,â you said once, shrugging off his teasing. âthey deserve the best. even if itâs just mochi.â
your earnestness struck something in him. he had a job too, didnât he? teaching his students, protecting them, being the strongest. but where his job was laced with chaos and danger, yours was rooted in nurture and growth. and yet, both were born of the same drive: to give others a chance at something better. it was a thought that made his chest ache in a way he couldnât explain.
he liked the little quirks about you, the way you were always well-versed in the topics you cared about, the way your eyes lit up when you talked about your students or a book you were reading. and the flowers â he couldnât ignore the flowers. you always seemed to have a fresh bunch in hand, casually mentioning how the ones at home had dried out.
heâd thought about buying you flowers more than once. even wandered into a shop once, lingering by the displays, trying to figure out what kind you might like. but every time, he hesitated. would it be too much? too forward? instead, he settled for something subtler, paying for your mochi without a word. if he could ease your expenses, maybe youâd buy those pricier flowers you always admired or treat yourself to more of them. it was his quiet way of showing care, a balance between his usual over-the-top nature and the unfamiliar vulnerability you seemed to draw out of him.
still, the struggle lingered. satoru gojo wasnât just a man â he was the strongest. the one who stood above it all, untouchable, invincible. but with you, he wasnât sure how to reconcile the two parts of himself. being the strongest meant being distant, detached, untouchable. but with you, he wanted to be close. too close.
and that terrified him.
because the strongest didnât get to have these feelings. didnât get to care like this. didnât get to wonder if you noticed the way his hand lingered a second too long when he passed you the mochi or if you ever thought about him the way he thought about you.
he told himself it was fine to stay on the sidelines, to let his actions speak quietly where his words couldnât. but deep down, he knew the truth: if you ever asked â if you ever let him â heâd do anything for you. absolutely anything.
and that, he thought, was the most dangerous thing of all.
âËđđËâ
gojo hadnât stopped moving since he was freed. his mind buzzed, chaotic and desperate, with only one thought anchoring him: find you. heâd missed everything â halloween, thanksgiving, christmas, new years. each one marked by a hollow ache where memories with you couldâve been.
had you dressed up for halloween with your students? maybe a witch, or something playful and sweet, like the flowers you always carried. had you cooked for thanksgiving, your kitchen warm and full of light? who had been there with you? had you stood under any mistletoe in december, someone else beside you?
did you miss me? the thought burned in his chest, heavy and suffocating.
he searched, scanning streets and places he thought you might be. he didnât need his six eyes for this â heâd memorized the contours of your presence long before. still, the days stretched on, uncertainty pressing against him until, finally, he saw you.
you were standing on the corner of a quiet street, a familiar bouquet of wildflowers cradled in your arm and a bag of mochi in hand. not just any mochi â his favorite brand. his heart stopped, the world narrowing until it was just you.
youâd changed, only slightly, but enough for him to notice. your hair was a little longer, and there was a faint new laugh line near your mouth, etched from months he hadnât been there to see. but it wasnât the details that struck him most â it was the way you looked at him.
like youâd been waiting for him.
you didnât say anything at first, your eyes wide and brimming with unshed tears. the flowers trembled slightly in your grip, and his chest twisted at the sight.
âgojo?â your voice cracked, soft and unsure, like you werenât entirely certain he was real.
he stepped closer, his hands twitching at his sides, desperate to reach out but holding back. âitâs me,â he said, his voice low, as though anything louder might shatter this fragile moment.
a tear slipped down your cheek, and you blinked it away quickly, your free hand coming up to brush it off. âwhere... whereâd you go?â
his throat tightened, guilt crashing over him. he couldnât tell you everything â not yet, maybe not ever. the weight of what heâd endured wasnât something he wanted to place on your shoulders. but he owed you something.
âi was... trapped,â he admitted, his voice quieter than youâd ever heard it. âcouldnât get out. couldnât come back to you.â
your brow furrowed, confusion and pain flickering across your face. âbut we werenât even... i mean, weâre not...â
âfriends?â he interrupted, his lips curving into a bittersweet smile. âyou think that matters?â
he took another step forward, and this time, he let his hand rise, brushing against the petals of the wildflowers you held. âyou were there,â he said, his voice unsteady, âin my mind, the whole time. every minute. i kept thinking about you â what youâd be doing, if you were okay.â
your eyes searched his face, as though trying to piece together the truth in his words. âi thought... maybe you didnât want to see me again,â you murmured.
he laughed, short and raw, shaking his head. âdonât you get it? iâm here because i couldnât stay away.â
the flowers fell to your side as you stepped closer, close enough for him to feel the warmth of your presence. âthen donât leave again,â you whispered, the tear-streak on your cheek catching the light.
his heart clenched, and for once, he didnât try to keep the emotion from showing. âi wonât,â he promised, his voice firm, resolute. ânot if youâll have me.â
and for the first time in months, the ache in his chest eased as you nodded, a soft, trembling smile spreading across your face. you reached out, your hand brushing against his arm, and he thought he might crumble at the simple, human touch heâd missed so much.
he wouldnât leave. not again.
satoru didnât mean to pull you into a hug so suddenly, but when he did, it was like his body moved on instinct, a quiet surrender to everything heâd been holding back. his arms wrapped around you tightly, almost desperately, infinity be damned, infinity down.
he sank into you, his tall frame curling slightly, his chin brushing the top of your head. it wasnât graceful, it wasnât perfect, but it was everything. he could feel the tension in your body, the hesitation in the way you stiffened for a moment before melting against him, your arms finding their way around his neck like it was something youâd done a thousand times before.
the world blurred. he wasnât sure if it was because of the lump rising in his throat or the stinging in his eyes, but nothing else existed. no curses, no students, no responsibilities. just you.
he felt the mochi bag in your hand crumple against his side as you tightened your hold, your grip faltering slightly with the weight of emotions neither of you could name yet. the wildflowers in your other hand brushed against the side of his neck, their delicate petals tickling his skin and tangling with the undercut of his hair.
âyouâre crushing my flowers,â you mumbled, your voice soft, breaking on the edges as if you were holding back tears.
he laughed, the sound shaky and raw, his chest vibrating against yours. âtheyâll survive,â he murmured, his voice thick, as though the words themselves were too much to get out. âtheyâre tougher than they look... like you.â
your head tucked against his neck, and he could feel your breath hitch, could feel the way you pressed your face into him as if trying to stifle the emotion threatening to spill over. his own vision blurred further, his grip tightening just a little more, grounding himself in the weight and warmth of you.
âwhere did you go?â you whispered again, your voice trembling, the vulnerability of the question cutting through him like a blade.
he rested his chin on your head, his lips brushing against your hair as he spoke. âi never wanted to leave. i swear, if i couldâve ââ his voice cracked, and he stopped, exhaling shakily.
you didnât let go. not when his words hung in the air, not when you could feel him holding himself back, trying not to fall apart. instead, you clung to him tighter, your own tears soaking into his uniform as you whispered, âdonât leave again.â
ânever,â he said, the word firm but barely audible, almost like a prayer.
and in that moment, as he buried his face in your shoulder, he realized something he hadnât let himself admit before: this was home. not the park, not the mochi shop, not even his students or the place he called his own. you. you were home.
he let himself feel it all â the weight of your arms around him, the warmth of your presence, the quiet sob you muffled against his chest, and the tears that finally spilled down his own cheeks.
passersby mightâve found it strange, a tall man clinging to someone smaller, crumpling under an emotion heâd kept locked away for so long. but satoru didnât care. he never did.
all that mattered was you. your concept of infinity â this impossibly warm, unshakable presence â was better than anything his power could ever give him. and he didnât want to escape it. not now, not ever.
âËđđËâ
it happened so naturally, so quietly, that satoru almost didnât catch it. the two of you were walking side by side, your hands brushing with every step. the space between you felt impossibly small, like the universe was trying to push you closer together.
and then you said it.
âsatoru.â
his name, soft and unguarded, slipped from your lips like it belonged there. it wasnât âgojo,â not the title that the rest of the world threw at him with reverence or fear. no, this was something different â something yours.
his heart stopped, the syllables echoing in his chest before exploding outward in a rush of warmth he didnât know how to contain. heâd thought a lot about your voice while he was gone, imagined what it would sound like if youâd called out for him, missed him. but this? this was better than anything he couldâve dreamed.
he dared a glance at you, his breath catching at the soft, unassuming smile on your face. you werenât even aware of the tidal wave youâd just unleashed inside him, werenât aware of the way his heart was racing or how his palms suddenly felt clammy.
say it again, he wanted to beg, his chest tight with longing. just once more.
but he didnât ask. instead, he reached out, his hand brushing yours one more time before he took it, threading his fingers between yours.
you didnât pull away.
his heart soared, and his grip tightened slightly, like he was afraid youâd change your mind. he tugged you closer, so close that your shoulders bumped, your warmth seeping into him.
âyou said my name,â he murmured, his voice low and unsteady, as if the weight of the moment was too much for even him to carry.
you glanced up at him, your brow furrowing slightly in confusion. âis that... bad?â
he let out a breathy laugh, one hand coming up to rub the back of his neck as he looked down at you. âno,â he said softly, his voice breaking on the word. âitâs perfect.â
your lips parted, but no words came out. instead, you let your gaze fall to where his hand held yours, and a faint blush crept up your cheeks.
âyou donât let just anyone call you that, do you?â you teased gently, your voice light, but there was a hint of something deeper â curiosity, hope â lingering beneath it.
âno,â he admitted, his thumb brushing over the back of your hand. âi donât. but...â he hesitated, his throat tightening. âi think... i want you to.â
the silence that followed wasnât uncomfortable; it was heavy with unspoken truths, with the electricity crackling between the two of you.
and then you smiled, that soft, heart-stopping smile that heâd missed so desperately. âokay, satoru.â
he exhaled, a shaky laugh escaping him as he pulled you even closer, his side pressing against yours. the tension in his chest melted away, replaced with something impossibly warm.
in that moment, he knew heâd won. not in the way he usually won â with power or strength â but in a way that felt so much more important. and from the way you looked up at him, your eyes bright and full of something he couldnât name, he knew you felt it too.
your hesitation lasted only a moment before you unlocked the door and gestured for him to come inside. âitâs not much,â you murmured as you stepped in, your voice tinged with a shyness satoru wasnât used to hearing from you. âbut itâs home.â
he followed you inside, his sharp blue eyes scanning the space with a quiet curiosity. it was lived-in and warm, filled with small touches that screamed you. worksheets were strewn about the table, scissors and craft supplies scattered on the couch, and a faint scent of flowers lingered in the air.
âcozy,â he commented, a small smile tugging at his lips as his gaze landed on a roll of wrapping paper. âyouâve got quite the setup here.â
âdonât judge,â you teased, laughing softly as you bent down to kick off your shoes and hang your jacket on the nearby rack. âitâs been a busy week.â
but satoru wasnât paying attention to your excuses. he was too focused on how easily you moved around the space, how natural it felt to see you here.
when you moved to connect your speaker, soft music began playing â some quiet, soothing tune that matched the warmth of the space. you glanced back at him with an almost sheepish grin. âsorry, habit. i always put music on when i get home.â
âdonât apologize,â he said, stepping closer to you. âi like it. it suits you.â
your laughter was light, but it faded quickly when his arms wrapped around your waist from behind, pulling you into his chest.
âsatoru ââ
âjust let me,â he murmured, resting his chin on your shoulder. his voice was softer than youâd ever heard it, almost pleading.
you didnât fight him. instead, you leaned into his embrace, your hands instinctively covering his as you closed your eyes.
âyou smell like flowers,â he said, nuzzling into the crook of your neck. âsame as the ones you had when i first met you.â
âand you smell like trouble,â you quipped, earning a breathy laugh from him.
âoh, i am,â he said, his tone playful. âbut you donât seem to mind.â
you were about to reply when he suddenly lifted you off the ground, spinning you around with an ease that had you laughing uncontrollably. âsatoru!â
he grinned, his laughter mixing with yours as he carried you over to the couch and gently laid you down, his frame hovering above yours.
âyouâre ridiculous,â you managed between giggles, but your voice softened when his blindfold slipped slightly, revealing a glimpse of his eyes.
his expression changed then â more vulnerable, less playful â as he leaned closer, his gaze locked on yours. âdo you want to take it off?â he asked quietly, almost like he was afraid of the answer.
your fingers trembled as they reached up, grazing the edge of the fabric. âare you sure?â
âi wouldnât ask if i wasnât,â he replied, his voice steady despite the rapid beat of his heart.
slowly, you pulled the blindfold down, and there they were â his eyes, impossibly blue and filled with a depth you couldnât put into words.
you felt your breath hitch as you stared into them, your hand unconsciously brushing against his cheek. âsatoru...â
he leaned into your touch, his eyes fluttering shut for a brief moment. âi missed this,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âmissed you.â
your hand slid down to rest against his chest, feeling the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. âiâm here now,â you said softly, your voice laced with emotion. âand so are you.â
he smiled then, that boyish grin that made your chest tighten. âyea,â he murmured, leaning down until his forehead pressed against yours. âthis... this feels like home.â
you nodded, your voice too caught in your throat to reply. and as his lips brushed against your temple, you couldnât help but think the same thing.
this was home.
your hands cradled his face like he was something fragile, something precious. and maybe he was, in this moment. as your thumbs traced the high planes of his cheekbones, satoru couldnât stop looking at you â your face, your eyes, your lips, everything that made him feel so uncharacteristically human.
âdonât look away,â you murmured, your voice soft but commanding. âkeep your eyes on me.â
his lips quirked into a crooked grin, but the intensity in his gaze didnât waver. âwasnât planning to.â
you laughed lightly, a sound he swore heâd never get tired of, and leaned in closer, your breaths mingling as you closed the distance. when your lips finally met his, it felt like everything in the world stopped.
you smiled into the kiss, a small, involuntary curve of your lips that made his chest ache in ways he couldnât explain. but that smile quickly turned into a soft squeal when his hands gripped your hips, fingers pressing into the fabric of your clothes as he pulled you impossibly closer.
âsatoru!â you gasped, breaking the kiss for a brief moment.
âwhat?â he asked innocently, his grin widening. âdidnât think youâd be this ticklish.â
âiâm not!â you shot back, laughing despite yourself.
âmm, sure,â he teased, but the playfulness in his voice was underscored by something deeper, something more tender.
before you could respond, he shifted effortlessly, his hands sliding to the backs of your thighs as he lifted you with an ease that still managed to surprise you.
âyou canât just ââ
âyes, i can,â he interrupted, already seating himself on the sofa with you perched on his lap.
you instinctively wrapped your legs around his torso, settling against him like it was the most natural thing in the world. his arms wrapped around your waist, holding you securely as if he was afraid you might disappear.
âcomfortable?â he asked, his tone light but his eyes searching yours.
âsurprisingly, yes,â you replied, your voice tinged with amusement.
his grin softened into something more genuine as your fingers found their way into his hair. when your nails grazed the undercut at the nape of his neck, he let out a low, almost involuntary hum, his eyes fluttering shut for a moment.
âyouâre dangerous,â he muttered, his voice thick with affection.
âme?â you said, laughing as you tugged gently on his locks, making his eyes snap open.
âyes, you,â he said, his voice quieter now, his hands tightening slightly around your waist. âyouâve got me completely wrapped around your finger, you know that?â
you leaned in, your forehead resting against his as your fingers continued to play with his hair. âgood,â you murmured.
he chuckled, low and warm, before tilting his head to kiss you again. this time, it was slower, deeper, filled with all the emotions he couldnât put into words.
and as your nails scratched against his scalp and your bodies fit together like puzzle pieces, satoru realized something.
he loved this. he loved you. he loved everything about this moment, about you, about the way you made him feel.
yea, he was pretty sure he loved you.
âËđđËâ
you sat across from him, legs tucked under you on the sofa, your eyes filled with something between determination and hesitation. you werenât sure how to start â how to demand the truth from the man who had so easily slipped into your life, disappeared, and then returned as if nothing had changed. but something had changed. you wanted answers. you needed them.
âsatoru,â you said softly, his name still feeling new and strange on your tongue, yet so natural. âwhere were you?â
his body stiffened, and you saw his grin falter for the briefest moment. he leaned back, arms draped lazily over the top of the couch, as if he could brush off the weight of your question. but you didnât let up.
âseriously,â you pressed, your tone firmer now. âwhat happened? why did you leave?â
he exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair, his blindfold hanging loosely around his neck. âitâs... complicated,â he said, his voice quieter than youâd ever heard it.
âthen uncomplicate it,â you shot back, surprising even yourself with the force of your words. âi think i deserve to know, donât you?â
he froze, his hand still tangled in his hair, before slowly lowering his gaze. for a moment, he seemed like he might joke, deflect with one of his usual quips, but then he sighed and leaned forward, his elbows resting on his knees.
âalright,â he muttered, his voice heavy. âyouâre right. you deserve to know.â
you watched as he hesitated, his fingers interlocking tightly, knuckles whitening. then, without looking at you, he began.
âiâm not just some guy who happens to like mochi and has a thing for blindfolds,â he started, a faint attempt at humor that quickly fell flat. âiâm... a sorcerer. a jujutsu sorcerer, to be specific.â
you blinked. âa... sorcerer?â
âyeah,â he said, his tone turning serious again. âi fight curses â creatures born out of peopleâs negative emotions. theyâre dangerous, destructive, and itâs my job to stop them.â
you stared at him, your mind racing to connect his words to something tangible, something real. âyouâre saying curses â like the ones in those fantasy stories â are real?â
ârealer than youâd like them to be,â he replied, his gaze finally meeting yours. and for the first time, you saw how exhausted he truly was, how much he carried.
