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[alynawrites]

Jelly Bean - Telling him about kaito

I've been throwing up all week long, and Ari is very extremely worried for me. He's been by my side every minute of every day doing anything he can to make me feel the slightest bit better. He brings me home anything I want to eat (even though I can't keep it down), he massages my back, he makes me a hot bath, he does pretty much anything I could ask for.

I just couldnt understand why I was feeling what I was feeling. Maybe I was pregnant? The thought did cross my mind but I was unsure. Just to be sure I took a test

Waiting for the test results, I sat on the bathroom floor so that I wouldn’t be staring at the stick the whole time. My hands curled up into fists and eyes shut, I couldn’t help the images that were now swirling around in my head. Mini Aru prancing around with their dad to Ariana grande and dua lipa and huge smiles on their tiny faces. I breathed out loudly as I stood up, taking one more deep breath before looking down at the pregnancy test that was sitting on the sink. 

Pregnant.

I couldn’t help the squeal that I let out upon seeing that word glaring up at me, and I didn’t care. I immediately lifted up my shirt to look down at my belly that didn’t look noticeably bigger than usual, but when I put my hands on it to caress it, I noticed that it felt slightly more firm than normal. I didn’t realize that I was crying until a tear fell onto my hand that was pressed to my stomach. This was something I’d been looking forward to for so long, and I couldn’t wait to tell Ari

Ari

He would come back in an hour from the hospital as he had multiple surgeries that day but I had to plan that surprise for him. The day that I have been dreaming of since I was 18 was here. Ari would be a dad.

Iwent to a nearby store and brought a tiny jumper that said "Dad's best buddy". The cloth and its softness made me tear up and think about the little bundle of joy me and ari made.

I put this in a little box and waited for Ari to arrive. I made his favourite jalapenos and cheesy nachos while waiting for him. I couldnt help but hum to weird soppy songs.

I heard Ari walk through the front door at that point and I couldn’t help but run towards him.

“Babyyyyyy!” I greeted him with a huge smile and a hug before he could even get his jacket off. 

“Hi there, love,” Ari laughed, surprised by this greeting and even more surprised that I hadn’t fallen asleep yet like I usually did when waiting for him to come home at night after his shift. “What’s this about?” He smiled, noticing the smell of his nachos and realizing how excited I was; it almost looked like I was glowing. 

“I just missed you and I really love you,” I told him sweetly. “Babyyy! Let’s go try my cooking, I just made them,” I added as I dashed back into the kitchen, and Ari tried to keep up with me. 

“I love you too,” he told you sweetly with a smile as I munched on my nachos. He’d had such a long day and wasn’t in the best mood before he walked in the door, but he now felt so content. That was one of the things he loved most about me, how I could always bring up his mood just by being myself. 

After scarfing down a few nachos and fanta, I finally took a deep breath and looked up at Ari, biting my lip. 

“Okay, whew,” I breathed out again, and Ari noticed my hands slightly shaking. 

“Babe, what is going on? Please just tell me what’s up, you’re acting so weird.. Are you having anxiety baby” Something about his soft tone of voice and the way that he was looking at me so sweetly made me start to tear up, and I couldn’t stop the tears as they now fell down my face. I sniffled as I walked over to pick up the box that was on the table, turning toward Ari. 

“What’s going on, my love?” Ari asked again, his concern growing. I smiled up at him, tears still streaming down my face as I handed him the box.

“Just open it, please,” I whispered. Ari took the box, looking as confused as ever, as I stepped away to let him open it. 

I crossed your arms and sniffled again as I waited nervously. 

Slowly lifting off the lid and then picking up the jumper that was folded up in the box, Ari unfolded it .

“What is this… Dad's best-” Ari cut himself off as he realized what this meant. Turning to me to find that the tears were now falling uncontrollably from my eyes, he found that tears were now suddenly falling from his own. 

“I’m gonna be a dad?” he whispered, almost inaudibly as he started slowly walking to me.

“You’re going to be a dad,” I whispered back as he engulfed me in one of his giant and tight embraces. 

“Oh my God, we’re having a baby. Oh my God,” Ari murmured over and over before kissing the top of my head and then picking me up and passionately kiss my lips. 

I started laughing, so happy and full of love for my husband and the growing life inside of me, and Ari started laughing too as he pulled away. 

“Fuck, I love you so much baby,” he told me before crouching down, lifting up my shirt as I had done earlier, and peppering my belly with kisses. “And I love you so much too, baby kaito.” he crooned, placing his hands on my stomach. I smiled, stroking his hair, feeling light and happy and loved.

“I love you so much, Ari. You’re going to be the most amazing dad,” I told my husband, who now looked back up at me, his eyes glistening. 

“I’m gonna be a dad,” he whispered to himself, and now he was almost full-on bawling.

“Come here,” I laughed, bringing him back up to my level. This time, I was the one to pull him in for a hug. And we both felt so loved in that moment, and felt so much love for each other and the little person who neither of us could wait to meet. Kaito

🤞🏻🤞🏻

[alynawrites]

To the 15 year old me, Hi!

I wish I could tell you about how things were going to be and how your life would change completely. The whirlwind romances and the heartbreaks ooof.

The irony is that the guy who called you Hannah Baker at your first meeting will eventually turn you into her; not just the hair part. You will get cheated on, have fake friends but it will be okay!

But couldnt you be strong and say no! Why did you have to endure that shit. The drugs, the parties. You didnt deserve that!

Why did you hold his hand after he hit you and abused you physically and mentally, made you faint from breaking down, forced himself onto you and made you do things you never wanted to do.

My baby you were just carefree not a slut, you ate with gusto and love and no you werent a fat pig. The people who called you chingchong will ask you to teach them years later. You will find your augustus waters and he wont leave your hand .

I wish I could tell you this sooner. So you didnt have to rely on those pills. You wouldnt carve into your skin with your blade everytime you shed a tear. You will embrace your sexuality and the news leaking out wont bother you anymore ...

You didnt have to look at yourself in the mirror covered in your blood waiting to die. You didnt have to do that baby. You are so precious. But life gives us a second chance uk and that is worth it

You will get out of that environment . everyone will help.

The emotional and physical abuse wont matter. All that there is in your life is love now. Trust me.

Please stay happy because we are turning 18 . And I refuse to sink this time. We will be happy and we wont waste this chance.

Life has so much to offer and I am so thankful

[alynawrites]

HOW HE EATS YOU OUT

His large hands trail your thighs as he kisses down your stomach. Using his hands to part your legs he places his lips on your thighs and kisses you softly! You can sense the heat rising to your face as you shut your eyes. He kisses on your clit slightly making you feel so ecstatic that you feel your wetness drip down your pussy lips. His tongue goes to work, running up and down, swirling around your clit. You let out a moan as it twirls faster.

His tongues plunges into you, coming out to suck on your clit, making you become louder and louder as your clit swells with the constant touch and stimulation.

He pushes his tongue in deeper making you squirm in pleasure and moan his name louder. You feel your orgasm approaching as you arch your back and feel your release fast approaching. You hold onto his hair harder and moan loudly when you are coming.

You release your juices into his mouth with your whole body shaking as you cum. He licks his fingers and kisses you, picking you up ans taking you to the bedroom for round 2.