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Cold as Ice

weather get cold, feelings gets colder.

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and every time you feel your heart is melting....you always thought its the one. you know its real, you just don't know that it wont last.

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Braver....

I am brave to walk away in the situation that isn't serving me good any longer.

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Oh hello

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🤣🥲

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‘Your Universe by Rico Blanco’

This is not the first time i heard this song, I never understood the lyrics back then. Maybe because I can’t relate to it….

Then 3 days ago i received a cover of this song from someone….. And it all make sense now. Every stanza of this song gives me comfort - that someone out there telling im precious where i think myself as the opposite of it.

“I don't think that you even realize

The joy you make me feel when I'm inside your universe

You hold me like I'm the one who's precious

I hate to break it to you, but it's just the other way around

You can thank your stars all you want

But I'll always be the lucky one”

These are the words that remarkably got my attention. His voice, how he strum his guitar, how he say every words with conviction. It has been 3 days but the song still plays in my head like I am part of the song. I guess I got to taste the sweet spike of love again.

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"Oh”

There comes a time when you don’t know what to respond to a conversation because you are out of word, your mind doesn't function or you just can’t accept the information that was given to you so you just respond with “oh” two letters not even a word with a meaning. 

Some conversation are really hard to swallow and digest its like there is a pain somewhere in your body, Heart or mind. I'm confuse it feels like its eating my entire body and soul that you feel weak and helpless like the daylight easily gets darker the more you think about it the more you see your self drowning all alone. It sad and depressing that you don't even know how to express it.

“Oh” its giving you comfort like “oh, I knew this day will come” “Oh you shouldn't open that conversation” “oh, I am regretting now” and “oh, its very painful to hear that”

I am manifesting that may the universe help me to not be in that conversation again where I feel weak and helpless that I don’t even have the courage to speak up. 

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Where?

Familiar with location but always don’t get the right directions.

Oh Life, where I'm I heading? I am once again went to a place where I am not sure about the destination. I actually have a map with me but this map I don’t know how to use it, is that even possible? I was so dependent on the familiarity but never realize that sometimes mind do forget the slightest details.

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Never too late

I feel like I need to let it out.

When I was a kid I have so many things I wanted to do, to achieve or to accomplish. Goals that I think or maybe will fulfill me at some point. 

As I get older, currently 25. I am stagnant. I don't know what I want. I don't know what are my goals. I am not sure where I am heading. I just keep going each day trying to do things that I know right for a current situation.

Last night I asked my boyfriend what his goals are. He is so certain with his answer. And I feel small, I feel attacked not by him but how people are sure what they want in life. I actually have few things in my mind but I'm not sure if I want them or I am just forcing my self to like them. 

On this current situation the only thing that is inevitable is change, Pandemic hits and It feels like everything that I ever wanted to do was clearly just wrote in the air and vanished just like that. Its so depressing to think of it. 

Anyway, now that I am writing this I am thinking that I wanted to start again..

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Tumblr. You are my safe Haven :)

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Coffee, Japanese food and you 💜

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The more you love the more it hurts

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having to come to terms with the fact that love is not an everlasting performance in which you attempt to retain the attention of your significant other but rather a release of control and putting faith into them and trusting them to choose to stay with you no matter what you have to offer

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You need to calm down

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'Dancing on the line of a dangerous love, You could break me overnight but there is no one like us insatiably insane equally exchanged' 🧡

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17/06/21

Here we go again, Almira

-SD

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Bei Na Wei, Visual Storyteller