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It's not even like we can sit here and be furious that he lost the popular vote and still got in. he has five fucking million more votes. even if we were only going off of popular vote he'd be fucking winning by five million votes. it's not even "the electoral college ruined this election" (fuck the electoral college) people genuinely voted for that fucking lunatic over her. fuck. fuck.

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the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

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The Acolyte - Night Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith

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i’m actually in shock like wdym liam payne passed away

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he is so fkn fine 😩

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Live. Laugh. Roman Reigns' abs.

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i think about ahsoka's "she was my friend" line too many times a day

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Horror Character Appreciation - Blanche The Cat in Hausu (1977) dir. Nobuhiko Obayashi

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me and my emotional support broken jedi masters turned sith au

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James Earl Jones, the revered actor who voiced ‘Star Wars’ villain Darth Vader, starred in ‘Field Of Dreams’ and many other films and is an EGOT winner, died this morning at his home in Dutchess County, NY. He was 93.

Read about his life and legacy here: https://tinyurl.com/3bf8zn25

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My pet loss/grief post when Pearl died resonated with a lot of people. It will be two years in November. God it was such a process. I can talk about her while smiling now. I WANT to talk about her, because I loved her and she made me happy.

Pepper has missed her so much. My poor Pepper is a cat that does really well with other cats. As time passed, I could tell that she really shouldn't be alone. Today, I was ready to open my heart to a fur baby again. I adopted this kitty who just turned one, but had a hard life. She came from a high kill shelter in New York after being found in a warehouse with her kittens that she had as an adolescent cat herself. My local shelter's mission is to pull cats from their "to be destroyed list". This is literally her second chance for life, and I am so SO eager to love her! Pepper is doing well with this! She has been so curious about her scent behind the room she's staying in for now! (If you know, cat intros are a lengthy process!) NO hostility, thank god! I am so so hopeful, and filled with gratitude!

Meet Paris! 🥇🇫🇷

(Black cat enthusiast with "P" names for life!)

Pet Loss Grief Ease?

Personal post, you can ignore if you want but I have to type out my feelings.

I lost my cat, Pearl who I had for 11 years. I acutally got her as a grief therapy resolution when my close family member died of childhood cancer. She served more than her purpose, and made me feel unconditional love every single day. I just feel so lost right now, and I am really hurting. A lot. I had such a close bond with Pearl, and she was attached to me by the hip. She was the happiest, most affectionate, creampuff of a cat I've ever known or heard of.

Pearl got very sick very fast this weekend, and was diagnosed with congestive heart failure. This was a shock and devastating to us, because she showed absolutely no signs and was always happy and showed normal functioning until her last day at home when she had very labored breathing. We brought her to the animal hospital for it right away, but she had a lot of fluid in her lungs and stayed overnight so that it could drain and she was diagnosed that night.

The next day she showed improvement after being given medications. I asked the vet if it was selfish to keep her here on Earth, just because I wanted her. I did not want her to be in pain or suffer. But we were advised that it was not at that point at all. We were told that she could have a good quality of life for however long it would be if it was 6 months...a year...years, and she would just take medication for the rest of her life. It was devastating to hear, but I made peace with that. I was ready to do whatever I needed to to care for her.

Unfortunately, Pearl took a turn for the worst that night when her lungs filled with fluid again despite all efforts, and the vet called to alert me. While we were on our way to the hospital, the vet called me to tell me that her heart gave out, and she was gone.

When we arrived at the hospital, I already decided that I DID NOT want to see Pearl while she was gone. I knew it would just be too traumatizing. I did not need to see her lifeless. All I wanted were her print stamps, and to sign the paperwork, and just leave and mourn and just cry. But a nurse ran to us, and told us they were able to bring Pearl back, and rushed us so that we could be with her...Pearl passed away LITERALLY just before I walked through the doors of the room. And I saw her. I just broke the fuck down and cried and cried and cried as sick animals in the ICU around me were in pain and howling and screaming. It was so traumatizing and haunting.

My question is, if you experienced pet loss was there anything that helped you? I'm really struggling right now with my emotions. Relieved that this happened at the hospital where Pearl received the best care and her pain was eased. Thankful that I could tell something was not right, and that she didn't have to pass away at home while we'd be in shock and screaming in horror not knowing what was going on and she would be panicked and in pain. Angry that I spent thousands of dollars, and she still couldn't be saved. Guilty, because I should not just want her to hang in there for me, and if her little heart couldn't handle it anymore... it was her time to go. Absolutely devastated that I lost my baby, and my other poor cat Pepper is so confused and wondering where Pearl went and why we are crying all the time.

I just don't know what to do right now, so if anyone has any tips or things that they did to help with the grief of losing a pet, please let me know. I already bought a real pearl ring to remember her, and printed out pictures of her and framed them which made me feel a little better, but not really.

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the mummy meme; both movies in general • favorite villain — ”i knew it would please you to watch her die.” 

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Temuera Morrison confirming he is not returning as Boba Fett because of the negative reaction to his show and the Acolyte being cancelled on Manny Jacinto’s birthday when he expressed his wish for it to be renewed a week ago. All the efforts poured by the crew into their shows wasted because Disney and Lucasfilm are cowards who cater to the vocal racist side of the SW fandom that think these shows were woke for having a diverse cast.

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The worst part of this is it tells everyone who was so disgusting toward the cast and Amandla especially that they win. It tells everyone who watched the Acolyte and saw themselves represented, got a story that for once, was written for them, that they will never matter.

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"The only reason anyone would criticize this show is because they're racist!"

Take your strawmanning somewhere else.

Go fuck yourself.

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Oh great. Now Elon Musk is celebrating the news of the Acolyte being canceled saying "go woke, go broke." This is all so disgusting, and let's the racist incels win and raises and validates their voices. Yet again, it's Star Wars so why am I fucking surprised?