âso, all this time, youâve been... what? fighting monsters?â
âbasically,â he said with a shrug, though his tone was anything but casual. âand teaching the next generation of sorcerers while Iâm at it.â
your brows furrowed as you tried to process everything. âbut why leave? why disappear without saying anything?â
his jaw tightened, and he looked away again, his shoulders tense. âi didnât want to leave. i was... taken. sealed away, actually.â
âsealed?â you echoed, incredulous.
âyeah. itâs a long story,â he admitted, his voice tinged with bitterness. âone of the strongest curses managed to trap me. i couldnât do anything but wait. wait and hope someone would free me.â
your chest tightened at the thought of him being trapped, alone and powerless. âhow long were you...?â
âmonths,â he said simply. âlong enough to miss... everything. halloween. thanksgiving. christmas. new yearâs. and you.â
the last two words were barely a whisper, but they hit you like a punch to the gut.
âsatoru,â you murmured, reaching out to touch his hand.
he flinched slightly but didnât pull away. instead, he let your fingers intertwine with his, grounding him. âi didnât want to leave you,â he said, his voice breaking ever so slightly. âbut itâs my job. itâs who i am. i protect people. even if it means losing them.â
you were silent for a long moment, your mind reeling from everything heâd told you. but as you looked at him, his head bowed and his hands trembling slightly in yours, you knew one thing for certain.
âyou shouldâve told me,â you said softly, your voice steady despite the storm of emotions inside you.
he finally looked up, his eyes glassy. âwould you have believed me?â
you gave a small, sad smile. âprobably not. but i wouldâve wanted to try.â
his lips quirked into a faint, almost wistful smile. âyouâre something else, you know that?â
âand youâre impossible,â you countered, squeezing his hand. âbut iâm glad youâre here. no more disappearing acts, okay?â
âiâll try,â he said, his tone lighter but still weighed down by something deeper.
âgood,â you said, leaning closer until your forehead rested against his. âbecause no matter how strong you are, satoru, you donât have to carry it all alone.â
and for the first time in a long while, he let himself believe that.
âËđđËâ
satoru chuckled softly as you teased him, your playful words breaking through the quiet tension of the room. his grin was unshakable, that signature cockiness shining through even now. âme? hurt you? youâre joking, right? iâd sooner let a curse take me out than even think about it,â he replied, his voice low, warm, and undeniably sincere.
as his lips found yours again, the humor melted away into something deeper. he kissed you like he was memorizing you, his hands tracing over your skin with reverence and urgency. the way he whispered your name between kisses, almost as if it were a sacred mantra, made your heart clench.
âyouâre impossible,â you murmured against his lips, laughter bubbling up despite yourself.
âand yet, youâre still here,â he shot back, his grin widening before he leaned down to kiss along your collarbone, each press of his lips searing into your skin.
he was careful as he undressed you, his touch reverent and slow, almost like he was afraid this moment might shatter. but when he finally rid himself of his own clothes, his usual confidence returned, tempered by the weight of everything unspoken between you.
as he pressed himself against you, his forehead resting against yours, he whispered, âtell me if itâs too much, okay?â
âyouâre such a sap,â you teased, brushing his damp hair away from his face.
his laugh rumbled low in his chest, but the way his hands gripped your hips, grounding both of you, betrayed how serious he was. when he entered you, the world seemed to fall away, leaving only the two of you.
âis this okay?â he asked softly, his tone uncharacteristically vulnerable.
âitâs perfect,â you whispered, your hands tracing the broad lines of his shoulders.
he moved with purpose, his breaths shallow and uneven as he buried his face in the crook of your neck, his lips brushing your skin in between quiet murmurs of your name. you couldnât help the small giggle that escaped as he pressed a kiss just below your ear.
âwhatâs so funny?â he asked, his voice tinged with mock indignation.
âyouâre just so... serious,â you said, a grin tugging at your lips.
his answering smile was boyish, his expression softening as he looked down at you. âi have to be. this is you weâre talking about.â
his words silenced your teasing, replaced by the sheer weight of his emotions pressing down on you. this wasnât just about physical closeness â it was about the unspoken promises woven into each touch, each whispered breath.
when it was over, he didnât rush to pull away. instead, he stayed close, his arms wrapped around you as if letting go wasnât an option.
âyou okay?â he asked, his voice low and soft.
âmore than okay,â you replied, your fingers gently combing through his damp hair.
he leaned into your touch, his eyes fluttering shut. âgood,â he murmured.
as you lay there, tangled together, he pressed a lingering kiss to your forehead. âyou know,â he began, his voice still laced with exhaustion, âi think iâll get a ring tomorrow.â
you laughed, your chest vibrating against his. âwhat, so you can keep me forever?â
âexactly,â he said, his grin audible in his voice. âbut for now, this will do.â
and as he held you impossibly close, the two of you drifting into a peaceful silence, it was more than enough.
âËđđËâ
and yea, it was a silly change, wasnât it? from quietly working through your worksheets at night to hosting the chaos of two entire worlds colliding. youâd grown used to your life as a kindergarten teacher, filled with small joys: glitter glue smudged on your hands, paper flowers drying on the windowsill, and the laughter of children echoing through the day. but now, somehow, it also included a man who walked into classrooms like he owned the place, a blindfolded "superhero" who had become not just yours but theirs too.
it was impossible not to laugh the first time your students gasped and shouted, âa superhero!â when they saw your husband, towering and otherworldly in the doorway, juggling an actual crate full of mochi like it weighed nothing. and he played into it, of course. because he was gojo satoru, and if there was one thing he thrived on, it was attention. âsuperhero? no, no, iâm a legend,â heâd say, grinning behind his blindfold, crouching dramatically to offer high-fives to every little hand that reached up for him.
the mundane moments of your life had become spectacles. the once-ordinary afternoons spent in your classroom now included his students trailing behind him like ducklings, megumi rolling his eyes at the whole charade while nobara and yuuji fought over who got the last piece of your homemade onigiri.
and nanami. oh, nanami. he didnât say much, but you knew. you saw the relief in his eyes when youâd place a steaming cup of tea in his hands or gently prod gojo into calming down when he pushed too far. âthank you,â heâd mutter quietly, and you knew he didnât just mean the tea.
megumi, though. he was different. quieter. but youâd caught on to how his eyes softened when you handed him origami youâd made â a small crane here, a tiny fox there. he never said much, just nodded and tucked them away, but gojo told you once, with a rare seriousness in his voice, âhe keeps them all, you know. every single one.â
and gojo? he was... everything. everything loud and extraordinary in your world, everything ridiculous and gentle. heâd swoop into your life with his blinding confidence and then stay, quietly grounding you in ways you didnât think he was capable of. he made even the mundane extraordinary â like how heâd spin you in the kitchen just to steal a taste of the soup you were making, or how heâd insist on bringing home fresh flowers every week because he knew they made you smile.
but the truth was, you made him see the extraordinary in the mundane. in the way you folded laundry, humming softly to yourself. in the way you bandaged nobaraâs scraped knee with the same care you gave your students. in the way you tucked your head against his shoulder at the end of the day, sighing like he was your safe place.
and yea, it was chaotic. messy, loud, and absolutely ridiculous at times. but it was home.
home was megumi pretending he wasnât affected by the way you fussed over his health. home was yuuji and nobara sitting cross-legged on your living room floor, arguing over which of your dishes was better. home was nanamiâs rare, faint smile as he watched you bring balance to the chaos that was gojo.
and home, most of all, was gojo satoru.
home was the way he leaned down to whisper, âiâm never letting you go,â when he thought no one was listening. it was the way heâd press a kiss to your forehead as if he needed the reassurance more than you did. it was how heâd keep your origami tucked away in his pockets, the small tokens of your love grounding him in a way he never thought possible.
and yea, it was silly, the way your lives had intertwined so seamlessly. but it was also perfect. your students, his students, your worlds.
this was home. it really was.
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Gege when I catch youâŠâŠ.đ€ș
satoru playing into the whole super dad role, wearing a baby carrier everywhere and mindlessly letting your teething baby chew and slobber all over the tip of his finger to soothe her itty bitty aches. unable to keep his precious baby girl out of sight for a second, barely allowing you to lift a damn finger in the middle of the night as your daughterâs cries rouse the both of you from slumber. sure, satoru slacked off on plenty of things but never when it came to his princess. her diapers full? he was already changing it. breast milk was taking some time to come in? not a problem, heâll feed her using formula. a sudden sneeze? she must have caught a cold. needless to say, he would do anything for his little girl. he was always alert, having conditioned himself to sleep only a few hours even before the baby was born due to his demanding work schedule. and although you appreciated his consistent efforts and the lengths at which he was willing to go to prove himself a good father â though you knew he would be from the start and heâd done just about enough even while you were pregnant â you would like to spend at least an hour with your baby before she inevitably got whisked away by your husband. but no matter how many times you tried to reason with him that you were completely capable of taking care of the child you birthed for just one night, heâd readily refuse. youâd spent nine months nourishing and caring for his little one in your tummy, and now it was his turn.
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Guys I think I like fictional men đ
husband nanami! who cuts your steak for you on dates because he knows you have a hard time doing it.
husband nanami! who lives and breathes you. he wakes up for work already missing you, laying in bed and watching you sleep as he gently plays with your hair.
husband nanami! who finds himself staring at photos of you randomly throughout the day when heâs not with you, not even realizing he has the biggest smile plastered on his face until someone (gojo) points it out. he gets so flustered, quickly shutting off his phone to keep them from seeing your photosâbecause theyâre his and his only.
husband nanami! who holds your purse, your drink, your jacket, even your earringsâanything and everythingâwhile youâre out, because he adores being part of anything that has to do with you.
husband nanami! who never raises his voice at you (bare minimum, of course) but will scream lyrics with you at the top of his lungs, even if itâs completely out of his comfort zone, just to see you smile.
husband nanami! who plans on renewing your vows âjust because,â when in reality, he simply canât get enough of how breathtaking you look in white.
husband nanami! who has your contact saved as âmrs. nanamiâ with the silliest photo of youâone he knows will definitely get him in trouble if you ever see it, but he keeps it because it makes him smile every time.
husband nanami! who somehow brings you into every conversation, no matter how random. his coworkers could be discussing the weather, and heâll find a way to connect it to you, much to their annoyance, because it seems like your name is the only word in his vocabulary.
husband nanami! who sometimes writes your initials next to his on his work files while daydreaming about you, like a love-struck teenager doodling on their homework. sometimes, he forgets to erase them, leaving the pages covered in your initials, much to the confusion of his coworkers reviewing the files.
husband nanami! who takes your opinions on his work seriously, so when you tell him not to go to shibuya because you have a gut feeling, he listens and is forever grateful he did. because we all know why. (đ)
husband nanami! who quits being a sorcerer and a businessman just to enjoy his life with you, with no other responsibilities but you, you, you, you, and only you.
husband nanami! who always tells you to bring your jacket whenever you two go out, but secretly hopes you forget, because he loves when you get cold and he gets to give you his. he knows itâs wrong to make you feel cold on purpose, but he canât help how adorable you look all warm and snug in his jacket, while he shivers with a proud smile, his arm around your waist.
husband nanami! who purposely leans his head back while kissing so you have to pull him by his tie to bring him back down to your level, just because he loves how it feels when you take charge.
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Gege sometimes I think about your decisions.
husband gojo! who turns into âthe neediestâ after a long day of being âthe strongestâ the moment he walks through the door. his blindfold or glasses are tossed aside because, to him, youâre no sight for sore eyesâhe wants nothing obstructing his view of you. heâs immediately all over you, clinging to you like a lifeline. and when you groan, âtoru, i need my personal space,â he only grins and murmurs, âi need your personal space too, baby,â before wrapping his long legs around you, nearly making you stumble and fall with him still stubbornly attached, laughing like itâs the best part of his day. (it is)
husband gojo! who, ever since you baked him a birthday cake once, fell head over heels for your baking. now, itâs a traditionâhe refuses to have a birthday cake unless itâs made and decorated by you. this extends to his sweet tooth cravings too; whenever he comes across random dessert recipes on his phone, he immediately sends them your way with an innocent âdoesnât this look good?â even if youâve never seen or heard of the dessert before. heâll hover around the kitchen, sneaking peeks and stealing tastes, grinning like a kid because thereâs nothing sweeter to him than something made by your hands.
husband gojo! who absolutely loves when you spend his money. it takes you a while to get comfortable using it because you feel bad, but he always reassures you with a grin, âmy money is your money, sweetheart. itâs all gonna be spent on you anyway.â he gets genuinely excited when you come home from a shopping trip or when packages arrive at the door, practically glowing with pride. seeing you spoiled and happy makes him feel like heâs doing something right. his favorite part, though, is when you give him a haul, showing off everything you bought and trying on all your new clothes just for him. heâll sit back, arms crossed with the biggest smirk on his face, and say, âdamn, I knew my money looked good on you.â
husband gojo! who is so, so, so protective of you that sometimes he just wants to keep you home, away from the outside world, where nothing can touch you. heâs spent his whole life as nothing but a weapon for jujutsu society, and all he wants now is to keep you safe, to shield you from everything. when youâre out together, his arm is always wrapped securely around your waist or draped over your shoulder, a silent reminder to everyone that youâre his to protect. dates are rarely in publicâhe prefers private, intimate places or the comfort of home, where he knows youâre safe in his arms. heâll even insist on teaching you self-defense, but the lesson always ends the same: him pinning you down, a smirk on his face as he attacks you with kisses, murmuring, âlooks like youâre still defenseless against me.â
husband gojo! who quite literally steals your entire personality. the moment you say a new phrase or pick up a habit, heâs quick to latch onto it, memorizing it like itâs second nature. by the next day, heâs already using it effortlessly, as if itâs always been part of his vocabulary. when you catch him doing it, he just shrugs with a small grin, âwhat can I say? youâre my favorite personâI canât help it.â he admires you so much that your quirks and habits naturally become his own.
husband gojo! who sometimes tries to scare you in the mornings by hovering over you, his face so close that the first thing you see when you open your eyes are his deep blue eyes staring wide into yours. it always makes you jolt awake, your hands flailing as you instinctively poke or smack him in surprise. heâll laugh, completely unfazed, pulling back just enough to grin down at you with a playful, âgood morning, sleepyhead. miss me?â even when you scold him for nearly giving you a heart attack, he just chuckles, pressing a kiss to your forehead like itâs the most natural way to start his day.
husband gojo! who, just like he steals your personality, also steals your scent and fashion. if you have a favorite perfume, heâs either hunting down the âmanlyâ version of it or shamelessly spritzing yours when youâre not looking. and when it comes to clothes, heâll buy the exact same pieces you ownâjust a few sizes bigger so they suit him. itâs not even subtle; heâll walk out wearing a sweater thatâs just like yours, grinning proudly when you notice. âwhat? we match. itâs cute,â he says, completely unapologetic, because to him, thereâs nothing better than being a reflection of the person he loves most.
husband gojo! whoâll dye a small streak of his snow-white hair your favorite color just to surprise you. he keeps it subtle and tucked away, hidden so well that no one else would even notice unless they were running their fingers through his hairâand no one gets that close but you. sometimes he changes it when your favorite color shifts, always paying attention to the little details that make you smile. when you do find it, gently brushing his hair aside, he grins at you softly and says, âfigured Iâd keep a piece of you with me.â
husband gojo! who genuinely tries his best to make time for you, despite how often he gets called away for missions. sometimes days pass without him seeing you, and the distance wears on him more than he'd ever admit. when he finally comes home, the moment he sees you, he's on his knees, pressing kisses to every inch of your body, mumbling softly between each one about how much he missed you. "missed you so much, baby... couldn't stop thinking about you," he whispers against your skin, his voice laced with exhaustion and love. it's in moments like these-when he's been deprived of your warmth and attention-that he starts to second-guess being a jujutsu sorcerer at all. because no mission, no battle, could ever compare to being with you.
husband gojo! who drops everything the second he steps through the door after a grueling three-day mission, exhaustion forgotten the moment he sees you standing there, holding out a small gift box. confusion turns to shock as he opens it, and inside, a positive pregnancy test. for a moment, the world stopsâhis heart races, his breath catches, and then it hits him: he has a family now.
husband gojo! who doesnât even hesitate. right then and there, he decides he canât be both a sorcerer and a father. he refuses to miss a single pregnancy milestone, a single moment with you or his child, because of his work. the next day, he quits. the elders, the Gojo clan, they can pester him, manipulate him, lecture him about âdutyâ and âprotecting the country,â but he wonât budge. âItâs my duty to protect my family,â heâll say firmly, his hand resting on your growing belly. no one will take him away from you and the life youâre building together.
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Awewwwwwwwfodusosifosidocic!
Clingy!Satoru who calls you every night that you're not in his bed, so he can snuggle his pampered butt into bed and fall asleep to your voice; cheek squished comfortably into the pillow, murmuring soft and sleepy I miss yous into his pillow while you adore him through the screen.
Clingy!Satoru who liplocks you like he's trying to glue himself to you. His lips never want to leave yours, there's always a reluctancy when he pulls away from a kiss and oh, the way he pleads for kissy marks â he wants to be decorated in them, "More please... here, and here... and here... huh? It won't look goofy; it's my lady's lipstick. I'm gonna show off your marks to everyone."
Clingy!Satoru who stands behind you in a queue â because you "look too good from the back" and he needs to block the people behind you from getting a good view of what belongs to him. With a dorky smirk on his face, his fingers nip at the back of your clothes, his eyes obsess over every inch of you from your head to your shoes.
