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something something “heaven” by mitski etc etc

details below the cut but they’re not hq bc i made this before i figured out canvas sizes on procreate lmfaooo

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artist : sybillgray

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Chapter 4: Promise Me?

Lost Time (A Walk to Remember AU)

It wasn’t cold yet, not really, the air already crisp but lacking a real chill this time of year. And still, Sirius shivered when Remus said, “Promise you won’t fall in love with me, or anything.”  And really, what a thing to say. 

There was an odd note in his voice when he said it, like even he was surprised to hear the words. The wind picked up around them, pushing Remus’s hair out of his face just slightly. Sirius wanted to brush it back down. He wanted to laugh, but felt like his throat was starting to collapse. He coughed again, then let out an entirely unconvincing laugh. The worst thing about it was he didn’t know what Remus meant. Don’t fall in love with me? Was it a joke? A warning? A pickup line?  Sirius didn’t know which option was worse. He hoped it was a joke, obviously he hoped it was a joke. That’s why he laughed; it was supposed to be funny, clearly. That Remus Lupin and his wacky sense of humor. Weren’t people always saying that? Sirius swore he’d heard that one before, probably. Somewhere.  Alright, so it was a joke. Not a funny one. But who could blame Remus? He was a strange guy, didn’t have many friends. Sirius couldn’t blame him for the odd joke. His heart was still beating too quickly. Sirius added that to the long list of things wrong with him: heart attack. He should really get his heart looked at; surely his dad had connections to at least one of the nation’s leading cardiologists. Because that was the only explanation for the way his heart was still racing, the way his entire body felt fuzzy, the way he suddenly noticed Remus’s long fingers and the particular curve of his lower lip. 

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The irresistible urge to make a playlist for every WIP.

This one is for Lost Time (and is still, itself, a work in progress).

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Hawaiian series of HP art 🏝️🦜 Sirius and Remus are having a great time (and sending letters to Harry by parrots)

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Ioanna Tsatsou, from a journal entry featured in Hours on Sinai, originally published in 1984

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Chapter 3: Honey, I Love You

Lost Time - A Walk to Remember AU

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Quick tips for writing kisses

⇰ the pause. THE PAUSE. like “are we doing this? oh god we’re doing this.”

⇰ looking at each other’s mouths like it’s a life-or-death decision

⇰ someone whispering “can I?” or “just once” before going for it and RUINING ME EMOTIONALLY

⇰ hands. gripping shirts. cupping faces. hovering like “do I touch?? I WANNA TOUCH”

⇰ breath hitching?? yes. shakiness?? absolutely.

⇰ that stupid moment where one of them pulls back a few inches like “wait are you sure” and the other just goes for it again

⇰ kissing like they’re scared it’ll be the last time

⇰ kissing like they’ve been waiting ten goddamn years

⇰ teeth clashing awkwardly and both laughing about it but STILL FEELING IT

⇰ one of them freezing for a second mid-kiss because the feelings just hit

⇰ the post-kiss moment of “uh. so. yeah.” where neither knows what the hell just happened

⇰ OR the post-kiss forehead touch. destroy me.

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Chapter 2: Everyone is Welcome Here!

Lost Time - A Wolfstar AU of A Walk to Remember

“Didn’t McG tell you? I’m your newest volunteer tutor.” Sirius plastered on a sarcastic grin and gave a weak thumbs-up. “I’m a model student now.”  Remus raised an eyebrow, but didn’t say anything. Sirius almost wished he would say something biting and sarcastic, like he’d done to Barty the other day in the cafeteria. For some reason, he wanted to hear what Lupin might come up with; wanted to see if he’d be able to make him laugh. Wanted to see his mouth once again fight back a grin, curling over his crooked tooth. But Remus said nothing. The silence was unbearable.  “I’m serious.”  “I know your name.” Remus wrote something down on the piece of paper in front of him. It was incredibly infuriating. Sirius used his right hand to push his hair out of his face.  “No, I mean, I’m really here to be a tutor. I’m paying my debt to society.”  He felt inexplicably happy to see Remus’s mouth twitch slightly at this comment, like he was carefully considering what he might say next. Sirius wanted to press further, say wilder and wilder things, until Lupin finally snapped and said something mean. It would be a kind of reassurance to know he was capable of it, that he wasn’t perfect. Finally, Remus looked back up to meet Sirius’s eyes.  “Well, that could take years.” 

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Wolfstar reunion 1979

Studied from a painting I saw on Pinterest

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the idea in question is now alive and in the world and still haunting me, btw

I think I need an exorcism bc I'm currently being haunted by my next idea in a way that is not healthy

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writer brain is like “what if this story was a metaphor for grief”

no babes what if this story was finished first

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this idea came to me and honestly wouldn't leave me alone until I started writing. then, once I started, the words just kept coming.

is this a bizarre sort of crossover? yes! am I terrified to venture into the world of writing a fic with the MCD tag? definitely! but, here we are.

may this find the three other wolfstar shippers with complicated relationships to faith who also watched A Walk to Remember religiously throughout their childhood. this one is for you <3

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“They’re just fictional characters” ok then why do I feel like their heartache personally cracked my ribs?

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Golden trio

It was the 90's! Yeah babe!

I read a head canon saying Harry hated tight clothes after his childhood with the Dursley, always wearing Dudley's too big for him stuff. So here he is in his baggy!

Hermione's in high colored outfit

And Ron with the inevitable combo backpack/army jacket.

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hiiiii this fic is now complete :) 

Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Harry Potter/Ginny Weasley Summary:

“What’s this then?” he hurls at her, angrily. “Is this the heat of the moment?” Ron gently, hesitantly reaches out to cup her cheek. Strokes his thumb along her jaw before dropping his hand back down to his side. “War’s over, Hermione. Can you honestly say you don’t want to kiss me again right now?” or: Hermione Granger & Ron Weasley kissed at the Battle of Hogwarts. Then Hermione left—and never came back. Four years later, they're forced to face each other thanks to the Quidditch World Cup... and Harry's scheming godfathers.