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Guys i recover

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Being a fashion girly but not being skinny enough for the type of clothes I want to wear is one of the biggest struggles

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Cassie for the disord3r, pearl for the dreams, priscilla for the style, and Layla for the tapᡣ𐭩

୨girls picking a personality at 13୧

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Two weeks out of track, time to get up

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Sk1nny is pretty but it doesn't make me happy.

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I hate when mfs say “you don’t want a fast metabolism, it’s the worst.” As though I’m not literally slowly killing myself just to look half as skinny and pretty as anyone with a fast metabolism does.

“They called me a stick/skeleton!” I’m sorry that happened to you but I’m sure that’s not as bad as having sex for the first time with your first boyfriend and then he breaks up with you and proceeds to tell all of his friends, your friends, and people who you don’t even know that your body was so fat and disgusting that it made him want to vomit. The words that came out of his mouth were verbatim “Do you know how disgusting it is to have sex with someone and see their whole body jiggle?”

Yeah I’d rather be told to eat a burger than be humiliated like that again just because I’m overweight.

When you’re skinny, your body will always be in fashion. It’s why kpop idols go on extreme diets, it’s why tumblr was so popular in 2014, it’s why low rise jeans were ever a trend, its why Victoria’s Secret angels exist, it’s why d3@thsp0 is a thing, it’s why even when the kardashians made being thick the “beauty standard” that runway models never got bbls. Because skinny will always come back into fashion and will always be seen as beautiful, serene, divine, and feminine. And fat will always be seen as dirty, sloppy, ugly, and disgusting.

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Sorry for begin SO INACTIVE i have all the week of ch3@ts days, only bing3d two days but still so badly. I need gain control again.

(The good part is probably my studi3s will say I'm so h3@lthy and even 3@ting more than i should or something i hope they will put me on a d13t, I'm so delulu rn)

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Just my thoughts:

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Why I keep e@ting? Like really?

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looking in the mirror type shit these days..

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it’s never ending 🥲

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PERIOD C@LS DON'T COUNT!

(i bing3d so bad)

So, the period cravings aren't here, but...

I HAVE NO ENERGY TO WORK0UT 😴😪

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Day 4:

Ingest3d; 890

Burn3d: 50

(I was going so well... i didn't ruin it.. the only problem was i have a cupcake, well two actually... I'm not sure how many c it was so I'm not sure bc this is so close so... i hope i tracked it well...)

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being poor makes me hate wasting food, because my parents work hard, they make food for me, and i can’t even finish my plate. something’s wrong with me wtf. i always feel guilty and eat but then i feel guilty for eating, never ending cycle

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ughh daily struggle.