In public, especially in long queues, Satoru leans down to your neck and speaks to you with his lips grazing your skin.
Clingy!Satoru who keeps his arms around you while the two of you are talking in a group, his biceps pressing at your sides. He habitually grazes his fingers over your tummy, stopping and smirking each time he receives a swat from you.
Clingy!Satoru who trots after you, tall stature lingering in your shadow, following as you pave the way to wherever it is you're taking him. He'll clumsily bump into you from the back when you abruptly stop because he keeps such a terrible tailing distance.
Clingy!Satoru who is glued to your body in bed even during a heatwave. It always plays out the exact same way every night:
You're sweating, the air is too thick. But Satoru doesn't care; he clings to your back despite being a literal heater himself.
"Satoru." you swat him away for the fifth time. He groans and inches away â but a few minutes later he's scooching back into spooning position.
"Satoru, seriously. You're too hot."
"I know." he smiles against the nape of your neck, arms wrapped firmly around you.
Swat.
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Guys you think he would have grew gray hair?
Happy Birthday, Gojo
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*lets out a long heavy sigh.*
reminders âïž
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Guys I want a Gojo under my Christmas tree this year đ
beneath the mistletoe â satoru gojo
having a crush on your brother's best friend is bad enough. having that best friend look better at every family dinner is just cruel. but worst of all? he's noticed your not-so-subtle staring.
It should be illegal how Satoru Gojo manages to look better every goddamn single Christmas dinner.
You watch him over the rim of your glass as he throws his head back laughing at something your aunt just said, the sound rich and warm like honey. And it doesn't help that he's rolled up the sleeves of his dress shirt, giving you a perfect view of his unfairly handsome forearms.
Your grip tightens on your glass as he runs a hand through those perfect white strands of his, and you catch yourself wondering, not for the first time, if they're as soft as they look.
It's been like this for years now â ever since your brother Suguru first brought his college roommate home for the holidays, Satoru's own family being overseas.
Now he's practically part of the family, showing up to every gathering with that infuriating smile and those stupidly blue eyes that seem to find you no matter where you are in the room.
You deliberately focus on your plate, stabbing a potato with perhaps more force than necessary. But your eyes, the traitors, keep drifting back to him of their own accord. It's frustrating, really.
Almost impossible not to notice the way his white hair falls just so over his forehead, or how his jaw flexes when he's deep in thought, or the way his throat moves when he takes a sip of wine.
Not that you're looking at his throat.
You're not.
(You totally are.)
And then, because the universe hates you, he catches you staring.
Those blue eyes lock with yours across the table, and his lips curl into a faint smile that makes your stomach flip. You nearly choke on your wine, quickly averting your gaze to study the tablecloth like it's the most fascinating thing you've ever seen.
"Stop staring at my best friend," Suguru whispers as he passes behind your chair.
Shit. Was it that obvious?
After dinner, you escape to the back porch, needing some air that isn't thick with the scent of cinnamon and Satoru's cologne. The winter night is crisp and clear, your breath forming little clouds in the darkness.
You're not surprised when you hear the door open behind you, or when the familiar scent of cigarette smoke wafts your way.
"Those things will kill you, Suguru," you say without turning around.
"That's what I keep telling him," Satoru's voice chimes in, and you turn to find them both strolling onto the porch, your stomach dropping. Suguru takes another deliberate drag of his cigarette, maybe just to spite you both, while Satoru wrinkles his nose.
"Speaking of things that might kill you," Satoru says, "how's that final year of college treating you?"
You try to focus on the question, but it's difficult when the porch light is hitting his eyes just right, making them look impossibly bluer and you have to resist the urge to melt under his gaze.
"It's fine," you manage, aiming for nonchalant. "Just trying to survive my thesis."
"Ah, your thesis." His lips quirk up in that stupidly attractive way of his. "What was your topic again? Something about modern interpretations of folklore?"
Your eyebrows shoot up in surprise. You mentioned it exactly once, months ago, during summer break. You hadn't expected him to remember.
"Japanese urban legends and their evolution through social media," you correct him, trying not to read too much into the fact that he remembered at all. "Though at this point, it's more like about my own evolution into madness."
Suguru snorts, flicking ash off his cigarette. "Please, you're the only person I know who actually enjoys research. I've seen your color-coded spreadsheets."
"Some of us like being organized," you shoot back.
As if on cue, your aunt's voice carries from inside. "Suguru! Can you come help your father with something?"
Suguru sighs, crushing his cigarette under his heel before heading inside, leaving you alone with Satoru. And suddenly the porch feels much smaller than it did a moment ago.
Great.
"So," Satoru says, shifting closer until his arm brushes yours. "Going to tell me why you've been watching me all night?"
Heat floods your cheeks. "I haven'tâ"
"You're not as subtle as you think," he interrupts. "I can feel you glaring holes into the back of my head whenever I'm around."
"I don't glare," you protest weakly.
"No?" His voice drops lower as he steps closer, backing you against the porch railing. "Then what would you call it?"
You swallow hard, trying to ignore how good he smells up close. "Curious observation?"
He laughs, the sound sending warmth spreading through your chest despite the cold. "Is that what we're calling it now?" Then his eyes flick up. "Would you look at that?"
You follow his gaze to see a sprig of mistletoe hanging from the porch ceiling, definitely not there earlier today. You're going to kill your mother. Or your aunt. Or your cousin.
Maybe all of them.
"We don't have toâ" you start to say, but Satoru's already leaning in, moving into your space with that casualness he's always had, like being this close to you is the most natural thing in the world.
"I've been waiting for an excuse to kiss you since sophomore year," he murmurs. "Please don't ruin this for me."
Oh.
Oh.
His lips meet yours before you can process that confession, soft and warm and tasting faintly of the mulled wine from dinner. Your hands find their way to his chest as he cups your face, thumbs stroking your cheeks as he kisses you like he's been thinking about it for years.
And the truth is, he has.
When you finally break apart, his forehead resting against yours, you say, "Suguru's never going to let us live this down."
"Worth it." Satoru smiles, stealing another quick kiss. "Though I should probably thank him for the mistletoe."
"You knew?"
"Of course I knew. Who do you think helped him put it up?"
You smack his chest, but he just catches your hand and brings it to his lips, pressing a kiss to your knuckles. "Merry Christmas to me," he says with a wink.
And despite yourself, you can't help but smile back. "Merry Christmas, you idiot."
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*eats it up*
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featuring. gojo satoru x reader
warnings. cheating (but it's not u or him dw, it's someone else lol), cursing, non-sorcerer au.
note. i was reading a webtoon, and the male lead was a ballet dancer, then i saw gojo in him. i feel like gojo will do and enjoy doing ballet, you feel me? and just saying guys, my requests are not open :(( so if you sent in one, it might take a bit of time to get it done
ballerino! gojo who had to share an apartment with you because you're both broke fresh graduates â what more of a blessing for a fresh graduate if it's not a place half the price, with your own room? even if it meant living with a complete stranger who could actually be a serial killer.
"you must be y/n? i'm gojo satoru." he introduces himself, shoving a hand out for you to shake.
and you did, with your hand blotched with various colors of dry paint from your jobâ freelance artist â mumbling out apologies for being so dirty.
ballerino! gojo who was supposed to be in the same house with his long-term girlfriend since college, but she bailed out last minute. and when she found out about his new house mate â she wasn't happy the slightest bit.
"so you're the new house-mate?" she asks, eyeing you up and down menacingly as if you had tried to hit on the male.
gojo had to bring her away from the house. apologizing to you about it after he comes back home.
ballerino! gojo who usually does his warm up in the living room while watching netflix on the television, casually doing a split, hunching to the front, eyes on the television intently.
"you do ballet?"
gojo was startled to hear you, but he got over himself and nodded vigorously, "mhm."
"that's really cool."
ballerino! gojo who seemed miserable every time his girlfriend cancels out on their date through a phone call. like a one-sided relationship, except it's the part where he's actually starting to give up on her. but you said nothing about it, since it wasn't really your business in the first place. only focusing on your current client's job â jotting down shades of blue on the canvas.
"hey, you're good . . . is this what you do daily?" he sighs out, sitting on the couch you were leaning on after he ended the call with his girlfriend.
you nodded, "yeah, i draw for people."
"'ts amazing."
ballerino! gojo who went out one night to go on a date with his girlfriend, and is apparently trying to surprise her. but he came back an hour later with his tear stricken face â throwing down the bouquet of flowers he had gotten for his girlfriend earlier during the day.
the smile no longer on his face as he walks to his room, slamming the door shut before you could say anything to the male.
ballerino! gojo who acted like last night didn't happen and was casually doing a split in front of the television. shooting you a small smile when you emerged from your own room.
"are you . . . alright, gojo?" you question him, walking towards the kitchen to grab yourself a cup of cold water.
"sorry about last night." he mumbled out, head hanging low, pushing himself up â brushing his pink colored shirt and grey shorts.
"no worries. all of us have bad days." you brushed him off with a small tired smile, a few streaks of paint marking your cheeks, "how're you feeling?"
"good for someone who found out he has been getting cheated," he chuckled â scratching the back of his head, "you got a lil' something there," he points to your cheeks.
using your arm, you grazed your cheeks, "oh, i was up all night and fell asleep doing work."
ballerino! gojo who later in the day got so busy throwing everything that reminded him of his ex-girlfriend and whatever she had ever given him. doing it like he gets paid. hell, he even threw away a pair of ballet shoes that he still uses out of spite.
"what'cha doing?" you questioned, eyes focused on the canvas sitting on your lap.
"taking out the trash," he grunted tossing what seemed to be a pair of ballet shoes into a box.
"ballet shoes too? are y'quitting ballet?" the male chuckled and shook his head â and the moment you see a frame with a picture of him and his ex, you got an idea of it and said nothing else.
ballerino! gojo who for the next eight months, spends a lot of time with you in the house, doing all sorts of things. making breakfast for each other (taking turns depending on who wakes up earlier), cooking nights, baking nights, learning ballet â even learning how to draw. he forgot his ex pretty quickly.
"my toes hurt, how'd you even do this?" you seethed out in pain, curling your sore toes.
"practice."
"ha ha. very funny, gojo."
ballerino! gojo who got to know you better, and vice versa during those months. learning how you had a passion for drawing and how you've always wanted to be an artist â or how the last time you've been in a relationship was during the early days of college and broke up because your partner then said that they weren't ready for a relationship (shitty excuse).
"so they just broke it off like that? why start a relationship when they're not ready? that's just a stupid excuse," gojo muttered under his breath, rolling his eyes in annoyance.
"that's what i ask myself. but 't doesn't matter anymore." you laugh, sipping on a cup of hot chocolate, chewing on a mini marshmallow you threw in just before.
ballerino! gojo who that night asked you out for lunch the next day, and you accepted. it was only lunch after all.
"uh . . . if you're not busy tomorrow, i'd like to take you out for lunch . . ." he nervously chuckled, scratching his nape. his doe blue eyes looking everywhere but at you.
"sure!"
ballerino! gojo who actually did take you out to lunch, even paying for it. but everything went wrong when his ex was there at the same time, the male actually thought of burying himself six feet under when the girl approached you both.
"i knew there was something fishy between the two of you," she muttered out.
gojo was pissed. as hell. he didn't even bat an eyelash at the person he once adored, a deep frown on his face and he scorned, "get over yourself, we broke up a long time ago because you fucking cheated."
his ex-girlfriend was mortified, because she never remembered gojo being this hateful towards her â all the time they have been together, gojo was always nice and understanding. too nice and understanding, perhaps.
"maybe you cheated on me with them before i even did." she accuses and you immediately jumped in, since she was dragging you into her mess.
"woah, gojo and i never had anything going on. we only started getting to know each other?" you defended, eyebrows perched up at the audacity of this girl, "and mind you, gojo was miserable every time you decided to cancel on a date a few hours before, and through a call? that's low of you."
gojo shot you a smile, "hear that?"
oh, the girl was embarrassed to the roots. muttering out curses under her breath before stomping out of the place, fuming.
ballerino! gojo who apologized to you thoroughly during the whole lunch, in between chews, and even on the way home â for how his ex-girlfriend caused a scene with you.
even if you did tell him it was fine, he said it wasn't. and he wanted to make it up to you, by prepping a movie night. the notebook. one of your favorite movies, you were absolutely down.
supposedly focusing on your client's work, but the moment he puts on the movie â you'd find yourself on the couch beside him.
ballerino! gojo when it comes to the movie's "not supposed to dance in the streets" scene, stands up and shoves a hand to you, "do you want to dance with me?" he invited you as the male lead in the movie asked the female lead the same question.
you chuckled, "you know, i don't dance. gojo."
he raised a brow, "everyone does. and i thought we're close enough to be on first name basis y/n." the male teasingly said, grabbing your hand to tug you up.
"do you know how to slow dance? because i don't."
he smiled down at you, "i do ballet, sweetheart. slow dance is nothing to me â plus, i've learnt how to do slow dancing since . . . years ago. i've always dreamt of doing this with the person i like," it was the perfect setting. as the movie plays out a soft tune, the male pressed his hand on the hollow of your back, guiding you along.
you inhaled his cologne, "so is this like a confession, satoru?"
his chest vibrated as he mustered out a soft laugh, "maybe. if you don't want it to be a confession â think of it like i'm quoting a movie."
you did pend his confession in your mind that night, thinking of it like he's quoting the movie as you both danced the night away.
ballerino! gojo who acted like he didn't just confess his feelings to you last night, greeting you in the morning, and even went all out to make you breakfast after he did his usual ballet warm up.
"hi, sleepy. i made pancakes, but 'ts a little burnt . . ." he laughs, sipping what seemed to be tomato juice.
"thanks, 'toru. love you."
ballerino! gojo who immediately froze when you said that, and stares at you. but there you were, eyes shut and your mouth full of his pancakes, gojo was sure you didn't even realize what you were saying. but still, it made him happy.
"did you know what you just said?" he chortled.
fluttering your eyes open, you shake your head, "what did i say . . ?"
gojo brushed it off, but really â he couldn't stop thinking about it for the rest of the day.
ballerino! gojo who returned home from a day out with a couple of friends to be greeted with a plate of food for him. you made it. with a small pink colored post-it note beside the plate.
hi 'toru, made this before i went out to meet my client. hope you like it, ps. i dropped a lot of pepper in it because the lid fell off :( pls throw it out if it's not edible, i'd feel terrible if you got sick cause of my mistake, i love you <33
gojo ate the plate clean, even if he felt the tingling spice in his throat. he didn't care at all â you made it for him, and he won't waste it. and plus, he didn't end up getting sick, so that's a positive.
when you came home that night, he was still awake waiting for you to thank you for the meal (and to ask you about the 'i love you' on the note).
"i know, i didn't answer your confession at all that night when we were dancing, yet. so?" you cheekily tell him, indirectly saying how you like him too.
ballerino! gojo who was ecstatic about it and kissed you right there. the male was so happy he could feel his whole body thumping in excitement.
"d'you know how long i wanted to do that? to kiss you?" he has a wide smile on his face, his large hands cupping both sides of your cheeks, squishing them lightly making your lips part.
ballerino! gojo who finally feels the love he deserves with you that he thought he'd never feel again. from the smallest things like you texting him whenever you were going to be busy so if you replied late you were sorry, or giving him a call (and leaving a voice note when he's not able to answer) to tell him and ask about his day whenever you both aren't together.
he feels like he's wanted and loved, "hi 'toru, i tried to call you but you might be in a dance routine right now so i'm just leaving this voice note for you. i'm not gonna be able to reply fast in the next couple of hours because i'm meeting a client right now, but i'll get to you once i'm done. make sure to take care of yourself and don't hurt yourself, i love you."
and you feel the same, getting the same feedback with the same excitement, "hi baby, sorry for not answering your call, i was in fact in a dance routine. i have a show coming up, i'm excited! i hope the meeting goes well for you, tell me all about it once we get home, please please? i can't wait to see you, i love you more!"
ballerino! gojo who shows you his ballet moves for his show, inviting you to watch him dance. and you, of course, agreed.
when the day comes, you are more excited than the male is. gojo didn't expect you to come, especially since he knew that you had a big client that needed their painting in a short amount of time. the male was used to his ex-girlfriend promising and ended up not coming, so he was a bit crestfallen at the thought of you not coming to see him.
but there you were, sat on the front row with a big smile on your face. waving at him when he walked in.
seeing him on stage, you felt so proud â unknowing to him, while watching him, your hand was tracing his every move. the tip of your pencil elegantly dancing along with him on top of your sketchbook.
ballerino! gojo who was surprised when you showed him a sketch of him doing his move. he felt so emotional at this new form of love. oh, to be loved by an artist.
"'m so proud of you 'toru. you were amazing up there," you tell him, holding his hand.
gojo wasted no time pulling you into his chest, hugging you, "thank you for coming," you didn't know why he was emotional â but honestly, you don't mind it so you ended up hugging the male back, patting his chest.
ballerino! gojo who now felt the love he has always wanted to feel. because he knew that this time he's not wasting his love on someone who doesn't appreciate him.
"'toru, look! my client gave me a tip, let's go get that pizza we were talking about!" you cheered, throwing yourself onto him, holding a few bills of cash.
the male chuckled, pressing a warm kiss onto the crown of your head, "my baby did so good, 'm so proud of you," he nuzzled his nose to yours, scrunching his face up.
he promised that he'd work hard for the both of you. hell, he was already thinking about marrying you a few months into your relationship, so don't be shocked when he actually does.
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Gang I just went through a rollercoaster of emotions đ
Are we still friends? - G. S.
