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to cas (a mini comic) — things i wish i said out loud

twitter version (khaistiel on spntwt, khainovo everywhere else)

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jack&dean comic strip based on a tt audio

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So...thinking about Dean and Jack...

Jack is not a child. He is NEW, but he is a cosmic being of unknowable power who was cognizant enough in the womb to save Kelly because he was still using her body as an incubator, and to show Cas a manipulative, glorious vision of his future actions specifically as they relate to Cas's desires. When he is born, he speaks English and understands peril, has the physical strength and angelic power to defend himself. He doesn't understand the world, but he is a VERY fast learner. There are a lot of ways in which children are vulnerable and need protection that simply do not apply to Jack at all. He is not a baby, physically or mentally.

Where Jack is vulnerable is in his sense of self and his identity. He is emotionally and spiritually vulnerable, and he is vulnerable to manipulation. From the first time Sam talks to him, he is asking Jack if he can re-open the rift, and Sam DOES want to use him. I don't blame Sam for that, it's a perfectly logical thing to want. Sam believes Mary might still be alive, and he wants to use Jack to go see, and hell, maybe as a weapon, too. Sam needs to believe that Jack can be good and useful to them, and he is not really honest with Jack at first. Dean is right about that.

Dean, though? Dean is completely, 100% honest with Jack in every interaction, no matter how ugly the truth. He tells Jack exactly what he thinks and feels. He has a very reasonable reaction to Jack as a still-unknown cosmic power, and Dean quite reasonably sees him as the reason Cas is dead. Dean is emotional and grieving, but he is honest. Later, as he comes to see Jack as something other than a threat, he is kind to Jack while still being honest. When he comes to love Jack, he loves him honestly. He never lies or manipulates Jack even one time until they lure him into the mal'ak box, and when they talk him into it, Dean can barely look at Jack and makes Sam do the talking, because he really just can't. Lie. To. Jack.

Jack emulates, loves and respects Dean. When Jack thinks Dean has to kill him, he understands and accepts it because he trusts Dean. I think Jack looks to Dean for an honest, clear-eyed assessment of his situation. Cas is blinded by love, Sam is more interested in utility, and Dean is being forced to sacrifice Jack, who has become his and Cas's son -- his family. If Dean can do it, Jack is willing to submit, and then DEAN CAN'T DO IT.

it makes no sense to me to apply real-world child/parent roles to them, to compare Dean with John, who was raising human children, or to think of Jack as an actual human child, and I don't blame Dean for any of it. Dean is so emotionally compromised in so many different ways and I think there is a widespread tendency to begrudge Dean his legitimate feelings when they aren't comfortable, and to apply reality-based roles to these characters who are not at all living normal lives. When it comes down to it, Dean STILL loves Jack (and Cas!) too much to kill Jack or to lie to him, even after Jack oopsie-daisy kills Mary in a moment of uncontrolled panic and has no soul and can't tell right from wrong, and can't even feel remorse. Jack is legitimately dangerous, and Dean is not wrong to try to contain that.

And, by the end of the story, when Dean is saying Jack is not family, not like Cas and Sam are, Dean has lost his compass, and we know that because he also deceives Amara, and tries to kill Sam. Dean is truly in error in those scenes, and doing the wrong things, and seriously, Dean is so good, so self-sacrificing, so full of love that I am able to forgive him a moment of error at the climax of his existential crisis. By that time, Jack is a complex character who is as heavy with grief and guilt as Dean is, and who feels the weight of the world, like Dean does, and who understands Dean.

Is Dean perfect? No. Is Jack a child? No.

I'm just going to say it: I think Dean was a good father to Jack, because what Jack needed more than anything else was honest information about who he was, what threat he posed, who loved him, and HOW to love, so that he could decide who he was and what he wants to be.

He got that from Dean.

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drew this really fast but it came out nice

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PLEASE VOTE DEAN IM BEGGING

NEED👏THAT👏MAN👏PREGNANT GROUP ONE *FINALS

*The winner of this matchup will represent their bracket in the inter-group finale poll(s).

