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When mum asked me to explain what an anxiety attack feels like, I didn’t really know what to say. How do you explain the urgent need to escape when there’s nothing you’re escaping from? The breathing so much you feel like you’re not breathing at all? the uncontrollable movement of your body- constantly twitching and shaking. Its a horrible sensation, and I didn’t know where to begin.

So I sent her this. This instrumental, although probably not intended to be, is my interpretation of an anxiety attack. 

The slow yet intense intro is the anxiety building. Before you know it the music intensifies dramatically- just like the peak of an anxiety attack.  The music slows down, as you slowly regain yourself. But the mood of the music does not shift, nor does the mood after an anxiety attack. If anything, you feel worse.

This music is my mind in the event of an anxiety attack. It scares me just listening to it, and funnily enough, makes me anxious.

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