Synopsis: There were many times your friendship with Satoru was hanging on a tight string. You had always worked through it. But this time was different. Even if you loved Satoru... - It would be hard to forgive.
wc. 11.2k (I'm sorry :'))
Content warnings: Satoru is a bit of an ass, leaving someone alone in an unsafe environment, SFW, mention of alcohol, Angst, Angst MUCH Angst, comfort to the end, year long pining, Satoru is an idiot and I mean an IDIOT
A/n: Happy birthday Satoru Gojo, my dumb idiot <333 (I'm sorry for any spelling mistakes or grammar errors. I also want to thank everyone who said they wanted a whole part of this drabble, I'm happy for every comment)
Fall 2005
"Why are you avoiding me?"
You finally got him alone, without all his new friends surrounding him and making you feel small. Right here behind the sport gym of this old place you had to call your school. Finally you had a moment alone, to talk to him, after days of silence between you. Finally you could get this weird tension out of the way that had infested itself since the beginning of the school year.
After all it was just Satoru, right?
Just Satoru, who rolled his eyes, while turning his head away. "I'm not."
"Stop lying, you are." You followed his gaze, trying to read his expression. But there was no need for that, since he snapped his head back to you after you spoke, looking at you with that terrible expression which hid nothing.
"Oh my god, just because I am not running after you every day, does it mean I'm avoiding you!" He groaned, a hand in his hair making it messy.
"Jeez, you are so clingy."
You stared at him. Blinked to see if you just imagined that. Blinked again. Nothing changed. "Excuse me?"
He didn't say anything now, which only made your anger grow. "I'm trying to make sense out of your childish actions, Satoru! You are the one who just stopped talking to me, leaving me alone in English, even though we have a project together. And now don't tell me that's not avoidance!"
You were breathing heavily, while glaring at him but he only scoffed with a smile on his face, a smile you didn't know.
"Oh please, if you need help and attention that bad run after your little boyfriend!"
"What?" your voice rose a whole octave. "What are you talking about?"
"You know, Rayo or Ruya, whatever." he waved with his hand, pronouncing every letter of the name with almost disgust.
"Ryu? He is my partner for a physics project, for God's sake!" While shaking your head out of shock, you couldn't help but huff. Of all people, Satoru should know.
"Please." He chuckled with such a cold tone. You have never heard such a tone fron him. "Everyone knows you two are hooking up."
"What?" everything seemed to stop. Slowly you searched his gaze, but Satoru looked away.
"Who says that?"
You have never seen him acting that way. So detached. Why didn't he even look at you? Where was the Satoru who watched sad romance movies with you? Where was the honest Satoru?
Where was your best friend? Where was the Satoru you... Knew?
"Satoru, who is talking about me?"
He kept his head low, but you could still see a small glint of guilt in his eyes.
"Is it your friends?"
Something inside you was panicking at his lack of answer. At the lack of denial. What was also said about you? What did he gossip with them about?
"About what are they talking?"
You could see him gulp. But he still didn't say anything. Why wasn't he saying anything? If he let them talk about you, he at least had to tell you what it was about. Especially since he knew.
You had talked with him about your fear of high school and the way people gossiped and the rumors which ruined the reputation one had to uphold.
You had talked with him about trying to keep your head low.
"Satoru, what are they saying about me?" You couldn't help it, your voice rose.
And then he just started moving. Just walking slowly away. Didn't even look at you before. He could talk with these people about you but couldn't look into your face?
"Satoru if you just walk away now, I swear I will never talk to you again."
He stopped in his tracks.
"Satoru -"
"God, can you shut up?"
It was an ugly scream. But not as ugly as the expression he gave you as he finally looked at you. That was a look of disgust. And with an awfully calm voice he added;
"You are so noisy."
You blinked at him. One time. Two times.
That was not your best friend. That was a boy who was hiding whatever distain he had towards you for years. Years you thought he was the only person who understood you.
People change. People fall out.
"Forget it, Gojo."
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"You are avoiding Satoru."
It's like being pushed into cold water in warm clothes.
The stirring of the kettle is the only sound in the kitchen, helping to keep the awkwardness away. Shoko sat at the kitchen table with a glass of juice, her look remaining on your back, as you made yourself tea.
"I'm not."
Only after the kettle rang you allowed yourself to move again. Carefully, you took the kettle, pouring yourself the hot water into your cup with the teabag.
"You are." She took a sip.
You watched as the water changed its color to light brown.
"He is worried, you know?" you heard the shaking of her head. "Can't stop pestering me."
You couldn't help but scoff as you turned around to her, hot teacup in your hands. You placed it down gently and took a seat opposite of her. "Of course he is."
She was staring at you with that stare you knew. The stare which was contemplating what to do and what to say. You stirred your tea with a small spoon and placed the used teabag on a small tissue. The tea was still way too hot. But you still took a sip.
It burned.
"What did he do?"
You looked at her face. Her eyes were gentle and for the first time since a while she wasn't just Satoru's good friend, she was your roommate. Your friend.
You couldn't help but smile. Even if it didn't reach your eyes.
"What did he tell you?"
And that's when you saw it. Her eyes twitching, glancing at her phone on the side of the table. Just that small glance was enough. You knew. Knew, he had made her start talking to you. Knew, he wanted her to push you to answer. Knew, of course, he sent his friends to ask you, instead of just leaving you alone.
"Just that you are mad at him for no reason again. His words not mine."
Satoru Gojo was such an asshole.
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"Sooooo... she didn't tell you anything?"
Satoru would be lying if he said he didn't wait the whole day to meet up with his friends. He had waited in the cafe for roughly an hour now, even though it wasn't the discussed time. But he just couldn't keep waiting. Waiting to get any possible news, any updates of what you could have said. Especially from Shoko.
But she just rolled her eyes at him.
"No Satoru, you should probably know what you did. If she is that mad at you, it's probably something big."
He shook his head, trying to think of anything he did that could've pissed you of. He glanced down at his hot chocolate - his third since he got here - and wondered why you just wouldn't tell him what he did.
After all, communication is key in a friendship, right?
Suguru shook his head at him. "Since when is she avoiding you?"
"Since 9 days." There was no need for math, Satoru had counted down the days since you wouldn't even glance at him, when he tried to talk to you. How you just walked past him in your own apartment, when he met up with Shoko and Geto. How you locked yourself in your room.
"I don't get why she is acting so childish now." he mumbled to himself.
No nod, no wave, no glance. It was crazy. It was dumb. It was just like five years ago when he was the one who shut you out of his life.
The loud sound of Suguru sipping his tea snapped him out of his thoughts. Suguru placed his teacup down on the table and tilted his head.
"Didn't you go out together nine days ago? That Friday?"Â
There was a beat of silence in the room. Only the sound of the coffee machine in the background and the new customers ordering. Satoru blinked at his friends. One time. Two times.
"We did?"
Geto and Shoko shared a look. "Oh Satoru..."
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You couldn't help but groan when you woke up. Your body seemed so heavy as you stood up, like every morning. Well every one since that one.
You glanced around your room, feeling horrible as you saw the dirty dishes you used yesterday. But you just didn't want to eat anywhere else anymore. You didn't continue talking with Shoko yesterday, for all means you started to avoid her too.
You knew, to all your friends you seemed unreasonable. You didn't go out, didn't leave your room and of course ignored Satoru. You worked on your psychology major online, the professors also accepting your work. Overall you tried to avoid any contact with your friends.
Because you just had realized; all of them were also Satoru's friends.
And who of them would put you before him? Before the golden boy Satoru Gojo? The boy who you had held so dearly to your heart.
Too dearly.
Your phone went off, making you sit up. It was already 8 am. You had to go to work or else your boss would be mad.
With one push you got out of bed, making yourself ready. Your phone lit up again. The last days you had started to ignore it. But still you took it everywhere you went.
You tiptoed your way into the kitchen, hoping to avoid running into Shoko. And you sighed relieved, - lucky you - she seemed to still be asleep. No used glasses or dishes. Just you and your kettle.
A coffee machine was too expensive so tea had to hold up.
While the kettle was working, you made yourself a slice of bread, with butter and cheese. Tea and bread, the breakfast of the winners. You took your first sip out of your teacup, sighing at the hot feeling, which warmed you. It was starting to get really cold, you needed the warmth.
It was mornings like these, which made you like fall.
The walk to your workplace was beautiful, the trees all in different colors, painting a picture worth of drawing. But unfortunately you were no artist. You were just a college student working as a part time barista. So you had to hurry up, to please your manager.
The woman wasn't happy with you, since you took the last couple days off. You knew it was hard in this environment, since it sorely relied on the broke students nearby, which were as employees really unreliable. Or at least that was what she was always complaining about.
But you needed the break, or you would have come to work with tear streaks on your cheeks.
You opened the door to the small coffee shop, met by the annoyed look of your manager. She stood at the counter with her arms crossed, her face only lighting up by a small bit as she saw you.
"There you are! Hurry up, we open in 10 minutes. So change into uniform!" she went into the backrooms, her voice echoing in the room. "Hurry, I said!"
You couldn't help but sigh, as you retreated into the small changing room.
There was something so heavy, when you started dressing in the apron. An uncomfortable feeling, a feeling telling you you are sick and should head home. But you had to pay to have a home.
You made your way back to the counter, leaning on it, while hoping there wouldn't be as many customers as usual.
You turned around to look at the menu and you were surprised, there were a couple of new additions on it. Macchiato and Flat white, which you have never made before. You hoped it could just be made by the expensive coffee machine next to the menu.
There were also new teas added to the menu. Lemon and Mint were new kinds, but personally you wouldn't drink them.
A ring behind you startled you. Great. You glanced at the clock next to the big menu. 9:05. Insane people.
You kept your look on the coffee machine, searching for the buttons you will have to use, trying to calm yourself that it was only one person. Even if their steps to the counter were very determined, surely they were just a normal person, wanting a normal coffee? Not a big order, you had to triple take to get right, surely?
You turned around. "Good morning, how can I -"
You stopped as you saw the white hair.
There he stood, leaning forward on the counter, white hair standing a bit up and those ocean eyes staring up at you.
" - help you."
That's why you needed a break. Because he knew where you worked. And you knew he would show up, distracting you, making you furious with just his smug face.
"You haven't answered my texts."
While squinting your eyes, you said again with a firmer voice; "How can I help you?"
He frowned, taking his arms off the counter while standing up straight again. But as he studied your expression, he seemed to get what you wanted to get across. He sighed.
"A hot chocolate please."
You nodded, while pretending to type things into the Cash register to keep your eyes down. Avoiding his piercing look.
"Here or take out?"
"Here. I will sit over there." he pointed at the small table, which was probably the nearest to the counter, making your inner self groan, which was hoping he would just get his drink and leave. But no, this was Satoru and of course he had to pester you even here.
"Alright, take a seat, your drink will be there in a second."
You waited for him to go to his table, but he didn't. No, he just stood there before you, like he was waiting for something.
You went over to the machine and started working it, but he still just stared at you. Making no effort to sit down. Even the sound of the machine pouring milk into the cup didn't fill the awkward silence.
"Is there something else you need?"
You could hear him clearing his throat. "You weren't here the last days."
And you were? Well good, you took the last days off. You took the finished cup of hot sweet delicious browness and placed it on the counter in front of him, while still not looking at him. "No, I wasn't. Is that all?"
He continued to stare at you. You were watching his hands, which were slowly engulfing the hot cup, while he still looked at you. You waited for him to finally go to his seat. He didn't. "Why won't you tell me what I did?"
"Is that all?" you raised your voice, leaning a bit back and turning your head a bit so you could glance at the back rooms. "If so, please let me work in peace."
"It was that Friday night, right?" he was whispering. "What did I do? What did we do?"
You froze. There was something so surreal of him asking what he did wrong. Like that was a reasonable question. Like you were mad for a small forgettable reason, something one could just forget about.
Like someone one could just forget about.
"Is there an issue here?" the head of your manager popped out of the backrooms, staring at the two of you. Well, at least someone listened to what you were saying.
"Not at all." you looked up and smiled at Satoru. "The young man here was just about to sit down at his table."
"Right?"
His face hardened at your words. But with a lot of self control, he also formed a smile, while starting to move. "Yeah, was just having a lovely chat with the barista about the new menu."
Your boss nodded and went back into the back rooms while Satoru finally sat down at the table. Your rapid heart beat, which you hadn't even noticed slowed down by the larger distance between you and him than just the small counter.
But there was still the tension between you, since no one else was in the shop, just you, him and your annoyed boss.
And his gaze was locked onto you while he drank his hot chocolate. Why was it so hard to avoid his piercing eyes? They were like magnets you really wouldn't want to be hung up on because just one look and a panic inside you rose, making you want to lock yourself up in the bathroom. And even though he had his laptop set up before him, he didn't spare it a glance.
Why did Gojo Satoru have such a presence?
You glanced at the clock. 9:36.
Would he stay here for the next 6 hours of your work? No, that would only one insane person do. Right? You dropped your gaze on the cashier register. Why couldn't you just be left alone?
God you needed a break.
A ring of the door made you look up again and you saw a soaked Utahime coming through the door, cursing at her broken Umbrella. Huh, you didn't even notice it had started to rain outside. Even though now, the sound of the water falling against the windows seemed so loud.
"Of course it starts, when I try to get to work..." Utahime muttered while placing her umbrella near the entrance. But her face lit up when she saw you.
"Oh, thank god you are back, it was hell without you! I had to deal with -" But as she looked at you her gaze dropped to Satoru, who was now really interested in his laptop.
"Oh. You are also here Gojo." Her face changed into a frown, while she walked close to the counter. She looked at you with a grimace. "What a surprise."
Satoru just huffed, but kept his gaze on his laptop. "Always a pleasant one, Utahime."
"Utahime?" The voice of your boss was coming from the back rooms, now louder than before, in the tone which meant trouble. "Get here immediately!"
Utahime looked at you and rolled her eyes, making a couple of gestures to illude to throwing up. But her voice was still kept professional. "Coming!"
"Someone is in trouble..." Satoru was grinning to himself while he typed something into his program. Utahime just scoffed while she went to the back rooms door.
"Well, I am not the only one, am I Gojo?"
Oh god, he didn't like that, you could see it in his falling grin. And while Utahime disappeared into the back rooms, you hoped he wouldn't open his mouth. But of course your hopes were for nothing.
He stood up and went to the counter with his now empty cup. Placing it with a bit of force on the counter. "Okay, I get it you know. I fucked up."
"But you could at least give me a chance to talk it out."
Just one look at his oh so deep eyes, made you avert your eyes to his cup. His words making you feel alone, exposed and so so uncomfortable. "Do you want to order more?"
He groaned and his hands found their way into his hair. "Please, drop it and just talk to me! You are making such a big deal -"
"Are you even listening to yourself?" your voice was much quieter now, barely a whisper. "You are already belittling me even though you don't know what my problem is. You already assume it's something small and stupid."
You looked up at his dumbfounded face. He blinked at you. You couldn't help but shake your head in disbelief. "This whole time you are talking about making things right and that you need to talk to me, but not once have you thought about giving me space this last week!"
You pointed at the small room around the two of you. "I mean you are even now here, at my workplace!"
His voice was filled with uncertainty now. "Yeah, because you wouldn't talk to me or Shoko -"
"Which should be sign enough to leave me alone, Satoru. How would you say it?" A small scoff left your lips. "I think 'Stop, being so clingy?'"
A silence filled the room. The quiet talking of Utahime and your manager could be heard, but the words to unclear to understand. Satoru held his head low now, almost averting your gaze.
"But-" your voice was shaking and you wanted to hit yourself for it. "If you want so desperately to know what I am mad about, I guess I can freshen up your memory."
Still silent. You guessed you should keep going. "Last Friday, we went to that club, you wanted to show me, you remember?"
"The one where you ditched me for all these other people?"
You looked down at the cashier register and hoped hoped you could hide the vulnerability in your voice. The room was completely silent. The only sound the falling raindrops against the window.
Until he laughed.
The sound of the little chuckles made something inside of you turn, you felt like throwing up. You looked up at him to see a relieved face. A. relieved. One.
"What are you laughing about." it was hard to speak while your teeth were pressed together with more force you had ever used.
Satoru stopped but the little smile remained. Your hand was itching at that smile.
"Sorry, sorry." he cleared his throat. "But I mean we can spend more time together, if you want that? I mean you still mean much more to me than thes-"
"Satoru." you raised your hand signaling him to stop speaking. "Why do you think I was avoiding you?"
"I - I don't really get...?" he was stopping mid his sentence, now looking confused. "You know it's okay if you were jealous, I never meant to make you -"
"JEALOUS?" You gripped the counter so hard, your fingers were turning white. "You think my problem is jealousy?"
He shut his mouth, blinking so clueless like again. It was exhausting.
"No, Satoru, my problem is not that I was jealous you spend time with other people." you gritted out, while typing in his hot chocolate, to distract your hand before you were hitting him. "My problem is that you abandoned me. Alone in a club, I didn't know."
"You left me drunk and clueless alone at a club with no one I knew. Miles away from my apartment. Left me to ask strangers where my ride was, while they pitied me, because the great Gojo Satoru had already left."
You dared to look up into his eyes, hoping he could finally see your mental state. Finally getting why you were so petty. Making such a big deal.
"That's why I am mad."
His look turned wide and blank. You couldn't keep looking at it and broke the eye contact. He didn't move, just stood there before you. But you could see his hands gripping the cup, he was holding.
Just as you saw him open his mouth again, Utahime came back, now with her uniform on. She had a blank smile on her face and a sharp glare on Satoru. "Do you want to order? I can take yours."
