amyisback
broken & bruised
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Amy 🌺 31 🌸 elder emo 🖤 pro recovery & body positivity 💖 tw depression, ed & sh 🚫BLOCK don't report🚫
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amyisback · 38 minutes ago
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How about dark academia vibe th!nsp0?
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Hope you like it! 🫶
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amyisback · 41 minutes ago
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kittenymph 🖤
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amyisback · 42 minutes ago
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Effects of @n@ that shouldn’t be romanticized:
There’s been a few minors lurking around my page and I just want to say GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN. I cannot enjoy my life anymore because losing weight is all I think about and my entire life revolves around it at this point and I would never wish something like this on anyone. So many relationships of mine are strained because of what I’m doing to myself and how much I isolate because of it. This account is for my personal use and to be a safe space for me to vent about my ED. If you’re new to this please do yourself a favor and seek help if you’re having a hard time.
Fainting (in the shower mostly)
Feeling cold all the time
MASSIVE headaches
Increased body hair
Bald spots due to hair loss caused by undereating
Nails breaking (this doesn’t seem bad but if you hit your hand you will bleed and bruise because your nails become so thin that it literally cannot protect your fingers)
Blurry eyesight
Stomach aches
Laxative addiction (if you abuse lax you permanently damage your colon/ intestines and are unable to poop without them)
Bloating
Nausea/ vomiting bile
Constipation
Brain fog
Tiredness (so bad that you physically cannot do anything)
Insomnia
Aching joints
Teeth chipping
Cuts on your tongue
Dry, cracked and bleeding lips
Please do not choose this life, it becomes an addiction. Get help before commiting to something you will never get out of.
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amyisback · 47 minutes ago
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being bloated fills me with the urge to throw myself off a cliff
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amyisback · 9 hours ago
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So, a little life update
I've been diagnosed with BPD which is not surprising I guess
I have new meds and I have not b!nged for a month (food or alc0hol)
My $h / $u!cidal thought are also in check
I've decided to take things slow and stay away from people and triggers in general
So things are better and more stable.
But I need more control over my life and my mind and my future and my body, so I am back here! The original plan is back on.
8 months estimate to reach ugw, so more like a year. Gave myself a few little rewards to look forward to. The meds are helping and I think therapy will help me keep the mood swings in check too.
That's all for now!
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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“Forgive me if I don’t talk much at times. It’s loud enough in my head.”
— Unknown
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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Alone // Being As An Ocean
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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no one haunts me more than the spirit of my wasted potential
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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the thing about being alone is that it’s so peaceful and freeing and cool apart from the evenings you descend into literal hell
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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Just imagine how wonderful it'll be when all this extra weight isn't hiding who you are.
Just imagine how the glorious you'll look and feel when people see you as smart, funny, pretty and they don't just see your fat.
You'll feel so much better when there isn't a layer of fat between your heart and other people.
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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Hey dolls,
October is coming to a close, and with that, the end of my October Di3t! I love the control this Di3t gave me though, so I decided to make my own for November! I would love for some of ya’ll would join in! Same as last month, I’ll be updating everyday with logs+spo!
Note: November 28th is thanksgiving in the USA, so I listed either 550 cals or a META day depending on if celebrate it or not!
~Let’s become Angelic for Christmas~
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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Contrary to popular belief, 3dblr is not a cult. You wanna get out and recover? Beautiful, gorgeous, great. We love that for you ❤️❤️❤️
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amyisback · 1 day ago
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If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin to begin with, you go to the hospital.
If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with, you are a success story.
So when I evaporated, of course everyone congratulated me on getting healthy.
Girls at school who never spoke to me before stopped me in the hallway to ask how I did it.
I say, “I am sick.”
They say, “No, you’re an inspiration.”
How could I not fall in love with my illness?
With becoming the kind of silhouette people are supposed to fall in love with?
Why would I ever want to stop being hungry when anorexia was the most interesting thing about me?
~When The Fat Girl Gets Skinny, Blythe Baird
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amyisback · 2 days ago
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enough is enough.
i said I'd be different a month ago.
im still in the same place.
i need self control.
i want a perfect body.
a body im happy with.
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amyisback · 2 days ago
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Me when someone asks me why I have tumblr downloaded in 2024
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amyisback · 2 days ago
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This might be really dumb but something that helps me is pretending I'm already skinny?
Like
Feeling hungry? That's because you're a skinny bitch
Skipping dinner? That's because you're a skinny bitch
Having a diet soda while everyone else has burgers? Such skinny bitch behaviour
Skinny is a mindset
Fake it til you make it
Also saves me from getting super depressed about my body? Sometimes it feels like change just isn't happening and I get really bummed out and struggle to stay motivated.
But if I tell myself I'm already a skinny bitch I'm like
Omg yeah you're right
I've got to keep up these behaviours to stay a skinny bitch
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amyisback · 2 days ago
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found some old memes in my camera roll from like 2016/2017 🥹
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