PROPAGANDA:

[Dean]

"hes so breedable. hed be such a good mom."

"we need a supernatural sequel somehow."

[Grunkle Ford]

"He has that pathetic nerd swag why wouldn't I want him pregnant. I know multiple people who would want to bang that senior citizen."

"okay so this is the most breedable motherfucker in gravity falls. sorry but its true. eldritch chaos god triangle wants him so bad he ended the world about it, genius engineer wanted him so bad it made his wife divorce him, aliens want him, everyone in the town keeps calling him a silver fox and hot, etc. his autistic swag, presumable complete sexual inexperience in his 60s, and whimsy are a recipe for all to feel extreme lust when gazing upon his visage.

reasons that he is so mpreg-able aside, it is actually somewhat plausible that he is currently, as we speak, mpregnant. the new gravity falls book, the book of bill, had a website that was released to promote the book and also relay a bunch of new fun information and arg things. this new book, in universe, is written with the intent to be read by ford, and for the website, it is showcasing ford's laboratory. so one could view all of the material with the perspective of it being directed at ford.

one of these messages on the website is an image of an ultrasound of a baby-- a triangular baby. on it, there is the message "congrats, guess what's growing inside you right now! see you in nine months, papa!"

so…. ford might be mpregnant with his ex, bill ciphers baby. yayyyy."

"He's just so submissive and breedable. he should get a sci fi abortion. he would not enjoy fatherhood."

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ty for the tag i think i need to do some drunken ramblings

1. cardfight vanguard, which includes (1) parallels between q4 and asteroid, (2) toshiki kai and aichi sendou's entire story together, (3) aichi sendou full analysis, and (4) toshiki kai full analysis

2. queerbaiting in media, specifically bbc sherlock and supernatural (and the bury your gays trope)

3. the concept of found family in film and other forms of media and why (in my opinion) its the best trope

4. fe3h analysis of why the 3 house leaders did what they did. their belief systems, the way they act and the choices they choose and the role of byleth or the player in those choices

5. popular tumblr scams/ideas that did not go well

ik u wanna rant about a lot of shit @long-distance-muse

I saw this meme going around on twitter and I think it'll be perfect for this account.

List 5 topics you can talk on for an hour without preparing any material.

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ibuki tweaking when chrono called him old is so real bc i’m the same age as ibuki and i too would start tweaking if a 14 year old had the audacity to call me old

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hi there everyone! i officially have a vgen account and would love to get verified there someday soon :)

my commissions are currently open and i have a select amount of styles available rn but i'll update to add more in the future!

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thanks for the tag ^_^

1. fav color - brown, purple, blue u name it

2. last song - when we're human from princess and the frog :]

3. current reading - nothing :(

4. current watching - the boys! and spn rewatches every now and again

5. currently craving - a nice sugary drink

6. coffee or tea - tea bc i only rlly drink coffee if i need to stay awake

@gearchronocle @long-distance-muse @ anyone else who wants to do this !!

GET TO KNOW YOUR MUTUALS!

Rules: answer and tag six people you want to know better

thanks for the tag @catgirltitties

1. Favourite colour: Jazzberry Jam

2. Last song: The Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga

3. Currently reading: Homestuck

4. Currently watching: Gravity Falls

5. Currently craving: my gf is going to make Italian Sausage sandwiches for dinner

6. Coffee or tea: tea, but I'm not a caffeine in the morning person

Im tagging @teo-garden-bugs @oplishin @cinnamon-does-wacky-shit @thatonesongyouretryingtoremember @cryptidcatsstuff

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Reblog to give the person you reblogged it from the energy to do one (1) chore or maybe many

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the young vanguard // happy birthday aichi!

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happy pride month :3

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please put in the tags how many siblings you have and whether you’re a competitive person or not it’s for science

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avid enjoyer of media but the spn fandom on twitter dot com scares me so much ohhhhhhhffhgg one big happy family i guess

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just woke up and the fact this has happened not once. but twice.

i think like this behaviour is worthy enough for an admittance to an asylum. if it were back in the day i’d be burnt at the stake.