He gaped a bit at that but his face quickly turned stoic. "No, thank you. I was just about to pay and leave."
You nodded took the cup he was just holding on. It was warm. "That will be $4.30."
With a bit of force he pressed a $5 dollar bill on the counter and turned to his seat. While grabbing his things, you could see his eyes focusing on the floor. And you knew there was no reason, but you felt bad. Something about this felt like it was your fault. Like you were overreacting. Even though it was just how you felt.
The door shut softly behind him. He disappeared just as fast as he had appeared.
"Thank you." You whispered to Utahime, and she smiled at you gently.
Truth be told, you wouldn't call her a close friend. You just knew her through Shoko, since she was your roommate and Utahime was a couple of times over. Thus you knew her still over Satoru.
But she did help you get this job and was always a pleasant coworker.
"No problem. You want to share it over a cup of coffee?" she winked at you while leaning on the counter.
"Are you working over there?" the voice of your boss echoed through the room. "Get to work!"
Utahime rolled her eyes. She spoke now in a careful whisper. "I guess after work?"
Well, it wouldn't hurt to have a person who wasn't so close with Satoru, would it?
"I would like that."
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Spring 1995
"Come on sweetie, say hello to Satoru."
You held onto the leg of your mother as you stared at this strange boy. There was something ominous about his eyes and his white hair. You had never seen someone like him before. And he had that intimidating look...
"Hi."
Your mother placed a hand on top of your head, laughing a bit as you tightened your grip on her. "Good job. Now go play with him, while we make the cake ready, okay?"
You looked up to her and nodded. She smiled back and gave you a small nod, signaling you to let her leg go. With a heavy heart you let her go into the kitchen with the other woman, who she called Mrs. Gojo.
You looked back at the boy, who was still staring at you with those intimidating eyes. Why did your mother bring you with her again? She said something along the lines, it would be important to fit into the new neighborhood and greet them properly. But right now?
You just stood there awkwardly, trying to understand this strange boy.
He would probably never speak to you, you just hoped the time would pass as quickly as possible. You wanted to eat the cake Mrs. Gojo made as a welcoming gift...
He opened his mouth and closed it again. His eyes now focused onto the ground before he started to speak;
"Do you like Digimon??"
He looked at you with big eyes, which suddenly didn't seem intimidating at all. He fidgeted with his hands, while tilting his head.
"I guess... But I don't know much about it."
His eyes lit up and he smiled so excitedly. "That's not a problem! I can show you!"
And just like that he took your hands, pulling you with him into his room. The room was big, much bigger than your own. There were a couple of posters, of what you guessed were some mons, you didn't know.
He let go off your hand to pull out a big box. And when he opened it, there were a couple of cards inside, which you had never seen before.
"What are these?"
"I will tell you, just sit down." he let himself fall down next to the box, now going through the cards. He took a couple of them out and looked at them each individually.
You carefully sat down, while watching him. His big blue eyes had an excited glint in them and his white hair was shining under the light.
Satoru Gojo was a strange neighbor...
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Fall 2009
"And he just left you alone at this club?" Utahime frowned, while placing her cup of coffee down. "And he forgot about it?"
You shrugged, glancing outside the window. It had stopped to rain in the afternoon. You were free now, since your and Utahime's shift had ended and you were glad Satoru didn't come back.
"I guess he did."
She shook her head and scoffed. "And now he comes to your doorstep-"
"Well actually, it is not mine but the coffee shops-"
"-asking why you are ignoring him? The nerve!"
A loud sip later she continued; "Gojo has to be humbled, my god!"
You couldn't help but smile at her antics. It was kinda sweet how she got so worked up over your business. You were glad she wasn't just on his side. You watched her sip again and sighed. "If it wasn't for that guy who drove me home, who would guess what could've happened?"
She huffed.
"If I'm being honest I would reflect upon the whole friendship. It just shows how self absorbed he is."
You sipped on your bitter coffee.
"Yeah, well he is still Satoru."
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Summer 2003
"Wait for me outside later, okay?"
You smiled as you read the note Satoru had left on your windowsill. There was just such a feeling of excitement every time you read one of his notes, it made your heart race and your face hot.
That was normal right?
"Mum!" you ran into the living room, hoping to catch her before she went to get groceries. "Did you get me the kimono for the festival??"
She way already ready to leave as she sighed at your question. "Yes, sweetie I did. And I also told you that yesterday."
"Can you help me lat-"
"Yes, I will help you get it on, now shoo." she laughed and pointed towards the kitchen. "Young madam, you can worry about the firework after you did the dishes!"
You gasped as you remembered the mountain of dirty dishes you had to clean before the evening and started rushing towards the kitchen. "Already on it Mum!"
You heard her laugh as the door shut behind her leaving you alone. You let the water run into the sink, while organizing the dishes. You took a sponge and started cleaning the plates, which never seemed to end.
Oh, how excited you were for later! It was your first real festival here and Satoru had promised to show you around. And there would be fireworks, now; in summer! Your first own kimono, and your first time visiting a festival you would spend with a friend.
You placed the finished plates next to the sink, taking a towel to dry them. After you finished them, you sat down before the TV and watched what was on.
You didn't even notice how fast the time passed, til you heard the door click from the keys from your mother. You looked at the clock to see it was already 18:30 and shrieked.
"Mum, mum, can you help me now!! Pleaseee?" You jumped out of your seat on the couch and sprinted towards her, looking at her with the eyes you put on when you begged for something.
"Yeah, you can go into my room while I organize the groceries, okay? The kimono is in the closet." she took of her jacket while smiling at you exhausted.
"Okay!" and just like that you turned around and ran into the small room of your mother.
Her closet was always something magical, if it were the high heel or the jewelry you tried to put on while she was away. Your heart was beating fast as you opened it slowly. As you saw it you gasped.
The kimono dress was so pretty. Almost to pretty. You gently took it between your fingers, gasping at the soft fabric. You liked it. You really did. But...
Was it maybe to pretty for you? To fancy?
"Alright, sweetheart." your mother clapped one time as she stepped in, a soft smile on her face. "Let's make you ready, okay?"
"Yeah.." you took a look in the mirror on the cupboard of your mother and tried to imagine, just imagine, what Satoru would say if you were completely overdressed. You tried to shake it off, trying to get as excited as before, but you just couldn't. The excitement gave a bit of space away for the growing doubt and fear.
Maybe you should play sick...
"Alright, firstly try to put the under dress on and i will help you with putting the kimono dress over and so on." she chuckled and took the kimono out of your hands, eyeing it. She placed it onto her bed gently and went up to the door again. "I will go outside while you change. Just call me when you need help."
"Okay."
You sighed as she closed door, eying the under dress you had picked out. But even though you didn't feel comfortable anymore and the ball of doubt in your stomach was eating you up, you still took of the other clothes and slipped into the under dress.
You didn't like how it fit you anymore. Your stomach hurt. Why did it suddenly hurt?
"Everything alright, sweetie?" the voice of your mother was filled with a slight tone of concern.
"Yeah, you can come in." you glanced at the pretty kimono dress on the bed and feared how it would look on you.
"Okaaay-" she stepped back in and smiled as she saw you. "Perfect! Then let me put the kimono dress on."
She helped you into the kimono dress, watched as the ends of the dress fell onto the ground. Focused, she took the ends and checked something before she tightened it.
"What are you doing, mum?"
"Hace to check if it is above your ankles. It shouldn't touch the ground while tightened." she stood up and patted your dress a bit down. "It's supposed to be a bit big up here."
Her concentrated face was a sight to see, while she adjusted how the dress was sitting. She took a step back and gently placed the obi on the rope which was tightening the kimono. After it was sitting she took a step back again and whistled. "Such a pretty lady!"
The dress was comfortable, even if you felt a bit out of place in it.
"Soooo-" your mother turned you to the mirror, making you sit down on the bed. "Now your hair."
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Fall 2009
You threw your bag onto the wardrobe as soon as you stepped into your apartment, groaning from exhaustion.
"Someone's grumpy." a playful laugh rang softly. Shoko poked her head out of the kitchen watching you take your jacket and shoes off.
"You could've warned me that he will visit my workplace, you know?" you grumbled while pushing softly past her to get into kitchen. She huffed with a small smile on her face.
"I would've, if you talked to me."
"God, I need a hot tea..." you shook your head while turning on the kettle. "It's raining cats and dogs outside. And of course it only started again, after I left the shop."
Shoko chuckled a bit, now making her way over to the fridge. "I wanted to make noodles today, do you want to eat with me?"
The kettle rang again, making a smile steal its way onto your face. "If you have enough for two?" You poured yourself a cup of tea, the water changing its color to light red.
Today you chose fruit tea.
"Yeah, don't worry." she opened the fridge and took her orange juice out of it. "Just missed eating and talking with you."
You took a sip out of your tea and sighed at the heavenly warmth flooding you shortly after.
"You're not going to talk about Satoru, are you?" you turned around to her, to see her sigh as she closed the fridge.
"Only if you want to." She took a glass and poured herself orange juice into it. "But I don't need to. I mean, if I'm being honest, it wasn't the nicest thing of me to pressure you to into talking about it."
She sipped a bit, smiling a reminiscing smile. "Was just worried about you and him, since he was constantly texting and venting to me about his worries."
"Oh."
You sat down at the table, cup of tea in your hand and just warmed yourself. Shoko sat down at the opposite side, tilting her head a bit. "Utahime texted me a couple minutes ago. Asked if you made it home safely."
You couldn't help but smile at that. "Greet her from me and you can reassure her that I made it."
Shoko nodded and started typing on her phone. A couple of seconds later she began to smile at her phone and looked up at you. "Hey, Utahime and I wanted to meet up here tomorrow to watch some movies. You wanna join?"
"Yeah, sure." you watched as she typed a new message and hit send.
"Great!" Shoko rested her head on her left hand, while she held her phone in the other. "Oh, and I can give you her number if you want to? She told me that you had a lovely conversation."
You laughed a bit before pulling your phone out. "I would love to have her number." And just after a couple of minutes you had Utahime's contact and a meet up tomorrow.
"Alright." Shoko put her phone away and stood up, making her way over to the stove. "Enough with that, the noodles don't make themselves!"
You watched as she cooked, a comfortable silence making it's way into the room. Something inside you had changed after you had spoken with Utahime. Something inside you was happy. Happy you weren't alone in your frustration and anger towards Satoru. That your feelings were valid.
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Summer 2003
You waited a long time.
You stood alone before the entrance of the festival, waiting for Satoru just like he had asked you to. People were going by, most of them older than you. Some of them stopped to ask you if you were okay, only leaving if you reassured them you were alright.
You felt anxious like never before. Satoru was late.
"Hey, are you okay?" a boy probably in your age stopped by, just like the people before him.
"Yeah, I'm just waiting." you smiled at him, trying to convince him, but he frowned.
"For what?"
"My friend." you muttered, trying to keep your calm. You didn't want to think about what your long wait could mean.
"But I have seen you standing here an hour ago, are you sure your friend is still coming? If they aren't and you keep waiting, you will miss the fun." the boy pouted.
You watched the next people going by, a couple walking by while holding hands. You heard some whispers about the fireworks and you couldn't help it, tears were starting to build up.
You knew it was dumb. But today you had wanted to say it. You had wanted to say it to him during the fireworks. You had wanted that, but he seemed to have forgotten you were waiting for him...
"I've to go, my parents are calling for me." the boy looked behind him, before he turned to you again. "Try to enjoy your stay here, okay?"
Then he just ran away.
Just like that you were standing there alone again. You felt so stupid for getting dressed up, to care so much about this. Why did you care so much?
And even though you didn't feel like it, you followed the boys advice and walked into the festival.
The stands looked fun and they had cool prices. You saw an older guy win a plushy for his friend, shoetly after placing a small kiss on his cheek. You looked away shortly, feeling like a creep for watching them.
And even though it all looked fun, it didn't feel like it when you were walking here alone.
"Hey, do you want a candy apple?" A woman called out behind a stand, smiling at you.
"Oh, no thank you, I don't have that much money." you apologized but she shook her head, waving fo you to get closer. So you did slip through the people in your way to the stand.
"Don't worry, it's on the house." she winked as she gave you one candy apple.
With a bit of hesitation you took it from her. But you weren't hungry, so you just kept it in your hand while continuing to walk.
And after a long walk you finally reached the watch place of the fireworks. It was under a hill, there were already many people, sitting and talking with each other. And after you saw that you couldn't keep the tears in.
You cried hot tears, because you felt so stupid.
While sitting down on a bench on top of the hill, you gripped your candy apple. The ugly sobbing just didn't stop, didn't matter how much you tried to stiffle it. Oh god, why couldn't you stop-
"Hey." His voice startled you. But even though it was loud because of the people you knew it was Satoru who spoke from behind you.
"Please don't cry." he walked up next to you, sitting down next to you onto the bench. But you couldn't look at him. Not when you still had tears in your eyes.
"You are late." your voice was hoarse, god it was so embarrassing.
He was silent for a couple of seconds. Then he spoke;
"I know, I'm sorry. I wanted to get you flowers but-" he stopped and turned to another direction. "The flower shop was closed and I didn't know. So I - Well, I -"
You blinked at him, the last tears flowing down. And then he turned to you and you saw them. Daisies. He hold onto just a few of them. They weren't fresh, most of them already hanging their heads.
But that somehow made them even prettier.
"I wanted to bring you Daisies." he muttered and looked down at them.
You couldn't help but softly laugh, the sobbing dying out. Your cheeks were drying, and your candy apple didn't seem like your last holding point anymore.
"Thank you, Satoru." you whispered with still a hoarse voice. "But why Daisies?"
That's when a loud bang made you look up into the sky. The first firework was raining upon the sky, the red lights illuminated the sky, painting a beautiful picture.
"They make me think of you."
You turned to Satoru and for the first time tonight looked him in the eyes. His beautiful eyes. The fireworks somehow made them even more gorgeous.
"I'm sorry I came late, I really am." he glanced at the candy apple in your hands. "You probably enjoyed the evening more without me."
Another bang made you look up again. The new firework was a yellow one, looking like it was raining gold from the sky.
"Do you want it?" you held the sweet apple in front of him. "I don't really want it."
He blinked at you, his face going from guilt to embarrassment. "You can't do that!" He muttered. "You can't just give me your candy apple."
A purple firework lit up the sky again. You tilted your head as you looked at him. "Why is that? You like sweets."
He wanted to say something, but only seconds after, he did take your candy apple. He handed you the Daisies, which were changing color through the lights. Just like his hair.
He hesitated, but bit into the candy apple, while holding it with one hand. It looked a bit clumsy but also endearing.
You felt tired but something inside you was so happy. Yeah, he was late. So what? He still cared about you. And that was what counted in the end.
You could feel him glance at you as you looked into the sky watching the different colors exploding and painting the dark night. And then you felt it.
His hand engulfing yours.
"You look pretty in that kimono."
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Fall 2009
"Satoru, stop drowning yourself in the shower, I have to shower too!"
Satoru groaned at the voice of his roommate and friend. The cold water was so relaxing, like it was washing a bit of his uneasiness away.
Of the girl he made out with that Friday.
"Chill, I'm almost finished." he called out while going through his wet hair again, while the water rained down.
God, the weekend was awful. You just hadn't left his head, he couldn't believe that he did what you accused him of doing. He didn't remember that Friday precisely. He had probably drank too much. There was only one thing he surely remembered.
There was this guy who had flirted with you while you were working in the coffee shop that Friday. God, the way he looked at you made him want to-
The rest of that day was vague. He remembered that girl that was clinging to him. She wasn't really his type but he was drunk so he had let her kiss him. But he didn't know what else he did. But to just forget you? That didn't sound like himself.
"Satoru!" Suguru called out again.
"I'm coming!" Satoru turned of the shower with a huff. He took his things and dressed himself in sweatpants and a hoodie.
"Someone has to make sure you don't do something stupid." Suguru muttered as Satoru stepped out of the bathroom.
"Well, it's not you, you do equally stupid things." he grinned at his best friend and stepped to the side, to make space for him. "The shower is yours."
"Yeah, yeah, Satoru."
Suguru disappeared into the bathroom, lifting a heavy weight of Satoru's shoulders. He didn't want to keep worry his friend. Yeah, he felt shitty but he didn't have to make it everyone's problem. Oh well, he tried not to.
His room was dirty. He hadn't left it the last three days, only to shower and to get food and water. He had watched every comforting movie, but even those weren't helping, since he just remembered they were always comforting because he had watched them with you. Whose reactions can he watch when he is sitting alone in his room?
Normally Satoru would call himself as a rather put well together person. But when it came to you, he acted irrational, dumb, stupid, overall he was just not thinking. With you the emotions were always stronger, didn't matter if good or bad. And he knew that wasn't healthy.
But he didn't know how to change it.
He didn't want to have bad things between the two of you. He wanted to make it right, to make you look at him again. But he also didn't want to push your boundaries anymore. Even though it was itching in his fingers to get up and go to your work to apologize.
But that wouldn't work, he knew that. So he had to apologize differently.
Ring!
His phone buzzed and for a slight second he hoped it was you. But it wasn't. It was that privat unknown number that kept calling him, even though he ignored it.
And he knew he shouldn't, but his energy was low, so he just answered. "Hello? Who is there?"
There was a bit of rustling on the other side and a gasp could be heard. "Satoru, I gave you my number, didn't I?" It was a female voice he couldn't quite decipher. "Didn't you safe it?"
"I'm sorry, -" he felt a bit uneasy at the tone of the voice. "But who are you?"
