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Baby boy is here.

Labor was only 8 hours and he came at 7:31 pm on his sister's birthday 😂

He's tiny. He's 5 lbs and 10 oz, 17 1/4 inches long, but he's perfect. He had a 9 apgar and came out crying and breathing well and then latched for 35 mins. He also has a fuzzy head of what looks like red hair. He's beautiful.

He is in the NICU and they said anywhere between 1 - 4 weeks but it'll be something we play by ear depending on how he does.

What a perfect way to finish our family ❤️

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35+4

It's baby day!

I started having contractions yesterday around 4ish and through the night. My labs came back with an elevated white blood count which means we're probably starting on an infection and with me not feeling the best we decided to start pitocin. We started around 11:30am, I was 2cm. It's now almost 2pm and I'm between 3-4cm and waiting on the epidural and then hopefully I can get a nap and ride out until we're ready for baby. Because he's so early he will be going to Nicu but fingers crossed it's for minimal issues.

It's also Rhyan's birthday which is kind of unfortunate because they'll probably share a birthday but ultimately happy and healthy babies is most important.

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34+6

I got an ultrasound when I was admitted on Tuesday and apparently they found a placental lake which they believe, in this case, is the start of an abruption. I slid and fell on ice at 33+4 and was in the hospital overnight for monitoring, which is when they assume it happened. They said it very well could've been what weakened my membranes causing the PPROM. They also have said that baby boy looks incredible, not a single sign of distress and I haven't been contracting and we have lots of hope he'll stay in until 36 weeks and hopefully avoid most of the NICU stay.

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34+5

We were admitted with PPROM yesterday. I was actually thinking of making a post about how we set our induction to be on the 7th of February and baby boy just could not wait. My water broke yesterday around 2pm. So almost 13 hours ago. No contractions currently and baby boy sounds great on monitors. He was measuring just under 6lbs when we did a growth last night. They want me to get to 36 weeks and we'd induce that day but they won't stop my labor if it starts before that since I'm already passed 34 weeks.

I got steroids at 28 weeks due to knowing we were inducing at 37. And I got a rescue dose last night. I'm on antibiotics every 6 hours currently and nsts twice daily. Praying for little to no NICU time but these next 9 days are gunna be long. If anyone has any recommendations for stuff to keep occupied? I can barely sleep in a hospital and I'm on bed rest in hopes to avoid contracting. I'm sure I'll be updating lots out of pure boredom

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One day you're scared to take the leap of being a single mom to 3 babies. And before you know it you're in your own safe space, your babies safe space while they color together at the table while you pack to move into your dream rental.

I can never imagine being in a position again where someone else can say I wouldn't have something if it wasn't for them. This peace is unmatched ❤️

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24+3

I had a midwife appointment today and everything went great. Baby boy is active and had a good heart rate. We went over my recent lab results, my bile acids went down so my medication is working. Were planning an induction for the day I turn 37 weeks or the following Monday. I have appointments every two weeks for the next 5ish weeks and then were on twice weekly appointments for NSTs and ultrasounds until delivery. I have 4 weeks until my glucose test. And then 4 weeks postpartum I'll be getting a tubal removal. I can't believe how fast all of this is going.

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Time is flying. Im 22+3. I was re-diagnosed with cholestasis two weeks ago, meaning baby boy will be here by 37 weeks via induction. Meaning we have less than 15 weeks left. Which is CRAZY. I had my anatomy ultrasound and he is perfect and definitely a boy 😂 I already have most of what I need for him and have instead been focusing on making my home cozy for all of us. Life has definitely started to feel more normal recently ❤️ and now I'm just so so excited to see my sweet boy.

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17+5

I just felt and saw him kick for the first time 😭❤️

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I'm 17 weeks tomorrow.

I'm also viewing a rental in a town over tomorrow. I got a promotion at work about 6 weeks ago and ive been busting ass and it's definitely paying off. I also got on antidepressants, under supervision of my midwife, about a month ago. I'm feeling super optimistic recently. I'm also getting really excited to meet this baby boy. See his little toes and kiss his little face ❤️

I promise I've still been around and I love seeing you momma's updates. I've just been refocusing my attention and I really feel like it's paying off.

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Men will really be like "Awe, you're a single mom? Wanna do it again?" 🙃

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Hi, hello.

Sorry for lack of updates. I'm SO tired 😂

I've had 4 ultrasounds in 3 weeks due to this damn hematoma and I FINALLY got rhogam so it shouldn't be an issue anymore. This ultrasound was taken at 9 weeks exactly (9+5 today) and baby BOY looks great and is growing on track to the day 💙

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Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

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Did I impulsively buy a sneak peak test because I'm miserable and need something to look forward to in this pregnancy? Yes. Yes I did. 7+4 today. I had a follow up to my last ultrasound, my hematoma has gotten bigger. But so has baby so that's good atleast.

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Idk if I'm gunna make it out of this first trimester alive. I've been so sick and today was the worst. I won't throw up but I can't eat or drink anything because my nausea is so bad. I'm so beyond exhausted. The kids were at their dad's this last weekend and I slept from 10pm to 2pm the next day. When they're home Rhyan has been waking up 3-5 times a night asking for snacks. I'm so light headed that it's hard to stand for more than a few minutes but they swear my iron isn't too low yet.

Tomorrow starts my work week and I'm struggling so badly I don't even know how I'm supposed to pull this off recently.

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I'm 6 weeks as of today. I left work due to spotting. They believe I have another subchorionic hematoma 😕

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I'm 5+2 today.

This time has been different. This pregnancy was not only unexpected but not exactly.. wanted. And I feel so disgustingly guilty about it. I got a new job recently and the woman I work with everyday is infertile and it's eating me up knowing she's going to see me go through a process she deserves.

I go through phases where I get excited about experiencing it all again but the majority of the time it's just anxiety. I'm sure you can assume from my prior updates but the father is not the same as the other kids. Which is a whole other type of guilt. And I'm still not sure if this will be a joint effort or not. I don't wanna hear about options and I have no intentions of anything other than keeping this baby. And maybe I'll just get hate for this and probably take this post down.

I think I'm just having a hard time.

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Yall wanna see the biggest curve ball that's been thrown at me this year? (Maybe ever?)

BAM!

Baby #4 😅

Boy, do I have some stuff to tell y'all.