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Can a group of internet friends adopt me please? Thanks a lot

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I hate when I suddenly feel creative.

Just out of the blue I feel like doing something.

It might be 4 a.m. and boom

I feel this wave of emotions begging me to do something.

This must be amazing for artists but I have no talents.

I can’t draw, sing, write, compose...

What do I do with this rush of creativity?

Mostly I just try to go back to sleep.

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oh, to be a lovesick idiot with a beloved who doesn’t love you back.

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Put a bullet in my head.

I am as tired as I can be.

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I am trying as hard as I can. I promise.

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we’re hanging out with corpses and driving in this hearse

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Am I the only one that’s super mad about the fact that there’s a pandemic going on and instead of dealing with my own issues and mourning everything I lost this year, I spend my time on a computer. It super frustrating. And the worst part is that this chance I have of being with my family is taken away from me in the worst possible way. I am here, my body is here but my eyes are glued to a screen. I’m not even learning and my grades are so bad, this just makes me feel useless.

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I hate begging for affection or attention. But that’s all I have left. I can’t be alone with myself and I need others to not sink. I hate how easily I give up my whole schedule to fit in someone else’s. But I have no other option. I am willing to sacrifice everything for a little bit of human contact. That hurts me so much. I really hope I don’t have to beg one day. I really hope I meet people willing to meet me halfway. Because otherwise I feel like my company is not worth changing anyone’s schedule, not even once.

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I know I’m not the type of person people usually like, that’s why the whole idea of being the villain helps me so much. I’m not a part of the main group but still I am a part of the story. And I love it.

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And what did you think? That I was sober?

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Reblog if your blog is safe for all members of the LGBTQ+ community

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Jack Skellington

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Dead By Daylight | Iconic Slashers

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Helping a lost friend

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“Gerard from Chemical Romance and Bert from The Used” for Lock Up in LA  Mar 29 2005

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Just leaving this here for yall