There was a second gasp. "You wound me Satoru! After we had such a lovely evening..." Her voice went a bit lower. "Oh, wait... Did you forget me?"
Her giggling after that made him confused. "Anyway, I'm Haoka, silly!"
"Well, I don't know you, so please stop calling me." He was already on the button to end the call as she called out; "Wait! You really don't remember? We were together that Friday, in the 'Crying Angel', that club."
Oh god, he wanted to face-palm himself. Why did he give anyone there his number?
"We shared some glasses of wine and some of the fun stuff the bartender brought..."
Slowly some memories came back. Pictures of him sitting in that uncomfortable couch, but feeling so at peace...
"And then you pulled me onto your lap and kissed me-"
He remembered vaguely how he felt something big and warm against his chest as he had zoned out. He knew he had made out with some girl beforehand, but that he gave her his number...
"Haoka, was it? I'm sorry but I was literally drunk out of my mind, would you stop harassing me?" He heard her be quiet for once. "Thank you."
"Wai-" he stopped the call and sighed.
Well, he had to apologize to you somehow.
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A week later
"L/n!" you flinched as you heard your manager call out to you from the door of the coffee shop. You sighed to yourself while walking to your workplace. It was 8.30am foe God's sake. Couldn't you just walk to work in peace without being told to hurry?
"I'm coming!" you called out, and walked a bit faster. A couple of seconds later you were on the doorstep of the little shop.
"New flowers came for you." your manager shook her head while pointing to the counter. "That's nice and all, but if you can, tell the one who is sending them, that they should send them to your address and not to ours, okay? I'm not always here to get them for you."
There on the counter they were. Fresh, healthy daisies, waiting for you.
"Yeah, sorry." you muttered and disappeared into the changing room. Behind the closed door you wanted to sink into the floor. And you wanted to die from embarrassment, because there was also a bit of giddiness in side your stomach.
Dumb.
After you changed you walked behind the counter, the white flowers were shining up to you. And of course there was a small note attached, just like with the rest. The last days, there was written:
I'm sorry. I know I was an ass.
Is there something I can do? I don't want us to fall apart.
Can we talk?
They were always small notes and you wished you didn't, but you did keep them with you. The last nights you always read them again and wondered if you should call him. Taking your phone and staring at it for half an hour. But in the end you always chickened out.
The coffee shop door opened and Utahime came in, yawning. "Good morning."
"Good morning." you smiled at her as she came up to you. "Slept well?"
She scoffed while taking of her bag from her shoulder and placing it behind the counter next to you. "Don't even start."
She was already turning to go to the changing room, when she stopped in her tracks. Her look hanging on the new flowers in the small vase. She rolled her eyes and scoffed again. "He's still sending them?"
"Yeah." you kept your gaze on the white flowers.
"You know, I don't want to influence you too much. You know I was never a fan of Satoru." Utahime was whispering now, her voice gentle. "But don't let him pressure you with these gifts, okay? If you want to talk to him, do it, but don't forget what he did just because of some pretty flowers."
There was something big in your throat. You tried to swallow it, you really did, but it just didn't succeed. So you spoke with a hoarse voice; "Okay, I won't."
She smiled softly before she turned and went into the changing room.
You knew there was a new note. But you were so scared to look at it. Because even though he wasn't here, it was still a confrontation with Satoru. And you were scared of talking to him right now, because you knew how sentimental you can get when it came to Satoru.
You didn't want to keep thinking about him. Especially at work when you were alone with your thoughts and the coffee. But with these flowers beside you it was impossibile to think of anything or anyone else.
You wanted to know. Wanted to know how he responded to your lack of response.
Carefully, you separated the note from the flower it was attached to. The flower was the only one whose head was slightly hanging. The paper felt like fire in your hands. You heard Utahime's steps towards the counter and you knew she had seen what was in your hands. But she didn't act like she saw, she just turned to the door waiting for a costumer to come in. So you opened it.
You couldn't help it. You've got to know.
Are we still friends? - G. S.
Your eyes were starting to burn, your vision blurring before your eyes. You couldn't, you shouldn't but you did. You started to tear up.
"Hey, you okay?" You heard Utahime's soft whisper next to you. You wanted to answer, you really did, but your mouth didn't let you.
Utahime started to move again as she heard you sob one more time and went into the back rooms. You didn't hear it loud and clearly but you could decipher the words she spoke to your manager.
"L/n isn't feeling well. She-" The door shut completely behind her and you didn't hear more.
You tried to catch your breath, however it seemed impossible. Slowly you took a breath in, a breath out. In. Out.
It was 9 am. You were at work. Everything was okay.
"Hey." You didn't notice Utahime was next to you again, missing her steps towards you. "I spoke to her, you can go."
"What?" you looked up at her in surprise.
She sighed. "I hate to say it, but it won't get better if you don't talk it out with him. You don't have to do it today, but you are obviously not in the right state to sit here next to these flowers for hours, or are you?"
You slightly shook your head head. She smiled softly. "Then get going."
For a second you just blankly stared at her. But then it hit you. You could leave. Should leave. And today you would do it. You would talk to him and speak your whole mind. Yeah, you would tell him how you felt after the last confusing years, where he treated you like the sun one second and like shit the next. Not tomorrow. Today.
"Thank you." you hurried to the changing room, poking your head out before closing it. "Thank you!"
You heard her laugh, while you hastly changed. The apron was off in seconds, you had to stop and take a breath, before you opened the door again.
You hurried to take your bag and as you arrived back at the counter, your gaze fell onto the flowers on the counter. It was dumb. But you took them out of the vase and held them dearly to your heart.
"Get well soon." Utahime winked at you as you stood at the door. You gulped, but smiled back.
"I'll try.
-------> At home
The door was shut fastly behind you, you hurried to the kitchen to get the flowers a small cup as a vase. There was a small blue one, which was also not too small, so you took it. Filled it with water, as your eyes fell onto a note on the fridge.
Will be away for the whole day, medicine exam is eating me up - Shoko
Oh. Shoko was with her study group. Medicine was a hard major. But to be honest right now you didn't really think much about it. The only thing in your mind was the phone in your bag.
You placed the little cup-vase onto the kitchen table. The daisies were smiling at you, just like they were six years ago.
You wanted to smile back but it didn't feel like the time for that.
Your hand took your phone out of your bag. You watched as you fiddled with it. Wondering if maybe you should do it tomorrow, since you were pretty exhausted-
No. Today.
Your fingers were shaking as you typed his number. Hesitating before the dialing button. But in the end you did press it.
Your anxiety rose by thousands as you heard the dialing tone. And by the third time it rang you wanted to hang up, until -
"Hello?"
His voice was a bit hesitant and quiet. You were shaking, wondering why you called him, without thinking what words precisely to say, why did you just call him without any plan-
"Stop sending flowers to my workplace." your voice was slightly shaking, just like your hands. "My manager can't keep picking them up."
"Oh." it was very quiet on the other side. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to cause you trouble with them."
A silence made it's way into the call. You heard him breath and you were sure he heard your anxious breathing too. God, this whole idea was a mess.
"Hey." he spoke again. "Do you want to talk about it? Are you ready to talk about it?"
...
"Yeah, I'm ready." your voice was a whisper.
The second silence followed, this one even a bit more tense.
"Can I come over, or is that to much?"
Your breath hitched, suddenly this seemed so real. You were stupid for it but you did miss him. You wanted to see him.
"It's okay." you muttered and heard a relieved sigh from him.
"Good, because I am almost there."
And just like that he hung up. Leaving you standing dumbfounded in your kitchen, the realization slowly settling. Wait, he meant immediately? You didn't think he would be already on his way, you still didn't know what to say!
God, you needed a tea.
Today was a green tea day. You worked your kettle, trying to keep your cool. But it was near impossible. How could you remain calm, when Satoru was coming over? Satoru, who was usual never wanting to have a serious talk?
Ring
You looked at your kettle, only to realize it had been the doorbell. Okay. It was time.
You opened the door of your apartment, to see a soaked Satoru standing before you, breathing heavy.
"Sorry for the rush, I didn't want to intimidate you." he muttered while his eyes were locked onto the ground. "I just had to see you in person."
"It's alright." Well, he still intimidated you, but in the end you wanted to see him in person too. At least you think you did, when you look at his wet, but still gorgeous hair. At his blue ocean like eyes. It was just Satoru.
You let him into your apartment, hurrying to your kettle, who was now ringing too. You heard him shut the door, as you poured yourself a cup of tea, watching as the water turned green.
His steps echoed through the apartment, until he stood there, in the doorframe of the kitchen. His eyes now locked onto you as you glanced at him. You took your tea cup and sat down at the table. Gesturing with your hand that he should sit down too. He did.
You saw him gulp, but he kept quiet. You took a long sip.
"So?"
His eyes widened a bit. Then he cleared his throat. "I wanted to apologize to you. Like, really apologize. I know I messed up."
You could see his hands fidgeting but he still kept his eyes on you.
"I don't remember what I was thinking. And I mean that literally, I drank so much that I didn't remember even going to this club." he shook his head. "Not that that excuses anything. My first mistake was drinking carelessly. And I'm so-"
"Why did you?" you stopped him. He tilted his head a bit as you looked at him. "You treated me horrible that evening. You left me alone at the entrance of that club, drank your brain away and then disappeared. Why did you leave me alone at the entrance, why did you drink so much?"
His body tensed up and you knew you struck a nerve.
"And you know that's not the first time." you muttered. "It's like three years ago, when you suddenly made that shift to treat me horrible and then dropped me as a friend."
Silence made itself into the room.
"And then you come back to apologize and want everything to go back as it were, but it doesn't." you whispered. "I can pretend that it does, but it doesn't. Because I just don't feel appreciated as a person. For you I'm always-" Your voice broke a bit.
"For you I'm always just the safe backup. Because I always forgive you and you know it."
"That's not true." Satoru tried to grab your hands on the table, but you pulled them away. Any form of contact right now would kill you.
"Then what is it, Satoru? It feels like you never told me."
His eyes faced the table, now looking like he was sick. His posture was stiff as he fidgeted more with his fingers.
"I'm an idiot, you know?" he was mumbling. "A coward and a selfish idiot."
"What are you talking about?" you gripped onto your warm teacup. He looked at your hands, a nervous chuckle escaping him.
"It's just -" he stopped. While looking at you he shook his head and abruptly stood up. Speaking with his hands on his face, his voice a bit muffled but still understandable. "I want you to know that everything I will say is not me trying to justify my behavior, okay? I just - I own you an honest explanation."
You looked at him, as he seemed to hide himself behind his hands. You were scared. Scared of what he will say. But you knew you also wanted and needed to know. "Alright, then tell me Satoru."
It's silent again, the only thing you heard was the sound of a neighbor's key falling outside of the Appartement. Satoru was messing with his hair, while he avoided to look at you. You could see the gear wheels in his head working, trying to make out what to say. He took a sharpy breath.
"Every time I notice that we are growing more together or become closer, it's just so, -" he shook his head. "It's so scary. Because I notice how I start to feel and act and I -, well I get cold feet and try to push you away. Because I know, that it's stupid for me to feel how I feel, and I don't want to lose our friendship and-"
"Wait, wait, wait." you raised your hand. "You're pushing me away because you don't want to lose our friendship?"
He groaned. "It's stupid I know and in the last years I have become better, but it's just-, god, every time I see someone flirting with you and you look so happy, my emotions become so big and I get angry with everything."
"Satoru what do you mean? Why would you - I don't understand." now it was your turn to hide your head behind your hands.
"That Friday, before we went to that club together. I have seen you with that guy, who bought you a drink at your workplace. And you laughed so much, I just felt so shitty because I realized-" his voice is shaking. "I realized that I still have feelings for you."
The world seemed to stop spinning. You raised your head in slow motion and looked at him. His blue eyes were locked on you, showing vulnerability. You couldn't help but just stare at him.
"And I got scared!" his voice got a bit louder as he started pacing down the kitchen. "Because I have been in the friend zone my entire life and I thought I could live with that. But everything was so much, I saw red and just wanted to hide. I wanted to snap out of that feeling so I left you standing at the entrance."
He stopped pacing, his back now turned to you. "It's the same every time. I want to keep our friendship, but push you so far away that we become strangers."
"You really are an idiot."
You didn't notice until you spoke, that you were crying. Ugly sobbing filled the room, you felt like suffocating. "Not once did you ask yourself how I felt. You just wanted to keep yourself safe, didn't you?"
You could see his back tensing. You shook your head. "You made me feel like I was the friend you only kept in touch with, because our parents know each other. You made me feel so dumb for wanting to spend time with you. That's not how you treat someone you have feelings for!
You could have just told me."
He scoffed, now turning around. "Would we be still be friends if I did? "
"No."
You looked at the green tea in your cup. "We would be more."
You could hear his breath hitch. And in seconds he was standing in front of the table again. You felt his gaze on you. "What do you mean?"
You laughed while tears were streaming down your cheeks. "Satoru it was so obvious for everyone else. Why do you think I have forgiven you every time, no matter what you did?
I have feelings for you."
The silence came back. And with a silent sigh he sat down before you again, hwad in his hands again. "Why did you never tell me?"
"Why did you never tell me? Because I was scared of ruining our friendship. And you always seemed to have zero feelings for me that we're not platonic." you sobbed again, making him flinch. You saw his hand twitch, but this time he didn't move it.
"Please, don't cry." he was whispering with such care in his voice you wanted to cry harder. "Not over my stupidity."
A small try of a laugh escaped you. "I'm always crying over your stupidity, Satoru." you shook your head. "But also mine. I could have confessed too, but I didn't because I was scared. I'm sorry."
He moved a bit closer, his chair now as near as possible. "Don't apologize -"
"But I am sorry. Because now I don't know how to feel and..." you stopped, trying to catch your breath. "I want to forgive you, but I'm just so scared and -"
That's when Satoru stood up again. You watched through your blurry vision how he made his way to you, going around the table. There he stood looking at you with something so big, something so mighty in his eyes.
Carefully his hands made it's way next to your face, drying your tears and caressing your face.
"I know that I will do everything to deserve your forgiveness. No pushing away, no riddles."
He wiped your hair out of the way and placed a soft kiss onto your forehead.
"But I don't think I want to be friends anymore."
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"I thought I should stop sending them." Satoru had his signature grin on his face, while looking at the daisies on the table. "But you do like them!"
"I didn't say you should stop sending them, I said you should stop sending them to my workplace." you kept your gaze on the white flowers in front of you, even though you felt him staring at you. "And I didn't want you to think that you could buy my forgiveness."
"Oh, I never thought that! I just wanted to you to know that I thought of you." his close body raised a hand to take on of the daisies. "You remember that day at the festival?"
"Of course I do." you snorted. "I thought you were stupid for bringing daisies and claiming that they remind you of me, when they are white flowers."
He gasped dramatically. "Stupid? That was my heart laid out in front of you!"
You couldn't help but laugh at his playful 'hurt' face. "Then why do they remind you of me?"
"You were always new beginning."
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Rich boy gojo latest obsession: Spider woman aka you
Part 2 Part 1
After four days away from school, you finally returned, feeling somewhat refreshed despite the exhaustion that had pushed you to your limit. You knew youâd probably missed a lot, but at least you felt ready to face the chaos againâor so you thought.
Your optimism vanished the second you discovered your partner for the mechanical engineering project was none other than Gojo Satoru. The Gojo Satoru.
It didnât take him long to track you downâpractically the minute you stepped foot in school, he was at your side. His signature white hair and ridiculously expensive sunglasses caught everyoneâs attention as he launched into a stream of words, rambling about everything and nothing.
âHey! Y/N, right? Wow, four days, huh? You okay? I mean, not that I was, like, worried or anythingâI mean, I totally was, butâanyway, the project! Iâve been thinking about it. We can divide it up, yeah? Or maybe we can do it together? Iâm great at mechanics, you know. Well, actually, Iâm great at everything, but mechanics especiallyââ
You stared at him, blinking slowly, as he rattled on and on. The assignment wasnât even hardâjust split the work, do your part, and be done with it. But he seemed determined to complicate things with his non stop chatter.
In the background, his friends were clearly enjoying the spectacle. Shoko and Geto were standing a few feet back, both laughing quietly as they watched their usually unshakable friend flounder in front of you.
You werenât sure if Gojo was flustered or if this was just his natural state of being. He was all energy and charmâlike a whirlwind of confidence with no filter. If you didnât know any better, you mightâve thought he was genuinely nervous, but that didnât seem like his style. Still, the longer he talked, the more you couldnât help but wonder if he really was as airheaded as he seemed.
You prayed he hadnât pieced together anything yet. There was no way heâd recognize you as Spider-Womanâyouâd been so careful. Surely, someone like himâall face and no brainâwouldnât notice the connection, right?
You sighed inwardly. Dumb and pretty was a dangerous comb. And Gojo Satoru? He was a walking embodiment of both.
âJust do the part you want, and Iâll do the rest.â
Your voice was calm, straightforward, and devoid of any room for argument. Gojo stopped mid-ramble, stunned into silence. For the first time since youâd known himâwell, âknownâ was a stretch since heâd never acknowledged you before this momentâhe wasnât talking.
He just⊠stared.
And then, without any regard for personal space, he leaned closer, his bright blue eyes studying you intently.
âWow,â he said softly, a small, boyish grin tugging at the corner of his lips. âThis is the first time Iâve heard you talk. Youâve got a pretty deep voice.â
His comment wasnât mocking; it sounded more like a genuine observation, tinged with curiosity. But his closeness made you shift uncomfortably, and the sound of his friends laughing grew louder.
You sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose. Youâd just gotten back to school, and now you had to deal with this.
âCan we focus on the project?â you asked flatly, trying to redirect the conversation.
But Gojo, still grinning like heâd uncovered the eighth wonder of the world, ignored your plea entirely. âYour voice is kinda cool, you know that? Like⊠mysterious. Are you mysterious? Is there a secret life I donât know about? Waitââ He gasped dramatically, his hands flying to his mouth. âAre you a spy?!â
You stared at him, deadpan.
âJust pick your part,â you said again, turning your attention to your notebook.
âOkay, okay! Iâll do the first two pages and make a 3D model. Thatâs okay?â Gojo straightened up to his full height, which only made him seem even more ridiculously tall. You hadnât really noticed before, but now, standing so close to him, his towering frame was impossible to ignore.
âCool. Iâll do the rest,â you replied simply, not bothering to look back as you turned and walked past him.
He watched as you moved away, his usual grin faltering into something softerâalmost thoughtful.
âWhoa,â Geto said, leaning over with a smirk as he watched Gojoâs expression. âDid you just⊠listen to someone? Like, without arguing? Who even are you?â
âShut up,â Gojo muttered, rubbing the back of his neck.
Shoko snorted, flicking a fry at him. âYouâve got it bad, Satoru.â
âI donât have anything,â he shot back, though his ears burned red.
As you disappeared down the hallway, he found himself standing there longer than he probably should have, replaying the moment in his head. For some reason, he couldnât stop thinking about the way your voice had soundedâcalm, composed, and completely unbothered by him.
And for someone like Gojo Satoru, who thrived on attention and chaos, it was frustratingly intriguing.
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The idea lingered in your mind all day, no matter how much you tried to focus on classes. Shouldnât Spider-Woman have a way for people to reach out? Not everyone you saved could shout their thanks in the middle of a rescue, and some people might have real concerns or valuable tips to share.
The thought nagged at you, feeling almost irresponsible to ignore. After all, you were doing this to help people. Giving them a way to connect with you seemed like the logical next step.
So, during your break between classes, you decided to act on it.
You pulled out your laptop, leaned back in your seat, and quickly created an email account. Simple, straightforward, and easy to remember:
As you stared at the blank inbox, a wave of uncertainty hit you. Would this even work? What if people used it to spam you or waste your time? Or worseâwhat if it somehow compromised your identity?
Still, you reasoned, no one would be able to trace it back to you as long as you were careful. Besides, youâd set strict boundaries. You wouldnât answer every single email, only the ones that truly mattered.
Satisfied with your decision, you logged out and closed the laptop. The rest of the day felt oddly lighter, as if youâd checked something important off your to-do list.
That night, after school, youâd made the decision to public. You handed out flyers across the city, hoping to give people a direct way to reach Spider-Woman if they needed help or just wanted to thank you. You didnât expect much, but soon enough, the emails started pouring in.
At first, it was the usual garbageâmemes, advertisements, strange videos, phone numbers, and links to bizarre websites that made you raise an eyebrow. You could barely keep up with the flood of emails, your inbox filling faster than you could sort through them. Some were from media outletsâsensational headlines, twisting your actions into something unrecognizable. Others just wanted to use your identity for their own clicks.
But then, amidst the junk, there were those emails that made it all feel worth it.
Messages of gratitude from people youâd saved. Simple, heartfelt thank-yous that made the overwhelming mess of everything feel just a little more meaningful.
You smiled as you read through some of them. It reminded you why you were doing this. The people who truly needed you, the ones who didnât treat you like a headline or an urban legendâthose were the ones you wanted to hear from.
And then, as you scrolled down the list of incoming emails, one stood out.
It was from:
Gojo Satoru
Your eyes widened for a moment before you clicked on the message. There was no way. You quickly opened it, and the first thing that hit you was the absurdity of it. The email wasnât formal, nor was it filled with the usual 'thank you' or âhelp meâ types of questions.
It read:
"Heyyyyyyy Spider-Woman, Satoru here. You know the guy with the white hair. You saved me again. You should really stop doing that, I might get too used to it. Also, can you send me your number? I have some questions about your secret life... I mean, if you're not too busy saving the world or whatever. Also, if you need help with anything (Iâm pretty good at everything), just let me know. P.S. I don't know why you thought you could hide from me. Donât make me come find youuuuuđ"
You stared at the screen for a few seconds, blinking in disbelief. The audacity was almost impressive. Not only that, but his message was ridiculous.
You closed the email without replying. What could you even say? The man was already a walking disaster, and it was clear he had zero understanding of personal boundaries. Besides, you had schoolwork to catch up on. You quickly switched to your homework, diving into it to distract yourself from the email and the mess of your thoughts.
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Gojo knew the possibility of you replying was zero, but he still felt a sense of disappointment. He was special, important, and couldnât quite understand why you would ignore him like this. He had stopped trying to get himself into trouble on purpose, but it was hard. He still wanted to apologize to you, but how could he make you meet him?
He had to focus on the project for now.
Y/N...
apparently, a man could have two crushes. at school he liked Y/N. and outside it's spider-woman.
Gojo wasnât even sure if it was a crush it could just be admiration, but there was something about you. You were so cool, so unbothered. It made him want to try harder, get your attention. The other girls hadnât figured out the formula or equation on how to get his attention: Ignore Gojo = Gojo notice you = Gojo being in love. Being unbothered = Gojo will become your dog.
He wanted to work for every bit of your affection and attention. You and Spider-Woman had managed to make him feel like he had to.
He was planning to ask for your phone number tomorrow at school or suggest working at the library together.
And that's exactly what he did.
"Either you give me your phone number so we can talk about the project, or we work on it at the library. Your choice." It was right by the lockers as school ended.
You didnât even glance at him as you zipped your bag. "Iâm going to the library anyway. We can go," you said, not breaking stride as you brushed past him, heading for the door.
Gojo blinked, caught off guard for a split second. You werenât fazed by him, not even slightly. But he wasnât going to let it go that easily. He jogged to catch up, his usual confidence returning in full force.
"Wait, but can I still have your number though?" he asked, his voice light but tinged with that unmistakable charm of his. He really couldnât help himselfâhe needed to get a response from you, something, anything.
You didnât answer , your pace steady as you made your way to the library.
Gojo, though, wasnât about to back off. He was persistent, a little frustrated, but more amused than anything. âI mean, itâs not like Iâm asking for much,â he added, a teasing grin tugging at the corners of his mouth.
You didnât reply, your silence giving him no indication of whether he was getting through to you or not. Still, he couldnât help but feel like he was getting closer.
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After his non stop yapping about everything and anything, you really had to excuse yourself to go to the bathroom. You felt like your head was going to explode if you had to listen to him for even one more second.
You left your laptop open on the document, but there were several tabs open as well. When he noticed it was about to go to sleep, he instinctively reached out and moved the mouse to keep it open, a habit, really.
He wasnât trying to snoop, he really wasn't but ... but you know his hand⊠well, his hand was doing it. He checked to make sure you werenât anywhere nearby before starting to browse through the tabs.
There were news articles about Spider-Womanâhe didnât know you were a fan. He thought maybe if he told you he'd met her, it might impress you. Then there were music tabs, shopping, school-related stuff, and two emails. Why were there two emails? Weird
One was just school-relatedânothing out of the ordinary.
But then, he opened the other one.
He stopped.
Why were there so many emails? At first glance, nothing seemed out of the ordinary. Just casual messages, questions, and updates. But then he spotted the Gmail account.
The one that said [email protected].
His hand froze on the mouse.
His blood ran cold as realization sank in. His brain screamed at him that it couldnât be, but the signs were thereâthe news tabs, the emails, and⊠his own message, sitting right there, bold in the inbox.
The same message he had sent to Spider-Woman.
The room felt eerily quiet as he stared at the screen, the world around him fading into the background. His heart pounded in his chest as he scrolled through the messages, seeing thank-you notes, requests for help, and even memes and ads mixed in. It all pointed to one impossible, yet now undeniable conclusion: you were Spider-Woman.
The same person who had saved him more times than he could count.
The same person who had ignored his email.
The same person who was now walking back toward the table.
He scrambled to close the email tab, his hands fumbling slightly in his panic. His pulse thundered in his ears as he tried to compose himself, acting like nothing had happened.
When you returned, you sat down without sparing him a glance, opening your laptop again and resuming your work. He watched you, his mind racing. He wanted to say something, but what could he say? "Hey, so I figured out your biggest secret, no big deal"? Yeah, that wasnât happening.
Instead, he sat there in silence for the first time in his life, staring at you with a mixture of awe, guilt, and nervous energy, realizing that nothing between the two of you would ever be the same again.
You were too focused on the document to notice Gojoâs sudden quietnessâsomething that was extremely out of character for him. The only sound between you was the faint clicking of your keyboard and the occasional shuffle of papers.
Gojoâs head was spinning. You were Spider-Woman. The mysterious hero everyone talked about. The one who saved lives while juggling a life as an unbothered, quiet, and cool high school student.
He couldnât stop stealing glances at you. How had he missed it? It was obvious nowâyour exhaustion, your constant disappearing acts, even your unapproachable demeanor. He suddenly felt like the biggest idiot in the world.
"You okay?" you asked, finally noticing the weird energy radiating off him.
"Huh?" Gojo jolted, almost knocking over his chair. "Yeah, yeah! Totally fine! Why wouldnât I be fine? Are you fine? You seem fine. So, Iâm fine!" He was rambling, his words coming out too fast.
You squinted at him suspiciously. "Right⊠Well, if you're fine, then focus on the project."
"Yep! Project. Totally focusing on the project." He picked up a pen and pretended to write something down, but his mind was elsewhere. He couldnât stop thinking about what to do with this newfound knowledge. Should he say something? Should he keep it to himself?
Then an idea popped into his head. A terrible, ridiculous, Gojo-level idea.
"So, uh⊠Iâve been thinking," he began, trying to sound casual. "Spider-Woman's pretty cool, huh?"
You froze for a second but quickly recovered, keeping your face neutral. "Sure," you muttered, not looking up.
"Yeah, I mean, sheâs, like, super badass, right? Saving people, swinging through the city, beating up bad guysâŠ" He trailed off, gauging your reaction.
"Do you have a point, or are you just going to waste my time?" you asked flatly, still typing.
"Okay, hear me out." He leaned forward, his eyes sparkling with mischief. "What if I told you I know who Spider-Woman is?"
That made you pause. You looked up at him, your expression carefully blank. "And who do you think she is?"
Gojo grinned, leaning back in his chair like he was the smartest person in the world. "I think itâs one of my friends, you know. Someone really close to me."
Your stomach dropped, but you didnât let it show. Instead, you raised an eyebrow, feigning disinterest. "You really think the world revolves around you, donât you?"
Gojo's grin only widened, as if your deflection confirmed his suspicions. "Oh, come on," he said, his tone teasing but smug. "I didnât say everything revolves around me. Just most things. But Spider-Woman? Sheâs definitely orbiting somewhere in my galaxy."
You rolled your eyes, shoving a notebook into your bag. "You sound ridiculous, Satoru. Maybe Spider-Womanâs got better things to do than deal with your ego."
"Maybe," he mused, leaning forward on the desk, "or maybe sheâs hiding in plain sight, pretending to be all calm and collected while secretly being a total under our noses. Just saying, Iâve got a pretty good radar for these things."
You froze yet again for the briefest second but recovered quickly, you grabbed your bags and shut your laptop close. Snapping your bag shut to go home. "Your radarâs broken," you muttered. "Try focusing on this project instead of your conspiracy theories."
He laughed, leaning back in his chair again. "Youâre fun when youâre annoyed, you know that? But fine, Iâll drop it."
You didnât reply, slinging your bag over your shoulder and walking away. But as you headed for the exit door, Gojo called after you, his voice playful and full of confidence.
"See you tomorrow! Spider- I mean y/n"
You didnât stop, didnât turn around, but your grip on your bag tightened. He was getting too closeâway too close.
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As Gojo rode home in his sleek car, chauffeured by his driver, his mind buzzed with theories. He needed to confirm everything he saw. if you really were the spider woman. And to do that, he had to meet Spider-Woman again.
The idea made him grinâdangerous, mischievous, and reckless, just like always. How hard could it be to catch your attention? you always seemed to be around when things went south. Maybe it was time to stir the pot.
Satisfied, Gojo leaned back, staring out at the city lights as rain began to fall, pattering softly against the car window. He cracked the window slightly, letting the cool, damp air wash over his face.
The city looked alive, glowing under the rain-soaked streetlights. It gave him the perfect excuse to act on his latest harebrained idea.
He casually leaned forward, tapping his driver on the shoulder. "Hey, take the long route tonight. I need some fresh air."
The driver frowned in the rearview mirror. "Itâs pouring, sir. Are you sure?"
"Positive."
He waited until the car slowed down on a quieter street lined with tall buildings. Without a word, Gojo suddenly threw the car door open and bolted into the rain.
"Sir?!" the driver shouted, slamming the brakes, but Gojo was already out of sight.
Ignoring the downpour, Gojo sprinted to the nearest building and grabbed hold of the fire escape ladder. He climbed effortlessly, raindrops sliding down his face as his soaked clothes clung to him. His breathing grew heavier, but exhilaration coursed through him as he reached the rooftop.
Drenched and panting, he stood at the edge of the rooftop, his grin widening as he looked down at the shimmering streets below. Rain fell harder, a steady roar that filled the silence around him.
"Alright, Spider-Woman," he muttered, his voice almost drowned by the rain. "Come and save me."
And with zero hesitation, he stepped off the edge.
The rush of air and rain hit him like a shockwave, his hair whipping back as he plummeted. The ground raced toward him at an alarming rate, the city lights blurring into streaks. Arms spread wide, Gojoâs grin never faltered.
This is either the dumbest or the smartest thing Iâve ever done, he thought, completely unbothered.
Before the thought could settle, a sharp thwip pierced through the sound of rushing wind. A sticky, webbed line wrapped around his waist, yanking him upward with jarring force.
You reeled him up in seconds, landing you both on a nearby rooftop with a thud.
Gojo looked up at you, still grinning despite the rain dripping from his hair. "Took you long enough."
You let go of him roughly, stepping back with your hands on your hips. Your mask couldnât hide the sheer disbelief in your voice. "Do you want to die?"
"Not particularly," he replied nonchalantly, shaking water from his hands. "But I did want to see you."
"I thought we agreed you werenât going to do this again. Why?" you asked, crossing your arms and tilted your head.
The rain was still pouring.
Gojo, however, didnât seem fazed. In fact, he was grinning as he sauntered closer, closing the distance between you until his chest was practically brushing against yours.
His thoughts, clearly, were somewhere else entirely.
"You two are the same height too," he murmured under his breath, almost like he was talking to himself.
"What are youâ"
"Never mind," he cut you off, shaking his head as though to clear it.
You glared at him harder, not in the mood for his games. "Are you even listening to me?"
"Well," he began, dragging out the word like it was some grand revelation, "I never actually said Iâd stop, did I?"
Your eye twitched inside your mask. "you were apologizing that day."
"And I did. But that does mean I would stop." he nodded as if his logic made any sense and smiled. his white hair flopping.
"Thatâs not how this worksâ"
"And besides," he interrupted again, this time actually pouting. "You didnât reply to me."
You stared at him in disbelief as he stomped his foot like a child throwing a tantrum. The audacity of this man.
"You nearly died because I didnât reply to your ridiculous email?" you snapped, your voice rising.
Gojo leaned back dramatically, as if your words had physically struck him. "Ridiculous? Wow, okay, now Iâm offended."
"Good," you shot back, pointing a finger at his chest. "Maybe youâll think twice next time you decide to jump off a rooftop!"
He grinned again, leaning in closer until your finger pressed against his chest. "Maybe I just wanted to see you. Is that so bad?"
Your hand fell to your side as you took a step back, suddenly feeling like the air between you had shifted. His grin softened, his blue eyes locked on yours like he could see right through the mask.
Then, he leaned in, his breath warm against your ear despite the cold rain. His voice was low, almost a purr.
"I know who you are, Spider-Woman. I know you."
Before you could respond, he tilted his head slightly and pressed a kiss to your neck through the damp fabric of your suit.
Your heart raced, each beat pounding louder than the rain in your ears. You froze, every nerve in your body on high alert. He knows.
How did heâ?
How?
His proximity, his voice, the way he had shifted so quickly from pouting and stomping to this... whatever this was.
You need to go... oh God. He really knows. You need to walk up from whatever spell he put you on. You had thought he was just guessing.
You tried to steady your breathing, backing away step by step, the weight of his words pressing down on you like a physical force. Your heart was pounding, and your mind screamed at you to move, to get away.
Without another thought, you turned and bolted. You didnât even know where you were running toâjust that you needed to get far, far away from him.
The rain has already soaked through your suit as you leapt from the rooftops, your breath ragged. You needed the ground beneath your feet, something solid, something real to convince yourself this wasnât happening.
âY/N! Spider-Woman!â
His voice cut through the night, growing louder as he chased after you.
You ducked into a dark alley, pressing yourself against the wall and trying to disappear into the shadows. Your hands shook as you pulled off your mask for a moment, letting the cool air hit your face. Is this a dream? Did he really kiss my neck?
The realization felt like a storm raging through you, and you couldnât tell if it was fear, embarrassment, or something else entirely that was making your hands shake.
His voice echoed through the dark alley, persistent and determined, but then came a sudden, panicked scream. It wasnât just him anymoreâyou could hear other voices, aggressive and threatening.
Your instincts took over as you pulled your mask back on and bolted toward the sound.
