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me core

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Let's hope this doesn't apply to my 30s 🥲

i lost my teenage years to being fat. lets hope this doesnt apply to my twenties

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I already know our new years 3dblr diets r gonna be wild💀

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Actually shut the fuck up 🥲🥲🥲

Well, tomorrow I'm getting my last wisdom tooth removed so I will have a reason to not eat for a few days 🤞🤞🤞

Bonus points if the dentist has to remove bone and I can't still chew by Christmas

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i just want to be a normal girl who eats normally and has a normal body and normal thoughts

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something important to remember about me is that I’m not very smart

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How the FUCK did I lose basically 20kg in a month at the start of the year and now I have been struggling through the fucking trenches to lose 10kg in three?????

Like the fuck happened, metabolism??? Why is you just go and die on me?

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I <3 mornings because I haven’t done anything wrong yet (eating)

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One thing about this disorder I don't really hear people talking about enough is how much it fucking sucks to waste food.

I fucking hate wasting food.

When I'm alone with my roommate, I just get what I need to sustain my delulu meal plan for that week.

But I've been home for 3 days and I've already thrown out cake, dessert, fish, potatoes, vegetables (dripping in oil),...

Like, pretending to eat (leaving empty dishes with crumbs or mugs and plates lying around) I'm fine with, it's not the lying. It's the fucking waste.

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I hate being home.

I have a big family and we grew up sharing everything very evenly, because we all overeat.

This means my family tends to cook or buy food in counted portions per person, e.g., two burgers, one tuna steak, specific number of sushi pieces.

This makes it really hard to pretend to eat, because I can't just serve myself less or move food around my plate while I eat, because they will notice that I don't eat it.

Everyone is already saying I look thinner and I haven't even lost 10kg. I actually want to cry. I am wearing sweaters, I am obese, I am soooo far from my gw, I can't can't can't let myself lose all this progress this month at home.

I won't.

I need to be thin.

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Pacing my room >>> walking outside

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10 th1nsp0 pics (+ a video) because thanksgiving is close 😰

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Can I just get to my goal weight already???? I'm tired of waiting. I can't wait to be so skinny and look so good in everything. Future skinny me is gonna be HOT.