Two men were on him, struggling to take whatever valuables they could find. Gojo was on the ground, his usual confidence replaced by a rare flicker of panic. He was trying to fight off the best he could but with no results.
It took seconds to act. You swooped down, taking them on swiftly. One man lunged with a knife, and though you dodged, the blade grazed your arm, leaving a sharp sting. Gritting your teeth, you didnât let it slow you down.
With precision and force, you subdued them both, tying them up before they even had a chance to realize what had hit them.
Once they were secured, your eyes flicked to Gojo. He was still on the ground, staring up at you with wide eyes, his usual grin nowhere to be found. You gave him a quick once-overâhe seemed fine, just shaken.
Satisfied, you turned away, preparing to launch yourself back into the air. But just as your feet left the ground, a strong hand grabbed your ankle, yanking you down.
You gasped, flipping upside down as he pulled you back, leaving you dangling face to face with him.
âI... Iâm fine,â he stammered, his voice trembling slightly but growing steadier with every word. His eyes, filled with something you couldnât quite name, locked onto yours. âBut... stay with me. Please.â
The rain continued to pour around you, the alley dim and quiet except for the sound of your breathing and his desperate plea. It's a narrow space making him really close.
Your back pressed against the wall, your breath shallow, and your heart racing so loudly you swore he could hear it. Gojoâs gaze stayed locked on yours as he stepped closer, his confidence unwavering. There was no escape nowânot from him. He already knew, and the realization sent a wave of both dread and relief washing over you.
Before you could muster a word, his hand slipped to the back of your head, his touch firm yet gentle. He leaned in and kissed youâthrough the mask.
It was awkward and strangeâkissing upside down with fabric between youâbut the tenderness in the gesture made you freeze. His lips moved softly, unhurried, as though he wanted to savor every second. Your eyes widened in shock, your mind screaming at you to move, to do something. But your heart? Your heart betrayed you, hammering so wildly you feared it might give everything away.
When he pulled back, a small, knowing smile tugged at the corner of his lips. His blue eyes, piercing even in the rain-drenched darkness.
Your grip on the web tightened, trembling slightly as you brought one hand to the edge of your mask. Rain trickled down your face as you hesitated, the moment stretching endlessly before you finally pulled it off.
The mask fell away, revealing everything youâd tried so hard to hide.
Gojoâs smile widened, but he didnât say a word. He didnât need to. You saw it all in his eyesâthe understanding, the mischief, and something deeper, something that made your chest ache.
Before he could react, before he could say something to break the moment, you pulled him in, your lips meeting his with a sudden urgency.
The kiss was real nowâno barriers, no hesitation. It was raw, messy, and electric, the rain soaking both of you as the world around you faded into nothing. His hands moved to steady you, holding you like he didnât want you to slip away again.
Gojo's lips trailed from your mouth to your cheeks, then to your nose, each kiss lingering as if he were trying to memorize every part of you. When he reached your neck, the positionâhanging upside downâmade the blood rush to your head, amplifying every sensation.
His lips were warm and soft, his movements deliberate as he left a trail of kisses along your skin. When he reached the sensitive spot just below your jaw, you couldn't help the small, involuntary moan that escaped your lips.
Gojo froze for a moment, his lips still pressed to your neck, before he chuckled softly against your skin. "Was that a moan?" he teased, his voice low and velvety, sending shivers down your spine.
"Shut up," you muttered, though the words lacked any bite. Your breath hitched as he kissed that same spot again, slower this time, and your grip on the web tightened.
He didnât let up. His kisses became softer, deeper, as if he were trying to consume every sound you made, swallowing each gasp and moan like they were his own. His arms tightened around you, holding you in place as if afraid you'd disappear the moment he let go.
"Gojo," you whispered, voice shaky, barely audible over the sound of the rain.
"Say my name again," he murmured against your skin, his tone smug but laced with something deeper.
You wanted to push him away, to regain some sense of control, but his lips found another sensitive spot, and your resolve crumbled. The way he kissed you, the way he held youâit wasnât just playful anymore. There was an intensity in his touch, a need, a desperation that mirrored your own.
"Let me breathe," you managed to say between gasps, though the words were weak and your hands betrayed you by gripping his shirt instead of pushing him away.
"Not a chance," he murmured, a grin evident in his voice as he pressed another kiss to your neck.
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Rich boy gojo latest obsession: Spider woman aka you
Part 1 Part 2
Gojo Satoru was everything you werenât. Wealthy, popular, and effortlessly charismatic, he ruled the school like a king. Girls wanted him, guys wanted to be him, and he basked in the attention without a care in the world. You, on the other hand, were invisible. Quiet, studious, and focused solely on your dream of becoming a mechanical engineer, you kept to yourself. You had no time for the drama or distractions of high school lifeânot that anyone tried to drag you into it.
For years, Gojo hadnât even known you existed, too busy dating every pretty girl in school and living his high-society life. But you didnât care. As long as you had your books, your love of science, and a clear path to graduation, you were content.
Then, everything changed the night you got bitten.
It happened as you walked home from the library, your bag heavy with notes and textbooks. A sharp sting on your hand made you pause, and when you looked down, you saw it: a spider, glowing faintly with an otherworldly hue. You brushed it off, thinking nothing of it at the time. But by morning, your entire world had turned upside down.
The changes were drastic, to say the least. It felt like you had the strength of five men combined. You could climb walls, stick to surfaces, andâmost astonishinglyâshoot webs. At first, it was chaos. Youâd knock over furniture without meaning to, stick to walls by accident, and fire webs at the worst possible times. Balancing your new abilities with the demands of high school was a nightmare. And then there were your parents, who couldnât understand why you suddenly seemed soâŠdifferent.
Eventually, though, you got the hang of it. Slowly but surely, you found a rhythm. By day, you were the quiet girl no one noticed, slipping through the halls like a ghost. By night, you were Spider-Woman, swinging through the city, saving lives, and trying to make a difference.
One of those lives, unfortunately, was Gojoâs.
Youâd saved him multiple timesâonce from a mugger in a dark alley, another time from a runaway car. Each time, you prayed he wouldnât recognize you under the mask. But Gojo, being Gojo, became utterly and completely obsessed. He couldnât stop talking about Spider-Woman. It was Spider-Woman this, Spider-Woman that. She was all he thought about, all he cared about. Heâd defend her fiercely to anyone who dared criticize her, becoming your personal lawyer without even realizing it.
When the media started painting Spider-Woman as a delinquentâa vigilante who caused more harm than goodâGojo was furious. He went so far as to call his dad, threatening to sue the newspaper that ran the story. How dare they? Didnât they know how much Spider-Woman sacrificed to keep the city safe? The idea of anyone tarnishing her name was enough to make his blood boil.
Then came the night at the nightclub. Gojo, carefree as ever, found himself cornered in a dark alley, moments away from being robbed. You swooped in, taking out the muggers with ease. But before you could leave, he stopped you.
âWait!â he called out, breathless and his sky blue eye wide. âI⊠I just wanted to say thank you. For everything.â
For a split second, you hesitated. His voice, so familiar yet so different, made your heart skip a beat. But you couldnât risk itânot with how obsessed he was. Without a word, you shot a web to the nearest building and disappeared into the night, leaving Gojo standing there, more intrigued than ever.
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The cafeteria buzzed with chatter as students clustered at their usual tables. Sitting alone with your tray of food and your notes, you tuned out the noise. Behind you, however, the loudest group in school had taken their seatsâGojo Satoru and his friends.
âDude, Iâm telling youâshe totally recognized me,â Gojo said, his voice carrying across the room as he threw his hands up in frustration.
âSatoru, youâre delusional,â Geto drawled, brushing his long hair behind his ear as he gave his best friend a look of pity. âYou know how many people she saves, right? Why would she only recognize you?â
âBecause Iâm pretty, thatâs why,â Gojo shot back, leaning uncomfortably close to Getoâs face, his striking blue eyes glinting with mock indignation. âWho could ever forget this face, huh? Iâm too handsome.â
Geto blinked at him, unimpressed. âYouâre beyond saving.â
âHeâs right,â Shoko chimed in dryly from across the table, casually popping a fry into her mouth. âYou need professional help, Satoru.â
But Gojo wasnât listening. He leaned back in his chair, dramatically running a hand through his white hair as though to emphasize his point. âIâm serious, guys! Sheâs so coolâlike, way cooler than anyone else in this school. I have to meet her. But she doesnât have an agent or an email orâŠanything! How am I supposed to contact her? Ugh, itâs torture.â
âYouâre not supposed to contact her,â Shoko replied, not even looking up from her fries.
âWait, wait,â Gojo interrupted, a mischievous glint in his eye. âDo you think sheâd date me if I offered her money?â He turned to Geto and Shoko, searching for validation.
The two stared at him like heâd grown a second head.
âMoney? Really?â Shoko snorted, clearly unimpressed. âSatoru, sheâs a superhero, not a gold digger.â
Geto sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. âYeah, and even if she was into money, why would she pick you? Youâd probably get robbed while on a date with her.â
âHey!â Gojo huffed, crossing his arms. âShe saved me multiple times. Okay, a lot actually . That means something!â
Shoko raised an eyebrow. âIt means youâre really bad at staying out of trouble.â
Behind them, you fought the urge to roll your eyes. It was bad enough Gojo was obsessed with Spider-Woman, but to hear him talk about her with such unfiltered arrogance made your food taste worse. If only he knew how much effort it took to not acknowledge him during every rescue.
Still, you couldnât deny the small flicker of amusement at the thought. Gojo Satoru, the most confident guy in school, practically pining over you without even knowing it.
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Gojo Satoru thought he was a genius. Actually, scratch thatâhe knew he was a genius. After all, if Spider-Woman was going to save him every time he found himself in trouble, then logically, he just needed to get into more trouble. That way, sheâd have no choice but to keep saving him, which meant heâd get to see her more often.
âWow,â he muttered to himself one day as he stared at his reflection in a classroom window. âI scare myself sometimes with how brilliant I am.â
And so, his master plan began. Every day, without fail, heâd find himself in increasingly dangerous situations. Whether it was wandering down shady alleys, conveniently âforgettingâ his wallet in sketchy neighborhoods, or trying to provoke muggers by flashing his expensive watch in public, Gojo made sure to play the role of helpless rich boy perfectly.
And every single time, you were there. Swinging in at the last possible second, rolling your eyes behind your mask as you pulled him out of harmâs way.
For two weeks, this went on. Two excruciating weeks.
âAre you serious right now?â you snapped one night as you yanked him out of the path of an oncoming car heâd nearly walked in front of. âsir, What were you even doing in the middle of the street?â Your trying to make your voice deeper so he couldn't recognise it.
âMe?â he asked innocently, flashing you a grin that somehow managed to be both charming and infuriating. âI was just testing how fast that car was going. You know, for science.â
You stared at him, dumbfounded. âYouâre unbelievable.â you whispered. You didn't want to talk to him too much and feed his delusion that he is somehow special to you.
âThank you,â he replied, as if it were a compliment. âSo, whatâs your name? Your real name, I mean. Do you like movies? Dinner? Long walks in the rain?â
You ignored him, as usual, swinging away before he could say anything else. But Gojo was nothing if not persistent.
The final straw came on a rainy night after an already horrible day. Youâd had a blowout argument with your mom that morning, and the weight of your double life was catching up to you. Your grades were slipping, exhaustion was eating away at you, and the constant pressure of keeping the city safe was unbearable. To top it all off, Gojoâs ridiculous antics were only making things worse.
So when you find him once againâthis time standing at the edge of a rooftop of the hotel his rich father owns, "balancing practicing"âyou snapped.
âWhat the hell is wrong with you?â you shouted, storming toward him as the rain poured down. Your mask was soaked, and your voice shook with frustration and fatigue. âDo you have a death wish? Or are you just this desperate for attention?â
Gojo turned, his soaked white hair plastered to his forehead, and gave you that same infuriating grin. âHey, Spider-Woman! Took you long enough. I was starting to think you didnât care.â
You grabbed him by the collar and dragged him back from the edge, your patience completely gone. âListen, rich boy,â you hissed, your voice trembling with anger. âI donât know what kind of game you think this is, but I am not playing. You donât get to make my life harder just because youâre bored or obsessed or whatever this is.â
For the first time, Gojo seemed taken aback. His grin faltered, and his usually sparkling blue eyes softened. âWait, are you okay?â
You froze, caught off guard by the genuine concern in his voice. For a fleeting moment, the usual arrogance in his tone was replaced by something softerâsomething real. But the dam inside you had already broken.
âNo, Iâm not okay,â you admitted, your voice cracking under the weight of everything. âIâm also a human, you know. I get tired too... Iââ
You stopped yourself mid-sentence, biting your lip hard enough to hurt. No. Youâd already said too much. Letting him see even this much vulnerability was dangerousâtoo dangerous. You didnât owe him an explanation.
Swallowing the lump in your throat, you grabbed him by the arm and picked him up effortlessly, carrying him away from the edge of the rooftop. You set him down on stable ground, saying nothing as you turned to leave.
âWait,â he called after you, his voice trembling slightly. âIâm sorry. Iâm really sorry. Okay? Please, just listen to me.â
You hesitated, your back still to him.
âI didnât mean to make things harder for you,â he said, his usual confidence completely gone. âI was just... I thought I was being clever, but I wasnât thinking about what it was doing to you. I just... I wanted to see you. To talk to you.â
His words hung in the air, raw and honest, but you couldnât bring yourself to turn around. The rain poured down harder, mingling with the tears that began streaming down your face. You clenched your fists, willing yourself not to break down completely in front of him.
âIt doesnât matter,â you said finally, your voice barely above a whisper. âJust... stay out of trouble. Please.â
You swung away without looking back, leaving him standing there in the rain, his figure growing smaller and smaller until it disappeared from view.
As the wind whipped past you, the tears kept coming. The frustration, the exhaustion, the overwhelming lonelinessâit all spilled out in the safety of the storm. For the first time in a long time, you let yourself cry.
And behind you, on that rooftop, Gojo Satoru stood drenched and motionless, staring after you with an ache in his chest he didnât fully understand. He had never seen you like that beforeâso human, so tired, so vulnerable.
And for the first time, he realized just how much heâd taken you for granted.
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For two whole days, you slept. The world kept spinning, but you didnât care. You were beyond exhaustedâmentally, physically, emotionally. It felt like your body was trying to shut itself down for repairs, and honestly, you welcomed it. After all, who cared about you? Why should you care about the world when no one seemed to care about you?
Meanwhile, Gojo was in his own spiral of chaos. The guilt gnawed at him relentlessly. He couldnât shake the image of your trembling voice, your soaked figure disappearing into the rain. He knew heâd messed upâbadly. He wanted to apologize, to tell you how sorry he was for being selfish, for not thinking about what you were going through. But... how? How was he even supposed to find you? It was like youâd vanished into thin air.
To make matters worse, there was the looming deadline for his big mechanical engineering project. Normally, he wouldnât be too concerned. He was Gojo Satoruâcharming, brilliant, and capable of pulling off a miracle at the last second. But this time, there was a twist. His professor had assigned him a partner: Y/N L/N.
He didnât even know who that was. Sure, heâd heard the name in passing, but it wasnât like he paid attention to anyone who wasnât in his usual circle of admirers or friends. Now, in the middle of his existential guilt-fueled meltdown, he had to deal with the stress of finding a partner he probably wouldnât recognize if they stood right in front of him.
His friends noticed immediately that something was off. Gojo was usually the epitome of confidence, breezing through life without a care in the world. But now, he was pacing, muttering to himself, and radiating the kind of energy that screamed, Iâve screwed up.
âOkay, whatâs going on with you?â Shoko finally asked, leaning back in her chair and eyeing him suspiciously.
âYeah, youâve been weird for days,â Geto added, sipping his coffee. âThis is, like, the longest youâve gone without flirting with someone or bragging about yourself. Should we be worried?â
Gojo ran a hand through his damp hair, tugging at the roots in frustration. âItâs Spider-Woman,â he admitted, slumping into a chair.
âOh, for crying out loud,â Shoko groaned, rolling her eyes. âWhat did you do now?â
âI think Iâno, I know I messed up,â Gojo said, groaning into his hands. âI was being an idiot, okay? I kept getting myself into trouble so sheâd save me, and... well, she finally snapped.â
âWait,â Geto said, raising an eyebrow. âAre you telling me Spider-Woman, the literal superhero, got mad at you? What the hell did you do?â
Gojo waved his hands wildly, exasperated. âI just wanted to talk to her! Is that so bad?!â
âYes,â Shoko and Geto said in unison.
âUgh, whatever,â Gojo grumbled, burying his face in his arms. âShe disappeared after that night. I donât even know where to find her now.â
âMaybe you should stop obsessing over her and focus on that project,â Shoko suggested, popping a fry into her mouth. âWhatâs the name of your partner again?â
âY/N L/N or something,â Gojo said absentmindedly, frowning at the table.
Shoko froze mid-chew, exchanging a quick glance with Geto.
âYouâre kidding me, right?â Geto said, trying to suppress a grin.
Gojo blinked at them, confused. âWhat?â
âY/N L/N,â Shoko said slowly, smirking. âYou mean the quiet girl who never talks to anyone? The one whoâs always in the library?â
Gojoâs jaw dropped. âWait, what? No way. why godddd." he dropped his head to the table and started banging his head.
âYep,â Shoko said, crossing her arms. âThatâs your partner. Good luck, lover boy.â
Now, not only did Gojo have to figure out how to apologize to Spider-Woman, but he also had to track down his elusive project partnerâ
And honestly? He wasnât sure which task was going to be harder.
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